#and they can last for a LONG time too

[dimonds456-art]

Maladaptive daydreaming.

#daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming #maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive behaviors #maladaptive coping #dissociation #immersive daydreaming #dimond speaks #yeah so adding this to my list here lol #my therapist helped me realize i dissociate a LOT and the primary way i do it is through vivid daydreams #they usually happen at work but they also pop up if i'm having a bad day or... anytime really. #i've also come to the realization that i have at least one of these a day which is not good fgsjh #my therapist says they're not inherently bad especially since they do have a positive effect on my emotions (if its a good daydream) #but it's gotten to the point that it's affecting the way i work #and they can last for a LONG time too #i haven't timed them but i do know they've been over 30 minutes at work before #this is either due to ADHD autism PTSD or a mixture of the three lmao #weeeee #anyway. this post isn't really intended to be a vent post #it's more like a 'this is my experience' type post #it just kinda comes across as somewhat vent-y #but that was because i wanted to try and immerse the reader into what its like to have these daydreams #like mine look NOTHING like this but making it more generic would help others understand it #the void is the general dissociation from reality #then you emerge in the dream #i can feel things as if i'm there- the sun the wind and sometimes even physical touch #and i'll stay there until something snaps me out #strangely i can get my work done while i'm doing this- i just wont have any memory of doing so. it's like being on autopilot #anyway. I hope this post was helpful to someone out there #if you also maladaptive daydream YOU ARE NOT ALONE! it's valid and you're not 'faking' anything. it's a genuine trauma response.

[lunacias]

these are the silt verses, and I name our disciples thus

#the silt verses #sister carpenter #brother faulkner #paige duplass #james hayward #not 100% happy with this but I've been working on it for uhh two months and wanted to get it up before the next ep #cannot stress enough this isn't necessarily how i picture these characters but moreso what I can draw LOL #every time I try to conceptualize them it's like trying to look at someone without my glasses #in that i get vague forms etc but nothing concrete #it's weird bc it's like. the more i relisten the less concrete image i have of them /thinks #though I will say i will die on curly haired + freckles faulkner #and I usually picture carpenter with a simple wavy ponytail #also in terms of scars i like the idea of faulkner having a scar on his hand from the glass in the s2 finale #and hayward having a scar on his forehead from hembrey! #also i don't think hayward smokes but i liked how it looked when paired with paige and her alcohol! #also something something he might have tried once to blend in with the other police officers but never took to it #been wanting to draw something for silt verses for forever so!! #edit: added an alt id in the image description! #uploaded this last night and completely forgot to i'm sorry! #pls lmk if it's too long or not really a good description!

[lowpolyshadow]

forced to once again remember how shadow is laughing when he says "i think i figured out what the ultimate lifeform is! it might be you!"

#speaking #he says this while literally actively dying in space losing energy enough that he isn't too prideful to say straight up #that he can't last very long like this while sonic's almost every voice line has some variant of 'shadow you okay?!?!' #he just fucking. laughs. i can only imagine it's that tired exhausted manic state that makes him go 'haha ... sonic!!!' #insane to me. like . jesus christ dude. what the fuck. #i was gonna say this is an unhinged reaction to reframing your entire life and purpose but at the same time i guess he already did that #smth smth 'i have to keep my promise to maria ... and you' (dies) (im talking about myself but him too he dies too)

[surreal-duck]

master artist and his number one fan

guy who is being so normal about the new additions to their profiles. i think abt midoris initial infatuation with his art slowly developing into appreciating yuzuru himself as a person and idol to the point he worries about how he sees him (ex: a bit of home party and in workplace survival rules) sometimes thats a lie i think about it a lot. and yuzuru learning to enjoy art just for the sake of drawing!! seeing the lets try diy story where he doesnt even refute drawing on midoris desk and was only worried that his doodles might cover up the mascot design compared to how discouraged he usually would be in earlier ! stories. everything to me i adore their dynamic if that wasnt obvious by *gestures to basically everything*

and happy pride month 🏳‍🌈

#sorry for that last bit in the end (im really not) #minicomic tag #duck scribbles #enstars #midoyuzu #midori takamine #yuzuru fushimi #yuzumido #ensemble stars #ive been wanting to draw this one out for ages now or2 finally somewhat free #i would have typed all that out in the tags like i usually do but this commentary is necessary #was going through my old art and wow its been a while. redrew a few stuff from a bunch of them too for this :'] if you can spot them #kinda a fun look back on how ive improved over time too... thank you for giving me a drive to draw like no other #it cannot have been that long. was so sure my energy wouldve died off maybe a few months in but unfortunately it shows no signs of ceasing #also appreciation specifically for my beloved ducky for letting me word vomit a lot of my ideas to him LOL ily #ive drawn them so much now that theyve joined the ranks of my most used tags that pop up as suggestions when i start to type. wtf #was supposed to only work on this on the side between sketching up merch designs but i got too into it. i never learn

[aethersflood]

Wild and impetuous. I expected more of the boy who bested my lord commander. Yet I see why my master covets you so. The power within you, Mythos. The potential.

