#and then I have to fucking take the next one next semester

[rosesaints]

hello i saw ur yuuta piece and loved how u write !! could u write smth similar perhaps for megumi 🤧🤧 he needs more love .. 🍀

*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟcollege student!megumi fushiguro hc dump

pairing: megumi fushiguro x f!reader warnings: 18+ mdni, mix of sfw and nsfw content under the cut, a very obscenely american depiction of college, just me pouring my heart out to the most perfect underrated college bf ever. wc: 1300

college student!megumi fushiguro who enrolls in university as a biology major, minoring in english on the pre-veterinarian track, carefully selecting his college after agonizing over whether or not he wanted to be a writer or a vet, ultimately choosing the latter after an impressive tour of a research lab with leaders on the field who eagerly and enthusiastically answer every single one of his questions, no matter how miniscule or thorough. goes home with a stupid grin on his face that yuuji won't stop taking pictures of—"yuuji, would you chill the fuck out? it was just a college tour."

college student!megumi fushiguro goes home and quickly accepts his offer, orders two sweaters from the university's online tour, visits tsumiki at the hospital and tells her all about where he plans to go for the next four years.

college student!megumi fushiguro who has a very, very eventful freshman year—

he takes public transport around campus, has an old, beaten up pair of headphones that he probably got from thrifting, listens to beach house, cocteau twins, the neighbourhood, cigarettes after sex, sometimes songs that nobara and yuuji have recommended to him in the groupchat. acts like the brooding, silent type, until you accidentally knock into him during a nasty bump on the road, and he very quickly loses his composure and helps you out, beats himself up afterwards for not getting your name

finds you later at his biology lab, pleasantly surprised and trying to force down any visible signs of excitement when you get paired together for the rest of the semester. lets you take his phone without any fuss to type your number down, keeps the heart you've left besides your name and texts you that night to make plans to go on a date work on the lab report due that week

mentions you offhandedly during the debrief dinner he has at least a couple times a week with yuuji and nobara, frowns when they freeze and look at each other in that skitterish, excited way that they do when they're in on something together. "megumi, you never, ever talk about girls!"

he finds every excuse to see you outside of class. "damn, i guess we're gonna have to work on the report later, i'll see you at 6?" or "i think we need to talk about the objectives over some lunch at this new sushi place in town, anyway—"

you go along with it because it's so painfully obvious, but you don't have the heart to break whatever cool guy, aloof persona he's kind of determined to uphold (megumi, please, for the love of god, just learn how to ask someone out on a date)

he works hard to find new places he thinks you'll like and at some point, you guys just stop working on reports altogether and just start having fun around campus

sends you game pigeon texts throughout the day, lets you win at 8ball, but never, ever backs down from word hunt. he will score 30k points over you and not break a sweat.

rolls up his lab coat once in class and your brain short-circuits, man has an insane sleeper build, grabs your microscope slides for you and easily returns your microscope for you. "you okay?" "yup! completely and totally fine!"

i cannot stress enough how oblivious he is, though. you guys go to parties together, he grabs your drinks for you, holds your waist when someone gets too rowdy, and leave together. somehow, this man still thinks you don't reciprocate his feelings.

he wants to confess, he does, but there's all these logistics and things he has to plan for, has to do it in just the right way, at the right place, wracks his head at night trying to think of a way to just tell you. yuuji calls him fucking stupid one night and for once, he agrees.

gets too busy fussing and concerning over what he would do when the time comes, doesn't even stop and consider the fact that you might just beat him to it!

