#and then she got mad at my brother and I for being angry and rude and aggressive… and denied that she ever was against my brother blocking

[lilgynt]

my moms insane she was like u were mean to me while you were working…you sent me to work with a broken foot for 3 days i’ll be mean again rn

#personal #by mean i mean rude #if she wants to see mean i can be mean #i’m not and fully possible i was mean! i probably was at several points during this last job and dads illness #but like my meanness was hey im working a full time job and am a full time care taker to my dad and this is hard #her meanness was literally preventing me from going to the fucking doctor with a broken foot #i don’t want to hold what either of us did during this year bc it was a hard time for everyone #and she struggled severly i mean for fucks sake she was doing all i was and way more being breadwinner and dads MAIN main caretaker #she had a HORRIBLE year #it just makes me so mad when she acts like i was this devil like i was struggling under a terrible company and my dads declining health and #had break downs over it or got mean bc i had very what felt like limited time outside of pelt #work #she’s not to say i was mean i just get mad about it bc she was too #she’s not wrong to say i was mean #not to say i wasn’t mean i was mean at times #and this is before asking for help getting her dressed up for her holiday party and she’s said doesn’t want to piss me off several times #and even the statement was about how me not working has been nice bc i’m not crazy anymore #but i’m still pissed off like sorry i was mean but i mean if we’re comparing meanness we fucking can cause i’m not throwing that in ur face #24/7 like do i bring up the fact i had to you remind you that you were a mess during ur dads death to realize i might be a mess during mine #sorry did i call you a bitch and blame you over ur brother fucking breakinf ur door and constantly getting angry when you would bring it up #and be like why do you even need a door #you kicked me out over fucking calling out!!!!! when i had sick time!!!!!! #you were an awful fucking person to me but i’m not throwing it in your fucking face!!!!

[hysteria-things]

can you do a smut with dom!nate x sturniolo triplets sister where they're at a restaurant with the triplets and nate starts fingering her idc abt anything else but like please im begging you 🙏🙏

FORGIVE ME

𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: dom!nate x sls!reader

𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: being friends with benefits with your triplet brothers’ best friend isn’t the smartest idea. especially when nate teases you at a restaurant with your siblings there, there’s only one way to forgive him.

𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: SMUT, swearing, mentions underage drinking, fingering, public, oral (female/male receiving), p in v

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 1,277

𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧��𝐭𝐞: first sturniolo’s little sister fic😯 i find this trope fun LOL

i miss why don’t we they were MY one direction.

hope you like it anon!

a burger sounds so good right now. you think to yourself before being rudely interrupted when a foot taps your shin from under the table. your annoyed eyes are met with chris’. “what are you getting?” he asks.

you shrug, continuing to scan the menu in front of you. “probably a bacon cheeseburger.”

your triplet brothers invited you out to dinner at the finest establishment around: texas roadhouse.

they picked up nathan along the way, who’s sitting silently next to you as the other three are squished in the booth across from you. the four of you are close and know everything about each other, which is the best kind of sibling relationship.

well, they think they know everything about you.

what they don’t — and will never know — is your friends with benefits with nate.

it started randomly at a high school party, where the two of you got drunk and made out which led to you guys fucking in the bathroom. it’s bizarre but true.

turns out, the two of you enjoyed it and this whole thing went on from there. that was months ago, by the way.

while taking a sip of your shirley temple, a hand is placed on your thigh. you look over to the culprit, who is talking casually to your siblings.

his hand teasingly moves up and down, each time getting closer to your waistband. your breath hitches as the waitress comes over. “are you guys ready?” she asks in her customer service voice, smiling as she clicks her pen.

“you go first, y/n.” nate says innocently, taking his fingers and now putting them in your pants to rub hard on your clit. he knows you love getting penetration there.

little shithead.

you clear your throat. “c-can i have a bacon cheeseburger, please?”

the waitress nods, writing on her notepad. “with what side?”

you feel two fingers going inside your wetness, moving at a medium pace. “mmm— fries!” you say loud and quickly. you clear your throat again. “please.”

the three across from you give the same weird look, as if silently saying ‘what the fuck is the matter with you?’

soon, the others put their orders in and go into their conversations. nate keeps pumping his fingers in and out of you, a low whimper leaving your mouth.

when he knows your brothers aren’t listening because they’re arguing about whatever the fuck, he scoots closer to you and leans to your ear. “you’re so wet, baby. is it all for me?”

you grip his wrists, trying to pull him away when you feel your orgasm approaching. it’ll be embarrassing to cum in your pants. “nate—”

“you’re coming back to our house, right?” nick asks, causing nate to pull out his fingers and readjust in his seat.

“yup,” he replies, giving your thigh a tight squeeze.

you storm into your bedroom, nate following closely behind. you shut the door and lock it, putting your hands on your hips and tapping your foot like an angry parent. “are you trying to get us caught? what were you thinking?!”

he chuckles. “cut me some slack, will ya?”

he wraps his arms around your waist, pulling you close to where your chests touch. you try your best to give him your best mad face, but to him, you look adorable. “i’m sorry.” he fake pouts.

he tugs at your shirt and slowly lifts it over your head, throwing it somewhere on the ground. his lips are mere centimeters from yours. “forgive me?”

“we don’t have time. they’ll get suspicious,” you whisper.

he shakes his head, now taking off his shirt. “they think the texas roadhouse got to the best of me. i’ll be in the bathroom for a while.” he winks, pecking your lips.

you bite your lip, not losing eye contact when you start to unbuckle his jeans. “i don’t think i forgive you.” you say sweetly, getting on your knees and simultaneously pulling his pants down.

“guess i’ll have to see.” you continue, eyeballing his hard-on through his boxer. you start to rub your hand over the fabric, a groan leaving nate’s mouth.

you give the tip a little kiss before pulling down his underwear, his dick aching for attention. you wrap your mouth around him, going as much as you can down his base.

moistening his lips, he throws his head back. he always loved the feeling of your warm mouth around him.

you start to bob your head, the gulping noises intensifying the faster you go. “shit.” nate exhales, taking his finger and lifting your chin so you can look at him.

he starts to thrust his hips to match your bobs, gagging in the process.

he pulls out of your mouth and in the blink of an eye, he flips you so you lay on your back. despite your bed being quite literally a foot away from you guys, he’s now on the ground with you between your legs. “forgive me yet?”

“n—” you don’t finish the word when he starts to dig into you without warning. even better, he takes his thumb and plays with your clit like how he did at the restaurant.

you moan too loudly, covering your mouth with your palm. the last thing you want is for your brothers to hear you. your other hand travels to nate’s head, grasping onto his hair tightly. “i’m close.” you mumble, making him pull away.

“what the hell?” you sigh annoyingly.

“shush.” he says, flipping you over once again to where you are now straddling his lap. “ride me.”

you smirk, kissing on his neck down to his chest. he grows impatient, lifting your hips and playing yourself on his cock. you whine, leaning back up straight and grinding your hips to feel him rub the right way on your walls.

“fuck.” you whimper. he grabs your hips and starts to bounce you, a squeal coming out of you. “nathan, fuck!”

“best be quiet, baby.” he smirks. “don’t want them to hear their little sister on their best friend’s dick.”

you whine lowly, biting your lip to quiet your moans. he sits up and you grab both sides of his neck, looking deep into each other’s eyes. he’s smiling smugly, but your face is contorting with pleasure.

he groans when he twitches inside of you.

“did nate fall asleep on the toilet?” matt’s voice echoes down the hallway, three pairs of footsteps along with it.

