#because of the painful memories

[ifwallscouldtalk-atz]

#this right here #reminded me of mdzs #i didn't know how to react #because of the painful memories #two completely different scenarios and yet the same heartbreaking feeling #kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #vegaspete #the untamed #mdzs #wangxian

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: death mention / family death mention / ]

Mhmm I sure love thinking of the reality where we did get more time to really know Karai and her dynamics with the bros. Losing her hit hard in the finale, but it would’ve hit much, much harder had we known Karai longer and really saw her relationships develop with everyone.

I especially would have been interested in her dynamic with Leo, as past iterations often have the two of them clash in ideals and the like while still sharing many characteristics. Two sides of the same coin, and all that. Her specifically being the bros’ Gram-Gram also adds a whole new dynamic as well.

Imagine how interesting it would be, to have Karai start off on Leo’s side for once, showing wholly just how alike the two are at their cores and bonding as family without the worry of betrayal or animosity that other iterations suffer through, only to have Karai die anyway. Their parting hug and the desperate look of horror Leo wears later on would have hit that much harder, I feel.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rise karai #rise leo #rottmnt karai #rottmnt leo #I think a lot about these two in particular #and how that dynamic could have flourished #the way it was depicted in the finale is so purposefully unique and painful like #that hug man #can you imagine how much more heartbreaking that would have been if we knew her longer #not that it wasn’t already sad but we just simply didn’t know her long enough to be completely attached #also imo having more episodes with her and in general would have presented something I’ve been thinking about since the finale #so like - I like to think each bro kinda immediately leans more toward certain family members #Mikey has Draxum #Donnie has April #Raph has Splinter because this is another one that would be SO GOOD and make the finale moment where Raph sees his memories hit harder #if they had an ep or two more of Splinter and Raph together bc I really do feel like Raph respects Splinter most of the four #and finally- Leo has Karai #and then he loses her #imo? this would align with the movie even more #because it was the act of heroism that kinda killed her in a way - makes sense that Leo would initially be leaning away from that #and yet he ends up exactly like her anyway #haha sorry for rambling I just really love the interesting dynamic these two tend to have #and it’s a shame we didn’t get to see it really explored in rise #but yeah make no mistake while I’m focusing on Leo here I wanted more for all the boys and karai #Mikey’s little moments with her were so sweet and we already know how much he yearns for more family #Karai being from an age long gone would mean she’d be super impressed by literally any invention Donnie has (adult validation!!) #and could you imagine her training with Raph - with this training being referenced in the finale?

[frogseasons]

theres something so incredibly painful and meaningful about nona deciding to live just because a dog is in the truck. just noodle, this weird little six-legged dog that nona only knew for a handful of months in her already short life that she loved so deeply. tazmuir goes to painstaking extents to illustrate all the horrible things that come as a result of love (paul, jod’s backstory, pyrrha/g1deon/wake, ianthe and corona, gideon and harrow, etc) but this little, pivotal moment illustrates the beauties of it. nona is all about love, she loves without reason, she loves her little life and her little family and her school and her friends and noodle. noodle, who is just a dog, who can’t speak or express his love like humans do, but shows it nonetheless. because noodle is a dog, and dogs love without reason, just like nona (just like the earth). when everything and everyone that nona loves is falling apart, when she’s lost in all those horrors of love and chaos and destruction and her brain is breaking down and she’s losing what it means to Be Nona, noodle is still there, loving her regardless. and because she’s still nona, she loves him back. and she lives for love, even for just a few minutes longer. for a dirty little six-legged dog that wasn’t even hers, because she can’t let what she loves die if she has the choice (the power, for once). it’s beautiful and heartbreaking and the last decision she ever made was to live with her horrible, painful existence so that a dog (who couldn’t choose) wouldn’t die.

#g txt #tlt #the locked tomb #nona the ninth #nona the ninth spoilers #ntn spoilers #GOD…. god…….. #ntn just spends its whole time showing how drastically different nona and jods love is #like… jod loved to the point of destruction but nona loved to the point of existence #when everything was tumbling down around them jod watched his friends die without remorse and used them to kill the earth #he killed all he loved and wiped clean the slate #but nona sees everything she loves dying and changing and wants to go too. but she stays. #because who is she if not someone who loves and wants to be loved #she’s terrified of not remembering that love. but jod erases the memory of love for the sake of his own ease #nona lives with pain for love. and jod kills everything he loves and gives no choice in it. #those tags arent worded exactly right BUT U GET MY POINT YEAH. #g

[bonefall]

Does leopard still have 3 lives in her final battle? Or was that changed?

