#and if you are going to send hate anon related to this: cry about it

[playawner]

Here's a reminder because I've seen discourse regarding queer identities a lot lately, both here and in other apps.

I don't fuck with 3xcluz1onists (e, s, i) nor tr4nzm4dicalists (a, s, e). If you are that please block me. I do not tolerate them as I see it as a way to harass and infight other queer invididuals without getting called out; I've seen a LOT of them harassing, sending d3ath threaths, even DOXXING, which is something I do not accept no matter what.

Yeah, I may not get some labels, but I don't do that! You shouldn't too , you shouldn't go in your way and call people invalid or telling them to d1e what the fuck?

Focus your anger and confusion at the right places, at the amount of conservatives threatening the lives of many trans kids, at how some countries are now calling lgbtq+ rights a "terrorist group". Someone being demi or a masc/fem nonbinary isn't worse than that. If you think it is then there's something up with you

#probably will delete it later. I'm just so tired #and if you are going to send hate anon related to this: cry about it #I will immediately delete it and find a way to block you <3 #y'all are hateful and are the worst people ever; I do not want you all here #we are queer for a reason: we are seen as weird by the eyes of a conservative society. We need to stick together like it #zash's stuff #important #lgbtq #lgbtq community #anti exclusionist #anti transmed #oh yeah I'm also anti r4dqu33r. Y'all are as disgusting as them. Do not group our freedom with your harmful ideologies thank you

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

aita for telling someone they're a horrible person and making them relapse?

trigger warning: self-harm, suicide(?)

so im, like many teenagers online, an avid participant of fandom spaces and my current favorite is genshin impact. if you've ever interacted with the genshin fandom you may guess where this is going but i happened to find myself liking a ship that is the big nono ship in this fandom (aka the incest ship, kaeluc) but since i mostly stick to my space and don't really interact with anyone that doesn't already have content of this ship on their account id never gotten into any hot water over it.. until recently.

this person, ill call them rick, suddenly liked a bunch of my (non-ship related) posts. normal interaction, i didn't think anything of if and moved on. (i didn't even notice at the time, but they unliked all of the posts before what happened next, i assume as they realized i was a proshipper and didn't want to associate with me.) next thing i know, the same user is in my askbox, sending me the most vile, hate filled messages i have ever seen.

ok... no biggie. i delete the asks, block them and move on with my life. but it doesn't stop. i had never in my whole life received hate online, but now for the first time ever, i had a dedicated hater, sending me anonymous asks at all times of the day. death threats, dox threats, telling me to kill myself, calling me a degenerate and all that, all with the same consistent writing style. now, one could say that maybe this wasn't rick, and maybe not even all the same person but i really feel like this is the only reasonable explanation considering i have like 6 followers and my most famous post has 3 notes. i don't think im important enough to have that many haters.

so, i did the only thing i could think to do: turned off anon asks. then the asks started coming from random throwaway accounts. ok...turned off asks. then it was dms. turned those off too. THE FUCKING COMMENT SECTIONS OF MY POSTS.

dedication isn't enough to describe this. at this point it's actually becoming distressing to me and im considering closing my whole account cause i just wanna get away from all this. im 16, i don't have the mental capacity to spend all day policing my social media because someone wants me to die for liking fictional incest.

so i very reluctantly unblock rick and send them a dm. i very gently ask if they are the person who has been sending me asks/dms/etc and if they are, if they could please stop because it's become genuinely distressing to me and i just want to be silly on a website. they block me.

alright, im now out of options. everything on my profile is blocked at this point and i don't even want to post anything else so i just kind of leave the account behind for a while. when i come back, i discover that someone HACKED into the account and defaced the whole thing (changed pfp, deleted posts etc etc) so now im genuinely bummed. i go to rick's profile and guess who has been unblocked? i ask them if they can please answer my question. they don't answer but instead tell me i deserve everything ive gotten and i should choke for all they care.

i tell them they're a terrible person and go absolutely off the rails like the dumb, upset teenager i am. i didn't say anything particularly horrible (mostly i just tell them about how awful they've made me feel over fictional shit that really doesn't matter and how i just wanted peace) but i definetely wouldn't like to receive a message like that. and rick didn't either, because they blocked me.

well, since im sure you're wondering where this comes in, here's where i kind of feel like an asshole:

i continued to stalk rick's account on a different blog (because i was bitter. ok?) and they've been posting about how they relapsed into self harm because of a message they received from a stranger and how they've been crying non-stop and this is the worst relapse they've had in years and etc etc and i just got this pit in my stomach. this person's bio says they're 15! i don't want to ever be the reason a fifteen year old is hurting themselves! i've been feeling like a piece of shit ever since (esp since i also deal with sh) and i just feel like the worse person ever. i honestly don't know if i was just acting like anyone else and this was an unfortunate consequence or if i need to go pray for god to forgive my sins or something.

aita?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #suicide cw #self harm cw #ship discourse

[boltonbritreads]

I am at the point of truly begging anons to stop sending hate to writers and ruining the ability for people to share their writing and others to get to read and engage with it. It literally just ruins everything for everyone and taints a space that’s supposed to be anything from comfort, escapism, a creative outlet, to hanging out with friends.

truly- what is the goal? what do you get out of pushing writers off the platform and making a fandom have even less engagement? I wish there was a “stop, are you really sure you want to send that message” screen before you could send anons sometimes so bc of that…..

🖤🖤 Eddie Munson Fic Rec List! 🖤🖤

as a reader who gets so much comfort and vital escapism from fanfic I want to just shout out some incredible stories I’ve been following/read lately:

*totally non exhaustive and just what I could remember at work!!* I’m hoping to add more & eventually made a proper list

@munson-blurbs’s “Trapped Under Ice” - truly lovely single dad eddie story that has so much heart and fluff and getting to see Eddie and Ms Sweetheart build their relationship and grow together has been so satisfying and lovely to read

@corroded-hellfire “As You Wish” I can’t even put into words 😩 I’m so down bad for this eddie and this fic and every single time reader gets to gets to spend time with Luke and Ryan and eddie gets even more smitten I melt

@upsidedownwithsteve’s “Simmer”!! I am truly losing my mind over simmer and as a fellow crybaby who just needs that extra comfort sometime, I yearn for Simmer!Eddie. Truly this fic means so much to me and I relate so so much to reader it makes me cry

@pinkrelish “The Yes Policy” - I mean, do I even have to say anything? It’s everything you could ever want and more in an eddie fic and the descriptions and imagery in every chapter my god ♥️🐭

@abibliophobiaa “Daylight” - holy shit I can’t express the itch this fic scratches it’s just the best and an absolute fluffy comfort fest. Lovesick Eddie, Unplanned Pregnancy reader, strangers to friends to lovers, cuddling in bed?? what more can you ask for?? I really love how *spoilers* eddie has accepted his feelings for reader and is just waiting for if/when she decides to go further with him, ball in her court

@sunflowergirl522 - “M’Lady, M’Lord” oh my this was so good and fun to read!! I’m such a sucker for goofy eddie and seeing reader meet him where he is and be playful back is just *chefs kiss*

