#and then realizes “aw shit i like these people actually....”

[ttomeposting]

hey remember the situation with kirb and zetto in the webseries? just asking. for no reason in particular. : ]

#my art #tome rpg #greyhat #terrain of magical expertise rpg #i remembered i technically have 2 self inserts for this game (one of which actually has a speaking line in there) and uh #it'd make a *lot* of sense if Threefold had an illegally registered alt account. just to yknow. play 'normally' every once n a while #especially considering how i rewrote him and his whole. Thing about zetto #at first i think his player would rlly just be using the alliance to get to zetto after hearing theyre participating in The Event #and then realizes “aw shit i like these people actually....” #so he sticks around! just. also with an ulterior motive . as a treat #can you tell i havent finished the game and/or cannot get over kirbzet as a character?? because i h

[uncanny-tranny]

The trans experience of getting lucky with a new primary care provider who doesn't care about your transness or transition so long as you're getting the proper care

Manifesting this for every trans person because I finally felt like a normal human being going to a doctor

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #i have avoided doctors for like... four years now because of how awful they are toward trans people 🤩 (sarcastic star-eyes emoji) #i thought i didn't have anxiety anymore until i made a first appointment with this new primary care provider i have... #...and when they were doing my vitals and got to the blood pressure screen i was shaking (which i normally am tbf) #i will be fair and say i have had more negative experiences with mental health providers though #but since i've avoided doctor-doctors i haven't had the time TO have negative experiences #my dad was actually really kind and asked if my doctor tried being transphobic and i realized... NO! he didn't even try! #my dad's first question was if dr. [redacted] tried to talk me out of testosterone and i was like shit... no he didn't!! #and i felt like a normal person seeing the doctor albeit with a lot of anxiety but i was treated normally :) #it feels SO nice after feeling like a lab rat or like in the movies where a psychiatrist comes out to explain what transsexuality #explain what transsexuality is*

[dennisboobs]

sitting back after writing 3k words of a fic and thinking. what the hell is this

#ada speaks #if i say what ive written #this entire scenario is insane but. i guess im committed #it has been a very very long time since ive written mac and its like. allll coming out in a way i didn't really expect #i *almost* feel worse for what im putting him through than dennis. ....almost. #this shit is honestly so heavy i think i need a break but none of my other fics are light either lmfao #whats worse: hostage situation turned incredibly fucked up conversion therapy #or the most relentless barrage of awful truths realizing that your existence is nothing more than a burden on the people you love and #no matter how much you sacrifice and how hard you're beaten down you will never have anyone to lean on because even though youve finally #reached a point where you realize you have to open up to them they will never see you for who you truly are because of the years of lies #you've fed them #*wheeze* #okay i answered my own question actually this is the lighter fic comparatively #dennis is suffering in both but at least he has mac with him in the former for better or worse #north dakota dennis suffers and then season 13 on is the bleakest most hellish time like has dennis actually been close with the gang since

[cantsayidont]

March–April 2024. A very strange, frequently tasteless, mostly inexplicable black comedy political satire from the creator of SUCCESSION — though more strongly reminiscent, presumably on purpose, of the 2017 THE DEATH OF STALIN — THE REGIME is a six-part miniseries starring a self-consciously frumpy-looking, outrageously hammy Kate Winslet as Elena Vernham, the egomaniacal authoritarian chancellor of an unnamed Ruritanian state somewhere in Central Europe.

As her hapless husband (Guillaume Gallienne) and self-dealing underlings tiptoe around her growing list of neuroses and increasingly erratic mood swings, a soldier named Herbert Zubak (Matthias Schoenaerts), notorious for his role in a brutal massacre of striking mine workers, is recruited to play a hard-to-define, ever-shifting supporting role in Elena's ongoing psychological breakdown and various political confrontations.

Winslet seems to have been having fun, although she overacts shamelessly, and what accent she thinks she's doing seems to vary from moment to moment; the median could best be described as "Margaret Thatcher, very tipsy, trying to pretend she's not sucking on an Everlasting Gobstopper." Schoenaerts, for reasons that are never clear, plays Zubak like a punch-drunk boxer trying to walk off a life-threatening concussion, leaving his character a perplexing cipher throughout.

