#because true hell for him would be

[introspectivememories]

"evan, i find you adorable". adorable as in able to be adored. as in capable of being adored. as in i find you worthy of adoration. adorable, from the latin adorare (to worship) to adorabilis (in the sense 'worthy of divine worship') to the current day adorable. as in maybe if we had made it to the movies or if eddie didn't show up, i could've showed you just how much i want to worship you. as in i look at you and there is a font of adoration in my heart for you. adorable as in i flew into a hurricane with you and yet this date is a thousand times more thrilling than that. adorable as in there is a person in your building who saw me jump up and down like a little kid in the lobby after i had kissed you for the first time. adorable as in i kissed you and immediately thought fuck i could do this forever if he lets me. adorable as in i want to press kisses to your birthmark. adorable as in i spent the entirety of the days leading up to our date wondering about you, if you liked your coffee with two sugars or one. if you liked storms or if the lightning strike had put you off on them all together. if you liked cats or dogs or if you were the kind of weirdo who liked goats instead. if you thought about the kiss as often as i did. if your stomach tangled into twisted knots as saturday drew closer. if you would be agreeable to sitting in my lap. if you would blush as prettily as you did the day i kissed you. if your world also realigned when our lips met. if our orbits had matched up now that we flew into a hurricane together. if the gravitational pull between us had finally been too strong for either of us to resist that night in your loft. or maybe, more simply, adorable as in, "evan, i find you adorable."

#SOMEBODY SEDATE ME #what is this #i heard that line and was like how can i wax poetry about this #tommy kinard the man that you are #like it was just an interesting line to me. it literally keeps me up at night #and then tommy immediately following it up with 'i just dont think you're ready yet' #because it's true!!! idt buck was ready for the restaurant and maybe if buck had told tommy this was his first 'dude date' #they could've picked a more secluded spot and maybe then the movies could've still happened and they could've sat in the back #as some stupid movie plays onscreen but buck would ever so carefully tangle his hands with tommy's bigger ones and tommy would #squeeze them once and buck would be so nervous he wouldn't be able to look at tommy and would stare resolutely ahead at the movie he #doesn't care about but the whole time he'd be thinking about the way tommy holds him so gently but eddie did happen and buck is freaking ou #so tommy steps back and tells evan 'i dont think youre ready' w/ the implication being call me when you are and he puts the ball back in #evan's court. and maybe tommy thinks that's the end of it. it takes people years to be ready. hell it took him years to be ready except #beautiful brave evan calls him less than a week later and says 'maybe i'm not ready but if there's anyone i'd like to find out w/ it'd be y #i need to be sedated #911 abc #evan buckley #tommy kinard #bucktommy #buck x tommy #911 spoilers #911 season 7

[fear-no-mort]

loving it keep it coming

#usually ‘they cannot be normal about eachother or the whole universe explodes’ is just a funny exaggeration thing people like to say about- #-characters they like but with these two it is quite literally canonically true. the whole universe is forever stained because of how much- #rick and morty love eachother and how intense they are when it comes to eachouther #of course this is highly exaggerated but yeah #rick will hang out with this little guy and expose him to the whole world and be the only source of comfort in both that and his normal- #-life and then be surprised when that little guy doesn’t let go of him and wants to stay with him forever and never want him to replace him #and kf course only because morty did the same to rick. he saw everything able to be seen by human eyes and then after everything only then- #-he discovered the single greatest thing ever which is Morty My Grandson Morty :). and he absolutely broke ricks heart by the smallest- #-things and drove him crazy with just how much he adores him and wants him to live and would do and sacrifice anything and he wouldn’t just #-die for morty he does that every week. he’d LIVE for morty and that’s much harder for him #but hed do anything. how the hell did i end up rambling about them like this #ive written thousands of words about these fuckers just today alone i think its safe to say. #rick and morty #odieart #odiespeak

[mewtwo24]