"'gumi," he literally has his head on your lap while he's doing an assigned reading for class, and it's probably one of the most peaceful days he's had in a while, but the way you smile and say his name makes his heart skip a beat. "wanna go out with me?"

man, it's like the floodgates open after that. he gets so much more direct and confident—"we're gonna go volunteer at that animal shelter this weekend," and "i'm picking you up for dinner, is chinese okay?"

not the type for public displays of affection, but makes sure you're in his orbit all the time, somehow. glances across the lab when your professor blunders in the middle of the lecture, a hand on the small of your back while he maneuvers you through the street, places his hand above yours on the train while you're holding onto the pole

takes photos of you all the time, has a collection of different cameras, makes yuuji take photos of you and him on nights out with the disposable camera, photos of you looking absolutely adorable on the digital camera, and dumb, funny photos of you that you hate but he loves

nights spent at his dorm watching trashy reality shows (he acts like he doesn't give a shit but gasps louder than you whenever someone gets slapped), studying for your next exam only to end up making out on the floor, cooking ramen noodles just to end up making out on his twin bed, getting ready together and making out when he hoists you up to the counter and knocks all his (and your) shit over. "gumi, i still have toothpaste in my mouth—" "hm, i like mint."

loves loves loves to kiss you. will have hours-long make out sessions in his dorm or yours, will keep going even if your roommate walks in, doesn't even register their presence—too focused on whatever flavor of lip gloss you've got on or that cute top you're wearing that day

his second favorite thing to do is to leave marks in places only he can see. doesn't mean to do that, he swears, but you can see a ghost of a smile when he helps readjust the straps of your dress to hide a blooming hickey on your shoulder.

has this dumbstruck look on his face when you have sex for the first time, gasps and grips your ass with a strength that you were only vaguely aware of when you sink down on his length for the first time, low groans and narrowed eyes. "god, i think you're gonna kill me."

slowly ends up being the one to control the pace, bouncing you up and down on his dick for his own pleasure, even as you're squealing and scratching his back and deliriously trying to thrust back, only to be overpowered

could eat you out for hours, but also loooooves receiving head, loves the way your eyes shimmer when you take him deeper into your throat, the gagging, lewd noises that you make and the way you look up at him, asking if that was good. "that was fucking amazing. 10/10, no notes."

remember how he takes photos of you all the time? he has some polaroids of you in some.... scandalous positions hidden in his drawer that he likes to... use in times of desperation

doesn't initiate a whole lot at the beginning because he's still in the "learning phase," but once he gets you to cum within two minutes, it brings out his competitive spirit. "wonder how many more times you can cum again... think you got another two in you?"

basically living together by the end of the year, because he sleeps better when you're near and his whole dorm is littered with mementos that remind him of you. has that coffee blend you love in his kitchen cabinet, your toothbrush on the other side of his, and when he comes back from lecture to see your smiling face hanging upside down from his futon, thinks he might just want to spend the rest of his life with you.

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[shaisuki]

𝗢𝗨𝗥 𝗞𝗜𝗡𝗗 𝗢𝗙 𝗠𝗜𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗞𝗘

ft. bully! gojo satoru and geto suguru

content warnings major timeskip flashbacks, talks about overdosing, harassment.

notes i promise next chapter would be the start.

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SERIES MASTERLIST

synopsis a old memory surfaces

the rolling of the wheel of the lighter ignited a small flame then it dies down. there's a few clicking before it produces a fire and suguru watched in a bored manner. following the lighter's fire touched the tip of the cigarette and then followed by a smoke. the brunnete inhales before exhaling the smoke. humming as she glances at his friends. impatient from the looks of it.

years of being friends with these two and one could say she's used to the duo's shenanigans and yet, it was still fucking unbelievable how these two creates trouble and her taking the brunt of it. the memory of you unmoving while being connected to machines still replays in her mind.

“god forbid you two for existing.” shoko started. taking a puff from her cigarette. the stick between her slender fingers glowing brightly. “strong words, sho.” suguru commented. “what we did do for you to say that?” satoru grumbles. chewing the candy he was eating out of his frustration. it's not like for shoko to say things like that knowing that she leaves them do whatever it pleases them.

“you know damn well.” shoko flicks the cigarette. the ashes dancing before it disappears in the wind before putting the cigarette in her lips.

suguru then took a puff of his smoke and sighs. he knows where this conversation is going. “what happened to her, sho?” taking the sight of the lawn below him while he leans on the railing of their frat house. satoru who was earlier grumbling stops and listened to what shoko have to say about you.

