#and that she literally told him that he has to value his own life instead of prioritizing self-sacrifice for loved ones' sakes. or somethin | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

huiyi07 · 8 months

Text

GENSHIN MANGA SPOILERS! but honestly if you haven’t read it by now it’s your fault alone

So why did Kaeya initially try to hurt Collei?

The obvious answer- he was trying to defend Mondstadt, Collei was a very suspicious figure at the time, and he knew that being aggressive towards her would probably draw out her hidden powers and reveal herself as the culprit of the Black Fire incident.

But there’s more to it than that.

Kaeya canonically loves, LOVES kids. He adores them- there’s lots of times in the game where he talks about how precious childhood is and how he wants to protect the purity of childhood dreams for as long as possible before kids have to grow up and face the real world (kinda similar to Childe). In 3.8, it shows how he is literally willing to do anything to protect a child- Klee, when he literally throws aside his own sibling issues in order to shield Klee from being exposed to the same thing and scolds a couple of bickering brothers for upsetting her.

Additionally, there’s his whole thing with Mika and how he’s basically a big brother figure to the entirety of Mondstadt’s population under 17. The highly implied bond between Bennett, Razor, Fischl and him, even.

Anyway this whole aspect of his character obviously stems from his own childhood and how tainted it was by his hidden identity, so like he probably doesn’t want any other kids to have to go through such hardship especially while they’re still young.

So if he loves kids so much, and wants to protect them so badly, why did he not hesitate to become a full blown villain against Collei, literally wounding an innocent 12-year old girl?

Because he sees himself in her.

Collei hates herself (or at least she used to LOL). She hates the burden (her powers) that was forced upon her from a young age, and those powers inevitably label her as a bad person, one who can harness evil powers to kill And hurt and whatever. It makes her feel like she has no real control over herself, and that she has no self-identity- she doesn’t think of herself as a regular person, instead a monster. And she hates, hates, hates herself for it, but she shoves all of it down under a mask.

Sound familiar to a certain cavalry captain?

That’s why Kaeya didnt hesitate to Go after her. He knows her too well, knows that she’s hiding her true identity under a well-crafted face, that there’s something evil and dark in her- because that’s exactly who he was as a kid.

But then this panel happens.

Collei, evidently so tired of living such a torn life, gives up and offers her life to Kaeya just so that the torment can end, which stops Kaeya in his tracks, because that’s when she reminds him off himself just a little too much.

Kaeya, so caught up in her uncontrollable evil, forgets that she’s just a child, one who never should’ve been forced to deal with such a thing, and certainly not want to die because of it.

That’s exactly what happens internally to him, as well. Over the years, Kaeya internalized being a traitor so much, that often he convinces himself that he’s truly not a good person. Yes, he acknowledges that it’s really not his fault, but that still gets lost and it shows through when Kaeya shows us how willing he is to get himself harmed- because of his self hatred, he places so little value in his own wellbeing and his own life, because he thinks that all harm that comes to him is deserved and that it’s better off if he’s dead anyway so that he doesn’t have to deal with being torn apart every day.

No I’m not making this up, it’s in how he literally covers for Diluc all the time and risks himself in the process, and how Adelinde told us about that one time Kaeya literally took Diluc’s punishment for himself when they snuck into the wine cellars. There’s lots of times, even throughout in the game where Kaeya tries to convince us he’s not a good person- he quite literally says that, at some point.

Only when Collei shows that she’s in the exact same position does Kaeya realize what he’s doing and stops himself. Only then does he remember how painful and hard it really is, and he ends up helping to save Collei and removing her powers, because that’s one burden he can help take off, unlike his own.

Idk man for me the Kaeya vs Collei fight (I like to call it the chapter where collei gave us the hottest panel of Kaeya choking ever) told a story about Kaeya’s internalizations, too, and his own-self hatred and how deep it really goes. BRB CRYING

#kaeya #genshin impact #kaeya alberich #kaeya genshin impact #ragbros #khaenri'ah #gi #I’m going to Kermit #diluc genshin impact #diluc #collei #also idk the fact he says - I’ll rip that deceptive mask right BACK off you??#as if he also has his own??#like I’m dead

607 notes · View notes

hyperfixatedfandomer · 8 months

Text

Been seeing some Neytiri defender takes flying around recently and the sentiment I don’t get is the way people will outright ignore a factor called the passage of time.

One specific person said that the reason Neytiri accepted Jake is because she personally taught him the Na’vi values and watched him change. Do I agree with that? Yes! Totally! What I don’t get is why the fact that Spider is literally adopted by her four kids and learned the Na’vi culture since diapers gets so often ignored. The post I’m referencing went a completely left direction afterwards so it doesn’t seem like they really get the line of Spider defender thinking here.

Neytiri doesn’t need to teach Spider, because he has already learned all there is to be about living by Eywa’s teachings as far as we were told, that is kind of his whole schtick. Even Jake mentions that in some ways Spider is more Na’vi than he’ll ever be, as he got naturally integrated into the culture by his siblings from a very young age and was never influenced by different views. He literally sees the world the way Na’vi do, and although it’s subtle (since we don’t get to see Spider preach about it how Neytiri did in A1), we can see it in the way he gets terrified when the barrel of a gun is pointed to Tau’nui Tsahik’s head, or the way he screams his lungs out when an innocent ilu is murdered, or the way he sheds tears for a mother tulkun, and how put off he is by the fact that so much of her meat is wasted instead of being put to good use. (which is a core Na’vi belief by the way, a belief that nothing should be wasted. A belief that there can be no empty kill.)

The reason Spider defenders (myself included) get mad at her is because he spent his entire life on Pandora, only ever participated in the Na’vi culture (since humans couldn’t give less of a shit and the kids just kinda took him in), yet despite it being 15 years after the catastrophe, she can’t muster enough sympathy to let him be.

No one is asking her to sweep the boy off his feet and carry him into the sunset, but after one and a half decade she had got to at least come to an understanding with him.

I do believe that Spider has a special responsibility as the descendant of a war criminal, and that is to honour the fallen of who he considers as his people, and live his life among Na’vi in a way that pays said fallen respect, which he does through fierce loyalty, taking traditions as seriously as he can without a neural whip and gathering all knowledge he can on the flora/fauna, which seems to be his special interest. What he isn’t responsible for, is making himself small or invisible because a full-grown adult can’t cope with their trauma. NOT MOVE ON OR GET OVER IT, but at least cope with it to a level where she can handle the idea of Spider staying permanently and not be on edge whenever he’s around. She is 35, she should be able to separate Spider from his ancestry, see him as his own person and judge him based off of his actions and his actions only. All she did in the comics so far was blow things out of proportion and blame him for everything because blood-thirst in humans is genetic apparently. 😐

She could accept Jake, who wasn’t Na’vi until 22, while the kid has been around for a whole 15 years yet when his shitty, neglected foster guardian tries forcing him to go back to Earth she thinks it totally logical for Spider to disappear into a completely alien (to him) world, with values that he could never in his life align with.

She is in the wrong. She is flawed for it. But, as that referenced post mentioned she is going to develop as the movies go, and I hope she will. Subsequently, I how we get to see Spider interact with the culture more because so far, as I said, it has been extremely subtle, which led many viewers to believe that the either doesn’t care or doesn’t know about them.

236 notes · View notes

heliphantie · 2 months

Text

Song for little sister. Canción para hermanita.

Little headcanon/speculation for the Mirabirthday:

In the first minutes of the movie, we see Mirababy-turning-five in the nursery, getting told the story of the miracle, presumably for the first time in her life. She also gets to see and learning of the magic candle. While it’s a part of initiation for the gift receiving, it’s staged as if she gets introduced to the whole deal only now. Seemingly the magic was regarded as regular part of her family’s life up to that moment, until she learns of origin and value of it. The candle, meanwhile, is always at full display, reminding everyone of the significance of miracle and the cost of it. We also get a view of interior of nursery, the walls adorned with Mirabel’s drawings of her family members and herself as sort of fairy being, as anticipation of her own upcoming magical power. There are almost all family members depicted – Abuela, Mira’s parents, sisters, aunt, cousin, save for Félix and Camilo and, most poignant, Bruno. Well, maybe, Mira wasn’t too close to her peer cousin (boys and girls aren’t always getting along in that age, after all), and I have no ready explanation for Félix (but wait for it), and absence of Bruno just further confirms that Mira is not only having no memories of her uncle while coming of age, she didn’t even acknowledge his presence when he was around. Where I’m going with all of that? I'm getting closer to the point.

Mirabel’s eye condition, requiring the glasses to wear, is a myopia (it was confirmed by Jared Bush in the Q&A online session) she appears to share with her father. Now, regarding if the village even has practicing optometrist to identify condition this early in life, it could have been some time until it became apparent for the people to notice, along with the little kid obtaining verbosity to descript it herself. We don’t see anything before the birthday, so may it be it was detected only recently, and she’s got the glasses shortly before the events of the movie? (Also, I presume, near-sightedness is a metaphor for Mirabel, being too focused on her own worth inside of family, lacking ability to see the struggles other family members undergo with the burden of miracle, and, eventually, the issue on the larger scope, and, due her short temper and go-get attitude, missing proverbial foresight. In this regard, she even serves as dualist to Bruno for the most of the story, despite both having similar concerns for others. But this is the subject for different topic I eventually want to address. Agustín also doesn’t appear to be particularly observant about other’s feelings, or at least, able to read the room, though in his case, it may be general absent-mindedness and/or social awkwardness.)