@ghost-proofbaby - ok so basically anything Ghost has ever written is incredible but my highlights are “24 hours” because of course it is like ?? such a cool concept and the execution was perfection. I haven’t felt like I’m on the edge of my seat week-to-week for a fic in a while and seeing everyone react to each chapter and collectively lose our minds was so fun and something I love about fanfic!! After you’ve read “24 hours,” head on over to “So Scarlet (It was Maroon)” for some angst and pain and then chase it with “Coffee Shop Blues” for cute slice of life at a coffee shop with barista!eddie 🥰

@neonghostlights - “To the Moon & Back” alien eddie!!! I’m loving this series so far and how much fun and tension can be built into the dynamic of alien eddie and reader who have some language/cultural barriers but also like…..eddie gets it 👀👅

@harrywavycurly - there’s truly so much to choose from!! their master list has so much and there’s all kinds of text fics to dip into and a whole universe of Eddie’s! I personally love and am following “Trouble Next Door,” “It Was Just One Night,” and “Eddie’s Wish.” I desperately want TND eddie and reader to just get to smooch and cuddle but uh….I think getting over being cheated on and getting a divorce takes longer than I’d like 🫤

@carolmunson “Orange Coloured Sky” the older!eddie of dreeeeeeams my god 😍 from start to current this story has been so fun to follow and I’m loving the characterisation of this older eddie who is confident and hot but also….such a dork like immediately texting Steve “she said I’m the best she’s ever had 😎” I can’t

@luveline - ok anything and everything Jade has ever written, literally an entire treasure trove of a master list and the obviously heavy hitters are “June Baby!” and the “Eddie and Roan” series for all of the baby fever of reading about eddie and a cute baby but I also wanted to shout out the fic “A Quest for Bed” because it was so gosh darn sweet and fluffy and I love seeing eddie take care of reader once in a while

@trashmouth-richie - again another obvious incredible gorgeous fic “Honey I’m Home,” it’s so so beautiful and heart wrenching and funny and I’m in awe of the compassion and tenderness show towards the characters in this story. I adore HIH with everything but also “Do You Like How the Water Tastes” has been such a fun new story to dig into! I feel like I truly can’t predict what each chapter will be like and I keep being surprised by how Eddie interacts with reader and it makes each new chapter so exciting to read bc I think it’ll go one way and then I’m totally surprised!!

#eddie stranger things #eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson fanfic #fic recs

[shakirawastaken]

dsmp if...they were teachers part 2

ANON I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED UR REQUEST IM SO SORRY IM GONNA CRY BUT here it is :D with techno too :) please people send in some requests for meee check out part 1 here!

techno: english (with 1 mythology class for seniors): - hates his english classes wishes he could just teach mythology - would make all the students do a little project on a greek mythology story - rivalry with mr soot  - “ill give u each 10 dollars if u go to mr soots class tmrw talkin about how im a better teacher” - supports each and every kid no matter WHAT even if its not english related - holds detention in his room cause no one wants to fuck with him - like dream he doesnt anyone to get fucked over his english class so he hosts after school office hours like its college - has read all the classic novels and makes his classes read them. he wont move to something else unless some kid IS REALLY passionate about it - “ranboo we will not be reading the diary of a wimpy kid series even if you resonate with greg heffley on an emotional level” - BUT for his english classes he makes them do a general book report project so he can see and appreciate his student’s taste in books  - albeit not the biggest fan of romance novels but knows it ends with us for some reason - brings all the projects home and keeps them in a big storage bin. he loves showing them off to future classes and even you - light. acadmeia. dresses formal, long sleeves, hair tamed, glasses on the bridge of his nose - “tommy please stop swearing. tubbo calm down?” - hold detention with him cause no one fucks with mr blade

phil: principal - best principal ever - has a great relationship with all the staff tbh  - wilbur and techno and tommy arent his sons wdym - no ones rlly scared of getting sent to the principals cause like yk theyre like “oh phil??? hes nice”  - everyone calls him phil - ok i lied everyone BUT tommy isnt scared of going to phils - “I DONT WANT TO GO TO PHILS” “tommy calm down-” - hates the school board, lets the teachers teach what they believe is best for the students - can deal with the consequences - once wilbur got him to play a role in on of the school’s productions - big year for the dsmp high thespians tbh - is married to the guidance counselor kristin - who by the way is a GOOD COUNSELOR - actually does guidance - phils whole office is green - always wears his bucket hat tbh - besties with the other school’s principals

foolish: architecture/woodworking - i think this one was another “duhhh” one - builder man teaches builder children - starts the year with teaching them the basics of everything and then sort of lets them go wild  - is so scared some kid is gonna get hurt - has goggles in every corner of his room, gloves, whatever safety stuff  - loves it when kids work together to make some big project - IN YOUR GUYS’ HOME YOU HAVE A SHELF full of little sharks all the kids made for him its so cute - he makes stuff for you in class and uses it as an excuse to teach  - wears muscle t-s or normal t-shirts never dresses formal  - “it would get in the way of the wood?? duh” - id want to be in his class - is besties with mr jacobs and mr punz the random coach who shows up just to coach basketball in the winter - another teacher everyone simps over - once refused to teach tommy cause he didnt want to “catch a case”

i kinda want to write for the bench trio so here’s STUDENT EDITION

tommy: junior in high school, ta to mr wastakens math class  - tommy signed up to TA for wilbur but then wilbur said “absolutely not” so he got put into dream’s introduction to stats class  - but he also has dream for the period after that for his ap stats class - so hes stuck there for like 2 and a half hours  - dream groaned when he saw who his TA was - makes tommy grade papers and stuff but never tests  - he doesnt trust him with that - tommy is a good kid and usually doesnt disrupt class but when he does its hilarious - expect mr blade doesnt give a second shit about tommy in his class  - tommy is rlly good at drama and math (even though hed never admit hes good at math)  - his locker is a mess  - besties with tubs and ranboo ofc - phil is his father dont tell anyone - he is so adamant on walking home bc he doesnt want people to know that his family works there - always has his red jacket on  - never gets school lunches says they are cursed

tubbo: junior in high school, ta for mr quackity’s spanish class - tubbo likes quackity so he signed up to ta for his class - he isnt good at spanish tho- - quackity knows that but likes tubbo so he lets him be  - sapnap ADORES tubbo for some reason - “TOBY!!! WHATS UP!” “hi mr sapnap” - sapnap thinks tubbo is such a good kid - but  - mr notfound knows tubbo is a menace - “good morning toby” “good morning mr notfound *innocent*” “sit down and get started please” - SO FUNNY LMAO  - tubbo is a menace - pulls a bunch of pranks on the teachers but then the blame always ends on tommy somehow “wHAT- TUBBO DID IT” “no he didnt” - besties with tommy and ranboo ofc - tubbo is rlly good at science but isnt so hot at english - but mr blade is rlly nice and takes him time to help tubbo  - tubbo appreciates it so he gets mr blade a gift at christmas - mr blade teared up - runs thru the hall dragging tom and ranboo behind him no regrets - “STOP RUNNING THROUGH THE HALLS” “no” ranboo: junior in high school, ta for mr blades mythology class - lOVES ta-ing for mr blades class - mr blade kinda lets him chill in the back, stapling papers - no interaction whatsoever - he also now cant wait to take that class next year - mr blade refers to him as my protege a lot  - i hope i used that word right - besties with tommy and tubbo - all the teachers are nice to ranboo and kinda sorry that hes friends with tommy and tubbo LMFAO  - “hi ranboo u doing ok” “yes thank u mr jacobs” “RANBOO! LETS GO! PUDDING DAY IN THE CAFETERIA” “thats my cue mr jacobs” - ranboo usually doesnt get into trouble when he does oh boy its good - not pranks on teachers but school wide pranks - is shy but when someone picks on tommy and tubbo he GOES OFF - attacks them through words - when he gets comfortable in a class he lets out these small comments that get the whole room laughing - so not the class clown but people know hes funny and people respects him 

