#bitches in a loving way of course

[lovearsonist]

when will old ladies staring at me on the street realize i am not their target audience. i dress for mcr fans (the lgbtq community) and the girls

#so many old women looking at me up and down #i dress for the bitches who love space and cannot breathe without black nail polish and eyeliner #bitches in a loving way of course #mcr #my chemical romance #lgbtq community

[aquickstart]

ok sure i'll talk about farleigh start. i'll talk about his tragedy of never being enough as it were and then having to deal with fucking oliver. sure. disclaimer: it's about class (and race) and the horrible reality of the rich. the horrible reality of living as farleigh.

another disclaimer: i'm white! and poc definitely pick up on everything i'm talking about here as it is, and better. i was and am specifically interested in farleigh vs. oliver but it's impossible to examine without considering race. definitely let me know if anything abt this sucks!

farleigh and oliver are similar. it's annoying because every intruder that is not himself is annoying, partly because felix's attention swaying from farleigh is dangerous; there is always a threat of being discarded, even if no precedent existed. the potential is terrifying.

but you'd think he's seen this before, every summer (if venetia is telling the truth) or at least often enough to learn to recognize it fast, so he should know this will pass. part of it is i think still the deep anxiety, and i think he hated every boy that was there before, and it is sort of routine.

but definitely a huge factor in farleigh's annoyance is the fact that he's a biracial (black for cattons, that's all they see) man in a white rich household. he's alert and exhausted all the time. of course he's angry at oliver, regardless of whether he's the first to crash at saltburn for the summer or the fifty-first.

but the important thing is this.

farleigh is very jealous of and angry and pissed at oliver because farleigh sees all the similarities between them. outsider, in financial trouble, whatever it is, in need of cattons; and yet oliver is preferred. and farleigh seems to be the only one to really consider it. felix does not pick up on the hint when farleigh brings up the birthday party vs. his mother. felix's clumsy "different or... anything like that" is as much about race as it is about class, of course. the "we've done all that we can" bit is felix absolving himself of guilt because surely they had, surely the mysterious collective cattons that he's not really part of had tried all they could do. to him, farleigh is different from oliver, because farleigh has been helped. felix is rich and white and twofold uncomfortable with farleigh, even if he's nice about it, even if he genuinely enjoys his company; he doesn't look too close at farleigh because he feels too guilty to come too close. and farleigh can't do anything about it. he can't nice himself into it. the fucking tragedy of him is that he's never enough in the world of the ultra-rich white, even if (especially because!) he's born into it.

farleigh is very pissed at oliver because farleigh also sees all the differences between them. you know who can be nice poor white enough to fit in? fucking oliver. felix says "just be yourself, they'll love you" when oliver first moves in. farleigh was also probably told the same thing, and felix also probably believed that farleigh could just be himself, but even if the cattons were magically not racist at all (impossible), it wouldn't make a difference to farleigh. he would still self-censor, keep in check, be in dangerous waters (because racism is not just about the individual, but about the system). we see that he'd won himself leeway by years of trial and error by the way he speaks to the family, but it's still within the boundaries of acceptable, built by the cattons. he's part of them because they allow it, and farleigh is very, very aware.

the annoying thing is oliver can be himself. like, truly, genuinely, he can just be. and farleigh can't help but envy that.

as a side note, oliver is obviously jealous of farleigh in the beginning as well, because regardless of the reality of farleigh's situation, he was born into it, and hence, at least in oliver's mind, has his position solidified. oliver's whole thing is unquenchable thirst and hunger for whatever and everything the cattons have (including themselves!). he wishes to have been a catton from birth. to oliver, at first, there's nothing farleigh can really do to lose it. and until he figures out the cattons completely, he can't help but envy that.

but i think farleigh senses something different about oliver early on. at least on the level of the text, we have "you're almost passing [for] a real, human boy", which is so important because farleigh is the first to point out oliver's weirdness. the next to do so is venetia in the bath scene calling him a freak, but it's too late. farleigh is too early.

and i like to think he clocks oliver too early because he sees the jagged edges that he recognizes in himself. i think that one other thing that farleigh envies is oliver's freedom to let go. freedom to let go is very similar to freedom to be, but not quite the same.