Like THE DEATH OF STALIN (which I thought wildly overrated), THE REGIME is more often crass and uncomfortable than actually funny, and its smug misogyny would be offensive if taken seriously (which is admittedly very difficult). Also, given the current state of the UK, watching the largely British cast mock the political instability of a fictitious "Middle European" autocracy causes some seasickness. (Whistling past the graveyard, perhaps, but still.) CONTAINS LESBIANS? No! VERDICT: Much more "funny strange" than "funny ha-ha," and because it's basically a one-note joke, it becomes like one of those terrible SNL skits that just won't end.

#teevee #hateration holleration #the regime #kate winslet #matthias schoenaerts #i realize i'm basically just talking to myself here #but i have no one to rant at about how inexplicably weird and awful this stupid show is #people who liked succession might rate it more highly #but i thought succession was hot garbage and a lot of you who loved it did so for reasons that make me think less of you #no matter how much affection you have for kate winslet #(a little or a lot) #this show will sorely test it #i fear that in mocking it i may inadvertently make it sound like it's actually funny #which it really is not #there's some fleeting but really ugly mask-off shit in the finale #that underscores that the whole thing is primarily about hating women and especially the idea of working for women #(obviously elena is a horror but she's like an editorial cartoon) #(drawn by one of those guys who think smartphones are degenerate)

[thegetdownrebooter]

t*yl*r sw*ft getting dragged every 5 business days... i used to pray for times like these.

#i'm sorry but i hate her so fucking bad #i must speak my truth #god her music is so mediocre and her performative activism actually fooling a generation of young girls is so pitiful #like... you have a bunch of sw*ft*es actually thinking she is some closeted lesbian... bffr #mind you she only started spewing her fake woke “gay rights” shit after she got cancelled in 2016 #like why are you shocked by her dating that awful man? surely her lame rebranding after reputation didn't fool you fr? #god... i miss 2016 #back when people realized she was a performative white feminist that only used feminism for her benefit #lmfaoo i remeber swifties trying to defend her about the private jet shit #i wonder if they will claim “misogyny” in response to her dating an edgelord neo nazi #at the end of the day she doesn't actually practice what she preaches like it's all part of her brand #and also she isn't secretaly dating karlie kloss or whatever #in fact karlie is married to a trump in-law like... the jokes write themselves #anyways if you wanna stand a white pop girl so bad ariana is right there #sabrina is also right there #britney is still standing #in fact britney's blackout album is better than anything she has ever released i can tell you that much #i know i will most likely get jumped by her racist cult fanbase but i must speak my truth #maybe i won't have to hear that stupid anti-hero song at the grocery store anymore

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[moderatetoaboveaverage]

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#went down a wikipedia rabbithole tonight and learned some chilean history #specifically around project cybersyn #President Salvador Allende #and the 1973 Military coup #and uh #fucking tragic #i think ive existed in a strange(? maybe its actually relatively common idrk) position as an American leftist where like #the crimes of american imperialism feel so innumerable to where at a certain point you stop learning about them on purpose #so like for years ive 'known' that what the USG has done to South America was awful #i 'learned' about honduras and so I just applied that as a template and went 'yeah some awful shit happened and its the CIAs fault' #but uh getting a bit more detailed knowledge about what our government did in chile has made me realize how callous that was #i dont know that ive nessecarily earned my previous attitude of 'cold detached and depressed' given #that not only did I not live through any of it but also that it was done in my benefit #god maybe this is some milquetoast shit #idk #I think being a leftist in the US is having to fight the passivating force of imperialism constantly #like lose sight of it for a second and it just fucking blends back in with the landscape #the internally defensive structure you build in your brain to protect yourself from complete emotional collapse while buying food #will equally be effective in ignoring the role of imperialism in everything else #anyway #I think this is perhaps a good opportunity to learn more about the other crimes the USG has committed in South America #to actually know the names and pronunciation of the deomcratically elected socialist leaders we deposed and what they really wanted to do #to know how their people felt and thought about things rather than imposing my own assumptions onto a reigon I am utterly ignorant of #it is embarrassing now to know the fullness of history I have ignored #Salvador Allendes words really fucking got to me and to think that there are men like him who I cannot even name is really disappointing #im going to stop self flaggellating and see about that reading #just my thoughts #feeling a little blue tonight

[bandzboy]