#technoblade x reader #philza minecraft x reader #tommyinnit x reader #tubbo x reader #ranboo x reader #dreamwastaken x reader #sapnap x reader #georgenotfound x reader #quackity x reader #karl jacobs x reader #wilbur soot x reader

[abbysbunny]

Could you please write something to do with hazel x an autistic reader? (Sorry if this is a strange request)

HAZEL X AUTISTIC!READER

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warnings: nothing! fluff, idk if this is a warning but hazel is also a little autistic coded!

word count: 0.4k

notes: hii tysm for this request anon!! I'm autistic myself so I was already planning on doing this so ty for giving me an excuse to post it! I did this in the form of hc's! if you want a full fic tell me and I'll write it:)

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-so I think that hazel wouldn't know that much about autism, I think she didn't really think she would have to be informed about it

-but when you stared dating she would do sooo much research about it, like she had no idea what a "safe food" was when you told her. then the next day she bought all of your safe foods and just came knocking on your door.

-if your overstimulated in public she obviously has something in her tote bag that could help, whether it's a pair of headphones, a sensory toy or anything that could help she's got it

-she loves hearing about your special interest, like she'll listen to you talk about them for hoursss, like if your special interest is a saga of movies, she'll lay down with you and watch all of them or she'll watch them all by herself so then she can surprise you with information

-she'll bring you small little gifts related to your interest, like pins or necklaces maybe socks, just small cute stuff!!

-if you don't understand sarcasm she's fine with that because neither does she😭 the girl is clueless, a lot of times if you go out in a group and someone says smth sarcastic and neither of y'all get it and you just kinda look at each other confused on why they would say that

-if you only like certain fabrics and she happens to have clothes with that fabric, it's yours now!! whenever she buys you something she makes sure it's not any of your sensory issues, like scratchy shirts? she doesn't even look at them, or shirts that are to tight? she wouldn't even think of buying it for you

-if anyone made fun of you she's defending you hard, like either making them feel embarrassed or just yelling at them😭

-if your burnt out and don't wanna hang out she's giving you all the space you need!! like she'll just wait for you to text her when your feeling energized again

-okay so if you have a meltdown she would try her best to calm you down, if you just need to cry she'll hug you and just let you get it out, or if maybe breathing calms you down she'll do special breathing with you

-she will send you stuff like "you call it autism I call it having that dawg in me" she finds it sooo funny

-if you don't like physical touch she'll only give physical affection if it's like asked for😭 she would hate to make you uncomfortable so she tries to make you the most comfortable person ever, her ways of showing affection if of course gifts but also words of affection, she always tell you how much she loves or how much she's proud of you.

-overall she's the sweetest:')

#lou and anons(⁠◠⁠‿⁠◕⁠) #hazel callahan x reader #bottoms movie #bottoms 2023 #hazel callahan #hazel x reader #hazel callahan fanfiction #hazel callahan x fem reader #hazel callahan x you #hazel callahan imagine

[thegoober010]

HELLO! PAW PRINT ANON IS BACK!

I ABSOLUTELY ADORED THE ONESHOT!!! IM GOING INSANE ITS SO GOOD!!!

I have a bit of a different request this time! (It’s not Mettaton, I know, shocking.)

Could you do some Sans x reader headcanons? Preferably hurt/comfort if thats alright :33

IF IM SENDING TOO MANY REQUESTS PLEASEEE DO SAY SO!! I DONT WANNA OVERWORK YOU!!!

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AAAAAA IM SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT <333!!!

AND ITS TOTALLY FINE PAW PRINT ANON MWEHEHHE DW I LOVE DOING REQUESTS <333!!! AND OMG ITS NOTR METTATON RELATED!!!?!??!? shocking!!! absolutely BAFFLING!!

JKJK LMAO OFC I CAN DO THIS :)!! IT WOULD BE HELPFUL FOR NESXT TIME BTW LIKE WHAT TYPE OF HURT LIKE IF THE READER GOT INTO A FIGHT WITH THEM OR MAYBE THEY NEED COMFORT AFTER A BREAKUP OR IF THEY NEED COMFORT AFTER RELAPSING, AN ED, OR SUM THATD BE HELPFUL FOR NEXT TIME BTW <33!! IMA JUST DO IT THAT THEY HAD A BAD DAY AT WORK TODAY THE READER WORKS AT LIKE GRILBYS OR SUM TEEHEE

SANS X READER HERE WE GOOO 🗣🗣🗣

TW/CW -> None really- Just a depressed reader!

word count -> 1k/1164! I didnt write as much on this post sorry!! im pretty tired rn its 1:15 am where im at rn LMAOOO

"Are you alright?"

Fuck your life, you just came back to the house after a long, grueling, shitty shift. You were so tired you almost collapsed onto the snow before you even made it home. You just wished it was peaceful for once, that you didn't feel burnt out, overwhelmed all the time, you just wanted to sleep and never wake up, maybe then you wouldn't feel so tired. As you opened the door you placed your bag on the couch and made your way to San's room, who was not only your best friend but your boyfriend as well. He always helped you, even though you didn't particularly enjoy talking about your feelings to him especially on nights like this he was always there for you, always making sure you were okay and took care of yourself and had a good rest after these long days. You mumbled to yourself as you opened the door to his room until you realized. "Fuck he's not here." You grumbled. You rubbed your temple as you sat on his bed, you were stressed and you needed him. Why can't he just be there for you? Why does he always have to be off somewhere else and then appear late whenever you need him. It pissed you off even more, you knew you were thinking irrationally, he was always there for you it's only a few times where he can't be and is busy, you were just too stressed to think properly though, too stressed to even think about anything else besides how badly you just need someone to help you out right now. You crawled on top of his bed, covering yourself with the blanket. The shift was honestly terrible, many customers were overly rude at Grilby's today, mostly newcomers, and it was so damn busy you couldn't really do much about those people/monsters, you were so frustrated by all the orders and all the insults thrown your way, in fact you got way less tips than usual which caused you to be even more upset, money wasn't much of a problem but come on! Tears swelled up in your eyes from all the built up frustration from not just this shift, but all the past shifts that were almost the exact same situation, you hated working on those days and how underemployed that place was because you had to work twice as hard due to that as well.

