#and they denied me again

[hauntedtrait]

america is such a fucked place to be disabled, i’m literally having to hope my condition worsens just so i can maybe stand a better chance of being approved for benefits

#losing my medicaid was one of the worst things thats ever happened to me #and they denied me again #i was denied social security benefits too #i hate this country

[delhe-dalim]

You know?

I'm really havin' an hyperfixation with this show

#artists on tumblr #tmnt #tmnt 2012 #tmnt donatello #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt leonardo #tmnt raphael #tmnt michelangelo #tmnt 2012 splinter #splinter #ice cream kitty #srsly my brain wants me to draw them again and again #and who I am to deny those wishes

[cthulhum]

does anyone realize how crazy it is to have the actor of a mostly headcanoned queer ship say the fans were never crazy and they were right all along after 10+ years of everyone just absolutely going nuts over the said queerbaited ship

#supernatural #dean winchester #spn #destiel #castiel #deancas #misha collins #im 20 i have been Experiencing supernatural and johnlock since i was 12 and merthur since wayy before that i have fought Wars #this is crazy #i love u hannibal i love u 911 (if u make eddie gay) #for the love of god by 'mostly headcanoned' i dont mean that it was never intentional #i am aware that they put the subtext in on purpose #they knew what they were doing #but my focus here is on the actor actually saying it because like #if its not mostly headcanoned then y was the entire cast denying it for years AND YEARS #like do yall not remember what jared and jenesn used to say #there have been many many many instances where the cast has made us feel crazy/stupid for saying anything abt destiel #im just saying TO ME its crazy that actors and creators talk so openly about these things now !!! again i was raised on merlin and sherlock #ok also im confused on the queerbaiting part #everyones saying its queer coding and not queer baiting but cant they be true at the same time ? #im not being dumb on purpose i swear im just confused #like yes dean is very much bi coded and their relationship is queer coded but if the creators deny everything #and we only get a last minute confession after 11 years #that doesnt count as queer baiting ? #someone smart explain this to me 🙏

[demigod-of-the-agni]

The pishacha are manifestations of evil itself, locked within a cursed amulet. The wearer of the amulet is at the mercy of the demon, known for possessing humans and feeding off their host's chakra energy. However, if symbiosis is achieved, the pishacha can grant its host a myriad of powerful abilities.

I just needed to draw something cool okay. I needed to draw some cool goop and some cool looks okay. okay. if I didn't post this I would have exploded okay

#IT'S VENOM BAYBEE #i can't confirm nor deny if pavitr ever ends up wearing the symbiote- sorry. the demon #i honestly just wanted to get something out lmao #it's eating me up from the inside (the au and the symbiote) #honestly there's a lot of white but fuck it. my boy needs to look good. #the dhoti reminds me of gwenom tbh. you know what i'm talking about. that pink bit in her 'fit #anyway i TOLD YOU the mythology was coming in like a boss >:) #sure i'm tweaking stuff here and there. but mwahaha.... boy does it feel good when mythology actually gets what i'm trying to go for #and spits something out for me to use :D #(crying for hours on end trying to figure out how the black goop does its thing) #anyway nearly 12am. this time i will tag my shit correctly 😤 we will not have a thompson/travasso incident again #pavitr prabhakar #spider man india #spiderman india #venom symbiote #venom #spider man fanart #mythic mumbattan au #myart #artoftheagni

[queenofinys]

She swallowed past a lump in her throat, looked up into her son’s eyes. "Paul…I want you to do something for me: choose the course of happiness. Your desert woman, marry her if that’s your wish. Defy everyone and everything to do this. But choose your own course. I…."

LADY JESSICA & CHANI KYNES IN DUNE: PART TWO (2024)

#dune part two #dune #dune part 2 #duneedit #filmedit #filmgifs #doyouevenfilm #fyeahmovies #moviegifs #rebecca ferguson #zendaya #lady jessica #chani kynes #rfergusonedit #zendayaedit #maya edits #look who suddenly cares about her son again lmaooo #actually though thinking thoughts about how this is the only time we see her without the layers and layers of fabric post water of life #history will remember us as wives... #it is impossible to make this scene look good. literally impossible. denis hates me personally #dune spoilers #film #jessica atreides #1k

[wentian]

We will. We will.

