#anyway im neutral for the moment

[lollytea]

"while a few flirtatious comments with a certain sluggish shapeshifter will no doubt cause the fandom to lose their minds at all the shining potential." D...DO THEY MEAN GUS

MAYHAPS.

I don't really think much about Vee ships cuz it's still unclear if she's closer to Gus's age or Luz's. She seems pretty young but ya never know.

If she IS Luz's age then...

Take your pick. I like the idea of the Noceda sisters both nabbing goth gfs. That would be funny

#toh spoilers #''shining potential'' does kinda make me think of Gus tho #cuz like. is there really that much potential in a side character who we barely know anything about #anyway im neutral for the moment #very excited for Gus and Vee interactions cuz they seem like such cute and funny friends from the bits we've seen #if its anything more than that...well we'll see.. #mostly hyped for vee in general tbh

[howlonomy]

Monster Clover, like this is so awesomecool.

They're such a little beast and it is amazing and please i need more, like written text even i just need the juicy lore and emotional moments that are circling in ur brain.

HAT: RETRIEVED!!

#undertale yellow #uty clover #flowey the flower #chara dreemurr #frisk undertale #monster clover au #my art #as for emotional moments. hang in there for another day or 2. got a big batch of comics coming 😈 #if i ever made a fic for this au i would not advertise it. i got irls following me #they can look at all my cringe ass art but if they read a WORD of fic i wrote i would have to end it all. hope this helps #anyways. frisk appears!! i wont be doing too many canon ut characters in this little au but i like frisk :) #theyre also important for the next part #narrator chara makes an appearance too bc i love them #cowboy (gender neutral) #SORRY I LOVE RAMBLING IN TAGS </3 i love Talking #BUT THANK YOUU i also love my little skrungly im so glad other people like them so much too #mcau comic #mcau art

[sea-buns]

Holy fuck, man. What a trip Fearne has been on, huh?

You tell her how grateful you are to have her in your life, you flatter her, you tell her you need her, that you have to do this together. You have her make a promise that has this woman, born of chaos and fey, agreeing through shaking hands and a trembling voice.

You make her deceive your friends; you make her follow where they cannot know; you make her help you into this contraption; you make her feed this thing into you despite the fact that you both have been warned extensively of the risks. You make her watch you crumble and splinter and shatter and fracture and burst and implode. You make her watch you die, over and over and over and over, for a minute in agonizing bullet time.

You make her do all these things, because when she tries to back out, when she tries to not be the one who let you do this—how could you do this—

you tell her, "YOU PROMISED."

Because if there's one thing you know, it's that the fey do not break a promise.

#cant wait for her to fucking pissed for a very long time. shes really packing the entire human experience in a very short period of time. #critical role #cr spoilers #c3e77 #fearne calloway #ashton greymoore #bells hells #just gonna get ahead of the um actually mfs and state that i am aware that its not confirmed that thats why ash brought up the promise #but boy howdy would it make for some great drama down the line huh? #edit: apparently i did not get ahead enough cuz ive had to turn off replies #since ppl were somehow interpreting this mini introspection piece as me infantilizing fearne?? #anyway the first line is now changed to something a bit more neutral. after sleeping on it i do see how it was a bit aggressive at the top #other than that im not sure how else to reword without completely disregarding the core of the post #i might make more posts addressing this but im not sure yet. i wanna try to approach it in the best way possible. #but if it helps any the point of the post was not to say fearne had no agency. she had plenty of moments where she tilted one way or the #other. the POINT was to just shine some light on the emotional pressure she had been put under. #hasnt your friend ever asked you to keep a secret or promise that felt wrong or unsafe or made you anxious? #it has nothing to do with the amount of agency she had. ash wasnt holding a knife to her throat and forcing her to follow against her will #all i was trying to do was take this detail about his reminder of the promise that i thought was interesting and have some fun writing an #overview of the kinda stress she was under BEFORE theyd reached that scene. this entire ep was everyone discussing how grateful they were #for this family theyd made. and while im not saying ash was PURPOSELY emotionally manipulating fearne.. #there is a level of unintentional manipulation when you pair the severity of his request with the convo theyd had 2 seconds prior #as well as the desperate need they all have to save each other NO MATTER WHAT. #ash was giving incredibly strong energy of a friend who peer pressures you into helping them do something that you know in your gut WILL #cause problems. hes a fucked up guy. theyre all fucked up guys. even if he didnt mean to “force” her into anything the pressure was THERE. #<- i feel like all of this overall gets my message across. i think maybe ill clean it up later into its own post. #im gonna try not to rush myself to get it done tho. #im under no obligation to explain myself. especially when ppl approach the misunderstanding by being rude af. but i do think it CAN #be clarified so id at least like to try to some degree

