#brownie carding

[insane-control-room]

dreams sometimes dont come to life

A short essay on why Buddy Lewek's characterization was the worst thing to happen to me during all my time of loving Bendy and the Ink Machine.

My excitement for DTCL was a simmering, cautious hope. 

A Jewish character? In a period right after WW2? Could there be, for once, proper religious representation in the media? My mind was full of ideas for how DTCL could approach his Yiddishkeit, how easy it would be for them! His name is Daniel? Have a cute little scene where he corrects someone’s pronunciation from DAN-iel to dah-NI-el. Negotiating to not work on Saturday, or feeling guilty or conflicted over it. Bringing home a nice tichel for his mother, who as a seamstress would appreciate fine fabric craftsmanship. Yiddish falling into conversation. A Rabbi mentor to show the difference between the two environments he was in. There were so many wonderful options, but I knew not to hope too hard. 

Just like the JDS itself, it was too good to be true. 

I had not read the book until today, because I had been gut punched by the information my friends had given me that there was hardly any mention of his Jewishness at all. The bite was worsened by it’s advertizing as a Jewish character. Which… barely.

The reality of the book hurt.

A lot.

So much so that it is what turned me away from the canon lore at all. 

I could not even read it because I did not want my disappointment to be worse, as it already stung like a wasp had managed to get into my heart. So for three years, this has just been sitting on my mind. This little nagging feeling of loss. The loss of something I never should have even hoped for.

But hey, we all want to be represented. 

It’s only so disappointing when it's simply a brownie card. 

I will go in order of the book of how it is written, and only focus on the Jewish side of things, despite my qualms with the writing itself as well, and other historical inaccuracies, and of those there are many. Nor will I mention my personal opinions on ‘shoulds and woulds’ of the personality of a Yid. No matter how hard that is for my critical mind. 

Right off the bat, we’re treated to the lovely Lower East Side! I have personal friends whose family is from that location during that time period, back when it was a whopping 70% Jewish population. Funnily enough, there is not a single reference to any synagogues or Yeshivot or klezmer bands or gemachs or… anything that was very prevalent in the area. In fact, it subtly pushes the whole concept of “Dirty Jew” in a way that tries to sugarcoat it with “look at how unfortunate Buddy’s situation is!” instead of the actual perceptions that have for so long followed the footsteps of almost any Jewish person. Antisemitism forced many Jews in the 1880s to move into slum like areas, and the entire conception had evolved from such a constricted environment. It is true that hygiene was an issue, however, when you take thousands of vastly poor, largely unsecularly educated, mass immigrants and try to cram them all in one place because no one could afford to travel- you get a lack of cleanliness. Such is life. The fact that the book does not touch on the reason aside from a causal reference that the people there were hard workers about a hundred pages later leans even heavier into that assumption. 

Assuming that Mr. Schwartz was Jewish (or even not) the garment industry of the time would not have cared if a delivery boy would have quit. There was, again, a massive influx of fresh and desperate workers who would work for little wages and long hours. It bothered me because one is to assume Mr. Schwartz was Jewish due to the time period and how prevalent Jews are in the garment industry, especially historically. During this time period especially, Jewish disunion in said industry were at record highs, so one person quitting would mean nothing. There would always be another person to fill the gap… and likely at a lower wage. 

Buddy’s knowledge of the war is also constantly shifting and disturbing in the way that it glosses over the Holocaust part of the Holocaust. He mentions that he knows about the War, hell, his father died in it, but he makes no reference to knowing why. In every single Jewish community, religious or otherwise, the Holocaust was a major issue. People excused FDR’s inaction due to the good he was giving to Jews already in America. Everyone knew about what was going on, even little kids. There is no reason he should be surprised about his Grandfather’s arrival. There is no reason that he would recognize his Grandfather’s accent, either, as there is no mention of anyone else with such an accent. As a child of immigrants, I cannot hear their accents, and that’s something I have noticed a lot of other first generation Americans do as well. So even if Buddy’s mother had a Polish accent, then it is still very unlikely that he would have recognized it. On the term of Grandfathers, how the hell does he not know the term Zeyde living in a community that, even today, dominantly speaks Yiddish? Especially considering the fact that Zeyde is a word that any schmuck off the street would know. 