You know idk if it's just me being oblivious af but mxtx sure does enjoy putting her protags through the trolley problem when it comes to her works huh /j

#mdzs #mxtx #i say this not to be critical but because she really does prove how time and again #people want a scapegoat and an easy target to blame #and so much of her work is abt proving how faulty these philosophical absolutes are--nothing is that simple. #literally the arguments made to put everything on wwx (at least for now) appear to be faulty at best #i mean sure sometimes he puts his foot in his mouth but like ;;;;;;;; the kid is just doing his best wtf #everyone out here like WWX IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN YOU except for lwj and i'm just like #1. hes literally like 16 yrs old or smth #2. whether or not he stepped in during the cave scene was kind of a non-question?????? #the wens were so clearly going to engage in egregeious violence regardless of the rationalizations that came after #pointing fingers is legitimately pointless and fallacious logic #if mianmian wasnt targeted theres really no guarantee smth similar wouldnt have happened #furthermore working tg and refusing to play by wens' rules was p much the only feasible option #lwj was young and afraid and had lost so much but he still had enough clarity to insist on working tg #i also really love what he said abt suffering bc its just true. #the way he claps back to his uncle by saying that nobody would be spared violence and atrocity #the only choice they had was to try to band tg and mitigate the dmg--basically 'war is hell' #i find it such a stark and lovely contrast to the common perception of others abt him #that lwj stands alone and thinks of no one else; quite the contrary #he's v self-contained and v disciplined but he's not indifferent to suffering or apathetic #i think so much of the natural love that blooms between wwx and lwj is rooted in their mutual desire to do good #wwx wants to help--he loves to see people smile. he would do anything to protect the ppl he loves #lwj is honestly the same--he's just more abt structure and stability #wwx is more spontaneous and more attuned to the people around him #im a little shocked that people werent able to tell lwj was just as obsessed with him #just bc wwx is loud and mischievous about his interest doesnt really???? to me mask the ways lwj is so responsive. also i ???????? #still don't understand the mental gymnastics of madame jiang insisting it was all wwx's fault when she literally targeted wen's mistress -> #in retaliation???????????????? all this 'pick your battles what the fuck is wrong with you wwx' and she goes and instigates their wrath?? #i mean idk fellas i was just sitting there like 'you could have handled this so many ways and you picked the TNT option. wat.'

[forcedhesitation]

crazy how he just ignores everyone else and speaks directly to wyll. it's like wyll is like one of the most important characters in this game, or something.

#bg3 #thoughts about media #I'm sure if karlach is there- gort might address her first instead? #I looked at the screenshots from my other playthroughs to see if I had this scene archived. #of course I literally have everything BUT this part. #I mean it makes a ton of sense why gort addresses wyll. #beyond the fact that wyll's father is there- baldur's gate KNOWS who wyll is. the patriars know who wyll is. they know he was exiled. #gort's trying to make wyll feel small and out of place. referring to him as the blade but undermining his heroic image by mentioning- #-his newly acquired fiendish features. also a bit of a brag I think. since gort himself escaped the hells & a devil physically unchanged. #that and I think gortash is like...a perfect mirror opposite to wyll. so to have them at odds over the fate of baldur's gate makes sense. #fits the whole fairy tale theme of wyll's story too. I mean how many stories are there of cheats like gortash being ousted from their- #-unrightful place on the throne by the true heir? the valiant and just prince come to save his people from the cruel lying tyrant? #*sigh* yet another thing that I wish they developed more in wyll's quest. #because this would all feel like a rather complex and complete story if wyll himself is your avatar. #but when he is a companion- I just don't think the quest features enough to make up for him not being the avatar. #I wish there was more of this- more wyll being the focus- more baldurians recognising who he is! it's HIS city after all! #I AM going to enjoy beating the shit out of gortash again though. #he and mizora are on my “top ten video game characters of all time I'd like to see SKINNED ALIVE” list.