For the reason (people sometimes picking on) why her mother not appearing to cure it for her, while “official” answer given was her not seeing eye condition as serious defect but instead a part of charm, it’s very wholesome and humanitarian explanation, but I’m going with different theory: Julieta’s ability doesn’t expand beyond inflicted injuries and diseases, she can’t fix conditions that are woven into one’s DNA and run in generations. Or maybe her powers are only helping people with increasing their own immunity and the speed of regeneration from the harm, so it doesn’t work with congenital defects either.

My assumption is, it’s even possible, the glasses were in fact a present for Mirabel for her fifth birthday, with “Abre los ojos” line referring not just to the event of getting introduced to the family’s legacy and upcoming duty to carry it, but to the simultaneous event of obtaining ability of clear sight (both literal and figurative). And for the referred above absence of imagery of Bruno in Mira’s drawings, it’s because, while she might be aware of his existence, she just didn’t have the opportunity to get clear look of him, due his general disengagement in gatherings and the growing distance from the rest of family (it also may be, as Mirabel herself, he used to avoid being caught on the camera for his own reasons – seeing himself not worthy or dismissive of his own image, so no definitive portraits of him in the house, adult ones at least). That, and her being too short to reach to that family tree picture in the dinner room.

One thing that detracts my reasoning is, on that fairy self-portrait Mira depicts herself with glasses too, but maybe, she was aware of getting them for present this day and had drawn the picture in advance while anticipating the fateful event. There are always some loophole to maintain integrity of headcanons, you see:D

#encanto #encanto fanart #disney fanart #dolores madrigal #isabela madrigal #luisa madrigal #mirabel madrigal #la familia madrigal #madrigal family #encanto headcanon #encanto hc #encanto phantie fanon #phantie ramblings #phantieart

39 notes · View notes

galaxythreads · 1 year

Text

i think the big difference between Loki and Wanda to me personally is that no one tries to excuse Loki's actions in MCU. When Loki attacked new york, he was sent to prison. When Loki attacked Jotunheim, Thor tried to stop him and told him it was insane. No one around Loki was being like "bro, it's fine that you tried to invade a planet!!" or "attacking Jotunheim was fine just this one time because you were sad :( " Like Loki attacking Jotunheim was bad. Loki attacking New York was bad and no one tries to say otherwise. (And the thing about New York is that there were extenuating circumstances. Loki was being threatened by the Other and Thanos. The Other hurts loki on screen. Like we know that there will be consequences for Loki if he stops attacking New York and MCU has confirmed that he was under the influence of the scepter by some degree.)

With Wanda things are just...different, and I miss the way that she used to be. Wanda in AoU was a stupid kid who made a stupid choice to get experimented on with her brother because they were angry. They joined a terrorist organization because they thought it was the best way to get back at Tony for inadvertently killing their parents. They were stupid kids. But the thing that a lot of people overlook when they have the "why did they join hydra" question is that that is the point of their arc in AoU. They wanted mass annihilation, so they join hydra, then Ultron, who says they can promise that. But when Wanda sees what that looks like and she sees what Ultron can do AND what the mass destruction would look like, she AND Pietro realize that isn't what they want. Both of them had ALREADY made the stupid choice and they spent the rest of AoU trying to fix it and do better. When Wanda gets up in that building and walks out those doors, she has decided then protecting life is more important than personal vendettas or revenge. And that's what made her a hero. Not that she had glowy hands, but that Wanda decided then that she wanted to use her gifts to help people. Civil War does a good job of carrying this arc forward, especially when we see how much accidentally killing eleven people affected her. After AoU, Wanda values life.

But then WandaVision happens and...wanda is holding an entire town captive, and everyone in the narrative on the "good side" is trying to excuse what she's doing. "She's upset!" "It's okay that she held this town captive this one time because she was having an emotional breakdown and we can let it go :(" or "they won't understand your pain" and it makes me frustrated because Wanda did a horrible thing and she never has to face the consequences for that. She doesn't try to make amends with the town, she doesn't promise to do better. She doesn't go to prison, or get held accountable.

SHE LITERALLY BRAINWASHES AGATHA AND NO ONE -- NOT ONE -- SAYS HANG ON.

Instead, she takes the dark hold and floats away because everything Wanda did was explained away by grief. And like. Loki is not the same. His actions were never excused by people around him, but he actively tries to do better from TDW on. He helps rescue Jane and protects Thor. He takes care of Asgard, he and Thor move to repair their relationship. Loki puts Asgard's safety first over his own by coming to help Thor with Hela. Loki dies for Thor. He may not verbally accept responsibility for what happened, but his actions show that he did and he's trying to do better.

After the end of WandaVision, Wanda doesn't. She doesn't care about life anymore, it's an inconvenience to her at best. You cannot look me in the eye and say that Wanda in Infinity War would be hunting down a child across the multi-verse to murder her in cold blood.

In MoM, Wanda is actively killing everyone and anyone and she is completely aware of what she's doing. Like people claim corruption by the dark hold, but like...corruption by the darkhold is not explained. If I'm remembering right, Agatha was also corrupted, but she was the only person who was trying to force Wanda to let the town go, even if she did kill the dog. Agatha was trying to help. She didn't really get turned evil, just morally dubious. So arguably the same should be said of Wanda, right? That Wanda's core was still there and these were things she would have done anyway, the dark hold just pushed her over the edge. Wanda is trying to kill a kid.

And i am ALSO aware that this is just poor writing on MoM's part -- because MoM sucks -- but I'm still frustrated because I miss Wanda. I understand that she was grieving, but I still wish that someone would hold her accountable. Killing someone off (even though I still doubt she's dead) is not a redemption arc. You don't get to do one good thing before you die and it erases everything that came before.

And I am still mad that the narrative tried to justify Wanda holding a town hostage for two weeks. Bud. She may be an Avenger, but that doesn't stop her from being capable of doing some really crappy stuff.

Loki was held accountable.

Wanda wasn't.

#loki #wanda #anti multiverse of madness #anti wandavision #i miss wanda so much #she was my baby #literally she was the only reason i kept watching phase 4 and now i'm like #um #wanda meta #loki meta #and honestly i am feeling that this post is going to get ripped apart so #here we go i guess

229 notes · View notes

sea-salted-wolverine · 6 months

Text

The House of Usher and the cardinal virtues

I thought to myself it's no good to whine about slotting characters into boring reductive categories without a good rebutal, so here's a dose of slightly more interesting archetypes.

Prospero reflects the cardinal virtue of Diligence and its mirror the sin of Sloth ("But he has an orgy so it has to be lust," by god you're so boring) He is the only Usher who tries to make anything of value. When Camille goes on her little spiel about how Ushers don't make stuff, she's not wrong. Perry got pretty ruthlessly shot down when he was presenting his ideas for trying to make value and start a night club chain, rather than just taking credit for someone else's work like all of his siblings and his dad. But he was at least trying. His drive to prove himself and gain respect is how he gets himself into the whole mess. However, it is the act of not doing his due diligence that kills him.

Camille has an interesting one because while breaking into a lab facility to expose mistreatment of animals would seem like the cardinal virtue of kindness, she's only there to get one over on her sister. The inverse of Kindness is Envy, and for as important as her role is as the family spin doctor, Camille is valued the least. Everyone suspects Perry when they hear about an informant, but that's because he's an idiot baby. Victurine is useful with her heart mesh implant, Napoleon took the role of the "chill fun sibling", and the other two are original Ushers, so Camille is left as the unfavored child.

Napoleon tried to buy his way out of his problem with Charity. He could have come home with a different cat entirely and told his boyfriend he was looking in shelters for Pluto and accidentally fell in love. Name it Mars, let the boyfriend chalk it up to a weird grief response. Bummer Pluto never came home. Verna would have had him trip over the thing on the stairs in the middle of the night and that would have been that. Instead, everything was transactional as he maximized what he could get out of his relationships for the least amount of effort. The boyfriend can live with him, the boyfriends cat can move in too, but as soon as that becomes even the slightest bit more effort (like when boyfriend wants to meet the family, or curb the drug use, or the cat brings home a dead thing) Napoleon wants it gone from his life.

Victurine likewise could have had a painless clean death had she mustered up the Humility to say that the device didn't work. Her demise, unlike her younger siblings, was a compilation of smaller shitty decisions and white lies. She could even recognize that each choice was morally wrong, but it was little choices that were easier to brush off. A dead monkey, a foraged signature, a rightfully concerned patient reassured with platitudes. Even before she was scrubbing blood off the floor to Bonnie Tyler, her inability to admit her choices were flawed was getting her in trouble.

Tamralane with her perfectly manicured curated life, is the one to take Temperance to its furthest extreme. I think it was Atwood who wrote about women and the internal voyeur to preform for, but I'm not going to Google it for a post about horror characters losing their minds and dying horribly. She lives under a personal panopticon of her own expectations and can never allow herself to experience her own life lest she fall short. Her wealth rather than mitigating this exacerbates the issue, giving her access to any and every distance she could possibly want. Death by mirrors isn't so much her going insane as it is the culmination of the life shes built for herself.

(Plus, I know her lonely evening was meant to be ~spooky~ but babe, that is literally just ADHD. Can't remember where you put the thing? Can't remember doing the thing? CAN'T SLEEP?! DOES EVERYONE HATE YOU AND THINK YOU'RE AN INSANE BITCH FOR PERFECTLY VALID REASONS?! Looks like Adderall for you).

Fraudrick. You dickwad. No Patience to allow your very injured and traumatized wife explain herself. The inverse of Patience is Wrath. Demonstrated that one in spades. I'm on Verna's side on this one. Pliers, really?

(His wife's name is fucking Mori. As in momento mori.)