Yep. I think she drowned her once, then Leopardstar lunges up refreshed, and she gets the upper paw on Mistyfoot with 2 lives to go.

(MAYBE tw gore, but I really did try to be tasteful about a head being smashed on a rock.)

On her back, splashing and thrashing furiously against Leopardstar's claws dunking her head under, Mistyfoot glimpses a wave breaking just over the tip of a stone-blue rock. Her only chance.

With a surge of power, her claws sink into her leader's golden shoulder and they tumble and roll to the right. Before the tyrant even realizes what's happening, she's yanked up, and then whipped backwards with a wet CRUNCH

And then again

And again

And again, until Mistyfoot can't even make out what's left of her leader anymore. All she can see is that it's a red, brown, and yellow blur, because her eyes burning with salty tears and her whole body is trembling.

She drops the corpse onto the stone and it slides into the water, lifelessly. After a moment it spasms aimlessly one last time, like an insect does after its head is bitten off, unlike the deliberate, agonized throes of Tigerstar suffering through his doomed lives. And then it's still.

There's only the tranquil sound of bubbling water, and Mistyfoot's frenzied panting. Her pounding heart makes it hard to hear either.

The blood is carried off by the shallow water in scarlet swirls, but the lake runs pale red as if it's washing it away. Some were aware of this prophecy, but Mistyfoot was not.

It isn't closure to her, or a fulfillment of divine decree. It's just blood that should be on her paws, slicked away by the complicit river. She wished it could feel like it's over, but she's smart enough to know the truth. Has been through enough terrible events like this to understand what comes next.

Her body will move foward. Her mind will need to consider her deputy. Her paw will come down on code-defying cats like Blackclaw and Greenflower. But her heart will stay here, next to the remains of Leopardstar, the same way another piece of it remains at Stonefur's side across space and time.

#Tw gore #Juuuust in case but I did try to stay tasteful #While also trying to write it as gut-wrenchingly violent as I imagine in my head #Because it's important that it haunts her #The kill wasn't pretty and clean. It was awful. She didn't want this. It wasn't heroic #'Why did you do this to me? Why did you make this so cruel?' #'Why was the last thing you ever did to me such a horrible command as a leader?' #'And why did I obey your orders until the bitter bitter end?' #'How could you turn my defiance into a new kind of cruel obediance? Did I not suffer ENOUGH for you?' #'And now there is no head to bury with your body. I am cursed with the last memory of your face. I alone will know how you looked at me' #'That the last expression on your face wasn't pain or confusion or realization.' #'It was all fury. For me.' #OF COURSE tho I will continue to make funny rock jokes until the day I die lmaoo #Duality of Bones #Hmm maybe when I get to this in BB!TNP I'll be quick and objective about it and save the Misty Emotions for like... #I miss how the field guides used to have stories told in 1st person. #It would be fun to have a BB!Mistystar Speaks #Because I do LOVE writing Misty's verbose and philosophical speeches. #As you can see from the tags lmao #BB!Mistystar #Better bones au

[kingkatsuki]

Mother Mitsuki, who despite Masaru’s pleas, is way too invested in Bakugou and your relationship.

#pls I LOVE HER!!! #asking if you’re engaged yet every time you both visit for dinner #sending you wedding dress designs when you’re not even engaged #sending bakugou texts telling him to wife you up before you realise your mistake in choosing him and pick Deku instead #gifting the most inappropriate presents to try and get you pregnant #becoming the real bridezilla when you’re finally engaged and she isn’t even the one getting married #he turns up at your hen do to find you and his mum drunk as FUCK together #and he can’t help but shake his head at the sight as he tries to get you both back to his car because he loves you both so much #and he’s so glad you like each other too😭 #she’s at the hospital holding you in her arms whenever Bakugou is hurt like you just share the same pain #but god if she sends bakugou one more text with your ovulation schedule he’s blocking her #(he’ll never admit that it’s because of that text that he bends you over— just in case) #and it fills him with so much warmth when he watches you both share memories of him as a kid— even though he was an ugly fucking baby #and like when you both fight Mitsuki always checks up on you too🥺because she knows her son can be brash like her #but she knows that he’s so in love with you and wouldn’t wanna lose you #she’s definitely caught you both having sex in his childhood bedroom too tho

[thecruellestmonth]

Jason's feelings about Sheila Haywood

Batman #427 (1988)

"God, it must have been hard for you."