After a good 10 minutes of you laying on the bed, muttering to yourself about all the stuff that happened and about how much you just needed someone for once and crying silently, you heard the door creak open. You wiped away your tears quickly with the blanket, shifting slightly and pretending to fall asleep. You knew it was sans and if he sees you like this he'd ask, and you don't want to bother him with any of your problems. "I know you're not asleep." Sans said walking up to you, he sat on the bed near you. "What happened?" he asked. You let out a sigh as you hugged the blanket tighter. "I don't want to talk about it." You grumbled, your tone annoyed with a hint of sadness. Sans stared at you for a bit before fixing your hair. "Are you sure? I mean you've been coming home more upset than usual, is work alright? Anything happening?" Sans questioned, his tone of voice growing more concerned. You furrowed your brows as you could feel the corners of your eyes sweet up with tears once more. You covered yourself with the blanket, not even daring to look at Sans. "Stop it, just STOP. I told you I'm fine! You don't have to pry into every little detail of my life I just want you here with me I don't want you digging into this I told you I'm fine, I just wanted you here with me, fuck." you yelled at first, calming your voice down as to not wake up Papyrus and to try to calm yourself down. Your voice cracks, you didn't really mean to come off as rude, you're just tired, you don't want him to get worried or to try and fix your problems, you just want him there with you, to give you a hug or just give you comforting words, you don't want him prying too much into this, you don't want him getting worried.

Sans seemed taken aback by your remark. He stayed quiet for a bit before nodding, he understood how you felt. Everyone has different ways they deal with this situation and how they want others to react, some want others to pry into their life and try to help solve their problems, others just want them to be there with them during this but not get too involved in the situation and many other things, everyone reacts differently to this much stress. Of course he was a bit shocked and to be honest a little hurt by your words but he knows you're just stressed and don't mean to be rude. He truly does understand, he knows how you feel, so he will be there for you. "You're obviously not fine, but I understand you don't want me to be involved in the situation, you just want me to be there for you, I understand." Sans replied, he gave you a comforting pat on the shoulder before laying with you on the bed. He let out a long sigh as he crossed his arms behind his head. "Take some deep breathes, that usually helps with stress, and make sure to sleep well." Sans said, you nodded. "Come on, let's take a few deep breathes." Sans said, you rolled your eyes but it does usually help. You did as he said and took a few small and quick deep breathes, trying to make the tension in your body disappear and just try to relax. "Feeling any better?" Sans asked, you shook your head no which caused him to chuckle a bit. "Yeah I kinda thought so. Deep breathes won't immediately make you feel bette but it helps with tension, for now just rest, cry if you want, I'm here for you alright... I won't judge you for being emotional okay. I love you too much for that." Sans said giving a reassuring hand on your shoulder. You nodded, you turned your head to face him and give him a small smile. "I appreciate that.." you muttered, he gives you a quick nod. "No need to do that, just rest, I'm here for you. No matter what happens remember that okay, I'll always be here for you." Sans replied, he wrapped an arms around you, pulling you closer. You let out a soft sigh as you moved closer to him, you closed your tired eyes and felt yourself slowly start to fall asleep in his arms. He kept his arm wrapped around you and watched you slowly fall asleep.

"Sleep well, I'm here, okay."

#undertale sans #sans x reader #sans x y/n #undertale angst #undertale hurt/comfort #hurt/comfort #one shot #toby fox #undertale fanfic #undertale fanfiction #fluff #stressed reader #im feeling silly ngl 😼 #im so sleep deprived rn wtf 😭

[gamer-girls427]

I'm gonna be trying to jump off Tumblr for a while.

At least in terms of posting.

I don't know. I feel so insecure about everything. It's kinda funny actually. I used to come on here to escape my anxiety, now it's just the main cause of it. I was trying to see if I could still post on here dispite everything but idk. Everything is a mess. I keep trying to clean things up but in the end I just make it messier. I can't post anything without worrying that it's not okay. I can't go outside without worrying about if someone will magically recognize me from Tumblr. I can't keep trying to explain things when I don't even really have an explanation. I can't keep making spur of the moment decisions that I ultimately come to regret. I can't keep assuming things. I can't keep feeling like everything I do is wrong (even if I do nothing, it still feels wrong).

I just can't do any of this anymore.

And to that anon that was in my inbox (I deleted your ask so sorry if I don't go over everything in it):

I wasn't using my autism as an excuse for what I did. I can fully understand that what I did was not okay. Plus there were a multitude of factors that led up to it as well other than autism. Not that any of those excuse what I did either. Nothing excuses what I did. I made bad decisions and I can own up to that.

but anon, can I tell you a funny story? I hadn't once felt the urge all week to message them again, until you sent your ask. Then I saw your thing and I started to second guess myself. "Maybe the stuff I'm posting is making them feel uncomfortable. Is it going against their boundaries? Have they seen it and just not said anything about it out of fear I'll lash out again? I should ask them." I resisted that urge for a few days but eventually I ended up doing it. I went 8 days total without doing it. That's a new record for me. But then I messaged them again and now their mental health has hit the fan, and that's very likely to be entirely my fault.

By the way anon, I am not blaming you for any of this. I take accountability for my own actions. However, that doesn't change the fact that your message made me wanna talk to them.

I feel okay with where I have left things now and I do not want another message trying to help me. You are only making me want to do it more. In fact, I am now feeling the urge to send this to them.

(tw For this next paragraph: Death is mentioned. Skip this next paragraph if you do not like that.)

Also for the past 3 days I've been having nothing but nightmares again. They're not even always in relation to the person anymore! Last night I had a dream that I was a step dad with a kid who's real parents died in a chainsaw murder (The kid was aware of what happened to the real parents btw). The kid's uncle was like insane or something but I decided to give him a chance anyways just in case he had changed like he was saying he was. So for christmas the uncle came over and set up this big elaborate christmas themed tour thing (Yes, that is a plothole since he was giving us a tour of our own house, dreams don't always make sense) That seemed really sweet and thoughtful at first. But as the tour went on, There were constant reminders of what happened to her real parents. Then at the end of the tour thing he was doing, he started to chase me around with a chainsaw before laughing at the kid (Who was now crying) and said that it was just a joke. This is just one of the many nightmares I can remember from LAST NIGHT.

I don't feel like I'm doing excessive venting. This is just what I'm like when I don't have a hyperfixation. The person was my hyperfixation so now that they most certainly hate every fiber of my being I'm not really feeling all that great. Also I have talked about it a lot with my girlfriend and bestie. My posts on this situation are very much kept to a minimum. This the situation is constantly on my mind and tormenting me. To give you an example of just how badly this has been tormenting me, a couple weeks ago, I went to a convention for the first time. I sent a text to my girlfriend that sums up my thought process while I was at this convention. However, I don't currently have it on my vr headset. when I do I'll add it to this post. To sum up the text message, basically, I was having increasingly paranoid thoughts about the entire situation the entire time I was walking around the convention center. "What if they're here and I don't know? What if they recognize me somehow? What would I do if we ran into each other here? That would be really awkward... How would they react to seeing me in public? Do they even live in this part of Canada? Probably not if we don't use the same time zone. I guess they could've always driven here though. If we did run into each other would they assume I'm stalking them IRL? would they get a restraining order on me?" Thoughts like that plagued my mind the entire time I was there. Hell, I thought they were gonna call the cops on me so I decided to take a law class next year so I can know if they could actually do that! That is how fucking paranoid I am!

