#and i literally just burst into tears

[skinreflectsthesun]

.

#I think the moments when im alone and have a moment to myself is when I realize how not okay I am #yesterday I came home and my kiddo was already asleep because he hasn’t been feeling good #and i literally just burst into tears #because I had only seen him for about 15 minutes in the morning #because I woke up late and was rushing #and then he was asleep when I came home and that was it that was all the time I got with him #I missed him so much and couldn’t even hold him because I knew he needed to sleep and get some rest #anyways I was pretty sad about that but it hit me harder than I anticipated and I spent the rest of the evening just bummed out #just really made me realize I’m so not okay

[stuckinapril]

every time i walk into my local library i make sure to look at the receptionists with big wet eyes before heading to my corner to study bc i really want them to hire me as a part-time aide

#not even bc i need the money like it would just be so good for my mental health #extra cash would be nice but i also just like existing there #i don't need another thing on my plate but this feels like anxiety relief more than anything #esp bc w all my pre-med stuff sometimes i feel guilty for reading recreationally. this would force me to be somewhere i love to be #i WANT to be around books for 6 hours at a time. stacking. shelving. cleaning those precious books #i will burst into tears if they don't let me #i literally know the dewey decimal system by heart i'm perfect for this #p

[torturedpoetdean]

PUTTING HIM IN MY POCKET

#HES SO CUTE I LITERALLY JUST BURST INTO TEARS #ana's spn rewatch

[profounddefendorcrusade-blog]

I feel bad for Starlo.

Star has a point, idk what the four were ticked off about, there is like 99% chance everyone willingly participated in the trolley problem, based on what we've seen of his behavior thus far it's not like Starlo to be that big of a jerk/drag them by force/yell at them to do it. Ed's words:

he does it because Star asks NICELY

clearly jealous

It genuinely seemed like a fun time/fun roleplay, especially since every day is the same. Like, the five are supposed to be a rowdy and adventures bunch, what exactly did Starlo do wrong, I'm genuinely confused and curious. Except taking a big liking in Clover (his posse should know that this is a big moment for him, according to Blackjack they've known each other since high school and had the same liking for westerns. So they were basically a nerd gang.) Starlo was kind, patient and considerate towards Clover the whole time, even warned Mooch about them not being bandits, taught Clover gun safety, wanted to bring his posse along for a fun time, thanked Ace for telling him about getting Clover a new hat...

Sure, at first he only liked Clover for being a human, but as Ceroba says, that changed and he grew to genuinely care about them, plus I can't help but think Star saw himself in Clover and that's part of the reason he was so proud of them all the time even when they messed up (I'll talk more about this at some point)

What exactly made Ace want to leave the gang? He even said how he doesn't mind "getting run over by the fake train"

he's so nice. says sorry for forgetting the safety goggles even when he was scatterbrained due to his excitement. I love him so much

The only real "faults" (I'll call them temporary faults) I saw in Star during the Wild East section was that he was even more enthusiastic and more proud than usual. But how couldn't he be when he met a member of the species that he has admired for so long because they have real cowboys and sheriffs on the surface (who are seen as brave heroes who deliver justice, while Star canonically feels like a nobody farmer). His posse should have realized Clover wouldn't be there forever and just let their boss enjoy himself with his "deputy who'd have to leave sooner or later anyway"(or be more patient with him/ask him why he feels this strongly towards Clover/if there's a deeper reason for that). His friends including Ceroba just turn their back on him so quickly instead. The moment he's gotten the chance to feel valued for once and put himself first and not have to take care of this whole town and everyone in it and live his dream of meeting a real human, suddenly "his personality is damaged?"

Star's literally built this whole town, organised everything, he worries about everyone, Ceroba (plus was the one to give her emotional strength before and after Clover's sacrifice), Kanako, the monsters, his family, struggles with feelings of worthlessness yet never wipes that smile off his face, always does his best to be hopeful and optimistic and make others laugh, gave his posse a nap time so they don't become exhausted, gave Ceroba a free home, didn't act upon his feelings towards her and was a 110% supportive, caring friend instead. THAT'S who he is. He's the papa bear of this friend group, the glue holding everyone together.