"...I'll save you... Mom..."

Batman: Gotham Knights #44 (2003)

"...I love..."

Batman #428 (1988)

"He threw... himself... in front... of me... in front of me... He took... the main brunt... of the blast... Such a... good boy... Must have... really... loved his... mother..."

Deadman: Dead Again #2 (2001)

JASON: "It's weird--she betrayed me to the Joker. Got us both blown up--but I'm not mad at her. It wasn't really her fault--her whole life was screwed up. Things just... happened. [...] You gotta tell me--is she going to make it?"

DEADMAN: "She's fading pretty fast, kid--"

JASON: "No, I mean-- her soul. What's going to happen to her... afterward?"

DEADMAN: "That's not for me to decide."

SHEILA: "Jason tried to rescue me... We almost... made it... So close... He turned out to be such a good kid..."

JASON: "Thanks, Mom..."

Batman Annual 25 (2006)

He remembered most of what happened. The search for his mother. Her betrayal. Joker. And his own murder.

Task Force Z #8 (2022)

"I died trying to save someone I cared about."

#Sheila Haywood #Jason Todd #Batman comics #Red Hood #Task Force Z #Jason Todd meta #Boston Brand #Deadman #Batman panels #Judd Winick #Matthew Rosenberg #panels #Batman Gotham Knights #Steve Vance #RECAP: Jason fully acknowledges that Sheila betrayed him and yet doesn't direct his rage toward her. #I guess it's fine if you want to make Jason call Sheila a 'bitch' and spit on her memory in your own fan fiction. You do you. #But Jason Todd is a bad victim. His trauma is wrong. His coping is wrong. He loves people he shouldn't. #He responds to what has caused him pain--and not what others believe *should* have caused him pain. #He doesn't follow a textbook or what others judge *should* be the correct and proper and convenient response to trauma and injustice. #Jason is used to taking care of his parents. He is used to his parents failing him. Catherine and Willis and Sheila. #But not Bruce. Bruce promised him better. And Jason is so deeply humiliated for letting himself believe that promise with all his heart. #And perhaps... though she didn't want to... Sheila stayed with Jason at the end. And that was a promise that Bruce didn't keep. #long post #longpost #long #thecruellestmonth #Also I see Batman 428 as evidence that Sheila isn't Jason's birth mother because she refers to Jason's mother in the third person. #My theory is she was the back alley doctor who delivered him. Willis was her associate or friend or former lover. #Boston 'Number One Jason Todd Stan' Brand #Deadman Dead Again

[lunarharp]

when an obsessed orufrey person plays ace attorney for the first time in a while

#witch hat tag #orufrey #you know those times when the defendant is still in shambles at the end of a case because it was not a clear-cut thing #but you get to present one Special Sentimental piece of evidence that proves not all is lost #qifrey's breakdown would be like... he turns up calm and pleasant like dahlia kristoph gant etc but very quickly: #well first he's hiding his scar so you have to use the bracelet and also you find out about the seal on his hat using that. #eventually he is throwing water that comes out of nowhere like that coffee prosecutor guy. and his cape starts billowing #the more he breaks down his neck thingies start coming undone btw. To represent his descent into guilt and his LIES becoming undone. #course as the player i have already used my magatama and seen his 35894 psychelocks. but theyre those BLACK psychelocks #representing his repressed memories taken by the brimhats. also his glasses shatter out of nowhere when you keep presenting evidence #and tartah's testimony etc. and the player is like UHH this guy is A PUPPET MASTER but coco's heartfelt testimony commands the tone #and of course he's someone who has been twisted and damaged by trauma like adrian andrews. the mastermind is of course the brimhats #only me with my magatama knows that... only i can do it. It has to be me..... #just like how as the reader i can see everything about qifrey and i can hold him dear as much as i judge him #whereas if i were oru things would not be ok unless memories can be restored and mentally ill decisions can be illuminated #WELL ANYWAY !!!!! what i appreciate about ace attorney is its ability to mix silliness with seriousness #i cant usually make jokes about serious heavy heartbreaking stuff in witch hat because it is all very intense emotions for me #but i appreciate ace attorney's mix of sincerity and psychological pain and the inherent silliness to being a character in a situation #so.....Get Iguin on the stand. Now. BAILIFF.. TAKE OFF THE MASK #i would most love to be able to prove qifrey's eyesight is failing. hed be like I have no reason to pursue the brimhats (smiles pleasantly) #and it would be like You're lowering your gaze.. proof that the court lighting is too harsh for you..! #his glasses would crack at that moment btw. I used apollo's bracelet and saw the glyphs on the glass. #I know all about u. and i will save u