Lastly, about what I meant when I said I didn't understand their boundaries, I simply was trying to say that I needed specifics on what counts as "talking about what happened" I understood they didn't want me to talk to them but I felt like I needed to contact them to know what was okay and what wasn't.

Was I too pushy?

Yes.

Do I regret that?

Yes.

Am I trying to say that my mental disorders excuse my behavior?

FUCK.

NO.

Anyways, I don't know how to end this. I'm tired of this. Unless you know them directly, please do not try to "help me" unless I ask for help.

Thank you, And I'm sorry if this came off as rude. I just feel like I've been repeating myself over and over again.

Edit: Something else I've come to realize is that I tend to mimic the behaviors of the People around me.

My parents are drinking alcohol? I'm drinking alcohol. My parents are overwhelmed? I'm overwhelmed. The person gets mad at me? I get mad at them. The person is taking a break from Tumblr? I'm taking a break from Tumblr. I think I subconsciously just go "Well, if [insert role model here] is doing it then I should do it too." Although that's just speculation.

[merrycrisis-if]

sorry if this is silly but you have no idea of how emotional this game makes me - like... every update I end up crying rivers and rivers, and I mean this in the best way possible. I love it, your writing is touching and beautiful, and merry crisis is easily one of my favorite ifs/games in general ever.

I am queer, live in an small island and it's one of the most catholic places in the country, so mc and their experiences is so relatable that it hurts.. the family problems and the inability of letting go because they're your family regardless and you still love them. the looming fear of not being accepted and the undeniable truth that perhaps you will never be enough. of loving and hating the place where you live/lived, of not having a home but still feeling like you're a part of that place. The controversy and conflict in general.

And don't even get me started on qiu. Oh my freaking god, Qiu is just. One of the best characters ever?? I love all your characters, but he is just so special to me; perhaps because I can see both my present self and my past one in him, and his relationship with MC is just... the angst. the pain. it's amazing, really. I cry everytime, and I keep replaying this game almost religiously lol. The primal urge of every child to please their parents, regardless of how they are, the thing of taking people for granted just because they're so special that it's unfathomable the idea of you losing them, and god, losing people because of your parents or just because of the seemingly impossibility of losing them. Everything.

The settings are so good as well, you can easily picture the places and the mood, even if you know little to nothing about Singapore or NY.

Even the characters that aren't the main ones are incredibly fleshed out, and they feel like real people.

Sorry for the long ask that isn't even an ask, but I really wanted to say all of this. Thank you for this game, truly!

The family problems and the inability of letting go because they're your family regardless and you still love them. the looming fear of not being accepted and the undeniable truth that perhaps you will never be enough. of loving and hating the place where you live/lived, of not having a home but still feeling like you're a part of that place. The controversy and conflict in general.

The primal urge of every child to please their parents, regardless of how they are, the thing of taking people for granted just because they're so special that it's unfathomable the idea of you losing them

Oh my godddd anon you get it :''))))

I love you, and I love that you love the game. Sending you lots of good vibes! I'll be in my corner on the universe, figuring out my shit, rooting you on as you figure out your shit! :)

P.S. Small island people are the best people. Yeah, I said it :P Fun fact: did you know, everyone I've ever loved has been from a small island? Yep.

#merry crisis #if #interactive fiction #asks #sweetest message

[musashi]

feel free to ignore if unwarranted or unhelpful seriously : i deeply relate to going from having extremely close friends you tell everything to to have basically no one you can open up to despite trying to make connections. i have a therapist who has never once advised me to make friends and has instead helped me untangle my feelings in a way that makes the load a little less to bear. i am poor poor so free clinic as well. you are not me but this has made daily life bearable

i really wish people who are sad sometimes online had any agency in their own life to say "i do not think i need therapy" and be taken seriously, but i feel like every time i say it and say it firmly here, a bunch of anons like this (and sometimes trusted friends as well) just start shaking their heads and clicking their teeth and looking away from me like oh poor thing... they're so far gone they can't even accept they need help

like maybe i'm not being clear so i'll say it again: i do not need therapy. early 20s wendy with severe personality disorders that were wreaking fucking havoc on their underdeveloped frontal lobe needed therapy. 15 year old PTSD-laden cannot log onto a single social media site without being sent harassment and shock photos wendy needed therapy. violently suicidal 10 shots of vodka a night wendy needed therapy. current wendy does not need therapy.

this does not mean that a person needs to reach a certain threshold of pain or stress to need a therapist. that is not what i am trying to say. but the ideal endgoal for a therapist is for them to some day never see their clients again. the point of a therapist is to help you gain control of your own life, and develop the proper neural pathways and coping mechanisms to do so. i do not need help with this: i have perfected it like any other art. i am amazing at doing that on my own, so much so that i have legitimately had actual licensed professionals in shock that those are skills i developed just fucking around in my early 20s trying not to die.

according to my ex, a psychology major, i perfected CBT without any coaching or instruction. i literally did it intuitively. she said to me, you realize people pay thousands of dollars to be coached on that?

when i am in crisis, it is very easy (practice) for me to find my emotional center, calm down, and get to work problem solving. whether that problem be something tangible (something went wrong at work, home, etc) or more abstract (i think my loved one hates me because i have BPD) i can easily get into 'lets fix it!' mode and follow through. people who follow me on tumblr do not see 99.9% of the issues i am having because they crop up, i feel the feelings, and then i send them on their way.

but sometimes you cannot do that on your own. human beings were literally, scientifically, logistically NOT MEANT TO SURVIVE IN ISOLATION. it is NOT POSSIBLE for a person to live a healthy, happy life without social bonds. i don't understand why i have to explain this to people. sometimes i feel like i am from mars. we are meant to be with each other! we are meant to support one another and share our woes! that is the CRUX of humanity!

so, for 99.9% of my problems, of my agonies, i not only succeed but i excel at turning them into meaningless blips on the radar of my life. there is a remaining .1%, though, where the solution is simply that i want to go to a friend, cry for a little bit, receive a hug and/or some validation, and then move on with my life like it never happened.