[chambers003]

im skimming through the good omens musical for references and. musical!crowley is a duke of hell. good for him

[ID: two screenshots from the good omens musical with subtitles. Crowley and Aziraphale are hanging out and Crowley is saying “Well, and all I’m doing is my duty” / “as Duke of Hell”. End ID]

#my post #good omens #musical omens #it would make sense for that to be the tag right #this is very interesting. to me. specifically. #because in the book it’s specifically stated he’s not anyone special (in the scene where hastur and ligur show up to collect him) #(iirc. i dont know the book too well but i think thats right) #and in the show crowley also isnt a duke of hell (more implied than the book but still true) #(iirc the radio show doesnt comment on it either way) #(this is from the scene with agnes near the start btw) #it is a shame the musical’s so fragmented but im doing what i can. more gaps means creative freedom

[grahamcore]

so would hannibal eat turkey on thanksgiving or would it still be people meat

#and if so how the hell would he disguise it as a turkey?? because his other dishes are just ambiguous and fancy but a turkey is a turkey. #genuinely asking because on the one hand i imagine he’d be as festive as a middle aged suburban white woman for the holidays #but then i’m not sure if that’s actually true? in my soul i feel that it is but he’s lithuanian so does he observe every american holiday? #like my heart is telling me hannibal would go all out for the holidays just because he’s gaudy by nature but does that extend to thanksgivin #and if it does then how does that mesh with his cannibalistic tendencies? #i feel like thanksgiving is actually the perfect holiday for him because it’s literally an excuse to have people over just to eat with them #but that brings me back to the initial problem of disguising human meat as a turkey??? everyone knows what a turkey looks like #a heart could as easily belong to a human as it could to a cow but a turkey is a fucking turkey #unless he makes some fucked up human meat origami turkey which… going by the human heart in the cathedral he probably could #so either that or he just sucks it up and eats nonhuman meat for a day?? but would he even do that??? #I DONT KNOW ANYMORE I NEED ANSWERS #hannibal #hannibal nbc #hannigram

[heliographe]

look im so willing to leave dream in the dust. i do not give a shit. i can always find some other idiot to obsess over.

but only if its TRUE.

i did not join this fandom just to drop the fucker at the first hint of drama. ive used the internet my whole goddamn life. "believe all victims" no, LISTEN. do you know how many times people have weaponised that phrase. its so fucking easy. dont buy into shitty philosophies just because they strike a chord or sound pretty good on the surface level.

i want hard fucking verification or im vouching the smiley bastard.

#dreamwastaken #i prefer to take his side first because i made the choice #to follow him for a reason #that means giving him the benefit of the doubt #when people go after him #it happens with popular ccs. it just does #and sometimes shits true. sometimes people are fucked UP #but i still would want an explanation. #painting people into categories of good or bad or un/deserving of help or a chance #thats fucked up too #to hell with purity culture #to hell with cancel culture #if he turns out to be more of an idiot than we already knew #i want to see him get help and get better

[bylertruther]

kind of crazy how mike said in a moment of vulnerability and weakness that he wants to be needed and to be of use and good at something, and then a large chunk of the fandom just decided to validate all of his worst thoughts & fears and suddenly reduce him to a weak, incapable, mindless, unloved wastoid wimp that's everything his low self-esteem tells him he is and nothing like how the people in his life see him (or what the narrative itself has shown us since the very first episode). even crazier when the people that do that call themselves mike fans lol but i'm 😴😴😴