to be is about perception: farleigh knows he cannot fall out of line, but would like to, and oliver does not have to worry about it at all (i mean, he does, because oliver also performs for felix, but farleigh doesn't know that).

to let go is about the self: farleigh is too scared to even want what oliver eventually does, to even consider the possibility. oliver can let himself want. oliver can let himself act. oliver just can do things and want things. i'm not sure farleigh can.

and so in this scene, when oliver's wants and actions have landed him nowhere with farleigh, felix, venetia, the cattons, of course farleigh gloats. he can let himself do that, because if the cattons are slowly discarding him, farleigh can allow himself this one small victory. he's relieved because despite the dangerous similarities, oliver is, thankfully, not really the same as farleigh, right?

but like. this movie is a love letter to all things gothic. oliver is a white man. he prevails. the brief performance that oliver put on did eventually end up more effective than farleigh's lifetime of constraint. my heart fucking breaks for him to be honest.

the issue that remains is the fact of farleigh's survival. i like to think that oliver came to respect him. oliver is smart, but farleigh is clever. he picks up on everything oliver does (to refer back to the karaoke scene, farleigh immediately retaliates in the cleverest way, in the moment), and he's the only one to do so consistently (venetia, again, for example, comes close, but too late; oliver doesn't like that, there's nothing to work with). hence, stay with me for a little longer, the paradox: farleigh survives because he was never enough for the cattons, but he is very worthy of oliver's attention. in his own freaky way, oliver wants him. look at that.

so. farleigh. farleigh might come back. he always comes back. and i think oliver wants to try harder next time.

#saltburn #farleigh start #i think someone mentioned how the race commentary was fleeting in that scene abt his mom but i disagree #it runs thru the whole movie #because oliver is white and because they're pitted against each other #im not saying its the best commentary ever and also like the movie is not about it at all #but it's there and it's pretty prominent #also on a completely different note can we talk about how oliver correctly assumed everyone at saltburn desires him carnally #dude pulled all the bitches by being strange and off-putting. i mean i completely get it. completely get it. i'd fold so fast you've no ide #also while i was writing i realized that yes indeed both farleigh and oliver perform for felix and its so fascinating #and it works for oliver because of course it does because hes white #anyway! again! let me know if this sucks #in like any way at all #i needed a masterpost of all and every thought i have about farleigh #i think this pretty much covers it so i'll let it go now #HES SO. like do you UNDERSTAND #the DEFINITION of doomed by the narrative but i LOVE that he survives #as he SHOULD #emerald is so right. he does come back and quickstart just torture each other in that house forever. besties for life #god im gonna shut up now this is so horrendously long #mine #saltburn journaling

[bumblingbabooshka]

My name is [BRUTUS] and my name means [HEAVY] so with a [HEAVY] heart I'll guide this dagger Into the heart of my enemy

Something about having absolutely no choice in who you marry. About being literally forced by the law to spill blood - to accept this stranger as your husband over a man you truly care for or accept the fact that the man you love might die because you put him in danger. Something about risking becoming the wife of a man you've never even seen before a few minutes prior because you know anything would be better than putting your beloved in harm's way. Something about the trust inherent in that decision and in the way she speaks of it after. Truthfully, T'Pring doesn't know the captain and she doesn't know Spock. Either one of them could have taken her as their wife but she does know Stonn. She knows that Stonn will remain by her side no matter what. They made a plan together. They have an agreement which T'Pring believes will be upheld even though the plan changed with the arrival of Kirk. Stonn will always be there, always, and Stonn will be hers. Something about the language used around T'Pring: Ownership, subservience, non-personhood. T'Pring is an object that Spock can win. She cannot reject him, she has no say in the matter other than having Stonn 'claim' her instead. Even when Spock leaves after being very clearly rejected by T'Pring he says "Stonn, she is yours." as if despite her clear rejection he still owns her and is must formally 'give' her to Stonn. But the language T'Pring uses around Stonn is a break from that: "There was Stonn who wanted very much to be my consort, and I wanted him." Stonn who wanted very much to be HER consort and she WANTED him. The language here is very particular - It's not, for example: "Stonn wanted me to be his wife" - he is HERS. And she WANTS him. There's a mutual affection there and a strong trust - a trust which seems to be well founded since Stonn (though silent) stands by her side at the end of the episode. <- That might seem small but if Spock would reject her for 'daring to challenge' (again, the language is not 'because I don't want you' but more of an implied disgust at her having the AUDACITY to reject him) then it's not a stretch to assume that it'd be considered an insult in the TOS Vulcan society to NOT choose Stonn as her champion after a prior agreement. Anyway T'Pring was a woman in an impossible situation within a society which saw her as more of an object than a person and she wanted Stonn and Stonn wanted to be hers and she trusted that he would understand if she had to publicly pick someone else to ensure his life would be spared and he did understand.

