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kuroopaisen · 4 years

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Hi! I hope you’re still accepting matchups? If you are, i was hoping i could get one? A lil bit bout myself: im an infp! I really enjoy creating art and hope to become an art teacher in the future since i really want to give back to my community! Im a very passionate person! I love getting inspired by everything and everyone around me and love to put my all into everything i do!! Im also very emotional, and ngl can be a crybaby- from seeing something so inspiring, to a Disney movie—

—nothing can stop these tears lolol im the eldest of four siblings, so im very motherly towards them, and i love giving them big bear hugs whenever i can! When it comes to others tho, im very shy and get nervous when they hug me,, im tall(5”9) :””) and im a disaster bi anyways, sorry if i rambled way too much!! Im hella excited to see what you’ll be writing next! Please remember to take breaks and drink some water/eat a snack! Dont over extend yourself, kay? 💕💗💖 peace~

aaaaaa you’re so so nice!! thank you so much for your kind words (and don’t worry, i ramble too)

okay so rambling over and done with, i match you with…

kuroo tetsuro!!

✧ i love him so much that i hate him dskljfd okay but first of all – intimidatingly tall couple that everyone thinks is really cool, but in reality you’re both just. the Biggest Softies

✧ he really admires your passion!! kuroo’s the sort of person who puts his all into it if he cares about something, and he’d really love seeing that in his partner. whenever your super focused on your art, or your face has lit up while you’re talking about your passions, kuroo can’t help but watch while smile fondly.

✧ he also admires how you look at the world. it’s really beautiful that you’re able to see inspiration in the world around you and the people in it, and i think it’s something kuroo would be impressed by. there’s something in the sheer earnestness of it that he finds endearing.

✧ he’s also endeared by the fact that you want to give back to your community through teaching. it reflects a generous and humbled spirit, and it’s something kuroo wishes more people had. i think nekoma’s focus on teamwork reflects a community-minded spirit, too, and kuroo really spear-heads that. i can definitely see the two of you getting into charity or volunteering when you were older

✧ what i’m getting at is that he really admires you dkljdlj but he’s a clever guy, and he cares a lot about people (even if it’s not so obvious with his temperament). your mindset would just be really appealing to it, and i think he’d find it refreshing (and tbh, your uniqueness is part of what draws him to you in the first place)

✧ you’re so nice, and i think that’s something kuroo would be drawn to. sure, he doesn’t tend to come off as notably nice compared to some other of the other guys, but i definitely feel like it’s baked into his values there. i think it’d really make his heart go to see you interacting so kindly with the team, especially kenma.

✧ he definitely teases you for crying so easily – look, he loves you, but nobody is safe from his dry sense of humour. but, in reality, he thinks it’s really cute; he loves that you’re so emotionally open to things, whether it be the beauty of the world or an animated movie. and honestly he loves being able to take care of you whenever the tears start kldjflkj

✧ oh, also, he loves giving you hugs. he loves seeing you get all shy and nervous – like i said, he’s still going to tease you. but, he’s pretty good at reading people, so he’d never do anything that would make you uncomfortable. but if he’s got an opportunity to make you blush?? oh boy

✧ listen, this boy loves your art, and seeing how it reflects what you see in the world and what inspires you. he loves how personal it becomes because of that, and being able to gain even just a small insight into your worldview. oh, and if he ever pops up as something that inspires you?? that’ll touch him more deeply than he can put into words

✧ goodness i love this concept of a sly, cheeky turoo protecting his cinnamon roll of a partner,,, i am getting Emotional thank you for coming to my ted talk–

other possible matches

✧ yachi hitoka: listen, disaster bi?? yachi’s definitely a disaster wlw (that scene where she meets kiyoko?? A DISASTER– anyway, i think you and yachi would be so cute!! she would love your take on the world around you, and would be so fascinated by your artistic process. also, yachi is definitely a crybaby too,,, there are constant waterworks in this couple but in a good way?? she’s very supportive, too, and she loves seeing your art!! she’s always so impressed by what you produce, and she usually has it set as her phone background to remind her of how she’s lucky to have you as a part of her life, and that you’re looking out for her. please look after my daughter i love her so much–

✧ kageyama tobio: okay, it was really hard to choose a third person for you (i was torn between kageyama, bokuto, suga, tadashi– yeah i had a crisis on my hands) but i think the idea of kageyama trying to contend with your personality is just *chef’s kiss*. you’re so different from one another, but i think that’d be really good for kageyama!! the rest of the team is kind of surprised that you two ended up together, but your perspective and your kindness are what really endears you to kageyama. he just finds that he enjoys your company, and a part of him enjoys the challenge that your personality presents (i know that sounds weird, but like,,, you’re a challenge to his worldview, and a call for him to maybe look at things differently. and, as he likes a challenge, there’s something,,, fun about it). i’m going to stop rambling before i change my mind and rewrite this entire matchup BUT,,, you and kageyama?? top tier concept

#i really hope you like this!! thank you for your lovely message <3 #i wrote this /so/ quickly #i was -- as the kids say -- inspired #rowan plays matchmaker

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2ugars · 5 years

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ੈ♡˳ high school senior!hyuck + soccer player!hyuck all in one!!!!

ps - the high school that i’m basing off their high school is mine, which is an international american curriculum high school that has like . a very small hs population.

a lovable and troublemaker senior who interacts quite a lot w his underclassmen — a bit too much than what’s probably considered necessary

he’s always been loud n friendly even before senior year but for some reason it? sky-rocketed?

u would expect seniors to stop tryin to make friends n stuff because they’ll have to leave for college at the end of the year nyways……

but NOPE

donghyuck’s a whole other species so he. .

makes friends .

A Lot of them

some of them r accidental on the other person’s part

there was this one time where hyuck forgot his pencil case and he was asking around

and some guy in junior year was like Here u go!!!!give it back to me after school or smth :)

as promised,, donghyuck Forgot to give it to him after school but he DID give it back the morning after w a bunch of teabags

donghyuck: some tea 2 relieve ur stress! also !!!!!!! U r invited to my bday party :)

donghyuck: and my future wedding

donghyuck :D

junior: Whjat

hyuck’s that one senior who somehow knows everyone’s names?

he’s crazy

the type to say people’s names whenever he converses w them

he does it to seem closer nd to put them at ease? in a way?

has a unique handshake w 75% of the high school population

how does he remember all of that

muscle memory???????? who knows at this point

someone raised their hand during class and he flinched in his seat because he Really Wanted To Do The Handshake w them

he wouldn’t call it popularity, how a lot of people know him

“they’re just . familiar w me,” he would tell jeno

“that’s called popularity u idiot”

“n . No”

it takes him a while to let it sink in that he IS popular but he still doesnt like to call himself that since he thinks it’s awkward nd a lil off-puttinng

so he just calls himself annoying in the end lmao

“i realized,” he rells renjun one day, “that i’m most likely the most annoying senior ever. more than mark was, even, and that’s saying a lot!”

renjun hums to show that he’s listening when, really, he’s not

“it’s the perfect plan,” donghyuck continues. “i get all of them to love me this year, and when i leave, the entire secondary school will have no choice but to mourn my absence—“

“was that your plan all along?” jaemin interjects with a laugh

“of course not. the kids love me without me having to try much. but it’s a pretty good plan! i could pass it down to chenle, or something.”

renjun later tells chenle to continue to never listen to hyuck

chenle, although puzzled, agrees

hyuck’s in varsity boys’ soccer as midfield

what u would call a hidden leader

was originally appointed captain by the coach but turned it down almost immediately

Hates disappointing people

especially people who are depending and relying on him

he isn’t sure he’s ready for that much weight, being an official leader

however when the ream found out he turned down the position of captain, they made him vice-captain next to sunwoo

donghyuck: “i won but at what cost”

mood maker of the team

screams a lot on the bench in the times when he’s pulled from the field to take a break

“U GO FELIX”

“LOOK AT MY BOYS GO!?!??!?!?!”

“OOF them THIGHS”

“JEEOOONNGGGIIIIINNNN that’s my little boy. Wow. i think im tearing up”

does this not only in games but in practices !

hes quite a chatterbox

please shut him up

i’m kidding please don’t

“look alive guys!!!!!! last one to run ladders buys sushi!!!!!!”

usually ends upbeing the last one

he says he does it on purpose

he’s lying he hates running ladders

“SPREAD OUT I NEED YALL LIKE A SMOOTH LAYER OF BUTTER ON TOAST! THAT MEANS NOT CLUMPED!”

he joked that if it weren’t for soccer, he’d be on the cheer squad

won mvp in junior year and the sportsmanship award for three years running

NOT ONLY DID HE WIN SOME SPORTS AWARDS.......

HHE ALSO WO N!!!!!!!!the hearts of the middle school boys’ soccer team

it’s because he’s the coach assistant during the ms soccer season

he started coaching in his freshman year

surprisingly gets shy when the boys, in all their wide-eyed awe n wonder, call him Coach Donghyuck

“nnnnnnnNNNNNOOOO O OO O Dont say that call me hyuck instead omg plwase. NO SIAN DONT CALL ME COACJ NO”

to hyuck’s confusion and jaemin’s pure delight, hyuck’s managed to steal the hearts of the middle school girls’ soccer team as well??

he took some chopsticks from the school cafeteria because he forgot his own at home

when he finished eating lunch, he didn’t want to go all the way to the tray drop-off since it was so far from where he and the dreamies sat

and renjun’s being more annoying than usual that day and is purposely making hyuck to hurry the HECK up so that they could do some modern language homework

of course, hyuck is lazy and doesn’t want to walk that far, renjun, gosh dan g it

so he goes to a middle school girl he’s had a few random, short convos with in his bus and... .. .

