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Homebrew Womble jail ft. my mother

Witnessing child went ??? Bizarrely well? She let me distract her with toys to break up the Looking At Him?

And then she just LEFT. BAILED. Opted out and went downstairs to be done. Is that ??? A good sign? I AM trying to encourage them kind of ignoring each other I guess???

#my cats #womble #the child #he is 90% fluff so he just schloops through the bars #no hissing though!! #so tentatively calling it a win #maybe I’m just not giving child enough credit #okay she hissed once but in her defense he made a very sudden move and she didn’t do anything after #and immediately let me distract her throwing a toy

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For all that I give her shit, Sophie is actually a great dog to introduce to cats bc she is a) small, b) not skittish around cats, and most importantly c) could not give less of a rats ass about cats, she’s only in this for the people babie. if u don’t have opposable thumbs, lose her number

#my cats #womble #not pictured: womble’s initial WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT arching when she first came in #Sophie’s only downside is that she is excitable when it comes to her desperate desire to be on my couch #but Womble was quick to chill out when he saw we were being chill #and was even rolling and exposing his belly without a care by the time Sophie left #so mission: introduce Womble to A Creature was a resounding success I think

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Happy big paws Sunday

#my cats #womble #Sunday posting #no I will not be normal about my new cat #expect wombleposting to continue

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So far all the cats in my adult life that I have adopted have been in direct competition with each other over who is the biggest lap cat

Which is funny considering that my childhood cats, bar one, have not been

Though one I would describe as a “lap hobbyist”

#my cats #womble #Mia #the child #Womble is crown prince of the liking everyone throne #I got super lucky that he took a little while to warm up in the cat cafe I guess!! #invested early #if he was like this from day one he woulda been adopted in an INSTANT #this does make me a bit nervous bc him and child are gonna have to negotiate a lap schedule #which child and Mia did without issue bc they didn’t want to cuddle me at the same time

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A wombling good morning to everyone

#my cats #womble #he’s just very darling #I’ve gotten insanely lucky with the cats I’ve adopted as an adult so far tbh #all three have been extreme lap cats

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Womble rattling the door to his room:

Child:

#my cats #the child #womble #she doesn’t like him right now she will happily sniff me and not hiss when I spend time with him #but she stuck her paw under his door and hissed when he touched it #illegal!! she cries #but she also doesn’t spend time camped in front of his door #bc she wants to spend time with me downstairs #also I just spent a chunk of time with Womble and loved on him and brushed him #he is fine just a slut for brushing #I stopped bc he was starting to get a bit overstimulated and wanted to give him a break #I need the to be chill about this so they can both spend time out and I don’t have to choose lmao

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womble’s rumbles. his wumbles

#my cats #womble #he’s such a little love #he’s exploring downstairs rn while child is away #think I’m gonna have to get some cat shampoo and give him a wash #had to swaddle him to trim his toes #he’s not mean about it just wiggly #and so he has freshly trimmed toes for his eventual meeting with child

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Great news: womble is Babie

#my cats #womble #he’s SO snuggly and purry #he will let me brush him and touch his belly #I’ll have to do something about the couple of mats he has but he’s perfect #I feel bad leaving him to settle into his little room !! #hopefully I’ll be able to properly introduce him and child soon so they can have the run of the house #six month old man #his paws are large so he might get even bigger

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A downside of text based medium is I cannot explain certain things via text

I passingly remarked that a downside of the name I chose for my new cat is that Americans can’t pronounce it and was met with. much confusion

I cannot explain the exact differences and I cannot give examples of words that do have the vowel I use because Americans straight up don’t use that vowel. I cannot provide an example bc u don’t have one ����😭

#adventures in linguistics #anyway womble is coming home tomorrow #I am totally okay with my American friends calling him wumble or their weird o that’s more of an a wamble #sorry I cannot explain the difference over text bc yall don’t have. I example words I can provide

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It’s been six months now since my cat Mia passed away and I am,, looking at kittens,,,

I feel like with me working full time but having extra time at home during summer hours in May, it might be a good time to get child a friend. I worry that she’s lonely and also not getting the same level of activity without someone to chase and be chased by 🥺

I’m thinking of looking mainly at the local cat cafe and all their adoptable cats?? They kind of by definition have to be good with other cats if they stay there, after all

#deep thoughts #I am blaming pangur-and-grim #and also the blogs I follow who foster kittens #for my yearning #child needs someone who isn’t up in her face and also isn’t timid and terrified of her #she’s 50/50 with cats she’s been introduced and gotten along with rn #misha is very dominant and was all up in her face #essa was terrified of her and though child approaching was the equivalent of a serial killer brandishing a knife #Mia and pepper were fine with her #Mia and child would take turns chasing each other around #Mia would sometimes walk right up to child and smack her but they were fine

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Hmmmmmmm

I have never put this much research into both what haircut I want and where to obtain it before

What are the recommendations for salon vs barbershop do yall think

Mmm anyone have advice or a guide or something for folks who have had longish hair their whole life going to short hair cuts ??