#amok time #T'Pring i s....T'Pring she....-puts my head through a wall- #PLEASE read under the cut for my rambling about T'Pring in amok time pleasepleaseplease #tired of 'T'Pring is evil/a bitch' and VERY uninterested in 'T'Pring is a girlboss' #T'Pring is a person in a society which doesn't think she has the right to make her own choices who's in [love] with a man who [loves] her #back in what I'd like to think is implied to be a slightly subversive way in its mutual and fervent nature (whether the writers thought #this was a good or bad thing - who knows. We know better RIGHT??) #and yes I will stylize T'Pring's hair differently every single time I draw it HEHEHE #star trek tos #Spock #T'Pring #also of COURSE something something spock/kirk & stonn/t'pring parallels: To keep your beloved safe you have to force someone else to kill #theirs - not BC you hate him (you don't) but you don't love him either and why does HE get to have you even if you don't want him?? Why doe #he get to 'give' you to the person YOU chose?? It's not a hatred on a person level (which I wanted to portray with the 'brothers') portion #but a sort of societal embodying. #I will think about T'Pring not wanting to be 'the consort of a legend' every damn day !!! #They really could have laid it on thick in making her evil guys...T'Pau even makes a comment about Spock's 'vulcan blood is thin' #but all T'Pring says is that Spock is a legend and she doesn't want that for her life. She wants Stonn. #And you're gonna sit there and you're gonna tell her that she's wrong!??? Spock doesn't even want to be with her!! Why is she so hated!? #CAN WE FREE MY GIRL??? She did all that but it's being read in the worst faith possible!! #comix #bea art tag #star trek art #She literally says the word 'FREE'...she's TRAPPED!!!

[theprodigypenguin]

Young Sabo was such a little shit and I'm in love with the idea that he maintains being a little shit even through his amnesia, and his first meetings with all the Rev Higher ups basically start antagonistic like Sabo meets Belo Betty the first time and is like "wow what an ugly bag, I didn't know they let grandma's in the army!" And Betty just "damn i can't believe I have to kill this kid" but he's also stupid endearing like "being a flag bearer must be really difficult, I hope I can be as dependable as you when I'm older" and Betty "damn I can't believe I would kill for this kid".

#the revs love their stupid blond bitch boy so much #sabo can take care of himself of course but god help you if you upset him in some way #one piece #sabo #revolutionary sabo #revolutionary army #chief of staff sabo #belo betty #found family

[rainymoodlet]

the progress of this Damn Game™️ inspiring me to create a dynamic in wickedwhims’ settings for the first time ⛓️

#ts4 #ts4 gameplay #ts4 screenshots #ts4 legacy #;tjol+ #sim: ivory #sim: eva #|| #this is exactly how it went fhdhs #let me tell you i’m a decent ways ahead of this in-game and a ‘no jealousy’ dynamic is SO cute #they’re all so affectionate w each other it’s precious #but yeah everyone?? everyone loves cassandra #bc of course we do #ivory said HELL YEAH BITCH GET THAT ***** 🐱 #also this was 100% an excuse to show eva in various states of undress #she’s just too hot i’m 🥵 #ivory looks so good and confident in that last cap she really us embodying all the stem energy in the workd #world too** #we love that for her #GO GET THAT PILLOW PRINCESS 👑 #sim spice /

[asmo-cosmetics]

when i say i ship asrian what i need you to understand is that i mean i want asra to apologize and beg for julian back. possibly in messy tears