“the ribs probably gave him food poisoning or some shit.” chris replies.

nate moves you faster on him, panting lowly in the process. there’s no way he can stop now. he’s way too close.

the doorknob shakes, startling the both of you, but you guys keep going. “what the fuck? why is your door locked?” nick asks.

“fuck y/n, i’m cum—” you swallow his words by giving him an opened-mouthed kiss. you moan softly into his mouth, making sure you cum first before lifting yourself off of him.

he groans into your mouth when his cum makes a mess on his abs. “hello? earth to y/n?”

you pull away, staying in position to quietly catch your breath. “s-sorry, what?” you stammer.

“why is your door locked?” this time, the question is asked by matt.

“changing,” you answer, nate giggling silently.

there’s an awkward silence for a few beats before it's broken. “okay…” nick says in a hesitant manner, and their footsteps eventually recede.

“holy shit.” nate throws his head back to laugh, and you smack him on the chest.

“be quiet,” you mumble, getting off from the floor.

thank god you locked the door, or things could’ve ended terribly.

𝐭𝐚𝐠 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭!

@bunbunbl0gs @lexisecretaccx @thy-mission @angelic-sturniolos111 @sophssturn @mattsneezing @janiellasblog @blahbel668 @meg-sturniolo @hearts4chris @mattslolita @sturnbaby @imwetforyourmom @tillies33ssss @sturnifyed @mayhem-72 @ripmattitude @p1xieswrld

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[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for not wanting my fiancé to hang out with my sister and I?

Okay so my fiancé (22f) offered to drive to Mexico with her aunt and stay a couple days. It was only three days notice and she hadn't discussed it with me(24f) at all. I do think she should go, she's been wanting a vacation lately and been really upset because I can't afford to go anywhere. It's a good opportunity to get vacation and family time. I was really happy for her. I just feel like it's basic politeness to at least let me know before she gave a definitive yes since we live together so I was slightly annoyed.

Fast forward two days and it seemed like that plan wasn't going to work out because her aunt wanted to postpone, so instead she decided to go out of town with her brother (18) since she had gotten her hopes up about a vacation, which again sounded like a good idea. In the meantime I'd set up a sleepover with my sister that same weekend.

Without even mentioning the situation to me, my fiancé posted on snapchat asking if a third person wanted to go with them to keep the costs down, which would be fine if she hadn't posted it to her story. Its okay if someone else goes but maybe asking in a groupchat or a few people individually but not absolutely everyone.

So of course her ex (who she has readily admitted shes left multiple people for) asked to go. It isn't her fault that her ex is the only one who offered but also that's part of the reason why I would have asked her to ask more directly than every single person she has on snapchat.

She asked me if I was comfortable with that which was nice, and I said not really because of the nature of their relationship. The only times we've hung out, my fiancé ended up being super cold and hostile to me and laughing her ass off at inside jokes with her. I get that they have a history and I don't expect her to pretend they dont, but it just makes me uncomfortable when we're all together because I feel like a third wheel to the person I'm engaged to and her ex girlfriend.

She got upset and said I was being unfair and ruining her weekend. I told her it was fine if she could find literally anyone else and that frankly it was inappropriate for her ex to even ask. She got argumentative about how she's been hanging out with her ex for years because they have mutual friends (which is fair except the mutual friends are not invited) and that her ex didnt even know I wouldnt be there. The argument lasted another two days. She kept saying that I am being too controlling, which I dont think is fair because if she didnt care about my feelings then why ask about them. I just gave up and said it was fine. I'd be having fun with my sister anyway so I wouldn't spend the whole time worrying, and I trust her not to cheat on me I just think it's a weird situation and it makes me uncomfortable, which is what she asked.

As soon as I said yes she told me it was too late to book an airbnb so she wasn't going to go, and that really upset me because she'd been so angry about me being uncomfortable that she wouldn't leave me alone for days and what was even the point of all that if she wasn't going to go anyway and she already decided that.

During the past 4 days until canceling suddenly like that, she was 100% supposed to be going out of town to somewhere, and I had gotten really excited about my sleepover with my sister. We were going to do things that my fiancé does not enjoy (arts and crafts, watching period movies) since it would be just us and also have some much needed sister time.

All of a sudden, the next day, my fiancé asked if she could come over too since she wasn't going anywhere. I said "I guess, but we were going to do stuff that you wouldn't like." And she got mad and told me I was being super rude and I could have been nice about it, which I thought I had been and I told her I feel like if she came either she wouldn't have fun or we wouldn't get to do the stuff that we were planning to. She was still angry all night and kept saying she obviously didn't want to come now since she wasn't welcome. I barely slept because she was so clearly upset with me and I didn't see any way to fix things without ruining my night with my sister.

The day before the sleepover she kept hinting that she wanted me to invite her and I really didn't want to. Maybe before all this stuff but I am really annoyed with all of this and I don't want he to butt in on my sisters night.

I think she's been inconsiderate and mean to me over this whole thing. I just don't get her thought process with any of it. But she seems really sad and that does make me think maybe I'm being the asshole here.

So AITA for not wanting my fiancé to hang out with my sister and I?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[dballzposting]

It's just that well simply put Gohan didnt have any time to himself ever. There was always bullshit happening. Then Goku died and Goten was born and Gohan had to keep his mother from falling apart and his baby brother healthy and happy. And it's rewarding work. But yknow

When he wasn't tending to the baby or helping with other domestic chores, he was in his room studying. It's nice to learn about the world he fought so hard to save. It's also nice to not have to have a relationship with his body (as with fighting) so that it's easier to dissociate from all the bullshit. Academia was a lifeline out. It was also a definitive "good" thing to be doing. It was also an escape. And also a source of the stress that he's so accustomed to. And yknow. Maybe the letters started to dance on the page after a while. A life unlived will find life in other places. Maybe the historical figures were his friends. Maybe he memorized chemicals like one would memorize constellations. Maybe different mathematical functions began to represent and facilitate different experiences of emotion. You know how it is

I mean maybe not. Maybe he got out enough and was present enough to not dip into that. If his time alone was really that needed, then I imagine that he would get angry if interrupted; but I don't imagine that he snapped often when his mother called him to attention or when his brother needed something from him. I think that he finds fulfillment and peace in his family and he wants to be there with them. But I think that he also finds habits of repression or self-denial.

I'm not saying that he represses all of his anger, because he doesn't. What he does repress is infinite amounts of survival rage. What he doesn't repress - and what seems like he's not even aware of when he expresses it - is sharp annoyance. A mild example would be when he snapped at Goten for bothering him during his training, which was super funny. A more poignant example is Every Time Somebody Insults his Great Saiyaman Persona somehow. First he was interjecting into his classmates' (strangers!) conversation to correct their misnaming of the new hero, and he didn't seem to notice how rude his tone was or how surprised his classmates were. Then later he stopped two reckless drivers, and they made fun of his goofy persona, and Gohan (without resistance) just threw a petulant fit - and he did not seem to notice how he was Destroying The Road by stamping his foot.

My favorite example was when Krillin told him he looked dumb. I should probably get screenshots. Gohan's Eyebrows Twitched and Reared like Rattlesnakes. And his passive aggression was enough to constituent manslaughter. Masked behind saccharine positivity. It was a vile display. What do YOU know about Fashion, Quiverin..! (<- What we sometimes call Krillin in my house becasue he's always cringing and quivering and being fearful lol.)

OK I didn't get screenshots but I have this timestamped video from the youtube.

And it makes sense that Gohan is super defensive about The Great Saiyaman. It's the first thing that he's gotten to do/be that was up to him.

