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smokestarrules · 11 months

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Now that WN is back, what is your wishlist for the new season/movie??

-Mary's back. The writers can figure out how, I doubt a single fan will question it. Mary coming back would be incredible.

-I would love a scene with Beatrice's parents (with Ava also being there preferably) in which she gets to talk them down and tell them how well she's done/is doing now that she's away from them. Beatrice's story is largely about allowing herself to exist as herself, and I think having a moment where she tells that to the people who rejected her would be so powerful.

-Ava gets to have her narration moment to open (maybe of her letter to Beatrice?) I just want more of Ava's dialogue. I miss her so much.

-If another season, one of the episode titles is from the book of Ruth.

-The series wrapping up into a proper ending. We deserve it, the characters deserve it, and it could be phenomenal if done well (which I have no doubt it would be.)

#this entire list gave me deja vu btw I am like 90% ive done this before so sorry for repeating myself probably dhgjkdflghfds #warrior nun #ava silva #sister beatrice #avatrice #smokey answers #anonymous

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idliketobeatree · 5 months

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*wakes up in cold sweat from a hundred years long nap* Aziraphale's 1941 love realisation was a LITERAL BOMB FALLING ON HIS HEAD FROM THE SKY that he was forced to MIRACULOUSLY SHIELD THEM FROM and they both have performed so well, he and Crowley were not only NOT discorporated, but ALSO his most precious belongings, the symbols of the human part of his identity, were not harmed in the process. and it was all within mere minutes of their reunion after a major fallout. do you. do you see what I'm

#i am not exaggerating this thought really woke me up just now #good omens #ineffable husbands #good omens s1 #good omens 1941 #crowley #aziraphale #my posts #i dont know if this makes sense #or if im just repeating what people have already discussed but it strikes that #the realisation was NOT gentle nor romantic or anything like that #it was violent and powerful! and it was entirely orchestrated by crowley. aziraphale had no say in it #he could not choose that moment #and yet. it was everything hes ever wanted. it was better than anything he could probably come up with #its not about romance with them really! its all about trust that they have each others back when the times get so fucking tough #thats when they are invincible together #i made myself sob #i keep circling in the point i wanted to make i cant articulate it well rn but i need to get this out and maybe ill come back to it later #marcela talks

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zylphiacrowley · 3 months

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I'm sorry my hands are shaking, I don't normally feel this way...

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milkweedman · 1 year

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Setting up the warp for some towels. Wanted something lower stress to figure out the warping board on, plus my mom is visiting in a couple weeks and ive been promising her more towels for ages now.

Far as i can tell i kind of just need to take this off and start another one whenever the board is full (as it is now). Maybe thats not the right way to do it, but i do not (as of yet) see any downsides to that, so it's what im gonna do. Idk, im used to doing direct warping and just walking the warp.

Warp is all millspun cotton, leftovers from the cotton stripey scarf i did on commission last year.

This is 62 warp ends and i need around 180, so i guess i need 2 more of these.

#gonna try and set it up so that im only using treadles 1 and 4 #have been able to drive on my right foot altho it does suck #but not as much as walking. so i assume trying to walk my feet down the treadles would be bad as well #went to joanns today to just get a tiny bit more of the white yarn for the warp #using my crutches. turns out theyre moving and had already sold out of all the yar #yarn*#but i only got about 10 paces into the door before i realized there was probably not more yarn in the back #and if i had to get myself over there to check id probably break down crying #n then i had to repeat the whole experience at michaels altho at least they did have it #but it is so fucking painful and exhausting to use those crutches #maybe too much to ask for but i should have been given a wheelchair #or something that i can actually move around in without constant gutting agony #aaaaanyway. am back home at least. trying not to move around too much #my foot is barely even bothering me the actual problem is that staying off my foot puts all the strain on my other leg #which absolutely cannot take it #but it means at least that if im stationary its not so bad #weaving

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mayathexpsychic · 6 months

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its freezing today but LUCKILY i can wear my favorite outfit i own

#physical form #aaaaaaa #this is the same outfit i drew myself in for my meet the artist. yes i am an outfit repeater #i will probably wear this again within the week.#anyways!!!!! hi :)

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todayisafridaynight · 2 months