He was just *really* excited. Y'all know he's insecure and just wishes to escape who he is and yet y'all blame him for liking Clover so much. Yeah, the four are very clearly jealous. But why won't the four of you control your feelings for a while? As mentioned, Clover WILL HAVE TO LEAVE EVENTUALLY. They won't be Star's "deputy" forever (the kid who's just as into westerns as he is, who values justice just as much, who also values doing the right thing. Someone he clearly felt understood in the presence of, whom he loved; just look at the way he talks about Clove during Showdown). Star seems genuinely confused of what he did wrong poor guy just wanted to live his fantasy for once and feel important:

Even at the beginning Moray's like "oh no Martlet is upset" Mooch replies "don't be a buzzkill nothing exciting ever happens around here" and Ray's like "Yeah you've got a point"

If you all agreed to have a little fun with a human who will very soon leave forever why is Starlo's enthusiasm such a big problem? If the posse weren't into this after all (unless they were simply too jealous which could have been solved with a honest talk and a little patience) why are you doing this "rowdy" job with Star in the first place? Do you want your boring routine day to day life so much back? Or just for Clover to leave (which they will soon enough)? You, western enthusiasts, literally met a real human, A HUMAN FROM WESTERNS YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PASSIONATELY INTO (clearly not as passionate as Star but passionate ENOUGH to understand where he's coming from).

... okay.

#Like idk if I'm being biased because Star is my favorite character but I kinda just started thinking more and more about this and... yeesh. #Felt like a BIT of an overreaction to blame Starlo this much #No wonder he cracked #and unlike with Ceroba we actually see him do his very best to “fix” what he did “wrong” #i feel so much sympathy for this guy man #WAY more than for Ceroba #sorry fox lady #uty #undertale yellow #starlo uty #uty starlo #like dude literally had to come crawling on his hands and knees for them to forgive him #what “loyal” “supportive” friends they all are #sobbing for star #poor poor man #meanwhile everyone forgave ceroba for much much MUCH worse #she didn't need to burst into tears and beg for forgiveness even though she SHOULD have #everyone forgives her immediately on the spot + she gets a hug from clover #I'm sorry Starlo #like how was he “selfish” and “reckless” #he did something for himself for the 1st time in his life #y'all are reckless too btw #you put yourself first ONCE and they call you selfish #Star had the right to be mad at them for attacking Clover for no reason other than jealousy #wdym he's throwing you around for human business you literally wanted this #he watched the tapes more than 50 times bc that's how much he hates himself #and yet he's still been doing EVERYTHING in his power to be there for EVERYBODY

[moonstonesundrop]

i cant get over the wenclair hug. wednesday, who we know hates physical touch, not only lets enid hug her, but after pushing her back to ensure sure shes okay, pulls enid back in and buries her face in her shoulder and splays her hand across her back like she's trying to feel as much of enid as possible. literally squeezes her eyes shut like she's breathing enid in. im going insane. wenclair s2 NOW

#i literally see it in any edit and burst into tears #theyre just #SO CUTE #enid is wednesdays safe place goodbye #wenclair #wednesday addams/enid sinclair #wednesday addams #enid sinclair #autistic wednesday addams #enid sinclair has adhd

[skitskatdacat63]

I don't think I can ever emotionally recover from these

#the inherent romance of monaco parc ferme #seriously these murdered me i really can never recover from them #screaming crying THEM!!!!!!!! THEM!!!! THEMMMMM LOOK AT THEM!!!!! #jense's hand basically covering the breadth of seb's back im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal #the gif version of this you can only see seb's face and hes very fond too sob sob and they keep holding hands while theyre talking sob sob #THE WAY SEB'S CLOSING HIS EYES ANF RESTING HIS CHIN ON JENSE'S SHOULDER AND JENSE'S SMILE ABT IT #JENSE'S FOND EXPRESSION IN THE 2ND PIC LOOK AT THE WAY HES LOOKING AT HIM WITH THOSE FOND EYES IM GONNA CRY #pictures that make me need to get up and run laps around the room bcs im seriously gonna burst into tears #2011 sebson makes me roll around in bed kicking my feet and screaming #WHO IS DOING IT LIKE THEM!!! WHO ELSE WOULD TREAT AND LOOK AT THE GUY WHO JUST BEAT HIM WITH SUCH AFFECTION!?!??!?!??! #i seriously am gonna lose it when i watch the 2011 races i think i willl actually combust i cant handle it #('pictures that automatically make me think of Solar Flare') #(these are from before that fic takes place yet are the most romantic pics ive ever seen in my life) #(solar flare!mark was so right when he told jb that he and seb look in love in literally every pic of them together) #sebson #jenson button #sebastian vettel #sv5 #jb22 #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #2011 monaco gp #2011 monaco grand prix