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#i’ll be sincere for a second #i’ve been wanting to take a social media break for a while #but with the boycott and the awful things happening in the world #obviously i can’t #especially bc i committed myself to posting updates #i am mostly tired bc of kpop stans and so called kpop community #bc having to deal with people being boycott denialists and then #people being dumb and hateful to idols for no reason #i just CANT #and even realizing how insanely the industry is sometimes #makes me not wanna be here it’s really like 😭 rough #i cant enjoy music for many reasons #also industry i mean both korean and western at the same time #so in general #it’s been a constant turn off and it’s sucks #but yeah twt is the only place i get actual facts abt the ongoing genocide #and now i committed to this and now i can’t give up #it’s not that i want to give up i am willing to this #it sucks that it has to be in places where i see a shitty comment abt something #like kpop related said by an annoying kpop stan and i just can’t #it’s dumb but my mental hasn’t been strong for a while #so that’s why shit is getting to me more easily #i just wanna do what i gotta do without worrying some random ass person on the internet #is gonna ruin my day #delete later

[orcelito]

I've been following that AITA blog for a bit now and it has me thinking about my own life situations with conflict and drama. A passive "do I have anything I could submit to that blog?" But upon thinking about it, it's like... I really find no value in asking strangers whether I'm "the asshole" in situations. There are situations where I'm clearly not at fault, situations where I was a little shit but it was justified, and at least one situation where I have a definite "Oh yeah, I was definitely the asshole there". All in the past, so it's not like I'd even need advice or anything. I already know, so what's the point?

Maybe it stems from me being a generally self-aware and self-confident kind of person. I know what's going on with myself, know when I've wronged people, & I have a mentality of "well, I'll try to not do that in the future." Even if I feel a little guilty thinking back, what's the point of asking after something when I know I'm at fault? Or situations where things were complicated and both people had fault in things, but I know I wasn't being shitty on purpose & that's what matters to me. Ultimately, it results in a bunch of strangers drawing conclusions about things I really don't care about outside input on.

Still love reading the blog tho. There's something about reading up on random people's life drama that satisfies that gossipmonger soul in me So well.

#speculation nation #i think the most blatantly YTA thing id get is when i ghosted that guy i was seeing back when i was 20 or so #wasnt ever actually dating but i made it sound like i would. very much led him on. #then realized i just wasnt into cishet guys At All and dropped him out of nowhere bc i was 20 and didnt know how to deal with feelings #objectively it was a pretty awful thing for me to do. and i feel bad that i did it. #have i ever tried to reach out and apologize tho? no lmao #it happened so long ago now i feel like itd bring more animosity than relief anyways. #id like to think ive learned from it tho. Dont Date People Just For The Hell Of It. #god it rly is my romantic history where im the biggest asshole. my prior girlfriend too #i do feel bad about that. i never meant to hurt her but that sure is what i did. #it was better to break it off when i did. wouldve been better had i did it earlier but oh well. #then as a teenager and my whole fucked up romance life then... #but NO LONGER!!!!!!!! hopefully lol. im rly into my current girlfriend and after my last one ive been dedicated to. not do that again. #cant date people just because im bored. that's never ended well for me. #i learned my lesson this time for SURE!!!!! #anyways yea id say more constently id be The Asshole in these situations. but im only human man it happens. #other situations it's usually just fucked up situations with me being a toxic little shit in response bc it's all i knew. #idk. community voting doesnt matter to me. learning from my prior mistakes and shortcomings is what matters to me. #it's interesting to see the blog tho. people are insecure about some of the most trivial things sometimes...

[seraphim-soulmate]

so how do I reconcile with just having big baby loser brain that decided I'd be mentally ill and perpetually stuck suffering instead of having just dealt with my shit in a more normal way? or is there some neuroscience that can explains that I don't have a cringefail brain but it's actually something else??

i mean. it's shame. shame I feel for struggling with things i consider i shouldn't struggle with, which i guess is kinda stupid bcs when i take a step back i realize it's understandable that im struggling with certain things ive lived through. being stuck in them doesn't entirely make sense, but I'm willing to accept that my past shaped me. not to mention that I'm also somehow kind of constantly going through really hard situations on top of also dealing with my past? but it also all (mental illness and emotional sensitivity, I mean) started with something, and my early childhood was my parents getting divorced.

but I consider that banal, plenty of parents get divorced and it doesn't mean their kid suffers from treatment-resistant depression and ptsd. I guess divorce is so normalized now that i don't consider it a valid thing to be traumatized over, at least not to the extent to which ive experienced symptoms. but I was separated from one parent, always missing one or the other, without any explanation that could make sense to a child's brain about why any of this happened and why i have to suffer because of it. can I get rid of the shame by validating the struggles I went through? would that make me feel better about having been disabled by my life experiences?