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getting wigs for characters with the same hair color as myself make me feel like the biggest dumbass around but youd have me fucked thinking im burdening myself with daigos 2000's emo cut just for a weekend

#snap chats #a weekend is generous im only going to the con on saturday #i like how im making it sound like anime nyc is this weekend when its at the end of august LMAO BUT NO LISTEN #unfortunately beauty influencers have finally done their job right and this one guy was reviewing an eyebrow pencil #but the twist is that this pencil was like. SUPPPER STUPID FINE im talkin .08mm and he demonstrated how it could imitate stubble #SO OF COURSE. my ass wanted to see for myself cause as much as i like my sponge-stippling method its not super precise #and that shit gets annoying when most of it looks fine but then i press too hard or i angle the sponge wrong and now i gotta start over #In Any Case the pencil i got did exactly as i hoped and its actually p fun putting on LMAO. i prefer how it looks too #anyway how this all relates to this post. im probably gonna go as y2 daigo again for anime nyc in august #and I Repeat im not cutting my hair for that LMAO so. Wig 😩#i like it when i cosplay him cause i just go by his actual design cause if i even breathe near skinny jeans ill wanna kms #also i just like to be as accurate as i can be yk. plus the leather pants i have are cozy and theyre one of my fave pairs of pants 🤤#in any case. whenever that wig comes in ermmmmm i dont trust myself to take pictures 😞 my selfie game is dick #maybe ill stream yk2 LMAO but anyway. good night i think im gonna force myself to sleep now #i got back to my dorm like four hours ago or whatever and i am not looking forward to doing school shit again. alongside comm shit #OH WELL we ball good night #wait before i Good Night cackling as i have my meds next to my aoki tablet and plush #great reminder honestly. Take Your Meds Or You'l Convince Yourself To Be A Republican #ok goodnight fr now im gonna giggle and kick my feet thinking of cosplay

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flovverworks · 6 months

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thought again how overwhelmingly lonely akira would become after everything while time does its healing. u go from having a twenty-something ppl around u at all times to being alone. no one to knock on ur door in the morning, no ppl going in & out, no chaos of sudden fights. even in the (more likely) case where akira forgets its like. this haunting feeling of having forgotten something u shouldnt have. guy who goes to every social gathering ever to have that chaotic energetic experience of having so many ppl around again

#stardust speaking !#meeting some of the most important ppl to u and losing them in a yr is uhhh a lot #akiras had a lot of themes of not wanting to leave their world just yet/see through what theyre there for #as well as questions like 'what will /i/ be doing next time x happens?' in a very...hm. accepting way? casual?#actually idk if theres ever been any point where its been 'yeah probably a year and then we'll see what happens'#but considering akira went from 'i wanna go home;_;' to 'whats the way to make sure all of u are safe in the fight against the moon'#as well as what they knew about them appearing right after their last battle w the moon. theres. suspicions. i am sure of it #either way there Is that one 1.5 segment too.......#I LOST MY THREAD #but. lots of stressful topics too #since akira knows how many wizards THEY had to summon and the implication the old sage summoned at least one too #thinks about some of the drusilla event lines again.....forget being special i wish we had met under normal circumstances......#i had more to say about this topic but it also feels like just repeating myself i just think its gonna SUCK for akira #thinking about some lines in kk's diary too...T_T very akira to me. ill go find them again l8r

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opens-up-4-nobody · 3 months

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#what do you call it when a mind is lacking in depth of m thought? is there a word for that?#because all my mind can do is spin in tiny circles. never push any further. no depth of thought #i cant even carry out this line of thought to completion in my head. i have to write it down like this or else it remains stuck in an eddy #its so frustrating. when my thoughts are pressured i spin so fast it feels like my head might pop but the thoughts never go anywhere #bc they just repeat the same god damn things all thr fucking time. they drag me around in circles. then when im feeling low or even like #normal. my head just feels empty and it freaks me out. i have no intersting thoughts to think. theres nothing behind my eyes #possibly its just my brain on 0cd. but how am i suppose to escape the spiral if its in my own head? i guess im just supposed to changr my #reaction to it. recognize what it is and let it go. but i dont like it #i just want to curl up on a warm tile floor. press myself into a quiet corner and not think anything #in an aquarium or a conservatory. specifically the conservatory in Columbus. i love that place #i went there for my birthday when i was like 12 bc i liked it so much. the botanically gardens and the butterflies and the stained glass #i dunno. i just like it there. ugh. im just tired #god. there was a really cool talk today and im always like im not that inattentive lol but then i cannot for the life of me follow a talk or #read a paper all thr way through. my short term working memory is just a tiny little cup. easy to overfill #so i miss mostly everything. its so frustrating #its all frustrating. whatever. back to the psychiatrist tomorrow. probably up thr lamicta1 dosage #bc im past where i was last time i had a reaction to it 💪#i just wish i wanted to draw. drawing just makes me tired and impatient rn #unrelated

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skateisawesome · 4 months

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i really dont want this to come across as homophobic but i have lifelong issues with tone so if it does can someone tell me and ill fix it!

so i have spent the last 4 years of my life coming out as a straight person. sounds stupid.

but basically i have had so many dating rumours surrounding me and my friends that i used to get asked at least once a week if i was gay. i dont know what im doing thats making everyone think im dating my friends but apparently i do it to everyone. i have been the queer awakening for several of my close friends who fell in love with me and through that discovered that they liked girls.

all of that is fine and i can deal with it. im happy to keep correcting people and i've been working on being less flirty with my friends and putting effort into it. what's been pissing me off for the last year or so is the ongoing assumption that i am gay and i just dont know it yet.

i have been outright told by people "one day im going to kiss you and youll discover you like girls"

it made me feel uncomfortable and weird and im gonna be so honest here. i just dont think i like girls that way. i really thought about it and i dont. but i would (and still am) getting told by my close friends that one day when i 'eventually come out' they are all gonna sit around and say i told you so.

but i also wanna say that if i ever was to discover that i was not straight, it would be pretty hard to come out to any of those people, to any of my friends. theyd be so aggressive and constantly tell me that they knew or that it was old news. and so it kinda feels like even if im questioning things, ive been forced to reiterate that im straight so many times that being queer doesnt feel like an option anymore. its like i was forced to decided gay or straight when i was twelve and then people have harassed me ever since and now im not allowed to change what i chose even if i was to be seriously considering not being straight.

to me that feels really fucking toxic and its just upset me for the longest time.

and at this point i dont know what to do. like i cant really retaliate or say anything without people thinking im homophobic (which i swear to you i am not and my intention is not ever to harm that wonderful community in which so many people i love exist). i never want to hurt anyone but like what the fuck do i do!

im so sick of this. its also so weird and i kinda doubt that anyone else has really had this problem lmao.

i would love some opinions. look idk why im posting this. i dont care. i want people to tell me im justified but i also want people to tell me why they think im not. i want someone else to tell me what to do because i dont know.

#im just sick of repeating myself #and i feel like #tumblr is the wrong place to complain about this #but its not like i can do it to these people #i have had nearly all my friends assume im gay #i have had family members assume that i am gay #i have been asked out by random girls on the street #i have been asked out by girls on the internet #what the fuck #what the fuck am i doing #what is causing this #why do i attract women #??#SO MANY QUESTIONS #anyway #sorry for the rant guys #skate rants!#i will probably delete this later

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chibishortdeath · 18 days

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Hmmm I kinda want to make a side blog for RPG Maker game development related things to be able to talk to more experienced people in that community, but at the same time I both don’t really think I’d get much attention and don’t want to accidentally spoil my own game (^^ ; ).

I have a rough story, concept doodles, a tileset, some character sprites, an enemy that walks around but can’t initiate battle yet (if I even decide to have a battle system), a couple rooms with some events, and a functioning run button, but I’m still lost on how to do much else at the moment. Especially since this program has the ability for scripting, meaning I’ll probably have to learn and actually retain another coding language.

So, I’m not very far at all lol. Idk how well that’d go over on the established fandom website, but eh.