#mike wheeler #mine #like. i don't think that some of you actually like him. you weren't supposed to agree with him when he was self-deprecating. #mike has been loyal brave kind compassionate courageous many many times. he's been strong for others when they couldn't be. he #grabs whatever he can use as a weapon because he isn't going down with a fight. he attacks and does do damage. people listen to him #when he speaks. they look to him to lead them and help them with both big things and small things. he IS their inspiring leader and he #IS will's knight in shining armor. like... i just don't get it. mike isn't a bad character. he has depth. good sides and bad sides. he's #always involved in the plot. why would you want to take that away? he's always been like that. if you take it away- then what the hell are #you left with? who is mike when you take away everything that he is? just. what? #i would expect that from someone that doesn't pay super close attention to the show or militantly believes him to be a homophobic #straight guy but. but but but.... i just will never get it lol. why did it come NOW after another character LITERALLY TELLS HIM #THAT ISN'T TRUE? it seems almost spiteful. as if the next thing you're going to tell me is that eleven's number is actually nine or smth.

[raspberryjellybrains]

yknow I've been thinking about what dream looks for in friends and lovers and I've noticed that it's not necessarily people that are mean to him, but people that are direct. dream himself deals in metaphor and manipulation, it's simply what he is, so just about everything within his realm that he's encountering consistently will be such that as well. considering both his own tendencies, the environment it breeds, and his whole Thing about guilt and choice, it makes sense he would choose people who are clear and honest with him. he wants someone who will tell him how it is, but not what to do with that—even when it's not really what he wants, dream knows it's what he can need. I think that's why figures like lucienne, matthew, death, and yes, mervyn can be important! on some level, dream knows he's convoluted and shifty by nature, and he's tried to combat that with concise words and mind-melting beauracracy, but it can't fix everything. he likes people to keep him in check and I think that is the most self-awareness he has ever been capable of. so... clap? no? idk. nod acknowledgingly.

#it is also that he is autistic #i dont make the rules. its just true. #also didnt mention for sentence flow but this is 100% why i think he REALLY hates desire #theyre the only manipulator in the universe better at manipulating than him. and uses these abilities to fuck him over. #they know how to blend direct observation with subtly implied direction to get him to do what they want whilst thinking hes not #dream knows this and he HATES it. because thats like. his every fear confirmed. in someone who is supposed to care for him. #and desire simply sees this as an extension of their function and good fun besides without understanding how deeply this messes dream up #with the guilt and choice thing: dream wants someone clear to blame and he would prefer it not be himself #so he wants to be given the option to be left with no choice so he can escape all personal responsibility as disguising it for himself as a #personal attack. the problem is that this is an inherently selfish thing to do and his perception of reality is so warped by ass kissing and #paranoia (great combo) that he ALSO cant tell whats a personal attack. #see: nada rejecting him and dream damning her to hell for 10000 years. #that also hit some other stuff he lacks the emotional wisdom to grasp #but like. why else would mervyn exist. genuienly #mervyn knows hes made by an uncaring god for menial and unnecessary work. everyone else knows hes full of shit and kinda right. #if dream didnt like what purpose he served on some level he would just remake or unmake mervyn all together. but he doesnt. #mervyn is like a chainsmoking barometer of public opinion #like boyboss good for him but thats it #anyway #dream of the endless #the sandman #raspberry rambles

[deepestsharkshark]

The school of good and evil but make it sterek

#oh noooo #scott getting dropped off in the evil school because of his shallow ideas of good #this being a more nuanced examination of Scott’s morality than the actual show #stiles gets to be a Prince #poor guy would be so confused #holding a sword and accidentally stabbing the teacher probably #his arrow would fly true #ly to wherever it felt like going #he just hits his mark in a roundabout way #or he's too afraid to shoot #and Derek #Derek’s over there as what #tedros??? #omg #prince derek whose mother is basically werewolf king arthur #and whose sisters are also at the school harassing the hell out of him because Laura and Cora bring me joy #or not idk how serious i want this to get #oh no #true love's kiss is broship #sciles brotp #except scott in the school of evil #hmmmm #teen wolf #sterek

[archduke-enver-gortash]

having completely normal thoughts (gortash wotr au)