I understand that Bulma designed the original get-up, but it was still collaborative; it's not like when Chichi dresses him in what she can afford to buy or make, or when Piccolo dresses him in what he himself likes to wear. And Gohan picked the name. He picked the poses. He picked the voice. He picked the personality. He picked the role.

You know that Oscar Wilde quote that goes something like "give a man a mask and he will tell you the truth"? Yeah. There's madness behind that mask.

It's also a very significant time for him because he's for the first time having the opportunity to associate with peers in a consistent way. And he wants so bad to be "normal" and that's also why the mask is so integral and alluring. And he wants to be a normal bloke and make normal friends, but at the same time, he's out of practice without really realizing it; he hasn't come to terms with how in order to make friends, you have to put yourself out there. He thinks that he can simply make friends while hiding himself and lying about everything. And when Videl starts trying to figure out who he is and pry the mask off, it's a horrifying inconvenience. And Gohan just isn't in the habit of receiving well others' companionship, having lived isolated for so long; when Videl makes him teach her how to fly, he's nice to her, but you can tell that he just wants her to leave.

Her insistence on drilling into him is why they become friends and eventually marry, though.

He seems like an optimistic fellow, and his appreciate for life must be sincere, as his history necessitates it - if life sucked, all of that would have been for nought. But remember, for a good seven years it was just him, his mother, and the new baby. No drama or adventure to bring him out into the world. No friends his age that he could connect and evolve with. Just him up there on Mt Paozu stagnating.

There was definitely a lot of goodness and happiness and stargazing and lovely dinners and hanging out with dinosaurs. But there was also a lot of boredom and avoidance and why-is-the-baby-crying and mom-please-put-the-wooden-spoon-down and mom-please-stop-crying and can-i-have-the-time-to-study-unbothered-please and an undercurrent of feeling bogged down that really isn't apparent until you get out and get moving.

Gohan never says this outloud or thinks this definitively, but it's a natural truth, like the wood that a house is made of - he is going to do everything he can to be a good brother and to protect his baby brother. And it's a given, too, that he'll do everything it takes to keep his mother sane and happy, because everybody else shies away from her, and it's SORT OF Gohan's fault that Goku had died, and he very much wants to give back for all of the nurturing that his mother has given him.

And when you want to be a force of Good that badly, it completely turns you away from the parts of you that may be Bad, and encourages you to be afraid of certain feelings or needs.

When Gohan snaps at people out of irritability or defensiveness, it really seems like he doesn't know that he's doing it, and it comes out in the way that a hurt child may just act out. Everything else that is ugly about him just gets buried deep. And that makes him a weirdo. That's what it seems like anyway

#dballz posting #Youtube

[love-walkingonsunshine]

Being there Mike got into a fight with the day and ends up at Will's house

Mike left his house two hours ago and Nancy was starting to worry. He got into a fight with his dad calling him a jerk. Which was true. He wanted his dad to be there for him. After when Will went missing he was lost without his best friend. His other two best friends Lucas and Dustin were by his side and then he met El who helped them find Will.

Mike was glad when Will came back and it has been a crazy year. But Mike was always scared ones he loved would go missing or disappear. He was always on edge and Nancy could see it. El is with Hopper now. But tonight when Mike was mad at his dad asking why never did anything anymore. His dad didn't answer. It made Mike mad. This year was hell for him and his friends.

Mike ran out of the house and was too angry to go back. Nancy kept yelling for him to stop but he was already gone. He went to Will's house. He always went there when he was upset or angry. He knocks on Byers door. Joyce open the door.” Hey sweetie are you okay?” She saw that Mike's eyes were red.” Yeah, I am okay.” He didn't want to be rude and not answer. She let him in.” Will is in his room.” Mike nods and walks toward his room.

Mike knocked on Will's bedroom.” Come in.” He was listening to his favorite song while he was drawing. He looked and saw Mike his eyes were red probably from crying. But didn't want to make him more upset. Will moved over so he could sit on his bed.” You okay?” Will asked while Mike sat on his bed. Mike didn't say anything at first. Will give him a minute. “ I got into a fight with my dad.” He looked down and wiped his eyes.

Mike took a deep breath and look back up at Will.” This year was crazy and I am always scared I am lose all of you and been having nightmares and I got D on my history test.” Wiping his eyes again.” My dad yelled me for not having good grades.” Mike was mad he had tears in his eyes.” I told my dad he should been there for me more and I just keep yelling at him.

Mike started to sob.” When you went missing I was scared I wasn’t going to see you again or I thought you got hurt in the woods somewhere”. He just couldn’t take the heartache if Will didn’t come back he was his best friend and like brother to him. Will moved closer to him and put his arm around him.” You won’t ever lose me not without a fight.” Will hated seeing his best friend upset.

Will held his friend to comfort him like Mike always did for all his friends. He was just important like the rest of them were.” i am sorry about your dad Mike but you got a bigger heart and you better person than he is.” Will rubs his back. He hugged him until he was ready to let go.

Mike stopped crying and let go of Will.” Thank Will, It means a lot.” He smiles at him.” Why don't stay here tonight I’m sure my mom won't care.” Will smiles back at him.” Sure, let me call home.” Both Mike and Will got up and went into the kitchen he called home and talked to Nancy telling her not to worry and be stay with Will.

When he hung up the phone he was glad to have his best friend Will by his side and with the rest of his friends just knew they would always be there.

He knew he was loved by all of them.

#stranger things #will byers #mike wheeler #nancy wheeler #joyce byers #comfort #dustin henderson #lucas sinclair #el hopper

[malereader-inserts]

Family Line

Fandom: The Vampire Diaries/The Originals Pairing: The Mikaelsons & Brother!Reader Summary: I can run, but I can't hide from my family line Word Count: 1.409

The worst family award really does go to the Mikaelsons'. Whilst your family lived in New Orleans, you really couldn't leave Mystic Falls, sure, you had to endure Damon Salvatore - but if that was the price you had to pay to stay away from your family, then you take it any day a million times over.

It wasn't that you hated your family, it was a love and hate relationship. You hated how you were constantly bickering, fighting, and attempting to murder each other. But, there were times you had each other's back, even if that means sacrificing yourself for them. They were grateful and ungrateful to be related to each other.

But, for once, you wanted to have a quiet life and not be by their side constantly. You wanted to live a life where you had the freedom to do whatever you wanted without one of your siblings breathing down your neck or the threat of being in a coffin for god knows how long.

The thing is, you know deep down that you never really hated your siblings. Sure, they had their moments, but it wasn't really about them. It was your mother and your father.

So, you weren't expecting to see the whole family at the door in the middle of the night.

"Fuck off."

"Rude," Rebekah said from the back as you attempted to shut the door in their face before Elijah stuck his foot in the door.

"Can't I have a century to myself?" you grumbled as you opened the door for them to settle back into the manor.

You walked away from the door, hoping to get some sleep again as you were about to leave, you looked over your shoulder watching each individual come through the door.

Your niece Hope gives you a small wave as you smile back at her before it dropped to see the last two enter the manor.

"You must be mad."

"Hear us out-"

"I think I rather die," You spat at your brother, Finn, who tried to explain, "You're no better."

"Well, thanks."

Elijah sighed, stepping forward, "(Y/n), please hear us out."

You turned around fully to look at them, looking down from your spot on the stairs. Your arms crossed over your chest as your parents looked at you apprehensively. Your eyebrow raised as you wait for the explanation.