#ffxviedit #ffedit #clive rosfield #barnabas tharmr #barnaclive #if they have another ship name pls lmk! #i knew this was homoerotic but now i'm seeing the details #like in the third gif with the way barnabas smirks at clive #he loves toying with him and seeing him give his all only to be bested #and you can tell Barnabas *wants* to be outmatched by Clive #he wants Clive to prove his strength and his supremacy #this is' so fuckn gay #and i'm v attracted to the way that barnabas just shoves clive with his shoulder and it's so forceful #also the details of how bloodstained and gritty clive is vs. how pristine and clean barnabas is #& how barnabas fights with one arm behind his back #anyway ok #i stayed up entirely too long making this last night #it was worth it but omg i underestimated how much time i would sink into this #mine

[hyakunana]

"Another disturbing dream, my love...?"

My contribution for the O14 Week 2022 (what a timing btw!) hosted by @atmosfioric

#destiny 2 #destiny the game #destiny #bungie #destiny art #saint 14 #osiris #destiny osiris #o14 #o14 week #fanart #comics #o14week2022 #this time I waited to post first on twitter bc thx daylight saving messing up my schedules xckxcoxnovx #IN THIS COMIC WE DONT KNOW HOW TO PACE PROPERLY I JUST WANTED EACH PAGE TO BE A THEME #like awakening or vigil for the first; close or home for second; and obvsly dreams for the third #bc i am an exo enthusiast and i will use the exo dreams for this jcvbxvxxkjvk #i alsmot added dialogues there like 'osiris pls come rest' 'no i've been sleeping for too long' but in the end it was better without them #you will (not) be missed savasiris #OH YEA CAN I ALSO JUST SAY NOW THAT OSIRIS IS AWAKE AT LAST #i tots headcanon osiris developing some phobia to moths #and also s14 having some... idk... but an anger reaction to moths yknow #s14 the nicest titan pigeon lover... hating moths and butterflies i tap that

[autisticlancemcclain]

Could you explain your position on Shallura? Since Allura was established as a teenager when she started dating Lance and Shiro was very clearly an adult. I can understand the bi shiro headcannon but the shallura thing worries me

i am going to remind yall that i have been in this fandom since 2016. and in the early seasons, allura was not established as a teenager. in fact she was coded as older, as closer to shiro's age -- there was a specific divide between her and the younger paladins that she did not have with shiro. they made her younger (both explicitly and in mannerisms) as the show went on. and i do not give a fuck about voltron like...post s4 and i didn't even watch s7-8. so like. especially with older fics, im going to enjoy shallura.

#also this is less relevant and i was going to put it in the main post but i cant find the words for it #but i found your last sentence kind of condescending. “the shallura thing worries me” as if i am your little project and things arent going #to plan. as if you are the Knower Of All Things and i am straying from my path lol. twas odd #and this is a controversial thing to say i know it but like #we take fandom way too seriously. if someone decides in fic to make two characters the same age to ship them or whatever. do we really need #to get the torches and pitchforks. like i can understand discomfort when people ship like shiro and pidge or something but. also. i feel #like you can just block and move on?? like i dont ship sheith bc they are brothers. to me. but also i dont think sheithers should be #harassed or any dumb shit like that. i think its so so whatever like theyre Lines man theyre moving lines #at the same time i understand that peoples headcanons can be reflective of their worldviews (like when racism/transphobia/sexism shine #through someone's headcanons/characterization) but how much scrutiny is too much? when do we get to remember that fandom is a place to #work with the FICTIONAL? where you can change details without consequence? i saw a fic where keith was the older sibling and shiro was the #younger once. it was a good fic. how come we can play with ages but only when the Fandom Council approves? #i guess this is a really long and clumsy way to say like. you do not own the fandom nor do you get to dictate my work. and while there #is always room for necessary criticism please also think critically before you post your criticism #anyways #rant #ask

[sysig]

Wuh oh (Patreon)

Bonus:

