#body requires energy

[orphiclovers]

based almost entirely on vibes alone I headcanon the 999th turn was the first turn where Yoo Joonghyuk started experimenting with her gender.

She had lived a thousand lives. For the 999th round she had already decided to say 'fuck it' and do what she wanted, it was already a round unlike any other, so what's really to stop her from wearing a dress or changing her appearance? and in terms of yjh taking care of her companions during this round and being generally nicer, I think it fits if she was also presenting more femininely or taking on a more motherly role in the group.

anyway that's why kkoma 999 is so good at like, applying stories that change your face, because she already had practice.

(in terms of style, 999 definitely had a sort of a trad-goth look since Uriel was the one who introduced her to fashion. if you imagine they were together in this round this could even be a date)

#orv spoilers #trans yjh #yoo joonghyuk #omniscient reader's viewpoint #omniscient reader #ill draw her when i have the energy...i have so many ideas #do you guys remember that scene in chapter 424 where 999 changed dokjas appearance by rubbing her dumpling body all over his face #that was weird even for me #it did take time which implies it requires some skill and practice. hence the hc shes done it before #kinda like makeup I assume

[theartingace]

Idea: orchard harvester saddle. More of a standing platform with a scooter handlebar for the rider where the centaur can hand things up and down. (playing Farming Simulator is making me crave more peaceful/agricultural world building; there's already so much Warlike WB around, it needs some balance)

(also, eat like a horse vs eat like a bird, horse metab is high efficiency but a lot of it just due to net size, imagine that efficiency applied to refined grains and breads. Centaur diets would be less-per-weight than humans, although not necessarily by much due to the metabolic needs of sapient brain and foretorso)

Ohhhh I absolutely love this and absolutely think it should be a thing. I've been thinking more about the inherent benefits of centaurs in an agrarian society and more and more the borders of the Merchant city has been expanding outward towards the edge of Rider territory with enormous matriarchal farm towns that feed most of the surrounding societies so this would fit right in to that kind of lifestyle! And sounds so useful! One doing the moving and loadbearing, one doing the climbing and picking.

And I agree, war shapes societies undeniably but so many worldbuilders forget that trade, craft and industry shape cultures and societies just as much! It's definitely a topic i could GO OFF about haha, I have major exports and interrelated trade agreements drawn up between ALL my current societies 😁

(also absolutely, the use of refined grains and bread was a huge part of my initial thoughts about how centaurs could survive feeding that big horse body with comparatively small/limited human teeth. The efficiency of processed grain and grass fibers would be SO necessary to their digestion and overall survival!)

#asked and answered #centaurs #agricultural pursuits #i have DESIGNS #for the rural merchant centaurs #it started with designing their homes #and then turned into a whole matriarchal time share family system #completely unique from the city centaurs #of the merchant culture #also good food thoughts #feeding that high energy brain #AND #that big horse body #would still require a lot of food #but the magic of human intervention #is the power of processed foods #and the beautiful glut of calories they provide

[theangrypomeranian]

this is literally the worst week I could've gotten sick UGH

#pom ponders #caught a summer cold and I'm so peeved #all of my dog training classes require me to be agile and move around a lot #but I've been wearing a mask at work because i don't wanna ger anyone else sick #but i can barely BREATHE #and i wanted to write this week and was so excited about getting to walk to work #but being sick gives me zero energy to do anything but sit around trying not to DIE #i hate my body ugh ugh ugh

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

sitting on my bed while my room is a mess with a bunch of shit i seriously should do this weekend still on my list thought to myself "i'm so happy," then thought "why am i so happy," then remembered i just worked out. annoying :/

#i wish you could strength train upper body every day #it's my very favorite kind of workout and the only one i never need to talk myself into doing #and it fairly reliably boosts my energy #well. other kinds do too but they require a lot more inner discipline when i am sleepy

[sleep-nurse]

i feel so weak

#sunflower rambles #the fact that i have to do like 8 rows of stairs everyday #for school. to get in my class #not to mention the huge walk to even get to school #and the fact that i tend to move a lot in general at school to visit friends in other classes #that requires energy for my body #and the energy comes from food #that i am not giving it #and my body is already. terribly skinny

[thedreadvampy]

Ok so like my partner and their partner are moving today, right?

and my partner had top surgery like 2 months ago and their partner has injured their shoulder so I'm like ok I love to move boxes I am super happy to come help if that's useful? and they're like yes yes oh my god please cause we don't know if we've got the manpower to move anything.

so I go on Friday afternoon I am knocking off work early to help them move. I block out my calendar. I work longer days Monday-Wednesday to balance it out. I also have to leave work earlier than usual Tuesday and Thursday so it's a bit like ok I can squeeze this in if I use up all my TOIL from the last few weeks.