“she overdosed and was in coma for two days, you idiots.” shoko revealed them and satoru was the first to say something about it. “overdosed?” he let out a laugh. disbelief painted on his face.

“and how we are involved in this?” suguru raises a brow at her and shoko remains looking in the front. not sparing a glance to the two idiots besides her. “do i really need to tell you two? you were all over her since last semester and for all i know is both of you are fucking her! literally and figuratively. you sick fucks!” shoko without blinking tell them. never they did see shoko to be so worked up.

“calm down shoko. we're just playing with her and we didn't know that she'll end up there. maybe, she was experimenting.” fixing his glasses as he explained to shoko but she was having none of it and the cigarette burns faster as she took a long deep breath from it.

“we thought she was tipsy that night. we didn't know she done it.” suguru added.

“i can't believe you two! and seriously experimenting? what the fuck is that thinking, satoru! and you suguru, of all people! i thought you were the empathetic one. you left her to die, you fucking assholes!” shoko said enraged. throwing her cigarette in anger and pulling another one. struggling to light the goddamn lighter. geto grabs the lighter from her. it smoothly lights as he clicks the lighter and shoko lights her cigarette. “i just can't believe you two were capable of that.” shoko sighs, rubbing a tense spot in her head. she got a headache and two literal headaches as her friends.

fuck, how did that happen. you were fine and maybe you were a little tipsy when they left you and it was nothing serious about it. you were being stubborn that night and how the fuck did you end up overdosing yourself. he just can't believe it.

suguru looks at shoko. the dark circles below her eyes got darker than it was. late hours shifts as an intern does this to her and he thinks about you. he kept an eye to you that night and he only takes his eyes off you for a second and you already put yourself in trouble and maybe that's the reason you got dragged to him and satoru. he stares at his friend. handsome he may look but this one could be a pain in the ass. entitled and a spoiled brat. that's what makes them a perfect pair despite their differences. he can ground satoru but when it comes to you. they're both in line in each other's whims.

“is she okay, sho?” satoru asks.

“she'll live.”

“is she still in there?”

shoko scoffs. “what you two going to send her a get-well-soon card after endangering her?” the sarcasm hits and satoru winces. “and to answer your question. she transferred hospitals and don't know where and even i know, i won't tell you both. it's best for her to be away from you two.” finishing her cigarette and then tucks her hands in her pockets. she walks away but stops.

“fair warning you two, it will bite back.” she says and left without looking back.

that was years ago. they tried to find you and it always pointed them in a dead end. can't say they're a changed men now but they did mature and the damage they had done to you was the worst thing.

satoru sits in his chair. it was two years now since it was passed to him. he's the heir after all and now ceo. suguru is still out there and sometimes would visit. have his own business ventures to attend too and is now, engaged to his fiancé whom his father had arranged. sometimes, he thinks about you. were things to be different around here if you were here and it looks like his prayer was answered.

you came walking through his doors.

#♱ ⋮ shai's works⸝⸝ #chubby reader #jujutsu kaisen #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x chubby reader #gojo x reader #gojo satoru x reader #geto suguru #gojo satoru #geto suguru x reader #geto x reader #gojo x reader x geto

[wewontbesleeping]

this assignment I’m working on is soo hard bc the topic is like. highlight a surprising impact that a business (the one that you chose for a completely different topic for a different paper) has had on your community. like. am I supposed to LIE? because there isn’t a surprising impact that this restaurant has had on my community?????? what am I supposed to write about ??? it’s a restaurant???????

