#I am so overstimulated. so oversocialized.

[francesderwent]

the office volunteer lady who usually comes in one day a week was in three days in a row this week and today especially she simply did not stop speaking to me all day, frequently yelling her questions to me across the building where I could not hear her, and there have been people staying at my house and people visiting actually constantly, I think today was the first day since December 23rd that there hasn’t been a person at my house whom I am not blood related to, which is twelve days straight of there being nine or more people in a home with one full fucking bathroom. I have been worn down to my last nerve. I haven’t hit introvert rock bottom in a while but boy have I now.

#I went downstairs to start steeping a cup of tea and I can’t go back down to get it because my mom is playing music on her iPad #and the thought of hearing it makes me want to burst into tears #I am so overstimulated. so oversocialized. #so literally just WORN OUT #I have plans with my boyfriend tomorrow but I might have to cancel because I want to SCREAM #he usually doesn’t deplete my social battery! but his mom does. I love her but she does!! #and I am so tired of being pulled in a million directions I want to do something just for me! #but I CAN’T because my nerves are so frayed from being pulled in a million directions and not having a moment to myself!!!