THAT? THAT APPARENTLY WARRANTS ME NEEDING THERAPY? THAT LITTLE, TINY, MEANINGLESS .1% THAT SOMETIMES FUCKS ME?

i'm just so sick of this. i am not a person who would have ANYTHING to talk about at therapy. stressors in my life are minimal. hobbies, creative projects, work, home life, all of these things have been lovely and heart-dappled and pink since i was reborn seven years ago. and every miserable lapse i do have is short-lived and met with courage and the knowledge that i can survive it, that i can survive anything.

but occasionally, i am sad that i do not have friends who i can realtalk with. friends who will bring their woes to me. friends who i can in turn bring my own woes to. occasionally, i am sad because i WATCHED the decline of deep social bonding. i watched terms like emotional labour and traumadumping go mainstream. i watched my friend circle become less and less comfortable with heavy topics. mere YEARS ago i could sit in a discord call with friends and talk extensively about all the highs and lows of my life and listen to them do the same. if i try that tomorrow, i will get the worst awkward silences i have ever heard in my life. heavy, palpable, heart-shattering awkward silences that scream oh, you weren't supposed to say that. you're only liked when you're perfectly happy, we don't want to hear about when you're sad.

this happened in my lifetime. i am grieving. and if i go to a therapist, all i am going to do is say, every week, "i can't think of anything much to discuss." and then maybe every 6th or 7th week i'll say "the continuing insistence that humans are not meant to help and love one another is making me feel emotionally isolated and terrified that i will never meet someone who wants that from me again."

and my therapist will say "yeah, that makes sense. i've seen a good deal of that too, it's really concerning."

and then we will nod. and i will leave.

it's cool that the 'go to therapy' people didn't make you want to scream and cry and yell "YOU'RE MISSING THE POINT" but you're right, you are not me. my life was already bearable, sometimes i just get sad about ONE THING. the one thing is that i don't have friends i can be 100% myself around, no matter how i try. no matter what i do.

we are not the same. you went to your friends, said, "hey, i just feel like you only like me when i'm palatable. i really wish i could rely on you from time to time for a listening ear. is there a reason i can't?"

your friends said "that's emotional labour and traumadumping. you need to tell that to a therapist, not me."

you said, "oh. okay."

i went to my friends, said, "hey, i just feel like you only like me when i'm palatable. i really wish i could rely on you from time to time for a listening ear. is there a reason i can't?"

my friends said "that's emotional labour and traumadumping. you need to tell that to a therapist, not me."

and i said "you are a really shitty fucking friend."

happy that's working out for you, dude. you didn't need to send this ask, and i'd prefer you never send another one again.

#wendy answers #Anonymous #wendy rants #i am so sick of this fucking shit #you are a part of the problem btw.

[newathens]

sorry if this is like overreaching but i was reminded why i love you and your blog sm today. i saw u reblog the painting glow of gold gleam of pearl and i literally had the breath sucked out of me bc i have such bad body image issues but the woman in that painting has my exact build. and i never cry but i just burst out in tears cos i just kept thinking about how i relate to u so hard on nothing ever working when it comes to losing weight or getting fit or dieting. ive been following u for a while from being a freshman in hs to a freshman in college and yeah i know i violated the no minors thing sorry. but idk between the moments of painfully relating with you with depression and body image and feeling like i know the eventual outcome of everything i hate about me. sometimes i think like. maybe itll get better for us

anon you are so lovely. i must say im sorry we share the burden of such intense emotions. it’s a heavy weight to carry but you are so young !! and though i don’t know you, i can confidently say you are beautiful. it will get easier as time goes on but it will also get better. but im not going to lie it will take work !! nobody ever told me that and i think it’s important.

but OMG 😭 following this blog during that time my god you’re a trooper !! i cant say i’d recommend following me im definitely a downer lmaoo but im glad i’ve been able to offer a bit of solace and comfort in regards to depression, etc. we are always a lot less alone in these issues than we think 🫶 also dw you’re fine !! you didn’t break any rules ur good. sending u SO much love, my love 💞💞💞

#i think the only think i have on my blog is that i will not follow u back of ur a minor? cause i think i used to get asks like that #ppl were wondering why i wouldn’t follow back or something

[guess-my-next-obsession]

People treating R*** like some dark romance trope is so sickening. I would like to think the people writing it truly just haven't taken the time to think before writing, and if they took a moment or two, they would realise how much they are crossing the line.

(As a cisF who has been in a situation like that, seeing people trivialise it into some dark romance trope, bothers me. I say it would bother me a lot more if not for a lot of therapy)

I think some writers deal with themes like SA and R in a really respectful way. And although I just tend to stay away from them as they normally aren't for me. I read a Javier Peña fic recently with a F DEA Agent, who had someone at a bar touch her inappropriately and make horrible comments to her. And how it was written with her freezing up, just wanting to go home and shower asap. And Javier being so there for her, asking if she wanted to go to the hospital. Honestly made me cry, not in a bad way. Just in a I love how the author wrote about the situation. Also I cannot remember the name of that fic and I'm so annoyed about it, if anyone can remember it please let me know, think about that fic a lot

And on the incest thing, it's weird to be in any sexual situation with anyone you are related to, especially siblings. Even if you're not technically touching it's still weird and incesty. I swear porn really has messed with people's minds with incest tropes with family members, it really has melted people's mind and given them a warped idea of what is normal

i fully agree with everything you said. thank you for putting it so eloquently. i have more thoughts but given the nature of the conversation and my desire to not continue this cycle of triggering anyone trying to heal from this sort of assault, i’ll add a cut. please only read if you feel that you can. 🤍

i personally have written assault into a series of mine, Boss. in that series, Javi P and my OC are DEA agents, oc is kidnapped and r*ped, and Javi and OC spend chapters trying to work through it together. i describe the brutal aftermath of what follows as a victim, of not even being able to be with the person you love and that you know is safe because you’ve been violated and left feeling dirty and frozen in time, of being in a state of shock for what feels like eternity, of being in fight or flight 24/7, of feeling like your body is no longer your body. if anyone writes assault/r*pe in that context, i take no issue with it.

but when the pairing itself is built on the grounds of r*pe, especially when it’s an age gap fic where there is a power dynamic (the fic in question had Joel as an adoptive father to the victim who continues to be r*ped by him) and the assault is not condemned, i take issue.

i find it sickeningly shocking that people are sending in anon hate messages to me over this stance and opinion. r*pe is r*pe.

i am not a fan of dark fics in general, but i typically can turn a blind eye to them and scroll on. but the fact that this fic specifically focuses on the fact that Joel—a beloved father-figure character who WOULD NEVER EVER DO THIS IN ANY SORT OF CANON—adopted this victim, raised her similarly to his relationship to Ellie, and then r*ped her repeatedly? i could not stay silent. that is not a “dark fic”, it’s a r*pe fantasy between a would-be father and daughter.

#tw: sa

[lemony-snickers]

I don’t think anyone here believes you to be pathetic. I certainly don’t leaving anon hate is pathetic. I imagine it was more of what you said that no one wanted to continue to perpetuate that hate and start a fight. I on the other hand will, I just didn’t see these until right now.

wherever that anon is now I find it absolutely disgusting to leave a comment like this on the page of someone you consider yourself to be a ‘fan’ of. You never know what people are going through and struggle with so really who the fuck are you to come in with your unfounded opinions?