[hybbat]

"You saved me so I can kill you", "my wretch of a wife", and "30 seconds" all happened in this series, yet y'all cry divorce on the ranchers.

#and i dont mean this in a 'theyre secretly cuddling between sessions uwu' way #i mean all their interactions have been at most silly at least completely neutral #yall act like theyre bitterly trying to murder each other in every scene theyve been in together #like the one time they ever dealt damage to the other wasnt immediately followed by an apology #the fh people are still out here even after the entirety of dl and 24l so far and yall are here acting like ranchers is made of sugar glass #team rancher #if you like angst thats fine but theres so many post crying that its all over #or acting like its a struggle #you dont need copium when they havent even done anything #sorry but every other duo gets a dramatic devastating moment to point to for why theyre divorced #and the worst ranchers get is 'if we ever 1v1 i could totally beat you anyways running away now' for people to act just as devastated #sorry im super salty this week #and just tired of rancher tags being walls of 'the world is ending and theres no recovery'

[skrunksthatwunk]

sometimes you need to go back and listen to the music you liked when you were 13 because it's good for you. and no im not talking about like emo nostalgia in this case we have enough posts about that. im talking about dad rock. actually im just talking about barenaked ladies

#idk if i'd call barenaked ladies dad rock per se but every once in a while i'll hear a song and go MAN. I REMEMBER THAT #i had so many oc animatics in my head about this one.... #anyway skrunk lore moment but i had a really intense bnl phase for like 8 months in early middle school which explains a lot about 13 y/o me #in a neutral way but like. yeah. anyway go listen to box set for me. #you don't have to listen to anything else even though i still have a great fondness for a lot of it bc it's one of those things where it's #so familiar to me that i don't even know if i think it's good or not. but box set goes hard and i'll stand by that #in the car and hello city and i'll be that girl and spider in my room AND CALL ME CALMLY and blame it on me and alternative girlfriend and #the flag and when i fall and the king of bedside manor and am i the only one.... ohgh #AND YES IT'S BASIC BUT IF I HAD $1000000 IS COZY. IT'S CUTE OK #OH and it's all been done for all your immortal/reincarnation ship needs. well. a certain vibe anyway #and alcohol. and OH MY GOD I FORGOT JANE. AND INTERMITTENTLY and break your heart.... waaaaaaa #man they have way way more albums than i thought they had #i can only really speak for gordon born on a pirate ship and maybe you should drive actually but. i like those #or i Did like them. havent relistened but even looking at the titles is making me giggly like... i forgot some of these #ALSO SHOEBOX IS A FRIENDS SONG?? WHUH? #or maybe it was used in friends? idk. no thoughts on friends but they did music for just the dumbest shit. ignore that for me please #ANYWAY. going to go listen to all of that now bc im having a moment. if you listen to it and don't like it um. don't think less of me lol <3

[kkoct-ik]

finally finished my first playthrough of disco elysium in the worst fit imaginable

#kostik speaks #i am not familiar with disco elysiums endings game. i assume i got some neutral run #massacre outside the whirling. saved kim. ruby killed herself. but i found the phasmid and was not fired #oh and klassje got away #does any of this matter?? anyway thats what happened #ruby killing herself was the first oh fuck moment. i felt so bad. poor lady #thats the first thing im going to retry. i neeeed that rhetoric check

[skinreflectsthesun]

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#let me tell you #yesterday I went to the store and found some shorts that were on sale #I was like okay these look like they’d fit #because women’s sizes vary literally store to store #it’s the most fucked up mindgame society likes to play with us and it serves to cripple my soul every single time #anyways #im like okay let me try them on #and listen they did not fit #and I just took a moment to stand there like wow #why did I think those would fit me #I suppose in my mind im smaller than I actually am? #and I just was slapped right into reality for a moment #and stood there like huh 🫤🫤🫤 in the harsh lighting of the fitting room feeling absolutelyyyy discouraged #I actually hate the way my mind is doing this to me #I want so badly to be completely neutral about my body #and some days are easier than others #but my god #going on this vacation is just stressing me out because I have nothing to wear #so yeah #that’s my schpeel #I’m v sad about it #and lowkey don’t wanna go anymore 😅 #I will #but my god fuck this whole thing

[scarletiswailing347]

sometimes i see ppl praise nds for being passionate about their interests and just feel bad :/

#mine.txt #tw vent #ig #this isnt really directed towards anyone #since were in the audhd website this is honestly to be expected #but like idk my passion is entirely artificial and manufactured #something made in conjunction with me and my mind to make my stay here feel like its worth something #not in the existential sense but in the transactional sense ie its worth it to stay alive cause this and that keeps me entertained #and id see all these genuine shows of passion and im just like. how. #cause the thing is im not depressed im actually quite content with my life even with its down moments #but i kinda have an ingrained neutral nihilism in me wherein i dont think much of reality and existence #it makes survival easy but living and thriving so so hard #cause why waste energy doing all that when in the end its all the same anyway #i do things in the moment if they make me happy ofc #but they rarely ever go past a moment #its why even now i struggle with the concept of happy memories #theyre just memories to me

[itssideria]

okay what would you guys say if i completely revamped this blog and became like. multifandom (with lots of dsmpposting still!!!)

#i mean ive been kinda neutral on fandom for a while anyway?? #itd be dsmp soc moon knight posting and whatever im into at the moment #and i could just!! write meta for ALL the things im into!! since im no longer latched onto dsmp the way i once was #mari talks #im gonna do it today i think

[skylordhorus]

does anyone else like, misgender themselves because i do and i find it so embarrassing and it makes me feel both ashamed AND that i’m Faking™️ somehow

#*deep space noises* #i know it probs comes from a double of ‘i know other people misgender me so im trying to ‘translate’ so to speak’ #like how i see more american media and ive had to translate trousers to pants so often that sometimes i skip straight to pants #regardless of context #anyway that plus maybe i associate a typically gendered term with like. simply a sound of comfort or nostalgia in a moment #like i just tried to persuade myself to do something by saying ‘ok be a brave girl’ #im not a girl but since ppl wouldnt have used neutral nouns with me as a child #and neutral nouns in general like person or child etc feel kinda... clinical or detatched #my brain is trying to sift tjrough its memory banks looking for kind or soothing language thats been said to be #and since i havent come out fully since leaving school or spoken to myself like that #my brain is trying to pull from SOMEWHERE familiar #sigh. well trying to understand the process here has helped a lil at least

[reitziluz]

"oh huh, usually getting my official business and chores done for the day energizes me to work on my projects. i wonder why my brain is all scrambled up and i feel both unmotivated and anxious like should be doing something?"

turns out migraine prevention meds have been working so well that i managed to forget how auras for big nasty ones feel lol

wanted to transfer the stuff i worked on during my trip from docs to the working file and start neatening things up but oop

fingers crossed it'll fully clear out before bedtime so i can at least start looking into how i want my tenses to work in the flashback

#yea fic talk #i don't want the entire thing to be in past perfect (i think it's called!) #gotta figure out how to cleanly transition from telling about a past thing #into diving into the moment and then back to present #im also once again thinking about some stylistic choices #like how to refer to characters and what to translate or include as is #like japanese honorifics #prolly just going to go with what's most fun for me and comes naturally #like i don't get how others can do third person pov and use arataka instead of reigen #feels like you're calling your pov character babygirl as if it's a neutral term #then again i tend to have single name ocs and feel strongly about this mostly when im writing other ppl's characters #im not close enough to him to call him arataka when that's not what he's mostly called in the narrative nor what his spinoff is called #okay maybe i saw a post about needing to research cultures and how that affects name use #and like. it was weirdly aggressive but mostly seemed confused on its own points #what narrator calls characters and what characters call themselves and others. don't necessarily follow same rules #and yeah this tangent got too long #point is how the pov character is called is how i or the narrator construct of me calls them #other characters are loosely called what the pov character would call them #in my usual style of writing anyway

[n0ct0urn1quet]

@raiden-metal-gear-rising awawbjlwbkjlablgkbakajkwklawkjawjkekwekjejejejwkafkjbggbbbdkdfhbfdsbhjsdfbhfsdbhjfsdbhlsdfhbkkkjjkjkbbblblblabababababa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (affectionate)

#alakjfglbklj!!!!!!!!!!! #haby stim!!!!!!!!!!! jkglflbgkfjlj!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #bro i think we shoul video chat more often methinks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! awawwaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! #sorey i kno i somtimes dont kno what 2 do with my face sometimes i jus have a very angry looking neutral face so i try 2 jus like #smile and Look Polite so somteiems my face does weird things when im idle so SBDKDNSKJLNKLJG #also i know !!!!! i kinda am not good at making eye contatt i was kinda looking off n not rly looking like Driectly At You whenever u woul #talk but bhjdnkl!!!!!!!!! stil!!!!!!!!!! i lov video chatting with u!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i kno i strugl showing my face sometimes but its jus like the few moments leading up to turning my cam on but nce its on i am goode #but bsdhknskkgl stil!!!!!! awawaw!!!!!!! i lobe u so much!!!!!!!!!! #also lmao as soon as i get off the call kitty rolls over and looks all cute n snugly lol SDBJKBDKJLNKJLG #also its ok that its hard 2 be nice to urself!!!!! its oke!!!!!! i get it!!!!!! #i just think u look very very pretty an cute huny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur face is verey ebic an u ar not ugly u are SO shaped an cute!!!!!!! #chuby wifey!!!!!!! belobed scrungly!!!!!!!!! #also lol i hope u get good seepys i kno ur only geting a coupl hours but it is oke i wil b awake when u get up anyways so !!!!! jksDKJLKLJF #I DONT MEAN THAT IN A BAD WAY i don tmean 2 say im not gona be able to seep tonite i juts mean that i am hyper now and even tho i SHOULD #be going to bed earlier i do not want to rn bc i am !!!!!!!!!! habbie!!!!!!!! abkdjbflksbfgkjdfgnklKJL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ur jus so prebby omhmgbgkjnnhkjdhkhgknh awaawawaawaaaaa i lov u i lov u!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my wifeeeey!!!!!!!!! #i lobve u verey much get good seepy oke!!!!!!!!!! mwa mwa mwaah!!!!!!!!! kissys an smoochys i loubv u lotse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #:] :] :] :] !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[miiversian]

randomly feel like going scorched earth with vchuuber fanart now. lol ! (disclaimer this is a 4 am post, mostly stemming off me realizing im losing my old passion & interest in the funny vee chuubers)

its mostly just cause i was more interested in their personas' lore than the actual streams/streamer in the first place... so seeing everyone get excited and hype over big events and me not being able to share that hype anymore (mostly due to my oshi retiring & the big group dynamic changing) has been crazy alienating

tldr never interact with a big fanbase worst mistake of my life. the discourse is fucking crazy lmao

#shoutout to u7trakill for finally ending a nearly 2 year toxic parasocial relationship lmao! #tbf my experience over the past 1.75 years has been #80 percent good/neutral and like 20% negative #tldr being a vtuber fan has put me in presence of the craziest mood swings for the longest periods of time #mostly gonna blame it on the fans and less the streamer themselves #bc guess what!! twt is a hellhole!! #n it doesnt help that a big chunk of fans are *those* types of anime fans #ie fucking freaks #and i hated that i had to share a space with them #YES curate your own experience. whatever. #doesnt change the fact that i still had to occasionally bear witness to the WORST kinds of ppl #liking pure straight up fiction is way less messy than liking streamers lol #sorry if that came off really harsh #its just. im fed up lmao #the highs of interacting with the fanbase when we had our highs was amazing #but GOD the lowest lows sucked so so so bad and there was/is infighting #anyway im rambling #doesnt help that ppl keep bringing up a very sour moment the fans had that id honestly wish wed forget about!! but they!! keep bringing it u #and to be fair!!! it was BAD #but i wish theyd stop implying the Event in every 'fan etiquette' post #i hold SO MUCH regret over that event even if i didnt go as far as some other fans did #and honestly! i cant believe it even happened! thats how bad it was #and it very obvs affected him HARD #but i really REALLY wish we would just. treat it as a yeah this happened thing now #bc hes Graduated. under mysterious circumstances #and theres nothing we can do now! #hate to be a past is in the past person but what can you fucking do!!! #delete later #deepest sigh #vent post

[quietwingsinthesky]

I think the nature of Clara haterism on Tumblr can’t be fully understood without the historical context of 2013. Namely that by the time of DW season 7b Moffat was widely hailed as The Bogeyman Of All Misogyny Ever. Clara was considered THE prototypical Shallow Moffat Girl, and she became a sort of figurehead for everything wrong with the show. (Bc everyone was maybe 14 and Smith was too beloved to insult.) Consequently, she evokes a kneejerk bad faith reading response in many users even today.

yeah, alright, i can see that. i am surprised that, at least as far as i’ve seen, amy & river don’t get the same treatment? or if they did, it hasn’t persisted half as long as opinions on clara have. Because having now seen how all three of them were written, amy got treated. so much worse with The Misogyny™️, and River bounces between ‘actually a fascinating character’ and ‘moffat wrote a sexy girlboss who wants to fuck the doctor’ so hard it gives me whiplash. (and i say this as a River enjoyer, I love her and she deserves so much better lmao.)

Of the three of them, I think Clara actually comes out a lot better written overall? She’s allowed more space to be a character rather than be a woman, if that makes sense. Sure, bit of a rocky start in s7, and I can certainly see why the Impossible Girl thing could be aggravating to some people. (I think it was. Fine. fantastic episode conceptually that sort of fell apart when it came to actually doing anything.) but Clara in s8 (and the start of s9) is fantastic. Her relationship with Danny and the Doctor is messy and deceptive and so understandable. “Listen” as an episode almost felt like ‘hey what if the clara putting herself in the doctor’s past was actually interesting and impacted him’. Her becoming more like the Doctor, especially after losing Danny, both as an effort to hold on tight to the only person she perceives as keeping her moving forward and giving her a purpose AND because to her, the Doctor is able to lose so much and not be destroyed by it and she wants that (without really understanding just how much this life is fucking him up, too.), is just. fantastic.

where was i going with this. i have no idea. my point, i think, is: i guess i can see how initial reactions to clara might color a less than flattering picture of the rest of her, but :( consider: i love her so so much and everyone should be niceys to her.