I feel like I’ve wanted to cut my hair short for so long but also my hair is. So straight and fine that I worry without styling it will just lay flat on my head but idk how to style short hair rip

#Souly’s haircut journey #I’m so determined to do this #2024 is my trans masc year #even if I don’t like it at least I can say I tried it #also my mum has the most heinous and feminine taste in short haircuts she keeps showing me #If I wanted a fringe I would just get a fringe #I don’t need my hair plastered to my forehead rip #I feel like I need a council of butch hairdressers to gently guide me through this journey #sigh I need to connect more with the local queer community #with all the free time I don’t have #the first one actually reminds me a bit of a haircut my mum had as a child lol #me frantically googling queer friendly hair places and staring down the instagrams for examples of short hair they’ve done #my Instagram has never seen this much usage

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My idea of how common knowledge the myth of Orpheus and Eurydice is… wrong

#Greek mythology #Orpheus and Eurydice #I saw a production of hadestown and it was FANTASTIC #but the number of people who asked me what it was about #and I answered ‘you know the Greek myth about Orpheus and Eurydice’ #and got the response ‘no’ #is WAY HIGHER THAN I THOUGHT #in the last week I’ve seen like at least five poetic representations of the myth #is tumblr just the Orpheus and Eurydice site #something about the tragedy and grief and the fact that it could never be any other way just makes tumblr feral I guess #I mean me too #I go here

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Mmm anyone have advice or a guide or something for folks who have had longish hair their whole life going to short hair cuts ??

I feel like I’ve wanted to cut my hair short for so long but also my hair is. So straight and fine that I worry without styling it will just lay flat on my head but idk how to style short hair rip

#part of me is like #half the lads I know probably roll out of bed and are just ready #and all my butch friends have curly hair ): #for context my hair is so fine and straight that when it was long enough for hair ties they would easily slip off of a pony tail #I just hack it off into a Spencer Reid bob every so often rn #but I want to experiment bc why not #but also change makes me anxious so would love advice or guides #or other peoples experiences #want a masculine haircut so bad hh

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Drew representations of the three unchained sun gods from my dream about the golden peacock trickster! Erythristic animals are so excellent

It was nice to draw again after such a long break ♥️

#my dreams #dream journal #peacock trickster dream #my art #I did these at work so all traditional with colored pencils #they represent sunrise midday and sunset respectively #or the past the present and the future #midday Sun is most wrathful #sunrise is most passive #and sunset is actually the most laid back I think #but they’re all enemies of the trickster #and have killed trickster incarnations in the past #there’s a cyclical thing where the trickster died and the gods cannot move the body #and the chains of the trickster’s tail are eventually used to chain the gods away #and when the trickster is reborn those chains break and the gods are once again free #the trickster is in danger both from the gods whose plans they interfere with #and also from humans who have also killed the trickster before to chain the gods #something something cycles #the trickster is always human first and god second #the three unchained sun gods are gods first and only #goddess of fate is a god first. but perhaps she is going to a human second for the first time #through her newfound alliance with none other than her natural enemy: the trickster - breaker of fate’s chains #lion #tiger #leopard #Sun gods

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i'm in a continuing education virtual presentation right now and the host has a voice that just screams "I am a voice actor for airline safety videos and other educational PSAs" and i am biting back my laughter

#something about the annunciation style #and which words get emphasis #i feel unhinged listening to him #sir you should start a podcast if you haven't already #you have the perfect educational podcast voice

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asleep me has just decided to start world building i guess

Imagine: you are a misfit teenage boy, a con artist. You have a best friend - or maybe a brother? You two are as close as family regardless. You're in a refugee camp when you pull a con - you pass your best friend off as the newly orphaned son of a noble or something. It's just a ploy - to give him an in with the other wealthy kids so you can steal.

Except… he doesn't really give it up? You ask a couple of times when you're leaving, but Will, your best friend, keeps putting it off. He's fallen in with a new crowd. One that respects him, elevates him. And those new friends? Well, they don't exactly like you.

Will starts sending you off on errands when he's with his friends. You go easily, because you want to be helpful, and you ignore the hushed laughter of his shiny new friends. You go on your fake little missions designed to get rid of you.

That's how you meet the Goddess.

Imagine a clearing, golden light, and a beautiful woman who calls you a trickster and says you are destined to be enemies. Imagine freeing the three chained sun gods by accident. (By fate?) Except you tell the goddess that you don’t believe in fate, and what if you become friends instead?

(You offer to steal her, and she agrees - a fine trick indeed, wouldn't you say?)

After this instance you find something out. You can use magic now? But also it seems like you have been cursed as well - you can’t die. Fate rearranges itself every time. A shield moves to a position it wasn’t in before. A sword misses its mark. You are Loved By Fate and it is an Issue.

Time passes and your best friend grows - and you have to use magic to grow with him. He’s a king now. You love him - he’s still your brother - but his smile is more and more strained every time he sees you.

