#basically everyone is neurodivergent

[dimonds456-but-only-hlvrai]

stims.

Gordon: Stomping, tapping hands and feet, arm waving, shaking fists exaggeratedly (not in like an angry way but in a hand-flappy way). Also will quote memes and iconic posts he likes as audio stims. He would air drum.

Benrey: Sweet Voice (theres no way thats not a stim), singing, audio stims with random noises. Will sometimes also stim with fists. Rocks from side to side.

Tommy: Hand flaps, stomping, rocking both back and forth and side to side. Phonic audio stims.

Coomer: Moving his hands/arms in general, reciting things he found interesting / sentence stimming. Would also bounce his knee.

Bubby: Hand flaps, foot taps, snapping, clapping. Would also slam his hands down on a desk as a stim, listen to me. Would probably also air drum, but is more likely to air guitar.

Darnold: Mostly audio and vocal stims! Foot tapping, snapping, and finger taps. Quotes entire episodes of TV shows verbatum. Tends to just Make Noises.

Other thoughts: If you put Tommy, Benrey, and Darnold in a room together, there is a high chance they'd start communicating at each other by going "AE!" and other verbal stims.

Gordon and Bubby would make a great air band, and there is a good chance Coomer could get roped into it as well.

Tommy and Benrey will often stim at the same time, and bounce off each other.

Gman isn't one to stim often, but when he does it's because someone else is stimming, too. He'd probably try to mimic them, and depending on how well it resonates with him, he might start doing it on his own.

The only reason he feels comfortable stimming at all is because of Tommy.

#basically everyone is neurodivergent #hlvrai #stims #dimond speaks

[trans-axolotl]

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[maliciouscigarette]

I’ve been successfully peer reviewed and I’m pretty sure I now have tenure 💅

#196 #rule #pokemon memes #neurodivergent shitposting #executive dysfunction #executive function? I don’t know her #story of my peer review: #had a formal diagnosis for adhd but not for ASD #went to a new psych to get back on medication #in the session we basically reviewed my original diagnosis #i left with a script for meds and with a shiny new ASD diagnosis #moral of the story: now that I have been peer reviewed and granted tenure #I can clearly armchair diagnose everyone in my life #and be 100% correct every time #this is not fallacious at all

[zappylionlover]

Hm. I miss the old days of long headcanon posts.

Reblog this post with ur fave hcs in the tags. Both ooc and source compliant. I wanna see self indulgent and basically canon alike. I want to see yall get project-y and silly with it. I want to see ur 10 page essay on ur headcanons.

Headcanons are a belessing we all deserve to indulge in bc theyre silly and fun

#I'll go first #jing yuan has chronic fatigue and thats why hes so sleepy #luocha listens to vocaloid. idk why but i can see it #he would also stan miku #not bc hes basic but bc hes a sucker for classic vocaloid #caelus and stelle have chronic pain because of the stellaron #i read that hc somewhere on here and i love it so much #argenti is aromantic and bigender #i love aros who are in love with love and beauty of the world and tbh argenti is that guy #im also that guy LMAO #himeko is an ace lesbian #just her vibes tbh #everyone on the astral express is neurodivergent #no i will not elaborate #but iykyk #dan heng has some small scales along his upper arms thighs and spine bc of the tampering with the molting rebirth #march always has cold hands #hook will be a trailblazwr when she grows up :) #jing yuan likes having his hair played with #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr headcanons

[agrebel18]

idk if this is just me but I’m unfortunately so used to people of all ages and political spectrums being so casually ableist that I get incredibly shocked and especially relieved whenever I encounter someone who is visibly/openly disabled or even just someone who supports disabled existence and is willing to be an ally

#this goes for neurodivergence and chronic illnesses too #basically everyone #aggie posts #ableism #disability #disability pride #disability positivity

[somecunttookmyurl]

non-queer/gender boyfriend content incoming

rhys: *showing me an image on his fb feed that says 'autistic play is not inappropriate play'* what does this mean? inappropriate play?