Sure, you hear all the gossip and life-changing things through the phone, but this was a pretty big thing to leave out during the weekly calls. Klaus looks up to you, he couldn't help but smirk to himself a little - he really sees a bit of himself in you.

"Hayley, darling, take Hope to her room," Klaus instructed, "I fear this might get dirty."

Hayley didn't need to be told twice, holding her hand out to her daughter as she pass you by on the stairs, giving you a tight smile before disappearing.

"We're not happy as well," Klaus admitted, as he gives Ester and Mikael a dirty look, "and we wouldn't be here if we didn't need to."

"But?"

"Things got complicated, after we get this sorted, you can live out your peaceful century," Elijah finished off as you didn't look satisfied, you swallowed your pride before casting a glare at your parents.

"I'm not happy about this arrangement, couldn't you leave them in Louisana? Or anywhere but here?"

"Give us a chance," Ester softly spoke as you turn to look at her, she takes a step back from the daggers you were staring at her.

"Why?" You hissed, the venom dripping with the word, "Why should I give you a chance, given our past with you trying to kill me and my siblings, so why now should I give you a chance?"

"We're family," Mikael spoke.

"Family?" You uttered out, surprised as your siblings looked at each other apprehensively, "We might share the same blood, but we're not family."

Your parents watch how your siblings looked anywhere but you, they felt fearful for once. You were never the type to be angry and when you do, usually something really pissed you off. See Elijah was calm and collected one, but easily ticked off, so you and the rest of the Mikaelsons were used to his anger.

Kol and Klaus were often angry, so it was rare for them to feel anything other than anger, so it didn't phase anyone else. Rebekah was known to be driven by her emotions - her anger is usually misplaced but sometimes correct in her judgement. Freya and Finn had hardly been with the family, but they've seen glimpse of their anger in their short time.

But you, you were never the angry type, you leave that to your family. You were the quiet one, someone who lives in the moment, you thought anger was such a pointless emotion. In the thousand years, you have been alive, they have seen your anger about three times.

Every time, you killed more than their century of murders. Your anger is harder to control, and at the end of the day, it was always justified.

"You don't get to waltz in here and dictate that we're family again, no not this time," You step down from your spot, inching closer to your parents.

"You'll always need your parents."

"Then where were you when I needed you most?" You shouted, your red eyes making an appearance briefly before settling back to your (e/c), "I was a kid! You took turns taking your anger on me, I was a kid!"

"You needed discipline," Mikael tried to justify.

"I needed love and care, not some scowling and hits! I was the one to be punished for my siblings' mistakes, you tell me as I was growing up that I was the other kid to be brought into this family to keep it from falling apart. I'm not expecting to be worshipped, but be coddle and held by my own parents."

"Brother," Kol murmured, hoping to bring you down from such a height of anger.

"Shut it!" You pointed at Kol, who merely lowers his head, "They need to hear this."

"Undoubtedly," Klaus whispered, though everyone heard.

"All that I did to try to undo it, make this family a whole, all of my pain and all your excuses was my whole existence, I was a burden to the family in your eyes. I was a kid but I wasn't clueless, and one thing I know someone who loves you wouldn't do this."

There was silence, your throat felt rough, and there were tears in your eyes as you wipe them away furiously - not wanting to look weak in anyone's eyes. You sniffled before standing straight to give them one last look, before turning to your siblings.

"I don't care what you guys are planning to do, but get them out of my face, out of town, whatever you need to do. And if I were to find that they are still here, I will kill them whether or not you need them in your plan."

"(Y/n)," Elijah injected as you looked at him with a disapproving look to him.

"I might be younger than you, Elijah, but do not think I will not stick to my word," You threatened as he nodded mutely, hating himself that he becomes submissive in your space of anger.

The Mikaelsons all looked pathetic, you were the youngest out of all of them, and yet, all of them were afraid to even breathe in your direction. Hell, Klaus feels stupid, he's the devil in his own eyes so why is he threatened by his own blood?

They mutely looked at each other, refusing to look in their parent's direction, afraid to be accused of helping them in your eyes. They didn't know what to do in this situation, as all the siblings have a say in this shared manor, you seem to be adamant about not sharing your living space and they did not want to break your trust.

They care more about your feelings than the people who were supposed to raise them.

"Give us some time, (Y/n)," Rebekah bargained, your eyes softening to her, before sighing.

"Why should I? I'm not giving them a chance as they did with me. They wanted to raise someone who is merciless. Fine, that's what they get."

"But-"

"After all, I'm born as a Mikaelson for a reason."

#mikaelson family x reader #elijah mikaelson #klaus mikaelson #kol mikaelson #rebekah mikaelson #x male reader #platonic

[thegrimdog13]

Omg I genuinely wanna see your ideas for an opposite au? That would be really interesting! (I'm new here btw so Hi!!)

Opposite au headcannons

pt. 1 ?

Welcome to my page! I hope you stick around. Also feel free to suggest more!For the opposite au I couldn’t think of if I should just make their personalities opposite or also the things they do. Like I could make them cops or something but I think I would leave that for another au. So we are doing personality. You can suggest the other one tho if you’re interested! Alright let’s start then!

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•Most of the creepypasta in this au are forced to be killers like Tim in Marble Hornets.

•Jeff instead of an angry boi is very scared of everything

•Jeff isn’t in everyone’s face and hates to be mean to people 

•Jeff hates killing people he thinks it’s awful. But he is under Slenderman control so he has to.

•When Randy did what he did he just got afraid of him instead of wanting to kill him.

•Liu isn’t a chill big brother instead he has a short temper.

•Liu doesn’t want to hear anything Jeff has to say and does not forgive him for what he has done.

•Liu hates Jeff and finds him disgusting even though it wasn’t Jeff’s fault he killed people.

•Jane ( the killer) is not mad at Jeff and understands it wasn’t his fault.

•Jane is friends with Jeff 

•Jane doesn’t really get along with Liu and hates how he treats Jeff and other people.

•Nina hates Jeff so much it’s ridiculous.( I basically turned her love into hate)

•Nina thinks Jeff is the ugliest man she’s ever seen

•Nina is aro ace and isn’t interested in inappropriate stuff or Romance. ( very unlike normal Nina lol)

•Sally is a little gremlin.

•Sally loves killing people and often tries to kill other creepypastas

•Sally hates playing games and thinks that killing is the funniest thing you can do.

•Ben loves water

•Ben just loves swimming in the water and splashing around.

•Ben is now super energetic instead of a chill guy.

•(Laughing Jack) is now a crying Jack.Because he loves children but is forced to kill them.

•LJ is always crying and slouches a lot.

•LJ never dances around and is often sitting in a corner and crying.

•It’s basically the same with Laughing Jill 

•Ticci Toby is super sensitive to pain and hates even getting the smallest cut.

•Toby doesn’t have any sarcasm and energy instead he is very literal in everything he says and very mep about everything. 

•Toby is basically Dwight from the office but with less energy.

•Clockwork is no longer a badass she is whimpy 

•Clocky hates violence and avoids it if she can

•Clocky doesn’t got out much hating being around people and the attention.

•Slendy is still the same in this au but instead of being super tall and skinny he is a short round guy. 

•Eyeless Jack ‘s demon is more in control and is constantly making growling sounds. Basically he is more feral lol

•EJ will start to sprint like a cat randomly on all fours and everything.

•EJ loves loves organs ( in my main au ej’s demon loves them and not Jack himself. In fact he hates them) 

•Lulu isn’t quiet and yells all the time

•Lulu instead of her sweet self she is mean and rude.