Let’s consider Buddy’s nickname now. As Dot mentions, yes, Danny (pronounced dah-NI) or Dan would be more likely. But it’s because he was a little helper! Surely nicknames like Buddy would suit that purpose well! If he had been purely Polish, then maybe. But because he is a Yid in the LES, that is a hard no. The nickname would have been Ah klineh Menchie. A mensch is a boy that is very well mannered and always looking to help. Menchie is a very common nickname for such a personality even today. Being called “Buddy” makes no sense in such a community. 

The word “Jew” is not used in the book at all. There are only two uses of the word “Jewish”, all the way on page one hundred. Removing this from the book would have changed nothing. In fact, I would have found it a far more enjoyable read, reminding people that it was not just Jews who had been massacred and murdered in the camps. It would have gotten rid of the question. 

The question.

That question. 

“You’re Jewish, right?”

First and foremost, due to Buddy’s portrayal, Dot had absolutely no reason to assume that he was Jewish. Everyone knew that all those against the Nazis were put into the camps or simply murdered. This is what nailed the coffin shut for me. I wish they would have made him Polish, and Polish alone. I already knew what to expect thanks to my friend’s warning three years prior, but I still could not help but feel utter disappointment and hurt with Buddy’s defensive response. Defensive. This trait would not come up in Jews for many more years since the 1880s, all the way until the 1980s. As a frankly completely non Jewish boy who happens to have Jewish blood, he would have shrugged it off. Instead, the book uses both mentions of, not even Judaism, but Jewishness, to bring up antisemitism in a historically inaccurate and nauseating way. No Jewish pride. No casual agreement. Not even confusion before recognition. Defensive and angry. 

Soul crushing. My disappointment is immense and my lack of surprise is larger. 

Needless to say, my motivation to finish the book had been axed sharply, and the next chapter, chapter 10, was the last I managed to read with a critical eye, especially because it is the end of any possible hope. The rest of the book fails to have anything else historical or cultural of value. 

Buddy displays no Yiddishkeit. He does not wear a kippah, he does not wear tzitzit, he does not even recognize Yiddish. No kosher, no Shabbat, no chagim or zmanim. Hell, he eats out with Mr. Drew at a restaurant, and even if the steak somehow had been kosher, he eats cheesecake directly after. Nebach. No hashkafa at all.

The end of the chapter is what turned off my brain, however.

Using the term ‘Never again’ with said not kosher food. 

Well. 

Do I even have to explain how belittling that is? Do I have to say why this leaves me numb? Do I have to continue reading with thought, only for more pain?

Dai li. Enough for me. 

I finished the book. Of course I did. I haven’t left a book unfinished in years. 

The rest I read hollowly. There was nothing for me in it. It had an okay story, fine plot points, and tied into the game. More or less. Mainly just used the names and slapped on a BatIM sticker.

Dreams come to life, sometimes.

Not this time, Control. Keep dreaming. 

Thank you for reading this rant that has been on my chest for three years. 

#bendy and the ink machine #batim #batim opinion #jewish characters #jewish thought #jewish media portrayal #buddy batim #buddy lewek #dreams come to life #dtcl #garment industry #yiddishkeit #historical fiction #historical research #antisemitism #brownie carding

[hoofpeet]

Asparagus boy

#hoof draws #pokemon #<--contrary to most people apparently . i love bipedal pokemon #it's funny as hell to have a starter that's just a guy straight up #meowscarada would bake brownies in the middle of the night and wake you up to try them and steal your credit card #he's so funny 2 me..<3

[whatsthatmagiccard]

The last 'spot the fake' poll was fun, so here's another. 'Epithet' refers to the title after a legendary character's name: in the card name "Syr Konrad, the Grim", the epithet is "The Grim". All real cards are non-Acorn, non-Beyond, non-digital, and printed before 2024. Don't look it up beforehand, and don't spoil it for anyone else until the poll's over.