[venacoeurva]

I remembered those sweater dresses existed, hence this couple’s photo

Also the upside down sea sunset is a motif with Kurk, probably gonna be a symbol for him?

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#kurk the orc #wren nerevarine #demiprince #tes #the elder scrolls #tesblr #artsyfartsyness #Kurk does represent the avoidance of pain and subconscious unacknowledged and stigmatized ways mortals go about it #so I think it's a good symbol for it--you don't see the sun below the horizon but it's there and his realm is heavily water themed #so also associated with water being memories--thus also pain #he's waiting on the obscured side of it to feed off those who go to extremes #which I think is also why he has a decent following of vampires who endure suffering hunger because they don't want to harm others

[demonboyhalo]

The only true death is being forgotten, so yes, Technoblade will never die. His memory won't wither when it's 10 million strong, and the joy he gave the world can't be taken away. We will remember Technoblade. We will not allow him to die.

#death tw #i know this is going to feel impossible for a while. like you can't belive this isn't a joke - that it's actually happened #and every reminder of reality makes you start crying all over again. so don't be afraid to take time to yourself and stay offline #take as much time as you need - because i know the pain sucks. it REALLY fucking sucks #but there's nothing to be done for it besides keep going. keep moving and time will move with you and it WILL get better #we will always have his memory and even now that he's gone we have the laughter he left behind for us #keep living. we will not allow his memory to die. #technoblade

[dynjir]

Memory Lane

Part 1 of 2

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Initially this was just going to be a series of really rough sketches, but the more I stared at it, the more it kept growing..?

I have no concept of reasonable project scopes <:'D

#dynart #castle of nations #law of talos #karl #rachel #unknown-person #unknownpsn #fun fact! I used to play piano when I was a kid and the flute in high school! #3/4 time actually isn't that bad #there's honestly much worse times out there you could be stuck with #but I do have memories of me struggling with it when I first encountered it on the piano #and this is actually how I got taught to get used to it :] #one thing to be envious about being a creature with no pain receptors though #is that Karl will never experience muscle fatigue #because WOW can practicing hurt your fingers OW #and therefore Karl can practice for literally as long as he wants #or at least until someone kicks him out for playing the same song 900000 times lol #also pls don't stare at the details too hard ok I really didn't plan on making this a Big Thing when I first made it

[robo-dino-puppy]

the throne room

#horizon forbidden west #hfw #hfw memorial grove #hfw little details #don't look toooooooo close at the last pic lol #it's two shots sloppily merged together #because i couldn't get what i wanted in one shot #these are taken from the roof btw #so i guess this is technically #hfw out of bounds #out of bounds exploration #because it's a pain in the ass to get up there especially now #'cannot enter this location' oh yeah game? wanna BET?!

[i-drop-level-one-loot]

Won't Kirtch get lonely after we die if he doesn't adopt another human? Would he adopt a different pet? I don't want him to be sad 🥺👉👈

You ever have a pet that almost ruined pets for you? Your absolute best friend, the sweetest animal you've ever met, whose personality was so unique and wonderful that you unintentionally compare every other animal to them? Kirtch wouldn't be lonely; he didn't get a human because he was lonely, but because humans are scarce since Earth is a no-fly-zone, and he was excited to get a chance to meet a human. He would miss (Reader) terribly, but he wouldn't allow his pain to taint their memory. Unless Kirtch hired a pirate to smuggle a human off of Earth illegally the chances he would even see another human in next to none. Maybe if he saw a human in terrible circumstances and felt the need to rescue them he would, but Kirtch works be content with the memories ❤️

#thank you for interacting with me #pet human #alien #yandere alien #you would be a fond memory #not a painful reminder #he didn't adopt to cure his loneliness #but because he wanted you

