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burinazar · 1 year

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Could I get a fic of modern day Ganga Trio doing something like playing a video game or going shopping?

Delivered! Below the cut you'll find the Three Sages as housemates in a modern AU, two-thirds shopping and one-third video games. (btw if you haven’t seen it I did also write Vueko, Belaf and Irumyuui doing groceries once. This is definitely not in the same continuity as that for a few reasons, ex. I have a role in mind for Waz in that one that's definitely not 'goofy housemate', but if I start naming specific differences I'll go rambling.) Anyway since I can't help myself this 'ficlet' is not a ficlet it's 2k words lol. Hope you enjoy!

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“Hmm…let’s see…this thing’s big, huh, Vueko?” So saying, Wazukyan worked his fingers underneath the edge of the long, flat box, lifting it a little from where it lay on the floor. A moment before, he had haphazardly slid the thing out from the big warehouse shelf, with Vueko spotting him and guiding the package with her hands as needed. And now it was on the floor, but where it needed to be on their trolley-cart-thing.

Wazukyan was in a crouching position next to the box, looking up at her, which felt a little off to Vueko – she was used to her older housemate looking benignly down on her from the lofty heights. “Alright, careful not to pinch your fingers as you get a hold of the other end of this thingy.”

Vueko did her best to oblige, chewing her lip as she carefully maneuvered her hand underneath the other end of the heavy box. “Now let’s do a ‘team lift’ just like these little guys in the drawing, on the count of three.” (Vueko stared at the tiny figures drawn on the box – they had funny, angular faces with cute little smiles.) “And, oh!” – with oh, Wazukyan made one of his habitual open-mouthed faces. It was a bit silly looking…alright, it was very silly looking. “Remember to use your knees, not your back! Hurting yourself would be no good, hey? One, two…three!”

Vueko did her best to lift with her knees, and they rose up to a standing position together. “Fueh. Arg. Uh, but now I can’t see where the trolley cart thing is…”

“Got a good grip?”

“Yeah, it’s just a little awkward to hold. Wait – wait, Wazukyan, the cart–!” Nudged by a corner of the package or one of their legs, it had started to roll away. Without thinking, Vueko stuck out a hand to hold it in place – and her remaining hand couldn’t keep a grip on the suddenly-heavy cardboard package. It went slipping inexorably out of her grip.

Vueko dropped her end. It promptly landed on her foot. “Fuheyouch!” she yelped.

“Ah! Oop,” said Wazukyan as he set his end down onto the floor slowly. “Dropped it, huh? Well, the particleboard stuff they use is sturdier than it sounds, it’ll be fine. No harm done!”

“I dropped it on my toes,” said Vueko, trying not to sound too miserable.

“Oh. Some harm done, huh…” Wazukyan frowned sympathetically and they both looked down at Vueko’s left foot. It was sneaker-clad and did not look any different for having been Ikea’d on.

“...Vueroeruko, Wazukyan, what are you two doing?” They both looked up to see Belaf standing nearby. Clearly he had been coming to meet them at the checkout area (a few dozen feet beyond the warehouse section) like they had discussed beforehand, and spotted their antics on the way. He was giving them one of his trademark Belaf Stares -- intense, slightly quizzical – and had his arms crossed primly on his chest.

He also had a large stuffed shark shoved under one elbow.

“Belaf, what is that?” said Wazukyan.

“That’s a – uh – Blahaj,” said Vueko immediately. She gave her best shot at pronouncing Blahaj, having only seen it in text. Blah-hodge. “I saw it on the internet.” She was standing on one foot now and leaning on the trolley cart thing.

“Indeed! It is a Blåhaj,” said Belaf. He said it something like blue-hai. It was Belaf, so that meant this was the right way to say it.

“Ooooh. Found yourself a cute little friend?” said Wazukyan, grinning widely.

“I simply thought this would be a pleasant and versatile item to have around the house. Look,” said Belaf. He took the blue-hai and wrapped it around his neck like a travel pillow. “Ergonomic neck support. Good for the spine and skull. Or when you’re sitting down –” He put the blue-hai around his waist from behind. “Lower back support. It’s the perfect shape. I’m thinking of practicality, that’s all.”

“And the fact it’s a cute animal has nothing to do with it, I’m sure,” said Wazukyan, in indulgent of-course-there’s-tea-in-Teddy’s-cup tones. Belaf pressed his lips together in slight offense and held the Blåhaj a little closer, as though it might be taken away. Vueko couldn’t help smiling a little.

“...anyway, I will pay for the Blåhaj, of course. But let’s still go through the checkout together as planned. I will Venmo you.”

“I’ll go splitsies with you on the bl…bloj….the shark,” Vueko piped up. “So I can use it as a pillow and stuff too. If that’s okay with you?”

Wazukyan waved his hand dismissively. “We’ll all take collective responsibility for paying for Belaf’s blodge. It’ll be nice for everyone, I’m sure. Just like these shelves are going to be for everybody’s extra stuff.” He knelt down to thump the package, which was still on the floor where they had left it after it attacked Vueko’s foot. “But, ah, Belaf, will you help me get this in the cart?”

Vueko flushed, ashamed – she wasn’t helping anymore? She should be helping – but then Wazukyan looked at her and winked. “I mean, of course I know you could do it, Vueko, but we have to make Belaf do some work sometimes, eh?”

“Of course I am happy to help, Wazukyan,” said Belaf, through only slightly gritted teeth. He handed the stuffed shark to Vueko, who was quite happy to hold on to it.

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“Vueroeruko, you have that part upside down,” said Belaf, tapping a portion of the instructions for their new shelf.

“Oh. Oops.” Vueko turned over the thing – a little plastic button meant to cover visible screws – and indeed, it suddenly fit better. “Sorry.”

“No harm done. I think…” He squinted at the last page of instructions. “I think we’re about finished.”

“Wow, hard work! Great job, everyone,” said Wazukyan, clapping his hands together. “Now how should we reward ourselves?”

“Wazukyan, you did not help very much,” said Belaf flatly.

Vueko was always a little in awe of the way Belaf spoke to Wazukyan so bluntly. It was technically his house, after all – but then, the two of them had been friends for a long time, before Vueko had met either of them and certainly long before the trio had hitting upon this living arrangement.

Actually, they had all been friends, the three of them, for quite a while now. Several years which, sometimes, felt curiously like eons…

Wazukyan had not been listening. “You know what we haven’t done in a while? Mario Kart.”

“What? Wait, Jomi didn’t take his consoles with him?”

“He took a few, the ones with sentimental value, but sold off a lot. He went overseas, you know – can’t be lugging every old big blocky thing! I got him to leave me the N64 for old time’s sake. Let me go get the thing plugged in…” Wazukyan opened a cabinet and pulled out a gaming console, which Vueko assumed was the Nintendo in question.

