#then you emerge in the dream

[dimonds456-art]

Maladaptive daydreaming.

#daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming #maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive behaviors #maladaptive coping #dissociation #immersive daydreaming #dimond speaks #yeah so adding this to my list here lol #my therapist helped me realize i dissociate a LOT and the primary way i do it is through vivid daydreams #they usually happen at work but they also pop up if i'm having a bad day or... anytime really. #i've also come to the realization that i have at least one of these a day which is not good fgsjh #my therapist says they're not inherently bad especially since they do have a positive effect on my emotions (if its a good daydream) #but it's gotten to the point that it's affecting the way i work #and they can last for a LONG time too #i haven't timed them but i do know they've been over 30 minutes at work before #this is either due to ADHD autism PTSD or a mixture of the three lmao #weeeee #anyway. this post isn't really intended to be a vent post #it's more like a 'this is my experience' type post #it just kinda comes across as somewhat vent-y #but that was because i wanted to try and immerse the reader into what its like to have these daydreams #like mine look NOTHING like this but making it more generic would help others understand it #the void is the general dissociation from reality #then you emerge in the dream #i can feel things as if i'm there- the sun the wind and sometimes even physical touch #and i'll stay there until something snaps me out #strangely i can get my work done while i'm doing this- i just wont have any memory of doing so. it's like being on autopilot #anyway. I hope this post was helpful to someone out there #if you also maladaptive daydream YOU ARE NOT ALONE! it's valid and you're not 'faking' anything. it's a genuine trauma response.

[souredfigs]

Me,a starstruck 15 year old reading the Odyssey for the first time : *sighs* wish I was born in 12th century BCE so I could see Troy and-

The fucking Sea people: BRING US THE GODDAMN WARSHIPS

#pLEASE #the sea people theory haunts me in my dreams #keeps me up at night #their origins are highly disputed and we can never put exactly where they emerged from but they wrecked HAVOC #towards the end of the bronze age #egypt under ramses iii was only able to defend itself theres an entire depiction of the battle that was found #they basically destoryed so many major cities including troy #we know this becuase theres a layer of charcoal in thr ruins of troy #when you think about it actually #its very easy to see how homer wrote the illiad and odyssey #because he grew up during the dark ages of 400 years where he was surrounded by these ruins #and he was like “fuck it might as well write a fanfic” #okay #i will shut up #homer #the illiad #the odyssey #bronze age civilisation #12th century bc #sea people theory #and vampy ranting about history

[neithercrazynorfree]

Makasoul is like ideal straight shipping material and like #lowkey subversive like the way soul takes a backseat and maka’s the one leading their operation and has all of these traditionally masculine qualities like she is much more hotheaded and aggressive. They both cook dinner and soul wears a little apron. Maka has this whole hangup about not being able to protect soul. It’s so refreshing. And all that aside they just purely care for and love one another…. ❤️

#soul eater #I’ll probably never do this but I at one point wanted to write about the way intimacy is portrayed in soul eater #the weapon/meister relationship is so intimate. you really see that with soul and maka #then there are these different instances where boundaries are pushed and tested btwn weapons and meisters… it’s so interesting #then there r characters like stein who totally disregard boundaries and violate that contract and it’s its own kind of twisted intimacy #rmr that dream soul had where he was emerging out of maka’s stomach #OH GOD AND CRONA don’t get me started.

[topnotchquark]

Vale Live tweeting his date with Marc to the Valencia test

#sorry Cele I love you but I just had to sacrifice you to make this #trust and believe he will emerge victorious #2k24 Cele moto2 champion Bezz to factory Ducati pecco booted back to moto2 trust me I saw it in a dream #I love making these incorrect tweets #motogp #valentino rossi #marc marquez #celestino vietti #rosquez

[justaz]

okay but have we considered morgana x freya?? two women who believed themselves to be monsters, hunted by the same man and his loyal followers, cursed, doomed to death the moment someone finds them out, alone. they wish for freedom, somewhere where they can be themselves, where they dont have to hide, where they can embrace their power and who they are without fear or without harming anyone.