“hi louise! is it okay if i place my chopsticks here for you to take it to the tray drop-off?”

the young girl startles but at the sight of donghyuck, she smiles brightly. “oh, hi, coach!”

her greeting sparks up excited hi’s and hello’s from the other girls that donghyuck acknowledges with a smile of his own

(he doesn’t bother correcting them about the title)

(he knows that no matter how many times he’ll gently scold them into not calling him coach, they’ll still persist without fail)

(so he takes it in, albeit reluctantly and with his ears turning red every time)

“that’s totally fine!” louise says.

“thaaank you!” he sings, placing it neatly beside her plate. “you’re the best. see you in practice!”

and honestly

the reason why the middle school girls love him is because he stayed after school to study one day

and when he was done, he watched one of their games that was on the home field

he was on the sidelines shouting encouragements and generally just . Screaming his lungs out

you could probably imagine how the opponent team wa s thoroughly confused as to who the boy was and why exactly he was shrieking bloody murder

after the team won, he walked over to their team huddle and, after asking permission of their coach, gave them high fives and praised them and gave them light-hearted pointers before giving them a huge HUGE smile

yeah

apparently that’s enough to have a whole armada of boys and girls willingly take your chopsticks to the tray drop-off after lunch

he likes to brag about it every once in a while

anyways hyuck is just

a really good and nice senior

who the underclassmen respect and appreciate lots

when the seniors graduate, hyuck hides his tears by laughing so much

like it’s kind of concerning how much he’s laughing renjun thinks the boy’s going to choke on his spit at this point hyuck please sto p laughign

NOTHING FUNNY IS EVEN HAPPENING HYUKC PELAS E

like hyuck started laughing when the closing speech of the graduation ceremony begun

the boys thought it was because he probably farted or heard someone else fart since he was trying so hard not to make a sound

liek all you could hear coming from hyuck was wheezing and little hiccups

and jaemin, who was sitting next to him, had to pinch hyuck’s thigh constantly with how violently he’s shaking with silent laughter

hyuck was covering his face the entire time and jaemin, widely grinning, finally pried his hands away

only his grin slowly wavered when he saw the other boy’s face

jaemin: “oh”

renjun: “what do you mean oh? the teachers are looking at us, we might not even be able to graduate if he keeps laughing, shut him u—”

there wwere tears staining hyuck’s cheeks and snot was basically running down his nose and he was laughing like a maniac and oh no, he’s losing it, renjun get tissues, what the actual HEK

the closing speech ended with a new tissue box emptied and a tissue rolled up into hyuck’s left nostril

the others were crying, too, but they were smiling

jisung approached them with wet eyes and the same awkward stance where he keeps his hands clasped in front of him and hyuck tearfully joked that he looked like That Meme and made jisung cry instead of laugh and chenle started laughing because of it but ended up crying too

HAHAHAH THE SE BBOYS BEIN CRYBABIES (imcrygin too at the thought of this i love ht em. s o mmmcuhhchl)

hyuck couldn’t help but pull the dreamies into a hug before he gets swallowed by their arms, affections, and surprisingly, their smooches

“ABOUT TIME Y’ALL PUNKS RETURNED MY LOVE”

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neptunebeetle · 4 years

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tagged by: @outlier-roddy

name: andrew

nickname: andy i suppose! I’ve also had the nickname butters bc of my old acc name which is still fine by me ^o^ its still my name on discord anyway lol

zodiac: cancer... i think im stereotypical crybaby cancer oops

height: 5’6 :T wish i was taller.. just a lil bit....

nationality: american

languages: english like i barely tried to learn german and spanish but i RLLY want to actually learn spanish i just.... no motivation

favourite flower: agudgd yeah i really don’t know?

favourite scent: hrm... desserts.. brown sugar.. brownies... sweets in general really

favourite fictional character: HNNN I DONT KNOW? Depends on whatever piece of media i guess bc i have too many.... 😳 but i do have a list for that LOL

coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: hot chocolate.. the only acceptable coffee is like cappuccinos or whatever and im just not into tea

dogs or cats: cats! I like dogs but they can be a teensy bit too loud or energetic for me.. also scary?? Lmao

number of blankets: one big one! I would die if i had more than one i burn up too easily

dream trip: gdusgeuydjbd idk?? Ummm i want to go to a tfcon at least once pls for the love of everything X_X

blog established: THIS blog really not that long ago, i think in january

random fact: i have a weird rare feature (not facial tho) that only 3-8% (number varies) of the population has, its pretty much pointless and nobody knows why its even a thing. Even more fun of a fact? Yeah i have TWO of them. Now what does THAT mean? I don’t know because google doesn’t know either

gender: who?

current time: ~1:10 AM typing this, ~1:30 AM posting it

favourite musical artists: god idk... technically i feel like i have to say Against Me! bc i love every single one of their songs but idk.. i really like Jack Stauber and Imagine Dragons XT basic ass mfer....

song stuck in my head: there’s a lot actually? Im listening to my playlist for songs as heard of on tiktok and i get so many of those stuck in my head... rn my brain is telling me Say So

last movie i saw: HM.... hmmm... i guess pleasantville? I already talked about it but it was okay

last thing i googled: i.. just googled the thing for that previous random fact question bc i was like “wait what Does two of them mean” like actually nothing shows up.. but before that i was looking up a word i forgot how to spell

other blogs: fuck urmm i do have other blogs im just too lazy to use them XT no side blogs for this one tho

lucky number: i don’t think i have a “lucky” number... my favorite number is 5 :o)

currently wearing: big t-shirt pj pants lolol

dream job: god like uhhhhhh i rlly wanted to be an animator but im leaning towards comics lately?? We’ll see idk i don’t want to work for a particular company or anything like that..... just.. want to draw

favourite foods: oh god don’t ask me this i hate food... that’s a lie i like it Sometimes... idk bro all i eat is fake meat and garbo trash... i like italian?

instruments: idk what that is (actually ive been told i should learn to play piano and i wouldnt mind that but ive never played any other instrument in my life)

favourite song: urmm i think overall probably Leopard by jack stauber bc it’s my actual absolute fave i love it sm..... can listen to it whenever and lose my marbles every time

I’m bad abt not tagging ppl in these sorts of games and im going to continue to not GDJHD

#i like being tagged in these but im just worried other ppl arent yknow ówò;#long post #ive read thru this post three times already but watch me post it and find a mistake LOLOL #DO I PUT THESE IN MY ABT TAG I FORGOT.....#abt #i guess hrmmmm

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pixelburied · 4 years

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excuse the cropped weirdly pictures; my family/pet's foster parents are great at snapping a sneaky picture of me curled into an unattractively slouched (relaxed) fetal state. which i'm self-conscious about because it's an unattractive position for pictures even tho i am quite pretty (but they are also cropped because im just also private as hell, sorry lmao).

bonus tho: said pet is laying ontop of me, face buried in my shoulder, twitching in her sleep as we speak!

--- but anyway. onto the actual submission:

so yeah. i saw your post! i'm here to address your call for dogs. but i dont have anymore pictures of my dog, Cash. however, i do have stuff about my cat, Allegra.

i dont have any of them together cuz Cash lives at my family's house and Allegra lives in my apartment. and we're p sure he'd try to eat her and she'd scratch the hell out of him, so we don't try to let them meet. but, just like how Cash continued the legacy of us adopting another big slobbery dog with possessive seperation-anxiety, Allegra does fit all the criteria of those same personality traits we are such a beacon for. so i hope youll accept it as comfort nonetheless

here's a story about my cat who acts just like a anxious, cuddly, and slobbery pupper. i even bought her a pet ID tag that's shaped like a bone to honor that joke lmao) Allegra: "the honorary and tiniest mastiff" and named after the allergy medication

i got Allegra just this last year. she was a stray. now, for context: there are lots of outdoor cats in my neighborhood and they all hate strangers (they aren't feral tho, they have collars). but they all avoided my old house though because of Cash. so Allegra, newly abandoned, took advantage of that safety(?) by constantly hiding out around my family's house whenever she felt endangered

before that point tho, where i vaguely realized she existed but had no idea of what her strategy had been: i knew the cats of the neighborhood would run 15 miles away at the sound of people. but i am a small bean of cliches, so i always say "Hi kitty" anyway. even if them running away breaks my heart. and on that day, i was on my way to work for the opening shift, not early per se but i had enough time for starbucks if i wanted (and i did want) and i saw the vague mass of a cat on the lawn. predictably, i went "Hey kitty". but i also kept walking to my car due to said expectation of cats running and not wanting my heart to have that little break