#i was sort of neutral on clara for most of s7 i think #she had great moments but i think a lot of what was holding her back was the same thing holding most of eleven’s seasons back as a whole #which to me was. what the fuck are they doing with that guy. does anyone know. did anyone have a thesis in mind for this man. #which makes it hard to build a companion around him as a foil because what are you foiling. #amy & rory didn’t have this problem as much because they were a set do not separate and thus could play off each other as well #(river. is another story.) #and because 11’s relationship with the ponds was maybe the one thing the show kept on track the whole time and understood what it was doing #with them. clara’s is. a lot messier. it’s both building to a twist with the impossible girl thing that’s. a bit lackluster. #and then 11 without the ponds is. kind of a mess. like. character-wise. even more so than before. as far as i perceived it anyway. #but 12 does not have that problem! 12 starts off with a bang knowing exactly where he’s going as the doctor and what question he’s answering #about himself. and that gives clara so much more room to grow herself as she patterns herself after him both to feel important and to escape #the horrifyingly mundane trauma of her boyfriend. dying. in a normal way. that was also her own fault. (not really but i believe she thinks #it is.) #you know. if s8 12 is asking ‘is the doctor a good man?’ and answering ‘no. he’s just a man. he’s just there and he makes the decisions #and he doesn’t even know if they’re the right ones.’ #then s8-s9 clara is responding with ‘well. if the doctor isn’t a hero. then what happens when someone tries to emulate him that sees him as #one. or worse: as someone who ought to be one.’ #and the answer seems to be ‘bad idea. very very bad idea. this is fucking her up so bad and she doesn’t even realize it.’ #granted im not at the end of this plotline but so far: ITS GOOD!!!! clara is great!!!! #anyway. thats my clara thoughts. actually i have more about ehy the moon abortion episode (bad) was ooc for the doctor but! very good #character moment for clara in reacting to what he put her through and how that’s foundational to how she’s rebuilding herself in his image. #but ill leave off here. #clara oswald #dw lb #ask

[carp-esh-ove-lem]

sigh i truly am not a huge fan of when Specialest Boy in my fanfics

#i'm just bitching #it turns me off so easily even when it's my blorbo #Specialest Boy /gender neutral #tho i admit it is usually a dude... #like noooooo i liked when they were a normal guy.... come back.... #u can be angsted and not Specialest Boyed btw #it's just the Energy. i cant fully explain it rn but ya #like. i want to see this perosn in their natural habitat. in their life. why is everyone fussing like that. over specifically them #sorry im mad about fictional people in twice over fictional works Caring Too Much abt my faves #but agahagahaggGahhjdj grrrr. #if you specialest boy someone the other people matter less.... like u can feel it #and no i want to feel them have an existence outside of this moment with this person.. #existence in relation to only one person is much better Intentionally explored rhan as a accidental consequencs of the story imo #but what do i know #im just some dude on tumblr #anyways rant over. again i'm jusr bitching out loud im not soapboxing or anything #do whatever you want make urself happy

[somuch-4-stardust]

okay so i have started watching wednesday and my general thought is that i enjoy the show but not for the same reason i like the addams family movies (and? we have a book full of addams family comics. those too idk). like i feel like its a different style BUT i still enjoy it because i think the characters are fun and i love mysteries and i have always been a big wednesday fan. and its kinda cheesy coming of age love triangle moment and i love those . BUT MY OTHER THING IS i think wednesday is autistic (but . this is also one of those where when allistics say it it feels. kinda icky sometimes. ) BECAUSE she does that thing which is Bad but where you like. use people as means to an end ?? and not value human connection WHICH IS SOMETHING I DO SOMETIMES and its not good but likeidk

#and also. lack of facial expressions. the moment where shes like. 'im just prioritizing" to the one boy #and it reads to him as 'you are not a priority/ i dont like u' but shes just trying to like. tell it how it is?? #like shes not trying to be mean #the monotone voice too <- me moment #AND EVEN THE EVERYTHING IN BLACK AND WHITE!!! LIKE . DO U KNOW LIKE. i forgor the word #like having things be more neutral colors for like less overstimulation. <- which is not something i personally do i love colors #anyways. wednesday just like me frfr!!! #funfact. my parents used to compare me to wednesday all the time cuz i was a bit of a . dark child #and also i loved wednesday. and when my hair was long i liked to do the double braid thing #MY MUM AGREES W THE AUTISM THEORY she was like 'maybe shes just autistic she acts just like you' #<- which like. i dont think thats a good thing but slay!!! i guess!!! #okay rant over i prommy i will do no more wednesday posting #ALSO ALSO #i didnt feel like the characterization of the rest of the addams family was accurate personally.