#final fantasy xiv #meteor survivor #themis #elidibus #endwalker #shadowbringers #ffxivedit #gamingedit #videogameedit #6.4 spoilers #pandaemonium spoilers #otp: my guiding star #i've been waiting for this since 5.2 :') #my heart still hurts and i'm denying the plot again #yoshi-p please take away your catboy and give me one (1) alive ancient man instead

[alecz-obssesionz]

˚₊ A treat to myself for being able to draw again ₊˚🪻🌹

PREVIOUS ONE:

#hollow knight #hk #alecz'makingz #troupe master grimm #pure vessel #grimm #the hollow knight #grollow #? #THK #the improvement makes me happy #got shaped again #its okay you can call grimm a hoe no one denies #size dif became even more noticeable but I can't complain #I'm still happy about the decision of giving them this type of legs #TYSM FOR THE RESPONSES ON THE WIP POSTED I WILL NO LONGER DELETE IT TO PRESERVE THE REBLOGS BUT UR SO SWEET #ily guys

[onegroovyrose]

I am not immune to Elliott stardew valley 😔🫶

#stardew valley #sdv elliott #stardew elliott #GUYS…. I will not confirm nor deny loving him with all of my heart #me creating a new save for the 1.6 only to marry him again #in my stardewpilled elliottmaxing era as my sibling has called it #val art

[bitchthefuck1]

I feel like people sometimes have a tendency to paint Inej as a little too wide-eyed and borderline naive and I feel like that's such a misread and disservice to her character, because her faith and hope for a better future isn't some misguided assumption that everything will be okay or that the world isn't so bad. She knows exactly how bad things can be and exactly what kind of evil people are capable of, and she's saying "fuck you, you can take my autonomy and my childhood and maybe I'll never see my family or home again, but I will literally die before I let make me think that the shit I've been through is all there is. The beauty and love I experienced was real and valuable and nothing you do or say will make me let go of that or believe it's not possible for me to have again," and it is genuinely the most incredible and real thing in those books.

Inej has fought tooth and nail for every ounce of goodness she has and she'll keep wringing it out of the world because those things are real and possible no matter what, and there's nothing naive about it.

#it's crying about inej hours again #it's literally always crying about inej hours #she makes me soooooooooooo #i will literally kill for this girl #like time and time again the books prove her right and Kaz's extreme nihilism wrong and yet people will talk about it like he's the one who #'really sees the world as it is'. AND HE KNOWS SHE'S RIGHT AND SHE'S STRONGER FOR STILL HAVING FAITH. HE LITERALLY SAYS IT. #deadass wanna be like her when I grow up #not to say kaz doesn't have every reason to believe what he does about the world's cruelty but these books are literally full of these kids #creating the space of love and safety they were denied for each other even as he says it's not possible #inej ghafa #kanej #six of crows #soc #crooked kingdom #inej ghafa my beloved

[uncanny-tranny]

I'm going to preface this by saying that I have really complex feelings about this, and much of it is inspired by my personal experiences and a bit of learning about what other trans people experience. If I come across as messy, it is because of these reasons.

There's this unshakable feeling I have that when allies and even other trans people talk about trans people, transition and motivation for transition, and anything related to such, that there's only certain things that x type of trans person can (and should) experience and talk about.

Like, when people talk about FtMs/trans men/transmasc people, a common idea is that we're motivated to transition to game the system, to manipulate people into treating us better because we're now seen as men. A huge reason I never even bought into that idea is because, since transition (especially medical), I have been treated worse than I ever have been. Since transitioning and being on testosterone, I've been catcalled, had people insist I hand my number over, and I have to emphasize that I've never experienced these things until a couple of years ago (to clarify, this was in my real, corporeal life). I honestly can say that, while transition has saved my life and soul, I am treated worse by others than I ever had been pre-transition. However, because the idea of transmascs is that "they were victims of misogyny and they only want to escape it through transition" is popular even among some trans people, I feel like it's almost... taking something away by acknowledging that. Add to this that I'm white and that TPoC have so many experiences that intertwine with race, and that race absolutely goes into how trans people are treated.

I am not saying that my experience is the only valid or true one. I am very aware that I'm probably an outlier. However, I just notice that, time and time again, people hear what they want to hear about transness, and if people have even slightly different points of view from their experiences, it doesn't matter, or worse, those people are duplicitous and conniving.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #misogyny tw #i just feel like there are very few spaces i feel safe even talking about my experiences with #because it's either ending up in transphobia ('see? you'll NEVER escape!!!') or downplaying or denying my experiences (men don't face that) #i just wish you could talk about the good and the bad without people picking at your carcass like vultures y'know? #because that's how it feels. it feels like i've been laid out on the ground to be *picked* apart and torn #making this after being harassed once again. catcallers get the boot. #it's just amazing to me how pre-transition i was almost... immune to that shit #the worst treatment i faced was being an undiagnosed autistic kid in school (which was ableism and not applicable to the conversation)

[logans-mormon-blog]