#mtg #magic the gathering #anyone who can name all the real one's full names without looking it up gets brownie points #and anyone who can make a custom card for the fake one gets. uh. cupcake points

[easeupkid]

it’s my bf’s birthday tomorrow and i’m soooooo excited to give him the card i made!!!!!!

#you guys may not know this about me but i LOVE making cards #i make my own envelopes and everything it’s a whole thing #and this is my fav one i’ve made ever!! maybe my best work to date i am so excited to give it to him!!!!!! #staying up until midnight (past my bedtime lol) to give it to him lol #EXCITED!!!!! #also going to make some brownies tonight and maybe get him flowers 🤔 if i can find some good ones

[nat-20s]

i don't really care about being a good employee but i DO care about being a good coworker. If I've worked at a job for months and I decide to leave and I don't get at LEAST one heartfelt card or going out for drinks or something I have failed

#god the last place i quit my coworkers where SO NICE to me!! #i got homemade bread and brownies and like $200 total that they gathered and like three different cards and hugs from almost everyone #i was like AWW YOU GUYS ;-; #i didn't realize i had made that much of an impact :') #if no one gets sad by me leaving this job im gonna pout for a week

[ohimsummer]

CATORU EATING

EAT EAT EAT EAT

#trading catoru themed posts like Pokémon cards #⋆⑅˚₊ hi logan .ᐟ #.𖥔 summy answerz .ᐟ ๋࣭ ⭑ #been inhaling ribs recently and I’m thinking of #you leaving your ribs unattended to for five minutes and come back to see him walking by with bbq sauce in his fur #so easy to tell when he done snuck and ate some shit it’s just in his fur #mouth stained red after he got in the red velvet cake batter #leaving his damned kitty footprints in my freshly baked brownies #⋆｡ﾟ☁︎ summy is thinking . . . ｡⋆

[steelycunt]

just got the shit beaten out of me by a one thousand piece jigsaw puzzle how have my tiny blogger friends been today

#had such a funday actually i. bought a stripy fun shirt for three quid from the charity shop which will look crackin with my dungarees n #me and my friend bought sushi and a puzzle from the charity shop and then we spent. four hours doing it and then two of our other #friends came around to make brownies and help up with the jigsaw for another. three hours before we gave up + played cards xx #missed my bloggerfriends hiiiiiiiii my lovelies xx #(ridi's) bigmouth strikes again

[toolazytodecide]

This or that game tagged by @daydreamingandprocrastination

painting or photography // dusk or dawn// spring or autumn // movies or tv shows // chocolate or nutella // audiobooks or podcasts // card games or board games // fiction or nonfiction // cookies or brownies // dragons or unicorns // bath or shower // blue or yellow // rollercoasters or bumper cars // iced tea or hot tea // left side of bed or right side of bed  // zip-up hoodie or pullover hoodie // straight hair or curly hair// gummy worms or gummy bears // rain or snow // sneakers or flip-flops // bowling or mini-golf // pasta or pizza

#Tag game #See the point is to be precise but i feel like explaining every answer #painting bc im an artist #dusk reminds me of my friend who really likes taking photos of sunsets #spring bc autumn is just sad and means the end of summer #also spring means the year is ending #here anyway #card games vs board games was the most difficult one but i feel like board games take a while wheras i play a lot of card games at work #and have a lot of fond memories of playing scum and uno with the kids #loving fiction is the foundation of my personality #my families go to recipe is brownies and we have a killer recipe #i like drawing unicorns for the kids but they are just horses with a horn #i cant be in a bath for more than ten minutes without getting dizzy #i didn't realize this wasnt normal and thought everyone just did it to kinda get high like i do sometimes #turns out i have low bloodpressure whoops #i picked right bc thats where i am rn but its more the edge i prefer #i dont love hoodies tbh #I have straight hair but i love curly hair #Sour gummy worms are the best candy #RAINNN #It's flooding here and im trying not to enjoy the sound of the storms too much bc people are like in crisis #not my city but nearby #i prefer boots and sandals but flip flops are useless shoes #just be barefoot #eh ive been bowling more recently but i like to use my walking stick as a golf club sometimes #most pizza is disapointing wheras idk where id be without pasta #theres this one pizza place tho in my hometown that is better than any pasta ive ever had #OH i forgot to explain a couple #im allergic to hazelnuts so nutella can suck my dick #also choc is my favourite thing