The novel experience of being crushed by a giant rock, a visual metaphor

#Doodles #ISaT #Siffrin #Loop #Yaaaay suffering <3 <3 <3 #Lol #Starting with a cute practice Sif to get used to drawing them a bit more they're so cute what the heck #He's so shaped I love that for him and about him #Crisp design very nice #Sif really is the embodiment of ''Ignorance is bliss'' and being so maladjusted about it :'D #His memory issues make the me a sad #Ironically I try not to think about it too hard or else I'll get Really sad lol #Memory is the foundation of individual personhood! It's such a tragedy weh #Him brushing things off by falling back into his issues is just so agh Sif no you deserve better! #Some sillies lol I never know if I should give content warnings for these kinds of jokes - I don't make them often! #Loop's line in the Jello streams is So good I couldn't not lol #Happy Wednesday fr btw lol yes I did do that on purpose #The last one agh the red and like - can we talk about Sif (and Loop's and Odile's) specific portraits where their hands do the spark thing?? #I always forget how art can be Whatever and that overlapping/removing lineart to imply shapes and movement and just jfdslafd #It's so cool I love it so much it's very inspiring #The bonus is mostly a joke lol - again while watching the Jello streams Lenti was talking about how much she relates to Sif #And I was privately like ''Haha thank goodness I don't relate to him! Couldn't be me!'' And Then #It's fine lol I'm aware of my overlapping issues - I fall more on the Isa side of ''Sounds fake but okay'' but yeah.....yeahhhh lol #As long as I don't get trapped in a time loop about it! Poor Sif haha

[thedevillionaire]

and there will your heart be also

She’s been away five days and will be away two more.

He sneezes again, curses under his breath about it and gazes out the window for an uncertain time. It’s raining still, and bitterly cold. The flowers she’d left on the sill are starting to fade. Wintry sleet falls steadily, constantly, and he has a thousand things he’s supposed to do and he’s not doing a damn one of them, his focus both scattered and singular as he claims a tissue from the box by the flowers.

He wipes his nose firmly and recalls her placing the bouquet just so, fresh and vibrant, smiling at him so pleased with her arrangement of it all, her arms around him in soft devoted embrace. The ghost of her touch caresses him in memory; the image brings a suffusing warmth, and he loses himself to its comforting spectre.

For a moment, at least.

He sniffles, chilled despite the hearthfire’s radiant heat, and an ominous shiver runs through him. A catch in his throat follows, barbed and wicked. He frowns at it, shakes his head in an irritated, unspoken refutation of what it might imply. Any further acknowledgement of coming down with something is pushed as firmly from his thoughts as he can; he can’t be sick. It’s not going to…

Hh-HH…

It’s not… *snf!* Not going to happen. He won’t allow it. He won’t… *SNF!* It’s not…

His breath sharpcatches and all thoughts crumble capitulated to urgent, desperate sensation.

“HHTSSCH-uu! Hh-TSSSCH-uu! Ah, gods.” With a wetly insistent series of sniffles, he takes yet another tissue and, after a moment of consideration, another for good measure. Another.

He sighs.

And he misses her, and he misses her.

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#wow it's been a while huh #my ocs incognito #cerberus and kia #cerbia #my writing #i've been beyond terrible in completing things for a long time now so here's a hearty AT LAST this microsnippet is actually done #it has an in-progress sequel too #if i can get my inner words to word on the page and all that #happy birthday cerbie i'm sorry about this #sort of 😏

[marshmallowgoop]

No matter how special it is, a kid's lunch is still just a kid's lunch.

I dunno, I liked "The Genius Restaurant" (Episode 1,089).

Happy (belated) birthday, Jimjam.

[Song link] [YouTube link]

#detective conan #case closed #amv #my amvs #video #eye strain #conan edogawa #shinichi kudo #song is #nosedive #by #flor #ahahahaha i thought this would just be a chill edit and was like #'i did my last vid in 30 hours so i can do this one in less because it's shorter right? and because i'm mostly using one ep?' #wrong lol this took about 40-ish hours? nooooo idea how i did 'if you kill me' in 30... #aside from the audio i think that's a more complicated edit too ^^; #way late for jimjam's bday but i guess it's not *that* birthday related anyway... but it was my first thought for a bday edit haha #been meaning to do an amv for the ep for a while! special thanks to marivanilla05 for inspiring me to watch it with their great art #i'm so behind that i don't watch new eps much but i'm glad i skipped ahead and watched this one #special thanks to astravis for helping me with the beginning and to hex for the liveblog too! #i know it was a long time ago but that liveblog definitely inspired some choices here #that said i'm glad i waited because i think i'm a much better editor than i was last july (well hope so anyway!) #and this song only released a couple of weeks ago! #had tons of trouble picking a song (usually my amvs are song first but this was idea first) but i think i really like how this one fits #sources are mostly #episode 1089 #but also episodes 1 14 52 and 192 and tv special 6 (episode one: the great detective turned small) and movies 13 and 16 and ova 9