#yeah. it’s bad. not thinking about inserting zeke but GORTASH #he’d start out as aeon for sure #his opinions on companions are so fucking awful #not nearly as awful as the kingmaker au ofc. he’d call reg a sick dog that needs to be put down because his incompetent owner failed him #anyways. this is a deranged wotr post. #of course there’s no one among the companions fit to be his/equal status #but i’d say he’d have the most positive opinions of regill and greybor. as positive as a guy thinking of them as his tools can get. #towards greybor it’s like. ok you don’t see yourself as more than a weapon and neither do i. you do your job as long you get paid i can wor #with that. #meanwhile regill he’d love to have as a knight devoted to him instead of him being a hell knight #this of course never fucking works gortash’s weird manipulation would not pull through with regill in this matter #no romance of course. except for manipulative sex with wenduag probably. #he really wants that mongrel army! will pop a fantasy viagra if wenduag needs to be ‘roughly subdued to calm down.’ #he’d be a little more into it than usual because he doesn’t need to hold back with her but it’s still not a true subjugation in the end. #until later he’s like ok. i lied i don’t like sex get on the vivisection table #(aro + fucked version of grayace gortash truther if you didn’t know) #tries to refine her and the poison #he’d be awful to her in general. sees a weapon to be refined. she recognizes him as master now but her loyalty is fickle. #he’d earn all the respect flags #but still would punish her greatly for the first sign of betrayal in the abyss #oh and before this gets too long: one more for cam obviously. #sadly i don’t see a world in which he doesn’t immediately see through the mireya story and kill her in act 3 #but if he didn’t. it’d be so juicy. him in act 5 learning the full story. how her father talks about her. #just stands there frozen for 10 seconds with a thousand yard stare #<- to then go no i don’t think you should kill him you should [REDACTED GRUESOME TORTURE METHOD THAT KEEPS ONE ALIVE & AWAKETHE ENTIRE TIME #in the end he’d execute her anyways but. hm. he’d get triggered for sure #i have more thoughts but i’m gonna shut up now lmao

[pochapal]

if every factor is accounted for then this means that the culprit wanted natsuhi to reach this conclusion which means that as readers we need to consider that "genji is the ringleader and the other servants is accomplices" may actually be an incomplete explanation of the facts

#umineko liveblog #even though genji carrying out the murderplan because kinzo died before he could tell him no makes so much sense in line with the themes #like. what answer is left if not that of misplaced devotion and manipulation of systems of abuse??? who else would do this???? #even under a more active culprit kanon theory it still made sense of the epitaph plan to come from kinzo and genji #so if there's something more to it i have no idea what the hell it is #genji not being the ringleader because kinzo technically is might make sense #but the idea of genji not being the main orchestrator of the events of the conference Cannot be true #literally not a single other person in the story fits on any level. it Has to be him #maybe this is a double fakeout because if not it means i might actually have been wrong about a lot of stuff

[jekyllnahyena]

wailing in the desert or when Simon finds his last tether

(gay, tragic, eldritch cowboys innit? thx @fr0ntier for the horror, it’s amazing <3)

#simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #cw blood #me sitting there in sweatpants and eating chips: #simons tether to earth is a revolver soaked in his loves blood and a reminder of everything he can never have nor let go off #not till hes enacted his last revenge because what is there for a man like him #bound by death and blood #and the one time he had hope it was torn from him limb by limb #so now his hatred and grieve feel like religion. binding him to hell and earth both till enacted #while his true believe is his love for johnny but he doesnt live in a world that would allow him even that #so the revolver is his last reminder and his last piece to leave behind in the physical realm u know? #kinda fucked innit? #anyway go read about the gay cowboys #ajekyllsart #fuck around and find out artstyle going full brrrrrrrrrrrrr