Belaf looked at the console, wrinkled his eyebrows briefly, and then scooted a little closer to Vueko and spoke in a lowered voice. “You know,” he muttered, as much to himself as to her, “I was just thinking about saying to him ‘Aren’t you too much of an old man for video games?’ But then I thought about when that console came out and how much younger he was then, and of course we were too, and…” He passed his hand over his face. “And then I realized how long ago the 90s were and now I feel old.”

Vueko nodded sadly in commiseration. “Aw. Yeah. But you’re not old, Belaf.”

“Thanks, Vueroeruko…you know, one of my students called me a ‘boomer’ the other day. He wasn’t even trying to tease me, but…” Belaf made a heart-clutching gesture.

Wazukyan was oblivious to this little exchange. “Vueko! Have you ever played Mario Kart with us? Hmm, maybe not. I think that was mostly me and Jomi’s thing, but we got Belaf to join in once in a while.”

“The 64’s been packed away for a bit. It predates Vueroeruko a little, I think. Uh, not, like, as a person, since she’s not a….teen…ager…. ” Belaf put a hand to his chin as he clearly did some mental math, and Vueko watched his face become very interesting as he realized people born after the N64 came out might well be old enough to have finished graduate school. “...augh…ah, anyway, I just mean we probably haven’t played it much during the time period we’ve known her, and certainly not at any point since she moved in.”

“And that’s the only one we had Mario Kart on…you really never played it, Vueko?” said Wazukyan.

“Oh. Yeah, I don’t think I did. I might have played it as a kid, at a friend’s or something, but, um, I don’t know if I remember how…” Vueko stood up from the floor. “Why don’t you two just play? I don’t want you to have to show me…”

“Nonsense,” said Belaf, at the same time Wazukyan said, “Nah, nah!” The two men looked at each other.

“Jinx,” said Wazukyan.

“That– that’s not how a jinx–…never mind, you go ahead,” said Belaf, rubbing his face again.

Wazukyan turned back to Vueko. “Come on. It’s going to be a lot more fun if you join! Hey, maybe beginner’s luck will be on your side and you’ll wipe the floor with us.”

“Fheh…I don’t know how likely that is…” Vueko was looking at her own fingernails, fiddling with them.

“You’ll never know until you try, huh? Oh, good, looks like this thing still works…”

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“I…I won again!” Vueko leaned forward in her blanket cocoon on the middle of the couch – she was so warm and so comfy. She watched Yoshi blaze across the finish line.

“You are absolutely vicious with those shells, Vueroeruko,” Belaf murmured beside her. Vueko couldn’t quite see him – she was well and truly cocooned inside of her blanket, with her face, hands, and controller peeking out. But she knew him well enough to picture his face, the crease of consternation forming on his brow.

“Good, good!” she heard Wazukyan say on her other side. She could picture him too – smiling benignly as she absolutely wiped the floor with him. “What did I tell you about beginner’s luck? Let’s go again…”

They arrived at the select screen. Yoshi was adorable, so Vueko did not bother changing her selection. (“I’m picking Peach this time,” said Wazukyan. “If I can’t win, at least I can be pretty.” At which Belaf made a strangled noise.)

She sat back on the couch, feeling her friends’ warm bodies on either side. There was an additional lump which she recognized after a moment as Belaf's new shark friend. This was so nice…Sometimes she still felt like something was missing. Someone, perhaps. But there was a sense that this too, if she waited, would come right again…

“Are you still planning to start your volunteer work this weekend, Vueko?” said Wazukyan, setting down the controller.“That thing, helping take care of kids? I’m not sure I understood what you’ll be doing exactly…”

“Oh. Yeah,” Vueko said, startled out of her thoughts. She nudged her way forward out of the blanket a bit so she could speak with Wazukyan more easily. “Um, it’s with children who don’t have a, uh, consistent caretaker or mentor figure in their life and, like, have been in and out of the, uh, like…”

Wazukyan waved a hand to indicate he didn’t need a full explanation. “That should be good for you.” He looked oddly knowing now, a bit distant – he made that face sometimes, usually when he was about to be right about something. “You’re good with kids, and some of them could really use someone like you in their life…”

“Yeah.” Vueko hoped he was right this time too. She wasn’t sure how much good she’d been able to do, but she had felt drawn to the opportunity when she heard about it. So drawn that it was a little strange – it was like something was pulling her as though she were a compass needle.

“If they have video games there, you can beat all of them at Mario Kart to break the ice,” said Belaf, and Vueko smiled. She snuggled back in the blanket and thought about how happy, how lucky she was to have such good friends, to live in such bliss, after the tumult of her childhood and the dark times she didn’t like to think about. Safe and surrounded by people she trusted. She wondered if things might somehow get even better, if it was possible for her life to gain more blessings…but perhaps that was greedy of her.

For now, she would settle for winning another round of Mario Kart.

#made in abyss #still taking prompts :)#vueko #belaf #wazukyan #blåhaj #there now the important characters are tagged #ebil writes #orphan hole tag #hmm since it came up i dont know how old they are in this fic #the three might be covering the full spectrum of millennial ages lolol #the other modern AU version of Vueko i wrote feels a little older hmm. maybe coz that's her after having Iru for a while

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altraviolet · 1 year

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6 8 9 (in TEG) and 13 please!

6) Have you written any fanfictions featuring OCs? If so, elaborate!

"Face The Past" is set in Iacon after the war [if you remember in MTMTE when Mirage left the LL to go to Cybertron, this fic takes place after he lands. he and First Aid go to Flatline]. There are two Camien immigrant OCs: Solarray and Flashflux. They're both female, conjunxed. Solarray is a satellite and Flashflux is a plane.

Solarray's description: The Camien who answered [the door] was very, very thin and pale yellow, with large blue panels on her delicate limbs and sprouting from her back. A few shocks of orange and magenta were scattered around her body. She had a blue visor and a mask.

Flashflux's description: As soon as they entered the bedroom, Flashflux's field hit Mirage, adding an extra dimension to her affliction he sorely did not wish to experience. It spat out bitter pain and agony. He pulled his own field even tighter to himself. Flashflux lay on the berth, a powerful aerial type, blue, with heat shimmering off her. There were huge holes in the wall above her where her wings had struck it. She gripped the berth and kicked her legs. Pale blue liquid seeped from the corner of her mouth.

"Cone" sort of contains an OC... you'll have to read it to see >D [there's a minor character in Echo Garden who alludes to his past and it's this fic, hehehe]

I can't think of any other OCs at the moment.

8) What kind of document do you use to you write? Microsoft Word? Google Docs? Straight in the AO3 text box?

tl;dr I use OpenOffice and I recently purchased Scrivener. I'll use Scrivener for future fics, but I'm scared to move Echo Garden into it in case some kind of irreparable singularity forms. I have a post with more info about my software and how I use it if you'd like more details! LINK.

9) What’s your favorite line(s) or scene(s) that you have written?

Oh man ok, I will fully admit that I make myself laugh when I write. I'm honestly too tired to find the direct quotes/chapters so here are some moments I can recall:

-in the beginning of fic when Soundwave is in the med bay with Ambulon, and Ambulon says something like "Kind of like how you and me are different" and looks at Soundwave's longass arms. He says/does this cuz he is a leg, lol

-Soundwave's holoavatar is a xenomorph [and he went around attacking the other holoavatars until he got kicked out of the party]

-Soundwave laughing at the data pad with rounded corners. It was the first time he grossly broke character in the fic. The moment stands out. Also, this is a very very long... what's the term? Long-thingy joke. The reason why he laughed will be revealed in a future chapter. It's the kind of thing people will either love or hate, and either way I think it's hilarious >D

-the scene at the end of Enceladia, when SW and Rodimus take the selfie together. It's the first solid hint towards what the damn relationship tag spoiled

-the fact that Ultra Magnus has a Precision Manufacturing Club and a 'courtesy chair,' which is a large plush chair he straps people into so they can beat their heads against it instead of the machinery

-Toaster is what the kids would call a gremlin and I kinda love him. I'm really proud that people got to like him, especially after I made him so annoying. Same for Aquafend. I had a goal to make readers empathize with him even after he was such an antagonist.

-so many more but so tired can't think

-a few scenes we haven't gotten to yet, but have been written for years

-THE LAST LINE OF THE FIC. It's also been written for years. Like the rounded corners joke, people will either like it or be meh, I feel. But I'm so excited to finally get there. It makes everything kinda go "oh." It's the kind of thing your English teacher would make you write a short essay on. The fic is full of narrative circles and... well I won't say too much, but... yeah, I hope when people read it, they feel a sense of something big having just finished, but not ended.

Thanks so much for the ask! =)

#justroddydraws #ask #writer ask meme #long post #echo garden related

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purplesurveys · 8 months

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1738

If you have a job, how long is your shift? I have a 9 AM to 6 PM shift.

What was the last thing you received in an envelope? I never really receive anything in envelopes lol, but the last parcel that came for me had been my orders for D-Day and Face, which arrived simultaneously. The next time I have packages arriving it’ll be for my copies of Jack in the Box and Layover, and also the guitar pick necklace thingy that they released for Yoongi since I got the one that says ‘Bangkok’ :D

Do you ever wear your hair in a pony tail? Yes, but these days mostly in a low ponytail because my hair just looks better that way. Any higher and for some reason the frizz just starts acting up like crazy.

When was the last time you got a new phone? February 2022 when I got my current phone. My mom’s always bugging me to get a new one just because and I keep telling her that just because this phone’s already fully paid for and I now earn enough to afford phones doesn’t mean I need to replace every time a new iPhone comes out hahaha.

Do you wear your watch on your left or right arm? I never wear watches, but if I catch myself with one I’d go with my left.

What was the last kind of pop you drank? Idk, probably a Sprite.

Do you think you’re single because you repel the opposite sex? I’m single because that’s what I prefer. I think I also just come off as being disinterested, which works out perfectly for me.

What language did you take up in high school? We weren’t offered that option back then. I think the newer batches have language electives now though, which if correct, lucky them! It’s always fun learning a new language.

Why are you home? I’m not home. I’m at a Dunkin’ having coffee and a croissant because…no big reason, I just don’t wanna be back home yet haha.

Do you like sunflowers? I’m not, like, crazy about them, but I think they’re pretty to look at. I also have a soft spot for sunflowers because my university has a tradition where they plant sunflowers all across our veeeeeery long main road at the start of the year, so that they’d be fully bloomed by August – when the newest batch of students graduates.

Whose bedroom were you in last? Nina’s – I needed to borrow money from her.

Are you counting down for anything? I’m counting down to my theoretical resignation. I don’t have a new job to jump to yet, nor do I have a resignation letter drafted, basically I’m not rushing/putting much pressure on myself – but the idea of resigning is already pretty solid in my head and I do have an internal deadline for it. My bosses also know about this.

Are you watching TV? What’s on? I’m not watching TV at the moment.

Have you ever been bitten by a mosquito? Sure, but I’m usually also able to catch them mid-bloodsuck.

Do you have a sweatshirt on right now? Nope. I have a dress that goes just above my ankle, and a denim jacket.

Where is your ex? No clue man.

Have any pictures on your dresser mirror? I don’t have that.

Did you hang out with anyone today? What did you do? I was in the office today so my co-workers, I guess? My bosses basically held an all-day orientation for me and Dev since we’re both getting promoted to Director.

Have you had any beer this week? I was offered beer, but didn’t take it up. I hate beer anyway.

What channel did you last watch on tv? I never watch channels on TV anymore – the last thing I used the TV for was YouTube.

What was the last alcoholic beverage you consumed? Soju.

Currently waiting on something/someone? Eh, not really.

Last time you painted your nails? Forever ago.

What was the last thing you watched on television? Return of Superman hehehe.

Is your shirt yellow? My dress is black.

How old will you be in 12 months? I'll be 26.

What did you do last night? I was managing one of the busiest events in my entire career so far, with my legs going sorer (due to running around all over the place) and my impatience growing shorter by the minute because the event agency we got weren't doing shit and I had to take care of every single moving part that night.

What woke you up this morning? Just my own body clock.

Do you sleep naked? Nah.

What should you be doing right now? I should REALLY be catching up on sleep because I've had so little of it for the last two days...but it's the weekend, and revenge bedtime procrastination is calling me, so here I am at 1 AM.

Looking back, did you ever think you would be where you are now? In a sense, yes. But not as far as I have since gone, and I also never expected things to happen as fast as they have. I never thought I'd hold a directorial position at 25, and I'm not necessarily happy about it either.

Does the person you have feelings for start with any of these letters: Where are the letters? :))

Do you have make-up on? Nope.

Have you kissed anybody in the last 4 days? I have not.

Have you ever held hands with someone in a car? Yes.

The last person you kissed name started with a J or R? Both wrong.

Are you taller than 5 foot 7 inches? I'm nowhere near 5'7" to begin with.

Would you rather be called honey or baby? Baby.

The person you have the most feelings for calls you right now, what do you do? Sorry to make the answer boring but that person doesn't exist.

Why aren’t you texting the last person you kissed? Because I've blocked them everywhere, as far as I can remember.

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Sure.

Your last kiss meant nothing to you, right? I think it did. I just didn't know it would be the last.

Where is your phone? Beside me.

Will you kiss the last person you kissed again? No.

What if you had a baby with the last person you kissed? It's not possible. Like, literally not possible.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? I don't even know where this dress came from. My mom might have previously owned it then handed it down to me.

Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years time? No.

Would you ever try being a vegetarian? Nope.

Did anyone call you babe yesterday? Nah. I have a client who will occasionally call me that (in a non-creepy way! She's just quirky like that lmao) but afaik we didn't even talk yesterday.

Did you ever slam a door on someone? I'm sure I have, but I make it a point to avoid doing that as much as I can.

Have you ever walked on the beach at night? Sure have.

I bet you’re thinking about someone right now? Nope.