me: autistic children will often play or interact with things differently to their neurotypical peers like... instead of building something with lego just sorting the blocks into size and colour or what have you and non-autistic adults see this as doing it "wrong" or not "appropriately" and try to stop it and force you to "play" how you are "supposed to". but there is nothing wrong with engaging in play differently as long as it isn't hurting someone, you're simply having fun in a way they don't understand. repeatedly trying to force autistic children to "play properly" isn't going to work it's just shitty and will make them feel bad because they don't understand what they're doing "wrong"

rhys: ohhhhh! is that why my mum would get frustrated with me for just posing my action figures on a shelf in cool ways and would try to get me to like. bash them together

me: yep! the "normal" way of playing with action figures is to act out scenes and make them interact with each other. but you had more fun arranging them nicely and looking at them.

rhys: i don't think she meant anything bad by it

me: not intentionally, no. she just didn't understand that is how you played and thought you just didn't know what you were doing and were confused

#i'm adhd not autistic #so forgive me if i'm incorrect on anything #but he's never been part of an accepting or informative neurodivergent community #so he's autistic but doesn't have any understanding or connection to that really you know? #only that he was in a special class at school with other kids who were autistic and he didn't like them #because they were loud and 'weird' and he didn't want to be that #he did not even know the term 'stim' until we started dating #and his ex of 7 years has an autistic brother like... #anyway again apologies if i mess this up at any point i am doing my best i'm just more connected than he is because of tumblr #i know adhd/asd is like 'well that venn diagram is basically a circle' but you know #also as a result of all this he has NO 'nd radar' which is funny #bc naturally everyone irl he vibes with is nd and i notice immediately like #you think you don't like other autistic people but i have news for you my love

[pedulum-chronometry]

Me, at work: What don’t we usually have time to do/clean? I’m in a cleaning mood 🧼 🧹😊

My coworker, visibly confused: what?

Me: you know when you just are in a mood to clean things.

My coworker, still very confused: I clean things when they are dirty or messy or need cleaning. I’ve never been in the mood ?? To clean?? 🤨

Me: (about to reply with an anecdote about my sister and mom and how perfectly normal this is) *remembers neurodivergence runs in families and realizes* 😮

#neurodivergent #the confusion on her face #how do I describe a feeling that another person doesn’t seem capable of having? #neurotypical people what is it like being you? #I swear to god I thought everyone just got mood where they decide to clean #like usually big bursts covering large areas from basic like basic dishes and counters to mopping floors and cleaning out the fridge #my god every habit I’ve modeled after my family is just a different flavor of mentally ill huh? #fucking hell #this is where I’d say ‘I need a drink’ but I can’t alcohol

[ruairy]

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#i have a manager who...reads as neurodivergent (to me as a provoably nd person) #like he just has some mannerisms #the way he speaks that everyone else says is awkward or weird #and everyone os always complaining about him and that they dont like him and hes creepy and always asking stupid questions #which makes me feel vaguely uncomfortable when my coworkers are saying such things about....nd traits...... #everyone looks at me weird or shocked when i say i like him and i get along with him lmao #like my guys maybe the problem actually lays with all of u #likes yes ok hes strict w ppl that dont follow the rules but hes also really nice #hes literally always nice to me #he was the only manager who was nice to me when i basically started crying at work bc the other managers thought i was lying when i #said i couldn't do certain duties bc of my anxiety disorder (all cerfied by hr if they had just bothered to liten to me instead of #belittling me in front of everyone lmao) #like if u dotn fuck around or argue with him about stupid shit hes one of the nicest managers we have lmao #he was also immediate on the uptake of my name change and didn't even question it and even told me to go get my name tag officially changed #and then asked to see and gave me a thumbs up when i came back with my new name tag lol #he's nice!!! ur all just ableist!!??

[britneyshakespeare]

Another Thing Wrong With The Former Gifted Kid Discourse, Since I Can't Stop Thinking About It:

people have such an unhelpful tendency to universalize their own experience when talking about the plights and struggles about Gifted Kids™—and what they are talking about is not necessarily invalid, but they're more often talking about their individual responses to their particular schools' policies. This Is Not A Systemic Analysis. it's helpful; i sympathize with you. But You Are Not Dismantling The Inequities by saying this or that happened At Your School when you were a child, and it affected you this or that way because of Who You Are.