I have also turned down two different requests to hang out this evening bc I was like ok no I have plans that evening cause I'm helping people move

They started moving at lunchtime because that's when the friend with a van was available. Ok. I knock off work at 3 instead of 5 and I message to say ok you've been at this a while, do you still need me? My partner messages back and says yes, we've just got here we've not even started unpacking yet and there's more stuff left at the flat, come on down.

It's a 25 minute walk and when I get there the things remaining in the van and the car are:

a kettlebell

a single box

a small bag

so I take those up. then I stand awkwardly around in the living room while their very loud friend talks very loudly and nonstop until everyone is overwhelmed. there's a sofa that needs to come out of the flat because it's full of dog hair and my partner's partner is super allergic to dogs, so me and the loud friend carry that downstairs. my partner keeps trying to direct it even though that makes it WAY FUCKING HARDER. we agree with the van friend that he'll hang onto it for now and load it into the van.

then I go back up to the flat and stand around for 20 minutes

eventually I'm like ok is there anything. I could be doing here?

and they look at each other and they're like no. nah. we're done for today. We'll sort through our stuff and set up and you guys come back in a couple of hours and we'll go for beers

and ok like this is not anyone's fault but I'm so upset.

Like I have been functionally superfluous here. I moved two things that other people were already about to pick up, and I moved a sofa that would have got moved anyway (although Jay would have tried to move it. but frankly it doesn't seem like they've tried very hard to Not Move Furniture before that so who gives a shit?). and for that I have basically used up my whole Friday afternoon/evening and lost 2 work hours for what?

"come back in a couple of hours and we'll go for beers" I didn't sign up for beers! I booked out this evening because I wanted to do physical labour and move heavy things!!! I wanted to be helpful!!!! If I wanted to have a beer and socialise I would have taken up the several other offers of socialising this evening!!!! But I don't want to now because I'm so upscuttled and upset that I can't even be around people, I am sitting on the back step in my garden right now because there is a risk of encountering 1-2 people in my flat!!!!!

and I asked before I left work if I was needed for this exact reason! because I didn't want to show up hang around and leave!!!!!

and "oh so your Friday evening's free now"? It's NOT FREE I'm AUTISTIC it's DENUDED. I'm not doing the thing I was meant to be doing but my brain still thinks I'm meant to be doing it so I don't have the capacity to do anything else!!!!! I'm just HERE.

#red said #it's also like. i have been rushing around and dealing with people SO MUCH this week #i was really looking forward to this! i wanted to do pure body work for a bit that didn't require me to think or be social!!!! #like i hate it anyway when plans don't work out the way i think they will but i ESPECIALLY hate this #because i REALLY LIKE DOING MOVING STUFF #like it's legit one of my favourite things. i like being helpful in ways that don't involve emotional work. #i like lifting heavy things. i like packing stuff in the most efficient possible way. i like the physical work. #it makes me really happy and it makes me feel really rested and rewarded mentally #and it was exactly what i wanted to be doing this week and i don't get to do it!!!! #and the Is About Me? bit of my brain is so vocally indignant. like who moves house at lunchtime on a work day if you need help from friends? #which is totally irrational bc somebody else moving house is not about what's convenient for me #given that i don't have a van #but also it sucks!!!!! it sucks!!!!!! I've had a really stressy people-energy-y week and i wanted to lift furniture!!!!! #and i don't get to lift furniture!!!!!!!!!!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I love the imagery of the world encased during the activation of the infinite tsukuyomi. Unnatural brightness illuminating the gnarled branches and roots of a cursed tree encasing everyone in horrible pale cocoons. Imagine a world where that persisted. Eventually, you'd have the husk of that long dead tree full of bones and a proliferation of plants, fungi, and microorganisms

#bc i think it also hypnotizes animals? but like r fish under hypnosis? worms? bugs? #how far does the hypnotic ability extend? i like to think plants and microbes are immune #so you would just get a planet overrun by those guys #ugh. its so annoying that shippuden requires a premium membership on crunchyroll now #im out here watching boruto while shippuden is frozen in the infinite tsukuyomi for me lol #the imagry is just so cool. and its like that episode of the x files with the fungi lol thats kinda exactly what it is #bleh. i cant sleep so im thinking abt naruto. so it goes. i cant believe ive sustained this obsession consistently for over a year lol #naruto ramblings #someday ill draw 6 paths madara and the god tree in a way that cool and fucked up #bc i just love mokuton so much but planning that sort of thing takes so much energy. like i have a page in my prompt book for a garden #and i desperately need to make it a weird chaotic hashirama tribute. like fuse his dead body to a tree. but just the god tree would also b #good. ay so much to draw and im exhaust except is 3.30 am and i cant sleep rip #so im thinking abt ninja hypnotism #unrelated

[friendofthecrows]

Wish I had more of that stereotypical "refined genius psychopath mystery villain" vibes and less "dysfunctional no sleep cycle can't tell when/if they have emotions traumatized mess doesn't feel like a human paranoid future true crime psychopath" vibes. So that was word salad. Moving on.

