#b/p

[ivehadthatdream]

Just a reminder that people only see you if you're not fat.

I definitely can tell I get treated differently when I'm at my heaviest vs when I was at my LW. It sucks but its true. If you're fat they can't see you. They just see a fat person, not the soul you are.

Every. Fucking. Day. I wanna rip myself apart for gaining all my weight back. I miss being at 220. Even tho 220 is still fat, people could at least see me. They treated me so much better then, vs now with me being 290 *yes I've gained even more weight :(((((*

I want to crawl out of my skin. I hate myself.

#tw ed #tw ed vent #bingedisorder #notprojustusehashtags #notprojusttags #anamia #adult ana #pro a4a #obese ana #plus size ana #bul1m14 #b/p #fat ana #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #c🌧 #binge eating disorder #an0rex14 #binge and purge

[dietcokeanddepression]

i feel like a drain on the worlds resources because i get paid disability benefits because of being autistic and having adhd but i spend a fuck ton of it just on foods for my binge-purge sessions and i feel like such a burden i just want to disappear.

#disordered eating thoughts #ed not ed sheeran #pro for me not for thee #bulim14 #relapse #tw ana diary #thinspø #tw ed diet #@na buddy #i want to be tiny #sk1nny #bulimima #bully mia #b/p #i want to be weightless #b/p cycle #ed bllog #i want to cry #i want to cvt #i want to purge #i want to disappear #can't do this anymore #want to die #anablr #bul1m1c #bul1m14 #bul1mic #bu11imic #bu1imia #tw mia

[justanotherstardrop]

i can't stop binging

#honey's art #dni pro ana and kink #bed #pic #ed tw #ed #tw #eating disorder #eating disorders #binge eating disorder #binge eating #bingepurge #bp #b/p #ana #mia #anamia #miaana #fat #bed art #binge eating art #big #chubby #body discomfort #body dysphoria #body dysmorphia

[unknownteethtaker]

🥰❤️💖✨ Just GirliePop Things: Being quite literally moments away from spontaneously disembowelling myself ✨❤️💖🥰

#pro only for myself #trans ana #ed male #ed vent #tw ana diary #b/p #ed disorder #self h@rm #cvtting addict #ana meal

[meltingwys]

I met my moot on edtwt irl the other day, it was soooo fun. We gave eo lots of cute gifts and played with Legos. It was so weird and new being able to speak my disordered thoughts out loud 😅❤️ It was a really lovely day with a lovely person, I'm still v happy

#anor3×14 #tw ana related #Anamia #skini #Thin #Thinspo #Edtwt #Edblr #Skinny #B/p #disordered eating #weight log #th11n$p0 #110lbs #i want to be thin #Ana thoughts

[satoones]

ranting about my day to you :)

so, i'm terrible at restricting which i'm trying to get better at, but i'm PERFECT at b/p. so here's my day for who's interested:

05/03/23

i fasted for 20h, i was going to "omad" my dinner, my only meal. that was my intentttttttiooooonnnnnnnnn, ok? ok. so, i went to the grocerie store buy cucumbers & brocolis for my low cal dinner and only meal and cookies for my grandma cuz i live with her. are you seeing where this is going now? ARE YOU SEEING IT? well. after that i went to run and walked for a bit to burn some calories and then prepared my dinner & added an edd without yolk to my plate. that was my "omad". after dinner i decided to steal one cookie from my grandma AND THERE YOU GO. THERE YOU GOOOOO. AT 11.50 I WAS DESPERATE TO EAT TONS OF COOKIES AND MILK WITH COFFEE AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED? EXACLTY, I DID IT. so i had to purge it all out. so i fasted, and runned, and walked, burned the calories, FOR NOTHING. and i was happy before thinking "if i dont eat after this dinner i will be so glad and happy for myself" well. do you think i purged most of the calories of the milk and cookies out thooo? i hope so. im so dumb ffs.

#tw b/p #b/p #ed but not sheeran #disordered eating thoughts #tw ana shit #bing3 eating #tw ed diet #4norex14 #bulimi4 #ednos #mia stuff #ana stuff #tw ed rant #ed blog #ed vent #ed not sheeran

[dog-v3ntz]

binging been kicking my ass fr rn

#tw b/p #tw b1nge #b1nge tips #b1nge eating #b/p ana #b/p cycle #b/p

[life-death-bones-breath]

Last night after drinking I convinced myself that its okay to eat more and my intake ended up being around 2000. I deeply regretted it this morning after weighing myself, horrified to see that I'd gained at least a pound. I know it could be water and the food I had in my gut, but I set a plan to not go over 500 today and have mostly just liquids. So far so good, I'm still under 300 for the day.

Alcohol makes it easier to justify my compulsions. I had 6 drinks yesterday, I felt so stupid after having all that. I'm high key an alcoholic so I have to be very careful with it.

No alcohol today. Proud of myself for that. I think that's making it easier to r3str1ct. I ate lunch so I wouldn't look sus, then un-ate it.

Here's to staying on track. I better not fuck it up lol

#m14 #m114 #ems posts #r3str1ction #bvlim14 #pvrge #b/p #ems diary posts #4n4m14 #4n4

[kingortheviceroy]

no cap why is my friends preteen sister making me want to relapse

she lowkey has binge ED which i struggled with before becoming anorexic and she posts like pro ana shit and thinspo on her snap

i could show her what being skinny really is

#pro 4 me not 4 thee #notprojustusehashtags #not pr0 just using tags #pro a4a #pro a4n tips #just ana culture #ana trigger #b/p

[fckdmotivation]

Does anyone else feel alone in their ED??

#ana miaa #buliimix #bullimya #miaa #not pr0 m1a #b/p

[star-shard]

Pshhh whatever thats her problem (her is me)

#self destruction #drinking #b/p

[ivehadthatdream]

Been at work since 8 am and I've gotten hit on 3 times. They're really hyping me up I'm like daaamn I go one day without binging now they all want me 💅 😩 imagine in a couple months when I'm back down to 220. Then i can't even imagine how it'll be once I start getting below 200!!!

I love men who aren't afraid to love big girls out loud. I just wish i could love myself out loud too :/

#tw ed #tw ed thoughts #bingedisorder #notprojusttags #notprojustusehashtags #anamia #adult ana #bul1m14 #b/p #pro a4a #an0rex14 #obese ana #plus size ana #fat ana #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #c🌧

[dietcokeanddepression]

gotta love how my friends know i was meant to be recovering from an ed but they still don't question why i'm not eating! i'm not sure whether to be glad they're not pressuring me or to feel shit about how they clearly don't gaf

#anablr #b/p cycle #b/p tw #bul1m14 #bulim14 #disordered eating thoughts #ed not ed sheeran #pro for me not for thee #relapse #sk1nny #want to be thin #i want to be skinnier #sk1nny aesthetic #ana trigger #a4a diary #b/p #thinspø #tw ana diary #tw ed diet #⭐️ving

[justanotherstardrop]

. ed tw in tags

#We are splitting and just wanna b/p so bad but we're gonna have a snack #ed tw #ed #tw #b/p #b/p tw

[unknownteethtaker]

It's the, "stares blankly into binge food while fun and happy music from a diet video plays on YouTube in the background" for me ✨✨

#pro only for myself #trans ana #ed but not sheeran #ed male #ed vent #ed disorder #ednotsheeran #b/p

[mybrainjustpaused]

My partner just caught me using behaviours and I just want the ground to swallow me up. He looked so sad.

#personal #why can't i just stop #b/p