Are you in love with someone right now? I am not.

What have you watched so far today? Taehyung's Spotipoly thing to promote Layover; Taehyung's live; and I was like 1/3 through my favorite vlogger's newest video til I skipped the rest of it since the video was sponsored and it was getting boring.

What is the weather like right now? Very humid.

Have you ever given a toll collector 75 cents in pennies? I just don't pay in coins, period.

What was your favorite Christmas gift you got last year? My favorite auntie got me two BTS albums hehehehehehe.

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madchild-dennis · 1 year

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Today reminded me that, in the good that I'll bring there will be people that'll complain or hate it.

Today, after I completed my tasks and wasn't sure if I was going go due to the sky looking like it was going to break out into a rainstorm. I head out on my walk down to help a friend comb her 2 daughter's hair (yes I wore the crown). I started with one and they both seemed to like the end result. The second only needed the top half to be done so I thought a cornrow crown thingy because it was way too large of an area to just braid it back (in my opinion or preference) to the plats she had.

(I did it like the front of this but the rows were neater and finer; found this picture on Google image)

After I COMPLETELY FINISHED it also after she did not tell me what she wanted in the first place. She went and look in the mirror and started crying like it was the end of the world.

Mind you it was dark by then and I had to walk it back up. I don't mind doing what she wanted if I had time. That's also if she knew what she wanted or told me from the start or even during the process. Still she couldn't tell me why she hate it or what's the big problem. I did a good job. If she think she'd be bullied or in her opinion she thinks it's ugly or something, just tell me. I left with no clue what was so wrong.

Anyway, all it did was reminded me of what my sister told me when I showed her some of my reparation distribution plans. One is to improve the physical lives and homes of children who's forefathers are owed it from slavery+. I showed her a prefab home I planned to give to those who had land and wanted it as an addition or their starter home or more. When I showed her she said:

"Wait how yuh fi gi people a house from a box. 🤣🤣🤣"

It's funny but it's true. It's not like what the Prime Minister is promoting but would be fully furnished structured and with a full kitchen, full bathroom, ac, hot and cold water set-up system, and more. All modern fixtures a furnishing. It would be GREAT addition to many people who need or want it or want a starter home.

The thing is as much as I'd be giving as much as I possibly can away for FREE that would be equiped with cupboards, tub, fridge, stove and more. Many who may not have close to it would still complain after receiving it. Mind you it won't be the only option that's granted to them that'd be to benefit their home. However still there will be complaints and more.

That is something I'd have to live with.

Back to the story. I know when I do a terrible comb job. With the time and limitations given, I know I did a pretty good job. In fact I think I did hers better because I rushed her sister's to try and get hers done before dark. So that I didn't have to walk in the dark. But oh well. I left her crying her heart out. Their mom wasn't there though, so I don't know what she thinks, yet.

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mlbpotter · 3 years

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Sole Crusher and why I hated it.

Ahh, one of the most prodigious episode for Zoe-fans.

You see, we see Zoe in a car touring Paris as she came from New York. She entered a bakery to get something for her family (A.K.A Audrey) Marinette entered, and slipped on the floor, but Zoe being who she is, clever perfectionist, nimble, quick blah blah blah, whatever the directors want to show us, caught Marinette in a blink of an eye.

In irl, I think if somebody did slip, in front of me, I’d be too shocked to react in seconds. I’d be gaping, mouth open, too shocked to catch anyone.

Ahh, well, Marinette then talked to her a little, learnt how she only had one friend, made some of us feel pity for her (eh, Thomas). So, NOW THE NEXT PART REALLY GETS ME! Marinette didn’t know who this unknown Zoe girl was (could be a thief, murderer, kidnapper idk) yet she gave away her phone number, free pastries, and invited her to HER FRIEND’S CONCERT! OMG you dumass, you don’t just give away these things to unknown people!

Well, still, moving on, zoe went back to the car, and to the bourgeois hotel. She gave away the pastries to the driver saying her family preferred sour from sweet, meaning they were not exactly caring. Just showing what a bad mother Audrey is, Zoe, like Chloe tried to act all snobbish and mean to get her mother’s attention.

To keep it short, Zoe met Chloe and they had a very meaningful conversation. But the thing that bugged me the most was that what Chloe said. 'Your father exists only to do whatever you want, whenever you want.'

Huh? Forgot this, in origins pt.2? This shows that chloe actually loves her father.

Also, Chloe was shown locking Sabrina in a locker, and forcing her to do her homework.

......

So how do u explain this?☝️

Chloe cares about Sabrina. Thomas really ruined Chloe's character her smh, in sole crusher.

Anyways, Chloe took Zoe to the school in a limousine, with Sabrina running behind them!

BrUh, thomas? R u serious? This is a kids show, no? You are supposed to show how to be considerate, not treating ur friend as slaves!

After some more uneccessary chloe-being-cruel moment, Chloe introduces everyone to Zoe.

She says, that Zoe needs a guy to pamper, who is preferably rich....wow, Thomas you already destroyed Adrien's friendship with Chloe, what more do u want?

When Zoe pretended to hate Marinette's macaroons, Sabrina started idiolizing her immediately. SABRINA ALSO NEEDS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT!!!!!

Obviously, Chloe 'tried' to teach Zoe some mean habits, and Marinette was confused about the way she acted so differently at school.

Being Marinette, she texted Zoe about the the confusion, and obviously blamed Chloe. When Chloe found out that her sister was texting her arch-enemy Marinette, she became furious.

Zoe lied and said that she was planning to humiliate Marinette. One of the worst things about Zoe is that she tries to change her nature just to meet up the needs for others. Chloe only does that to impress her mother.

Zoe went up the blacony, and was met by Andre, Chloe's father, who tried to console her, by telling her his own dream. Ok, listen up, how come Andre is only nice to his step-daughter, in a fatherly way??? And treats Chloe like a spoilt queen?? What kind of a father u r, even though u know that's wrong? Ugh

Anyways, the part where Andre wanted to be a film director was pretty cool. Again, we get some background history about the character. And yes, he listened to Audrey, about being rich, not a film director, blah blah blah, showing again how bad of a wife Audrey is.

Then, we discovered that Zoe wanted to be an actress for no good reason, and yest, admittedly she is pretty good a hiding her emotions and 'acting'.

This is how Andre tried to cheer up Zoe, but obviously made the situation worse, as she only thought about the way Chloe, treated her, and not her mother. So yeah, She only has a grudge against Chloe, again showing how horrible and cruel Chloe could be, right?

Just because Chloe said, 'You either step on other people, or I step on you!' This is so out-of-character for, Chloe. She would never say that, I reckon this much.

And there we go, Zoe reluctantly wears the diamond shoes, and becomes akumatized by shadow moth.

So, her power was touching other people with her shoes, and she became bigger.

Sole crusher, found Chloe in her room taking selfies of herself, to shoe how vain she was and how much she admired herself. Ummm..when did Chloe have an obsession with taking her photos? Except maybe in the episode where Marc was akumatized.