and allegra did run. she just ran at me, full speed. i almost kicked this sudden HURLING THING in my peripherals like a football out of fight/flight + anxiety, except i have the aim of Charlie Brown so i thankfully missed her terribly. she was purring up a storm and crying pathetically. tho she's a Siamese, so they talk (read: complain) a lot anyway so maybe she wasn't crying. i always call her talking "crying" anyway tho cuz of the whiny pitch of it so such is a moot point. the real point was: she was ridiculously friendly

then, one morning, she was especially incorrigible. she wouldn't let me go into the car without her jumping inside too and kept scenting me, my car door, and all my equipment for this art class i was going to use for my presentation. a presentation that was a huge chunk of my grade that i couldn't be late for and Allegra was going to make late for. i had to trick her into thinking i was going to run away from my car, to which she zoomed ahead to cut me off, except i had actually done a fake-out and had really ran into the driver's seat and was already starting to slowly reverse out of the driveway. she had the sense to not go after a moving vehicle, thank god. my family texted me she cried outside our front door for hours later though. my art class that semester met once a week, so it was a 4.5 hour class that started at 7AM. and even tho that day had been a presentation day and we had less than 15 students, we still went over 3 hours. she cried during all of it. i used the "free time" to make sure i bought a cat leash and a cardboard cat carrier. but when i came back, heard no crying

i tried to get one of my neighbors to hold onto her for the afternoon. i couldnt leave her in my old house; i had family members i lived with who were terribly allergic. but i swore, so long as someone held onto her for my shift, i could take her to a shelter after. she was just so friendly and obviously new here, i just needed someone to put her somewhere safe (we lived by the freeway, by a train, by the main alternative to the freeway, and by two dog parks). but nobody really could hold onto her, so i had to hope she'd show up again when i came back from work. she didn't. i left her food out anyway.

i took her to the Humane Society Shelter closest to us because they have a microchip scanner. and she did have a chip! that was completely empty! apparently, that's a thing!! the guy there asked if i was going to keep her then, and i hadn't really thought that far. i had made the mistake of naming her and thinking she was cute, and she had done the legwork of being a cuddly motherfucker who purred constantly whenever i was around

she'd only ever appear in the early morning, when i was on my way to my shift or a midterm. about a week or two passed like this with me having no idea where she was for the rest of the day. turns out, according to said allergic family members, Allegra actually never left the house. she would hide on our roof or on our back porch's clutter or in our droopy lawn plants (like our sweetgrass) to hide from the outdoor cats or other dangers (she's a smart cat who hates the sound of cars and would hide whenever any one was particularly loud)

i'm pretty sure she's plenty well-cared for tho. in fact, i'm almost positive she's a very spoiled cat. for example, i have backups of everything x2. i have one of everything in my living area and a copy in my bedroom, should i need to close her in there when allergic family members are over (i also carry all the big allergy medication brands as a back-up in case i get a visitor who forgot to take their medication, which includes me being stocked with allegra the medication lmao) and then i also have a back-up of all her stuff in my closet should anything break. i always make sure all my windows are open when i leave for class/shifts so she can have "Cat TV" since birds do fly around the area. she has a ton of toys (she has a toy box actually) and i bought her multiple hideaways (like her shark pictured here; she also has a cactus that's pretty cute). also, ontop of having a good breakway collar, her microchip now reads my information. but yeah, im still working on the money to get her one more of everything for the house we visit for the holidays so i don't have to carry everything. i do a lot of research still-- on both cats and Siamese-- to make sure i am doing everything to make her happy, since her world is just me and our apartment now

i called out for her-- i had long since started calling her Allegra as a joke, because its a name of a popular allergy medication and so much of my family was allergic-- and shrugged sadly when she didn't come out. i had just put my stuff down to get my key out when i heard a familar crybaby. turns out, she had been sleeping in our sweetgrass and i had woken her up. she ran over and i called my family to take my things inside while i used the rest of my day to get her to a shelter. i put on a cat harness+leash before trying to out her in the cardboard box. don't buy cardboard boxes from Pet Co. they're shit. she broke out of it Alien style before i had even fully reversed out of the driveway. i had to improvise her leash into a seatbelt instead

but yeah. i say my favorite gremlin is dog-like because:

she has an overbite, so she looks like she's got her lip jutted out in a pout all the time. what's dog-like about it is this makes her slobber whenever she's excited or content (and i've grown up with mastiffs, who slobber so much you need 2 rags per room dedicated to their slobber)

hesitatingly, i called my only family member that was semi-local to see if he would be okay with fostering her until i was going to move (which was less than 6 months away) because, otherwise, i wasn't going to be able to keep her. and she was definitely going to be adopted immediately. he and his wife said of course, without hesitation. they were both huge cat lovers and they were, emotionally, my closest family members; so i had kept them in the loop about my cat quest. and they had already discussed potentially fostering Allegra, knowing my request was a possibility (read: probability). he drove over from his workplace to pick her up, with his own carrier, and drove the roughly 2 hours from our house back to his

she meows when people are at the door and greets them by begging for pets

she loves shoes. she steals my tennis shoes because she loves the laces and she will try to swat at them when im tying them. her claw getting stuck and forcing me to not continue has worked to make me late multiple times. but she also will lay down around my friends' feet and rub her face against their shoes, flipflops, and toes. one of my friends likes to joke that allegra has a foot fetish. she also can and will put her face into my tennis shoes and try to sleep like that. that's my bastard baby

i visited their house about once a week. except during finals, where i didn't visit for two or three weeks since i didnt have any exams so much as i had projects. (allegra was PISSED at me when i came back, my cuddly kitty refused to come near me and would run away when forcibly placed on my lap. she even swiped at me. by the next visit, she was grumpy but happier. by the one after that, everything was back to normal) i really liked visiting those family members too; it made us even closer. though it still annoys the male how much research i do about cat-care (as opposed to just accepting everything everyone tells me as gospel). i researched even down to "how to best pet a cat". i did this since, due to said allergic family members, i had never owned a cat and therefore didnt osmosisly process how to best care for one. i've also never been fully fauthful of people's advice that's based on "This is how we've/the media always done it". my history with mastiffs showed that not all breeds are the same and that you do have experts to utilize within your phone, and they are experts over peers for a reason. so i looked up dumbass questions like "how to best pet a cat" since i'm not an expert and Jackson Galaxy and friends are right there in my phone

she wants to play constantly. she loves tug of war the most, but anything involving chase has her going at full-speed

ive spoken to fellow cat-owners and mastiff-owners about this, and i thought this was interesting: when she isn't playing, she's sleeping. which is what mastiffs and cats do. and when i get up, she follows me. which is what our mastiffs do. and while i do stuff, she sits and waits by the doorway or else walks around my feet until i tell her to sit out of the way. which is what our mastiffs do. and then i go to sit down again, and she lays down as close as she can and goes back to sleep, which is what our mastiffs do. apparently, none of my friends cats do this; their cats just, at best, wake up to watch them leave and then their cats go back to sleep in the same place regardless of if they come back

Allegra likes to sleep at the foot of my bed for bedtime, at least for a majority of it

but, regardless if my worries, allegra seems happy! she cuddles with her claws out all the time (not sticking into my skin, just out) which is a sign of contentment. she'll also use her claws to keep me in place, like a fucking seatbelt (example pictured in post); it's where her claws will dig into the furniture and i cannot get up because of her, the possessive piece of shit. but she also gives me tons of Slow Blinks of I Love You. and she always runs to greet me at the door. and it's really funny how, anytime there's guests over, she tries to make it obvious that she's my favorite over (usually through politely tapping my leg with her paw to ask and recieve pets, and then giving everyone a very Cat Surrounded By Knives grin cuz i havent petted any of THEEEMMM lmao) she's hilarious

she doesn't like to be carried unless it means she's going with me somewhere outside the house. then she's as well-behaved as a chihuahua in a purse

she licks my hands all the time. and she licks my face to wake me up (at 4AM, Allegra, go aWAY)

she loves smelly clothes. the shoe part should tell you that much tho. for our mastiffs, we would leave them a smelly piece of clothing between washes to comfort via smell. Allegra, in a similar vein, was not impressed when i bought a laundry basket with a lid (almost carrying her to the communal laundry room once was enough, thank you!)