#i have been described as a genius but unfortunately the #aspd and other mental illnesses mess with my impulse control and risk vs return and energy/motivation levels #so it kind of gets in the way of showing off my intelligence most of the time #which probably makes me less insufferable but also leads to some people underestimating me #or just thinking of me as too much of a mess in general #both of which i hate #and when it comes to the 'coolness/sophistication factor' vs 'unfortunate creature that needs to stop interacting with humans vibe' well. #trust me i would go into seclusion for the rest of time if it was financially viable and if #my various projects didn't require working with other people #ugh I'm not really that upset today I'm just frustrated by my brain #also my body and other people and the universe and the concept of time but that's a whole different subject #sometimes the stars align and it's like the best aspects of everything 'wrong' with me are displaying at once #and i actually feel like myself and like myself #then something shifts idk but the worse things start showing again and the best bits lose some of their influence and #suddenly I'm struggling to get through a day with a decent level of functionality and without engaging in destructive behaviors #the AND is very important because i can usually do or. At least i have that i guess #today i don't feel like a person i feel like a poorly written character who's been brought into real life #only to find out that when faced with normal everyday problems #their fucked up little traits are way more of a disadvantage than they thought #i could probably blame it on the trauma or the aspd or a million other things #but maybe it's just because i am the person i am #and idk how to feel about that #just want the stars to align again

[riverofrainbows]

TW: i will be talking about food and nutrition and disordered eating, please keep scrolling of you are not up for that right now.

I somehow landed on the "healthy eating nutritionist" side of insta, and omg what fucking problem do these people have with sugar. "Wah wah there is juice concentrate in my baby snack that's so evil" it's a sweet baby snack with fruit what the hell did you expect.

And a lot of the "nutritionist advice" is generally not bad advice and probably helpful while on the journey of recovering from an eating disorder, but it's always only half way there while still incorporating ed motivations around eating. "If you want to eat the cookies you can pair them with addition filling snacks". Like this is probably good advice for people recovering from binging and i am glad if it's helpful for that, but it's still kind of disordered eating. You can just eat the cookies if you want what's bad about that. "You might quickly be hungry again" well then i eat more because evidently i didn't eat enough today. "This food doesn't have many nutrients but it can still be a part of a healthy diet" well sure but why are you still treating the muffin like it's a criminal. It also implies that there is an evil amount of muffin we need to moderate to avoid. "Here is a healthy snack" shows a low carb high fiber lowish fat snack. Why would healthy always involve a low caloric food every single goddamn meal. Also how the fuck is anyone supposed to take in enough calories if every meal is lentils and salad. It's the same logic as in other common diet tipps that's so utterly baffling to me, when people try to replace higher calory food with low calory substitutes. Because then i will just have to eat more to get enough calories???? It just means i ate a meal almost for nothing. Why are you disrespecting all the work your ancestors did to provide you with food options that give you enough calories in one meal instead of 1½ meals and a snack of zucchini pasta??? I'd have to spend double the amount of time eating.

I would love some nutritionist reels on how to make sure you get all your nutrients and enough of them more easily, but that's never the point. I have such trouble getting enough food in me because i barely have access to convenient ready made food nor energy to make myself food, and here are these people jumping through hoops to make sure they make nourishing themselves harder than necessary while claiming not to promote disordered eating (even if they are a lot better that full blown eating disorder promotion).

#own post #cw ed #tw diet culture #istg if i hear one more person say that a cookie has 'no nutrients'. it is FULL of nutrients it has a high density of carbs and fats!! it #might not have fucking vitamins but you can get enough vitamins even if you don't eat 300% of the recommended daily income with every meal #the vitamins wont fuck you so stop praising them like the second coming of jesus and leave me the fuck ALONE with your stupid misnformation #do you know how much i wish i could just go to dunkin donuts and eat three donuts and have my caloric intake covered for that meal #instead i need to cook a high fat sauce (but not too high fat or i get git issues) and a very big portion of pasta and eat all that it #takes for fucking ever and i can't do it on the go #and i need to figure out how to put enough fiber and protein in my diet too because i can't eat most affordable protein around yet have the #required intake of a weight lifter it's so stupid #eating is so exhausting and i get so angry at all these people demonising carbohydrates aka the most accessible calory for your body #like yes make it even harder who needs energy anyway

[reitziluz]

what do you mean writing a post takes actual real time. feels like it should b illegal. i meant to do some chores before having my afternoon snack!!