Chloe caught a glimpse of Sole Crusher, on her mobile's photo.

She said, 'How come you are using my image without my authorization?' Old Chloe loved to be idolized, so out-of-character.

So, when Chole discovered that it was Zoe, she began running like she was in a marathon, which was again out of character, as she wouldn't run, it'd be too much of work for her.

I think the running was just to show how bad of a character Chloe was, as she pushed Marinette's parents and Marinette herself towards Zoe, to show how cruel, evil and selfish she really is.

Another thing, I think that the kwamis shouldn't be allowed outside the box very long, as someone might catch them, like Chloe almost did.

So, the reason Sole crusher didn't step on Marinette, was because Marinette is the main character of the show, and she just can't be in a dangerous situation (Thomas logic). It'd made a great plot if Marinette was crushed by sole crusher. It would keep the viewers on their toes.

Eh, well, To make look Chloe worse, they made her run further, and order Zoe to literally step on the 'losers'. AKA rest of Marinette's classmates. (Do students really meet each other like this irl?)

So Marinette discovered that Zoe was Sole crusher, and gave some advice.

Marinette: That's not true, you don't need to crush on anyone. The 'winner' and 'loser' thing doesn't exist. It's just people, each one with your differences and unique features. (after Chat Noir interrupted) Zoe, no one will judge you here. You can be yourself! You can trip, you can fall, there's always going to be someone to help you stand up. I will always support you!

Shadow moth manipulated Zoe again, So Chat Noir tripped sole crusher giving Marinette the chance to run away and transform in a place that no one can see (totally). Since Tikki followed Marinette, and Kaalki alerted Adrien about the akuma, they both were able to transform.

Since I am no good at writing battle scenes, I'll tell the main points. Ladybug used her lucky charm, and got a shoe horn. So basically, Chat Noir and ladybug both destroyed the heels of Zoe's shoes, but the akuma didn't come out. Chloe insulted sole crusher, and got crushed.

Chloe : Look at how you're treating ur very expensive shoes! Go back to wearing you hideous and plain sneakers.

So ladybug figured out that the Akuma must be in those sneakers Chloe mentioned.

So the team tried to find out those sneakers in Chloe's house. Ladybug saw Sabrina in the closet, yet asked her about the sneakers, and ignored her. Wow, shoe some empathy ladybug, or even Chat Noir!

They saw Andre, and he told them where the Akuma went. So basically Andre showed them the box, and was so scared of Audrey, that her had hid those directories a secret from her. Since that box was not opening, ladybug used her shoehorn to open that box thingy. Long story short, ladybug repaired everything, and gave Zoe the lucky charm, and left.

Skip to the noon, where Zoe went to the concert she was invited in, and Chloe still believed Zoe's lame story about humiliating Marinette, and was super pissed off when Zoe ate the macaroons.

So yeah, Zoe apologized about her akumatizatidon, and told her 'tragic' backstory. She didn't want to disappoint her family's expectation, so she pretended to be mean.

In her boarding school, she was being bullied, and pretended to be someone she was not.

And since er...the miraculous fandom characters are so 'different' and tried to be nice to her, which was pretty cool of them....

Chloe demanded that Zoe leave for New York, but Andre was pretty cool about it, and made a lame yet nice excuse for her, to be enrolled in anther boarding school. So she had a different room. Obviously, the creators showed how err..awesome Zoe is as she said to Andre, 'Promise me that you are not going to give up on your dreams for too long.' But Andre's dream was very irrelevant, as nothing of that sort was mentioned after that.

Zoe's new found friends helped her become a better person, and there were some ending pics of her.

Zoe's message to Marinette was pretty cheesy ngl. But if only Zoe was introduced as a character who didn't out smart her sister, I would honestly love her so much!

(If my dumb shit post doesn't get famous, I will quit. I literally worked so hard for this post, and also had to rewrite it multiple times)

#mlb #zoe lee #chloe bourgeois #sole crusher

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Useful—4

Genre: College AU

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Y/N Y/L/N, slight Dean x Lisa

Summary: The school’s most popular boy wants to be friends with Y/N, out of the blue. It definitely doesn’t have anything to do with her hot best friend, though.

Word Count (For the chapter): 2,627

Warnings (For the chapter): Language, self deprecative thoughts.

[For some reason, some of the tags aren’t working. I’m sorry about that.]

[[ Also I’m sorry for the no Read More thingy because it doesn’t happen on the phone app :-(]]

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Chapter 4

Chapter 3

Time flew by faster and in no time, it was the last week of the semester. Winter breaks were going to begin and you didn't know what to do with your life during the vacation. Lisa was going to be spending it with her family, Dean was going on a road trip with his friends and you had no plans whatsoever. You had no funds to go visit your family, overseas. You were saving for an apartment, and your parents understood. You were, in fact, surprised that they did without any clashes but again, maybe, living away from each other did mend your relationship with your family better. You missed them and, hopefully, they missed you too.

Right now, though, you were trying to figure out how you were going to survive the holidays, browsing the library for some books you could use for your time alone. Older times, you would have enjoyed it. Would get bored, might go into overthinking drives, beat yourself up for things of the past, but still somehow enjoyed the undisturbed two weeks. Now, it was different. Everything was. You were not used to being alone all the time anymore, there was a certain green eyed idiot who made sure to be around you as much as he could. The idiot you've started to dangerously feel for. He introduced you to Cas and Jo, and they were amazing people. Lisa had started spending time with you, too. It was funny. A few months ago, you had literally no one to talk to and now, you barely got to be alone.

"There you are! I've been looking for you."

"Well, I'm honored. Hey, Lis."

"Gotta say your sense of humor has worsened more," she said with a laugh, "Hey. So mom is going on a holiday with her fiancé for the new year. So had to cut the trip short. They invited me but I bailed out"

"I'm sorry," You knew Lisa and her mom's new boyfriend didn't get along all that well. The previous guy her mom was with, though, treated Lisa like her own, and she missed him. For some reason, they broke up and that was why Lisa moved here for college from Michigan. Her mother's new fiance was a nice man, according to Lisa, but she just couldn't give him that place in her heart.

"Yeah. So, yeah, I'll be here a week earlier."

"That's cool. We can catch up on some movies then."

"And bars and parties and hot boys at the beach."

"Oh, Lord." You laughed, and she soon joined you.

"Hey Y/-" You heard Dean stop, abruptly before continuing, "H-Hey."

You looked up at him to see him looking at Lisa, only to realize it was her he actually greeted, "Um..hey, Dean."

He practically tore his gaze away from her to look at you, "Oh, hi, Y/N. You didn't tell me your friend was going to be here with you."

"Uh, you didn't tell me you were going to be coming here, Dean." You laughed awkwardly trying to cut the tension in the air.

"Oh, yeah, actually I was looking for you. Well, I was wondering if you-"

"Y/N, won't you introduce me to your friend?" Lisa chimed in, practically eye-fucking your best friend—and you hated to notice, it was coming right back at her.