#personal #me #mental health #i don't mean this as an insult to other people who also struggle with the same shit i struggle with #its just rn im in quite an awful state and its a question that keeps replaying #but writing this out did make me realize how cruel it is to think this of myself ig #it doesnt make the thought any less extant though. #like is it that my brain and biology were structured this way? did i have a predisposition and then life events made me develop like thi #this* #its also possible its autism. but i don't know enough to know how to cope with that either. #from what I've gathered it means i actually have a genetic difference that made me more vulnerable to emotional difficulties? #i dont know what the point of finding out the answer to this is either. i guess to justify why its okay for me to be like this. #because so far it doesn't seem right. it doesnt make sense that i have this many mental issues. #maybe my expectations are unrealistic. #idk my psych at some point said i have these things in place so i wouldnt just fully lose my mind. #and i thought id gotten to a place where i didnt need dissociation as a coping tool anymore #but then more things that are super overwhelming keep happening in my life #and chronic pain plus sensory issues arent things that make you want to be present in your body either tbf

[denizenhardwick]

the portrayal of social anxiety in dear evan hansen always bothered because like. okay. so the initial misunderstanding is actually 100% believable, just straight-up what 15- or 16-year-old me would have done in a situation where i keep getting shut down when i try to speak up. just go quiet and go along with whatever's going on. and from that point on, i would actively avoid everyone involved in the situation as much as i possibly can. just escape, get away, not deal with it again. and now i have a permanent debuff of anxiety and guilt forever. if i was forced to talk to the murphys again, i would quickly clarify what was actually going on, because at that point there's no easy escape, and trying to create a lie is infinitely more stressful than fessing up, apologizing, and freeing myself of the situation.

but evan isn't me, so let's say for him, crafting an elaborate lie is somehow less stressful than telling the truth. okay, i can buy that. what fucking baffles me, though, is how much he seemingly gets into it without feeling any anxiety at all about this horrible stressful situation he's got himself in? to the point that he goes off his meds because he says he doesn't need them anymore? you would think that hinging your entire social life on an elaborate lie that could be exposed at any moment would be the most stressful thing imaginable for someone with "getting a little bit embarrassed in front of other people makes me actually literally want to die" disorder. but no, he's just fine now lol

#i read the script for deh and it was almost impossible for me to get through because #even just thinking about the situation evan was in triggered so much anxiety in me #despite theoretically having social anxiety rep the plot is just uniquely evil to people who have it lol #like actual worst-case scenario shit all the way through #i was in high school when i read it and at that time my anxiety was so bad that not only could i barely talk to anyone just in general #i would also pretty regularly think about killing myself when i didn't complete my assignments #because literally not existing anymore seemed preferable to the embarassment of facing my teacher the next day #and admitting i didn't finish my homework. and then i realized that i had lots of stuff i actually wanted to do #and it would be fucking stupid to kill myself over homework but that's the level of anxiety we're talking about here #so i did not like the show but then all the criticism was like 'evan is an irredeemably awful person for all of this' #and i would feel terrible because i understood how he got into the situation and could see myself getting into it too #it was just unpleasant all around both the show and the reception hurt me

[caterpillarinacave]

I would have thrived in the middle ages

#or like 1800-1910 #¨actually it would have been awful¨ dont try me bro #my history knowledge is fueled by pure grade a farm fed autism I know exactly what i would be getting myself into #and i know that it would smell like shit and end in cholera #but man i thrive when my life when i spend every day cooking and cleaning #you realize just how many less people there were? #i could interact with the same like #50 people #for my entire life #i would have had a great time as nobility #of course i would take a reduced household and move off to the countryside away from court #but bro i would be so down for that #look Im not neccesarily saying I would PREFER to live in the middle ages #im just saying i would have thrived #t

[jacobied]

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#im about to snap lmfao on the one hand being around adhd friends and engaging w content by adhd ppl is great #terrific even. they fuckin Get it #but idk if triggering is the right word but god it fucking hurts smthn awful #bc i am just taken back to my MESS of a diagnosis where i was defensive and masking the entire time and ultimately left w a 'just anxiety' #diagnosis and every subsequent talk w therapist where they diminish my experiences bc i dont have a Real diagnosis #i got the first chance w a school grang #and i fucked it and probably can never afford to try again and i sure as SHIT cannot navigate the system to #even if somehow miraculously i could the fucking thought of going through the administrative bullshit to set things up #makes me want to break my fucking bones for the crunch of it bc thats the only thing thatll make everything else STOP #idk its just weird relating and being soothed by people i dont feel like ill actually belong to #its been a fucked up brain time realizing im not even fucking mentally ill in a relatable way lmfaooooooo #jade.exe

[deadbeatdadjokes]

the fuck is wrong with yall lmfao

#some of y’all mfers I’ve probably met in real life and will never know how batshit insane you really are behind closed doors #like y’all will finish filing ur taxes close ur laptop and then tie ur spamton plush to the ceiling fan and then turn it on #spamton ppl are an unhinged breed I am in awe of and in fear of you simultaneously #i actually remember thinking after beating ch2 the first time ‘wow that was it?? why are people losing their shit again??’ #then I realized I totally forgot to buy the keygen from him/do the secret boss stuff #so I was literally believing that this rat man from the dumpster who had 3 lines was enough to make tumblr collectively lose it #but in retrospect was I wrong ?? #i feel like that’s all it takes these days #deltarune #spamton deltarune #tumblr sexyman participation award 🏅

[orangefuckingjuice]

growing up on the internet is like hitting a certain age where you can look back and realize that a bunch of stuff that you didn’t think was bad we actually super fucked up and you just got normalized to it

#I was never pr///ship but there was a lot of stuff in a similar vein I was completely neutral on and used to #like seeing it so often on the internet just justified it as like ‘well its not real so whatever’ #and then getting older and being like WTF NOT WHATEVER ACTUALLY #like god being a kid and a part of the MLP fandom #so much stuff that was straight up abhorrent #and beyond that #‘edgy’ jokes propagated by memes #like you get used to it and if you are uncomfortable you’re like being ‘too sensitive’ #being cool with really awful dark or disturbing stuff #or not caring about morally objectionable stuff bc it’s ‘only fiction’ #like i dont think gr//ming is the right word but its a similar vein #just normalization #not realizing whats wrong with things until you get older #or you meet people that point it out and go #‘no wait actually you’re right’ #the internet is awful in the way that kids are not shielded from that shit #i saw it all and i thought that it made me mature #but being mature now i can see how fucked up it all is #justifications like ‘well its not real so it doesnt matter’ #like they fall apart under scrutiny but if youre young and everyone acts like its okay #then youre gonna thing its okay #and im not some puritanical person who things dark fiction or horrific circumstances cant be explored #but thats too nuanced for some tags bc there are obviously some things that are outright encouraging of vile things #romanticizing rather than exploring in a critical way or through a framework that places it in some perspective as how it actually is #you get what im saying?? like i said its to complicated to spell out in tags #but im not talking about the concept of disturbing content #like you should get what im talking about #inc//st ships and ab//se and s//xualization of under//ge characters and t//rture p//n and all that awful shit #some is outright and extreme but some is more subtle and the subtle or more tame stuff is what gets you used to concepts until it escalates #idk if i can put this all into words in a tumblr post maybe i should right an essay or something but the topic is upsetting like ughh

[frogathy]

just talked to my counselor about being on the spectrum and my mom understands now and i am just so relieved its insane like everything makes sense it is so insane and like i dont have to feel like theres anything wrong with me anymore its just hoohkhjgghdhj

#AAAAUHHHHHHSHahajdj i am so so so happyyy im so happy #its insane how validating just talking to someone who will listen to you can be #im so happy im so happy #like. now i understand that i can see the world through my own eyes instead of looking at other people to find out what it is to act human #like hoooly shit i might not actually have social anxiety. social anxiety is like ‘i wish i could be a part of that but im not’ #but i realized that actually i just.. dont want to be a part of it LMAOAOAO #i just never wanted to have people over or go to other peoples houses and i have always been content with that #but the problem has been that other people expect things of me and i dont understabd them #the anxiety comes from masking and trying to be someone im not and trying to look happy all the time and trying to act ‘human’ all the time #turns out i am perfectly content to not have anyone to talk to. perfectly content having no friends at youth group #perfectly content on my own and ive always felt terrible about it because it has nothing to do with my friends and i feel awful bc why #wouldnt you want to spend time with someone you love you know #its just ohhhh its a lot to think about and understand about myself and gosh its insane its insane theres so many things that make sense and #i have a lot of thinking to do. lots to do. lots of self evalutation to happen yup yup #froegis meep tag