#you can't convince me he wasn't the shittiest most manipulative awful boyfriend ever. no one understands me #as always debate and arguments are not welcome on my posts and you will be blocked #but like. listen ok. my headcanon is basically that they were fwb (for a rlly long time) #and julian fell in love with him because of course he did #and asra knew even before he ever admitted it because julian is obvious af #but asra was essentially just using julian and specifically dominating julian as an outlet to feel powerful #so the whole dynamic was basically humiliating for julian because they both knew that he loved asra and they both knew that asra #was using him for sex #but then asra actually did slowly start to fall in love with julian #which julian would obviously never notice because he hates himself #so it was pretty easy to hide. so asra hid it because he hated the thought of being vulnerable in front of julian #and then eventually let julian leave him with his whole dramatic shit of 'asra you deserve better' #and he couldn't say anything because he knew it was his fault #because that was what asra had made him believe #and then finds a way to twist it in his head to basically what he told mc in julian's route #that julian was 'deciding what's best for him' #instead of admitting that he was in love but he couldn't admit it because he thought he was above someone like julian #asrian #the arcana #wank // #<- i don't really see it as wank but i also really do not want asra stans bitching on my posts 🙏

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

okay but the realization that Howdy is actually a little bit of a scoundrel? a scammer even?? was like the BEST part of the update for me!!! his got a bit of spice to him i like that!

idk if it’s just me but it feels like it’s very important that Eddie was the only have like a extra audio thing on his character sheet in the neighborhood besides Wally and the You page?? like that feels significant somehow right??

i just really loved both Howdy and Eddie in these updates they were so great

GOD i know i know he's got some Kick to him! he's got Flavor! i love how he turned the common perception of his character on its side - everyone expected him to be wholesome and helpful and sweet, and then the update came in with the fuckin steel chair-

hmmmm i can see both sides of the beetle on Eddie's bio - the significance, and the possibility of it just being There because most pages had 1-2 bugs, and the audio was about Eddie. but ALSO its so so likely that is Was significant! i honestly thought so as well!

i mean, the beetle is very uhhh, Valentine looking? the prevalent heart shapes, the soft pink-yellow-white coloring, plus its an audio centered on Eddie and Frank. we already know FranklyDear is going to be an established Couple - so i'd agree that the significant is There! and if we lived in an alternate world where we didn't know about FranklyDear, we'd all be losing our collective shit over this and theorizing the hell outta it

#SORRY I DID NOT SEE THIS ASK!!! #im going back through to see what i can answer that Doesnt have a scribble idea attached/prompted #i remember making a sort of delighted Suprised Pikachu Face listening to howdy's audios for the first time #bc like wow! yeah! hes a bit of a menace! #how did we not see it coming... hes a Salesman... of course hes Like That lmfao #of course hes gonna scam them! everything is already technically free and its not like theres any other way to get their goods! #he might as well have fun with it! thrifty bitch (affectionate)! #rambles from the bog #and how eddie is a totaly sweetheart and so helpful and a complete pushover- #ok not a Complete pushover #but its obvious he has an extremely hard time saying no and feels obligated to do whatever is asked of him #i hope this bites everyone in the ass. i hope the neighbors stretch him so thin he snaps <3 #i want to see/hear eddie go the fuck off on someone <3 #i love it when sweet doormat characters Lose It <3

[thedvilsinthedetails]

goodnight tumblr

Fair warning the ramble in the tags is long af

#Quick thought before I drop dead from tiredness #I love my friends #and I kind of #I really love my life right now #Which is weird bc it’s actually really stressful time and I’m not really doing well but #I have friends #Good friends #and my blog #and I feel like a person again #I feel like I’m finally getting back to ‘me’ if I hadn’t been ‘best friends’ with a toxic bitch #She basically shredded my self esteem #Two years of that shit messed me up man #Not to mention my mother #But I think I’ve gotten to the point where I’m able to separate that shit from who I actually AM yk #And man I fucking love my friends #Both on and offline #But irl/in school friendships were something I was struggling with #And #yk it was fucking worth the wait #I love them so much #im so #fucking fucking glad I know them #Yeah #Of course I’m petrified of losing them like everyone else #But for once I don’t THINK I will #I’m not going into this with some morbid sense of doom #My ‘six month expiry’ date is not gonna expire bc im manifesting my way thru this shit #Anyway goodnight sorry for the ramble