[ordenza]

going to take the evening off and prepare for valentine’s tomorrow 🫶

#i'm going to bake brownies make a restaurant reservation and make a card hehe 💘

[naomiknight-17]

I am craving greasy junk food so bad

I want McDonalds fries and donuts and fudge brownies and like. A big pulled pork sandwich

But I guess I will eat an apple with peanut butter instead

#i am hungry and craving all the wrong things #we already spent our takeout budget at tim hortons yesterday that's it #also i am supposed to be on a low card diet so burgers and fries and brownies are out anyway!! #ack! #get with the program body! #stop craving things we shouldn't have just because we're stressed and in pain!! quit it! #food #diet #cravings #ask to tag

[thcscout]

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#grow pot #Howcast #Legalize Marijuana #marajuana #marijuana #marijuana card #marijuana dispensary #marijuanna #Medical Marijuana #medicinal marijuana #pot #Pot Brownies #pot smokers #pot smoking #pot-head #Smoking Marijuana #smoking pot #spice #weed

[robertmatejcek]

Alchemy No. Two - 2.5″x2.5″ paper negative, kodak brownie hawkeye with inverted lens, caffenol developer - robert matejcek - 2022

"All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost; The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost."

- J.R.R. Tolkien - The Fellowship of the Ring

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#robert matejcek #photography #film photography #analog #alternative photography #alternative photographic techniques #paper negative #medium format #caffenol developer #ilford multigrade paper #kodak brownie hawkeye #flipped lens #inverted lens #artifacts #still life #vintage microscope #magician tarot card #antlers #diana the huntress #mythology #mythological #pseudoscience #pyrite #fools gold #experimental #art #my art #photographers on tumblr #dark aesthetic #dark academia

[sohyuki]

before i go to bed, let me introduce everyone to the fic opening i dreamt about last night: 

The Fatui has its shortcomings, Scaramouche knows this. Illegal research, extortion, the occasionally murder —  and those were just the things he did. There are ten other psycho maniacs working with him.

The Fatui has its shortcomings, but goddamn did they make the best brownies"

#mint.txt #fresh out of the REM cycle and i think of this #scaramouche + fatui brownies was not on my bingo card #n e ways i'm gonna go read orv <33

[pitrsattabhaadmeinjao]

just remembered my sister loves me and is grateful she asked for me to be born, day made.

#she sent over a cute ass orange cake with white flowers and it was vanilla flavoured #FROM A DIFFERENT CONTINENT #she even sent over a brownie and two cards and flowers and chocolate filled biscuits #AND she sent me three long texts that made me cry #even though like 85% of it was like our usual convos of lighthearted roasting of others but also it was so nice #i cried reading them

[ourobonez]

couple of holiday cards i made (not fandom posting ????omg)

#traditional art #watercolor art #mbzarts #Christmas cards #<- not correct . just for clout. #christmas #<- also for clout. give me holiday brownie points #artists on tumblr

[toastsnaffler]

auuuurghhhhhhhhh.

#i haaaattte having a bad time bc I want to be so bitter and mean and bitr everyone who irritates me the slightest bit #but I dont actually want to do that I want to be nice and accept the cards ive been dealt with grace and never outwardly show it #so many things that deeply affect me and probably will forever that werent my fault and that I cant change so i need to make my peace and #just work with what ive got but its so fucking hard and i wish i didnt have to i wish i could just be fucking normal abt this shit #i cant stop fucking thinking abt it theres so many things i want that are on the other side of an unbridgeable chasm. and might be forever #whatever. ill probablt feel better after i eat lunch and then im gonna bake some brownies and take a shower and its ok #it doesnt matter it is what it is #.vent