"So, you don't know who I am, huh?" Dean smirked, flirting. You couldn't help but roll your eyes.

It was like you weren't even there while they continued to make filthy comments and it was disgusting, you audibly groaned making your way out of the library, "God, ew."

For the rest of the day, you were supposed to be busy. You had assignments to submit before the vacations started, but it seemed like you dropped your concentration somewhere on the road. You couldn't stop wondering what Lisa and Dean were doing right then. Did they kiss? Or were they planning somethi-

You shook your head, shaking away the thoughts. They were your friends, you should be happy for them if it came to something like that. What you felt for Dean was a tiny, little crush which would fade in no time. You weren't going to make things between you two awkward by acting on it. This friendship was important to you, after a long, long while you were willing to put your trust in someone. You didn't even remember the last time you ever talked to someone like you talked to Dean. He was starting to become the closest friend you'd ever had, so yeah, you were going to be happy for him no matter who he dated.

The only thing was...you weren't.

You typed furiously on the computer, trying to ignore the insecurities that were creeping inside you little by little. Dean is going to leave you too. No one will stay. Everyone leaves. Your fingers danced across the keyboard smoothly yet faster than before as you hurried to get the work done so that you could get the hell out of the premises and take a nap. Because you deserve it. You're not worth any love. You're a disgra- You typed the last words and emailed yourself the document, not bringing anything that was going on in your mind show on your face.

"Y/N!" You stopped at the familiar voice, turning around as Lisa made her way towards you, "Guess what?"

"What?" You asked, not surprised by her happy attitude. She was always so happy, it made you wonder what was wrong with you that you couldn't be.

"You never told me you were friends with that hot snack!"

"Um.. actually. I did." You said, rolling your eyes. Obviously she wasn't paying attention.

"No…" you gave her a long look, "you did?"

Exhaling heavily, you made your way to your room, "Lis, I've had a busy day. I'm really really exhausted. Can we gush over how hot Dean is later when I've had some shut eye?"

"No, I didn't stop you to tell how hot Dean is. I mean, yes he is but I wanted to tell you he invited me to the road trip he's going on with his friends." Your eyes shot up to her face, searching for any signs of it being a joke. It wasn't. Dean, actually, did ask her. They met...like...just now?

Lisa must have gotten an idea of your discomfort 'cause her eyes saucered in realization, "oh my god...I'm so sorry, Y/N! I completely forgot about you and the plans we made. I can drop going, I'm so sorry."

"No..it's..it's okay. Really. Go enjoy your holiday. I was, anyway, going to spend my time alone before we made those plans."

She looked at you, guilty, "Are you sure?"

"Yeah.." You smiled in understanding.

"I can always ask Dean to let you tag along."

You chuckled at the irony. You were his best friend, you didn't need anyone else to ask him anything for you. And you even felt a little insulted by the statement. You could do without this favour. You could definitely do without anyone 'letting you' tag along, "Braedon, really, go. I'll be fine on my own."

She went away without another word. The pit in your stomach only seemed to grow as you did your best to drag it aside. You, somehow, managed to stop the slumping of your shoulders as you walked into your room. You changed out of your jeans into your pajamas, ready to call it a day. You made yourself a peanut butter sandwich and was done with all the chores that you settled down on the bed. Switching off the lights, you pulled the warm blanket over your head. It was then that all the thoughts you'd been pushing aside started making appearances.

Your friend 'completely forgot' about you and the plans, your best friend didn't even bother remembering that he forgot about you. It was like you didn't even exist. You knew it was stupid, in fact it was really childish to think like this. Them people have gotten their own lives which DID NOT have to revolve around you. And pretty honestly, you knew no life revolved around you, not even your own. No one would give two shits if you suddenly disappeared, including you. Still, you weren't supposed to feel this way. You weren't supposed to be so much affected because of something like this. Being left out was not something that was happening for the first time to you. But this time, it hurt a little. The thought of you getting replaced bothered a little when it shouldn't. It wasn't a crime or anything. What did you ever do to make a lasting impact in someone's life anyway so that they'd want to keep you forever?

You woke up to constant pounding on your door. Groaning, you got up to open the door.

"I was about to knock the door down, sleepyhead." Dean ruffled your hair playfully as you slapped his hand away annoyed.

"I was sleeping, asshole."

"Shocker."

You looked at him, bored, for a while before widening your eyes and pulling him inside and locking the door behind, "What the hell are you doing here? If the warden saw you, she'd rip me two."

"For a second I thought you were going to kiss me," he snickered sheepishly. "I called you to inform, you didn't pick up." He made his way inside the room, putting the box of pizza and a backpack on the couch. You scrunched up your nose at the action.

"Pizza? Why?"

"Why are you surprised?"

"It was Tuesday. Did I sleep for three fuckin' days straight?!" You said, flabbergasted for a moment until you saw Dean making the most annoyed face ever.

"Y/L/N. It is still Tuesday. Wednesday, actually. And our Friday night outs are at my place, not here where your warden is ready to eat me alive."

"Your point?"

He sighed, "We didn't spend any time together today, Y/N. I saw you earlier, you didn't look well."

You frowned before the memories made their way back, "oh…

"Well that's exactly why I was trying to sleep, Winchester." You scolded, trying to not sound too cold.

"What is it?"

"What?" You turned away from him, walking to your bed, Dean following suit.

"What's wrong? And don't give me there's-nothing-wrong-i'm-okay shit. Tell me." He sat himself beside you as you crawled under the blanket to the other end.

"There's nothing wrong, I'm okay." Dean rolled his eyes as you pulled the covers over your head.

"You know I hate it when you do what I tell you not to."

"Then don't tell me what to do." Your voice came out muffled, as you replied back sharply. He sighed.

When she walked out of the library, groaning as Lisa and him flirted, Dean had noticed. He thought it was just the playful best friend reaction seeing them two flirt with each other, so he let it pass. Later that day, he went to meet Y/N and saw her working on the computer. She would look normal to anyone around there, but Dean had secretly picked up on her habit of doing her work extra smooth when she's stressed. Her shoulders were tensed and eyes sharp. Yep. She was definitely bothered. What he was about to tell her would have to wait, first he needed to know what was bothering her. He decided to talk to her after his class, but by the time his class was over, Y/N was already out of the campus.

"I never got to tell you why I came to talk to you this morning."

"Oh, you came to talk to me? Didn't think I was so lucky." Was that what it was all about? Was she... jealous? But why would she be jealous? She was so darn confusing, it frustrated him sometimes.

"You need to talk to me, Y/N. What's going on?" He said, pulling her blanket to him before she pulled it back.

"Nothing is going on Dean, really. It's nothing. I'm just tired is all."

"And grumpy?"

"And grumpy."

"I need you to know no one is going to take your place, sweetheart." He felt her stiffen just a bit, not enough to be noticed but enough to be noticed by him.