#morgana pendragon #morgana le fay #freya #bbc merlin #morgana x freya #freygana #fregana #morya #moreya #??? #idk but listen #they just. it works. #morgana finding freya and helping her while also finally having a companion in camelot to talk about magic to #specifically HER magic #they have their dream of running away together and living peacefully with one another on a lake in the mountains #they run away together before morgause can get her claws in morgana #uther begins to mentally deteriorate from his daughter- cough i mean ward's disappearance and morgause's reappearance #in this au...morgause is the one who is constantly fighting against camelot bc she blames them for her sister's presumed death #and their persecution against her own kind #but since morgause was never fated or destined to kill arthur......HE LIVES #meanwhile. morgana is being a cottagecore lesbian with her sick werecat girlfriend #damn i actually might write this LMAOOO it seems fun #mordred. uhm. idk. is cool?? #he is fregana's adopted son who is also merlin's adopted younger brother and percival and arthur's adopted son #and when his little gf is brought before arthur. everyone is kinda like 'ur not rlly gonna murk this kids girl? are you?' #and while arthur is debating it heavily...BOOM magical gfs emerge and bully arthur into letting her go #then idk magic ban repeal and everyones happy #yippee

[birchbow]

Might’ve missed this in my first read through, but I remembered gamzee’s narration mentioning that goatdad died some time before gamzee was conscripted, but do we know what happened to crabdad? Sorry if you’ve answered this question before!

I've been working on the assumption that if your lusus is still around by conscription time, you're expected to leave them on-planet unless they're like, very small and docile OR useful as some kind of war-mount/weapon. Tavros could get away with bringing a tiny little fairybull with him if he wanted, and I could imagine Nepeta and Equius even managing to bring Pounce and Arthour with them, but cramped quarters and dangerous, austere lifestyles would make it pretty hard to keep your lusus with you and alive.

Essentially I don't know if Crabdad is dead, but even if he's not he's presumably running wild and/or creeping back to the caverns to see if he can find another little mutant grub to take care of.

#ask time! #sorry it's sad! #Sometimes I have dreams where some kind of hard time is coming and half of the people I know decide to leave on emergency spaceships #and half of them stay behind #and even in dreams the hurt of leaving somebody behind knowing that even if they live you'll never see them ever again is. powerful #ANYWAY if your lusus is like. roommate sized or smaller and docile you can maybe swing it but if they're bigger they would've gotten left

[chompe-diem]

already living in the au where riz is senior class president bc i know it's never becoming canon

#is that a liveblog i see? #riz gukgak #ever since sklonda said that shit the back of my mind has been like: 👁️ #and then in this latest ep with 'theres no grounds!!' in the next ep preview #not that kristen wld be a bad president! she infact wld probs be a good one #for all the normal reasons. with all the due respect and etc what do hs class presidents do #in my experience they like. kinda help run social events #like besides being acting principal in case of 3 emergencies in a row? they kinda just do jackshit #((sorry i have a complex from hs abt none of the clubs/organizations never actually doing anything lol)) #so like #in a normal sense kristen is great for that #but also sklonda my beloved my dear my adored #*cups sklonda outburst in my hands* #'i dont like the way your friends treat you!' #'i think my son would make a *great* class president.' #shes swaying me she's swaying me so good u guys #riz would not do what *i* think an average hs president wld do #but he would comb through the paperwork #and try to make the system usable and accessible #and run on something more than 3 threads a dream and the magic of chronomancy alone #sorry but that is so enticing to me. and nobody else i know #but to me? god that sounds so good i will live in that world for a moment or a few

[doyouknowhowtowaltz]

What exactly did Bill put in a Midsummer Night's Dream? I swear I've read that play like five times and I can never remember any of the specifics.

#I emerge after reading it and can tell you the plot for maybe a week before it fades like a dream #Which is perhaps the whole point #But I literally reread a chunk of it for Misidentification a couple months ago and I dont even remember what part I read #I don't know if I can quote a single line. And I LIKE this play. I think. #And its not as if that's my experience with Bill's work in general. Its this one damn play.

[flo-n-flon]

Small Siuan and Moiraine in progress because I feel absolutely normal about them

[alt: close-up sketch of Siuan Sanche and Moiraine Damodred in the likeness of Sophie Okonedo and Rosamund Pike. Peaceful, they are lying together, eyes closed and forehead touching. Siuan is resting on her side, curled up against Moiraine, while Moiraine sleeps on her back. Siuan's hair is wrapped in a scarf, Moiraine's is fanning around her head.]

