#if you specialest boy someone the other people matter less.... like u can feel it

[carp-esh-ove-lem]

sigh i truly am not a huge fan of when Specialest Boy in my fanfics

#i'm just bitching #it turns me off so easily even when it's my blorbo #Specialest Boy /gender neutral #tho i admit it is usually a dude... #like noooooo i liked when they were a normal guy.... come back.... #u can be angsted and not Specialest Boyed btw #it's just the Energy. i cant fully explain it rn but ya #like. i want to see this perosn in their natural habitat. in their life. why is everyone fussing like that. over specifically them #sorry im mad about fictional people in twice over fictional works Caring Too Much abt my faves #but agahagahaggGahhjdj grrrr. #if you specialest boy someone the other people matter less.... like u can feel it #and no i want to feel them have an existence outside of this moment with this person.. #existence in relation to only one person is much better Intentionally explored rhan as a accidental consequencs of the story imo #but what do i know #im just some dude on tumblr #anyways rant over. again i'm jusr bitching out loud im not soapboxing or anything #do whatever you want make urself happy