#Im so excited to be done with this class I HATE IT #and then I have to fucking take the next one next semester #also it’s a new restaurant too #so #like I genuinely am confused on what to do #especially because it’s like it has to be something you couldn’t find out from social media #like I feel like all of this fucking class has just been me being like I don’t fucking understand what you want from me #I don’t understand the prompt I don’t understand the topic I don’t understand the end result #and I’m probably thinking too much about it #it’s going to be fine I have an A so far #I don’t think even if I fuck up royally that I can fail this class #but I’m still like ?????? #I just want to do things right and make them good #but I don’t know how #how do I NOT SUCK at writing #I kind of thought this class would teach me how to write better but it feels more like I was supposed to already know #which was my fear about college #that they expect me to already just understand this stuff #thank GOD for my regular ass archaeology class #it’s like lectures and textbooks and LEARNING THINGS!!!!!! #not being tested on things I never learned but am somehow expected to already be good at

[camelspit]

how am i supposed to raise my gpa if i keep getting the shittiest fucking teachers on earth oh my god. no more peace and love i hope they die.

#i am. so fucking done. #14 days left of the semester and i am on the verge of giving up #staring at the final in a week or two like. #girl. no one is passing that shit and it is your fault. #and then youre going to have the fucking audacity to lecture us about #how we're the problem because we dont study correctly #like you always fucking do #and its like no! #youve always been the fucking problem!! #go back to the school you fucking came from bc we were a lot better without you bitch #god im just. so angry. #like my team mate was honest to god unironically praying after we took the quiz #like girl !!!! people should not have to pray for good grades !!! #tell me how we still got a 72 with ALL OF US working together #AND DOUBLE CHECKING IT LIKE 5 TIMES #AND WE WERE LIKE THE HIGHEST GRADE IN THE CLASS ??? #BE FR. #I HOPE YOU FALL IN A FUCKING PIT #and i probably wont be able to take spanish 4 next year because HE teaches upper level spanish now #and im so fucking pissed about that #like i want to learn spanish but im not doing that in this class. because he doesnt teach it. #i cant do this for another semester. i would rather die. #and next semester im taking art and #apparently i got the teacher who never gives hundreds because 'art isnt perfect' #girl WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU #IF I DID THE WORK GIVE ME THE 100 STOP MAKING THIS SOME MORAL BLATHER OR WHATEVER

[bread-of-death]

Whelp. I just emailed the Dean.

#bread hates college now I guess #if you see this without seeing the post I made the other day #basically I was wrongly dropped from an online course #I don’t know if it’s a mistake or if the professor is just a dick #but I got dropped from the course and it’s a required credit for me #the main problem has to do with financial aid I was receiving #it only applied to this semester and we have been sternly informed that it will not carry over to the next semester #so if I have to take the class or an equivalent again #that could be a minor problem #I mean money isn’t an issue- but like- if I were someone else and it *was* #what the fuck then #are they just gonna say ‘tough luck’ like ??? c’mon dude #cuz I don’t want to take this course or this professor now- and I certainly won’t be doing it this semester #it was already a compressed course- 15 weeks down to 10 #and this is setting me back by at least one week- probably more like three #so I could very easily be failing with no chance of regaining footing if I get put back into the course #and that’s if I do amazing on all the work- which I realistically know I won’t and can’t #so I’m going to take a different course that satisfies the requirement next semester instead of this semester #but the problem there is that I’m almost certain that the financial aid won’t transfer #and that’s a huge pain in the ass and also entirely *wrong* #cuz like- what if I really did need that money? #and they dropped me from a course I need to graduate- without ever contacting me personally about dropping me from the course- after I had- #-already shown participation in said course #so like.. b r u h. #at the very least. they could’ve talked to me directly about what the issue was #cuz at this point I don’t even know what the problem is #anyways #I’m frustrated and tired

[strohller27]

.

