#anyway I'm rambling again

[super-who-locked-me-in-here]

Okay so in Doctor Strange: Multiverse of Madness, Doctor Strange (Earth-616) tells Christine (Earth-838) "I love you. I love you in every universe." And I thought that was one of the most romantic things I'd ever heard, given Stephen's experience with both Christine and also with the multiverse, but especially coming from a superhero movie.

Like, the idea that no matter our circumstances, or when or where or how we live, as long as you are you and I am me, then I will love you. That love seems indescribable.

But recently I have started to dip my toes into Supernatural again, and I am completely entranced by Cas' love for Dean, the idea that this reality is the only one where I love you and that's fine because the only reality that matters to me is one where we're together.

Because that's what Chuck said, right? In every other universe or reality that he created, Cas never once strayed from his mission, his purpose, except for this one that we see the show take place in, because in this one he loved and wanted to be loved and was loved in return. Because in this universe he cared; Dean made him care.

I am obsessed with the idea that I only love you in this universe and that that's perfect. That it's good. Because it means this is the universe where I have hope and trust and I have you. Those other realities? They are nothing more than other versions of us. Prototypes. Projects. Throwaways. The fact that I love you in this universe despite it being written into the very fabric of the universe by God himself that we are meant to fail, that means something. That means that it doesn't matter what anyone says, that I am not going to be yet another eternal victim of fate, that I am able to choose my own path, and even if none of the other versions of me choose you as their path, it doesn't matter, because I am and I'm here and we're together and that's all I could ever need in any timeline, even if all the other realities but this one fail to grasp that.

And Destiel fucking gave us that. And I am in shambles.

#anyway I'm rambling again #supernatural #spn #destiel #dsmom #doctor strange #love

[cosmic-light-fics]

I may be ostracizing myself for this opinion. Feel free to disagree but....

I don't think there is a problem with Claire being used as a plot device. I don't think it's really a big deal that the writers wrote this character to have a specific purpose to the main protagonist of the show, and used that character to expose the fatal flaws of said protagonist.

It's easy to see why people have a tendency to view characters as actual people, especially really well-written characters like the main ensemble cast of The Bear. We empathize with them on a deeper level. We empathize with their pain, their heartache, their joy, their dreams, their fears, their love, their past, present, and future. It's a pretty big reason why the show is as popular as it is.

However, at the end of the day, the characters are just that. Characters - who are used to tell a compelling story. So when the showrunners design a character who has a specific purpose to the narrative, it's kinda weird to see people get up in arms over that decision because that character was never meant to be as fleshed out as the main cast.

How is a character like Claire being done a disservice and being diminished if her role was never meant to contain as much nuance as the main cast? I could see the argument working for someone like Sydney or Tina or Sugar. Those characters need to be as thoroughly fleshed out as they are because their roles in the story require that nuance due to the positions they hold in the restaurant (and by extension, their positions in Carmy's life), the main driver of the story.

So when I see posts that say, "I wish Claire was written better" I can't help but think that the point of Claire was missed. Imo the audience is supposed to feel like she doesn't belong in this world of chaos, in Carmy's world. Not because it's any fault of hers, but because that's just how her character was fashioned to be perceived.

#this makes sense right? #i don't hate her character #i actually like the purpose she served for this season #if she rubbed ppl the wrong way it's because she's meant to you know what i mean #anyway i'm rambling again #carmy berzatto #the bear fx #the bear spoilers #sydney adamu #the bear #carmen berzatto #the bear hulu #claire the bear #tine the bear #sugar berzatto #natalie berzatto #the bear season 2

[corrieguards]

Would you rather have your first kiss with Cody or Rex? Also I hope you have a great day ❤️☺️

Oh damnn this is a toughie. It's like asking me to pick between puppies and kittens. They're both so great in their own way-😭

Ok ok, let's give it a go

ramble under the cut

Now I would usually go for Rex, no questions asked I mean c'mon, he's Rex- However, if we're talking in the context of a first kiss...

I'm gonna have to go with Cody :0 betrayal

I know i know, I'm sorry, but I can explain! As a shy and insecure person by nature, I tend to stand back and let the more experienced people take the lead, y'know show me how things are done first, before I feel confident enough to do it myself. And I think Cody would be the best choice for that.

Rex would too, don't get me wrong. But he would probably be more prone to letting my nervousness rub off on him. It might make him feel like he isn't doing good enough, or that I wasn't enjoying it as much as him which wouldn't be true but anyway And, in that case, he could even need some reassurance of his own.