example. i always see people talking about neurodivergence in this conversation, which is actually helpful in spotlighting how the Gifted Kid discourse often glosses over such complex intersectional issues. you can talk about how you were Gifted & Neurodivergent and how those experiences lead you to future disappointment. this is, i must stress, valid. but your analysis of your own life Is Not A Systemic Analysis. your experience alone will never speak for how the educational system and trends in policy among schools across the united states affect ALL neurodivergent people negatively because there are neurodivergent people who are Different From You. not to mention that when people point out that very often "Gifted Kid" usually correlates with some degrees of privilege, people push back and go nooooo I'm neurodivergent. people across all other marginalized identities who are systemically disadvantaged by the educational system can be neurodivergent. this does not make you, initially, when you were as a young Kid determined to be Gifted, NOT also in fact privileged.

if you are not ready to discuss experiences that were different from your own growing up, you aren't really engaging in the discourse of how to improve public education in the united states. it's a diiii-verse country we live in. not only in the ways we traditionally think of. when we think of "marginalized" or "oppressed" people, some specific and historically significant groups come to mind. when it comes to advantages that set up a child for future educational success, these broad categories often leave gaps because they lead people to generalizations, and ultimately, fatalism.

but there's really so much hope in early childhood education if we were to make things more equitable, ie like i always say UNIVERSAL PRE-K. these kids who are determined as "gifted" more often than not were just from more enriched home environments that prepared them for learning how to read, write, and do math. it's often not special innate abilities that leads to differences in outcomes for different students, but That's How The Kids Interpret It When Some of Them Are Called "Gifted." they're more often than not, not doing something that's truly exceptional or precocious for their age. they're displaying signs of age-appropriate development, when often, the kids who may be lagging behind them skill-wise just Haven't Practiced Those Skills As Much.

so yes, that's why there's a correlation in things like upper- and middle-class white kids being seemingly more successful in school (and more commonly deemed "gifted") at a young age. it's from privilege. it's not even just the implicit biases of their educators already working in their favor for their race and class. it's the fact that being more privileged, generally, means their family and parents had all of their basic needs provided for. they had more time to read with you. they could buy more development-promoting toys. they probably had better mental health to cope with the demands of child-rearing. if they suffered chronic or sudden physical health issues, they were insured. privileged children are usually less exposed at a younger age to the harshnesses of this world, as every child should be. ALL of these little advantages build up, in terms of what a child can be provided with before they go to school. anything that's going wrong in a child's family system can negatively impact them without them even being old enough to understand it.

you may not think of yourself as Privileged. you might prefer to think of yourself as Gifted. Gifted is so nice, even if it's demoted to Former Gifted. at one point you were told you were superior and it felt really good. and You, reader, i do not know You. i'm not calling You privileged, even if you are! hell, everyone's privileged in some way. i am at the point in the post where for transparency's sake i think i should say I Could Be What Some People Call "Former Gifted". i was called smart as a kid and given special homework sometimes etc. i'm not calling any Former Gifted people stupid for not realizing this either. what i mean is that this kids Are Not Usually Actually Gifted. this is a compliment given overwhelmingly to children who were just simply not deprived. when people say they were once Gifted, they're more often than not saying I Had The Early Opportunities To Learn Everyone Should Have, But Doesn't. this doesn't make you an outlier. It Might Just Be A Sign of Privilege.

#also I Am Privileged #i wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth in fact my parents were unemployed for much of my childhood #and there were many medical stressors for multiple of my immediate family members that complicated things #my father was diagnosed w type 1 diabetes when he was recently laid off in a pre-affordable care act world. #but in terms of having basic needs met and provided for. i did! #i didn't know the differences for my family's circumstances #also both of my parents are college-educated which helped them get out of that and helped provide for the privilege i was born into. #I Acknowledge These Privileges Not Because They Make Me Bad But Because Not Everyone Has These Things Handed To Them! #privilege doesn't mean you don't struggle. it means you don't struggle as much as you could've. #things couldve been worse #rant #long post #im not making it rebloggable bc i dont trust this website lol #people wanting to say 'im not privileged im neurodivergent' in this convo just grinds my gears #theyre making it seem like 'gifted' = neurodivergent which is NOT true #even if what they were praised for seems in retrospect to them to be their neurodivergent qualities. and #how that might emotionally interact with the future disappointment of realizing you're Not Special. #or even the social isolation you MAYBE experienced from your own school's policies for students like you! #that's again though not a systemic analysis but a personal one. and that's fine. that needs room #but people will assign a disproportionate amount of importance on their individual experience. and deny they could be privileged! #it feels very 'oh officer id never kill my husband' but about privilege lol. #its ok to be privileged. its ok #if those privileges are that you were regularly fed and lived in a stable home and your parents were there for you then thats a good thing. #universal pre-k is what ive been driving home but really all other systemic inequalities affect educational success is what im saying. #much like suicide prevention is more than just having a hotline. it's correcting the injustices of the world that make ppl feel hopeless. #educational justice is providing an equitable world for all children SO THAT they are capable of being reached by education #let's acknowledge the layers please. please