#i’ve been working through some stuff in my head #and I’ve realised that so much of my life I’ve occupied the spaces in-between #like I acheived certain things in my life because I was literally the only one who stepped up #but it was also like. I wasn’t the first choice for something I was always just what was available #or I tried to carve out something for myself and it ended up either being taken away from me or getting ruined somehow #like when I was in the pipe band I became drum major because I was literally the only drummer (not that anyone really liked me… #i was just. the only choice there was until someone else came along). #or when I moved up the ladder at the tutoring service it was during Covid and I had to work so much harder because #we just didn’t have a full team. #or when I had to do my undergraduate thesis by myself because also covid #and now having to do my research project basically 100% by myself because my advisor ‘‘can’t’’ advise me #(​except he can apparently write me some exam questions next semester) #idk I just feel like the extra frozen water on the side of the ice cube tray of life #and now I’m in Canada and I’m trying to make a place for myself #I want this to work out. I want to be able to solidify the life that I want without having to live on the fucking edge #I’m tired of staying in my ‘lane’ when my ‘lane’ has always been ‘standing on the side to let others pass’ #Listen up queers I am allowed to take up space and I am occupying this part of the lane #if you don’t like it then you can make your own fucking lane #I’m just trying to make a life in this ridiculous precarious world I don’t want to have to play it safe anymore #I want to get into a PhD programme and study what I want to study #I want to meet someone I can trust with myself when I’m fragile and someone who trusts me with themself when they’re fragile #I want to live in a house I don’t have to worry about losing and make enough money to live comfortably #I want to stop merely surviving and start *living* #and I’m going to do everything in my power to achieve that

[polygondotcomvideoproducer]

Uni lecture is making me think about my future for a minute and auuuggghhhh the agonies

#personal #taking a brief break from it bc the feeling hasnt quite overwhelmed me yet but i dont think I'm going to be okay by the end of it! #its asking me to consider what my strengths are. what kind of role I'd like to have in the industry when i graduate #these are questions that i SHOULD certainly have answers to but they kind of just make me not wanna be alive yk? bc i have no answers #I'm not really good at much. like the things I'm best at I'm still completely unexceptional #what are my strengths? don't have any. next question #what job do i want to have in the industry? well that requires an answer to the first question doesn't it #not to mention it requires me to think about graduating and having a job and I've simply never imagined myself getting that far #and i can only give this so much of my attention span bc I'm also thinking about how hard i failed my modules from last semester #my best grade this year has been a c #one of them is a marginal fail meaning i do the reassessment this year (i think) #the other is a hard f. what does that mean? do i resit the entire course next year? maybe #and i can't look it up just yet bc i need to make it through the lecture bc I'm really far behind this other module already #and it's only week 3 and i have a presentation tomorrow #and if i stop watching it im not convinced I'll bring myself to start watching again! #so instead i was just sitting here trying not to get overwhelmed by all of the things i should be thinking about!!! #that's why I'm making the post tbh. just to organise my thoughts and get it out of my system and give myself time to breathe #and my phone keeps buzzing while i type and if it does that one more time i will launch us both out of the window I'm so fucking done #semester has barely begun and im so fucking overwhelmed already #I've joked about being the token nt mutual before but honestly the past few years I've just been getting gradually more convinced I'm not #this can't be how everyone else is experiencing life. surely #like dude I'm so out of fucking touch w the concept of being a human #so in summary: augh the agonies

[literatisongs]

a crooked pretty boy

#u know what. I'm gonna post it here cuz why not!! #I know it's crooked. it was a quick thing to try out some color palette on his face. and then I wanted to have fun with the background #why am I even saying this. whatever. I hate posting my art but I like this and its my pfp so!! fuck it!! #maybe I'll post some other stuff one day! cause I don't want this blog to die but I didn't think the extra Latin course would #take away ALL of my free time + adjusting to uni wasn't the easiest task alone anyway. BUT I'LL DO THIS!!! #I just KNOW that next semester will kill me with the music exams and I cannot fail the first three or I'll never go to the second year #jess mariano #my art <3 #gilmore girls #PS. I have read the requests and I'll try to do them i promise!! sorryyyyyy

[magentagalaxies]

low key tempted to email the professor of my standup class being like "hi jysk i just registered for [course number] and i'm very excited to take a class from you again!" and then use the rest of the email to infodump about kids in the hall and the buddy cole documentary lmao. using the trojan horse of being a joy to have in class as a way to spread kith propaganda

#love love love taking a class from a professor i've had before bc i don't have to worry about making a first impression lmao #i only have one class with a professor i don't already know next semester. all 3 comedy classes are professors who i've worked with #this standup class guy specifically was the professor when i did the bizarre powerpoint presentation about the history of kidz bop #and that's probably what he still associates me with bc he really enjoyed it even tho it was so fucking weird lmao #i really wish i had a video of my kidz bop powerpoint bc it was iconic. maybe i can rework it for standup class and video it then!!