I don’t know any creator that doesn’t struggle with their work and or self image in relation to that work—some are just better at hiding it than others. what do you mean promotion? Sharing here or on ao3 is promotion, and yes it clearly is a problem other writers are facing in which a work will receive 40likes and 2reblogs. Or 500 hits and 10comments. People don’t want to engage when they can read it and leave it, tiktok only reenforces that, so I don’t understand why you mention that here. How about you share some of the works your a “fan” of instead?? You’ve read the comments but have you left one? On lemony work or others?

That anon must not be a creator, as they clearly do not know how difficult it is to first find the time and drive to write and second find the courage to share those works.

Lemony do not listen to them no one who is a true fan here thinks this of you 💙

let me be clear about a few things:

no bashing or negativity aimed at an anon is ever necessary to still show support for a person who receives a less than ideal ask;

when i rb a "tell me honestly" ask game, i do not expect every response to be positive;

however, i also only rb those things when i know i am in an emotional space to take potential criticism.

so i was pretty fucking blindsided when i woke up on tuesday morning and the very first thing i saw was a long, fairly aggressively worded diatribe about how i am a "nagging girlfriend" fishing for attention in response to an ask game i had reblogged a whole week prior.

TW: talk of animal death in next paragraph.

and not that it's actually anyone's business, but it was particularly awful given that i spent monday night cradling my cat in my arms as he was euthanized after developing sudden & unexpected heart failure. so i wasn't in the headspace to deal with criticism at all. i could barely fucking get out of bed & was actually considering offering commissioned fics out of desperation to go toward the huge vet bill i had to suddenly pay out of pocket.

and then, to receive another anon ask insinuating that i sent the fucking thing to myself to garner... what? attention and sympathy? (lol if i wanted to do that i would've just talked about my dead cat, thanks!) really fucking cut deep. especially when not a soul voiced any support - publicly or privately - that that is not a thing i would do. because, true or not, the way my super cool nagging girlfriend brain works is to take that as confirmation that people agree:

(see anon # 1, i don't throw all of my insecure complaints onto this blog and here, anon # 2, a preview of what a mean ask i sent myself might actually sound like.)

i spent the whole of tuesday crying - at my desk, on the bus home from work, during my therapy session that afternoon, and long, long after. and maybe it's stupid to feel so attacked by meaningless shit on tumblr or lonely because of the lack of response in its wake, but goddamn, y'all. there are nicer ways to air your grievances with me than to be insulting. and if you think i'm the kind of person who would send a lengthy hurtful message to myself for fucking likes or kind asks or whatever (lol joke's on you, i guess), honestly, why are you even here?

tbh, i don't know why i'm here at this point. maybe another hibernation is overdue or maybe i should've stayed gone, idk. what i do know is i didn't login all day yesterday and it felt pretty great. because it just fucking hurt to watch countless folks like and rb all the fanart from my queue that day with nary a, "hey lem, saw those asks, hope you're doing all right" in the same span of time.

(i will acknowledge that one mutual sent a totally unrelated ask re: an opinion on food & drink to change topics which i answered privately because by that point in the day i was so fucking depressed the thought of trying to be fun & lighthearted made me physically ill & i was of the resolute opinion that not a single person would give a shit what i had to say about it anyway.)

i'm sorry to vent on your ask, anon. i probably shouldn't post this but who even cares at this point, lol. people will think what they will of me and i'm too exhausted to attempt a curation of something better or more well-adjusted or self-assured.

i hope you're having a good week, blue heart anon. for better or worse, i hope the anons who made me cry on tuesday are, too. but i'm down in The Pit now (which is what my therapist and i call my deep dark depression spirals) and idk when i'll claw my way back out.

hopefully soon. take care of yourselves in the meantime, yeah? <3

#ask #lovely anon #tw animal death #tw long post

[davincsoo]

Lita was my first BL. I’ve been obsessed for weeks and now I’d like to move on and watch more. If it’s ok can you just recommend a few to me pretty please. Ones that will make me want to watch them over and over. Thank you.

Hi lovely~ I will absolutely recommend some to you, as well as provide you with a link to where I've watched them.

Thai BL's:

Until we meet again - This is a really good attention keeper, very cute, but it touches heavy on su*c*de and trauma related to. It is intense when you come across it, but it doesn't take up the entire series. (Small spoiler: you have to watch them to understand the rest of the show because of it's importance.) Just take care around those scenes. It also involves (another small spoiler but nothing to ruin the series for you) the red string of fate and reincarnation. It sad, but so cute in the long run. It really worth the watch, I promise.

Between us - This series is a side story to Until we meet again, and if you want to be in a constant state of emotional messy and infuriatingly horny, this... This is the series for you babe. There really isn't a summary of the show that I can give you without giving you more spoilers of UWMA. So I would suggest you watch UWMA first because then you'll understand Between us. But I PROMISE that it is SO MUCH LESS SADDER than UWMA. Like the only crying you'll be doing is over how fucking annoying they leave you hanging on some of the episodes (it's still ongoing rn, but should be finished by the time you get to it) and how horny your ass will be because they ARE NOT DELIVERING ENOUGH. (I'm so sorry that I'm not normal about this series.) There is also a series of clips that they haven't put into the show that you can watch here. I haven't watched them yet as I just discover them lmao, but I'm sure they are worth it.

Kinnporsche the series - This is a really good series if you are into the mafia boss shit. It starts of kind of slow, but picks up within 20 minutes? I basically summarised it for you with mafia boss lmao. It does come with some warnings: subtle SA with the main pairing (doesn't happen as often as it does in the novel trust me... I've read it [shivers from the war flashbacks]), and (i'm spoiling but I need to warn so you can prepare yourself) SA toward the ending of the series (can't remember the episodes rip) some stockholm syndrome bullshit, brief Su*c*de attempt... Jesus this is really off-putting for a newbie, but PLEASE! It has really great characters ad it's super funny more than angsty. Just give it a go, I promise it'll be worth it. You can send me anon hate if you disagree.

Cutie pie - This series is about an arranged marriage, but wait don't leave PLEASE. LISTEN... It is so fucking adorable and cute and I just cannot express to you why you must watch it in word form, so please take these gif spoilers as reasons why you should.

JUST LOOK AT THAT AND THIS

just please please PLEASE watch it for the love of god. (my ass is so not normal. sorry if you were looking for someone sane this bitch is not that.)

Korean BL:

Choco Milk Shake - This series is about a cat and dog long since passed that come back in human form because their owner called for them. And my fucking god it is the cutest fucking series and you'll love it it because I love it.

I haven't watched much, so I will update this with anymore recs I have in the future. But please, my ask box is open if you want to talk with me as you watch as well as my dm/pm's. I would love to hear your thoughts on these!