Which leaves Madeline and Rodrick. What's a Gothic horror story without some really fucking weird and unsettling sibling dynamic? Dull, that's what. Anyway, never letting anything touch them or impede them in their lust for power and wealth offers a strange sort of Chastity. There's no love, not for the kids or Annabelle Lee that could touch them, no moral they wouldn't overturn, no value they wouldn't abandon. Madeline values her freedom above all else but she spent her life bound to her brother. They wouldn't even spare each other in ruthless pursuit of just a little more power.

So yeah, bummer for August Dupain that he wound up against the most supernaturally fucked up family that ever lived.

#the fall of the house of usher #Analysis #gothic horror #Poe adaptations #Cardinal virtues #Deadly sins

39 notes · View notes

hualian-blessing · 2 years

Text

tw// grooming allegations

about the dream allegations? im sorry but i cant fully believe amanduh's case because she has so many holes in her story to the point that she's also destroying her own case as well. i had a talk with my friend who was groomed for years and they told me what a victim usually acted when sharing their story.

i cant say if the victims should act like that all the time when exposing someone for grooming but it was really sus that she wasn't, uh how should i say this, emotional i guess???

(edit: i phrased that so bad but what im trying to say is that everyone has a different reactions to grooming but from amanduh's video, (i showed it to my friend after so that they'll the one who will judge her instead of me) both my friend and i noticed how she doesn't really put her heart into it in a sense? it's along that line technically but still not all victims have the same reaction as my friend.)

other than that, a lot of people were pointing out how the math ain't mathing with the story.

first, she said that she was turning 18 when dream texted her and allegedly started sexting her but in one of her tweets, she said that she just turned 17 last year. which is really confusing and downright idiotic if she lied about her age.

second, she said that she was with her boyfriend during the years 2020 to 2021 thus she stopped texting dream at that time range. but here's what confused me, she herself said that her and her boyfriend met at april 2022 tho??? someone might ask "but bella, this boyfriend might be the different one!!!" no, she didn't have an ex. she could have explicitly said "ex", "ex boyfriend" or "current boyfriend at that time" and her boyfriend confirmed that he was already with her when the dream situation happened.

third, she was still following dream up until today when people noticed that she made that post but still kept up to date with his life happenings in twitter. in fact, she was defending and liking posts about dream's face reveal no less than a week and few days ago. if she was a victim of his grooming, shouldn't she unfollowed and blocked him in all of his social media platforms??? make it make sense. (photos aren't mine, i forgot who the user is because of the sheer idiocy i witnessed).

fourth, she tried to get keemstar of all people to cover her case instead of going to literal lawyers if she wanted everyone to hear her and the "victims" voices. if she really want to make a credible case, she should hold her cards close to her chest instead of showcasing the evidences in the internet before she could even take legal actions against dream. it's literally the best and most logical action she could have done instead of this.

fifth, she already has a record of being...weird online?? like this photo for example is literally just crazy for me to read...i literally can't take face value if she's like this.

i also saw people how the first girl before amanduh already admitted that her claims were fake and i wont be surprised if this one is fake as well. look im not a die hard fan or a stan of dream but i do watch his content and my friend (from earlier) does so as well, and they're downright pissed at this situation because these girls might have destroyed the chances for actual victims of grooming to speak up about their own situations. all for what? clout? it disgusted me and my friend to see people using this serious matter for something so cruel and malicious. i used to believe on the "believe the victim first and foremost" but after the amber heard case and then this, i would be more on "listen and criticize if the victim's claims are true".

to the girls who made these claims and proven to be false, i hope you have a fun time in hell after all of this.

but if it was ever proven that dream literally did it, then i'll retract my statement and remove myself from the internet to reflect.

either way, only time will tell and i hope everything clears up.

edit: no way is amanda fr rn. cuz holy fuck the story is so messy right now, first with avril then anna. and i saw accounts saying amanda did the same thing to sapnap, bad, skeppy and boomer before and im like wtf is going on???

#mcyt #dsmp #dream allegations #dreamwastaken #dream #mcyttwt #allegations #you can tell how ridiculous all of this is

323 notes · View notes

aeirithgainsborough · 1 year

Text

‘do you want ellie to just be a prop for joel’s story’ you say, as though she isn’t treated as literally that in tlou2, the game ur defending lmao. ellie is nothing BUT a prop in that narrative. a prop for abby’s story which neil was so desperate to tell but knew not as many ppl would buy if joel and ellie weren’t there so he shoved them in without care or regard for their journey in part 1 or their development. a prop for neil’s torture porn narrative he was determined to do at the detriment of ellie’s character and development, her choices are used not in service of her arc/growth or bcus they’re in the best interest of her and who she is, but to increase her/our suffering and for shock value. her not speaking to joel for 2 years isn’t some great character choice for ellie ‘id be more scared without you’ williams, it’s to make her torment and regret when he dies worse that is literally why he dies the day after they agree to try instead of being given time to get their relationship in a better place before he dies. ellie ‘im scared to end up alone’ williams leaving dina and jj to carry on her absurd revenge plot isn’t a choice in the interest of giving her the character arc she deserves, it’s a choice designed to literally leave her broken and alone with nothing so the revenge bad message can be ham fisted at us as though we wouldn’t have known if they hadn’t told us lol. ellie has no arc. she has no development. the game isn’t about her immunity which was so important to her, it barely mentions it, ironic bcus that’s what she’s so mad at joel about and then it’s so irrelevant to the plot, hence why I’ve always said it would have made more sense for her anger to be about him lying but they never make her bring that up when it was a far bigger betrayal. it’s not about her realising her life always mattered. she doesn’t grow whatsoever from the trauma based martyrdom mindset she has in part 1. she’s the same at 19 as she was at 14. she’s stagnant. and that’s literally bcus she’s nothing more than a fucking prop in a story that let the plot lead the characters instead of the characters leading the plot like what arc is there to defend here? the whole game even has this running theme that ellie is on this rampage cus she’s a mirror of joel he taught her anger and violence (which is wrong! but that’s another post) and now look at her she’s just like him! the narrative doesn’t even let her be a fully realised person she’s just what joel’s *made her* even after his death but sure she’s not just a prop and she gets her own arc in part 2 lmao give me a fucking break.

#y’all send me #tlou2 #anti tlou2 #ellie williams #also she has her *own* arc in p1 sorry that u missed it but it’s there idk what to tell u #and again i 100% think ellie was right to be mad at joel for continuing to lie to her #she never should have had to go and find the truth on her own #but they way they handled it and explored it wasn’t in ellie’s interest #it was only in the interest of making the game as miserable and bleak for us and for ellie as it fucking could be #ok bye #the last of us spoilers #some of u are so easily manipulated it’s scary

79 notes · View notes

bunglegaydogs · 10 months

Note

Hiiii I'm just sending an ask because they're all different posts (read : I'm lazy) so please don't mind me lol

First and foremost, YOU ARE AMAZING AT EXPRESSING YOUR THOUGHTS AND YOUR ESSAYS ARE ALWAYS SO NUANCED?? SO YOU SAYING THAT WAS A HUGE COMPLIMENT OMG- I love reading your bsd essays so much and it's just now that I realised that they're all your essays abaammw some of the best in the fandom really. I'm always baffled when in the middle of an essay you go "I may not be articulating my thoughts right" or "this is kind of just put together" because girl you're amazing! Never stop writing these please ajajahsbw ALSO! Hearing your little thoughts and feelings pop up in the middle of an essay makes it so endearing to me. Like, that's a whole ass person writing these many words just to express how much they like this show and they're so adorable! (So sorry if that's offensive idk if calling someone adorable is)

Also, completely unrelated lol but this is exactly why I prefer to ask people questions instead of googling! Knowing that the person explaining is a human has their own opinions and hearing their feelings and experiences is so much more better and relatable than reading stuff off a Google website. Also your pfp is the cutest everyone has cute pfps nowadays 😭 anyways yes cute pfp :D

Actually getting to the point now:

1) yes yes Oda and Dazai's relationship is so dear to me I love them sm and I adore seeing Atsushi all caring for his mentor 😭 he's basically Dazai's emotional support cat!! Dazai let the boy in please I'm begging you he can purr probably and it would melt away your stress pls pls (Maybe everyone in the ADA sees Atsushi as their emotional support cat...)

2) Mori is a piece a shit, and you should be allowed to say it. I'm never biased in my writing but I loathe that guy with my very being and the whole people who like Mori thing really got me reconsidering...was *I* the bad guy for not liking a character when I actively liked a character very similar to him? Then I realised, I completely respect and treat equally all the people who don't like/hate Dazai. I don't treat them any different just because they don't like a character. And that's what I should expect too!

There's no post defending Dazai, and yet I still like him because I accept his wrongdoings and want him to keep getting better, like Oda told him to. Yknow, the argument would be MUCH different if Dazai was a woman and not a man, imagine bashing someone for liking a teen girl and not liking the guy who groomed her to be his heir. Yeah, really puts things into perspective. I'm not sexist, I treat (respectful) men and women equally, but Mori is just. No.

3) I haven't see it before in any canon source material but I feel like it's definitely true. It's clear that Dazai WANTS to want to keep living, but he can't bring himself to want it because of all the pain he's endured. He literally said in dark era that the reason he joined the mafia was to try and seek meaning in life by being close to death and violence. It's ironic, Dazai feels the most alive when he's about to LOSE that privilege. It could also mean that Dazai only realises the "value" in living when he's about to lose it. Perhaps he thinks of things he could've done, things he'll regret, and that helps him to stop before he actually does it. But in my opinion? I don't think he finds anything of worth in that time. He just convinces himself that he does. This is a personal hc but it's probably likely to be the case.

If you've listened to the song My R, you'll know exactly what I'm talking about.(totally recommend btw!).The girl in the song speaks to herself about her woes and the 'other' version of her comforts her telling her about all the things that she DOES have, but by the end of the song, she has lost everything of meaning and she can't comfort the "girl". It is only revealed that the girls she comforted are different versions of HERSELF that she stopped from jumping.

Anyways, in conclusion, SOMEBODY PLEASE GIVE THIS BOY A HUG HE DESERVES IT

oh my god oh my god oh my god

i am sat here on the verge of TEARS in my goddamn chuuya cosplay

okay okay give me a second i need to collect myself

you are singlehandedly the SWEETEST person ever im sobbing

literally i cant- thank you so fucking much! you dont understand how much this all means to me WOWOWOWOW <33333333

literally, my brain doesnt let me consume my content positively and so i always think that theyre quite bad or that im the only person who thinks that or that im saying all the wrong things lol

i have so many words and thoughts floating around in my little brain that i just cant find the words for, so thats honestly what those rants are, my delusional 4am thought processes when i deep things too much

and YOU THINK??? genuinely, thank you!!! i love reading people's essays and thoughts, so hearing you say that genuinely just warms my absolute heart <3

and yes yes i do get quite sidetracked very often and start just rambling and adding my own personal twists- genuinely i thought that was annoying for people to read, but you're just putting a big smile on my face right now :) and PLS DONT THINK CALLING ME ADORABLE IS OFFENSIVE I LITERALLY GIGGLED READING THAT SHIT FR. <333

i like to add personal experiences and thoughts into it, just to get my point across, put it into an irl perspective and let people also relate and see what im getting at. (unfortunately) i have the same experiences as most of these characters, and so that is why they're so dear to me and why i get very defensive and passionate writing about them!

and yes! getting your answers and stuff from irl people instead of strange irrelevant responses is much more preferred lol. it's more raw and in depth and definitely a lot more personal! and thank you so much!!! it's genuinely one of my favourite dazai panels istg hes such a pretty mf

1.) i love love LOVE their dynamic, i think it's one of my favourites in the show along with skk and ranpo and yosano. it really fucking hits hard, as all family dynamics do with me fr, idk what it is about them, they just get me. and yes!!! i love when atsushi shows that he cares for dazai it MAKES ME FEEL NICE <3 and that's so real oh my god hes a tiger please PLEASE he can fucking PURR (there was a tumblr post i saw, i can try and find it but it made me actually cry laughing)

THIS ONE i was fucking howling but yes! their relationship is also one that really really gets to me! and yes, he is just the ada's support cat, it's canon, i'm ranpo's sweets

2.) thank you thank you THANK YOU mori is an actual degenerate human being. he's not made to be liked or appreciated or revered, it's just fucking AEUGH. i'm not going to demonise the people who enjoy him as a character, but seriously, it's a big red flag to overlook the canon pedophilia. i saw someone make a defense against him saying "yes, but he's never actually touched kids, so that doesn't mean anything" SORRY? they also went on to say that he "restrains himself" from having pedophilic thoughts with elise, and basically praised him for that. needless to say, it got me feeling fucking icky. and yes! i feel exactly the same. i always think that "oh, maybe i'm the awful one for not liking him? am i bad?" even though, no, i'm perfectly fine thinking that way and i am allowed to think that way. and exactly again! dazai is my favourite character, but i recognise his flaws and his mistakes and don't forgive them. but he's actively trying to "be a better person" (i say this in quotation marks because dazai sees everything he does as inevitably pointless, but still wishes to uphold oda's dying words. i am definitely going to make a post about this in the near future lol) and i dont make my analyses biased towards him, and i stay on neutral ground UNLESS personal opinion comes up, to which i then say that it's my personal opinion, not fact, and that it's anybody's choice to think however they want. if somebody doesn't like dazai; okay! i'm interested in talking with them, and we can both talk about things we're very passionate about and have healthy conversations! unlike some people i have seen on reddit, goddamn. but no, we're not the bad people for hating that knobhead fr. we should all treat and be treated the same as any other fan in the fandom and get along, and i wish we could ALL do that in non-toxic ways. 99% of this fandom are the loveliest people ever, but that 1% just needs to get a grip like omg. we should treat others how we want to be treated, regardless of who favours what ship and who likes what character. and real!!! if gender roles were reversed for dazai, this would be much more problematic, and that's upsetting! dw dw, i dont think its sexist, i think its putting things into perspective bc, either way, its shitty how he was treated. i fucking hate mori. whenever i see people defending him to like, the bone, like not getting into a decent discussion and being civil but instead bashing everyone who says otherwise and completely overlooking the abuse, manipulation, grooming, pedophilia and just him as a sick and twisted person in general, it just really irks me. as someone who has in fact had to deal with separate strands of abuse including many fucking counts of sexual abuse and pedophilia, it disgusts me seeing people overlooking it and it makes me feel fucking sick. that shit is not just something to be overlooked because of the fact that you enjoy mori as a character, he's not supposed to be a character that's consumed positively, he's a bad guy. a lot of characters in bsd are morally grey, but mori is just fucking morally black. he's downright evil.

(TW for suicide and self harm next btw :) )

3.) yes yes yessss!!! again, bringing personal stuff into it, i deal heavily with the whole topic of suicide and self harm. i've attempted twice and still deal with thoughts of it every single day, as well as self harm. so, this is one of my main reasons of dazai being my absolute favourite character, because of the representation and actual presentation of these topics. at first, we're shown them in a whimsical and whacky way, then it gets so much darker once we get into the dark era. it's a complete tonal shift, and it really sets in the gravity of the situation for him. and, as you said, he wants to have that ability to want to keep going and living, and he wants to be able to put the effort in, but he can't/ he physically cannot. as much as he would want to try, he can't. and yes, when he said that it fucking BROKE me fr. just at the chance that he's not able to keep living on anymore as a human is the one thing that keeps him alive, i fucking love asagiri's writing, it's so complex and beautiful. and its so so so real!!! youre literally right idc lmao. youve so eloquently said it im crying, youre putting all my thoughts into words <3

and yes!!! i have listened to the song, i absolutely LOVE it! and i never fail to think of dazai whenever i listen to it </3 and, i also think it's very very much like dazai, because of the multiple different versions we see of him too. chuuya hasn't exactly changed much, but he has gone through some very very complex and deep character developments, such as in fifteen and stormbringer. hes a lot more "tame" and respectful now, and a lot more mature. (except with dazai lmao) aku, we see he's changed slightly thanks to atsushi, but still no major character fucking flip arounds. all these characters we've watched slowly become better and more complex throughout the series. dazai? he just does 180s every single fucking year. hes different at 14 and 15 than he is at 18. hes different at 18 than he is at 20-22. and the different faces he puts on for each and every person, all his masks that he has. there's much variety to dazai; you never know what you'll get. there's so many different sides to him, because he doesn't know who he is. as odasaku saw him, "a lost child crying out". no matter the age, no matter the state, dazai is always going to be harbouring that broken child with him, trying to hide it and build up walls around it, because the only time he's ever shown it, he's gotten hurt or betrayed and lost some key figures in his life. trust issues much?

anyways i am sorry i am sorry i rambled too much lmao

in conclusion, YES, GIVE HIM A FUCKING HUG OH MY GOD PLEASE I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO HUG HIM PLS GOD LET ATSUSHI GIVE HIM A BIG HUG WHEN HE COMES OUT OF MEURSAULT I SWEAR-

thank you so so so SO much for your kind words!!! sweetest person EVER fr <333333

thank you my love!!! /p have a lovely day/night :) <3

27 notes · View notes

boypussydilf · 7 months

Note

No yeah i really thought that was what they were building up towards 💀 theyve been making a point of simon not realising his own self worth and thinking he needs to be ice king for 8 whole episode

And i really thought. The final stretch wouldve been betty, the one person who thought he was worth so much, that she was willing to sacrifice EVERYTHING for him, was gonna be the one person to show him what she saw in him and make him realise that he meant something as Simon petrikov

But NOPE!! Instead he suddenly materialises his will to live after 8 episodes of not acknowledging it and is told that he was the sole reason why his relationship was fucked

IT WOULD HAVE MADE SO SO SO SO MUCH SENSE. WHAT WE GOT MAKES NO SENSE. “hey bro we know this has literally 0 correlation to the arc you’re actually having, but even though sensibly you are not to blame for this, we’re going to blame you and tell you it was all your fault that your relationship was unhealthy and also doomed. you fucked up so so bad and you should have done better and all this bad stuff that happened to you is kinda on you man” “Wow! I see value in my life now” when i first saw the scene where hes like . “i wanted to give up my life for fionna and cake bc i felt like their lives were worth more than mine but i DO deserve to live!!!” i was like oh wait huh did i. miss something? wait what did i not get there? okay well i’m sure if i saw the scene again i’d find what the correlation was. But there was no correlation

#basilask #fionna and cake spoilers

13 notes · View notes

echantedtoon · 6 days

Text

Waning Obsession Ch12 Where We Go

(Warnings: mentions of killing, etc.

Important Info here on our most of the rest of the chapters might be mostly in Kokushibo's pov. Also this chapter will also be a bit shorter than the others.)

The rain showered down from above. The droplets hitting the trees. Seeping into the cracks in their bark and dripping from the leaves down to meet the wet ground. Usually rain was very peaceful. Sometimes even scary. But for now it was very cold.

Both literally in temperature and in sorrow.

He rarely if ever paid attention to the coldness of late autumn around him. He was far used to the sting of cold and the numbness of ice against his skin. His body had been hardened by years of brutal training to ensure that he never let it cross his mind as nothing but a passing thought and nothing more. Hands have gone numb in the cold. Calloused by hardened souls and minds.

'Forget. You must forget what pain feels to you. Forget about what makes you feel pain. Do not let cold freeze you. Do not dare let fire burn you. Tired is not but a state of mind. Push on. You must block out what makes you weak. Do you wish to fail?'

A chestnut tree did not provide the best of shelters. The rain drip dropping from it's curling bars branches and running along golden brown leaves already about to fall. A single bead of water shined in the dim light and tumbled down down down from the rough bark. It's travel ended the moment it hit softened strands of mahogany hair. Running down the long strands going going going to the very ends. It's journey coming to a close as fabric swallowed it whole again. It's cold not getting to the one underneath the soft fabric.

'Block out emotions. You must make yourself invulnerable to any feelings. Emotions make you weak, Michikatsu. Fear causes hesitation. Anger irrational minds. Curiosity stupidity. Happiness creates distractions. Love..Love Is a liability. Liabilities are weaknesses. Weaknesses are FAILURES! You must learn nothing but rational thoughts. Use your mind to make decisions instead of emotions. Use everything you are taught to make the right choices. Only then will you truly be invincible.'

Movements shifted underneath. Warm. It was warm. And safe. Eyes opened to peer in numbed bliss. Her warmth was like a dagger being stabbed into his chest and twisting until the outside was pierced through to the inner most deep depths and injected with warmth he never knew existed. It was..

A D D I C T I N G

'Do as you're told. Become the ultimate weapon. This is your fate. Your destiny. The entire reason you were placed here.'

"..Fuck your destiny."

A hand caressed her head against his chest. Her breaths soft but consistent. Curled against him now satisfied that shadowed monster inside him. Content whenever he got what he wanted. Finally. He had what he needed. All right in his grasp. Everything is completed. He sighed heavily gripping her close. His lips grazed the top of her head, placing a small but warm kiss to her head.

HIS. This was his.

His life. His reason. His purpose. His love. His future wife. The woman who will be by his side. The one who will give him children. Y/n Tsugikuni. Haruhime was a name unworthy for her, but that was ok. It would be remedied soon enough. He loved her.

'Do you even know what love is?! You've never even experienced love! Your father treats you as nothing but the best option! He only values your strength and nothing more! Your mother barely knows her own son! And can your own twin really say he cares about you when you weren't even raised together?? Even your own people fear you! So how can you know what love is?!'

The eyes closed pressing further into her warmth. "No. Stop it."

'How do you even know that she loves you?! You destroyed her entire life in a matter of seconds because you were selfish and greedy! Even if she stays with you it's not out of love! It's only because she has no where else to go because you ruined everything just as you always do!'

"Your heart is beating irregular."

He froze. There was movement under his form and something pressed on his chest. So soft. Heart hammering away from where the palm pressed onto the skin. So warm. Her essence was intoxicating. Her touch scorching but burnt in a good way. He sighed in content. The thoughts were becoming too much.

"Let go."

"...What?"

"Let me go."

"It's cold. Your body needs warmth-"

"Michikatsu, let me go."

He flinched as her lips spoke his name. It wasn't so much her voice as it was her tone that had him flinch but the tone it was spoken with. It was demanding and blunt. Not suitable for a woman her size but it was one that demanded attention. One that convinced him to reluctantly release his hold and allow her to lean up and away from his hold. Her face rang all the emotions that he dreaded to see in her.

Deep hidden anger. Regret. Guilt maybe?? But mostly exhaustion and sadness.

A small wind had her shivering and pulling that sorry excuse for a coat tighter around her. He hated that old garb she had to wear just to keep warm. He'd gladly hold her and shield her from the elements but if he attempted to do that again now that she was awake, she'd only become angry at him again.

Turquoise eyes looked up at the dripping sky. "... It's raining. It sounds so.. peaceful." Her eyes did not again look back at him. "How long have we been traveling?"

"Five days."

"Where are you taking me?"

"There is a small campsite where my father is currently residing in. It's not proper for a woman, but I can arrange better accommodations for you from there."

Now she did look at him. Wide eyed in fear and shock. "Lord Tsugikuni?! You never said anything about having to meet him!"

"I must. By now he must be very angry with me." No doubt his father would be VERY angry indeed but he'd bare the anger for the long term results after.

"I don't want to go anywhere near the Tsugikunis."

"You can bare to be around me."

"That was before you revealed yourself as Michikatsu Tsugikuni." Her eyes narrowed. If they were knives. He'd be dead. "You lied to me. You've lied to me the entire time I've known you!"

"I've never lied!...I keep my true identity a secret for safety. Would it have made you see me differently if I had told you who I was?" She did not answer and that was the deadliest blow of all. "I see..My name usually comes in the form of hatred. Why must you hate my clan name so?"

"Your family is ruthless in ruling, and cruel in nature."

"My father's rule yes, but his actions are not my own." Please don't compare him to his father. Please do not hate him. Please don't leave him! She CANT leave him!! "You did not seem to believe me to be like him before."

"Perhaps I could have believed that you were not the same before you took the lives of two men in the same night you shared my home and my bedside."

This again. He never regretted his actions but he was regretting the hastiness of his actions. "I do not regret that night with you. In fact my time with you only solidified my fondness in having you."

Her frown deepened. "Do you regret your other actions then? Taking those mens' lives."

His answer was simple, blunt, quick. "No. I don't. If given the chance I'd do it over the chance." A single knuckle pressed to her cheek taking her by surprised. "If they had not threatened you then they would have survived."

..Her head turned and she leaned away. "You did not have to kill them."

"..One made you clean his home like a pig and cut your hand. The other threatened to harm you and could have killed you if that knife had been stabbed into your cheek." If that disgusting pig had stabbed forward instead of swiping right with that knife, then she could've died and been taken from him! "If I hadn't what else would they do to you?" The hand lowered. "Everything I do is for survival Whether it be survival for myself or someone else." He slowly stood up and she almost forgot about how tall and imposing he was. "Come. We should be there within a few hours shortly."

"And if I refuse to go?" Her pout was as adorable as it was annoying. Lips purses in a way that he wanted to taste their sweetness on him again. "Then what will you do."

"I'll carry you."

"You wouldn't dare. What if I don't want you anymore?"

She should not have challenged him. It took no effort to lift her up by the back of her kimono and toss her up bridal style within his arms. Her squeals and shocked face afterwards while settled in his arms.

"I'm afraid that is no longer an option. If our union did not already seal us then fate has."

You somehow managed to convince Koku-.. Michikatsu to put you down on your own feet, but somehow that didn't make things better. At some point he dropped the haori coat over your shoulders as the rain picked up like that was supposed to make it better. Five days. You both had been traveling on foot for five days at most counting today. Most of it had been spent in a numb blurry state. You'd lost how many hours you've walked and how many you actually slept. But you haven't been treated badly by him. Many times you were given water collected from a stream, and you hadn't gone hungry. Michikatsu as it turns out was quite the skilled hunter and was able to skewer a quail flying through the air with ease just by throwing his sword in the air and standing still in the water long and silent enough to snatch fish out of the water with his bare hands cooking everything his hands caught over a homemade fire. You got the impression that he does this a lot. Was that why he always took so well to your food?

The charm of the stoic but shy demon you liked was shattered along with your life all in one night. And you were a numb unsure mess just wondering aimlessly after him for now- You blinked out of whatever stupor you were in when he suddenly stopped and you ended up bumping into his back. Blinking you stared at his bare back before looking up to his head. He didn't say anything but stood still. For second there was nothing but the rain still dripping down from the sky with the occasional thunder clap, it had picked up a little bit while you both walked. Then he spoke.

"You have to listen to what I'm about to say very carefully." The blunt and deep tone in which he spoke sent a shiver down your spine. "There is a camp just past these trees. You are to stay by my side and not leave it. Do not speak to anyone. Do not look at anyone. And do not acknowledge they're there. The only reason you're here is because I have business and then we're leaving. Don't speak to my father unless he directly acknowledges you first which is unlikely. Am I clear?"

You gulped. "I-..Y-Yes."

"Good. ..I promise you once this is over we will discuss your situation more properly. For now do as your told."

5 notes · View notes

bylertruther · 1 year

Text

mike only ever showing interest in el "superman" hopper when it comes to girls + mike worrying that will is going to find someone else when he moves away and being giddy with relief when will tells him it's "not possible" vs him having that giddy mood shattered when el brings up the time he said he loved her when she wasn't there (to which he plays stupid btw), says it back, and then kisses him, only for him to have absolutely no reaction to this whatsoever except confusion + mike only asking boys (not including his sister who's a freebie ask) to sub for lucas in dnd + mike's grimaces whenever the boys are talking about (girl) crushes + "that's bullshit media propaganda" abt a negative 60 minutes segment referenced by a character when in-universe that week's segment was a positive piece on aids in california* + mike not being able to hug will despite hugging literally everyone else including a stranger + el saying she thinks will likes someone because he's been acting weird, but the only person who acted weird this season was mike (who has a gf he hasn't ever said ily to btw despite her saying it a lot) + mike calling will all the time despite will NEVER picking up or calling him first + mike feeling like will ruined the day by not talking to him at the rink even when el, his girlfriend, literally got harassed in front of everyone not even two seconds ago + mike nodding in thought when will says "sometimes i think it's just scary to open up like that, to say how you really feel especially to the people you care about the most, because what if they don't like the truth?" in a conversation abt mike not being able to tell eleven he loves her when it's in a romantic context (this line makes the audience think it's abt will but really this pertains to both of them, will's feelings and mike's sexuality) + mike not even being able to Admit to others that he can't say it bc then he'd have to say why and that makes it Too Real + mike telling will that this past year was weird without him specifically because hawkins isn't home without him and he's special to mike in a way that literally no one else is canonically (no mention of el btw, just will) + mike forever and always failing to do the romantic gestures people in-universe assume he will for eleven but always immediately performing them for will literally RIGHT AFTER that assumption is spoken without anyone needing to tell him or guide him through it + mike telling will that asking him to be his friend was the best thing he's ever done but describing meeting his girlfriend as dumb luck + mike talking about el needing him without ever mentioning love thereby stating that he's worried she doesn't want him in her life in general even as a friend not that she doesn't love/like him + mike feeling inferior to eleven but feeling like will's equal + mike only telling eleven that he loves her when will tells him to and because he was so moved by will's feelings but not her own begging in their last conversation + his speech then being a response to will's feelings that are a direct contradiction of everything eleven last told him which he'd know if he trusted and valued his girlfriend's words over will's + mike not doing anything when el doesn't talk to him after the love confession but having what is essentially a sixth sense for will's plights n continuing to have intimate conversations with him instead + mike always standing by will's side, saying they're a team, saying that he doesn't know what's going to happen next as they fight extradimensional monsters without their superhero but that it'll be easier if they do it together, and staying back with him while eleven walks forward alone = That Is A Fucking Homosexual of the Homotron 6000 Gayer Than Being Gay Variety That Is In Love With His Boy Best Friend

#AND THAT'S WITH ME LEAVING 495840958049 THIGNS OUT SO THAT THIS WALL OF TEXT ISN'T EVEN LONGER #LIKE. HE IS LITERALL YGAY ?#BDSKHFBKSDJHBFKJHDJ #HE IS LITERALLY GAY................#i knew this and yet. i am still sitting here in such shock tht my hair is falling out my goosebumps are flaring my soul is leaving my body #me every day on this website: lol they're so gay #also me when i Realize:#mine #mike

39 notes · View notes

fallen-gravity · 2 years

Text

Broken Hearts Club

Maybe Luz should just leave him be. Maybe she should just wait until he’s ready to come to her and the others instead of prying.

But she recognizes grief when she sees it in others, and she knows perfectly well from personal experience just how hard it is to come forward to tell others that you’re hurting.

Notes: **THIS FIC CONTAINS MAJOR SPOILERS FOR S3E1 THANKS TO THEM. PROCEED WITH CAUTION AND READ AT YOUR OWN RISK**

AO3

From the little time Luz has gotten to know Hunter on friendly terms, she learned very quickly that subtlety is not his strong suit. Everything he does at any given moment has to be done with a dramatic flair, like he’s convinced that if he goes to eleven on absolutely everything then he’s going to be showered in rewards and praise, even if it’s just for something like holding the door open for someone else.

If Luz had to guess, she’d chalk that sort of behavior up to all the time he spent in the Emperor’s Coven. If anything was less than perfect he’d be severely punished in more ways than one, which meant there was absolutely no room for error or for letting one’s guard down. Which, okay, that part Luz understands, but it soon became very clear that that way of thinking was so thoroughly drilled into his core values that it affected his very personality. Every single emotion he had was so loud and outward that sometimes it almost seemed like he exaggerated them on purpose. When he was anxious, he’d have a panic attack so great it literally shook him to his very core. When he was happy, he’d practically have a skip in his step, and you couldn’t wipe that beaming smile off of his face no matter how hard you tried. During one of their group movie nights in the human realm, Luz had discovered that when he was sad, not only was he an ugly crier, but a loud one at that, too. At first Luz had been convinced he’d been exaggerating his sobs to catch Willow’s attention, but Luz learned pretty quickly how false that assumption was, as even when Willow stepped out of the room to refill their bowl of popcorn he still didn’t stop bawling his eyes out over something that happened in the movie.

Hunter exaggerates everything he does. It’s in his nature. If she were to look up “overdramatic” in the dictionary, Luz is convinced that all she would find is a picture of his face.

Which is why…Luz is so concerned about how quiet he’s been since he was told the news about Flapjack’s sacrifice. The bird palisman had willingly given his own life to save Hunter’s, and for that Luz knew Hunter was grateful, but he’d taken the news…a lot gentler than she’d expected. Flapjack was Hunter’s best friend; the first one he ever made, the first person or creature or thing to ever really understand and connect with him, and with a blink of the eye, he was just…gone, and Hunter wasn’t even conscious to see it happen.

Anyone else and they would’ve broken down sobbing. Luz can’t even begin to imagine how devastated the others would’ve been if they lost their palismen. She was there when they were paired up together; they’re practically their pets, if not something even deeper, so she can’t imagine any of them being able to accept things and move on as quickly as Hunter seemingly did. It’s not like it’s because they were in any crucial hurry, either; Luz knows that all the others would’ve agreed to prioritizing Hunter’s feelings over chasing after Belos, but before any of them even had time to ask Hunter if he wanted to take a break he was already marching towards the portal door himself.

Maybe Luz should just leave him be. Maybe she should just wait until he’s ready to come to her and the others instead of prying.

But she recognizes grief when she sees it in others, and she knows perfectly well from personal experience just how hard it is to come forward to tell others that you’re hurting.

They’re all walking through the dark woods of the Boiling Isles. Unsurprisingly, they lost track of Belos almost immediately after entering the portal door, and while they were all huddled together trying to decide which way they should go, Luz’s mom pitched the idea of setting up camp, because wandering aimlessly isn’t going to do them any good if they don’t get any sleep first. Everyone figured it’d be easier to look for Belos in the daylight and none of them wanted to say no to Camila’s stern motherly glare, so they all agreed to look for somewhere safe to sleep for the night instead of continuing the pursuit.

At a first glance, nothing seems off about Hunter's stance. But as Luz looks closer, she can tell without a doubt that there’s something off about it. His posture is so perfectly straight that it’s bordering on stiff, his shoulders are hitched so tightly upwards they’re practically touching his ears, and he hasn’t let go of the tight grip on his shirt since they stepped through the portal door.

“Hey,” Luz whispers as she approaches him, placing a comforting hand on his shoulder. Hunter practically jumps a mile out of his skin at the gentle gesture, which only makes Luz feel even sadder for him. “Do you want to talk?”

“No!” he snaps, his voice cracking with emotion as he yanks his shoulder away from her affectionate gesture. His whole posture slumps at the question, which Luz takes as a good sign. At least he’s not pretending all is peachy keen anymore. “I mean, uh,” his cheeks flush in embarrassment. “What is there to talk about, anyway? I already told you I know what happened. I don’t need one of your everything is going to be okay through the power of magic and friendship speeches right now, okay? Leave me alone.” Hunter picks up his pace so he’s not walking beside her anymore, but Luz isn’t willing to let go that easily. Frowning, she jogs forward until she’s beside him again.

“Hunter, no, that’s not what I meant. I’m not here to give you some big motivational speech about how you should be all grand and dandy right now. I don’t think any of us are okay”

He stops in his tracks. “Then what is there to talk about?” he laughs bitterly, and when he finally turns to meet Luz’s gaze there are tears building in his eyes. “If you don’t even have anything encouraging to say, then what’s the point? Are you trying to make me feel worse?” he snaps, and covers his mouth with his hands upon realizing he’d yelled. There are tears building in his eyes again, but this time he makes no effort to wipe them away. “I…” he whispers, voice wavering heavily with emotion. “I’m sorry, I just…I don’t think you understand what I’m going through”

Luz doesn’t hesitate for a moment before she pulls him into a tight hug. She doesn’t say a word, not yet, and it’s not long before he’s tightly squeezing her back, sobbing and hiccupping into her shoulder the same way he’d done the first time she called him her family. Luz never had any siblings growing up, so she’s not entirely sure on how the whole comforting them thing is supposed to go, but if there’s anything she does know it’s how much it hurts to lose someone that you love.

“But I do know, Hunter” she whispers, and momentarily turns her gaze forward to the group ahead of them. Thankfully they all stopped walking when Luz and Hunter did, but none of them are making an effort to step towards them. Luz makes accidental eye contact with her mom, who frowns sympathetically when Luz gestures silently towards Hunter. “I might not know exactly what it feels like to lose Flapjack, but I do know what you’re going through.”

Hunter hums into her shoulder, and Luz isn’t sure whether it’s a sign he’s still listening or if he doesn’t believe a word she’s saying. Luz frowns, and directs her gaze to the forest floor. “I bet…” she begins, doing her best to ignore the twisting in her chest. “I bet it feels like the worst day of your entire life. Like….no matter what, things are never gonna be okay again, and that even when things are okay, it feels fake, like someone’s playing tricks on you, and…” Luz blinks, her vision blurring with tears. “You feel selfish, because you see all these other people acting like everything’s fine, or you see someone else having a good day, and there’s a tiny part of you that secretly wishes they were having a bad day too, because…you can’t imagine what it’s like to feel happy right now. You feel like…once he’s gone, that’s it, and he’s taken all of your happiness with you”

Hunter pulls away from the hug, messily wiping at his eyes with his wrists. “H-how do you know?”

Luz forces a smile on her face, and gently punches Hunter in the shoulder. “Well I didn’t read your mind or anything, if that’s what you’re thinking. Humans aren’t as capable as Gus likes to think we are.” The fake smile on her face wavers, and she wraps her arms around her own shoulders to hug herself. “All jokes aside, I, uh…” Luz squeezes her eyes shut, and forces herself to think of how supportive Amity was when she told her the news. “...I lost my dad a few years back. He got really sick, and our family kept moving around because he kept being transferred to new hospitals. We had so much hope when we moved to Gravesfield, because we heard that they had some of the best doctors on the East Coast working at their hospital. And for a while things were looking great, and it seemed like he was gonna be able to come home for good, but…” her voice lowers to barely above a whisper. “...he never did.”

Luz finally succumbs to the tears in her eyes, and hugs herself even tighter to prevent her shoulders from trembling. She’s about to apologize, but much to her surprise, Hunter places a comforting hand on her shoulder, the same way she’d done to him earlier. “Luz, I…” he begins, his voice shaking. “I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have assumed.”

She giggles wetly, and socks him in the shoulder. “No, no, I’m sorry for making this about me.” She takes a deep breath, and waves her hands in front of her eyes in an attempt to dry her tears. “The point I was trying to make is that you’re not alone in all of this. I know how much it hurts.”

There’s a heavy pause of silence as Hunter mirrors her earlier gesture of wrapping his arms around himself in a tight hug, taking note of the fresh scars etched into his arms and hands. “When…” his voice cracks, turning his gaze away from her. “When does it stop hurting?”

Luz momentarily casts her gaze downwards. “To be honest, it doesn’t, not really, but…” she pauses upon noticing Hunter flinching backwards at the statement like it physically wounded him, and takes a slow, subtle step towards him. “It gets so much easier”

“I-it does?” Hunter’s reply is barely above a whisper. “How could this…” he tightly grips at his shirt, “this…weight on my chest possibly get any easier?”

“That’s just the thing,” Luz smiles shyly, “As time goes on, that weight is gonna feel a lot lighter. It may feel like your entire world is crashing down on you right now, but I promise, Hunter, as someone who’s been through the same process, things do heal with time. And like, of course nothing’s ever gonna go away completely, like, you still might feel sad when you think about Flapjack, or when you remember everything you’d do together, just the two of you, but just…not as much as it does right now, you know? ‘cause it won’t be so raw. Like…” her cheeks flush, “...every year on the anniversary of my dad’s passing, it feels like the worst day of my life all over again. But…it doesn't feel like that every day, you know?”

“But…how do you deal with it when it feels like everything is crashing down?” Hunter’s voice cracks again, and even in the dark of night Luz can see Hunter’s eyes are shining with tears. “What do you do when you just feel like giving up because it just doesn’t feel…worth it anymore without him?”

“Well, believe it or not, there’s a secret for that too,” Luz hums, and doesn’t miss a beat before she winds an arm around him in a side-hug. “All of those world-ending thoughts and feelings are gonna go away if you just talk. I know how much easier it just seems to push it down, and how much less painful it feels to talk about literally anything else, but the only thing isolating yourself is gonna do is make you feel worse.”

Luz moves to stand directly in front of him, and squishes his cheeks in her hands to force him to look at her. “People care about you, Hunter. We care about you. I dunno if anyone in that dumb Emperor’s Coven ever had the decency to tell you, but we love you, Hunter. You’re one of us now. Someone I really look up to once told me that us weirdos have to stick together. And like it or not, you’re a weirdo now too, Hunter, and that means we’re all here for you.” She lets go of his face to pull him into another tight hug. “We all loved Flapjack too,” she whispers, “if you need to talk about him, we’d understand.”

Hunter crumbles into her arms. Though his arms tremble as he returns the hug, he squeezes her so tightly that he practically knocks the wind out of her. His sobs are so big that he’s practically soaking her shoulder, and he’s so overwhelmed by his own emotions that he’s hyperventilating. Luz doesn’t say a word for a few moments, just closes her eyes and allows Hunter to just grieve for a little while, and she doesn’t even dare to open her mouth to speak again until Hunter’s grip on her lightens up.

“And if you ever need to talk with someone who really knows what you’re going through, you can always turn to me or Mamí” Luz smiles, and for the first time all evening Luz can honestly say it’s a genuine one. “After all, it’s just like I said. We’re family now, and us Nocedas have a bond tighter than anything Belos could throw at us”

Hunter hums, and pulls away from the hug as he wipes at his eyes, a shy smile tugging at his lips. “Thank you,” he whispers. “I, uh, really needed to hear that.”

#my writing #toh #toh spoilers #the owl house #the owl house spoilers #luz noceda #hunter whittebane

29 notes · View notes

unohanadaydreams · 1 year

Text

Realized I forgot to post the rest of my ramblings on the Mayuri vs Pernida fight from my manga re-read so here is some prime word salad about Mayuri, my beloved idiot.

This feels little too late. Like, Mayuri has really dropped the ball in this battle by disregarding his initial thought regarding the Soul King’s arm being a Quincy.

He should have known already that this ability to evolve involved absorption, something Quincy are notorious for. And what has been all over everything, that would allow this Quincy to absorb?

It feels comical, how much he’s neglected to think about his opponent. Like, I’m a dumb ass and I’ve cobbled together the answer.

Meat ball again, eh.

But see the difference in tone? With Zaraki, Mayuri was so elated to tell him the dangers. He was purely farcical about how dropping Zaraki made him feel.

With Nemu it’s different. We see, again, him lashing out and displaying his frustration with himself. But deflecting that frustration to Nemu. Nemu is the punching bag instead of himself. She is him, but better. Perfect. So she needs to shape up and act like it.

The genius of Nemu is that she evolved DESPITE Mayuri. He demands she does exactly as she’s told and he violently lashes out when she doesn’t. He steals her agency. (even when it's played for laughs his unrelenting closeness when she's a member of WA is really telling).

That isn’t how someone grows and he knows that perfectly well. But he won’t face the fact that he’s scared to lose her. So he pretends disobedience betrays weakness.

Nemu has been taught how to learn and observe and she is the reason Mayuri will live—because she saw Pernida for what he was. Like, despite Mayuri's treatment of her, she is able to understand what's going on before he does.

She's not suffering from delusions here. She's not grasping for something that isn't there. Pernida is a Quincy and Nemu isn't perfect. And Mayuri is fucking spiraling on the battlefield.

And here it is—he does not want to make another Nemu. Even if it goes against the very principles of trial and error, of the science he holds so dear. Of the concept of evolution itself. Mayuri doesn’t care if Nemu never gets any smarter or more powerful—he doesn’t give a shit if she’s a shinigami—he just wants her to live. And he refuses to engage with that. He will never admit it.

He cares SO MUCH about her and what she represents that the prospect of having to start over again and fail again is crushing. He can not STAND having this much emotional attachment toward something. It's not irrational in a fun way, its irrational in a way that betrays his values.

He loves a living, breathing person enough to betray the values he's built his entire life & pride & fulfillment on.

Also really love the blocking of this--he is literally refusing to face Nemu.

Doubt. So much doubt. She's switching up her answer on why she interfered to be more agreeable to Mayuri. She is molding her answer to what Mayuri needs to hear and not the truth.

She already said he needed a shield but now she’s walked it back and actually, she was just trying to get him what he needed to continue the fight on his own.

Nemu isn't lying but she isn't telling the truth. She's just being what Mayuri wants her to be. Which is someone who protects him.

Uuuuh like father like daughter, you fucking shit. But also I think this is Mayuri's way of changing the subject and diffusing the situation. Of course his idea of diffusing is to put her down, but we can't expect anything emotionally mature from a man who has a melt down every time he approaches the thought that he loves Nemu on a human level.

Oh so when Pernida sounds like Kenpachi, he starts to catch what’s going on????? But he hasn’t caught on to the constant mirroring of his own fucking mannerisms????

He's fried his own brain with the elation of discovery and the intoxication of his own ego. I can't think of any other reason why he's been SO slow to catch on to what's going on.

I fully understand what was being attempted with this battle. At once it's supposed to connect Pernida & Nemu as being of rapid evolution while also taking Mayuri down a notch in terms of his intellect ala his battle with Szayel. His "perfect" invention destroyed by a more "perfect" being of evolution. His fall to hubris and self delusion. His perfect tragedy.

But it just kind of feels kind of unbelievable how fully he's misunderstood Pernida. I know he feels like he knows most if not everything about Quincy at the start of Bleach, but you think he would carry the lesson of being defeated by Uryu and go 'there's probably something here I need to look out for'

BUT HE HASN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO THE WHOLE PERNIDA IS A QUINCY THING.

You would just think he would catch on even a teenie weenie bit sooner.

I wonder what Mayuri’s zanpakuto looked like before. I imagine probably older looking, which doesn’t fit with Mayuri’s theme of control and always knowing more. Nothing better than a baby who can do nothing but fucking scream and vomit poison.

But also, I really, really like how they're pointing out all the ways that the technology that made Nemu was appropriated for other projects. Not only does it show the passion that went into the Nemuri project but also that they were finding any way possible to CONTINUE that project. Yes number 4 & 5 were failures, but they deserve to have and need more funding because they can regrow brains and skulls and alter zanpakuto. They were doing anything and everything with the research so they could keep it going. Which, considering the amount of abandoned or axed lines of research we hear about, feels meaningful.

And with this time line, I wonder if Senjumaru really was captain for a short while before Mayuri took over. It would make a lot of sense, as I can’t imagine they left 12th division without a captain from the time Urahara left to Mayuri taking up the same double helm. Personally counting this as a headcanon that can be solidified as may-as-well-be canon. They snark at each other for a reason <3

Akon gives his take, but to me the answer is simple and also embarrassing for Mayuri so he would never ever say it.

He starts calling her Nemu because he doesn’t plan to make another Nemuri. He no longer considers her no.7 but simply THE Nemu.

As I was saying above, he doesn’t want to make another one—he’s very insulted at the idea that he would need to. He’s scared of trying and failing again because the experiment and by extension her existence mean so much to him now. This is the technology that gave him captaincy, purpose, and fulfillment. This was his greatest wish. I’m willing to bet this is part of what landed him in the Maggot’s Nest before Urahara hoisted him into a position of power.

Of course, he never displays these feelings how you traditionally would. Instead he treats her as weak and over reliant and is hyper sensitive when she worries for her own life—because those are his feelings regarding her and if there’s one thing he’s going to do, it’s project!

Mayuri needs someone to protect him from himself at this point. He has blinded himself to how Nemu is still no.7. There were Nemuris before her and there will probably be more after her.

She grows despite Mayuri’s attempts to stall her—to keep her alive at all costs isn't what he's meant to do and she knows that. She's meant to evolve or die trying. But more than that, she has read between the lines and understands fully that just like Jizo, her goal is to protect Mayuri. He is his own worst enemy and right now she's protecting him from his refusal to see Pernida for what it is—something he’s studied tirelessly, much as he bragged to Uryu.

She loves Mayuri and wants to make him proud. She wants him to see that she’s grown and that she has become all the things he wanted of her. First and foremost, a shinigami. And shinigami battle. And they die.

And when you fall asleep, you have to wake up. Her name is Nemuri.

I love her. She is much more human than Mayuri may ever be.

#I love Nemu because you can see all the things she had the potential to be #and you realize that Mayuri squashed all that potential #and he did it out of fear #he did it out of love #but he DID it #and I think that is what is first and foremost mellows him out with Nemuri after Nemu dies #It's not that he lost. It's not that she died even.#it's that she died protecting him. it's that she was convinced that was her purposes #it's that he fucked up his dream so badly and couldn't face it until he had nothing left but a brain #anyway here is whatever this is

9 notes · View notes

kookies2000 · 1 year

Note

I have to say I literally cannot wait for your PiBTLW fic to come out !!

Aw, thank you! Sorry for the wait. I wanted to finish it last month, but I got summoned for Jury Duty. And anyone who knows that experience, it's a nightmare and time consuming. I should say, though, I always update a new story, but I update the first three chapters just to see how it does. As in, if enough people get interested, I continue. If not, I delete it. I have deleted some stories before, only a few that no one misses. And I know no one misses them because no one has asked me about my Sonic and Mario cross over I deleted years ago or my Ice Age one. Or my Amphibia one. But, I noticed a few people interested in the surface of my Last Wish fic, so maybe it will do good?

Just a treat, here's four OCs, Kitty and Puss kids. Don't worry, I won't fill my story with OCs. I usually limit it to five or six Oc per story.

Estrella, eldest child, by two years. Intelligent, loves mechanics, and creates machines and weapons. Shy, a heart of gold, they are an intervert. They are associated with the color gold a lot, and yes, I will be using symbolism a lot. After being told about their father's adventures as a teen with his brother Humpty Dumpty, Estrella wanted to continue Humptys work, hence why they gained an interest in inventing. They want nothing more than to reach for the stars and achieve their dreams.

Solana, eldest of the tripletes. A brave heart. She always gets in trouble and is extremely reckless. She adores adventure and always tries to look for danger even at the risk of her own lives. Already lost one after drowning at an ice rink. She took the experience as thrilling and takes her multiple lives as a chance to take as many risks as she wants. She wants to be the best guard in the castle and become Far Far Aways greatest hero. She will make her mark in history just like her father, the fearless legend.

Amia, middle of the tripletes. Passionate heart filled with love for everyone. He loves music, dancing, and loves being in the spotlight. He wants all eyes on him as he performs on stage. He wants everyone to see him as great as they see his parent's. In fact, all he wants is to keep all eyes on him and convince everyone he's as grand and fearless as his parents. Just so his parents can be proud of him. The only problem is that he isn't as fearless or brave as he pretends to be.

Sombra, the youngest of the tripletes. A quiet heart, he is content with his life. He trains with his sister Solana to be in the gaurds. He is quiet, polite, and patient. Ever since he lost one of his lives at the ice rink, he vowed to value every single one of his remaining eight. Instead of being outgoing and using brute force like his sister Solana, he likes to work in the shadows and practice his stealth and thieving skills. Just like his mother.

And I will be adding other characters like Death, I'm looking forward to his scenes because horror is 100% my strength. The Tres Diablos, they are kinda difficult for me to write since mischievous characters aren't my strongest traits. I can still do it. Dulcinea, despite the fact I don't like her character, the story I wrote for her is my favorite. Mostly because it involves children and survivor's guilt. Plus, I wrote some horror for her story. BUT I'm gonna have to put a warning for her story because, let me just say, her story made me throw up from disgust and fear. And I'm the one that wrote it. Its because I based it off of the seven kids and wolf story. The YouTube short version, My Little Goat. I recommend that animated short for people who can handle the message of child abuse. Then Goldie and Baby. I cried while doing their outline. That's all I'll say.

Anyways, first chapter is still in the outline phase since I did have some inconvenience in real life. But I am working on it!!!

#puss in boots #puss in boots the last wish #fan fic #ask me things #ask

5 notes · View notes

jonathanlejonhjarta · 2 years

Note

okay okay, favorite crows, in order, 1 thru 6! (or 7 if you want to include kuwei, and yes theyre all amazing, but if you had to rank them based on personal enjoyment)

you come into my askbox, asking my to choose a favourite child—

but okay, if i have to– edit: THIS IS LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE. you'll just get an answer where i talk about why i love the crows kfbsjsjs. i can't rank my kids.. (except for matthias, he's my boy always)

1. matthias

MY SCANDINAVIAN BOYFRIEND. MWAH ! yes, the name and the fact he is from fantasy the fantasy nordic countries/scandinavia are two of the reasons why i love him, but ! the development he goes through during the events leading up to the books and during them makes me extremely emotional. the way he manages to break free from a cult and its brainwashing. he learns to see humans where he previously would've seen abominations. he falls in love and allows himself to love wholeheartedly, both romantically and platonically. just a thing like breaking free from the chastity and purity culture he grew up in... i'm so proud of him for finding the courage to reclaim his own body and mind, making them into his , going against everything he's been indoctrinated with. i may be a ninej girl, but nina and matthias' love story means a lot to me personally because of how much i love matthias and because i relate to him in some ways.

i'm still very torn about his ending; it's bitter-sweet and can be interpreted in different ways which i appreciate but listen. at the end of the day i just wanted a happy ending haha ;;

kaz — my disabled icon with his cane! 💕 in my heart he's a short king even though canon say otherwise and he also radiates trans masc/agender energy !! he's my stubborn little bastard!

for someone who suffers from a personality disorder which emerged because of what happened to me in my childhood, i find kaz's story very relatable and you know just. affirming. to see a character who's whole personality and manners taking shape because of something that happened to them a long time ago. at the end of the day, he's just a 17-year-old who wants to feel safe.

also, his relationships to basically every character is so good and interesting, i love reading about kaz interacting with the crows. his journey of actually starting to like and care for his team mates also gets me every single reread ;; 💕

nina — she's iconic, she's bisexual and smart, she's fat and gorgeous and, to quote matthias, has magnificent thighs 🥰 no but really all of the above are actual things why she's my favourite, but she works sooo well with everyone of the crows. her interactions and relationships with the other characters on the team are so good ;; nina & jesper? bisexual icons! nina & matthias? enemies to lovers bickering! nina & inej? girlfriends!! nina & kaz? finally someone who puts kaz in his place without hurting him! theyre just siblings!

i can't remember her relation to wylan and kuwei atm but the thing is that nina is kind and caring. she cares so much that she's ready to let herself be completely changed by the parem. she did that for her friends! instead of giving kuwei back, she put herself through something life-threatening. she stood up to van eck and kept fighting. she keeps fighting even when she's in extreme pain.

wylan — his story breaks my heart but the way he 1) finds self worth among the crows, 2) finds love 3) and finds out the truth about himself and his family? he's so good;; i love me a happy ending. disabled queer representation ♡

jesper — such a sweetheart. once again, a character who has interesting and heartwarming relationships with every single crow, and i love him for that. a little happy ending for me. yeah, jesper and wylan's story is so so cute and empowering; about realising you have value despite what others have told you, and finding the courage to face the things you've been running from for a long time.

kuwei —kuwei's story is one about never being wanted for you, but what you can do and who you are related to, which makes me very sad but is also one of the reasons i relate to him. i wish we got more about him! fuck leigh bardugo for giving us so many good stories!!!

inej — i love her, but i don't relate to her that much, plus i am personally not a fan of inej/kaz. doesn't mean her story and journey aren't good, they very much are but the inej/kaz storyline makes me feel weird. it's a sweet story, about how both of them struggle, but i think it hits a little bit close to home and triggers something in me that makes me go: 😖 but her relationship with nina (ninej 4ever!), jesper (they're siblings!!) and wylan (her brother-in-law!!) are all so good ;; another thing i love about inej is that she's religious ♡ which is something i relate to.

shit, this answer got long,, i know u didn't ask for explanations but hey. i love my kids so much haha .. in my defense, as i began writing this answer i realised i have sooo many thoughts and feelings about these characters, and i literally can't rank them;;; i really tried, for you, but their own arcs are SO good and can be analysed in so many ways so it's impossible ! ;; sorry for a messy answer, this book is just GOOD. the characters are my LOVES

#somanyworda #elliot says #small letters

2 notes · View notes