[pallases]

hm.

#technically this is not irreparable. if i get a 70 on the next exam and an 80 on the final i will pass. BUT the likelihood of that happening #is so fucking low i don’t know what to do lmfao i have never in my life done this bad in a class. i cant keep running to the river to sob my #eyes out over fucking physics this is ridiculous. but also i really really REALLY don’t want to drop it if there’s even a chance of me #passing bc it’s a prereq for one of my classes next semester. and that class is 4 credits and we’re only allowed to take 3 credits alongside #our co op which is bullshit but what am i supposed to do abt it. so if i withdraw i’d need to push back my graduation when it’s already #fucking pushed back thanks to this being a five year program and i cannot afford to do that. el oh el #personal #the physics chronicles

[polaraffect]

planning classes has me going "hehehe *kicking my feet*" but i know as soon as i actually have to attend those classes my brain is going to be like "😐😐😐"

#damien.txt #having a revival of a very specific academic fascination bc my brain decided that rereading if we were villains is a good idea #which is like. one of the main driving forces behind my interest in history & english #and now im like................. hehe shakespeare #to be fair. the plan was always to take shakespeare next semester. the plan has been to take the shakespeare class since i started undergra #because quite literally i have been interested in shakespeare since i was 11 so. this is a long term interest #but now my brain is like hehe...... what if....... shakespeare ma #BITCH. where did this come from. hello???? #first of all. do you know how many shakespeare ma programs exist in the world? like 4. #second. brain what. where is this coming from #and now it's trying to convince me of stupid things like 'you should try and learn latin again' #in what WORLD have i ever enjoyed learning latin (<- i have literally studied latin 3 seperate times in my life) #the answer is never. i have never enjoyed it. and i have hardly retained any of it #but ohhhhh boy the urge.... The Urges.... #this specific mood always comes up whenever i get back into dark academia stuff again bc i am predictable and not unique #and i always get back into dark academia when it starts to get cold outside bc it's like something awakens within me #that goes 'oh right. we like academia. also the aesthetic hits' and i go FUCK. YOU'RE RIGHT. #but also here i am. writing this tumblr text post instead of doing my actual academics. so. it's all fake anyways #oh! but im very hype abt this shakespeare class actually #bc i think we might have a performance project.... which probably im going to dread when i actually have to do it #but <3<3<3<3<3 i love performing shakespeare so much. it's so much fun to me. #said like a true theater kid fr but. truly and honestly i miss doing that the most from theatre. and i didn't even really get to do it much #mostly just when i got to pick monologues out to do in class in between performances and stuff like that #so. i am a little bit hype. to do that. hopefully it is actually fun and not a complete drag #okay okay im done ranting

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i fear my love for art history will be corrupted by my italian renaissance class

#i've had this professor before and i love her lectures but. she's started assigning so. much. work #like if i didn't take this class this semester would be easy but now it's barely bearable #so i'm an auditory learner and that's great and all for lecture #but this professor keeps assigning 30-40 page readings regularly in the tiniest little font and we have to write a 3-5 page essay on it #the essay is easy but the reading. i just can't do it. i forget everything it's about by the next day #but we have to read at least one super-long chapter each week and on top of that i'm technically supposed to be going to art events #outside of class time. but i'm not an art major and i can't be on campus that late so i'm just going to take some Fs for that ig #and we have a group project that consists of a reading an essay a second essay a powerpoint another paper and we have to present #which that is happening this friday so yayyyyy (boooooo) #and then we have a really big paper/project to do that i'm probably supposed to be working on but i have not #ughhhhhhhhhh yes i'm complaining i'm allowed to do that it's good for me even. but still #i had the slightest feeling that i should've dropped out a couple weeks in and i should have listened this class is a nightmare #and i actually love art history. i love the subject so so much. and i memorize things that i'm told. i could literally repeat her lectures #but the fucking textbook makes everything awful #i feel bad for my partner for the group assignment bc she's so on top of shit and i'm behind #though i kinda lucked out w my partner. she's like in her 40s or 50s and she looks at me like i'm a lost puppy and that is great for #working together ngl. it means that she's sympathetic and thinks she has to take the lead #usually i take the lead w group projects bc i'm that kind of person but i'm busy so i will let her be in charge #ok done complaining if u see me on here yell at me about my project