in the same vein as the clothes: she also loves blankets too. the more Me Smelling the blanket, the better (aka she doesn't like brand new blankets until its been like. month two or three of use). this is largely because i love blankets. but she kneads them, purring, even if im not using them. and when i am, she takes my using them as an invitation for cuddles

she sits whenever i tell her "NO" like 'who me? i was not doing a bad. i am but small creature'

she asks for a daily walk. she doesn't like the idea of being an outdoor cat. she just wants walks. like, she has lived several months not going outside and has been super happy. she made it clear on her adoption day that she was done with outside. she was perfectly content with being an indoor cat! still is, in a way! i ruined it. for myself. me. i was worried she wasn't being stimulated enough, so i experimented taking her on a walk and now i have created a monster. now she sits by the door and cries until i get out her harness and leash. which she hates her harness in a "no ball, only throw" kinda way. but she has also proven hates going outside alone since she is now ALSO scared of everything (remember those outdoor cats Allegra The Stray would hide from? how they would run away from strangers?? yeah. now that she has a Person, Allegra's turned into one of Them now). yeah.. she runs the fuck away (or as far as she can with a leash) from people she sees on her walks now. and it is pretty obvious she hates cars and dogs too, because when i have walked her outside of our new complex she is too petrified to move. like, she freezes even when just being close to a street. she likes our complex's janky carpeted hallways between the apartments, and she likes the ability to hide behind my legs. being an outdoor cat is something Allegra has decided she is not a fan of. if i try to change things up scenery-wise, she always asks to go home as soon as possible and runs into the apartment if our walks turn too much into what her life was before being adopted (aka. streets/cars, lawns, people walking). she wants walks. she LOVES and BEGS for walks. but not be outside. walks. even though she still hates her harness lmao

and that's Allegra! she's aproximately 2 years old, i've had her for less than a year, and she's assumedly a purebred Siamese cat. and she's also my ESA, or Emotional Support Animal. if applicable, a cuddly and loving pet is helpful for keeping mental health more stable. in my experience of getting one, it was fairly easy to get it permitted; especially a cat because they're super easy to get registered as compared to a dog. i am lucky enough to have regular physician as my doctor that empathizes with mental health and knows it not to be her area of expertise so much as the patient+their therapist (but also i have a history of attempted treatment on my medical record since i was 16), so my getting registered was literally just me asking for a doctor's note and her giving it to me near immediately. i can't take Allegra with me to classes or resteraunts or anything, nor do i even want to, but it forces apartments/hotels to HAVE to let me board with my ESA and to do so without an additional fee. however, i don't know if that's how ESAs work internationally or even in all of the states of America, the country where i live. but it definitely helps to have someone who needs me to get up everyday, who can never trigger me, who makes me laugh with their hijinks, and who cuddles with me regardless of if i have had a good day or bad day. Allegra is especially good at her job by being especially attentive whenever i am anxious. even if it's just me getting a little bit anxious because i'm late in turning an assignment in but have logically decided it doesn't matter because the assignment is only 2 points anyway, just turn it in late and don't focus on it; and she starts patting my leg almost continuously asking for pets inbetween rubbing herself on my legs. it's why i let her get away with never paying rent. i'm really glad she chose me. we both got really lucky with that decision ♡

i don't want to assume your situation, so i won't recommend an ESA for you so much as just remind you that they exist. i hope this all helps you feel supported and encouraged to continue to find the small wonders ♡♡♡

#I REALLY DO LOVE THIS #AND ALLEGRA #10/10 would die for her #Thank you for taking the time to send this in!#I really really am happy #i had like a real bad mental health day/week/year idk #so this makes me so grateful!#long post #not choices #shwarmi #cats #kitty #submission

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caps-clever-girl · 5 years

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thoughts on endgame.

fair warning, i am not going to be kind. i enjoyed watching this movie, for the most part. it was funny; it had many good jokes and good, pure and well done interactions between multiple characters. but i didnt like it, and here are the reasons why.

unfortunately, this isnt a ‘nitpicky’ post. my main problems are with a lot of the bigger points points of the film, and had quite a few. this is a LONG post.

• “marvels first gay character!!!!!!!!!!!!” shut up. you joined the ‘fad’ late for brownie points and it was a cameo character who got about 3 lines. there are plenty of canon queer and gay characters who could have been introduced, either as cameos or in earlier films. dont even get me started on the fact that tony has more canon bi material than most others and marvel could have taken the time or even the slightest bit of effort to make this. while i enjoyed the jokes about steve being Incredibly Hot and his ass being Gods Gift To America (which honestly??? correct!) that could have been expanded on. several characters made comments about how nice steve’s ass is, and could have been used as actual material for a queer character, instead of sticking a random chharacter in there. i get the whole ‘gay people could be anyone! its normal!’ thing by giving the ‘role’ to a regular person, but you would also prove that by making any one of your 30+ main cast actually queer instead of making gay jokes and hints that could be retconned and explained away by humour.

• slapping someone out of a panic attack, and treating the panic attack like a joke. yeah, i get it, they didnt have a lot of time. still, come on. did iron man 3 teach you nothing? apparently not since tonys ptsd was pretty much never brought up again.

• speaking of thor. now, i am not an expert, but when a person gains weight, they do not keep their abs. certainly not after five entire years - not even asgardians. i also found it odd that thor became the way he did. i understand gaining weight and comfort eating after all the trauma thor went through losing his home and brother and people, i really do, but 1.) do it properly, at least, and 2.) thor is the leader of his people. does he want the task? not particularly. he hasnt wanted to be king since the first thor movie, but hes been forced into the role. even depressed i dont think thor would shy away from it, not completely. hes always wanted to do right by his people and i think that hed stuck to it, especially after The Snap backing him into a corner, if that makes sense. to clarify, i dont have a problem with chubby/fat thor. (IF done right instead of with weird, shitty cgi, that is.) i have a problem with the fact that thor, even though he doesnt want to be king, would abandon the last remanents displaced people to build a new home all on their own and become a hermit gamer boy. ESPECIALLY with valkyrie around. she’s been through a derpressive, alcohol fuelled time in her life and thor pulled her out of it. (mostly anyway, asgardians are party animals and im p sure she still gets trolleyed on the reg) i have bo doubt that after years of wallowing she would do her damned best to try and kick his ass out of it, even if it were just because his people need a leader, instead of letting him drop everything on her and just let him stew while new asgard gets on with it. i also didnt like the fact that all of thors emotional moments were treated as jokes and made to be funny when hes genuinely Fucked Up about eveything thats happening and made his image into a whiny crybaby.

• professor hulk. more of a personal one, this, simply because i just didnt like it. fair enough if y’all disagree on this one, im not going to fight it. i just never saw him wanting to combine himself with the hulk. ever. when he apleared on the screen i was completely blindsided, and his explanation, and the way he interacted with the kids????? i just want to know where all of this confidence suddenly came from. i use the term ‘suddenly’ loosely, since its been five years, but bruce has never been the guy to care about strength or looks or fame. hes always been shy and nerdy. not afraid to stand his ground or make his opinion known. hes bot a catchphrase, posing and flexing ‘hell yeah lets take a selfie’ guy. i get that thats maybe the result of the hulk and bruces combined personality but it just felt WEIRD to me, like, there wasnt a time in the film where i felt comfortable with the character. this was the final avengers film, with all of the original six avengers in it. but it didnt feel like that, it didnt feel like bruce or the hulk was in the film, even though there was a lot of funny and good moments with orofessor hulk, it felt like a stranger with some familiar characteristics. it ruined any feelings of nostalgia for me. i like bruce, and i like the hulk. i like the way their differences add to the story and the way they interact with eachother, and the slow change in their relationship. sorry if its petty but i prefer them seperate, theres just so much more to them for me.

• clint and natasha’s journey for the soul stone. both times, in infinity war and endgame, a male character and a female character went to get the soul stone. both times the male came back and the female died, and we lost possibly two most developed and main-line female characters in the entire mcu. now i understand the reasoning for both, and out of the characters that went there, i agree with the choice. thanos and gamora; it was thanos who was aware of the sacrifice and who chose to make it. gamora didnt get a choice and was unaware until it was too late. thanos was never going to die there. he knew there would be a sacrifice and chose to take gamora, because she would be the most likely sacrifice to actualky sucsesfully yield the soul stone because she was the most loved by him. i get it, but we lost gamora and i dont like it. clint and natasha; looking at it completely objectively, clint has a family, a wife and three children, that he wants to get back. natasha does not have any children, nor any (blood) family. if i had to choose, based on facts like that, id choose her too. but i still hate it, because there goes the only female member of the avengers. also, nebula (and i think maybe rocket?) KNEW that a sacrifice would be made and either accidentaly or deliverately left out the terms of aquiring the soul stone. it would have been easy to tell, if not easy to solve. but nothinb was said, and two best friends had to make a fucking awful and horrible choice when they might not have had to.

• on the ‘feminism’ tangent; the random congragation of women in the end scene??????? i dont????? okay so i am marking myself as a hypocrite here because i did love this scene!!! it made my lil gay heart go boom to see so many good and strong women all in one place - ESPECIALLY rescue - and it also made me realise how many women there actually are across the mcu??? which was really nice?? but it just felt... so forced? the way they ALL suddenly apleared and stood together even though they were all mixed in around the battlefield. it was a wonderful thought and i did enjoy it, but it seemed too Off and Odd to seem as much more than a bid for Feminism Brownie Points.

• captain marvel. i dont know about you, but i was actually looking forward to her being in the film. for a character so hyped to be the saviour of the avengers and the end of thanos, she was barely in the film. ‘i have other planets to save, the earth isnt the only one affected by thanos’ yeah but earth is the only plannet actively attacked by him. its where the people who are rallying to fight him and reverse what he did are. dont you want to stick around and help them? surely it would be a hell of a lot easier with your help, and faster too. yes, she blasted theough the ship at the end, but she did fuck all to help defeat thanos himself, and the help she did give with the ship came at the end. i genuinely think they kept her out of the movie because she was too powerful, and would have made fighting thanos etc too easy to get all the suffering and noble sacrifices in. if she had been a side character i dont think id be as mad, but she got a whole MOVIE in which she is clearly the start of the entire avengers initiative; she is their HISTORY!!!! she is so powerful!!!! and yet she has 5 mins of screen time!! it pisses me off that she was So Strongly implied to be the character the avengers NEEDED, the one that without whom it would be IMPOSSIBLE to defeat thanos; the woman that really tipped the scales in there favour, and yet she did fuck all. (and lets not even get started on the carol/rhodey and carol+tony bromance we COMPLETELY missed out on.)