[theladyyavilee]

do you ever think about how buck was able to pull and lift eddie to safety, while eddie wasn’t able to either pull or lift buck? like I know the physics were different and eddie would be able to pull and lift buck under the same circumstances that buck did it, it was just impossible to lift him up onto the ladder in contrast to doing the standing lift buck did to get him into the firetruck but still WHAT A FUCKED UP PARALLEL to incorporate both pulling and lifting again *screams into hands* (also to have both of those instances in the shooting be the only times eddie is making noises of pain, which while horrifying to hear were also indicators that eddie is still very much alive to feel it, while buck was just quiet and dead, but that’s another kind of fucked up)

#9-1-1 #buddie #nobody does parallels like 911 #yes I am still stuck on the lightning strike #and the visuals and the parallels #and eddie's desperation as he tried to pull buck up #he must have known from years and years of experience (and an innocent but intimate familiarity with buck's body) that he wouldn't #be able to pull him up like that #and yet #our base instinct is still to pull our loved ones in close because proximity does help with protecting someone #offers your own body as a last resort to shield them so OF COURSE it's instinct to pull buck close #but eddie can't #he can't even do that when buck did it for him #(also eddie screaming in pain when buck pulled him and lifted him is one of the reasons why I have trouble believing that eddie doesn't #remember it because I would imagine that that pain cut through the hazziness and confusion and burned the impressions into his memory right #next to buck's blood spattered face but aslkdfjasjkl obvs there's no proof for that) #either way I am convinced eddie knows that buck pulled him to safety and he couldn't #anyways #hello yes #I am having a parallel breakdown on this fine sunday morning

[furiousgoldfish]

my osdd brain: Oh your friendship fell apart? Your friend did the worst thing possible to you and then abandoned you? Ok I'm on it. Memories of the whole friendship erased. You will only ever remember the betrayal.

What do you mean this wasn't what you wanted? I know better. Memories of good times are your enemy. If you remembered you would miss your friend and go back to them despite them being dangerous to you (see: ultimate betrayal and abandonment). This is for your own good.

#memory loss #i feel like i'm trapped in a loop #because this keeps happening #i remember none of my friendships #but all of the painful and triggering endings #i keep re-living only those moments #but i cannot remember a second of feeling happy or safe with them #which then turns my entire life into a series of betrayals and abandonments #i feel empty inside

[sunforgrace]

dean “reacts in new, interesting, fucked up ways to losing cas” winchester and they’re telling me that has nothing to do with nothing in the finale after cas literally confessed his romantic love the act of which was his moment of true happiness and subsequent sacrificial death. haha okay

#did anyone try the consciously choosing to pull that trenchcoat out of the water fold it up and transfer it between each new car #putting it in the trunk from car to car just keeping it until the moment he puts it back in cas’ hands i thought the transferring the #trenchcoat between each non impala car was lovely #orrrr the time his brain literally rewrote his memory. because the reality of cas choosing to stay behind in purgatory rather than #going with dean was more painful than a memory where dean failed to save him and cas was reaching out to him desperately. and he couldn’t #save him. that he NEEDED to remember it that way to cope. #and then seeing cas on the road and at the window (I’m so cold I’ve come home) and fully believed he was seeing visions of him. #FROM DEEP MOURNING ENTIRE ARC TO COWBOY TIMES. and this time it’s pretty much fine you guys don’t worry about it. #after a love confession which. is literally the death of him. the act of loving dean in that moment and doing so openly both his true #happiness and his cause of death. which he chose. okay! #surely dean ‘very capable of being normalcore about castiel the angel’ will experience no rammys from this #(also by fucked up I don’t mean wrong I mean he does not do well it is not a good experience for him)

[starheirxero]

this isn't rlly related to anything but tsams has a theme of grieving what's still there/grieving what never was and it never fails to make me weep n siffle. btw

#xero says things #xero thoughts and rambles #it's a type of grief that's so terribly specific but so terribly heartbreaking i think #yes that's your brother but is it really? it's his personality and his appearance but the new habits and patterns of speak are a reminder- #-that the memories he had of the life you shared before are long gone. he doesn't remember the pain you shared. #yes you could have had a loving older brother who took care of you because he loved you and not because he viewed you as a pawn. #but he didn't. did he? #the phantom in your head and on your cheek reminds you of that. but it's what could have been. #yk? yk???? #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams