#and I have to stop myself from screaming

[sonchop]

Odysseus in Epic: the musical when his men opened the bag of winds:

Help me close the bag! We can save whatever wind we have to use another day

Come on!

meanwhile Odysseus in Odyssey:

#it's like #hey you have to thank me for not killing myself #i can still throw myself into the sea #and the dude from the musical: #noooooooookay okay let's figure it out now #odysseus #epic the musical #epic: the musical #jorge rivera herrans #epic the ocean saga #keep your friends close #the odyssey #sonchop screaming #okay but #i can't stop

[dawn-till-dusk0]

#dawnedideas #im so ill #could not stop myself from doodling them #i want what they have #incoherent screaming #sobs wails cries #vashwood #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #trigun ‘98 #please click for better quality

[ssimay]

SPENCER REID WAS SUPPOSED TO BE BISEXUAL!?!! AND THEY GAVE UP ON THE BEST IDEA EVER!?!!! IM GONNA LOSE MY FUCKING MINDDDDD

#i started watching criminal minds last month 😃 i am on S4 and since S1 i’ve been getting bi vibes from reid #and i thought it was just my gay brain doing its thing BUT NAH #he WAS supposed to be bi #im gonna scream #i wish i had stopped myself before opening this wikifan page #I have this insanely bad habit of checking wiki fan if a show is over 6-7 seasons long #and i generally scroll down to the character ‘trivia’ but reid’s was SO LONG i just read the first few and scrolled to the bottom #to see the last trivia 😃😃😃 i was about to close the tab i didn’t want to get spoiled more than that i already have #AND THIS WAS THE LAST ONE #why did i have to find this out now all i’ll think about will be ‘what could’ve been’ and how it didn’t happen #criminal minds #spencer reid

[demigod-of-the-agni]

Peter Parker if he got bit by a radioactive sword ☢️🟢⚔️

if I had a nickel for every time I made a Spider-Man au based off a video game, I'd have three nickels, which isn't a lot but it's concerning that it's happened three times. This au is the spidey/final fantasy vii mashup, where Peter becomes the Unreliable Narrator

anyway someone pretty please write this au for me <333 I'll pay you <3333333

bg variants under the cut

the BIGGEST dilemma(s) was figuring out if I should

A) keep the eyes in my art style (no colours, just the highlight), bc ngl it makes him seem more babey (pic 1),,, or

B) add the mako-glow to the eyes so i could be lore-accurate.... also I spent a lot of time!! on colouring in those pixels!!!!! dammit!!!!!!!!! (pic 2) and

C) OF COURSE i was struggling to choose between the white and red backgrounds!!!!! evil me!!!!!!! making difficult creative decisions!!!!!!

i will,,,, try to draw the other peeps as well (mj as tifa and gwen as aerith ,,, mmm yesss esysey yes ssss) but i fear the monkey brain has already died........ i will try tho,,,,,,,,,,

#finally. i drew the little freaky white boy after.... many many months of not drawing him #do you see the little spider :) it's. it's because he's spider-man!! (it's a very ugly spider i forgive you if you can't find it) #bro looks like a kpop idol im literally screaming #dance for us baby boy. honey bee inn that shit. crank that soulja boy. break it til ya make it #listen i have to draw peter in cloud's pretty blue dress sometime otherwise i WILL explode........... #anyway be like me and refuse to draw legs !!!!!! what are lower limbs!!!!???? who cares !!!!!! just run away when confronted by femurs!!!!! #you would not believe how long i had to stare at cloud's arms in order to make sense of them. why are his triceps so fucked up #many times i had to stop myself from jumping into my laptop screen and succumb to the fiery CPU death bc MY GOD.... #i am SWEATING..... EURHG #also obviously new colouring/shading thing again.... ough...... consistent art style WHEN #what the fuck do i tag this as??? #peter parker #spider man fanart #spider man #ffvii #final fantasy vii #agni and his many many au's number 39874 #artoftheagni

[madame-mongoose]

MASSIVE FUCKING MOTH I FOUND????

#I HAD TO STOP MYSELF FROM SCREAMING #AAAAAAA #SHES SO BIG HOLY FUCK #IM REELING #I HAVE BEEN SOOOOOO LUCKY RECENTLY #monnie rambles

[thethingything]

y'know I think the name "restless leg syndrome" does a really bad job of conveying how the disorder actually feels and it's increasingly pissing me off that when I try to look for information about relieving it, almost nothing mentions how painful it can get.

everything makes it sound like it's vaguely uncomfortable but no it feels like my blood is carbonated and there's something crawling around and buzzing under my skin and it's agonisingly painful and the only thing that relieves it is shaking my legs as much as possibly except we're in the middle of a fatigue flare so I don't have the energy for that

edit: the name also makes people think it's just bouncing your legs a lot or whatever. I've seen people thinking it's just another name for stimming by bouncing your legs

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #restless leg syndrome #''it causes an uncomfortable sensation and the urge to move your legs'' it feels like my muscles are being dissolved from the inside #if I have to bite down on a pillow to stop myself screaming then I think we've moved way past ''uncomfortable''

[skitskatdacat63]

2005 Chinese Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(ft. Flavio Briatore)

#not pictured but: CRYING LAUGHING AT THE FACT THAT NANDO SET HIS OWN CAR ON FIRE BY REVVING FOR FUN TOO MUCH 😭😭 #and the commentators saying 'well kids will be kids' abt it ^ im having a moment 🥺🥺🥺 #not pictured: NANDO SINGING WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS ON THE RADIO 🥺🥺 I DIDNT REALIZE IT WAS FROM THIS RACE IM CRYINGNGGGG #all of the nando/flavio moments....if i speak- #theres just so many things i am staring intently at #SCREAMING CRYING THATS HIS BOY!!!! HIS BOYYYYY!!!!! LOOK AT THEM!!!!!! #im glad no one is around me when i watch race podiums bcs i make so many embarrassing squealing noises AHJDKFLFLLF #hate this podium(/s) bcs its peer-pressuring me into watching 2006 next...ahhhhh i might.. #renault nando is just so....hes just sooooooo...he is my blorbo and i want more of him but ahhhh.... #its really really so cute to imagine that zhou is somewhere at the racetrack watching nando win the wcc #apologies to ralf and kimi who are also on this podium but not pictured here but this is fernando's podiums theres too much good content #i hate to cut down these gif posts to 10 but then again i cant just post all 20 gifs i did make #speaking of gifs that didnt make it into this post theres one of him holding up '7' which will be included in a dif post!! #anyways im v sad that this journey is over but proud of myself for finishing it and posting all of these #tysm to everyone whos been here since round 1!! its been a lot of fun and i appreciate your support sm heheh #but worry not! the grind never stops! 2005 may be done but theres so many seasons i wanna watch #fernando alonso #fa14 #2005 chinese gp #2005 chinese grand prix #renault nando #renault #flavio briatore #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #(2005: 19/19 races watched) #<- well that was satisfying to type out! :D

[anxiously-sidequesting]

As much as I want Malorn Ashthorn to be 💖happy💖 all the time I think what he needs is just a good cry. Like Malorn really just needs one of those private yelling and heavy crying sessions to let all that shit out every once in a while because it will clear his brain and spirit and he so desperately needs it. Let me boy cry pleasel

#hashtag therapy4malorn #i made myself depressed imagining malorn waving his students off with a smile before going off somewhere- #-where no one can see him and he takes out a thick blanket before he covers his face with it and then- #he just screams. he screams and cries for a long time until hes hoarse and empty #over the years he stopped telling himself it would get better but rather he would get used to it #the cry helped. it lifted the weight off his shoulders but malorn knew it would be back on him before long #but he still musters a smile and a friendly attitude for his students the next day because he HAS to be okay #but malorn can still have at least a moment to himself. no one could take that away from him at least #should i tag this as angst???? because this is edgy as fuck #angst #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #malorn ashthorn #text post

[rudycrowley]

I wanted to do a post with my thoughts on episode 8 because there were some cool stuff i noticed but i got so overwhelmed by gerry and gertrude being alive that i actually forgot what those stuff were

#like i was listening to it on a walk #and had to stop myself from screaming from happiness when I heard them with all my will strength #and I don't have a strong will #so yeah #also i liked the statement #i think #i dont even remember what exactly was it about #but it was cool #i like liminal spaces #tmagp #the magnus protocol #tmagp ep8

[iridescentis]

JUNE 15TH???? HOLY SHIT?? OHHH WE ARE SO BACK

#imma be real i have not thought about genloss in a hot minute #except that one dnp genloss au i thought of a few months ago that never saw the light of day #but bro??? #i had to stop myself from screaming at a train station #trust the video to be uploaded just as i leave #im so excited oh my god #i will never be normal about this #AHHHH

[bunnihearted]

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#1st ​my sister was passive aggressive bc i was boiling pasta when she wanted to make her dinner #so she slammed stuff nd chopped veggies aggressively #nd i felt my heart rate spike nd my body go tense nd i always get clumsy nd drop things nd hurt myself when i get that way #but they think i deserve feeling awful bc of mistakes in the past so i cant ask them to stop #i've been walking around w lots of heavy things nd im barely keeping it together #nd i got so mad bc she wouldnt stop so i started slamming the cabinets nd then left when i was done #then my mom nd other sister got home nd i just wanted to ask my mom smth #when i open my door my other sister goes 'omfg already?' #'immediately when we get home i never get a break. it's almost disgusting' #i just got so.. i realized how pathetic nd childish i am so i just went into my room #but then apparently my sister said to mom that *i* was the only one being passive aggressive #so she comes in to talk when i was having my dinner so i said that i plz just wnna eat my dinner #she didnt know nd she's never cared but i wanted to hurt myself so badly i was struggling not to #but then she started screaming at me for being childish nd passive aggressive nd that i never do anything #she left my room. she still talks to my sisters so i know it's onlg me shes sick of #idk.. today is bad bc i cant talk to her nd i dont have ANYONE else to talk to im all alone #and now i barely even wanna go outside my room bc apparently my family thinks i wnna mess w them just for going to the bathroom lmao #i hate myself so much. im so pathetic. im 25yrs old living at home being a burden #nd im just a pathetic nd childish person. i 'need' to talk nd vent nd rant nd #like if i buy some things i have these need to like do a mini haul or if i get books from the library #i wnna show my mom what books i got #it's so childish. i do feel bad for my mom to have to deal w me nd my annoying personality #why cant i jusy be normal. no wonder why i can never keep friends or my family doesnt wnna talk to me. everything abt me fkn sucks #anyway im just feeling so bad and so alone bc my moms mad at me so now i have no one to talk to

[luminous-studiess]

thinking about how ive always had a hard time writing for school, eg papers.  i cried when i had to write about homer in the 9th grade (stayed up all night and panicked until the focus kicked in at 5 am) this was the first time i’d done classical literature and i didn’t know what i was doing and how to proceed and in second year of college i was thrown into a full-blown depression/anxiety era when i wrote a paper about edgar allan poe and encountered Serious Literary Theory for the first time. one of my groupmates used the words “liminal” and “hypnagogic state” and i knew i was hopelessly out of depth in the literature department and i cried in the hallway in front of my classroom. i was late and it was a terrible paper and i had a panic attack presenting it.  in my third year when i wrote a paper about postcolonial theory and exporting domestic labor and got points docked off of it after i had a panic attack and submitted it late. the same semester i passed a paper on alexander pope a few minutes after the deadline. i was late. the professor asked me if she could include it as sample work for her future students in the course.  and the common threads are that every time i was doing something new and i’m bad at dealing with new things but i am good at picking up on where i went wrong and dealing with constructive criticism and reworking how to write something when i have the balls to put myself out there . i graduated magna cum laude eventually.   and i still feel lost writing this stupid final paper which is basically a mini thesis/disso for law school but u know what. i’ve come to terms with being lost and i’m not the best but i’m scrappy and my footnotes are decent 