[kyouka-supremacy]

I think we should just bring back Wungo Wednesday and start a fandom collective anime rewatch

#Because otherwise I can feel I won't last much longer #Because like. The last two hyperfixations of mine ended the moment I started feeling like there wasn't any new content #And two days ago in one day I started a new manga a new book and rewatching a favourite show #Whereas I hadn't started anything new in the two years ever since I got into bsd. Which makes it NOT a good sign #But the bsd anime has now ended for one month and 25 days and that's the last time the plot actually moved forward. #And if I counted right. The manga took 4 chapters (that is chapters 110-111) to adapt 6 minutes #That means it's going to take another 12 months (18 minutes left to adapt. that's 12 more chapters) to catch up with the anime #Yeah I'm not. sticking around this long with nothing new to see I'm sorry #Best case scenario I take a one year hiatus but that doesn't make it sound likely that I'll be back #And I know it's fresh news as early as this morning that author said they were introducing a new character but like. #They also said they finished writing this arc like. One year and half ago if I remember correctly? #And we still have yet to see the end of i t so... #That is to say. I'll probably be starting an anime rewatch starting next Wednesday. I've been meaning to do it for a while anyway #I don't want to leave the fandom I like the one chapter a month format #On the positive news I still have a queue of original posts that spans over ten months #And I was meaning to start the reblogs queue too in these days. So there's that #random rambles

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Pride month everyone B*) Allow me to reveal a little behind the scenes detail behind my Banner and Icon. Love was always winning <3

#I don't know what to tag this one to be honest #probably a #delete later #I have made a solemn promise that any icon and banner for this blog must be done in a pair. They Cannot Be Separated. #They have had too much of that already #But yes; they have always been together on the same canvas #they originally were just barley not holding hands so I fixed it <3 love wins #I'm hoping to change them out every new season I start so these guys are probably in their last month of life B'*) #can you believe wwx used to have different bangs? blasphemy #Once again throwing out meta content so I can make up for the fact I am running on fumes #starting out pride month by engaging in another sin (sloth (I slept for more than my usual 4-5 hours (this blog functions on insomnia))) #comic tomorrow cause the next batch is 90% done I literally just ran out of time. #I'm in a toxic relationship with The Grind but in a homoromantic/erotic way. #We (the grind and I) would have long metas written about how we are bad lgbtq rep and spark heated debate within the community.

[yoselin-uyu]

Drawings from the raffle I Made ✨

1st place @aleapple1216

@eternalchaoschocolaterain @theguythatdraws

Extrass @faustinio27 @chirithy564 @cherry-pop-elf

Thanks for being part of this and being patient ☝️

#too much drawings #Arlene pierce #talbott winger #hphm #hphm mc #fanart #art #others oc #my art #art raffle #prizes #hphl mc #hphl #bust #you can notice that the last three drawings were when i was getting back from my art-block #sorry for taking so long #studing medicine isn't really helping #hpma oc #should i do commissions? #i speak #this took me way too long to make #im dying rn #promise to draw different tips of eyes next time

[good-beanswrites]

My thoughts on how the Milgram mv machine works based on the evidence we have:

(I know there’s been discussion about where exactly the interrogations take place, but wherever they are,) the prisoners are made to sit in a specific chair near the wall that houses the machine.

It’s ordinarily hidden, but the wall panels shift aside to reveal it when the mechanical sounds play in the dramas. As well as the walls moving, the chair transforms to restrain the prisoner and attach whatever it takes to access their brain. The fact that none of the more frightened prisoners try to run or break it makes it seem like they physically cannot. This is why Fuuta sounds so panicked, and why Amane is suddenly helpless in front of Es in their T1 vds.

(My mind conjures very classic sci-fi mad scientist machines with wires, pipes, lights, nodes, needles, etc, but I’d love to hear how other people visualize it.)

In some vds (maybe all? I’d need to check,) you can hear Es take some steps right before their iconic line -- it would make sense that for safety reasons, the power mechanism is placed across the room. Once again it could be anything, but the sound effect makes me think of one of those giant wall-mounted levers you have to pull down.