•Lulu is basically like that one bitch in highschool that is like omg I hate that outfit but no offenses ( Have you ever met one of those 😑)

-Marble Hornets is tied in with this au as well

•Masky/ Tim  loves killing and embraces it.

•Tim hates Toby and Jeff ( they have a father son dynamic in my regular au)

•Tim gets annoyed at anything Brian says.Even tho they are dating. ( They are much happier together in my main au. But they do have their moments especially after everything that happened.)

•Brian/ hoodie hates himself and thinks he is ugly. 

•Brian is shy and not every outgoing 

•Brian doesn’t want to give into the operator ( in my main au I thing Brian didn’t want to be Hoodie but he just gave in because it was becoming to much)

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Anyway hope you enjoyed love you all ❤️

#creepypasta #jeff the killer #creepypasta rewrite #new series #au #creepypasta headcanon #creepypasta redesign #eyeless jack #nina the killer #jane the killer #clockwork #sally williams #ben drown #ben drowned #Masky #Hoodie #tim wright #brian thomas #laughing Jack #laughing jill #ticci toby #homicidal liu #slenderman #slenderverse #slender proxy #proxies #opposite au #marble hornets

[trickstarbrave]

i got tagged by @your-talos-is-problematic and @boethiahspillowbook for wip wednesday

uhhhhhh i still have not been writing in order. i NEED to get around to writing the next actual chapter but all i do is throw out a sentence or two for this scene. OTL

tagging. whoever wants to do it since wednesday is almost over/over. let me see ur wips

anyways here it is

“What do you think you’re doing?” Voryn questioned him, venom in his voice. Nerevar blinked up at him, confused. 

“Nothing…?” He hadn’t done anything, had he? If she was talking to him and he needed to respond, Voryn would have prodded him to answer. As for saving him from the awkward conversation, there wasn’t much Nerevar could do without being called out as rude and ungrateful for being invited to the celebration at all. 

“You just stood there and let that woman flirt with me!” He was trying to keep his voice hushed, but he was still clearly angry. 

“What did you want me to do?” Nerevar questioned him. “Tell her to stop? Throw a fit and cause a scene?”

“Yes!” Voryn replied. “I’m your lover for Boethia’s sake. If there was any time to throw a fit and tell someone off it would be while they were flirting with your lover in front of you!”

“And what would that have done?” Nerevar looked away. “I’d just embarrass you—”

“How would you be embarrassing me if I’m asking you to do it?” 

“Maybe not now, but later—”

“What do you mean by ‘later’?” Voryn grabbed him by the chin, forcing Nerevar to look at him. “Nerevar,” 

Nerevar couldn’t hide the hurt and uncertainty in his eyes, something made clear when Voryn looked like he had all the wind knocked out of him. With a heavy, weary sigh Nerevar set his almost empty glass of brandy down. He wanted to have this conversation at another time, hopefully when their relationship was on its last legs and it would sting less. But it seemed they needed to have it now. 

“You know we can’t be together forever, Voryn.” Nerevar’s voice was soft, as he gently took Voryn’s hands. 

“What in oblivion are you talking about?” Voryn stared at him like he had gone mad. 

“You know your house won’t agree to our marriage, Voryn.” Voryn opened his mouth to argue, but Nerevar continued. “You can fight it all you want, keep arguing with your brothers and the councilmen, but eventually you’ll get tired of fighting. You’ll have more important things to worry about, responsibilities to carry out.” It wasn’t like Nerevar liked this fact; he had just grown to accept it. 

“I… I don’t like seeing you fight with your brothers, Voryn.” Nerevar was going to be honest here, a little heart to heart with Voryn. He’d make it clear he wasn’t pushing Voryn away because he didn’t want him, but rather because Nerevar knew he couldn’t give Voryn what he deserved. “Besides, what could I even give you?” Nerevar forced a laugh, trying to make the conversation a bit lighter, but his voice only came out sounding broken. “I’m not welcome in my own house. I don’t really have a family. I can’t give you children…” He brought one of Voryn’s hands up to kiss it softly, blinking away the tears in his eyes. “It’s not that I want to say goodbye to you, I just know… Love isn’t enough, is it?” A few tears did fall, despite Nerevar trying hard not to let them, another broken laugh escaping his lips. “You deserve better than me, Voryn.” 

The anger Voryn felt swiftly faded as he realized how serious Nerevar was. His sweet, beautiful Nerevar thought he was only dragging Voryn down. He thought he was on limited time, and eventually Voryn would grow sick of him and leave him behind. He was bracing himself for the crushing heartbreak, ready to all but kill himself with the pain of losing Voryn just so Voryn could be happy. 

#moon and star spoilers

[phantomraeken]

Okay to awnser @elisastales question!

1) I don't think it's rude but I'm very open about my IED struggles!

2) For the broad question:

I think Liam's anger is definitely accurate, especially the way it acts with his werewolf side. I personally have a bunch of disorders on top of my IED so my experience with the aftermath may be a LOT different. But im often exhausted, over stimulated, and just sad after having a rage attack. So I think the aftermaths could have been built on a lot more but aside from that I see no other issues.

Okay, I lied. When Stiles made the comment of "You're an IED?" He probably should have gotten more defensive. Any time someone comments on my anger I get defensive and pissed off, I've talked to another person with IED and he said he gets defensive about it also! It's not the most enjoyable thing to get told.

On that note, he'd probably also get mad at Brett's comments, even if subtle, on his anger. I also HC Brett to have IED and of course he'd make jokes on it and they'd have that mutual understanding. But for me even if we both share the problem I don't want comments / jokes made on it.

Another thing is a lot, and I mean a lot, of people with IED pick up on others anger, even before that person can. I've been sitting around another friend and she was mad due to exhaustion but couldn't fully feel her anger due to all her emotions being a fucking mess. I picked up on it and just got angry at the smallest things. At first most can't even tell what their angry at. Just that they're angry.

Overall I think they dulled Liam's anger down due to it being directed at people who don't know what it is. And at the time what Teen Wolf was being aired on.

3) as for how other characters reacted.

Iirc a lot of them tried to defend his actions with the fact that he has IED, that is a gross thing, don't do it. Defending your actions with a mental disorder you have is not okay. I think they used it as a barrier.

Theo also used his IED as a way to use him. Make him angry and he'll fight / kill anything in his track which is also gross, don't do that either. As someone who has had someone use my anger to defend them its also a horrible feeling once you realize and you feel like a monster.

To add to above, a lot of people with IED feel that they are a monster cause they can't control their anger. Fun fact for the people who don't know; IED is also a type of bomb so a lot of pwople who haven't studied / don't know what it is associate people with that. So it makes us feel like were destructive.

Tangent aside, I think Scott tried his best to tell Liam that this disorder didn't effect the way he looked at him, at all. A lot of the characters followed what Scott said, even if they were off put by this opinion. They all tried their best to understand him even if it was a confusing and painful, both physically from his anger assaults and breakdowns and mentally due to the way he took it out on others, not knowing a healthier coping mechanism, ride.

I feel if Liam had met Jackson and Erica he'd probably have a much better time with hid anger. Erica would reassure him that he's not a monster and his anger is truly a gift. Even if he doesn't think so. Jackson because he found healthy ways to control and let his anger out when we put the unhealthy ones aside. He really just needed people who understood what he was going through and how to help him.

I also feel Deaton could have helped him with his anger cause of how he's helped every other werewolf through something. He's like everyone's dad and Liam really needed that from someone aside from Scott, a teenager who was still new to the whole alpha thing.