Your goddess takes many forms travelling with you. Sometimes she is a woman, sometimes she is golden magic inside of a pouch. Sometimes she is a child and travels with you, and somehow you get separated with her like that. The king finds her, and immediately is taken with her. He decides to try and find a family for this child who is shy of everyone, and offers for any individual to come and try their luck to see if the child will take to them

You are the last person to try, not because you don't think your goddess will choose you, but because you are worried even if she does the king will not let her go

The king's friends stop you. You know their faces - they are the same bullies they have always been. They accuse you of being cursed because you never die no matter how many dangerous missions the king sends you on. The suicide missions.

They attack you, and they might be cruel but they aren’t stupid. Their ringleader realizes that it must be magic shifting his shield to protect you from the lethal blows.

(You can see every lethal blow that doesn’t land play through your head. The worlds that did not come to pass. You don’t tell them the number of times they murdered you in this fight. It wouldn’t change anything.)

You manage to escape and run up to the king’s room. Using fate’s magic so much has stripped you away of other magics - you look young again. Awkward and gangly with no facial hair (the way you always have since meeting a goddess and becoming something more than human)

He’s in there with an elven woman, a noble of some kind who is wise and anyone with eyes can see the king is in love with her. (You can see in her eyes that she does not love him back, not in that way.)

The king, after some debate, decides to let you try

(He doesn’t comment on your appearance - maybe he just thinks you have a baby face without your beard. Maybe the way he avoids looking you in the eyes means he doesn’t even notice.)

You reunite, and it is beautiful - your goddess surges forward into your arms and kisses you, and you feel fates magic coursing through you and soothing over the exhaustion from the fight.

But the king doesn’t see a goddess and he doesn’t see the magic - he sees a child and he draws his sword. He says many things - that he didn’t expect you to stoop this low. That he once called you his friend.

(How long has it been since that felt genuine?)

Something goes cold in you and enough is enough. Your goddess’s magic courses through you, and you will not be separated again. You use magic to blast them back, use magic to stun them, and use magic to make you and your goddess into a rat that scurries away into the walls

The magic is powerful enough that a cascade of golden chains has manifested down the wall of the room, branching downward like a geometric tree and each one tipped with an amulet with a large inset ruby

The king and the noble awaken, and the king is furious. But the elven woman looks like all her questions have been answered

She talks about how there haven’t been terrible fires throughout the lands, despite all signs pointing to the fact that the sun gods have been unchained

She names you - trickster, calamity

In mythology apparently you are symbolized by a massive golden peacock, each "feather" in your tail with ruby-gem eyes like the chains on the wall

You are named such because you are the only creature capable of going against fate and changing it

(your train of feathers is instead a train of chains - all the fates that you have broken)

(It should make you enemies with your goddess, but you decided in that clearing twenty years ago that you were friends instead)

Apparently on your suicide missions, you have been helping. Wherever you could, you changed the fate of entire cities and towns and prevented the wildfires of the Sun gods from ravaging the kingdom

The elven woman opens a portrait that has a nook behind it. You are sitting there - well, not you exactly. But a copy of you. You are a trickster and love mischief, and you love secret spaces and those who choose to look in them. That’s enough for a part of you to be present, looking sixteen and glowing with golden light

She speaks in the ancient language to you - and you speak it back without thinking. You tell her she’s just as hot as Will with a wink and it makes her laugh. Will cannot understand what you are saying, but you don’t care right now. He’s your best friend, but you aren’t his, and it hurts

He calls you immature, and the elven woman says you’re only sixteen. He snaps back that you are a thirty-six year old man. She shakes her head, and says that you haven’t been since you Awakened. Gods are different, after all

(Maybe it was the differences that drove you apart? Maybe it’s your fault? But if that is the truth then why was there already so much distance between you? You do not ask your goddess if there was a path where you still would have been close.)

You don’t feel like a god, you feel like a person who is just trying their best. You feel tired. You feel sad. Maybe that’s why you are the one who bends fate - you’re the only one that cares enough to try.

Anyway that’s when I woke up but I like my trickster - important to note that he is a redhead with a bit of a baby face

#dream journal #my dreams #peacock trickster dream #i'm actually really vibing with peacock as the symbolic trickster animal in this world #i am also REALLY vibing with whatever part of my brain made the peacock train be made of broken chains of fate #also i am slightly curious why a) there were three sun gods and b) why were they chained #the implication was that the trickster was the only 'mortal' god #with different incarnations having different goals and morals and messing with things in different ways #and in all the other stories the other gods eventually tire of the trickster and track them down and kill them #and then the trickster is reborn as a mortal and will continue to be reborn until they get into trouble and Awaken #i have named my trickster boy 'russell' for kicks #will actually was named will in the dream though #tfw ur friend leaves you behind for a new crowd #actually tfw u become an immortal teenager and ur mortal friend continues to grow into an adult #also i can't quite describe the horror of watching those bullies realize that i was 'cursed' #and watching them try to kill me. over and over. and being stopped not by mercy or moral but by intervention of a divine power #i will be honest we did not go into that meeting with will in our best headspace #but also honestly?? fuck will for assuming the worst of us !! he was our BEST FRIEND #our BROTHER #and he didn't even ask any questions #like hey russell why does this magical child clearly know and recognize you #noble lady you can do Better honestly