[tin-can-iron-man]

I just. I love my dad so much guys

#MAN OF ALL TIME he's so fuckin rad #he came over to help me set up my desktop (got a pc btw) and funniest man in existence here he touched my desk saw it wobble and went ''NO' #came back with his tools and an office chair for me because he saw the chair I was gonna use and went :/ #this man brought over an ENTIRE TOOLBOX just for me because I cannot for the life of me find where the old one went and just. fixed the des #that I had been struggling with for about eight months at this point. in like twenty minutes. and then set up my desktop for me #he also brought over a webcam and microphone without any sort of promoting just because he knows I do discord calls with my friends and gf #also I dug out the instructions for the desk and before I could even hand him the paper he was like ''so this is how we fix this'' #and then fixed it and was like ''yeah you did that wrong but you were close'' #and then was like ''dont buy furniture and stuff without letting me know first what you want I'll keep an eye out'' #and I was laughing being like ''I didn't want to come to you every time I need something because I want you to see me as independent'' #and he went ''you live by yourself of course I see you as independent'' and my bitches the way I almost cried right there #just. idk something something the way my families love languages have always been acts of service and gift giving #and my dad insisting I should rely on him more and giving me stuff I wanted but don't have without EVER TELLING HIM I wanted said things #just. my dad is so cool guys #sorry I saw my computer set up vibing on my desk and got completely overwhelmed #ignore me #not marvel related

[invinciblerodent]

oh sometimes i'm overcome with the realization of just how sentimental a bitch i am

like i really am straight up just playing make-believe with these characters like they're digital barbies

okay so in Iona's inventory, i've had this necklace

since very early in act 1.

it was in Aradin's chest at the Grove, and it was the first thing "we" managed to get with the "I distract them with conversation/busking and you steal everything that isn't nailed down" act/trick I had thought up for her and Astarion. I thought it'd be kinda cute for him to, at the end of this test run, present it with a ~theatrical flourish~ once just out of earshot of its original owner, and for her to ~graciously allow~ him to drape it around her neck, as a hamfisted and silly act of mock-courtship they both know is false. (it was kind of a... "we both know what this is all about and where it's headed, but wouldn't it be fun to play make-believe and pretend it's something entirely different" type of thing.)

I thought it'd be cute, if a touch bittersweet for her to keep it, just slotted away in her little "sentimental items" pouch, like.... next to the dog toy, her old wedding band, and the other useless junk she couldn't bring herself to throw away or sell.

and then today, i found this as I was selling stuff in the Glittering Gala.

it's the same design. and i like to describe Iona's eyes as "amber" when I write about them (they're kind of a reddish/yellowish, pretty medium brown). and she looks much better in golds and reds than she does in blues and silvers.

so. um.

guess who got this bloody thing "sneaked" into her inventory at the long rest.

if you think i won't 1.) exit a trading screen abruptly, 2.) switch controlled characters, 4.) buy a silly and utterly useless junk item AS that character (thought about just picking her pocket but.... we have 35k gold. why would i.), and 4.) keep it in that character's inventory until it "seems like" the PC isn't "paying attention", and then 5.) drop it into their inventory "unnoticed", all for LITERALLY NO GOOD REASON other than just to act out a silly little gesture and support the little fanfic in my head, well.

you'd be very wrong.

((and i was grinning and giggling downright embarrassingly the whole time too))

#squirrel plays bg3 #oc: iona raedir #“astarion isn't the type to do romantic gestures” false #“he does big thoughtful acts of courtship and sweeps the pc off their feet” also false #it is my belief that he isn't the type to do Big Flashy Romantic Things #and is also not the type to be vocal about them #my headcanon is that he'll do the Big Declarations and Theatrical Displays when he's taking the piss in some way #as in he'll joke and play at- and exaggerate courtship when it's all for fun and show and means nothing or very little #but when it's supposed to actually MEAN something; when it's REAL; then the ways he shows love are both small #and done without fanfare or expecting acknowledgement #not even making the slightest effort to keep hands to themselves even in public is fun of course; but the love? #that's in... a pilfered piece of that fruit she likes found randomly in her pack. a swift dagger batting aside a blade meant for her ribs #a small scratch of a pen's tip subtly marking a sweet passage in the book she “borrowed” from him #or in this case; it's something that she found among her things and put on without making a fuss about it #at least not beyond a knowing glance shared; a soft smile exchanged; and her fingers absently fiddling with the stones throughout the day #if she wasn't wearing the guidance-amulet (useful) i'd probably actually equip it on her like i did the silver one for the longest time ngl #because like i said; i'm a sentimental bitch playing make-believe with my little toys