Cody, however. Cody is good and he knows it. He would have no problem taking charge, in fact I think he would thoroughly enjoy it maybe a little too much So it would be a win win for both of us. Also, Cody doesn't hold back, he'll go all in. He'd be the kind of guy to grab your ass while you guys are kissing, even if it is the first time, he doesn't give a fuck.

He's all or nothing and I like that.

#thank you so much for the question!! #I love questions that make me stop and think #and this was one of those <33 #sorry for the ramble tho #i might take this questions a little too seriously #so sorry if this wasn't what you were expecting #i feel like sometimes you guys aren't asking me to pour out my heart and sould to you #but I do it anyway lmao #anyway i'm rambling again #thank you so much!! #it was a great question and I had so much fun answering it <3 #love you babes!!💙💙

[mimi-cee-genshin]

How do I make up a myth/ legend out of thin air?

#I need one for my Wanderer series #but I feel weak in this area #and I need it for a specific purpose in my story #I might need to read a few particular books in mind #to get more inspiration lol #I'd usually gloss over a story's mythical lore #because I didn't care about it and wanted to know what was happening in the present day instead #but then my brain also wants it to be canon compliant even if it'll explode trying lol #anyway I'm rambling again #mimi's updates

[midnight-coffee94]

No single line has ever wrecked me as hard as this one from the Good Place and I think about it constantly

#the good place #i'm binge watching it again and it just takes me out so hard #i get lost in the sauce thinking about this quote #the idea that those who hurt you are capable of being better people and then seeing them change and grow just hits me right between the rib #who am i kidding it stabs me like the senators stabbed Caesar #anyway #icy does a tag ramble

[lazylittledragon]

isn't it weird how if you get up at 7 or 8, do your work all day, then have free time and go to bed at 11 that's absolutely fine

but if i said i get up at 10, do fun stuff in the morning then work in the evening and go to bed late, i could be called lazy, nevermind that i'm getting just as much or MORE work done as i would in a traditional work day

#ramble #idk if this is a me problem or not #i've tried to do the early rise early bed thing again and again and it just does not work for me doing freelance right now #maybe it's bc i used to work at a bar so i'm more comfortable being active in the evening #i love working at night because there's less going on to distract me #what used to happen is i would get up early then fight executive dysfunction all day saying i couldn't do fun stuff until i did my work #then my will to work would hit at 10pm and i'd be up till 2am anyway #right now my routine is waking up later and playing a game or knitting for an hour or so and then working in the afternoon and evening #something something capitalism and 9-5 and adhd don't go together #this sounds like i'm just making excuses but it works and i'm actually getting shit done and sleeping enough so i don't see the problem #i just figured i'm probably going to sit and do nothing for a few hours in the morning anyway so i might as well give myself permission to

[cangrellesteponme]

wife

#yeah i'm not dead woo let's celebrate #my art #kuroshitsuji #kuroshitsuji fanart #black butler #black butler fanart #grelle sutcliff #grell sutcliff #anyway i didn't draw SHIT for a good while and when i got back to it i suddenly hated using the flat marker brush??? #it's part of what makes my signature distinctive so i used it for that but yeah i switched brushes #oddly enough i'm not hating the more textured look? it gets very pixelated at times but it's not awful #back to the signature- it felt weirdly nice to sign things again #i haven't in a while #if you're one of the very few people who also follow me on instagram you'll know i don't use it on there #and the only art i've been doing these days has been original work so yeah nothing on tumblr #and thus the words 'brain exhaustion god stan' have not been written by this comically large hand in a hot minute #enough rambling this is just grelle art because i love her and i know y'all love her too so i thought it would be a nice comeback piece

[hajihiko]

Picking people for his gang like rotten apples off the ground

#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Peko pekoyama #ryoma hoshi #izuru kamukura #chihiro fujisaki #Ultimate Impostor #An art #They're not rotten apples they're just traumatized and a bit damaged but the caption was funnier #Anyway these are all characters that Fuyuhiko either invites to join him or offer protection to #Points again to my 'people on the fringe of society' ramble #If I had limitless time and patience and mobility I'd make a comic series about the funky antics of a really ragtag Yakuza group #I'm seeing it in my brain ok #Impostor is different they turned him down and are remarkably good at handling their own shit #But maybe they can be convinced to lend a hand on occasion..... #Chihiro was not offered a job just protection. Why? Fuyuhiko just picks favourites like that #Izuru and Ryoma both got the 'hey if you got nowhere else to go...' #Ok I'll stop

[raticalshoez]

Sorry guys. I'm ranting about Joel again because djskakaka that's my favorite guy. This post is a direct result of the tags in a post I reblogged and I just HAD TO TALK ABOUT IT MORE.