#guess i'm doing the chores after the snack then #tbh i'm p sure part of the current mood episode is a feedback loop spiral #between the lost appetite #the enormous energy requirement this furnace of a body has #and how i got a curse where constitution saves against hunger convert directly into psychic damage instead #and boy is my con modifier high

[mikesbasementbeets]

had a really annoying day at work today. gonna make some gifs as a form of therapy

#too much annoyed energy in my body im going to channel it into precise detail work goodbye #also anyone know of a job that doesn’t require you to toil your life away 40+ hours a week for your entire adulthood? lmk #beets posts

[valentineish]

If life really needs to subject me to constant terror and existentialism, it would be nice if it could like. Space it out a bit. Maybe schedule in a couple vacations and weekends? I'm really trying to be reasonable here

#good news: no longer worrying if my apartment is kicking me out #bad news: disability got denied and requires organizing for legal action #all while my mom's mind and body is shutting down from a rare disease and i'm the only one taking care of her #none of this feels fucking real and i don't know how to allocate my limited energy to all of it #i was sad for like 12 hours and now i'm just increasingly more furious about everything that allowed this shit to happen #ugh #cat-astrophes #open mic night

[jo-dracona]

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#the MOMENT I’ve got the spoons #and the time #I am seeking medical intervention to stop my body #from repeatedly spending like 5% of the nutrients and energy required to make 1 offspring #FOR NO FUCKING REASON #IM NOT HAVING ONE STOP DOING THAT #AND STOP FUCKING UP MY NEW CLOTHES WHILE DOING IT YOU BASTARD #I need that iron and the baby you’re setting it aside for is fucking imaginary #biting ripping tearing killing

[lcpmon]

anyone that thinks either of the twins eat well is wrong. neither of them know how to live a healthy life.

#lngo hasnt stretched once since school. neither of them have #their bodies are in shambles #fast food for lunch and take away 4 dinner (when they remember) #microwave meals other days or quick dishes over the stove #once. ONCE every blue moon they will attempt to cook but its rare #to me they have looney toons logic when it comes to strength and agility. they can only perform things that require energy like that when #its funny #gilly speaks

[tvrningout-archived]

i’m sorry y’all, but i’m gonna put messages off until tonight or tomorrow bc my brain feels so full of cotton rn ;; i’m gonna take it easy and work on my connections page and maybe drafts if i can. thank you all for being patient with me <3

#i'm sorry bc i know i said i was gonna be around but i also wasn't expecting to feel like this today ;n; #the medicine i took has helped but it's kind of hard to be motivated or concentrate very well at the moment #so i'm gonna try to do things that don't require very much mental/social energy for now and see how i feel tonight #pls know i'm dying to talk and write!! i just need my body to cooperate with me first #get ready to ramble | ooc #tbd

[explode-this]

Time for everyone’s favorite game show, Are The ADHD Drugs Still Working Or Am I Just Especially Depressed?, which may or may not feature the concluding sudden death showdown, Will Your Doctor Listen This Time Or Just Suggest Taking Vitamin D?

#my body is still but my insides feel like they’re thrumming with energy that has nowhere to go #I’m afraid to move in case the thought I’m trying to capture flits off like a butterfly #I’m also afraid to move because there’s this whole hernia situation #I’m also out here in the shadow of the valley that is ‘surgeon won’t schedule surgery until BMI is reduced’ #which puts me in almost a permanent state of waiting mode #because it’s not that I’m incapable of following a low calorie eating plan #in fact I’m actually kind of great at it which is the horrible part #because all the eating disorder goblins just start acting up like ‘yasssss it’s our time again’ #and like no it isn’t you little shits #we’re done with that shit fr #but because of the adhd it does require logging and vigilance so i don’t eat something and forget #and also it’s not possible to get a good grade in Diet Culture but oh boy #don’t tell my brain that #it wants to put an apple on that motherfucker’s exam table #FUCK #you ever overcome something and then have the medical establishment want you to have it again? #which is why eating disorders are adjacent to our society’s conception of addiction #except no doctor is going to prescribe drinking to excess or smoking or doing whatever drugs #but they WILL prescribe anorexia #fuck i hate this i hate it i hate it i hate it