[sunnibits]

thought that just occurred to me that I can’t believe I haven’t considered before and may not be original at all but… can we take a moment to discuss a concept…… autistic jim……… partially nonverbal jim………

#jim jimenez #jim #ofmd #I know the not talking thing was for their disguise but like THEY’RE LITERALLY NONVERBAL OK. BC I SAID SO. #‘can I go back to being a mute?’ that is a neurodivergent thing to say I’ve decided #also that thing where like autistic people often feel detached from the idea of gender?? THATS JIM #THAT’S LITERALLY JIM #I will have to think on it more but. I think I’ve definitely got something here #basically everyone is neurodivergent in this show. is the conclusion I’m reaching.

[clanoffelidae]

Always been a little bit confused by the whole ‘our ocs are often inadvertent reflections of our personal traumas haha’ like i mean yeah in a ‘horoscopes are so generic they can apply to anyone’ kind of way

Idk my characters have their own stories

‘Oh so none of your characters are at all personal reflections?’ No, it’s often clear they’re written by a singular person with core values that show up in them too in some ways, but there’s not really any of that ‘oh i struggled with an abusive family growing up and oops all my characters have abusive childhoods’ kind of stuff that I see people talking about a lot

Like I’ve got a couple of characters that are expressions of personal struggles but they’re few in number, I know who they are, and I know this because I designed them that way intentionally, everyone else is doing their own thing man idk

Seeing that topic go around always feels kinda like what being ace feels like in that I can see that there’s something I’m just not getting but everyone says it and I can kind of see how that could happen so I smile and laugh along despite that not really ‘getting the joke’

#like let’s see the untouched are LITERALLY intended to be metaphors for neurodivergency #and auru is an rp character who has mental health struggles as one of his defining characteristics #and has endeared himself to quite a few people because of it actually lol #he’s the mental health issues projection boy and turns out a lot of people i’ve played with relate 🤣 #but everyone else just kinda. has their own stuff going on. idk. #so basically i have one projection character and then a group of characters #that are INTENTIONALLY DESIGNED to be metaphors for neurodivergency #haha eldritch horrors being baffled by our world and not getting things that seem obvious to us #and so being called monsters because its OBVIOUS so they MUST know what theyre doing #which means they MUST be doing it INTENTIONALLY so they MUST be TRYING to hurt people #meanwhile the untouched have absolutely no idea what’s going on because no. no it’s not obvious. not to them. #they’re beings that exist outside of time they dont have an intrinsic understanding of what things are ‘right and wrong’ by us #and when they say theyre confused and don’t understand everyone just gets angrier at them and insists theyre lying and they MUST be #doing it on purpose - and are just trying to be manipulative #and the untouched just keep crying that they don’t understand what theyve done wrong or how to not do it again #and no one will answer them #theyre just deemed monsters #because well #its OBVIOUS - isnt it? #so saying theyre confused must be a lie #and they MUST be doing it on purpose to hurt us #even as they cry and cry that they don’t understand why we’re so angry with them and don’t know what they’ve done wrong #but again they were made that way intentionally lol #everyone else is like ‘oh beni was a feral child who lost his parents when he was young’ #my parents are alive and well and raised me quite caringly thank you lol

[puddingcake300]

I had a brain blast a few minutes ago, so i present to you the idk creature, the alternative tbh creature for ADHD representation!