[suffarustuffaru]

rating some rezero ships by um. how good they could cover up murder together

(feel free to read my tags for some explanations T^T)

#rezero #um. given the Various Moral Codes of these characters i figured this would be interesting to give my shot at..... and YES garf shaula and #cecilus are too fucking obvious HAH #not otto being in every single Success tier... except for the selling each other out / revenge one. yeah. yeah hes a bitch alright. #ok but i put rein/emilia there bc... ok i know their energy kinda similar to reinjulius but like i put rein/emilia there bc i feel like #theyd be like OH GOD OH GOD WE JUST DID THAT ON ACCIDENT OH MY GOD IF THIS GETS OUT THISLL BE BAD FOR ALL OUR LOVED ONES like theyd be #panicking and shit #while reinjuli would be like hahaha i am SO NOT OK but we gotta take accountability :((((( #ottosuba is like. literally not even a question that theyre all the way up there. theyd like pull similar shit to sunny and basil from omori #like theyd try to take their secret to the grave and theyd never be functional with each other ever again and then theyd go insane over what #theyve done. either that or theyd just murder some totally evil guy with basically next to zero regrets. otto was already the getaway driver #while subaru was killing petelgeuse in the back LMAO #i feel like with felix itd be like. if theres NO OTHER CHOICE hes gonna whip up reinhard and julius into shape and get them to actually do #it. we saw how he was when subaru was possessed by petelgeuse T^T #emilia rem are put that low bc i feel like theyd have no braincells to use to get out of this and of Course emilias freaking the fuck out so #i feel like whenever otto is paired with someone who has like More doubts and guilt and Panic about it otto would be like GET YOUR SHIT #TOGETHER WE HAVE TO DO THIS. which i feel is also what ram does with certain pairs. #damn... now i want fic where some random pair is trying to cover up murder for whatever reason... #i nearly put garf mimi higher up bc i feel like mimi Could and Perhaps Has gotten away with murder before already. but garf would be TOO #OBVIOUS.... #rip mimi. ur a queen for being such a gaslight gatekeep girlboss.

[teasel-backatitagain]

Thinking about her (Karina Braun)

#I do not like her in the slightest #But also want to explore Reiners feelings toward her post rumbling #Her 'oh yes i only want my son' bullshit is not flying with me (nor is it flying with jean AHAHAHAH) #Karina used Reiner as a tool to further her own desires #Putting a clear expiration date on her only son as the ripe age of ten #She sees him coming back from his trip to hell depressed suicidal self harming and does not care lol #She also gladly pushes gabby toward the same fate (and we know how Reiner feels about Gabby) #So yes propaganda propaganda but goddamn the amount of damages she caused her only son (a literal CHILD) #Reiner is somewhat aware of all that but feels conflicted about it and might kind of push it away #Cause god he has already lost so much #She would have AT BEST troubles reckoning with the full extend of it and properly atone for it #And at worst be a nasty bitch about it and straight up refuse to admit anything but still insists on having a relationship with her son #Idk man wherever she ends up falling on that spectrum Reiner is in for a fun time #(cause i do think he'd want some sort of relationship with her) #(also i think she wouldn't be fully on board with her son kissing devil men (yes jean) on the mouth so that's a problem to add to the list) #Interested about how jean would fit in all of that cause of course he'd be there every step of the way #(they're in love your honor there is just a chance they don't know it yet) #Between his mom being so not karina #his foul mouth #big heart and burning desire to prevent reiner from being trampled yet again #That would make for some fun discussions #So much possibilities... the juices are jussing #do i have the braincells to discuss all this with the nuance it deserves at this ungodly hour? no #hopefully at some point i will #reinjean adjacent #rambling

[aniseandspearmint]

i'm looking up dessert recipes and i am so freaking tired of seeing so many 'lightened up' recipes.

i want heavy thanks.

real butter

real sugar

real fat

real everything

like, if i make a thing i'm usually stretching it a week, it's not like i'm eating the whole cobbler or crumble or whatever at once.

tho even if i was it's fine.

dessert isn't some dirty terrible thing that you're punishing yourself for eating.