[thiefking]

i don’t know if this will be in any way fruitful i am NOT optimistic about it but. if anyone knows of someone who used to have the url jimsrightsactivist who is/was in the homestuck & mob psycho 100 fandoms and goes by (used to go by?) the name zee. PLEASE please please send them my way i just looked through a bunch of old screencaps of our conversations and i got so wistful it hurt. i’m not exactly keen on putting my old name/url out there because i can’t log into my old account to like. purge it of its evils. so instead i’ll just say “hey remember friends or pho and karkat turning into a werewolf in a chipotle bathroom? remember goot roper? remember carptan camch or whatever the fuck awful typo i made that one time? remember snowdin town’s theme?” and hope that works for communicating exactly who i am LOL

#txt #when i remembered. them saying. snowdin town's theme reminded them of me. literally burst into tears i did it again just now #i um. have no leads other than that old tumblr url. like none at all #so making this post is kind of. my only option for even Potentially contacting them i think . #THIS IS OK TO REBLOG. PLEASE HALP

[ofmermaidstories]

final chapter is finished. gimme a day to pretend to edit.

#NOT to get emotional on main but i may or may not have burst into tears #not bc of whatever’s happening in the chapter but because it feels so— #like—this fic is now officially 200k in word count and that’s so stupid but also that is literal *years* worth of effort and im #i just can’t believe we’re here LMFAO #(im crying rn i hate myself DONT LOOK AT ME)

[evansbby]

I’m not ready for Poyt to end😭😩

I’m ngl, I literally JUST finished typing this now and I started crying

#‘the end’ JAJSJSJAK #IT FEELS LIKE I JUST WROTE PART ONE AND NOW WE ARE AT THE END???? I CANNOT #I still need to edit the fuck out of it tho #add some things here and there and delete some things here and there #but still this was such an emotional moment #I’m actually embarassed like I literally burst into tears as I typed the end #oh my god #anon #poyt ask #poyt

[fairyofshampgyu]

How is beomgyu even a real person like 😭😭 I swear I have just never seen a prettier person ever he’s so beautiful I can’t even I don’t even what how why is he so fucking handsome HOW

#HIS MOLE AS WELL #Also he literally has the prettiest eyes ever I love his eyes sm he’s so fucking pretty #also I was listening to lovesong today and idk why but I BURST INTO TEARS 😭😭 probably bc I’m nearly on my period #but like that song is just so #I’d do anything to listen to lovesong for the first time again 😭😭 it means so much to me #the guitar is so pretty in it it makes me feel nostalgic and sad 😭😭

[compacflt]

i’ve got a question about your writing process: in order to write a 30 year narrative, you create it out of hundreds of individual moments & actions, and each one has to function by itself and also part of a whole—have truth to itself and emotional resonance in a timeline. imo the key to doing this successfully is to care about each moment and make each one memorable, which seems very difficult: you have to get at the meat of the human behavior, believably, in a way that matters and explains and progresses the story, every time. and to write 200k words of it you do it hundreds of times! could you talk a bit about idea generation for each moment and how you brainstorm and write them?

omg an excuse to make more diagrams ! Thank you so much for this lovely ask!

okay: in case you don’t want to scroll through like four/five months of my inane icemav Poasting, I’ve done a couple other posts that go into my process — here about specifically chapter 1 and here about the fatal flaw of my fics from a construction standpoint

but from an idea generation standpoint… it’s pretty boring and cynical. I literally just make checklists. “things that HAVE to happen.” here’s my notes app check list of stuff that HAD to happen for the story to make sense in my rewrite of what is now chapters 8 & 9. this is from last december lol

and here’s a checklist/diagram of the major story beats and the changes in relationship dynamics throughout the story. any one of these dynamics changing reflects on the others in a way that‘s worth talking about. the hard part is finding a framing device or scene to talk about them.

