#n it doesnt help that a big chunk of fans are *those* types of anime fans

[miiversian]

randomly feel like going scorched earth with vchuuber fanart now. lol ! (disclaimer this is a 4 am post, mostly stemming off me realizing im losing my old passion & interest in the funny vee chuubers)

its mostly just cause i was more interested in their personas' lore than the actual streams/streamer in the first place... so seeing everyone get excited and hype over big events and me not being able to share that hype anymore (mostly due to my oshi retiring & the big group dynamic changing) has been crazy alienating

tldr never interact with a big fanbase worst mistake of my life. the discourse is fucking crazy lmao

#shoutout to u7trakill for finally ending a nearly 2 year toxic parasocial relationship lmao! #tbf my experience over the past 1.75 years has been #80 percent good/neutral and like 20% negative #tldr being a vtuber fan has put me in presence of the craziest mood swings for the longest periods of time #mostly gonna blame it on the fans and less the streamer themselves #bc guess what!! twt is a hellhole!! #n it doesnt help that a big chunk of fans are *those* types of anime fans #ie fucking freaks #and i hated that i had to share a space with them #YES curate your own experience. whatever. #doesnt change the fact that i still had to occasionally bear witness to the WORST kinds of ppl #liking pure straight up fiction is way less messy than liking streamers lol #sorry if that came off really harsh #its just. im fed up lmao #the highs of interacting with the fanbase when we had our highs was amazing #but GOD the lowest lows sucked so so so bad and there was/is infighting #anyway im rambling #doesnt help that ppl keep bringing up a very sour moment the fans had that id honestly wish wed forget about!! but they!! keep bringing it u #and to be fair!!! it was BAD #but i wish theyd stop implying the Event in every 'fan etiquette' post #i hold SO MUCH regret over that event even if i didnt go as far as some other fans did #and honestly! i cant believe it even happened! thats how bad it was #and it very obvs affected him HARD #but i really REALLY wish we would just. treat it as a yeah this happened thing now #bc hes Graduated. under mysterious circumstances #and theres nothing we can do now! #hate to be a past is in the past person but what can you fucking do!!! #delete later #deepest sigh #vent post