#and look- a portion of a cobbler or a crumble is a decent amount of nutrients! #in extra tasty form! #we are supposed to enjoy food! #humans are made to enjoy food! #my grandmother loved making cobblers and crumbles for BREAKFAST #when you look at it it's no worse than eating pancakes soaked in syrup or poptarts for breakfast #and what baffles me is often the same people who re like 'oh no tee hee thats too much sugar for me!' when they see cake or pie or whatever #eat things that have WAY more sugar #person i SAW you eat that maple bacon and pancakes with syrup #i saw you drink that orange juice #sugar sugar SUGAR #and that's fine too! sugar is energy! but the lack of awareness is concerning #rambling #food stuff #me #my life #(this is of course vague bitching and not directed at anyone who CAN'T have some of these things bc of medical issues)

[in-tua-deep]

man i have really been thinking about worldbuilding and exposition in books recently

when i was like, i don’t know, twelve-ish, I picked up this book about a teenage girl in a spy school. and i absolutely fell in love with it - I thought it was incredibly neat how the book just seemed to drop me into the middle of the story, even starting in the girl’s second year. in fact, the main character frequently referenced events from her first year (falling in love with a civilian, things ending badly, finding secret passageways, losing her mother’s trust etc.) 

and I actually really enjoyed the fact that the character had a rich and vibrant life outside of what i had read and that the book didn’t go out of its way to explain her past in flashbacks or anything. i understood the main takeaways and why she was reacting to things based on what i gleaned, and more than that i understood the growth of the character, why she was cautious in certain places but reckless in others, etc and i felt smarter for not being handed the answer on a silver platter

anyway it wasn’t until i finished the book and realized there was a sequel that i looked it up and found out that. in fact. i had started with the second book in the series.

oops.

#i will say i genuinely read the sequels and NEVER went back and read the first book #it genuinely felt like i understood the takeaways from reading the second book #it almost felt like i would be doing cammie a disservice by going backwards and undoing the progress she had made #anyway i just remember thinking about how cool it was that the author didn't go out of their way to explain exactly what happened #and yet i was able to understand what happened just by her reactions to this new guy #the oh. OH. of realizing she hadn't fallen in love with a civilian so much as fallen in love with the idea of civilian life #her life being made much more difficult from the loss of trust by her mother and teachers #kind of want to go back and reread it but i feel like reading ur childhood books again sets you up for disappointment #probably not the masterpiece i remember reading #but man it made so much sense bc of COURSE cammie wouldn't just like. give me info about how the world worked. her mum was headmaster. #ofc she knew how the spy world worked smh #so when they were like FUCK the secret passageways we used to sneak out are blocked off bc we got caught last year #we need to figure out either a) another way out of the school unseen or b) find more secret passageways #and i was like !!! yeah! of course! that makes total sense and adds an obstacle for the main character to get though! #and now i also know that cammie a) was sneaking out to see her boyfriend which means it was b) a secret worth hiding for some reason #idk that second book was the only bitch i respect

[ofthecaravel]

What’s Your Motive?

#happy halloween bitches #love me some scream #and love me some besties #AND love me some spooky season #more on the way of course #gvf #greta van fleet #sam kiszka #danny wagner #myart #greta van art #scream

[shojoboy]

reason to read 7 seeds number 50000

yuri

#I FORGOT ABT THEM ACTUALLY #not canon but. shippable. passes the bechdel test as some would say #not just w these 2 of course but. i love these 2 #Boss Bitch Yuri. alpha x alpha #7 seeds #-_- #should i tag them. no way they have a ship tag on here but whatevs #nijiko 7 seeds #ran shishigaki