#the wheel of time #siuan sanche #moiraine damodred #Siuaraine #Siuanraine #Wip #Show: the wheel of time #Character: siuan sanche #Character: moiraine damodred #Fanart #I wanted to finish it before leaving but guess who had another medical emergency right before vacation? #C'est bibi #I am not sure when I'll finish it because more important WIP are due #But I love them too much not to sketch them #You know how I am about lovers separated by duty #Totally normal #Also the thought of them as Accepted dreaming of a long life of travel and adventures together #Yet not wavering a second when the fate of the world started to hinge on their ability to work separately #Thus sacrificing what was probably the closest and most fulfilling relationship they had up to that point #And how instead of fraying their commitment to each other the distance and secrecy strengthened their bond #I adore them your honor #I spend way too much time looking at recumbent statues for this

[ghostzzy]

having anxiety dreams the night before i see extended family is like, fairly normal for me, but getting secret top surgery has unlocked a new genre of extended family anxiety dreams that i guess i will call Shirtless Emergency Dreams.

#dreams that require u to very emergently get shirtless. #for example: someone spills something very hot or unpleasant on you and your clothes. #you are instructed to get in a swimming pool to supervise a child who is just learning to swim. #you are given a shirt and pressured to try it on and it very obviously reveals your titlessness. #etcetera. #izzy.txt

[rugretti]

.

#ahw come on #did my hair in two braids bc its 2am and nobody can see me #fucking hate letting other ppl see me when i try to enjoy my hair bc theyll think im finally being feminine #and im going to my brothers graduation too so shes immediately commenting on wow #ure gonna go like that?i finally support you. like come on man #literally why i never ever want to ease up on my regular going out clothes formula #it will be shoes pants shirt jacket for forever unless i get to be alone bc any time i take anything off #ill have comments like ure finally going out in just a shirt finally #ill honestly rather kill myself than have u see me in a skirt please i know thats ur biggest dream but please #also donchu dare lecture me on why i need an emergency dress for super formal occasions or event sthat need me to wear a skirt or dress #id honestly rather not go if its like that no matter the importance #and even if i did what difference does it make if i just had say an emergency suit instead #fuck me fuck fuck #i point out i want to cosplay miles g morales and she says nothing not even a nod #she sees me in braids and suddenly she wants me to wear jt everywhere #please please please i need u to never look at me again if this is what i get #anyways rant over

[dont-f-with-moogles]

Nightmare

Nightmare Characters: Levi x Hange  Word Count: 749 words Canon universe

Because I haven't posted any writing on here in a while. This is for @this-is-krikkit and anyone else having a shitty day - have a free Levihan cuddle.

Inspired by the Smartpass story.

...

The titan lifted its monstrous head, gazing down with eyes like giant, polished orbs. Its stare was devoid of comprehension; empathy; reason. Humanity. It was simply registering the details before it; the small figure standing with their arm outstretched. Any second now, it would lunge. 

Strangely, Hange was unafraid. Their arm was held steady; palm empty. Even as the titan swung its jaw open wide, inviting Hange to a view of its enormous teeth, they remained unshaken in their resolve. It was just as unsurprising when a human voice emerged from the giant’s mouth.

"They don't taste good…"

“Mmm?” Hange returned politely, cocking their head to the side. They clasped both hands behind their back. “What doesn’t? Tell me.”

Suddenly the titan uttered an ear-splitting howl. It gripped the sides of its head, thrusting fingers as thick as tree stumps beneath its eyelids. It prised the thin flesh away as though attempting to tear its skin from its face. 

“Please… help me, Hange!”

Hange jolted awake. It took a moment for their eyes to adjust to the gloom. There was their disordered pile of books upon the bedside table; only the names on the spines were too blurred to read, should Hange have needed to do so. The bedsheet had become tangled around one of their legs, leaving the other cold and exposed. The corner of yet another book was digging into their shin. There came a movement beneath them; an arm shifting then withdrawing from their side.

“You okay?” Levi’s voice; still thick with sleep. They felt him turn onto his back. Hange reached towards the bedside table and knocked their glasses to the floor with a clatter.

“Fuck.” Their arm was trembling now, unlike in their dream. “That- that fucked me up…”

A pale shaft of moonlight fell across them. Hange turned to see Levi drawing back the heavy drape which clung to the window. 

“Thanks.” Hange retrieved their fallen glasses and pushed them up the bridge of their nose. They sat upright; knuckles blanched as they clutched the mattress, feet digging into the floorboards beneath. There came a creak of wooden slats as Levi knelt on the bed behind them.

“What happened in this one?”

Recurring nightmares were, unfortunately, one of an endless list of occupational hazards faced by those in the Scout Regiment. It was often the result of witnessing too many abnormal things. In fact, most considered it abnormal not to be affected in such a way.

“There was a titan. It was trying to talk to me… It… it said…” Hange gripped their head, much like the titan had done in their nightmare. “It told me that they didn’t taste good.” Their hands balled into fists, pressing their eyes with the effort of remembering. As much as they tried to cling to the memory, the details of the dream poured through their fingers like sand.

“It asked me to help them.” Hange’s throat was tight. “Wh-what do you think that means?”

Levi folded an arm around them and they sank against him, their back pressed to his chest. Levi’s chin rested on their shoulder.

“Levi… what if they don’t want to do it?”

“Huh?”

“...what if they don’t want to eat people?”

Both stared at the door, under which a narrow strip of light filtered. The absurdity of Hange’s statement, and the silence which followed it, settled over the room.

“I don’t know…” Levi spoke quietly. “That’s a question only you can answer.”

It was as though the burden of that unanswered proposal settled upon them in tangible form. Hange’s shoulders sank, their body curving against his.

“Tomorrow, I’ll…”

“You need to get some rest.” Levi’s tone was firm but without his usual acerbity. He held them to him tightly. 

“I’ve got you.”

Hange’s eyes closed. Gently, he brought them down with him so that Hange’s back remained against his front. He stroked their scattered hair away from the pillow and tenderly kissed the back of their neck. Hange made a small sound and shifted beside him. Levi reached across them, gently lifting their glasses from their face. He hesitated; the table was just out of reach. He lowered his arm, wrapping it around Hange’s waist; their glasses clutched in his hand. Levi buried his face in their warm skin, feeling their breaths come slower as exhaustion overcame them.

But even though he closed his eyes and allowed his own breathing to fall in rhythm with theirs, Levi knew he would not sleep.

…

Part 2: Dream

#and I've got you guys #sending emergency Levi hugs to all those who need one #tw: eyes (as I know lots of people get squeamish) #I wear contacts/glasses so I'm used to it ig #except how many times have I reached for my glasses and sent them flying across the room ffs? #levihan #levihan fluff #levihan fanfiction #levi x hange #attack on titan fic #attack on titan #snk #I'd like to write a part 2 but haven't thought of anything yet #maybe Levi has a nightmare? #someone forgot to wash a dish? #if any of you have better ideas or suggestions then send me an ask! #updated: we now have part 2 (Dream!) #my writing

[ug1yg1rl]

im literally just a girl.

#enya umanzor #orion carloto #gold jewelry #cherry #i wish you roses #couqette #beachgirl #emergency intercom #pretty girls #it girl #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #girlblogging #manic pixie dream girl

[fagsex]

there are few things that feel more shameful than like having to talk yourself down from a series of exposing and blatant bad dreams. like when you know Exactly whats happening in there and you gotta like talk to your SELF like a spooked horse like woahhh there buddy (clicks tongue) cmon now lets settle down therrrrre we go nice and easy. like jesus christ im a grown man sitting up in bed like 😟

#emergency broadcast system #i am constantly filled with shame and embarrassment and wouldnt you know that was on the dream bingo too .

[mastcrmarksman]

 “They’re ’s a 10, but.. He stole the last bite of my waffles this morning.” Is there a smile desperately trying to break through his little pout? Maybe.

Send “They’re ’s a 10, but..” and fill in the rest to call out my muse!

❝ The last bite was delicious ⸻ you snooze you lose, babe! ❞

#he's proud of himself C: #crisispider #[ SHITPOST ] Hello you reached the Hawkeye Emergency Services! Clint says do not call again! #[ SHIPS; CRISISPIDER ] I wanna be barely hanging on I wanna be dancing dreaming bawling and weeping over you all of my life

[supes9]

Do you dream about me?

🚨 SUMMER OF 51’s 🚨             ⮑ Day 7:  In Your Dreams

#summer of 51's #emergency! #johnny gage #randolph mantooth #roy desoto #kevin tighe #johnny & roy #do you dream about me? #bright light bright light #when i saw this prompt... #i thought of this song that i like #so i took some lyrics from it to make this gifset : ) #i couldn't remember what all there is of night/sleep scenes in the show #so that was the main challenge with this one ; ) #nothing to it when you know what you're queueing