Before my transition, I used to post on here abt how angry I was that I had a body, how I couldn't believe I'd agreed to it in the preexistance, how I couldn't understand how getting a body was part of the plan of salvation when it felt like a punishment. But now that I have transitioned and had top surgery too, my body DOES feel like a temple. It's the damndest thing. Is this what cis people have been feeling this whole time? My body feels like a gift, it feels loving and beautiful and it makes me confident. And not only that, but I can't shake this bone-deep feeling that transitioning, having top surgery, has brought my body closer to its eventually perfected state. I feel like I've glimpsed exaltation in the BECOMING of it, in the way it has changed from something so hated to something that feels so holy. I wish I could make some people in the church see what im seeing. It's like I've pulled away a curtain and behind it is the missing piece of the gospel, the part of the plan that I fit in. How could this not be what god wants when i feel him so strongly in my transition, to the point I get goosebumps to even think too deeply about it. If only they could feel what I'm feeling, they'd know how RIGHT it is! I want to stand on top of a building and scream it. All along, I WAS a child of god! All along, he had a plan for ME! These are not empty words!

#ill never let anyone make me feel bad for being queer ever again. you have no idea. i feel like ive seen the hand of god like #the brother of jared #@homophobic church members you WISH you were me you WISH you had my spiritual insight #i wish i could race back in time and grab younger me and make them see what im seeing now #ill never ever doubt myself again. i know it and god knows i know it so i cant deny it. i know what i feel and i know spiritual revelation #when i see it

[chandralia]

this panel’s making me go crazy because it’s like he’s trying to convince himself that Bakugo wasn’t the reason he unlocked black whip. Like he doesn’t want it to be true.

“That was all you could think about, right?”

*visible sweat* “Right. I wanted to capture Monoma…”

Yeah, I wonder WHY.

then when asked what triggered it, he lies to Bakugo’s face, with emphasis of Bakugo eyeing him.

Bakugo sacrifices himself then Shigaraki says “so much blood spilled for no good reason… that last one being the most pointless of all.” The panels go through the bloodshed, and instead of a panel of Bakugo it immediately jumps to controlling his ︎heart (emphasizing the direct link) and Deku rampages.

Deku sees Bakugo’s corpse in the 2nd war, is once again reminded of controlling his ︎heart, and starts to rampage.

Black Whip explodes into the shape of a heart, and it’s not until Mirio tells him that Bakugo is being saved that he composes himself.

Then he uses the quirk to cover his mouth…

IDK IT’S PRETTY STRAIGHT FORWARD TO ME.

#this is the thing that makes bkdk so tangible to me #Hori’s showing how important Bakugo is to Deku and people straight up deny it with ‘it’s about everyone’ IT’S REALLY NOT. #I’m sorry that this went from wanting to talk about one panel to ‘lemme just do the whole thing again since it makes me insane’ #*does a flip* #‘​AND WE’LL BE RIGHT BACK AFTER THESE MESSAGES—‘ #bkdk #dkbk #bakudeku #dekubaku

[thepoisonroom]

'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.

I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.

About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'

-Casey Plett, Consciousness

#this quote always moves me almost to tears when i remember it #i'm not a trans woman and i don't share the author's specific experiences with transition #but it really moves me that she frame transition as joyfully giving yourself permission to approach your body #not as something that has to be disciplined and deprived and made small in all these various ways #but as a means for experiencing pleasure and joy and delight and for insisting that our feelings and desires are worth #valuing and exploring and treasuring #i always used to think of prioritizing those things for myself as selfish and irresponsible #but who does it harm to want to experience pleasure in your own body? #it's such a beautifully simple and powerful switch to have flip in your head #and equally why are we forced to deny our own pleasure in transition and anything else related to our bodies in the name of moral rectitude #this is why i get so confused and pissed off when other trans people are fatphobic for example #like why are you so invested in politics of shame and disgust that never had any purpose other than #violently disciplining people as if they've violated moral codes by existing in a body #to say nothing of white people being racist in gay and trans communities #like again this system of violence is foundational to homophobia and transphobia #so why are you acting like it has nothing to do with you #even if you are unmoved by the urgency of other people's suffering which btw you should be moved by #what do you hope to gain by acting a collaborator and handmaiden to those systems #Casey Plett #she really is one of my favorite authors i wish more non-canadians read her #this quote is from a series of columns she did ont transition and every single one is a banger #i love when she talks about the people-pleasing elements of dysphoria and transition denial #she's so sharp about noting how many of us deny our own dysphoria on the grounds that others like and validate our bodies #that's how i always felt during my cis conventionally feminine era #it pleased other people so much and also that reception felt so hollow and joyless to me because i hated it #i get less of that positive feedback but that feels so unimportant next to the joy and pleasure i get to experience #said with the understanding that i'm very privileged in being able to prioritize those things without fear. but it was a switch flip #personal nonsense

[moderndaypandora]

I love every "Death set Dream up with Hob on purpose" headcanon, and I love "actually I was planning to throw Chaucer at you but I can wing it pretty damn well and, once I heard Hob call me stupid, I knew, yeah that's going to be Dream's boyfriend". It takes a village (or an older sister) to get Dream a boyfriend.