#everyone feel free to use the idk creature please #it's basically just the tbh creature but looking around way more :-3 #idk creature #tbh creature #adhd #adhd stuff #adhd post #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #doodle #yippee creature

[cuntwrap--supreme]

Uh-oh! Made the mistake of watching horror content while in a delicate mental state and now I can feel I'm going to be paranoid for a while! Oopsie daisy! Silly me! Ha ha 🤪

#mental health #neurodivergent #paranoia #undiagnosed mental illness #girl i wish i knew exactly what it was so i could work with my brain on this #basically sometimes - usually when I'm big stressy - and i watch anything even mildly creepy #i start to feel like I'm being stalked by a malicious entity and i think everyone wants to hurt me and i do s lot of dumb shit #in order to avoid people (danger) but also can't be alone (more danger) and it can't be dark (shadow people) etc etc #i asked my last therapist about this and they said it's not schizophrenia even though that's kinda what I've always felt like it could be? #shrink said no one who's 'that kind of crazy' is aware that they're crazy #which is kinda very ableist #but also. hi. I'm somewhat intelligent. i can absolutely tell the difference between how my brain and others' brains work #I've also talked about this enough times over the years to know that not everyone has visual hallucinations of shadows moving #and not everyone has auditory hallucinations of either someone screaming in fright or random static with the occasional pronounced voice #it's scary as shit and my only method of dealing with it is to logic my way out of it - which doesn't always work #there's only so much you can tell yourself you're not being watched you know?

[arionawrites]

how tf did me facetiming someone i matched with on tinder turn into them giving me unsolicited advice about giving people your full attention after i already let them know that i recently got diagnosed as adhd and it’s hard for me to focus on just one thing/person and then them telling me that “based on my behavior” they think i’m autistic like ?? didn’t ask, we literally started messaging each other like a day ago, even if i am autistic (which wouldn’t be a bad thing if i am) when has it ever been socially acceptable to tell someone you JUST MET that you think they’ve got some kind of mental disorder/illness/disability/etc.

my friends have mentioned that i might be autistic and that’s fine bc i’ve spent a lot of time with them and they actually know me and i take their perspective of me very seriously because they’re the people who see me 100% unfiltered and have known me whenever i’ve been completely unmedicated. i trust their word.

this person from tinder, however, i have sent like maybe 20-30 messages to where we talked about nanowrimo and i was like omg it’d be so cool to meet someone who also writes, whether it’s as friends or as more, i would love that—only for our facetime call to be less than 20 minutes long and for them to try and diagnose me as autistic just because i, after ALREADY TELLING THEM that i have adhd and after them asking about meds and me telling them that i haven’t taken my adhd meds today because i didn’t have work and also i’ve taken multiple naps today which has made my head even more foggy and made it even harder than usual to focus, found it difficult to focus.

like. i wasn’t unresponsive. i wasn’t ignoring them. i was listening and i was responding, i just also was looking between my phone and my laptop screen.

which okay i understand that maybe i’m just frustrated because of the “based on your behavior” comment because an 18 minute facetime call does not give someone enough interaction time to try and fucking diagnose me as anything, and maybe this is more of a we just didn’t vibe and that’s fine, i don’t think they’re like a bad person or anything and if nothing else i’m glad the mismatched vibes were felt before deciding to meet up or anything, but also.

eighteen minutes. literally eighteen minutes and they fucking “based on your behavior i think you’re autistic” and “here’s some advice, when meeting new people you should give them your full attention”

FUCK that.

#idk maybe they’re also autistic and thought it was supposed to be helpful? and again i dont think they’re a bad person #and esp if they are some kind of neurodivergent they might not have realized how that comment could come across #so i’m trying not to take it too personally bc 1. i dont rlly know them 2. they dont rlly know me and 3. it has no heavy impact on my life #but also like idk it just was weird and even if they didnt intend to comment to come across like that #i can still be uncomfortable and upset about it #anyways moving on this is why i barely ever open tinder in the first place lmaooo #aricomplains #also like they probably arent all that wrong to be fair #i know it can come across as rude to not put ur full focus on someone esp someone you’ve just met and that is something i want to work on #it just felt weird that i literally explained i have adhd and its hard to focus and i promised them its nothing personal if i struggle #to focus on them while talking and like AFTER i said that they tried to give me that ‘advice’ like i hadnt already addressed it #idk i understand how my actions might have come across as rude or something but if someone told me they had adhd and struggled to focus #i would immediately know not to take it personally if they’re like fidgeting or on their phone while i talk or smth #which i also get is not something everyone has to do too like no one is required to react the same and #blah i’m overthinking this i need to stop #basically: i understand how my part in the ft call might have come across and i addressed it and tried to focus as much as i could #and if they took my lack of focus as rude i understand why and i also understand my ability to focus on people’s something i need to work on #but also the way they approached it rubbed me wrong and those comments made me uncomfortable and upset #but again i started talking to them yesterday and have no obligation to talk to them again so #take this as a lesson and a reminder of why i need to keep working on my ability to focus on people better when talking to them #and also take this as a reminder as to the kind of people i want to spend time with and thats not people who give passive aggressive advice #or try to diagnose someone they JUST met #and then take those lessons and reminders with me as i move on #ok im done now im gonna unmatch w them on tinder and also maybe just delete tinder entirely bc i barely use it anyway and would rather #try to meet people in more authentic ways #honestly my hope is that now that i’m spending like 3 days a week at the library in between shifts #i might meet another library-going sapphic and that would be VERY lovely 🥰

