#bc this stuff is so hard

[chemblrish]

7 April 2024

I still don't know how I managed to power through ~200 ochem problems for the upcoming test but I have to say I'm impressed

#the thing about studying chemistry #(or just stem in general probably) #is i solved all these problems and yet i know i can't count on getting anything above just passing #bc this stuff is so hard #but hey i ordered those periodic table patches! #mine #studyblr #chemblr #studyspo

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[wardingshout]

Zelda goes mushroom girl

#tloz #a link to the past #zelda #link #my art #I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one... #I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea #I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat. #it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd #if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl...... #I'm falling back into my old ways rn though #anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends #like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder #they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it #in a proper way that might make sense.... #if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth #and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh

[jimimn]

happy birthday to the most relatable cutie, jimin 🥰 (insp.) (cr. jung-koook, qdeoks, namuspromised. transl cr. taee, bts-trans)

#btsgif #jimin #park jimin #bts #userbangtan #btsedit #* #*jm #*comp #m:bday #jimin day 23 #not fully satisfied w this set bc i feel like i missed so many things that would maybe be better but i couldn't find/think of more stuff so #anyway i worked hard on it DGHJSDHJS. #HAPPY BDAY LOML <3333333.

[lotus-pear]

god i love skk sm i wish gay ppl were real :(

#LOTUS DRAWING ACTUAL POSES AND NOT JUST BUSTS??? WOAH #i swear i actually know anatomy and stuff i just never draw it bc it's too much effort #going to bed <<<<< staying up until two thirty to draw your otp #ALSO.. for those of you who know i'm rewatching bsd w my friend whose never seen it before.. we finally got to ep9 #and she IMMEDIATELY clocked in on skk's toxic exes energy😭😭 #also she calls chuuya childe bc hes a ginger and his first reaction to seeing dazai was “fight me >:)” #she was like “omgg..hes part of the evil organization🤭 and has beef w the protag (he wants to fuck them😏) *giggles* wait. TARTAGLIA😨😨‼️” #I WAS TRYING SO HARD NOT TO SCREAM.. I COULDNT LET HER KNOW HOW DISTRAUGHT I WAS HEARING THAT FOR THE TENTH TIME #anyway we finished s1 and chuuya's her fav character so far let's see if she can learn his actual name and stop calling him childe😭😭 #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #soukoku #skk #lotus draws

[queenboimler]

#dimension 20 #critical role #the adventure zone #d&d #mine personally was TAZ: Balance #and it consumed my life #also reblog!! esp if you put other im so curious #/ i want to find new d&d stuff to watch/listen to!! #ive only played irl a few times bc it is SO HARD to get a group of busy adults on the same schedule #my real pipeline to dnd was: tumblr gifs of mcelroy tv show->mcelroy tv show->mbmbam->taz balancs #so really tumblr was what led me to my path of d&d #i didnt really discover d&d until i was an adult bc table top games and other board games were banned in my home growing up #my brother and i came to blows constantly over the lord of the rings edition of risk that my mom just said NO MORE

[sabellart]

bringing these guys back around in honor of seeing the beloved once again

#i’m so normal about her #barriss offee #self repost bc making new stuff is hard #star wars #sabeldraws #tcw #ahsoka tano #luminara unduli #the clone wars #fanart #sw

[fiendishartist2]

redraw of this post from bunnyfarm's release

kofi|instagram

#my last piece kinda disappointed me just bc i feel like i can do better #idk i think my style is taking a turn and im not sure how to work w it yet. i like messy art that looks kind of childish?- #-if that makes sense #but that kind of clashes w my way of drawing and i also have like no energy or creativity left bc of school </3 so its hard to draw #at least stuff that i really like that are like fully rendered and not just doodles or character standing w white background lol #so i took inspo from an old piece of mine to make this and sort of update it and i really like it!! i think my colours are way better #in the original they were kinda washed out i think and this is a lot more striking #me when primary colours #my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #the walten files #twf #bunnyfarm #sophie walten #jack walten #felix kranken #twf spoilers #tw eyestrain

[ruporas]

kiss (ID in alt text)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun stampede #trigun maximum #this is also from a while ago... *kicks rocks* i keep on forgeting to upload stuff. also as u can see... my numerous kisses from before #but stampede vs maximum in my brain basically #ultimately they are both screwed in every versions but at different paces(?) #stampede im so screwed (trying to be normal) #maximum im so screwed (already resigned that they cant be normal about it) #doomed for tragedy but kiss kiss while they can #i very much enjoy drawing stampede vs max schtuff bc i have a hard time verbalizing What exactly their differences are #but i guess w stampede - to me - they feel more impulsive while simultaneously capable of being in deep denial #and with max its the opposite - hesitant and slow but the acceptance is already there........ my brain is mush so im not going to #elaborate more than that but i think this is also why i find stamp vw x max vw interactions fun to think about #ruporas art

[samipekoe]

food....water.......konakaga....

