#and not everyone has auditory hallucinations of either someone screaming in fright or random static with the occasional pronounced voice

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Uh-oh! Made the mistake of watching horror content while in a delicate mental state and now I can feel I'm going to be paranoid for a while! Oopsie daisy! Silly me! Ha ha 🤪

#mental health #neurodivergent #paranoia #undiagnosed mental illness #girl i wish i knew exactly what it was so i could work with my brain on this #basically sometimes - usually when I'm big stressy - and i watch anything even mildly creepy #i start to feel like I'm being stalked by a malicious entity and i think everyone wants to hurt me and i do s lot of dumb shit #in order to avoid people (danger) but also can't be alone (more danger) and it can't be dark (shadow people) etc etc #i asked my last therapist about this and they said it's not schizophrenia even though that's kinda what I've always felt like it could be? #shrink said no one who's 'that kind of crazy' is aware that they're crazy #which is kinda very ableist #but also. hi. I'm somewhat intelligent. i can absolutely tell the difference between how my brain and others' brains work #I've also talked about this enough times over the years to know that not everyone has visual hallucinations of shadows moving #and not everyone has auditory hallucinations of either someone screaming in fright or random static with the occasional pronounced voice #it's scary as shit and my only method of dealing with it is to logic my way out of it - which doesn't always work #there's only so much you can tell yourself you're not being watched you know?