[maddy-ferguson]

i spent two hours (two hours) with my "friends" from school today and i'm MISERABLE roman voice you need to stop this (@ me)

#and like i say: brf slt #forgot to say we were literally sitting down. in class. taking notes. like there's genuinely no reason for THAT to make me feel this bad! #i'm not even bad at talking to people i never talk to again in class or only hang out with in school not having real friends doesn't bother #me because i have friends outside of school but it's my third year so everyone already has established groups of friends and it's :/ like #on monday in my first class of the year the girl sitting next to me was very nice we talked and we have more classes in common like apart #from the big ones where everyone's here the ones where it's only maybe 30 people. so i'm like that's fun i hope i see her again and i did #but she's friends with the bigger group of friends my friends who don't actually like me are friends with like my non friend's boyfriend's #friends so THEIR friends. like what are the odds. i guess not that crazy because there's only maybe 200 of us or 150 i have no idea #but still #but anyway #today we have one of these classes where it's not everyone but it was like another group of students so it was #me. this girl i've been hanging out with for two years who i didn't want to keep hanging out with at the end of the year because of the way #she reacted to something i did that was like an honest mistake she took it wayyy too seriously and said some things i didn't like i was #like girl fuck you😭 except then they kept the exact same groups AND I DIDN'T HAVE ANYONE ELSE and it was four months later so i actually #sat next to her and we were together for projects and things like that like my bad. that's on me. #and on her first day last year she met a girl who wasn't in our university the year before and they became bffs basically so it was them + #me. and i like the second girl better i think but she's insanely judgey like not to be like i'm so much better than her but i grew out of #the criticizing everyone 24/7 because it's genuinely a fun activity for me and i enjoy it mindset when i left middle school because the one #friend who liked it as much as me went to a different high school and i stopped seeing her every day. i made a post saying this in january #then during the second semester we became friends with another person i don't wanna explain how. we worked on a thing together for class #basically. them i genuinely like even though i don't think we would actually hang out out of school and have that many things to say to #each other. but they're more friends with girl 1 and girl 2 than they are with me because well i'm not comfortable with them so i talk less #than i would if i was comfortable. and there's also person 3's partner we have a few classes with who's cool but same as person 3 with the #being closer to girl 1 and girl 2 even though they're not even that close. but like. yeah idk #they just (girl 1 and girl 2) make me feel like i'm the weird kid in middle school and that wasn't even my middle school experience i'm #gonna let that happen to me NOW AT 22 YEARS OF AGE? #but last year it was like fine actually it's crazy how one class two hours made me rethink it all #but it's also awkward because like am i just gonna go sit all by myself because i don't wanna hang out with them. especially because we #still have a group thing we're gonna have to do until the end of the year that we started last year and it's not like i'd wanna switch #groups because they're a good group to work with. like they actually do the work. and i guess we only have two classes where it's. tag limi

[weaselishmcdiesel]