[yay-depression]

thinking unhappy thoughts at 1 am except these can’t even be categorized into the “no feelings past 4pm in winter are real” bc it wasn’t inherently a negative thought it was a positive thought which upon saying aloud sounded really fucking sad

#i was thinking about how nice it was to meet someone i met this past week #and how great it felt and how i felt like we clicked so instantly #and then i was like #‘huh wonder why most social interactions feel this good to me?’ #and then i realized the difference was that this person actively introduced themselves to me and started conversation #as opposed to just about 90% of the social interactions i partake in which involve me sitting alone and being ignored #until i stand up and try and butt into some of my friends conversations in some way #anyways just thinking about how very few people seem to want to interact with me #nothing like real world experiences feeding into the deep-seeded belief i have that i’m inherently unloveable #and also that i’m inherently annoying but everyone is just too nice to tell me #i am not joking when i say i genuinely have trauma from being a neurodivergent person in the midwest #going from a life of ‘if people don’t like me they will tell me’ to ‘everyone seems to not like me but won’t say anything’ #as a child was a traumatic experience and created intense feelings of inadequacy and trust issues #which i was already really vulnerable to bc i was emotionally abused as a kid #so combine having a dad who says everything you do is wrong no matter how hard you try #with friends who refuse to say what you’re doing wrong but will hold grudges against it and will be mad at you for it #but every time you ask them they say ‘no we’re not mad!’ #plus literally like a decade of me trying to make friends in this fucking hellhole of a town and getting basically nothing but laughed at #and you can see why having a good social interaction for once is actually really fucking upsetting #because HOLY SHIT is that what life is SUPPOSED TO BE?? #you’re telling me most interactions i have with people make me feel bad not bc i have social anxiety but because i’m giving it 110% #and i’m getting back maybe 10%??? #anyways it’s wishing i didn’t live in this shithole place with these shitty people hours #and wishing the world was fucking nicer to me when i was a kid bc it was so rough for 13 year old me for no goddamn reason #every day is another day of realizing i literally didn’t have a time in my life when things weren’t falling apart #until i was literally 17 #kristen

[waybrightgender]

is there any way that i can tell moirail that theyre definitely autistic or at least suggest that they look into it without sounding mean

#they walk with their arms straight at their sides they dont understand social cues their special interest is definitely herpetology #(hypothetical or otherwise) they tv talk all the time (although the tv is usually memes) they use scripts for most interactions they get #overwhelmed by loud noises and screw their eyes shut and cover their ears and rock back and forth when they happen #they dont like being touched all that much (which kinda sucks for me since thats my love language but its ok) idk their opinions on #eye contact but ill ask. ive just been taking notes for a while plus their mom is autistic (self diagnosed good for her) and idk if that #plays into anything but theres that #some more surface level things are that they like dragons and are ace and wear the same outfit every day basically or the same type at leas #(collared shirt and a skirt or leggings. or both. i saved them from jeans under a skirt at least) they like dnd and basically all their #friends are nd. ive observed that they drift to the neurodivergent ppl in a group and make fun of the neurotypical ones #so yeah. help. also a mean kid at golf camp called them autistic as an insult so idk how to say it w/o it sounding like that #like they were like “haha a kid called me autistic. isnt that crazy. im so neurotypical” and went on to call some reptile a “crocodilian” #and make everyone at the table watch multiple minute long videos of the same lizard they saw in hawaii #oh oh and ive noticed that they have hyperempathy but low emotional intelligence like they wont notice if im like super depressed but theyll #burst into tears if a lizard is held wrong. or if someone like throws a toy at a wall #and they hate little kids because theyre overwhelming and unpredictable