#tw depression #sam screams #i feel like ive been internalizing my bad traits in the name of self-awareness #the point is ive been suffering since i was a wee teenager and that it turns out okay regardless if u just get something submitted #i think the closer u get to a deadline u disabuse yourself of the notion that ur a pretty little princess who needs to b perfect #im trying to divorce EGO from WORK OUTPUT #and stop making excuses for not sitting down and grinding #and telling myself well oh its because i want it to be good #because some decent things have come out of sitting down with the intent of writing flaming shit that was passed on time #sorry rant over ive been going through it this felt so cathartic

[bruqh]

okay idk if sephie has said what sam’s sexuality or anything is but having a loser ex bf AND chronic falling in love with your best friend syndrome… it’s lesbian behaviour frankly

#persephone valentine #sam nightingale #dimension 20 #the seven d20 #d20 #im literally so fucking addicted to this show and these besties #and i love that every time i watch i find myself relating to them in new ways #as a lesbian who also suffers from a past with weird men and chronic falling for my bestie disease #this is my headcanon for sam #i simply believe it to be true #she definitely had nonplatonic feelings for penelope like theres no way she #and she clearly has a crush on zelda i will speak more on this later #anyways #i have hcs for all of them #OH ALSO they scream queer friend group so u know they all flirt with each other non stop

[applepies-and-starlight]

I seriously need to start learning that having differing opinions from my oomfs is perfectly fine and that I don't need to override them because frens say they don't like it

#void screaming #vent post #kinda ig #this is primarily with ships but it also just happens in general #i've forced myself to hate/dislike so many ships because someone i'm friends with goes “yeah i don't really vibe with it” #and i have this crowd-following mentality (and mayybe some people pleaser issues) #so my brain defaults to “if we have different opinions then we might ruin our friendship over it” #sooooooo... #change opinion! #i'm trying to stop myself from doing it #but it's still very hard to do so #it's very hardwired into my brain

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i started the semester off with such a level head but ive walked myself further and further toward i ledge i can feel crumbling #out from under my feet. i sit in small rooms where i feel the stress radiating from my chest down into my limbs. disappating into the floor #it makes me want to run and run and run but im so tired and the sidewalk is icy slick. and i feel like im at the limits of my abilities #and i know every grad student has that worry but what if its true. that i have a void behind my eyes and not enough depth of thought #anywhere it matters. how am i supposed to operate in this system when i can barely string together the words to understand what im reading #and itll never be any easier. what if im at my functional limit? what if i caught fire and burned away to ashes? what if i screamed and #kept screaming until someone told me patch up the open wound in my chest? what if i just stopped? #what if i could just let go of any need to feel like i have a purpose? what if i could just live? and feel the wonder of the things around #me. let go of all my emptiness #move at a pace that isnt breaking my neck. feel anything close to joy or if that's too much to ask then let me at least feel stable. just #for a while. just a little while. #and i know itll b fine. and i know im just being whiny bc things are hard and theyve been hard and theyll always be hard bc i refuse to make #things easy. but i just feel like im standing alone on a beach where the water's been drawn too far back #and i can see it rushing toward me faster than i can run. im just waiting for the tsunami to wash me away to nothing #unrelated

[artnerd1123]

im so goddamn tired.

#fucking hate being barely able to make ends meet from check to check #fucking hate watching my loved ones struggle and gasp for air and being powerless to help them #fucking hate that im trying to convince myself to just suck it up and deal when all I want to do is sleep because I can’t miss work bc- #-I need my hours up #fucking. god #I’ll be fine. I’ve been fine. I’ve made it this far and have no intention of stopping anytime soon #i just need to scream or I’ll cry #might still cry lmao. whatever #it’s fine. im fine. i just need to keep moving so i dont fall and stay down. no walking or i wont be able to run this race nymore n all that #arty issues #delete later maybe