Now, I'm picturing the entire Endless family blindsided when Dream comes to a family dinner like "I GOT MARRIED! LIKE TWO MINUTES AFTER THE LAST DINNER--" "That was a literal century ago?!"
 "-- YEAH. WE'RE DOING A VOW RENEWAL."

Not a single sibling clocked this. Not even Destiny.

Destiny, out loud: it was an unlikely path in my book, so I didn't give it much attention 
Destiny, in his head: honestly I started speed-reading/skimming through Dream's love life paragraphs because watching him crash and burn and cause massive body counts just seemed so... repetitive and predictable?

Death: knowing our brother, I was carefully managing my expectations and was just glad he was still doing the century meetups last time I'd checked. Good for him, managing to stay with somebody for a century, that outstrips his last relationship by ... like 7 decades.  Kind of offended I wasn't invited to this wedding, kind of not planning to say anything?

Desire: At this point, I stick my fingers in my ears and go "lalalalalala" whenever I hear anything about Dream and want, either him wanting or somebody wanting him, because Death said I had to stop making fun of him for how disproportionate his Yearn to Act Ratio was, and any ammunition I can't use is just ... irritating. I figured if anything really changed, my twin would tell me about his descent into misery.

Despair: He was less miserable, but I assumed it was a fluke and he'd return to his normal equilibrium eventually. And it's not like my twin let me know he'd managed to successfully want AND obtain something?

Destruction is Sir Not Appearing In This Picture.

And Delirium had more important things to think about than her brother's sad love life, like would flying fish fired out of confetti cannons be considered birds until they landed?

Meanwhile all denizens of the Dreaming are never not aware that Dream is happily married, because the weather has been perfect for years and the throne room stained glass is some variation of Hob and Dream being lovey-dovey.

Lucienne: If I see them necking in the stacks ever again I will be forced to take action, and Lord Morpheus is aware of that fact, but we haven’t had a library flood in 103 years, so overall we’re pleased.

#silly nonsense #the sandman #dreamling #dream's love life is a car accident that everybody sees coming and either goes 'AGAIN?' or prepares popcorn for #and he's very aware of that fact #which is why he's like 'can we keep this private for a little while? not ashamed of you #just very aware of how my siblings will react. a lot of wincing and bet placing' #hob: your family places bets? #dream: yeah. destiny keeps a record of all wagers but doesn't take part since he's omniscient #hob: so isn't he already aware we're married? #dream: he's the one who taught me snitches get stitches #dream: and he errs on the side of 'if you don't already know #i shouldn't tell you' #( #destiny: mother didn't raise us to snitch #desire: mother didn't raise us at alll #) #dream: so he'll keep quiet because it's not his business #hob: alright but we're wearing wedding rings and if anybody asks we're not denying we're married #dream: [touched that hob's so emphatic that they're married] #idek what century this is happening in #it'd be funny if it's 18th or 19th #therefore there'd be no quarrel in 1889 #but if dream got fishbowled hob would be out for blood

[hawktims]

No. I wanna be with you. Sleep in the same bed with you all night. Not get kicked out at midnight so the neighbors won't see me leaving in the morning.

FELLOW TRAVELERS (2023) 1.03 | HIT ME

#fellow travelers #tvedit #fellowtravelersedit #cinematv #cinemapix #tvgifs #matt bomer #jonathan bailey #such a simple scene but so many things to unpack and love!!! from tim not being afraid to stand his ground #to hawk not belittling or denying his wants and not correcting him when he said couple #tim you dramatic sensitive baby you deserve the world yeah you go tell him what you want #also obsessed with the slightly amused glint in hawk's eyes #that 'obviously' is strangely endearing to me idk why #im so obsessed with them im gonna cryyyyyyyy again #mine #m: gifs

[acommonanomaly]

I realized I haven't drawn Essek yet and that is just unforgivable here have some floaty hot boi

#critical role #cr2 #mighty nein #essek #essek thelyss #critical role fanart #my art #nixie wants me to draw molly next #who am i to deny my bestie? #i could have spent way more time on this #but i'm trying to just keep the art flowing #lest my muse desert my again for a year #but anyway yeah i love essek #so fucking much omg love hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiim