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strbrymlk · 1 year

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03/09/2023

hiya! the weather has been so dreary still, but that just makes the sunny days more appreciated :) classes have been going well, though i’m a little stressed about my wind ensemble class… we have a concert next week and our director is not happy with how we’ve been playing lol, so i’m worried about how we’re gonna perform. but it’ll be good!!! hoping that we get our act together and can pull through. other classes are going well though! getting full marks in my assignments hehe. just yesterday we had a quiz in my linguistics class, and i got a 100% on it! she graded it right there lol, i haven’t seen someone do that in forever.

i’ve been staying off my phone more, and I don’t know if that is resulting in me dreaming like crazy or what, but it feels like every night i’ve been remembering my dreams, and there’s SO MANY of them in one night, it’s so bizarre. I don’t know how i feel about it because they’re not like, amazing dreams. they’re just kind of weird/freaky sometimes. might have to dive deep into google searches to find out what’s going on.

anywho, it’s basically the weekend for me now! i only have one class on thursdays, and it’s pretty straightforward. i don’t have a flute lesson tomorrow, (my teacher is in Paris with her symphony) and so i’m going to spend that time getting even better on my instrument! saxophone has also been a lot of fun, and i think i’m doing really well for just getting back into it :)

i got this fortune from panda express, and it was too good to not keep. it’s also a good affirmation/manifestation to say to myself i think <3

like i said, the sky has been so pretty!! the clouds are my favorite part, so i always take lots of photos of them. it’s like a fingerprint, no picture of clouds is every the same heheh

been practicing these techniques for warmups every day, and i really enjoy them! it helps me focus on moving my fingers at the same time, and also continually use my air through the exercise.

i’ve started journaling again, and i only really do it when i feel like it. for example, i only wrote a half page this morning, but i think i’ll finish the page tonight talking about the rest of my day. i’m just going with flow when it comes to writing, which i think is better for me!

i hope you’re all doing well <33 stay positive

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sheepywitch · 7 years

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Cernunnos paid me a visit

this is kinda long so it’s under a read more but it’s a huge step in my spiritual journey I never would have dreamed happened so soon. so please give it a read, I’d love some feedback, advice, whatever you have.

so context. on wednesdays starting a couple weeks ago I started going to meditation class lead by my belly dance instructor. today we went a little early cuz I’m doing dumbek drum lessons before meditation starts.

well after drumming we do the meditation which I have only been falling asleep to because I’m still new and im tired like all the time, but I still benefit from it.

After that we go outside cuz my belly dance instructor has some veggies growing in her garden and she was going to pick some.

This is where things got really interesting. One of the other girls, who always picks me up for meditation since I don’t have a car, mentioned that sprites were dancing around the tree in the center of the massive yard. I follow after and I actually see sprites. little fast streaks of lights, like fireflies but smaller, and sped up a lot. can’t look at them directly kind of deal. The other girl is also saying that the sprites decorated the tree with garlands of white flowers. She has been able to see spirits and things most of her life, so I just believe whatever she says when it comes to that stuff, I’m open minded(obviously). But I can’t see the garlands myself, however it *feels* like there’s more tree than there actually is, like, branchless areas feel heavier like there’s something taking up the space etc.

Well the instructor decided to do a rain prayer under the tree which was nice, just a simple little thing, but at that moment I feel... something. eyes watching. no neighbor is outside or anything, and it’s coming from the far back end of the yard, where the instructor claims fairies live. I can’t help but keep looking over that way, it’s dark, but not too dark to see the bushes, but I till don’t see anything, I only feel it. I keep quiet for a while before finally bringing it up.

The spirit seeing friend curiously walks with my towards the back bushline of the yard. as we get closer, the whole energy just.... it was like hitting a wall. it was so heavy and powerful. I stopped back a few feet from the bushes, I just felt like I shouldn’t get closer, not out of fear but just... that I shouldn’t. but my friend did get closer.

as she did we both felt this... wave of absolute fear and panic wash over us both. She immediately thought it was a negative entitiy and retreated back to the other side of the yard, but I stood my ground, because I already had read up that cernunnos is known to do that as a way to demand respect. I think my friend just got too close for his liking, while I had stayed back.

I call back to her about that, and urge her to come back, because I can’t see anything, only feel it, and she calms down and returns, but stays by me, and the energy mellows out a bit but it’s still so heavy.

She starts telling me that she sees a man pacing beyond the bushes, but he’s kind of hard to see. Still she began describing him.

A tall dark/green male, with bright yellow eyes, *branches or antlers coming from his head* with a tail and, well, she called him bottom heavy because she saw thicker hips, but I believe it was furred animal legs making his hips appear thicker than they were(then again if they were animal legs he probably had quite the muscles anyway), and he was wearing something around his waist and groin but couldn’t tell what, some kind of covering, so I assumed a loin cloth of sorts.

Then she said he was making gestures. He was bowing a certain way, with his right hand raised, palm out, and his left hand palm up in front of him, like making an offering, and he bowed while doing it. I’m not sure what kind of gesture it was, but we both just did it back when she said she felt like we needed to. Then he had apparently spread his arms our wide as if trying to say he was not a threat too.

The others headed back inside, but I had to linger a bit. I’d done so many acts of dedication to him in the past few days, asking for some kind of vision or to feel him in some way, then all of a sudden this was happening, I wasn’t about to just walk away without speaking privately to him.

So I thanked him for visiting, especially with all the asking I had done, and took a moment to tell him about the torc bracelet I had gotten as my dedication jewelry for him, So I’d always have a piece of him with me to remember his message and lessons about respecting nature and such. I knelt down and held it in my hands, closed my eyes and just sat in silent meditation for a while, just feeling the earth and the energies in the yard.

I swear I heard hoofsteps approach me, felt a different surge of energy, and then he went back into the bushes again before I opened my eyes. I put the bracelet back on and... It no longer feels like steel on my wrist. it just doesn’t. It feels like something much more natural, soft vines, I sweat I feel leaves on it. I know he blessed it for me. I thanked him again and finally turned to go inside, but I had to stop again because I started hearing flute music. I swear he started playing for me. If I actually focused on listening to the music it would fade away as if it never happened, but if I focused on anything else I could hear it in the wind and in the rustling of the leaves in the trees.

I’ve been kinda floating ever since. I got home at 11pm, it’s nearly midnight now, I’m still a little high from it all. But I have a lot of work to do tomorrow despite it being my day off work, so I need to get some sleep. but I did promise him I’d light a candle and burn some incense for him as offering and thanks, so I need to do that.

I just... I can’t even begin to describe the way that energy felt. it was so fucking strong and ancient... and the fact that my friend was there to feel and see it too just shows I wasn’t going crazy. it actually happened, it was real, I was really feeling it.

I don’t know how long he’s been trying to get my attention like this... years probably, since I have always been drawn to nature since I was a kid... but he sure as heck got it now.

I’m a child of the Horned One. so mote it be.

#cernunnos #The Horned One #Pan #The Green Man #sheepy bleats #about me

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