RRAR

#guess whos unlucky ass got classes with the single person from this semester who i didnt like. again. for next semester #not a bad person. not a bad person no not at all. in fact they are very kind and friendly and inclusive. #i. do not like being included. in fact i like when people respect that i like being left alone. i love when people respect that #THIS ONE DOES NOT RESPECT THAT #remember that post i made? about how being a fujoshi is a bad thing? i made that post. because this person. used that term. at me. #i am. a gay PERON. yes i STILL LOOK VERY FEMALE YES I GET THAT NO I DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN WHY IM NOT A FUJOSHI OR EVEN A WOMAN #nearly every time this person interacts with me (none of them initiated by yours truly) something fucking uncomfortable happens. #and i know. i know in my heart of hearts. that theyre trying their best. but i get so tired of overly nice people i know thats my own issue #another thing i hate is fake compliments. i really hate them. i never give shallow compliments to peoples work like a LOOKS GOOD not even #i ALWAYS take the time to consume the work and think about it before i give MEANINGFUL compliments. always #many MANY TIMES this person has like passed by my computer or whatever and WITHIN SECONDS said ‟woah that looks really good!‟ #wh. n. you #you looked at it for nary a minute. id rather you said nothing at all #again. i KNOW im being dramatic you should know that i know this. i know theyre being polite and im being a baby #but. another. fucking semester. with this person #i really fucking cant #i was looking forward to the next semester because there would be new people since i didnt vibe with my class from this semester #lo and FUCKING behold. the worst person from this semester is going to be my classmate AGAIN #fuck fuck fuck i am so whiny i know i know i know i am. but FUCK dude college is stressful enough. #(... it helps that their art... doesnt look good aksjdhf but you didnt hear me say that) #weasel speaks #asks!

[girlwithfish]

i only had two friends in hs and thats a lot but it was for under two yrs and then i talked to no one for the restof hs after i moved. i dont understand people who can be in big friend groups it seems a little exhausting but nice if theres no drama and such. i think id like a small friend group but i made no friends at college 😭 i also barely had friends in middle school. i think its just been hard for me to make friends in general and maybe that makes me a loser but im pretty content w isolating myself as an adult and adult friendships are harder to find. i could have tried harder at the hs i finished hs at but i spent 3-4 yr just being alone and listening to music and going to class and talking to no one

#i talked to one person in passing at my hs graduation when everyone was taking photos w huge groups of friends. i guess i just dont under #understand how that stuff works how do people function in huge groups and maintain an identity and value in a big group i feel id get lost #and be ignored #this isnt meant to be edgy i just am pondering. im also not going to my college graduation i really hate big organized events out of anxiet #anxiety #ik my parents will want me to but i dont see a point. im proud im finishing college soon hopefully if i dont fuck up my last semesters but #i had such a bad experience at my hs graduation not to still b annoyed but i spent over an hr looking for my family at the venue after #outside in like june heat and my whole family left besides my mom and i had no phone #bc my dress didnt have pockets so my mom had my phone and #i had to keep asking to use strangers phones to try to call my mom and i was very anxious shed be mad at me or annoyed #and idk #i have an aversion to graduations nd organized events in general. i will be relieved to just rest in the spring after #its all over and my bday is a week after my final semester ends #i hope i cN do something fun nd that i want to do next yr if i make it to my bday. i really want to go to the zoo or go on a small trip #somewhere or just do something i dont normally do like a small outing or go to a nice restaurant w just me n my bf or go to an exhibit or #idk

[rubberbandballqueen]

that one post from like 2013 that's like, "how come people of the opposite gender take shirts off differently" and came to the conclusion that it has to do with the way the shirts are cut that makes different shirt removal methods more efficient changed my life. every time i have to take off a top, i think to myself, "was this piece of clothing designed with a man or a woman in mind?" and proceed to remove it in the optimum manner

#the worm speaks #i have also elected to be unmedicated On Purpose today bc uhhhhh my dad caught plague so i'm taking the next few days off work #even tho i n my mother are Clean just to be safe and like #i finished the last of my assignments for the semester so i am FREE OF OBLIGATIONS FOR REAL UNTIL SATURDAY???????? #BRO I HAVEN'T HAD DAYS COMPLETELY OFF LIKE THIS IN FUCKING MONTHS IT'S BEEN EITHER SCHOOL OR WORK ALL THE TIME AAAAA #so it's like. i'm finally free to be an irresponsible creature of capricious whimsy for At Least one whole day again!!!!!!