"Stop thinking you're that important to me, Winchester. You're not." He flinched. He knew Y/N didn't mean that, it was just her defence mechanism with some extra sass but it still painfully tug his heart a little bit. She made a lot such comments, mostly playfully, with that serious face but playfully. Maybe it wasn't the comment but the fact that she was hurt that was bothering him? He wouldn't know. One thing he knew, though, was whatever was bothering her, he needed to make her smile. Maybe she noticed his sudden pause because she immediately spoke up, "Sorry. It came out harsher than I intended."

"S'okay. So you're not gonna tell me what's bothering you?"

"Nothing is bothering me Winchester."

"Whatever you say, Y/L/N." He gave up. It bothered him that she had still not opened up to him even when they'd been 'best friends' for so long. Every time he thought she would, she would close off and change the topic. She still was the mystery girl he met at the beginning of the college, a mystery he didn't know how to figure out "So, you coming?"

"Where?"

"The road trip?

"So Lisa did that after all."

"Lisa did what?"

"Nothing. And well, I've got some work so I can't come."

"Yeah I know what work you got. Come on, Y/N. Be easy on yourself sometimes. It's gonna be fun."

"But-"

"Great. So it's a 2 weeks long trip. Pack accordingly and now we have that pizza." He stood up before she could protest and got the pizza.

"How many times are you going to watch this show, Dean? Don't you get bored?" You said taking your third slice.

"As many times as I please, babe. It's Dr. Sexy M.D, it never gets boring." He said casually, thankfully missing the pink that dusted your cheeks at the nickname in the dark.

After a couple more episodes, you were starting to doze off, and so was Dean, "Alright, let's sleep. We have classes tomorrow.

"There's no morning class. Just one more epi." He said, clutching the remote in his hands, like a child, "please?"

"No." He pouted at your response, defeated.

"Okie." He said letting out a small yawn. Sleepy Dean was always adorable, "So it's settled that you're coming with us?"

She paused for a moment before shrugging slightly.

"I guess...yes," he smiled cheekily as she said that, "but, why did you want me there all of a sudden?"

"Because I want you there? It's gonna be fun. I've heard girls need their girl-friends on these tours for some 'girl-company' thing. I invited Lisa, so-"

He stopped abruptly as she stood up and made her way out of the room, "I'll go and throw these boxes, you change in here."

"- that you could get some company." He whispered mostly to himself. What the hell just happened? He shook his head, too sleepy to think about it right now and stripped out of his clothes into his pajamas.

Obviously. There it was. The reason he wanted you there, it's all here. It's because he didn't want Lisa to be alone around people she didn't know. You stood by the sink and chuckled to yourself, feeling a sting in the back of your eyes. Wow.

"Same old easily replaceable Y/N." You whispered.

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Chapter 5

A/N: alright. I know I know. I'm a terrible author who do not care about her readers but it's not that. I'm really, genuinely sorry. Life's been really rollercoastery and I've been dealing with stuffs lately. I promise I'll be better next time. And if you could take out a minute of your day and pray for me and a lot of people who need it, please, I'll be really grateful. They say prayers are powerful and I think I can do with them a bit.

Also, please don't do something wrong with yourself. You're worth every effort you make for a better life. Each minute of your life counts, just make sure you keep yourself and others as happy as you can. Be kind to you and others, I'm rooting for you. ❤️

And show some kindness to the animals too, they deserve it. ❤️

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analyticalkuneho · 3 years

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Bitcoin Analysis 5/28/21, 12am (PART 1 of 2)

Bro please don't listen to anything in this post. I'll try to cover bullish and bearish scenarios but literally I have little successful experience with technical analysis (not to say that I'm bad at it but I also don't think I'm a profitable expert at this). I'm just posting this for fun because I like to pretend I'm an expert. Maybe this will give you some good things to think about, but remember this is just me being silly and having fun.

I think this will be pretty unorganized. Okay now let's get into it! :)

Here's a 6H chart with a 20MA on the volume and a 50MA and 200MA on the price:

I heard that price moves have to be backed by volume, and this recent price rise from 31k to 38k has seen a decrease in volume. I wonder if the volume is just cooling off after the spikes in volume, or if the price rise is actually not supported by the volume.

Also note/notice the consolidation from February to May. I think one of the reasons that many traders called for a possible crash was because of the lower volume.

Here's an interesting trader by the way: https://www.tradingview.com/u/dRends35/. He called the crash but I'm not sure if he is good or just lucky.

Here's a chart with some drawings:

I see a nice triangle thingy that we could play in. Price has left the triangle thingy but it seems to be coming back inside. I also see a Fibonacci resistance area from 38.2k to 40.1k (green box). If we break above this, we could see a bullish continuation.

Here's another chart:

If we don't break above 40.9k too soon and we come down, we could see some support in the 34.8k to 33.2k Fibonacci zone (green box).

Here's another chart:

I used to use a trading system that involved two legged pullbacks in which both legs had the same size. We could see this play out with the move from 30k to 42.2k being the first leg of the pullback, then we went down to 31.1k and bounced, and the possible move from 31.1k to 43.9k could be the second leg of the pullback before we continue the downtrend.

Here are some more pictures:

We know we entered a pattern from February to May which very eerily resembled the Wyckoff DISTRIBUTION pattern in which smart manipulating whales (who bought Bitcoin a time ago) start to sell their Bitcoin as other common men buy their Bitcoin. It's called a distribution because the whales are selling for a profit and they are distributing their sold Bitcoin to the common man who will now take a loss because they are buying high.

If we don't fall like a rock, we could enter a Wyckoff Accumulation pattern in which the whales start to accumulate/buy again. We could have a fake, weak rally going to 40-44k, creating a bull trap to trap the bulls, then break down into a Wyckoff Accumulation and consolidate here for a few weeks or months.

Here's another chart:

This could be a bullish head and shoulders pattern.

Here are more charts:

These two pictures compare this dip to a 2017 dip. They are similar in time relation to when the bull market started or something like that, so that's why some people have compared this dip to that 2017 dip.

In that 2017 dip, we recovered quickly and we got a nice ultrapump. And it seems like we might be on track to do the same thing now. But I don't think so, because look:

(oh wait only 10 pics allowed per tumblr post. i'll make a part 2)

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dearmomimissyou · 4 years

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So yesterday I tried to make a post explaining the back story of what caused Sunday's mental breakdown to happen and I tried to save it to drafts after spending 30 minutes on it while walking Miss Phyre outside but Tumblr decided to cock out and didn't actually save it which led to another mini meltdown afterwards so I'm just going to skip the background. It hurts to mich to relive it a g a i n. So thanks Tumblr.