I think the whole thing with anchors helped a lot after he learned what his was and how to use it to hold his anger in a much better place. I personally have one kinda?? mine is mainly a way to ground myself. Mine is my family, partners, friends, and my cat! Mainly my step brother, Kent.

~

I hope this helped everyone who needed a moee in depth opinion on IED representation in Liam.

(I didn't spell check so please be forgiving)

#teen wolf #liam dunbar

[little-witchys-garden]

I saw a video that deeply hurt me

TW + CW: a adult man being a creeper

terfs do not interact

on Instagram there was a video going around where an adult man is at a child's Park harassing this clearly young girl who's very uncomfortable.

She's sitting on a bench and the man is asking for her number, saying she's being unwelcoming, saying she's being rude because she won't look at him or interact with him and he starts to get more aggressive and raising his voice in his advances and starts to demand her phone number and where she lives.

A child that seems to be her little brother maybe around the age of 5-6 years old takes notice and runs over yelling at the man

" Don't yell at my sissy! Go away she doesn't like you!"

The child proceeds to hug the girl's legs and puts his hand up in a stop sigil then shouts

" STRANGER DANGER GO AWAY! STRANGER DANGER GO AWAY! GO AWAY! WE DON'T KNOW YOU! "

A very common saying taught to children when in danger. The man begins to yell and curse at the boy causing the sister to swiftly pick the boy up and make a dash for it with the man still yelling at them as they ran.

Men's reactions are what scared me...

Men weren't angry at the adult man for his behavior but were angry at the lil boy for " causing a fuss" and " being a simp"

Angry that he yelled stranger danger at the man and how what if the man got harassed or attacked because the boy yelled stranger danger. Some even brought up how and I quote

" what If people think he's a creep or pervert now because that lil shit ran his mouth."

They were mad and insulting a small child for rightfully yelling stranger danger at a stranger who was fact was a danger..

#why we need feminism #feminism #intersectional feminism #feminist

[cuiizhu]

Helios Rising Heroes - Grandiose Chinoiserie

Chapter 9:

Faith: I see, a self-defense class huh…

Ren: Why do I need to explain this to you….

Faith: Thank you very much ♪

Faith: So there are special missions that don’t involve either Substance or Eclipse. I kind of feel bad for you.

Ren: ………………

Marion: Shouldn’t you be hurrying back to that woman by now?

Faith: Isn’t that awfully cold of you? Since we’re already here anyways, let’s chat a little more.

Faith: Besides, I don’t really feel like returning to that girl.

Ren: Wh–.....

Faith: I originally meant to come here alone, but somehow I got caught on the way here.

Faith: She asked me to make up for cancelling on her the other day, so I had no choice but to bring her here.

Faith: It was pretty lucky I ran into you guys when things were starting to get troublesome.

Ren: ….I meant to ask, but what is that woman to you?

Faith: She’s one of my girlfriends.

Ren: One of…your girlfriends?

Faith: Ahh before I explain this any further, please don’t start preaching about dishonesty.

Faith: Well, I doubt that I’d hear those words from you anyways.

Marion: I don’t care what kind of relationship you have, but don’t waste the tea I made.

Faith: That’s what you’re concerned about?

Faith: Isn’t it fine, she’s tasting that batch….I’ll order another for myself.

Marion: You….

Faith: Sorry for the trouble~?

Faith: But I came here with the intention of enjoying some quiet time. Even with just tea, I want to savor it slowly by myself.

Marion: …….You really are a rude and selfish man.

Marion: You should know this, but I’m a mentor

Faith: Aha, of course I know that, but there’s no rule specifying any kind of hierarchy in Helios, right?

Faith: Maybe it’s because my mentors in particular are the way they are, but no one’s ever tried to reason it out like that to me, so it’s kind of refreshing♪

Marion: Refreshing….?

Faith: Hey, did you know this? We’re the same age, actually.

Marion: What are you implying with this?

Marion: Are you saying you don’t respect me as a mentor just because we’re the same age?

Faith: No, no, it’s not that I don’t respect you. I’ve always thought you were impressive for being a mentor even though we’re the same age.

Faith: Rather, since we’re the same age, I want us to get along.

Marion: ….get along?

Faith: Yup, yup. I can’t really explain it, but I think you and I make a good match.

Faith: Nothing much to be gained by making enemies, so let’s just get along♪

Faith: ….Ah, how about we shake hands as a sign of our new friendship?

Marion: [slaps Faith’s hand]

Marion: Don’t mess with me.

Faith: Oops….

Marion: Brad’s younger brother…..

Faith: …….!

Marion: Who should get along with you? Don’t talk to me so casually.

Faith: Hmm……. :/

Ren: Your personality’s as great as ever.

Faith: Eh? Is that a compliment?

Ren: ………………..

Faith: Aha, yeah I get it♪

Faith: In any case, Marion’s pretty interesting, isn’t he?

Ren: Oi, don’t test him or make him angry.

Faith: My my? Have you gotten that attached to Marion?

Ren: It’s not that I’m attached. It’s because when Marion gets mad, things quickly get complicated….

Faith: Ahh…. I’ve heard he got so mad, he broke the training room door.

Faith: That would certainly be something to keep in mind.

Ren: Your girlfriend…well the one you brought has been staring for a while now. You should hurry back.

Faith: Ehh, what should I do~?

Ren: Don’t cause trouble within the premises.

Ren: [walks off]

Faith: Aah man, I came here to relax…

Faith: Well, whatever. Guess I’ll be good as well and spare them more talk for today.

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#cuitranslates #helios rising heroes #grandiose chinoiserie #marion blythe #ren kisaragi #faith beams

[mordeiswrld]

hey!! if you are taking requests, i wanted to request the tmnt mm! boys having a crush on a fem! reader who’s EXACTLY like raph. she loves fighting, may or may not have anger issues, cursed with resting bitch face, BUT, she’s actually really sweet and outgoing. never afraid to speak her mind, so, she may come across as rude sometimes, but, she never really means to be. (lowkey a biased request but SSSHH, we’re not gonna talk about that)

Absolutely! Lowkey sounds like me😭😭 and sorry if they're a bit OOC I haven't watched the movie yet I was planning to on my birthday (Sept 20th) (didnt end up seeing it since i went to the mall and got scammed 😭😭)

started: Sept 14, 2023

Ended: October 26

LEONARDO

Immediately has a panic attack when he first meets you

He's scared of you for like the first 2 months of meeting you since your RBF gives off mixed signals and he's a big worry wart

But once he gets to know your and sees how much of a sweetheart you are he calms down a bit

But only a bit

Because now he has FEELINGSSSSS

He’s now even more nervous than he was when he met you because now his heart beats faster when he’s around you

Omg what if you dont like him? What if you think he’s UGLY?!?

that makes him panic more and it starts to worry you and when you confront him about it he doesnt respond and blurts out that he’s fine. Not wanting to ruin your friendship

He doesnt like that you fight, he worries a lot and when you get angry he gets scared, whether or not its towards him or someone else

When you speak your mind he sometimes gets surprised by how blunt you are, but also admires it and aspires to be like you and when you apologize for it sounding mean his admiration grows even more

RAPHAEL

He found his soulmate is his first initial reaction even though he may have been a teensy bit scared of you but once he got used to you he saw how nice you are under the surface and immediately wanted to be your best friend

He warms up to you pretty fast since you both are so alike and he starts to wreck havoc on anyone who crosses him with you and vice versa

He didn’t realize he was gaining a crush on you he just thought it was just a strong admiration of you

He loves your bluntness and laughs at everyones surprised faces even if hes surprised himself when you apologize for sounding mean he laughs it off and saying that there's nothing to be sorry for

Your RBF is misleading though, he gets confused whether or not you’re upset or just vibing

When you’re angry, he’s angry monkey see monkey do type shi but when its aimed at him he gets upset and sour because he doesn’t like you being mad at him but will begrudgingly apologize if it is his fault

He’ll end up confessing one day whenever he realizes he has a crush or if his brothers pressure him into it

MICHAELANGELO

He's weary of you but he isn't scared at first

So what if you look like you could beat his head in with a mallet mercilessly?