the A plot of the fic is ice’s relationship with the navy, primarily. his arc is defined by his rank. so that’s the number 1 dynamic I wanted to focus on in such-and-such scenes, and why I stuck as stringently as possible to the “one rank per chapter” formula until ice got to the top & had to reckon with what being at the top actually means. His change in ranks is inspiration enough for most scenes because it shifts the dynamics in a way that is worth remarking upon in and of itself.

as an example im thinking of this scene (mostly because it’s short but also) because i think it’s kind of representative of how my idea generation process works

It fills a lot of gaps that i needed filled at that specific juncture in the story. the idea started with a stupid little section of dialogue in my head (mav would be surprised that ice’s official Navy docusign signature isn’t his actual signature) that happened to be symbolically relevant too (of course ice would have two different signatures for his two different personas). Then it morphed into a discussion of Ice’s canonically unhappy-looking compacflt portrait, which is canonically unhappy-looking. Then add onto that ice admitting he’s only happy at home (home obviously meaning with maverick, given that he’s literally in his house right now and still doesn’t feel like he’s home) and maverick telling him, “well that’s a problem that has literally the easiest fix in the world. youre making this way more complicated than it needs to be. just come home to me.”

so it’s literally just checking off boxes of things I wanted to talk about. as I said, a very cynical creation process. ✅ ice and mav doing the long-distance-relationship phone call thing (framing device for the whole scene). ✅ mav knowing ice’s real vs fake signature ❤️. ✅ ice’s canon unhappy compacflt portrait that makes an appearance in TGM. ✅ ice not feeling at home in Hawaii. ✅ ice not being fulfilled by the job & only being fulfilled by mav. ✅ ice coming up with excuses to see mav at any possible chance he gets. ✅ ice still obviously thinking of mav and Bradley as his family & maverick as his home. Etc etc. You see what i mean? how many stupid little ideas, symbols, and dynamic shifts can i cram into a page or so? that’s pretty much my thinking.

#btw i was out with my friends when i got ur comment on ao3 and it literally made me burst into tears in public so thanks #apartment should be house or residence and drivers license should be DOD ID card #no way the compacflt lives in an apartment on ford island. not possible #also when i wrote ‘it’s not my job to be happy in pictures Pete’ i was kicking my feet and giggling like a little girl #it is actually a huge part of his job to look happy in pictures LMFAO #or at least content with proceedings #but that doesn’t fit the debbie downer narrative!! #top gun #top gun maverick #edts notes #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #asks #the extras I’m working on are similarly stupid wrt original ideas #Ice & mav celebrate Xmas!!! then turns into like a whole big angst fest #all my ideas start small! #theyre just framing devices for what I want to say

[yourpaceangel]

I gots 🥺 Covid 😭

#mom and i are both fucking sick now I’m so mad #ive got shit to do i don’t have time for this 😭😭😭 #im literally so upset i actually just burst into tears

[becca-e-barnes]

this for subby!bucky 😵‍💫

There’s nothing hotter than a man moaning his way through a make out session and grinding his hard-on against your body, idgaf. Men moaning in general fucking floors me 😵‍💫

But I really like the thought of him starting off thinking he's in control of himself. Not necessarily in control of you, he just thinks he's pretty composed, all things considered. The featherlight kisses have his heart beating just a little faster than normal but it's manageable.

It all just gets away from him though. The tiny pecks turn into tender, deeper kisses and your hands start to wander. Those kisses inevitably develop into a kind of frantic passion that he has difficulty keeping up with. His brain goes a little foggy and nothing else matters except getting more of you and getting it now.

He loses himself in the feeling of you so entirely that he hardly notices he's been trying to ease the throbbing need in his own cock. "O-oh fuck." He groans, eyes closed, cheeks flushed, lips slick and dick twitching in his pants.

"We can go slower if this is too much for you, baby." You whisper softly, keeping your face close to his. God, he's beautiful like this and you know he'd whimper if you told him that.