#lucky star #izumi konata #hiiragi kagami #i usually think of different captions for each site but this one is good #konakaga #its so hard to draw romantic stuff with konata bc whe is so funny looking

[itseghost]

collection of some molly sketches :] im obsessed with drawing him smiling hugely looking mischievous

#mollymauk tealeaf #mollymauk fanart #critical role #critical role fanart #mighty nein #the mighty nein #critrole #m9 #clip studio paint #id in alt text #artistic nudity #kind of? you cant even really see his ass bc of the tail so its pretty tame. but idk #anyways big smile screen right hand gesture is apparently my go too molly pose #ive been itching 2 color these for ages #im so swamped with stuff for school that its hard to justify fanart LMAO but i finished a lot of stuff this week so i gave myself a treat #YAYYYYYY #itseart #ALSO i think im realizing i dont work with purples as a base color that often??? #but its rlly fun to paint purple skin

[ccircusclwn]

smt smt finally finished playing melody of moominvalley....... uhhh yeah i found the woodies part very cute love those little guys!!

sm doodles bcs i needed to draw smt moomin related after finishing the game or i would explode

#my art #moomin #snufkin: melody of moominvalley #snufkin #moomintroll #how do you tag moomin characters i gen dont know #uhhh cant believe my moomin loving ways came back...... #i remember trying so hard to watch moominvalley (2019) bcs i do not live in the uk n stuff so i cannot watch it anywhere #love them!!! #i can finally sleep knowing i made moomin fanart #artists on tumblr #moomins

[mintcakeart]

Man With A Lyre by JC Leyendecker Man With A Guitar by Jam ft The Transgenderification Beam

#jam draws stuff #can you tell i placed his scars so specifically so i didn't have to draw his more complicated tattoos? #i spent like an hour trying to draw an ouroboros tattoo bc that's so eddie-core to me but i gave up linework tattoos are hard in this style #can i tag this steddie bc of the teeny tiny steve heart tattoo? implied steddie? #eddie munson #ftm eddie munson #trans eddie munson #eddie munson's scars #eddie munson's missing nipple #eddie munson fanart #implied steddie #stranger things 4 #stranger things fanart #stranger things #steddie #art #fanart #digital art #illustration #joeseph quinn #leyendecker study #jc leyendecker

[soranker]

have been super busy lately so doodled some wolfies to destress ^_^

#trigun #wolfwood #trigun maximum #oops i almost forgot to post this here #i wanted to try some ww gestures in between workin on stuff hehe #i hadnt drawn him for like OVER A WEEK before this IT WAS RLY AFFECTING ME 💀💀💀💀 #also wanted to try to emulate nightows CRAZY AWESOME ANATOMY DEFYING poses with the punisher #but then i realized I HID THE ENTIRE POSE BEHIND IT 💀💀💀 LIKE DO U EVER JUST 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 #so i just cheated n made it transparent LOLLOLLLLLLLL #I RLY HATE DRAWING THE PUNISHER BC ITS SO HARD FOR ME BUT ITS SOOOO SWAGGY 💀 #man even tho tumblr isnt my main platform anymore i love posting on here bc i can just though vomit in the tags #cant rly do that on twt or ig #its like u guys on here get a little peek into my Twisted Mind 🫶 a littol behind the scenes treat… sorta not rly LMAO #or maybe it just makes me sound crazy idk

[spearxwind]

🔻 Show your weapons 🔻

Some more experimental stuff!! I'm really enjoying the polygon tool, so I', trying to get better at it >:3c

#windyart #the hollowridge disaster #knife #adriel #hes there :) #adam #dragonfang #im pretty sure ive also drawn adam in this exact pose before i know but its a good pose so im doing it again #body horror #kind of?? yeag #given the circumstances in these drawings it is substantially toned down from what it usually is i just wanted to do some angled stuff #yeehaw though #also playing more with hard black shadows. i rly wanna use those more bc i love how they look

[shopcat]

i think in the hamster wheel of my mind a big part of where people go wrong with eddie and his shitty garage band as an extension is that they for some bizarre reason think he's gene simmons metal when he's jack black metal. heavy metal. he's tenacious d metal. he's school of rock. he's stoner lord of the rings metal he nearly wore blue jeans and plaid. jack black literally in real life once said eddie was the best character bc he's heavy metal like him. LOOK AT THIS

#🍦 #answer it's bc people think he's some mishmash of all alternative scenes without any actual knowledge of where the mashing occurs 😭 #eddie is . a heavy metal guy. A cool one. a nice one even. he likes rock and roll #it's so funny when ppl try and describe it and they've never heard the stuff he actually listens to in their lives for some reason #literally so much of the appeal of eddie's character within his subculture is that its theatrical and dramatic but its still grounded #he's very alternative and Out There but he's still just some guy. he's not wearing spiked leather jackets #in fact he's not wearing any of the other kinds of leather jackets i've seen people say he would ... TO ME #sts #if u haven't seen the clip he then proceeds to air guitar the MoP melody then shouts heavy metal is everywhere #i don't even know how to explain this bc it's like ... okay #the general .. VIBE? aestheticsm? is kind of similar to what people sometimes portray but they're missing thst it's tongue in cheek #like it's like that buff poster of him being this anachronistic homage to heavy metal album covers #fire and satanic imagery and skulls and lightning and big drama and ROCK AND ROLL #it's rock and ROLL man... #and people r making him this weird sanitised dork LOL 😭 when he's a dork in a different more fun way.. imo #and it's not that those types of people don't exist and that they're not cool in their own way cuz they are sure but that's not THIS GUY #he is an 80S METALHEAD... and yeah i try and ground him in thinfs and poke and prod at it until it fits my own understanding of alternative #scenes better but that's bc i've had a hand in the punk scene for years and years #i dunno sometimes i feel like ppl r just not doing the full potential and then going way too hard in this super specific direction #and he ends up first of all usually just a massive douchebag not sure what that's about. But a guy who he would in canon HATE 😭 #YOU ARE MAKING HIM A POSER. is what i'm saying #he is alwyas some guy before he's anything else and before he's that he's a 20 year old loser #you need to reflect this... You need to bottle it. ugh. ugh #so much of this reminds me of the time someone was like he would never wear PLAID #like are you kidding me. are you actually kidding me rn #ppl have this weird arstheticised mostly modern and mostly literallt just eboy Idea of what he'd wear it's crazy to me sorry #also it's ugly #i also think. this is so long lol . anyway . i also think going too ''authentic'' in the 80s metalhead direction also lands u w different #problems. my advice to people trying to write or draw alternative characters is they are People. before they are anything else #🍏