#text post #incoherent rambling #project update #game project #I’m still also debating whether or not I can actually even make a proper horror game too #It’s the rule of like just being a horror fan doesn’t make you good at horror being afraid of something does? ya know?#I am trying to go with things that scare me personally but it’s been difficult #either things aren’t concrete of concepts enough or are wayyyy too oddly specific to make anything about #which is quitter talk I know but how does one translate the childhood heebee jeebees of watching top ten gaming videos past bedtime 💀💀💀#or like the way too broad general fear of lack of control without making it too on the nose or too vague #truly a balancing act writing is #kinda ironically I am also a little bit less afraid of hospitals after having been to one for myself rather than family members #which makes things both more and less difficult???#on one hand I have better references for them now but on the other hand I’m desensitized to it 😔#I think I get used to things a little too easily for a lot of things to stay scary #the thing was a scary movie the first time I saw it and now it’s a comfort film #funger was a very scary game until I first died and reloaded a save with little consequence and now it’s just a spooky but fun rpg #but then at the same time thinking about a movie studio logo before a movie that scared me as a kid cause there was a monster in it #still gives weird left over shivers but actually seeing it doesn’t anymore for some reason #I feel like that’s how it’s worked with most things I’ve ever been afraid of in my life besides concepts like death control or idk drowning #ugh writing is HARD #but actually making a functional and fun to play game is harder oh my god do I not know how to make puzzles #I have made swivel chairs that can be knocked and walked over but that’s about it and idk what to do with that knowledge lmaooooo #and I don’t want the entire gameplay loop to be read text search room get key repeat cause that’s boring #I have also desperately tried making a stamina system but there’s not much help with that online especially not in the rpg maker forums #the no necroposting rule sucks all the threads for questions I have never get answered and never will cause no one is allowed to due to age #anyway idk what to tag this probably won’t get seen since it’s not my usual anyway but eh whatever I’ll think about this #hopefully I remember the passwords to two blogs 💀💀💀

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dawnthefluffyduck · 7 months

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I've been seeing a lot of people redrawing their old work and I wanted to give it a try :D after this I will be doing another one because I've never had such a dopamine boost (or it could be me having my first energy drink in a month)

I honestly can't say for sure when the first one was done, but if I were to take a guess... 2016? It's when I got my first pair of markers. I loved drawing mermaids at the time bc it let me draw long flowey hair while avoiding legs haha, and this particular drawing was my favorite 🧜‍♀️

Remembered to work in a higher resolution this time too haha

#i recorded myself drawing this... would anyone wanna watch it sped up?#or did we leave speedpaints behind in 2015 #i'll probably post it anyway just 'cause it's fun for me to watch #i've got stuff to work on for sure... my color choice mostly #i dont wanna have to keep using corrective layers without knowing how to pick those colors in the front end #but i think my anatomy has gotten a lot better over the last few weeks #i did not trace this hand #i repeat I didn't have to trace it; i just looked at my own and drew it #im more proud of that than i am the whole piece #original work #art progress #mermaid

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tvrningout-a · 9 months

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so!! a little housekeeping is in order!!

i'm gonna be here kinda off and on bc i'm going to work on school stuff! and bc my inspiration's been decent, i might reblog a lil spicy meme over on @tvrningon and something fluffy here, though ofc you're free to send in any meme i've reblogged in the past <3 i also have an inbox call that i'll probably work on sometime later today!

and just to kinda share where my head's at, my muse for kny hasn't been very high lately, so i'm thinking of changing my muse list in a way that reflects that. i just!! haven't figured out how exactly. i might categorize the lists by fandom and then by primary, secondary, and tertiary/request. i just want to show that my focus is on chiyo/modern muses, fantasy, and even s.piderverse stuff atm but without shoving all my other muses off the list or into the request category. i can definitely still write everybody!! the muse just isn't there like it used to be.

this doesn't affect many people here, but i may also edit chiyo's bio to make her fandomless again; i just don't interact with hq!! muses very often anymore, and her story isn't one that necessarily needs to be connected to hq!! to work.

i apologize if any of this disappoints anybody btw! i know this blog used to be very kny-centered, and a lot of people followed me for that originally. but i need to do what's going to make being here fun for me, which means changing things. if you need to soft/hardblock me, there's no hard feelings, and i wish you the best <3

#like i said i can absolutely still write my kny muses but they're not at the forefront of my mind rn and changing the visuals of the blog #helped a lot with feeling like i was falsely advertising my kny muses #but i feel like i really need to change stuff more so reflect just how focused i am on other content #chiyo's muse is the loudest it's been for a while and that!! makes me so happy!! i love writing her and tbh would really like #to make her the main muse of this blog #i also want to focus on my lore and fantasy and i wanna see if i can't reinvigorate spiderverse stuff bc i'm still!! very into that uvu #and i just needed to get this off my chest bc i've had it on my mind for a while bc i haven't felt inspired by my kny muses for a bit #once again i'm sorry if y'all are disappointed!! and i'm not saying i won't write them or won't accept new interactions for them #i'm just not focusing on them for now #sorry if i repeated myself a bunch asdf i feel like i'm not saying what i mean clearly and i just feel a bit bad so i'm probably #talking more than i need to asdf #get ready to ramble | ooc

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ecoamerica · 2 months

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lucky-clover-gazette · 1 year

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how are you guys (employed, over 18, living alone etc etc etc) planning to balance tears of the kingdom with being a functional adult? bc i am working on a plan and hooo boy it's going to be a challenge

#i took friday off and will let myself go friday and saturday #the farmers market starts saturday tho so i might take a break to go #i'll plan a really quick meal prep like easy quick filling recipes for sunday #and then literally force myself not to sit down and to go to the gym after work #after which i can play as much as i want before i inevitably am just very tired #repeat for two weeks until i move #repeat two more weeks after i move #get surgery #play in recovery #by then it's a little more than a month out and i'll be more chill ab it probably #(probably not)

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lucyvaleheart · 2 months

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#i need to stop doing this. but i just. i.....#.....I'll probably fall asleep minutes after i post this #so if you message me about it and i don't reply that's why #but i just #............fuck I'm trying so hard #it doesn't seem to matter #no matter how much i get done or accomplish it's never enough I'm always ten steps behind where i need to be to even reach net zero #not even the point of making progress. the point where i can so much as rest #I'm so tired. im so tired. nothing i think of works nothing i try is ever the right thing #i know from the outside looking in i may not seem like a burden i may even seem like an uplifting person to be around #but I'm a burden.#i am. I'm not self deprecating. it's a fact. it's just a fact.#as i am now i am a resource sink and i need too much help and i can't really be independent #and yet i don't really have a choice #so at present whoever i live with (currently my husband) gets stuck taking care of me because i just fall short in so many ways #.....i can't do anything right #nothing i do seems to matter. i can't.... i can't do anything #fuck #I'm just repeating myself I'm almost certain but #...............why can't i have a decent idea for once #all this confidence and i just keep fucking up anyway #worked so hard on being confident in myself that i don't match up to my own expectations now #i #.............fuck #everything hurts so badly #I'm so tired #....I'm so tired #....................if anyone happens to live in Minnesota and wants to just. come shoot me dead hit me up #im too much of a coward to do it myself

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jacky-rubou · 2 months

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finished one chapter of evil stan au, let's just take a break for the night before writing the next one wow.

#being status effected and i haven't been here as long as my other sessions.#but i am optimistic based on how quick i managed to finish this one that i'll at least get the second chapter done before work starts again #next week #i feel like updating you guys on when i finish a chapter to give myself the same relief as posting it #so i don't feel so pressured to get this out that i get burnout lol #anyway #i'm excited #after second chapter done i'll probably jump to journal ford to get that out #then another two chapters of this #then blind ford #then rinse repeat

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drbatsponge · 1 year

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My main concern is what they'll do with Stephanie, I think Cass has a lot of factors that'll prevent DC from trashing her again.

1. James Gunn is probably using her in the DCU.

2. Cass is a good way to tap the asian market, as much as I don't like saying that it's true. She checks all the boxes being a Batman related character and some representation for that crowd.

3. I think Cass fans will support the heck out of Spirit World, even those who were adverse to Batgirls, it'll likely get extended.

Steph is my primary worry, like DC doesn't need her if they can just give Babs her personality and headline her.

So yeah, I am concerned for Stephanie Brown fans.

#stephanie brown #cassandra cain #batgirls #batgirl #dc comics #i should probably go to bed #sorry just a lot of thoughts lmfao #i realize i'm repeating myself a lot i am sorry

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