Sunday I went to Sam's house after donating plasma cause dad was working on the electrical and I figured I'd just spend time there instead of being home. Instead, I ended up having a breakdown on Sam's back porch. I started crying inside while in the fetal position on the floor and figured that I should go outside so nobody heard me. I violently sobbed for at least ten minutes and dug my nails into my arm because I wanted to punish myself. I also went outside because I wanted to destroy Sam's living room and I can't do that but I can destroy myself and my things. I kept wanting to smash my head into something and eventually I did on the banister twice and screamed both times when I did it. After some time like five minutes of so Nemo came out and tried talking to me and I blew up on them and basically blamed them even though it wasn't their fault. They were crying and begging me to get help dad came out too crying because he heard me say that somebody was tearing me down and making feel like shit about myself but he didn't hear who and at the time it didn't make me feel anything but looking back fucking hurts. Sam came out too after Nemo went inside I think to talk to dad about what was happening and she brought Nala Tyler's cat and asked if I wanted cookies or soda to feel better. I just remember ignoring her and being so annoyed with her in the moment.

Eventually I got to the point where I couldn't physically talk and typed a message to Nemo:

I want to me normal I WA. T to be fixed and go just can't cause miss Phyre needs attention and the dress fitting and I don't want to worry mom and tge family but fucking here I dpimg just that all the God dam. Duckknf time vsvauar I can't fucking control my stupid fucking brain

They asked if I wanted to go to the lds hospital crisis center or if I wanted to wait til tomorrow:

I have to go today cause if I don't there be an excuse tomorrow like I feel better it always happens

So they drove me home so I could get some clothes and stuff to bring to be admitted into inpatient. The whole time I was getting stuff I cried and kissed miss Phyre and told her over and over how much I love her and that I'll be back I'm not abandoning her.

So we get up to the access center thing and because of covid Nemo has to leave but I get taken back pretty fast for the physical part and asking the standard health questions. They also take my stuff including my phone and the pieces of paper that I wrote down all my problems on and a brief breakdown of my childhood traumas. I sit in a pretty okay chair for what feels like an hour. I cry a bit but nothing too noticeable when I finally got back to see the crisis counselor she basically said I'm very knowledgeable about my mental illnesses and told me that she'd let their therapy coordinator know to give me a call on Tuesday and also gave me her business card so I could call too and said as long as I'm not a danger to myself I can go home. In that moment I wasn't in danger of hurting myself more and I did want to go home instead of being admitted so I could take care of Miss Phyre but this was the second time a crisis counselor told me I wasn't in enough danger to be admitted like? Excuse me? Sorry my fucking emotions turn on a fucking dime but I absolutely need professional fucking help please?

She led me back to my chair to wait for the psychiatrist or whatever and that time I didn't have to wait as long. I got a turkey sandwich box thingy that came with a fruit cup chips and a string cheese as well as mustard and mayo in packets to put on it and tomatoes and Lettuce on the side so you can add them if you want them. I only had time to eat the fruit cup and started spreading the mayo on my sandwich before the psychiatrist came to me and we talked and he said the same thing as the counselor thag I'm very insightful about my failings and then put me on welbutrin instead of Lexapro and said I'm good to go home. I went back to the chair finished making the sandwich and then ate it while filling out their crisis sheet thingy that's like when I'm in a bad place who can I go to type shit. I still had to wait to actually be discharged so J ate the string cheese too. I finally left and had to wait another thirtyish minutes for Nemo to come pick me up.

What the scratches looked like right after being discharged. We went back to Sam's house because dad was still doing the electrical and we stayed there for another hour or two before going home. Don't remember much after the discharge honestly.

Monday was labor day and we went shopping I got my pills and stuff from Smiths. Then we went back home to wait for mom and Karleigh to get up so we could go to Joanne's tk make a playyard thing for aidrian and the dollar store for other stuff I don't remember. Then we went to the grocery store to get pita bread for dinner and something else I forgot but we ended up shopping and spent like 200 dollars. We also went to Lowes to get more pvc pipe for the playyard because dad apparently didn't get enough the first time. We ate dinner with Dave which was tikki masala and it was pretty dang good. Also before we got my pills I walked Miss Phyre for a while outside and she loved it. I decided to give her a bath afterwards since she doesn't wash herself and she was oaky the entire time she didn't meow or hiss or anything. She tried to climb out of the tub but not like in an aggressive manner like she didn't want anything to do with the water. She was such a good girl.

When Dave left we started working in the playyard. We wrapped some pink tulle on the sides and tied it to the pvc with some thin yarn. It took us hours to do and it was just mom Karleigh and me because dad went to bed. It was grueling work because my body was already exhausted from shopping all day and I had to hold my arms above my head for extended periods of time. My heels were in excruciating pain but we finally finished half of the playyard at about 1230 only to find out the other tulle we bought was the wrong stuff. It was too small to have it folded over to keep the sides secure and wasn't long enough to reach both ends of the other tulle so we had to give up for the night which actually pissed me off more than finishing it would have probably. I ended up only going to sleep at 5 am and waking up at about 9 on Tuesday but it was a nice cool day so I took Miss Phyre out for another walk and while we walked I typed up the previous Tumblr post. When I was ready to go inside and take a break from reliving the shit that happened I saved it to drafts so I could finish it later and brought Miss Phyre inside. Then I realized that it didn't actually save it and I had another breakdown but not nearly as intense as Sunday. It didn't help that the therapy coordinator never actually called me. I got a call from a bit for Intermountain that asked a bunch of questions like do I understand my discharge orders am I feeling safe did I get medication and do I understand how to take the medication and I had to hit 1 for yes 2 for no and 3 for unsure and one of the questions was like am I still feeling like I'm in a crisis or something and I had to hit 1 three times because it just wouldn't register it and that pissed me off and made me mad that it was automated and they didn't even bother to have areal human call and talk to me. After every question I answered basically they said were sorry to hear that well have a nurse follow up with you later today. I ignored both calls from the nurse because I just didn't have the energy to deal with it after the Tumblr thing. Like I wasted so much energy just typing it out and what little I had left just instantly sapped after I realized it was gone. The second voicemail the nurse left mentioned that it would be the last time trying to get into contact with me but also that our insurance has mental health advocates so thats something I need to look into.

Eventually Cavell told my dad that I needed to be watched I guess and since dad was still at work and mom had just left to take aidrian back home mandi came downstairs and spent time with me. Cavell told my sad that I needed to eat so he texted mandi to make sure I ate something and we went upstairs and made pizza and waited for dad to come home. After that we had to wait for mom and Karleigh to get back so we could go back to Joanne's to get the right tulle and while we were there I bought some double pointed needles so I could make some wrist warmers to hide the scratches. I also wrapped them up which just made it seem way more serious than it was since they were too close for bandaids to work right I had to use gauze and ace wrap.

We thankfully didn't finish the playyard yesterday we're supposed to some time today but hopefully I'll be asleep before then.

I also left the access center a review since they only had two. One one star review that was basically my experience and one five star with no description from an account that only gives 5 star reviews and seems like a bot.

Nemo wanted me to call the center for evidence based treatment last night because Google said they closed at 7 but when I called they closed at 5 so I called today instrad and nobody answered so I filled out their online form and I just got the response email from them so I'm going to hopefully get better soon I guess.

Love you always.

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