[moonscape]

palkia you son of a bitch

#bwark #when the bw anime was first coming out i was watching it subbed and it was actually my first exposure to subbed anime #and my dumb little 10 yr old brain was so confused by the process at the time #and the subs i watched made ash say damn all the time #and it scared me i was genuinely like he would not fucking say that #it got even worse when my mom got the official manga for giratina and the sky warrior because i remember him saying damn in that too?? #and looking back on it im like. was that really official? because i doubt pokemon would allow that to be said in official merch #but i also frequently gaslight myself into thinking weird things about media are true when they're not #like when i could've sworn that if you lost to koffing and zubat in explorers of time (but not sky i don't think) koffing would literally #say hell #or how you could make link eat worms in twilight princess (honestly still haven't fact checked this and i can't find anything about it #online but i'm choosing to believe that tp link does eat worms regardless of if it's true or not) #but anyway back to my point. ash saying damn was like the scariest thing to me as a kid i literally couldn't finish that manga because of it #it didn't scare me when i got to the bw subs but i would still clutch my pearls at it #and now ash calling the god of space a son of a bitch is so fucking funny to me

[dennisboobs]

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#i can understand ppls issues with the bowling ep from a personal standpoint #but the misogyny was very much the point. like. that was the point. the joke was that dennis is a piece of shit #not that any of what he was saying was true #dee did prove she could overcome the obstacle he created when she had not done it before #but it was just. she and him. like. no one else cared. dennis didnt even actually care. #bowling is just bowling and dennis only showed up and competed at all in order to fuck with dee #idk. idk. like #i dont think sunny should make shit as clear as they have been that they dont condone the shit the gang does because it gets. messy #to me that was like. literally perfect episode. it was an absolute joy to watch beginning to end #and i think it did it a hell of a lot better than something like womans right to chop #where it absolutely bludgeons you with the 'ohhh these guys are misogynistssss' shit #like okay. cool #its a mind game!!!!! and the dialogue was. you know. normal. and not the characters being mouthpieces #theyre assholes #ada speaks #also i fucking love evil little brother dennis. so much. i need this times a thousand forever and ever #he's a fucking bastard and he makes a great low stakes villain #like this to me is so. so much more fun than the serial killer shit. #and dee fucking won. if theyd had their places switched dennis would absolutely not have the willpower to manage that #im just saying

[volk-swag-genitalia]

the prophetic dreams are getting much more concerning

#not a joke #so like im pretty damn convinced i have prophetic dreams #except one problem is they're not very straightforward #and i never really realize they are prophetic until its too late #i had a dream my lil brother attended the former school i used to study at and something bad would happen to him #i brushed it off at the time because i thought there would be no way in hell my parents would send me off to this school #years later they enrolled him in. #and well its an average school experience for him. some classmates are absolute jerks tho. but the main event in that dream didnt happen ye #because the main event happens at a school camping event. now im worried my brother would die at said camping event. but hey no camping yet #another instance was when i dreamt we went up the escalator up the mall we used to always go to #it was late into the pandemic at the time so i thought ''no way would we end up going'' but then i woke up to my mom announcing that #you guessed it #we were going to that mall #anyways those are a few instances. #right nowi had a dream i went out to lunch after college and snapped at a man for calling me ''ma'am'' because i mentally could not take it #and im scared now #with how i've been mentally. something like that WOULD happen. poor guy #but also i had a beard. why would he do that? #and the dream was also veryyy vivid. #granted not all of my dreams come true. #and i hope it STAYS that way #anyways aside from that i've also had recurring dreams of the ocean levels rising so bad that my home town ended up flooding and dissapeari #well i havent been having the flood dreams lately #that dream had two outcomes. in both outcomes people have adpated and started building a city that could take in the new environment #in one outcome they managed to build an underwater city to regain what was left of the cities that got submerged. people actually helped ea #h other and people were thriving. #in another outcome #society just ended up the same. all of the problems we had now carried on & we were eaten by the sun. except the sun was an eldritch being? #ok for sure that sun thing wont come true. or would it??? #nah. i mean according to what we know of the sun. nah.