#anon asks #anon replies #series recs #cutie pie the series #until we meet again #between us the series #choco milk shake #kinnporsche the series #i was the worst person to ask for series recs #im so sorry lmao

[sleeplessinspace]

See also in relation to Two Minutes: y/n becoming his little murderman housewife he comes home to after trips, and listen to how their week was and regale them with all the unsavoury details of his - 'oh how they screamed, but not as prettily as you do for me, little one'- and shower them with gifts and that smile (that used to seem so endearing but now there's so much else beneath it) And of course to fuck y/n senseless and leave plenty of marks to remember him by while he's away. He can't have his little darling forgetting him and getting any silly thoughts in their head, after all…

oh this just gave me such a barrage of Thoughts, anon, you have no idea

the soft:

learning about murdock's true nature hasn't changed the dynamic between you much, something you're immensely grateful for

he still goes out of his way to bring you gifts, some a bit bigger than others now that he can be freer with his affection for you

sending him pictures of yourself wearing his sweaters or with the gifts he's gotten you as a pick-me-up when he's gone for the longer hunts, he swears he feels something like warmth in his heart for the first time in a long time seeing you smile with your arms wrapped around a giant plush he'd gotten you a few months ago

and in return, he'll send you selfies from inconspicuous locations, a hint of your smile on his lips, his eyes bright beneath the layer of his sunglasses

murdock coming home wired-tired but not with his usual vigor where he wants nothing more than to spend the rest of the night between your thighs, and you solve this by drawing a bath, spending a good hour or two sitting in the warm tub with him laying on your chest, his legs tangled with yours, running your fingers through his hair with a scratch or two

this is one of his favorite places to be and is in his top five ways to spend time with you

if he's not too tired he'll talk about the murder in great detail, describing it so vividly that you'd swear you were there beside him and you hate to admit it, but over time it starts to get you excited hearing him talk about his art

😈:

fucks you completely stupid the night before he leaves for a fresh hunt, to the point where you're hardly aware of him leaving, pressing a kiss to your hair before he goes, the only thought running through your mind is how his cum is going to waste without him there to keep it inside of you

you're absolutely covered in marks as well, murdock doesn't want a single doubt in your mind of who you belong to

just another set of gifts he likes to leave you

you love pressing your fingers into them as you touch yourself a few nights later, murdock's voice a sinful murmur in your ear as he talks you through orgasm after orgasm

definitely buys one of those vibrators connected to a phone app so he can toy with it during one of his sessions, the thought of you squirming with need while he takes a life is one of the fastest ways to get him hard

and when he comes home? he's like a man possessed, desperate to empty all of that near-frenzied energy into you—he buries his hands in your hair as you swallow his cock, telling you frantically about how beautifully he made his victims cry out but nothing could ever match the way he makes you scream for him, his little siren

#cereal killer ☆ #ask.txt #spicy.txt #two_minutes.txt #mine.txt #i am so normal about him....i promise #perfectly normal

[queen-rainy-love]

Red Velvet sees Madeleine and Knight panicking over something and he asks what is it. They explain it really fast and he’s confused. Clover comes into the scene and screams about the journal. RV grabs the journal from Clover and decided to read it as his brother protest. He reads the pages they have read but also reads a page about how Clotted hates being related to them. This makes RV mad and runs to find Clotted Cream. His brothers protest and as they chase him (Part 5 soon)

I see. I might not be mentally ready for part 5. But I will still wait for it. (And you did accidentally send it twice but it's fine.)

*The scene is set with Red Velvet wandering the Custard Manor. He's a bit annoyed but he is glad that he has peace and quiet.*

Madeleine: *From a distance* Why were you in my room?!

Knight: *From a distance* You took something from me! I was only getting it back! But why do you have Clotted Cream's journal?!?

Red Velvet: (There goes my peace and quiet.) *Walks over to the duo* What are you two yelling about?

*Madeleine and Knight jump a bit but start overlapping explaining what had happened. Red Velvet tries to get them to calm down and slow down. After two minutes of failing to get them to calm down, Red Velvet each placed a hand over their mouths, shutting them up.*

Red Velvet: Okay...What is going on? *Before he could get an answer, Clover comes in crying. Now concern* Why are you crying?

Clover: I thought this was a book I brought! But instead, I read something I shouldn't have and I don't know what to do!!

*Red Velvet lets go of Madeleine and Knight before taking the journal. As he's reading the pages, the three brothers try to get him to stop, begging him to put it down. He was just about to do that when he read one page about all four of them.*

To be related to those four...I can't figure out why they were born lucky. They were separated, yes, and yet they had good luck wherever they went. Marble became a personal knight of the crown Hollyberry Princess. Clover helped create the Cookie Kingdom. Madeleine had a family that raised him to be a great warrior. And Red Velvet...he was lucky that his mother kept him. None of them could dare understand the amount of frustration I had been through...the loneliness I've been through.

*After reading that, Red Velvet's arms start shaking. Madeleine, Clover, and Knight could see something forming on his face, but couldn't tell what it was.*

Madeleine: Red Velvet...

*Before another word could be formed, Red Velvet is bolting down the hallway with speed none of them have ever seen before. The remaining three brothers chase after him, calling him to stop. But nothing is working.*

Anon... I'm scared of what Part 5 will be like...

#cookie run kingdom #crk headcanons #clotted cream cookie #red velvet cookie #knight cookie #madeleine cookie #clover cookie

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alright time for tal to run her mouth since that's like the one thing I'm good at. buckle up bitches I'm about to pop off

i am so beyond sick and fucking tired of seeing people come after lexi. you liked lost boys? awesome! we all did! but that's not the only thing lexi has written and it's currently not what she's working on. if you don't like what her and i are posting now simply scroll past it and move on. i can tell you right now it's not gonna stop us from writing and it's not gonna get you any more lost boys related content when you send her shitty ass anons for no reason other than the fact that you're pathetic and bored.

sorry that you don't have a creative bone in your body and can't write your own shit. plenty of writers on tumblr cater to requests and that's perfectly fine. if you want something specific go find one of them. lexi has so many good ass fucking ideas it blows my mind every time and i am beyond honored to write with her and call her one of my best friends. the people that want to bitch are, in my opinion, obnoxious little creatures with no lives. cry about it. i don't give a fuck about the feelings of people who want to disrespect people i love and care about. and y'all know i do not bite my tongue w shit like this.

not a single person on this site is entitled to any content. you should be grateful that people decide to post their work. you should be grateful when a writer you like decides to continue a series. you should be grateful that you get content that you're looking for. but this fucking bullshit expectation that any of us are just gonna drop what we're doing and write for you and you specifically is bat shit insane. i know y'all like lovers 101 but i put that on hold because I'm enjoying writing call the hunters and anthem of the angels with lexi way more. don't like the two series we're posting? either scroll on and don't interact or just fucking unfollow. i genuinely don't give a rats ass. I'm not doing this for clout or for followers or anything. i found out i like writing so i write. that's why any of us do it so for anyone to come into any creator's ask box and drop hateful comments or bitch about not getting exactly what you want when you want it is just baffling. you're fucking childish.

lexi of all people on here gets the most hate i've seen and it fucking disgusts me. between the rude and disrespectful comments about her writing to the fucking death threats? a lot of you need to be fucking institutionalized. you need serious mental help because obviously you're severely unwell. lexi is a god damn light to have in my life and anyone who knows her would say the same fucking thing.

so bottom line, if you want to be a cunt, don't. and if you chose not to listen then don't be surprised when someone like me comes out to drag your sorry asses

#tal talks