"No, God. I don't need you to go slower. I need more." There's no shame in those blown out pupils when his eyes flutter open. He's not embarrassed by his own need. Instead, there's a complete trust that you'll take care of him because you always do. There's no judgement or reservation between you both because there simply doesn't need to be.

"I can do that." You laugh quietly, tugging him towards you so your lips can crash together with the exact same intensity as before and it never fails to amaze you that he melts into your touch so entirely.

You feel how hard he is and in truth, it would be difficult not to given how he's grinding it against your body with more purpose than before. His mouth is so hungry, never managing to taste enough of you and in no time, it's trailed down your neck, sucking at your skin while his frantic grind continues.

"Good boy, Buck. That's it, rub yourself silly on me." You encourage, drinking in his pathetic groan. That permission almost makes him wish he could cum in his pants.

"You're like a puppy, aren't you? So eager. You just can't help yourself." Your hand drifts downwards, rubbing over the bulge in the front of his sweatpants and you feel him absentmindedly thrusting into your touch. He's a moaning mess, babbling and begging, lost the lust that's now making the fingertips of his flesh hand tingle and his head spin.

#asks answered <3 #anon #becca writes spice #sub!bucky #One more minor inconvenience today #is quite possibly all it would take #for me to burst into tears #Just one #i had an idea stuck in my head all day for some angsty poetry #And I wrote it and it was even more fucking tragic than I expected #over something that I'm literally not even sad about #it just has a lot of potential to be something that someone else in the same situation might be sad about? #So idk where it all came from #And now I can’t go to something I was really excited about #bc it’s over my mum’s 50th birthday #i think I’m just going to lie in bed and not move for the rest of the night #Maybe if I lie still enough I’ll dissolve

[francesderwent]

the office volunteer lady who usually comes in one day a week was in three days in a row this week and today especially she simply did not stop speaking to me all day, frequently yelling her questions to me across the building where I could not hear her, and there have been people staying at my house and people visiting actually constantly, I think today was the first day since December 23rd that there hasn’t been a person at my house whom I am not blood related to, which is twelve days straight of there being nine or more people in a home with one full fucking bathroom. I have been worn down to my last nerve. I haven’t hit introvert rock bottom in a while but boy have I now.

#I went downstairs to start steeping a cup of tea and I can’t go back down to get it because my mom is playing music on her iPad #and the thought of hearing it makes me want to burst into tears #I am so overstimulated. so oversocialized. #so literally just WORN OUT #I have plans with my boyfriend tomorrow but I might have to cancel because I want to SCREAM #he usually doesn’t deplete my social battery! but his mom does. I love her but she does!! #and I am so tired of being pulled in a million directions I want to do something just for me! #but I CAN’T because my nerves are so frayed from being pulled in a million directions and not having a moment to myself!!!

[infinityinakiss]

so i'm rewatching the season (as you should all be doing, come on let's get this renewed), and i noticed that beatrice says "let's go home" during the dance scene when there are many other things she could've said, like "i'm tired,i wanna leave," or "come on, let's just go." she doesn't choose any of those, she chooses the word "home."

two months she's been here, and it's already home. i've never lived anywhere for two months and thought it was home. it always felt like something was misplaced, like i was walking through someone else's life. but to beatrice, everything feels right. this little corner of the world feels like home, because she's there with ava.

#i love semantics #literally the same thing for ava they are so in love #may be overthinking but it is a nice thought #god they just get cuter and cuter #like jeez leave a little love for the rest of us #i would like to survive the night without bursting into tears again #ain't gonna happen honey #okay on to the normal tags #warrior nun #warrior nun season 2 #avatrice #ava x beatrice #ava silva #sister beatrice #alba baptista #kristina tonteri young

[junkissed]

no like you Don't get it this is so fucking serious to me like genuinely there are tears in my eyes rn look at his fuckign hands the way hes holding onto her so tightly and his smile like im actually gonna walk into oncoming traffic this is too much for me

#🌃 : june.txt #baby fever is SO FUKCIGN BAD #i havent even seen the 2nd episode yet ive only seen the 1st #its gonna take like 10 business days for me to build up the strength to even open youtube like i just cant do it im so insane #im mentally ill. sick in the head #sick 2 my stomach about to burst into tears #i am so distraught rn like literally genuinely actually