Okay, so Joel always carries himself to high regard. He has lots of confidence in himself, is generally apathetic and dry to any matter that doesn't concern him, and he overall loves to bite back at things. He's a big fan of chaos and violence, and stays generally bitter when things go badly for him. He can be ruthless and reckless and that's just natural for him because he's one of the many Life Series wolf-coded characters.

But something about Joel in Secret Life is just...kind? He's kind and caring, in his Joel Smallishbeans way. Especially in later sessions.

In Etho's little remembering the past era, he reassures him that he does still care for him. When Lizzie invites everyone to her party in a rushed frenzy, he attends because he thinks it's only fair. When Pearl was apprehensive about her task being guessed, he purposefully wastes his guess so she doesn't have to be worried around him. He trusts Jimmy to assist him with his task even while everyone else is cautious about his red name status. And when it all came down to it, Joel tells Martyn to stay back after all the reds have dropped like flies because even if all the reds were a threat to them, he still didn't want to see them all die in one episode.

In Secret Life, Joel still has everything he's always had. He's still bloodthirsty and holds silly grudges, evident with the whole Scott thing this session. He's still cheeky and likes to mess around and make sarcastic comments often, but at the end of the day he's Joel. He tends to stay loyal to his allies and I think he's more thoughtful than lots of people realize.

This may be part of the reason I love the Mounders. They were all sort of distant in the way they would wander off and do their own thing, but when it came down to it, they always stuck by each other. They remained loyal despite what seemed to be really loose ends tying them all together, and that means SO much to me! I guess it makes sense though; a team with the lonely wolf girl from Double Life and the lonely wolf boy from Last Life were enough to neutralize the whole, "Bdubs can be kinda disloyal" thing and the whole "Mumbo was apprehensive of any color lesser than he was" thing.

Anyways. Life Series Joel Smallishbeans. That's my guy bro...THAT'S MY GUYYYYYY

Also! The post that inspired this was by @simplydm! Their post about Joel's comment to Martyn reminded me how much that scene made me orbit around the moon so I thought they deserved to mentioned in this. Sorry to them if uh they didn't want to be tagged though. I will remove it if that ends up being the case!

#trafficblr #secret life smp #SORRY FOR ANOTHER RAMBLE YALL #smallishbeans #ethoslab #solidaritygaming #pearlescentmoon #ldshadowlady #inthelittlewood #bdoubleo100 #mumbo jumbo #smajor1995 #again idk if everyone needed to be tagged #but i did anyways #god......GOD. #sorry for all the rambling again #i'm sooooooo normal about the life series haha #soooooooooo so normal mhm yup #especially about joel. of the smallishbeans variety.

[saltpepperbeard]

No because, the way Stede keeps his eyes blissfully closed well after the kiss ends, and the way he looks so fondly at Ed when his eyes finally open, and the way you can see Ed’s cheeks tilt upwards with the start of his own smile, and the way Ed keeps his hand gently on Stede’s face, and the way they stay so impossibly close together, and the way Ed’s nose brushes against Stede’s because they’re so close together, and—

#OFMD #Gentlebeard #Blackbonnet #Stede Bonnet #Edward Teach #Revenge Rambles #Edit #anyway yeah uhhhhhh #do y'all ever repeatedly watch the kiss and cry lmao #do y'all ever repeatedly watch the kiss just to pick apart all the little beautiful details #BECAUSE I DO #I SURE DO LMAO #SO MUCH SO THAT I MADE MY CLUNKY VERSION OF PHOTOSHOP FIGHT FOR ITS LIFE MAN #like listen it's so bad that i'm even focusing in on taika/ed's eyelashes #like you can see them open almost as soon as he pulls back #and then they dart down and back up again #almost like ed was nervously anticipating a reaction #or maybe even considering going in for another kiss #or both #like #hello? #HELLO???

[a2zillustration]

I carried this thing for MONTHS with the EXPRESS PURPOSE of putting Raphael in it (knowing full well Larian wouldn't let me do that, mechanically) and I had one major miscalculation.

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#Ok I'm gonna ramble in the tags about all this get ready: #I KNEW Larian wouldn't let me actually pull this off but I PROMISE you that stupid flask sat in my inventory since the moment I grabbed it #WAITING for when I could write this little bit about putting Raphael in it #I even threw it at him in the fight with a 30% hit chance and it succeeded so I considered that Larian giving me permission to say it workd #But as I was reading up on it again when I was sketching this I saw the bit about native planes and I cried LMAO. But it's dnd- #so I rewrote is as it would've happened in a game. U kno. #Also I have been waiting to use that fox line for SO LONG bc of Croissant's dad being a fox-like fey creature #So much backstory that's slotted in PERFECTLY with the BG3 narrative #Anyway absolutely wild that we managed to take out this ancient powerful devil - and on the first try! #Lae'zel with a potion of speed did WORK. Gale came in clutch with hold monster. Astarion gave Raph stage fright. Croissant made him dance #(I'm pretty sure he just doesn't have a dance animation in ascended form lol) #Hope didn't even need to use divine intervention - this party is terrifying #Croissant hated him but in the end I loved Raphael I see why all you people like him #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #act III spoilers #house of hope #croissant adventures #tav #raphael #lae'zel #iron flask #comics #ALSO shoutouts to you if you both noticed and knew which worthikids animation I borrowed the expression in panel 5 from

[theragamuffininitiative]

I don't need a vacation, I need a sabbatical, where I go live in an abbey in switzerland for six months where I read and garden and study and stare at the sky and learn about birds and make some art and write a lot and help feed the nearby village with the garden crops and there are no ads or algorithms or tv shows or fastfood restaurants and I walk into town once a week for phone and internet to check on friends and family and then I go away again and preferably there are cats and goats and those soft brown cows and one shaggy dog and I learn I have a new favorite constellation and type of flower and shade of green.

#ragamusings #anyone else? #had to drive v carefully around a phone-distracted driver on my way home and i wanted to shake him by the shoulders #had someone want a refund from their show bc they didnt like it (we didn't have enough cast members apparently???) #and i watched horrific news unfold #and i'm so angry and tired and frustrated #i took a week-long staycation and only began to feel like myself again on the fifth day #anyways you can reblog this if you relate it's not just a private ramble #but idk if it is relatable or not i just want it deep in my soul #but alas i have no money and sabbaticals cost money ironically #and who would take care of my cats

[drawer-of-socks]

Haven't drawn the boys in a hot minute-

#okok #so #the ruin dlc amiright #but like #I JUST HAVE MORE QUESTIONS NOW #Is Eclipse just stuck in the daycare again #or does he actually have enough of a clear mind to realize no more kids will come #and he maybe tries to leave somehow #we did see he isn't hostile #like monty for example #I'm just rambling #BUT LIKE #COME ON MAN #I WANNA SEE MORE OF EM IS THAT SUCH A CRIME #someone needs to write a fanfic about this I swear- #...hmmmm maybe I can do that myself #hueueue #anyways if u're still reading #hi #have a loaf of bread #fnaf #fnaf sb #fnaf security breach #fnaf ruin spoilers #fnaf sun man #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #fnaf eclipse #art #my art

[mye-chi]

okay listen sometimes as an artist you wanna do warm-ups for aphtober. and sometimes that means crudely drawing that stupid shitpost that popped up in your head (based off this image)

#i wanna ramble about my divine warriors lore sooo badly but I'm reeling it in until october arrives and/or i post some more art #also slapping a huge TBA on these designs once again i came up with them on the spot. i did not want to draw hands or irene's veil <3 #anyway shout out to the 2 other esrene shippers❗️❗️❗️ #( 🎨 ) ⸻ frills' art #aphmau #minecraft diaries

[flowercrowngods]

✨🤍 some steddie softness for @thefreakandthehair's birthday, i hope it's the very best so far! 🤍✨(please please your day comes first, read this whenever you have time and space to breathe 🤍)

Eddie is not a religious man — far from it, actually. But there are a few things that make him believe in higher powers. In angels. In destiny and luck and a love so strong it could conquer everything. 

This very moment is one of them. 

Stevie, soft and sleepy beside him in the back of the car as Nancy is driving, the dim light of the passing street lamps painting his face in hues of gold like the light itself favours Steve Harrington, caressing his features with the softest of shadows. 

He’s beautiful. Ethereal. Perfectly angelic with his eyes closed, his whole body turned towards Eddie in the warmth of the car.

It takes Eddie’s breath away, his heart taking up space where before there were his lungs and ribcage, growing in size until he feels like he is about to burst. And even then he keeps looking, staring at that pretty face that looks so at peace with the whole world right now. Eddie has never seen Steve like this, but now he understands why people start wars. Why people defy gods and death itself to be with their one true love. Why Orpheus looked back. 