He's not one to judge and besides he’s got Raph so it's nothing new

He’s just extra cautious if you and Raph are in the same room together

When you speak your mind he doesn't say anything but quietly chuckles in the back but if it sounded really mean then he’d be like “That was a bit rude N/n” and when you apologize he smiles and shrugs it off

He'd be worried sick if you got into a fight but if you were winning he'd root for you but if you were losing he'd pull you away while reprimanding the other person

When you get angry he’d try his best to help you calm down even if it's directed towards him he'd still want to help calm you, not wanting to lose you over something small

He will know he has a crush on you early on but will act normally towards you not wanting you to suspect anything out of the ordinary scoping out if you could actually return his feelings

DONNATELLO

He is the unbothered King on the outside until you and Raph use him as a test dummy then he's gonna tweak the fuck out

Now he's gonna keep any sharp objects away from both of you

But he can tell you’re more sane and caring than Raph so he’s not too worried about you, by yourself

When you fight though he's willing to jump in if it's needed and will also help bandage up any cuts and scrapes

He's like a personal nurse

When you speak your mind he has the most exaggerated surprised face ever stands there with his mouth wide open and his hands on his face like “🙀” and when you apologize he’ll tease you lightheartedly but forgive you nonetheless

Your RBF isn't phasing him he will ask you if you’re alright though just to make sure

He tries to help you calm down when you’re angry just like Mikey but he suggests activities for you to do together that reduces anger and is calming even if you’re mad at him he’ll try to calm you down and will apologize for upsetting you

[mlobsters]

supernatural s7e7 the mentalists (w. ben acker, ben blacker)

*sad trombone*

it's like. an actual view of an actual screen in daylight aka it's dark as shit. that's funny. you better fix your shit with sammy, my dude.

this looks like it's gonna be not great. brightly lit and colorful, never a good sign. oh... god. sam is here? i think i might need to read the plot summary in advance on this one.

his hair is lookin kinda limp and greasy. is it sad/mad sam hair? (doubtful)

WAITER Fantastic. You are a virile manifestation of the divine.

all right.

rex manning? (no)

MELANIE Well, I honestly read people. It's just less woo woo, more body language. Like you two – long-time partners, but, um… a lot of tension. [Gestures to SAM.] You're pissed. [Gestures to DEAN.] And you're stressed. It's not brain surgery.

--

JIMMY A loss weighs on you. You're angry. It's complicated. Come see me, Agent.

for all the buildup that felt so contrived of this stabbing jewel staite and lying about it conflict and now they're doing the, oh those bickering brothers sort of comic relief about them fighting... is weird.

watched an interesting documentary about miss cleo while painting here recently, called "call me miss cleo" (trailer)

hey hey someone from yellowjackets! i've watched s1 twice but haven't started s2. maybe when i'm done with s2 of the bear.

yellowjackets - rukiya bernard as simone abra

MUSEUM GUIDE Never ended well for the siblings. DEAN Why is that? MUSEUM GUIDE Mm, the strain of working together, or maybe just being around each other all their lives. Those two were the exception, actually – the Campbells. Got along famously. Of course, that was just a stage name. They weren't actually brothers. That was a cover for their, um... alternative lifestyle.

twofer there. get to make a comment about sibling conflict and a gay "joke". this is my unimpressed face

MUSEUM GUIDE Oh, the Fox sisters – among the founders of Lily Dale. Kate Fox – quite troubled, apparently, but mesmerizing onstage. She's said to be able to levitate objects and foretell one's death. DEAN (to SAM) That's her. MUSEUM GUIDE Her older sister, Margaret – perhaps not a natural psychic. DEAN So, full of crap. MUSEUM GUIDE Yes, well... she didn't have her sister's charisma, but she looked after Kate. Sometimes, one's true gift is taking care of others.

Mulder : Scully, you know that face I just showed you? I'm making it again.

this show does like to beat us over the head with a point

MUSEUM GUIDE I’m sorry, I don't normally do this during business hours, but do you know an Eleanor… or an Ellen? She seems quite concerned about you. She wants to tell you – pardon me – if you don't tell someone how bad it really is, she'll kick your ass from beyond. You have to trust someone again eventually.

that's a choice. and you know i have very soft feelings about ellen. rude. get to invoke ellen (and my feelings!) without even using the actress's voice or likeness 😔 glad dean pushed to talk about their issues with sam

DEAN You almost got us both killed, so you can be pissed all you want, but quit being a bitch.

i feel like being pissed and being a bitch go hand in hand though

DEAN But, uh, hey. You never know. It's not like you can tell the future, right? MELANIE Hmm.

i admit i am not immune to the hopeful little boy face he just made (though it's unfortunate that things are still leaning orange)

no-drink not-so-scenic car date to talk about feelings

SAM What I'm saying is... I get why you did it. You were just trying to make sure no one else got hurt. But here's the thing. You can't just look me in the face and tell me you're fine. I mean, you're not sleeping, you drink for the record— DEAN Oh, here we go. SAM Look, whatever. Last one to preach, I know. But... Just be honest with me. How are those the actions of someone who knows they did the right thing? DEAN You want me to be honest? SAM Yeah. DEAN I went with my gut. And that felt right. I didn't trust her, Sam. Of course, ever since Cas, I'm having a hard time trusting anybody. And as far as how I've been acting... I don't know. Maybe it's 'cause I don't like lying to you. You know, it doesn't feel right. So, yeah, you got me there. I've been climbing the walls.

all right thank you. was it worth that fucking plotline dragging out for 5 episodes? mmm, hard no.

#supernatural #spnwatch #spn 7x07 #spnhiky #hiky #yellowjackets #rukiya bernard #ben acker #ben blacker #amy pond #jewel staite

[bpdstevenuniverse]

// TRIGGER WARNING - suicidal thoughts

I think I realize that my biggest issue is that I repress my anger.

For one, people have always ridiculed it. My family and my bullies always made fun of my anger. My father took pictures of me crying because of him, to prove that I was just being dramatic. To this day, every time I explode, they just roll their eyes at me and assume I'm throwing a fucking tantrum.

Two, I've hurt people because of my anger. I can be rude and a jerk, and depending on the person I can resort to physical violence. I was to my brother - and although I may be resenting him nowadays for other reasons, I certainly still regret treating him this badly -, and while I thankfully never got physical against a school friend of mine, she cut ties with me and I can never make up for it. I totally respect her space, of course, and I don't expect her to forgive me.

Therefore, I am terrified of people outside seeing me angry. Not only am I scared that they're going to mock me or also get mad in return (as, well, expected), I'm also scared that I'm going to hurt them. Basically, I fear that my anger is going to make everyone abandon me, or give up on me. So, most of the time I try my hardest to hide it, but it usually spills out, either with body language or curses under my breath.

When people DO in fact see me angry, I feel ashamed. I want to punish myself for it. I tell myself, you fucking idiot, they're going to hate you and they're going to leave you and never look at you in the face again. Because indeed, this happened a lot in the past.

And the problem is that my anger DEFINES me. As a very passionate person, my anger is very intense. I usually get irritated when something unfair happens, and it can be literally the smallest thing you can imagine (like, idk, the fact they don't give you the option to drink juice instead of soft drinks or water). I care a lot about little details, those that most people don't see or think about, and I feel like that has always made me an outcast since I was just a kid.

I know that I can't just hide my anger. I know I don't want to keep repressing it. It hurts and it makes me do stupid things. I keep wanting to hurt myself to alleviate it, and it's a cycle that never ends. But when I do open up to others, they don't fucking get it. They still reinforce to me that I have to push everything down and think on the positives, be strong etc. etc. and it fucking frustrates me to no end.

I genuinely don't know what else to do with this anger, besides suicide.

(And I get angrier at the fact I'm too scared to kill myself.)

#trauma #childhood trauma #cptsd #actuallybpd #actuallybipolar #actuallybullied #physical abuse #emotional abuse #emotional neglect #venting #personal #my journal #suicide mention tw #suicidal thoughts tw

[octorosi]

So- you all may not know this about me, but I love to write! So here’s a little thing I wrote,

This is written from Bianca’s POV

I’m rudely woken up by Orson and ursa, they are early birds, they enjoy the morning. Me on the other hand, haha, I would rather sleep in. I lay in bed for a wile before ursa yanks my arm, gesturing me to get up. Ursa isn’t as patient as her brother, but hey, that’s what makes ursa, ursa.

I send the cubs off to their polar scout groups, knowing I won’t see them until later in the afternoon. As I walk back to my den, my mind begins to wander, I start to think about my twin brother, as you may know by now, or you may not, I have a twin brother, their name is barnacles! I miss them sometimes, considering the fact they are leader of the Octonauts now. I’m very proud of her, Although there are some times that they scare me, once they jumped in front of a attacking shark and needed surgery. I was so worried about her, I knew if something bad happened I wouldn’t be there in time, and they would have to through it alone…To fill the time I don’t see them, I call them as much as I can, although I need to keep it to a minimum so I don’t disturb their work.

It’s now 1 in the afternoon, I’m preparing dinner for Orson, ursa, and me. All was well! I was jamming out to a happy and energetic playlist, unlike my sibling, I enjoy energetic music! Barnacles enjoys calming music or sad- but Nicki Manaj is a acceptation, they love Nicki Manaj but they refuse to admit it to anyone! I jokingly tease her about it but I make sure to let them know I’m joking.

“Ring! Ring!” My telephone begins to ring. I put down the spatula I was holding and picked up the phone. “Hello?” “Hay bia!” I smile big, it’s barnacles! “Hay! I thought you were busy today?” I ask curiously, “well! The crew told me to take a break- “ “and you listened?” I answered teasingly, “barnacles well, I didn’t want to, but I messed up my leg this morning,” my heart drops. “you…WHAT????” She laughs nervously on the other side of the phone. “Yeah, I tried to help out a shark who got his tale stuck under a rock and I accidentally dropped that heavy rock on my leg,” I shut my eyes in frustration, im mad at them, they always get themselves hurt helping others, why can’t they help them fucking selves sometimes to. “Barnacles…” I begin, “bia don’t worry about me! I’ll recover!” I’m fuming at this point. “Barnacles.” I say firmly, “PLEASE. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. TAKE BETTER CARE OF YOURSELF! I DONT NEED YOU DIEING. THATS NOT SOMETHING I WANT.” I’m angry with her, they know better, “I’m sorry bia, I know your worried, I should take better care of myself. I just don’t know how,” I now feel guilty, I know barnacles was never taught how to care about themselves, they were always taught to put themselves last, “sorry barna, I shouldn’t have snapped at you like that…” “all good bia bia” they laugh on the other side of the phone.

“IS THAT UNCLE BARNACLES ON THE PHONE!!!” The cubs shout as they run through the front door. clearly hoping it’s their uncle on the phone, “yes it’s aunt barnacles, come over and say hi!” If your wondering barnacles doesn’t really care what the cubs call them, aunt, uncle, doesn’t really matter to them, the cubs snach the phone and begin to explain to barnacles how they earned todays badge. I smile softly, If there’s one thing barnacles is good at besides being a amazing captain…is being a wonderful sibling, I’m glad I have someone like them in my life. I wouldn’t trade them for the world,

#rosi’s random rambles #captain barnacles #Bianca <3333 #Orson and Ursa 🥹🥹🥹 #this took like 30 minutes? idrl I didn’t count XD #SWEAR TW AND MENSONS OF DEATH AND SOME INJURIES IG-

[creaturebehavior]

i have to start reminding myself that once i’m out, i usually feel a lot better and there’s not usually much to be scared of.

i think if i could go outside without having to worry about interacting with people i would be so happy.

people terrify me. i’m so scared everyone is gonna be mad at me and yell at me and stuff. i know it’s crazy but that’s my legitimate fear is that i’m gonna do something dumb or embarrassing in public and someone’s gonna be mad at me. because it’s happened before. even when i’m earnestly trying my best. communication is so difficult for me. god there was that time that Togo’s employee got so mad at me cuz i was just trying to get a veggie sandwich but for some reason she didn’t understand me and kept asking what kind of sandwich i wanted and she spitefully put a unsliced, unripened avocado on my sandwich because she had gotten so fed up with me. I didn’t know how to be any more clear about my wording at the time. i just wanted a sandwhich with all their veggies on it like. what. a veggie sandwich. can i get a sandwich that just has veggies on it? apparently not. By the end i found out she wanted me to order a cheese sandwich because they don’t have a veggie sandwich. Like... That’s why i was asking if it would be possible to get a veggie sandwich. I wonder what a vegan would have done in that situation. by the end of it when she suggested i get a cheese sandwich i was like okay sure a cheese sandwich. but what if a vegan who’s equally as stupid as i am wanted a sandwich with just vegetables on it. would they have to order a cheese sandwich, hold the cheese? like? i still don’t fully understand what happened that day but i never returned to the Togo’s next to my house ever again. i must have been like 20 years old at the time and i still hold onto this and think about it. along with a couple other situations where there’s been a miscommunication and i seem stupid and seem like an asshole and it pisses off the person helping me, or i do or say something rude accidentally.

the world does not excuse idiots. it makes me feel really insecure. sometimes when i hear or see people venting about idiots they have to deal with at work i get so insecure because i’m also an idiot who doesn’t know or understand anything. you could say something super clear to me sometimes and i won’t understand it at all.

idek i’m trying to learn to love myself enough to not feel insecure about being like, slow. there’s a lot of internalized ableism i’ve been trying to deconstruct and let go of. my dad is really mean spirited and instilled a lot of hatred and judgement into me and my brother’s programming. my brother told me he’s had to unlearn being so judgmental too. our dad always talked to us like we were better than other kids, and would always tell us about how stupid he thought our friends and classmates were, or my mom’s friend’s kids were and stuff. he really othered us away from our peers and instilled insecurity and judgment into us. so core belief/childhood logic: if i act “stupid” like my friends or classmates, then that means i’m bad. that means dad doesn’t love me. that means dad will be angry. that means anyone could be angry.

this is a huge reason why instead of admitting i didn’t understand anything in school, i acted like i was too good to do homework. i acted like i just didn’t care about it. Because i was scared to be honest and say i need help, i don’t understand. because the only way my dad loved me is if i wasn’t stupid like my friends or my classmates or my mom’s friend’s kids.

#processing #damn #i didn’t even know i was gonna get into this rn but i think i jsut did some really important processing