Thinking about how Neil doesn’t want to say “I love you” so instead he traces it in different languages like אני אוהב אותך (ani ohev otakh) on Andrew’s skin when they’re in quiet moments
Andrew thinking it’s mindless patterns
But the action of Neil softly brushing over his skin is nothing but comfort and brings him peace
And the kiss he presses to Neil’s shoulder means the same, in a language just for them
hozier performing an acoustic set of from eden, dublin 2019. I get brought to tears every time I watch this.
(don’t ask me how to get the full footage bc idk 😭 the concert was professionally recorded because it was supposed to be televised but it never ended up happening. somehow some fans managed to 🏴☠️this specific part, I just screen-recorded it and have had it saved for 4yrs)
So @fortheloveofexy posted a snippet of their fic for wip Wednesday (here) that I just. It got my heart, and I’ve been wanting to draw more mers and Andrew’s design is so cool in this au i couldn’t help myself
I’ll reblog and link when the corresponding chapter comes out but for now, here’s the general fic link in case you haven’t been following it already 👀
Oftentimes, he thinks about crossing the boundaries with her but just doesn't work on it
It's so casual for them to be all "touchy-feely" with one another so some things can be passed off as non sexual, at least between them. Since it's been like that from the beginning
While Andrew is very aware of morals, he knows it's not normal for siblings to touch each other like that.
He just don't give a fuck as long as it doesn't involve consequences
That's why he sleeps with her, touch her ass etc so casually
Cause when it's between them
He can play it off
But in front of their mom
Consequences were invovled
He freaked out
Removed his hand
(Proves that he already knew it's not normal he's just afraid of the consequences)
Again, they've done many things together, but some of the things he often thinks about (holding her in his arms till she smiles) might cross even the little boundary they have. [Or he just doesn't want to take risks. Ashley finding out about his repressed feelings will have its own share of consequences lol]
It'll be different if Ashley was really into him that way, too. See, if she truly wanted to pursue him in a romantic relationship, she would have done something about it already cause there is no such thing as moral conduct and boundaries for her. She wouldn't mind being something more tho, as long as it would keep him around forever. She could use it as a "leverage." She just dgaf about her sexual life. To her sex is just an intercourse. She hardly knows the difference between romantic, platonic, and familial love. To her, all the affection means the same. That's why she comes off as possessive.
But Andrew knows what's up. Deep down, he already probably even knows that he has surpressed feelings for his sister he just knows as long as he doesn't work on it or makes it too obvious. He's in the clear.
auoughgh something something whizzer’s vocals representing his place in the tight-knit family something something the shift between him always branching out from the rest of the harmonies in act 1 something his harmonies blending in seamlessly after him and marvin get back together