He understands. Because Steve, his Stevie, warm and safe and perfectly fine in the backseat of a car? That is everything. He doesn’t even need to kiss or touch so long as he just gets to look. And be. Oh, to be at the same time that Steve is. 

That might just be life’s greatest gift to him. 

A tiny sigh falls from Steve’s lips and Eddie really, really might be about to burst. 

“Hey, angel,” he whispers, because moments like this aren’t made for anything but hushed words, their truths too heavy, too sincere for the world to hear and keep on spinning. He doesn’t need the world to spin as long as there is Steve. 

“Hi,” Steve whispers back, his eyes still closed but the smile lighting up, luring Eddie in like he is but a moth drawn to the flame. 

Eddie leans in and rests his forehead against Steve’s, his hand coming up to cradle a light-kissed cheek. Steve leans into it, following Eddie’s hand like maybe they are twin stars pulling each other closer until there will be an explosion of light and creation. Steve nuzzles against his palm and leans further into Eddie’s body until they share the same breath — but still it’s not enough. 

Eddie wants to say so many things now that their hands are entangled, their soft exhales mixing. But after a while he notices that Steve is humming before gently singing along to the song coming quietly from the speakers. 

“Take it easy with me, please. Touch me gently like a summer evening breeze. Take your time, make it slow. Andante, Andante. Just let the feeling grow.”

Eddie knows the song, recognises it instantly, and his breath gets stuck in his throat once more. Because he has a secret. He loves it. He has imagined for the longest time that one day, someone would make it his song. Sing it for him, to him. 

He’s never told anyone because he has a reputation to uphold and more than enough metal music to listen to, but of course Steve wouldn’t care about his secrets being secret, and just oh so casually make his deepest, most private of dreams come true. 

He’s an angel, that one. A hero. Myths and fairy tales should be woven around that heart of his, folklore speaking of his name until history itself wouldn’t dare to forget. No one can convince Eddie otherwise. Not in that moment, not with Steve singing so quietly, so gently, so adoringly. 

I think I love you. I think I can’t ever stop, not when I’ve seen you like this. Not when you’ve just shown me what life can be about, what it should be about. Gods, I love you and love you and love you. 

That’s what he wants to say. 

But all that comes out is a marvelled, “Shit, Stevie.”

It has the desired effect of a huffed breath, an even wider smile, and Steve cuddling further into Eddie’s side, eyes still closed. Eddie brushes a kiss to Steve’s forehead and feels like maybe his love can make it into the fairy tale, too. 

It will. Oh, it will, when Steve finally lifts his head from Eddie’s shoulder and looks at him through hooded eyes, all soft and sleepy and safe. A moment passes like this and Eddie can’t breathe, maybe he can never breathe again — but it only lasts until Steve slowly, so very slowly begins to lean in to claim Eddie’s lips with a kiss so gentle it could bring him back from the dead. 

Eddie kisses Steve back just as slowly, because in moments like this there is no rush, no hurry. There’s only them, there’s only this. Only a kiss until there is another. 

And with Steve, there is always another. 

Nancy smiles as she is taking the long way to Steve’s house, rounding Loch Nora twice because she knows how comfy Steve gets in cars at night when he doesn’t have to drive and there is soft music playing. 

Eddie kisses her goodbye on the forehead, fully aware of what she’s done. He doesn't tell her about the sun and the myths and all the wars he would start for Steve.

Nights like this are not meant for telling anyone about them. They can hardly be believed as it is. They can only be lived, hand in loving hand.

#steddie fic #steddie #eddie x steve #steve x eddie #dio words #hi lex happy birthday i hope you like this bit of incoherent softness i hope you like the sleepy feeling in the back of a car at night #when all the lights go whoosh you know?? with some music? idkidk but writing this was fun anyway :D #also because sincerity is for tumblr tags let me just say thanks again for being in my dms sometimes and listening to my whumpy rambles #here you have some fluff to make up for it :D no but seriously you deserve nice things so i'm happy to see you getting some today 🤍

[tei-to-tei]

December 14 - Spare Time

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#rottmnt #rise fanart #rise of the tmnt #rise raph #rise donnie #brains and brawn #they're sciencin' your honor #i love this duo so much even back in 2003 #“anyway journal” wise - i wanted to do so much today #like read fics and actually write again #but instead i woke up with a day-long migraine ;-; ended up just sleeping most of the day and drinking soup #i think i'm getting sick which sucks and staring at the screen just to doodle this hurt so bad #excedrin my love i need you to actually work again #whoops ramble over ok goodnight T___T #teidoodle #tei's dec23