The voice dramas don’t really provide the type of crime details that an actual interrogation would reveal, and it’s odd that they’re placed before the extraction rather than after Es gets to see the new details. This leads me to believe the machine functions with priming. All Es needs to do is get them talking about their murder, so it’s on their mind.

The video produced is much like a (non-lucid) dream. Even if the prisoners figure out that this is how it works, they can’t control it just by thinking really hard about something else. The murders produce the strongest emotional affect, and that’s what it picks up on. If someone else used the machine, it would default to whatever gave them the strongest emotional reaction in the ~15 minutes beforehand, hence why Es’ video focuses on their daunting task ahead. (The Undercover theory is still a bit loose, though, given the private shots that Es wouldn't have known about). It’s why the videos are usually closely linked to the vd topics/beats. I also like to think that the reason their prisoner colors appear so much is because they’re looking at those colors on their uniform 24/7.

The bell rings to inform Es that it’s the optimal time to use the machine -- the prisoner has been thinking about things for long enough that the video will be about their crime, and if the conversation lasts much longer they’ll start thinking of other things. It’s at a different time for each prisoner because it’s based on the specific conversation. I guess Jackalope is listening in to the interrogation, timing it perfectly. (The only one that kind of messes with this theory is Yonah, because they just keep talking afterwards lol, but it could just show that the interrogation is still in Es’ control.)

Their “Sing your sins” is the final priming nudge to get them to think of their actions as a sin, revealing their guilt.

Once activated, the prisoner enters a sort of trance/sleeping state. It’s very much like REM sleep, with the machine forcibly activating neurons and recording the output. The prisoners have asked Es what they saw, meaning they don’t remember the mvs. I like to think the prisoners do experience the mv in real time, acting as the major version of themself that appears, but can’t remember it afterwards. It’s when you experience a dream, but as soon as you wake up you’re just left with fleeting emotions and memories right on the tip of your tongue.

The video plays immediately upon extraction -- whether on a huge projection or little screen depends on which room it’s in. It simultaneously saves the memory so that Es can rewatch it later (on those old TVs in the jailbreak mix). The machine downloads the song and video together, but requires special parts to retrieve them. The technology is pretty new and fragile, so if one is broken, there might be a delay between when Es can hear the extracted song and see it with the video. (That’s my justification for Kotoko’s delays -- after 9 prisoners the parts wear out, or maybe Mikoto himself overheats it with his complex situation.)

Based on the lack of conversation we get afterwards, I picture Es leaving before the prisoner wakes from the trance. The machine adjusts their brain back to normal before they awaken, restraints freed and able to return to the rest of the prison.

It’s very much like a dream, so it’s not harmful despite the amnesia/head injuries the prisoners have. It does, however, exhaust them. Brain activity alone takes a lot of energy, so forced brain activity with added emotional strain would cause them to feel pretty drained the rest of the day.

#milgram #👍👍 #if theres anything contradictory please lmk -- this is how ive been taking the evidence we have so i definitely want to rethink things if #theres a mistake #but also i just wanna hear what people have been picturing 🤔 #i mentioned it before but the jailbreak tvs really did shift my brain from sleek tech to clunky old scifi vibes #im also still partial to an idea mentioned a long time ago about the prisoners waking up to catch the last few moments of their mv #and how heartbreaking that can be for some #but i feel like it would make more sense if there was no direct interaction after the extraction since es is overwhelmed with different #reactions (from us) and the prisoners themselves are raw with emotion and fatigue #i like the thought of interrogations occuring in that big courtroom (seen in undercover and now deep cover) #but that room seems way too echo-y for the vds to take place in #and it seems overkill to build every cell with moving panel walls and access to the machine #so the jurys still out on that one #(also hehe im still so excited that my oc fits very nicely into all of this but i kept this post 100% canon compliant) #analysis/thoughts

[writingmoth]

isnt it kinda bonkers that there no rules to writing. you can do whatever you want and its fine??

#when i was like 11 i used to think that a book had to tell a story that lasted an year bc of harry potter #then i read the princess diaries and was so confused #'why is it only two weeks long? books can do that???' #years later the fifth season came along and was like what if i breaking paragraphs was a way of telling a story too #what if this was second person all along #what if povs in different times!!! #and i was like :o #look at that i can do anything i want with writing #the more you know #ren.txt

[kanamedaite]

Submas doodles but mostly ingo

#submas #pokemon ingo #warden ingo #pokemon emmet #poprocksart #long time no art haha sorry about that ive mostly been drawing golden kamuy stuff that is uhh too much to post lol #as you can see ive been playing pla and I saw funny train man and knew it was over ive missed these lads since the last time i played white