• (speaking of bonding what the fuck happened to tony and nebula????? after they were rescued it was like they never met)

• the whole entire concept of time what the fuck!!! ‘dont change anything’ okay well for the most part you did okay, and the PLAN and CONCEPT was actually really easy to grasp, at least to me, which is hard when working with paradoxes and wibbley-wobbley timey-wimey stuff. but that went out the water when past!thanos and his army were brought into the future and disintergrated. does this mean they’re dead in the past - since they would have just. Left and not come back and therefore ceased to exist from that point???? or did tonys Snap simply send them back to their point in time, with no memory of what had occured? idk because it aint explained.

• speaking of; loki. again - his past changed; he managed to escape, with the tessarect. this is not explained nor expanded upon. assuming the events of thor 2 came about - which were impossible if he escaped - then his timeline would carry on as normal, and would PERHAPS explain the tessarects wacky timeline. (i dont know for certain, because i cant work it out anyway). but loki disspearing means he wouldnt have gone to trial on asgard, nor would he wouldnt have been in thor 2 - also by extention meaning that frigga is still alive. technically if he went back to get odin off the throne anyway, everything else after thor 2 involving loki/asgard would still come to pass. either way, we dont know. it was a nice way for endgame to give fans what we wanted; the posibility of loki coming back. but it doesnt make a lick of sense, and we have no idea if hes still alive/escaped or not, and why. personally i have no fucking idea and im pretty sure it was a cop out so they could give us what we wanted. which brings to my other point:

• giving the audience what we wanted. we got loki interaction. we got loki ‘escaping’ and ‘surviving’ (????) we FINALLY got rescue, who many fans have been asking for since i think iron man 2, and even more so since The Badass That Was Pepper Potts in im3. we got morgan stark and tony and pepper married, we got jokes about steves ass, and more jokes about male characters admiring how hot other male characters are. and, most importantly, we got tony having the nice relaxing life he wanted out in his cabin in the woods with his wife and kids (even if it was a horrific way of getting there). i dont quite know how to explain it, but to me it seemed like they were shoving as many ‘fan-requests’ into the film as possible - so that when they killed off 2 of the original 6, and removed another by ageing him out of use, they could lessen the backlash and justify the changes by going ‘but you got so mych that you wanted beforehand!!’. a tactic they drenhed us with because one of those 2 was a fan favourite that people were BEGGING not to be killed off because they felt that he hadnt recieved anywhere near the peace or happiness he deserved so far - and now never will. which brings me to:

• tony’s death.

there are two parts to this.

one, i was incredibly pissed off because strange’s Big Plan, the ONLY reason he saved tony in infinity war, was so tony could use the gauntlet and kill himself anyway later. anyone in that film could have used that gauntlet - and many wouldnt have suffered fatal injuries; captain marvel, steve, t’challa, peter quill to name a few possibilities - basically, anyone who is in anyway enhanced would have had a better chance of surviving and would have therefore been the better choice; aka, half the mcu. i think it was a proximity thing; tony was closest. he had the oppertunity and the others didnt. but tony didnt know about the option of using it until strange looked at him and gave him ‘the signal.’ the signal to sacrifice himself. and of course, this is tony stark. when is he ever going to refuse that.

but reason two, and this is the one that stings the most; tony started the mcu.

in my opinion, he is the character who has put the most in during the whole ten years. he, of ALL the characters, deserves his happy ending of marrying the love of his life and having a kid, without constantly fearing that hes foing to have them ripped away from him, that hes going to have to fight to the death to keep them safe.

one of my friends, when i complained about tony dying, said; “it was his time. plus, he had a legacy! with pepper and morgan, and the iron man name. how can you be upset?”

i can be upset because tony got the happiness he wanted after losing exactly 50% of what he held dearest. i can be upset because hawkeye got his family back, but tony only got five years with his wife and less with his kid, instead of getting the oppertunity to grow old with his wife and watch his kid go to collage like clint will. i can be upset because the character that has gone through the most trauma, both physically and mentally, who spent the last ten years trying to better the world and everything in it and protect it, who got the most shit for every decision he made and who ended EVERY SINGLE FILM with a broken limb or his face littered with bruises and cuts while every other film centric character ended the film usually scrape free, didnt get his happy fucking ending. sure, he has a legacy. but i dont give a shit, because that legacy - of iron man, of morgan and pepper and stark industries - would have been there whether tony was alive to see it flourish or not. but he wont be.

this goes beyond being a ‘tony stan’ or tony being my favourite character. out of every single character, from start to finish, anthony edward stark fucking deserved a happy ending and by god he deserved it the most. i will argue that until my end of days.

i watched tony stark on screen for ten years, and i watched him get progressively more scarred and fucked up. his parents. the ten rings. losing yinsen. obie. vanko and hammer. the palladium poisoning. new york; the nuke and the wormhole. the ptsd, the panic attacks. the iron legion and retirement attempt. killian and extremis and the end of that returement attempt. wanda’s vision. jarvis being destroyed. the accords and subsequent civil war. finding out about the winter soldier and his hand in his parents death. finding out that steve knew. siberia. struggling to balence iron man and the accords. losing peter. being stranded on titan, in space for weeks.

tony in that wheelchair, shaking and rail thin and unable to stand for more than a few moments will haunt me forever.

i watched him suffer for ten years - longer, even, in-universe - clawing for his quiet, happy ending while fighting for the happy ending he thought the rest of the world deserved, and instead of getting rewarded he just got beaten down and beaten down. after ten fucking hears of watching the backbone of the entire franchise get nothing but shit piled on him until he struggled to breathe for it, excuse me for thinking he woukd finally get the chance to crawl out from under it and be happy. no strungs attatched, no awful, sacrificial price to be payed, just for a man who had given so. fucking. much. to finally get something for once, and be allowed to keep it.

well i was wrong. and i feel so incredibly fucking stupid for even hoping otherwise.

and thats what i didnt like about avengers endgame.

#thanos might have snapped first but now its my turn #endgame spoilers #marvel #avengers #thor #bruce banner #tony stark #squeak.txt #rant #avengers 4 #captain marvel #iron man

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boy-porridge-vent · 5 years

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Day 1

***Trigger Warning for most of this post!*** :(

New vent account, I just have a lot to get off my chest, not right now per-say but in general, a lot has happened and I’m not coping well.

To start off, I’ve relapsed into self harm again

Not only cutting, but nearly everything I was able to get myself to stop doing.

* I’ve begun to cut again, it’s now to the point where it gets deeper & messier each time I have a panic attack/breakdown (whatever the difference is).

* Im scratching & biting a lot more

* Punching myself until I bruise

* Weighing myself constantly, about 3-10 times a day, it’s in secret though since the scale is kinda hidden in my basement ever since my parents took it away

* Ive begun to check calories & count them. Before this past month, Ive never done this before & now it’s almost like a nervous habit! :(

* I’ve relasped into my an*rexia urges again. I’ve been having trouble with my body image & eating since about 5th grade; not to get too personal, but my mom was & still is hard on me, always called me ugly or fat because of an early puberty that made my body change quickly in a pretty gross way. Had a lot of acne since 4th grade;;; anyways, because of all that, and finding Onision, I was obsessed with his UhOhBro channel around 5th grade & took some of his more serious videos related to starvation & self harm to mind and tried it on myself because, despite him having a stone-cold hatred for it, I was a dumb kid and didn’t listen. So yeah, 5th grade I would starve myself or eat very little; 6th grade I kinda stopped but struggled with my clothing choice/identity more; 7th grade I struggled with gender; 8th grade was when an*rexia came back, more severely than ever, but it happened in short bursts over a few months, I also started cutting but very rarely; 9th I was much more happy & settled down just a bit, really figured out who I was; 10th things weren’t exactly the best, cutting came back & began to be more frquent but not deep; 11th was the worst, I’ve now been eating very little ever since school started, first day back wasnt exactly the best & I ended up cutting again for the first time in months moments after I got home.

A lot more has happened since then and it’s only gotten worse. I don’t know what to do anymore

I don’t mean for any of this to make anybody upset or possibly relapse/get urges themselves when reading all this, I get so sad when I see others struggling too, I always try to help any of my friends or even random people online if they post a vent. I love bein there to support & help, even help get people to come out of serious relapses! But when it comes to myself, I tend to feel no pity, like I deserve this. There’s something wrong with me in my head, this has been gong on for years, every year feels worse than before, and yet everytime Ive gone to my dad, principles, teachers, or school counselors, they never help! They tell me off, saying Im fine, I dont need a therapist because therapists are scammers, or that I just need to be more positive & get over it.

Ive been told this for years, so maybe… it’s just me who’s to blame. Im the only one who sees what’s happening because it’s not really a big deal. I just make it seem wore than it is in my head. I have friends who care & ask if Im okay, ask if they can help, but honestly they cant help. They can support & I’ll vent to them but it doesn’t fix anything, I vent but it doesn’t fix my mind or my empty stomach or my hand reaching for my same used razor. Nothing has helped and I’m worried that after a while Im going to end up killing myself, whether it’s on purpose or it happens on accident when I go too deep. I have a lot I wish to do in my life, but at the same time, with all this shit that’s happened and how my life feels as if it keeps getting worse everyday, I will admit that at this point if I DID die, I guess I wouldn’t be too upset. I am scared of what will happen after death, nobody knows what happens, but I know that I am legally an organ donor, and I do have part of my will typed up in the case that I do die suddenly one day, so I guess it isn’t too bad.

I will be honest, Ive never been exactly suicidal before, but these past 4 months I think I’ve been legitamately suicidal and ready to go whenever I have a breakdown. Everytime I relapse I think of just ending it all right then and there, but then pussy out because I think about my few friends, my followers on other social media, my pets, my plants, and other people I wish to change the lives of in the future. I want to adopt a kid someday and give them what I didn’t get, treat them as I wished to be treated, help them grow up into the person I wish I had by my side growing up. They’d be my child, I’d be their parent, but we’d also be best friends. I wanted to start my own show, my own comic, my own booth at cons, meet so many people, get married, do music, so many things

but honestly, I don’t think I’ll live much longer after my senior year of highschool. I’m planning on finishing this year out, trying to finish my senior year, graduate, then I’ll leave this Earth with a bang. Maybe literally, or maybe through some other way of suicide, I don’t know. I might even do it sometime before I graduate. Not to make people sad, not for attention and pity, but because I can’t continue on like this, and I want the people who’ve wronged me to see what they did. I want those who refused to help, even when I was in front of them screaming & begging them to get me some kind of therapy or help, to see what they caused. I want them to see that I wasn’t just some sensitive crybaby that needed to get over himself, I want them to see that mental illness can run rampant in anybody & they need to be open to helping those who really need it.

Ive been through so much. Ive been bullied, made fun of by my own mother, neglected by her, pysically/emotionally/mentally/VERBALLY/and even sexually abused by an ex partner of mine, Ive been literally harrassed, Ive been used solely for sex by nearly every single ex of mine, Ive been manipulated/guilt tripped/gas-lighted/made to feel as if my abuse was my fault, Ive been punished by my school for being abused by my ex! Yet everyone who has ever hurt me in these ways always got away with it scott-free. Why? I have no idea. I like to say that they’re let off the hook because I don’t come to school with black eyes, broken bones, bruises, and mascara running down my face. Abuse is abuse, it doesn’t have to have visible signs. Yet, mine does. I have self harm wounds, not because I blame them for making me self harm (as one of my exes once did), but because of trauma I still deal with that stemmed from their treatment of me. I have nightmares about my ex and her treatment toward me. I get SCARED when my mom comes home. I get nervous walking into school. I hate being touhed physically because it reminds me of so many people from the past getting physical and leaving me in the dirt afterward, even when I trusted them with everything. I hate saying I love you to anybody because of how little it means when others say it to me. Many partners would send hearts & “I love you"s, then throw me out like I was garbage.

I’m so tired of it all.

But maybe it’s all my fault. Maybe Im the problem. Im too quiet. Im too much of a pacifist. I hate confrontation. I hate violence. I hate hating people. If Im hurt by someone, even being abused, I always forgive and let them back in, and I get hurt again over and over. But on the rare chance that I dont forgive, when I do hate them with every cell in me, then for some reason, I can’t get them away, I can’t get them out of my life. They’re always around as a constantly reminder of what happened and how I was used and how I will never change, I’ll never be able to stick up for myself.

if all that is going to happen in my life involves me being used for sex, money, or compliments to make others feel higher about themselves, then I don’t want to be around anymore. But I can’t just kill myself on a whim and call it a day.

I wouldn’t exactly say this is why I self harm, my self harm isn’t a choice, it just… kind of happens. It’s an addiction; scientifically, it has been proven to have addictive tendencies, which is why it’s so hard to stop once you’ve started/relapsed. I self harm because it’s an addiction that I can’t help, and becaue of bottled up, unresolved trauma that gets worse with every new day that I keep it bottled up for.

This isn’t going to get better. Sorry for typing out so much too. I have an issue with piling all my thoughts and how I feel into multiple huge paragraphs, so there’s much more of that to come.

Also to come, weight updates & keeping track of what I eat/how long I can go with no food whatsoever. So far I’ve gone about 1/ maybe 2??? days straight, though I stayed home today so I did have to eat dinner, which caused me to gain 1 pound. But I lost 4.5 pounds in that day of not eating, so I can lose that 1 pound pretty quickly. Plus my metabolism is very very fast, so even if I did eat a lot I’d lose all that weight in a few hours/a day or two, depending on how much I ate.

This is day 1 of my further decline.

September 01, 2019

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1800-seungshine · 6 years

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birthday tears.

member: park woojin genre(s): fluff, romance, best friend!woojin summary: another year means another birthday to go all out and this time you were certain that you were going to make woojin cry but somehow, you find the tables have turned because after the long wait of seeing each other, you missed him. a lot more than you imagined. (requested - bullet point format) word count: 2.2k note: dedicated to life ruiner, cute snaggletooth baby park woojin ;; wheezes it’s his birthday today and so what better way to celebrate than to write!! goodness gracious i swear scintilla’s becoming woojin-centric, step aside ong someone’s taking over this damn lane jk jk. oh oh and thank you woojin anon for requesting < 33 it means so much

p.s. y’ALL IM SHOOK I DIDN’T EXPECT GETTING GOING OVER 100 NOTES FOR ‘IN LOCKED WITH YOU’ LIKE WHATDA- THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE REBLOGS, LIKES AND FOLLOWS ;;; < 33

you’ve been best friends with woojin for a long time

no one knows him better than you

bc you both had each other for practically all your life

were you and woojin the definition of bff goals?? hek yeah

you’ve always been his number one supporter

from his decision to being an idol

to going with him during superstarK auditions

to encouraging him when he was a jyp trainee and even when he transferred to bnm

to never missing an episode of produce 101 and always voting for him

all the way till he joined wanna one

you’re always there for him and you always will be

and vice-versa

you’ve both leaned on each other through all the hard times

laughed during the good times

and everything in between

back then as kids and before he decided to pursue the career of being an idol, it was you who depended on him

he was always the first person you ran to

he was the one who you cried to

he was your go-to when you were feeling down

he was first when it came to everything and anything

even love

you didn’t expect falling for park woojin - the guy you knew all your life, the one who you grew up with, the person you considered a close friend, so close that you believed he was like family

but circumstances changed, feelings grew and your perspective broaden

to the point where you had no choice but to accept that you were falling for your best friend

yet you didn’t want to selfishly hold him back when you knew how much he wanted to pursue his dream

so woojin was your first love

the first love you never confided to

and the first love you had let go

whilst you both matured as you grew up, you eventually pushed your feelings aside as the tables began to turn

bc unlike before, woojin depended on you

you were the one he first calls

you were the person he leaned on

you were his go-to when things got too hard and the hardships of trying to reach his dream became overwhelming

wowowow this sounds so sad and sappy okay gonna light up the mood from now on i promise

but forget christmas, forget new years day, forget your own birthday

november second is your favourite day

why?? bc that was the day the lord decided to give you the best of friend you could ever ask for

every year you two would go super extra to celebrate one another’s birthday

like last year on your birthday, you came home with everything decorated and there was this huge teddy bear sitting on the corner of the living room

you knew it was from woojin bc duh who else would it be from

but what you didnt know was that he was hiding inside the teddy bear

and honestly you wouldn’t have suspected a single thing

if the damn stuff toy didn’t begin to move

you legit screamed and grabbed your baseball bat in case some weird ass munted hoe bursted through

but jokes on you it was just woojin screaming “hAPPY BIRTHDAY!!” whilst popping streamers and throwing confetti

his goal was to surprise you

and he did it so damn well you began crying

not tears of joy

just tears bc wth man why would you do that?

but dont chu worry boo his ass got kicked

his ass was further forgiven after he took you to the amusement park and treated you food

so with that in mind, you had the goal of making him shed a tear as revenge

doesn’t matter what kind of tear it is as long as that tear duct come into use

dang you were so excited to go all out

that you prepared everything one month prior his birthday

so with the help of the wanna one boys in sneaking woojin out

woojin ends up in this dance studio that you hired for the day

everything was dimly lit by these candles placed all over the room

and there’s this vcr that plays the slideshow you created with all your photos together since you were babies all the way till now

you also added photos that brought back his dark past to get him embarrassed

anndd then a video pops up of you with a breath-taking smile on your face, excitedly holding this ‘happy birthday’ banner

“about 18 years ago on this very day, some weird kid popped out into the world. can you guess who? that’s right! it’s you.” the video begins, showing you chuckling a little

“i swear i wasn’t planning to make this sappy but i’m going to anyway; i just want to thank you for putting up with my ass all these years - never have i faced a time where you weren’t there for me and i’m really really thankful to have you by my side. i know that you’re really busy and we haven’t seen each other but you can always run to me, you can always call me and i promise that i’ll try my hardest to be there for you, every step of the way like we always have and hopefully, like we always will. happy birthday idiot and take care of yourself.”

woojin starts feeling touched, remembering all the good times you two have

you two weren’t the type to verbalise things and instead expressed it through actions

yet hearing your words makes him even more grateful for all the times that you’ve been there

because even if you weren’t feeling the greatest, you pushed it aside in order to listen to his problems and help him

no matter what time of day it was, you always picked up his call

remembering all this reminds him that he couldn’t ask for anything more

because you were in his life

and you always will be

“happy birthday to you....happy birthday to you...”

a chorus of voices interrupt his thoughts and he spins around to see you and the rest of the wanna one members entering through the door with a cake in jisung’s hands

tears well up in his eyes as all the emotions overwhelm him

yet once his eyes meet yours, the world freezes almost as if time was slowing down

it’s been a long while since you saw him face to face

and he realises in that very moment how much he really missed you

bc despite all his offers of hanging out, you were cautious and worried that you’d cause trouble to his skyrocketing career

and you’d decline it even if you knew it was tempting and you knew he was disappointed every time you said no

there’s a slight hint of tiredness on his face but it doesn’t change the fact that seeing you made him brighter

meanwhile you were unable to breathe; he grew more handsome than he already was before and that snaggletoothed smile, you grew up seeing and loving, adorned on his face melted your heart once more

now that you’ve met face to face after a time that felt like eternity

you couldn’t help but to run to him

and he welcomed you with open arms as you snaked your arms around his waist

who cares if the wanna one members will use this later on to tease him

having you right in front of me makes him forget about everything else

and like a child, you begin to cry as you’re engulfed in his embrace

“yah, are you crying...?” woojin teasingly asks you as his hand reaches up to your head, stroking your hair gently while your bury your head in his chest

“s-shut up, meanie. i’m not crying!” you pull away before you look at him for a few seconds before bursting into tears once again

“ahhh this idiot, you’re such a crybaby.” he replies, wiping your tears with his sleeves. “and how am i mean? i’m offended.”

“i’ve seen you go through all the hard times, i’ve seen you cry because you wanted to give up and i’ve seen you push yourself over the limit for this dream and you’re telling me off for being a crybaby?” you say between sniffles before you try your hardest to manage a glare at his way

“and yes, you’re mean - you’re so mean for making my heart melt, you’re so mean for giving me butterflies in my stomach, you’re so mean for holding my hand and hugging me all the time without knowing how i feel, you’re so mean because no matter how much i try to hide my feelings, they continue to grow and it’s all your fault, park woojin.”

you suddenly quiet down as you realise what you’ve been rambling. “oh my god, my mouth went a bit too far.” you mutter as you harshly wipe your tears away

there’s silence between you two yet the rest of the wanna one members begin to snicker lightly to themselves

“this isn’t funny!” you whine before trying not to cry again bc you just exposed your own whipped ass

you avoid woojin’s gaze by hiding behind jisung who subsequently came in the middle of you two, still holding the cake

“so woojin! do you wanna blow the candles now before it ends up completely melting? but you have to make a wish first!”

woojin clears his throat, taking his eyes away from you “a-ah yes hyung,” he says before closing his eyes for a few seconds and opening them again to blow the candles

the rest of the guys, to lighten the slight tension in the atmosphere begin to clap and cheer, “happy birthday woojin!!”

but yknow it aint complete yet until someone gets teased

hence enter ong seongwoo’s ass (i love putting seongwoo everywhere, anywhere as you can tell by now)

“sO WOOJIN, WHAT DID YA WISH FOR BUDDY? ;)”

“yeah what did you wish for?” jisung grins cheekily at the younger guy

woojin’s ears start to go red, looking around before his gaze naturally land on you, “i just wished for something very very important.”

“OK YEH WHICH IS??” WINK WINK HONK HONK

“for y/n to always be by my side.” woojin shyly mumbles

sungwoon then joins in on the fun with a wide grin on his face, bringing his ear close to woojin, “sorry, what? can you speak up a little louder? we couldn’t hear.”

“yeah i’m a little deaf, hyung.” guanlin adds before a number of agreements and remarks gets thrown around the room causing noise

woojin simply sighs before yelling, “I SAID I WISHED FOR Y/N TO ALWAYS BE BY SIDE.”

much cringe. v cheese. im writing this and i cant even handle wowow

there’s just silence in the room before the wanna one members all grin happily at one another.

“oH wOw lOoK aT tHe TiMe - okay kids, time to go! we’ll see you later woojin byeeee.” minhyun calls out as he exits the door with the rest following beside him, not forgetting to snicker and tease

and then there was two

you and woojin

“so,,, what do you say?” he initiates, feeling a little nervous than usual bc good lord he’s liked you all this time since you two were little and every year he’d wish for that you’d like him back

you simply continue looking down, still avoiding his gaze; “you’re not kidding right...?”

“does it sound like i am?”

“no.”

“so....? i like you, you like me. the feelings’ mutual.”

“but what about-”

“don’t think about the but’s nor the if’s because i don’t care about those. i’ve liked you for as long as i’ve known you and honestly, i can risk everything and anything so long as you’re here. there’s no park woojin without y/n. i’m basically nothing without you.”

you look up as you send him a judging look, “did you just promote your upcoming comeback whilst confessing...?”

“that totally wasn’t intentional but what do you say?” woojin says to you grinning rather happily as his arms are wide open for you.

and having a soft spot for him, you eventually let out a sigh, “well if you put it that way...i don’t seem to have a choice, do i?” you say before going into his arms once more.

“this has got to be my best birthday present ever.” woojin sighs in content

“don’t think i’m still not done yet from my rant- do you know how much i wanted to vote for other trainees? yah, park woojin i voted for you every single performance - i wanted to vote for jihoon but because i liked you so much and you’re my best friend, i kept being loyal but here you were teasing me and calling me a crybaby. i’m not even kidding, oh my god- the amount of suffering i went through because of you; you should be glad i like you.”

“yes yes, i’m sorry. i won’t tease you again, crybaby.”

“it hasn’t even been a minute and you’re seriously tempting me to leave you for jihoon.”

“ah i was just kidding, y/n. don’t break up with me for my other pink sausage duo-”

“nOPE BYE WHERE’S THE DIVORCE PAPERS.”

“AWE COME ON I WAS KIDDING.”

#park woojin #woojin #woojin scenarios #woojin imagines #wanna one #wanna one imagines #wanna one scenarios #produce 101 #pd101 season 2 #another rushed scenario just so i dont miss woojin's bday #lmao lowkey already passed in sydney tho #happy woojin day #this blog isn't becoming woojin-centric i promise

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chimericarchitect · 7 years

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gallionicTrickster 3

[09:27] GT: hey fucker

[09:27] GT: i need your bulge

[09:27] GT: in my throat

[09:27] GT: dont question it

[09:28] GT: my morail has very high standards

[09:28] TS: Oh shit. Straight to the point.

[09:28] TS: who's your Moirail?

[09:28] GT: a gentletroll doesnt brag

[09:29] GT: but you might find them at the olive garden

[09:29] TS: PFF

[09:29] TS: No way

[09:29] TS: He is NOT your Moirail

[09:31] GT: pffft

[09:31] GT: you dont know shit assbag

[09:31] TS: I'll just go ask him, chunkflap

[09:32] TS: brb

[09:34] GT: i will give you the sopor slime pie

[09:34] GT: as offering

[09:35] GT: 'in exchange for dank bulge

[09:35] TS: Sopor Slime, huh

[09:35] TS: That's low

[09:35] TS: -- talentedSalad [TS] began trolling aestheticVirtuoso [AV] at 21:32 -- [09:32] AV: Y+u d4re c+me b4ck? [09:32] TS: Hey. Is Teivel your Moirail? [09:32] TS: He said he is. [09:33] TS: I told him he's a liar. [09:33] AV: I d+n't kn+w. If he is, he's shit 4t it. [09:33] TS: OHHHH SNAP [09:33] TS: Droppin' the HEAT

[09:35] GT: my anus is wrecked

[09:35] TS: Krolio ain't SHIT bitch

[09:38] TS: Dude

[09:38] GT: fair enough

[09:38] TS: Just how lonely ARE you?

[09:38] GT: very

[09:39] TS: Maybe if you stopped culling everyone who gos to your sharp shack

[09:39] TS: you'd have some IRL friends to bother

[09:39] TS: :P

[09:39] GT: thats retarded

[09:39] GT: your retarded

[09:39] TS: Fact

[09:40] TS: For more facts, sign up at GayFacts.Gov

[09:40] GT: fuck

[09:41] GT: im a massive faggot with a massive boner or some shit

[09:41] TS: You're being very honest

[09:41] TS: That's hilarious

[09:41] GT: fuck

[09:41] GT: ive been rekt

[09:42] TS: R E K T

[09:42] TS: Anyway

[09:42] TS: Have you met anyone new?

[09:42] TS: It's really quiet

[09:42] GT: some yellowblood crybaby

[09:42] GT: not worth noting in anyway shape or form

[09:44] TS: Bluh

[09:44] TS: I only have you two asshats to talk to

[09:47] TS: tell me about the not-worth-noting yellowblood!

[09:47] GT: they were very boring

[09:48] GT: they had a sore throast from being such a massive whiner about some dance

[09:48] GT: and they not a highblood

[09:48] GT: so i sent them on their way

[09:48] GT: safe little lowblood

[09:48] TS: wtf

[09:48] TS: You "sent them on their way" huh

[09:48] TS: they probably just got sick of your shit and left

[09:49] GT: hell no

[09:49] GT: im a heartbreaker

[09:49] GT: u dont even know

[09:49] TS: I do not

[09:49] TS: QUICK

[09:49] TS: Break my heart

[09:50] GT: <3

[09:50] GT: </3

[09:50] GT: heart broken

[09:52] TS: OwchMyDelicateFeelings.ghey

[09:52] TS: Thanks

[09:52] GT: your welcome

[09:53] TS: My first heartbreak

[09:54] TS: What a gentletroll

[09:56] GT: will you bulge my throat now

[09:56] GT: i need to do as aV commands

[09:56] TS: aV told you to suck my bulge

[09:56] TS: yeah right assfag

[09:56] GT: i was told to suck bulge and that is what i will do

[09:57] TS: don't you have like.... 37 dead bodies on your prch or something? I'm sure they have some free time to spare for your bulge sucking needs

[09:57] GT: although looking back they might have simply been telling me off for bringing up olive garden

[09:57] GT: i suddenly feel enlightened

[09:58] TS: Okay, that was actually funny

[09:58] TS: You win a sticker

[09:58] GT: i'll wear it on my horns

[09:58] TS: here. for you

[09:59] TS: https://d21ii91i3y6o6h.cloudfront.net/gallery_images/from_proof/5278/large/1429993470/threatbutt-enterprise-license-sticker-of-authenticity.png

[09:59] GT: legitimate attraction occurs

[09:59] GT: ew

[09:59] GT: get away from me

[10:00] TS: u wot m8

[10:00] -- talentedSalad [TS] gave up trolling gallionicTrickster [GT] at 22:00 --

@gallionictrickster

#@gallionicTrickster #chat log #teivel pravum #ooc

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xhnnarchive · 7 years

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mk so my abuser tried going back into my life soo heres their shit lmao

EDIT: i added the second half of the conversation bc i didnt have it before on my computer

[4/13/2017 12:15:43 AM] *** 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶 would like to add you on Skype

Ya know....We could try and be friends....I want too...-.. *** [4/17/2017 8:21:39 PM] *** CryBaby™ has shared contact details with 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶. *** [4/17/2017 8:22:28 PM] CryBaby™: no. im not possibly going through that shit again. I don't want to be fucking sexualized some when im literally ** now. im not going to fucking put up with your shit joking and telling me to calm down when I literally lose my shit [4/17/2017 8:22:42 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I'm not joking [4/17/2017 8:22:45 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Anymore [4/17/2017 8:22:50 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Happy birthday by the way [4/17/2017 8:23:08 PM] CryBaby™: you still made the rape jokes which made me freak out and panic which causes me to "crytype" [4/17/2017 8:23:21 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: And I'm sorry. [4/17/2017 8:23:23 PM] CryBaby™: I straigt up don't care for yr reason I still obviously lost my shit [4/17/2017 8:23:34 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I'm sorry. [4/17/2017 8:23:49 PM] CryBaby™: and like!!! you fucking new I was ** and ace at the time and you were still sexual towards me [4/17/2017 8:23:59 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I'm sorry. [4/17/2017 8:24:09 PM] CryBaby™: sorry don't fix sit [4/17/2017 8:24:17 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Well sorrys all i can do. [4/17/2017 8:24:24 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I don't know what else to do. [4/17/2017 8:24:27 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I want to be friends. [4/17/2017 8:24:31 PM] CryBaby™: if sorry could fix shit I would've fully forgiven my mom and been able to forgive the people who were sexual towards me if I was still in contact with them [4/17/2017 8:24:33 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I'm sorry for what i did. [4/17/2017 8:24:57 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I'm really sorry, i know it was wrong. [4/17/2017 8:25:03 PM] CryBaby™: im not being friends with the person who was sexual towards me, made rape jokes, and then proceeded to tell me to type correctly when I was freaking the fuck out [4/17/2017 8:25:12 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Then atleast talk to me [4/17/2017 8:25:25 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: We don't have to be friends but atleast speak to me [4/17/2017 8:25:35 PM] CryBaby™: id rather fucking not because hey!! I don't want to possibly get sexualized again [4/17/2017 8:25:44 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: You wont! [4/17/2017 8:25:50 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I told you I won't do that! [4/17/2017 8:26:12 PM] CryBaby™: but what if it happens huh??? then I break the fuck down and you tell me to type correctly even tough it might get hard to fucking breathe [4/17/2017 8:26:26 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: It won't [4/17/2017 8:26:36 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: And if you break down ima help you get back up. [4/17/2017 8:26:44 PM] CryBaby™: i don't fuckin trust yur sorry sexual ass [4/17/2017 8:26:54 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Then stay for a day or two [4/17/2017 8:27:01 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: And if its sexual then you can leave [4/17/2017 8:27:05 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: But give it a chance. [4/17/2017 8:27:16 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: People change. [4/17/2017 8:27:22 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I'm sorry, and I wanna talk. [4/17/2017 8:27:34 PM] CryBaby™: im hardly even on Skype so ull hardly get a fukkin chance for me to evn respond [4/17/2017 8:27:44 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: And-? [4/17/2017 8:27:48 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I still wanna talk [4/17/2017 8:28:02 PM] CryBaby™: and i still don't want to think abt ur shitty ass and feel like shit and get mad [4/17/2017 8:28:13 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I wanna talk. [4/17/2017 8:28:46 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Just....Happy Birthday okay. ;^ i want cake now. [4/17/2017 8:29:32 PM] CryBaby™: you don't deserve cake around me' [4/17/2017 8:29:39 PM] CryBaby™: my birthday is for me to be happy [4/17/2017 8:29:43 PM] CryBaby™: not to be reminded of yur bullyshit [4/17/2017 8:29:55 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: You deserve all the cake on your birthday anyway. [4/17/2017 8:30:04 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I just want to talk. [4/17/2017 8:30:19 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: That's it. Doesn't have to be today but someday [4/17/2017 8:30:22 PM] CryBaby™: oh wow talk talk talk conver fucking sation always makes sit better [4/17/2017 8:30:50 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I never said it makes it better. I just want to talk... [4/17/2017 8:31:09 PM] CryBaby™: and id like for my experience with you to finally be fucking over [4/17/2017 8:31:27 PM] CryBaby™: instead of sometimes getting sick to my stomach thinking about how people have been sexual to me [4/17/2017 8:32:00 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: ....I'm sorry, I know I can't take it back, but I wanna be friends...I'm sorry. [4/17/2017 8:32:19 PM] CryBaby™: i aint bein friends with the one who sexualized me and make me uncomfortable and kinda fucking scared [4/17/2017 8:32:27 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Then just talk to me [4/17/2017 8:32:39 PM] CryBaby™: id rather fucking not [4/17/2017 8:32:51 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Please....?

[4/17/2017 8:36:09 PM] CryBaby™: no ive wasted enough time giving you chances when i let you "date" me

[4/17/2017 8:37:07 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Please.... [4/17/2017 8:37:11 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I'm sorry. [4/17/2017 8:37:17 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: If I were dead wo [4/17/2017 8:37:29 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: It would've never happened... [4/17/2017 8:37:33 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: And you'd be happy... [4/17/2017 8:37:56 PM] CryBaby™: and i wouldnt be havin to deal with ur dramatic ass bullshit [4/17/2017 8:38:15 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: It's not dramatic....it's me apologizing for wrongs. [4/17/2017 8:38:43 PM] CryBaby™: still dont care abt u tryin to apologize lmao [4/17/2017 8:39:00 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: ...I know you don't..but I'm sorry [4/17/2017 8:39:19 PM] CryBaby™: dont care be glad im even talking to ur shitty ass [4/17/2017 8:39:30 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I am glad.... [4/17/2017 8:39:55 PM] CryBaby™: idc [4/17/2017 8:40:01 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Okay... [4/17/2017 8:41:01 PM] CryBaby™: stil h8 u [4/17/2017 8:41:12 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Happy Birthday. [4/17/2017 8:41:32 PM] CryBaby™: how about you give me the gift of finally leavinh me the fuck alone [4/17/2017 8:41:51 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: I don't have enough money for that [4/17/2017 8:42:22 PM] CryBaby™: but you have enough money to not fucking talk to me [4/17/2017 8:42:30 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Not really. [4/17/2017 8:42:45 PM] CryBaby™: Actually yeah you can just stop fucking [4/17/2017 8:42:51 PM] CryBaby™: typig and leave ne alone [4/17/2017 8:42:57 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Happy Birthday. [4/17/2017 8:43:03 PM] CryBaby™: fuck off [4/17/2017 8:43:12 PM] 🎶 Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm-Flailing TubeMan 🎶: Okay... [4/17/2017 8:57:41 PM] CryBaby™: id rather get sick than get reminded about our semi abusive "relationship" [4/17/2017 8:59:53 PM] CryBaby™: you fucking talking to me reminds me how shit you were so FUCK OFF I DONT WANT TO REMEMBER THIS BULLSHIT

#i hate them sooo much lmao #if i ever needa make a callout post for the shitstain i will #long post /#archive #abuser tag #edit: added rest of conversation that i now have on comp + not just my phone #guilt tripping /#my friend said the part of te convo sounded like guilt trippin so #abuse mention /

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