#also. My Spanish needs work.

[royalarchivist]

With over 20 members currently on the QSMP and more on the way, it's almost impossible for a single person to stay up to date on everything that happens, even with help from QSMP's official Twitter recap accounts.

For people who are interested in QSMP's story, characters, and/or streamers but don't have time to watch hundreds of hours worth of VODs, I've created the QSMP VOD Timestamp Archive.

If there's a particular lore moment you missed live and can't find, search for it in the archive!

Timestamps include quotes, notable lore events, and funny interactions. Interesting or important moments from each stream are bolded for emphasis. I'm also adding short summaries for lore-heavy / eventful stream.

I've organized the document so it should be easy to navigate, and you can CTRL + F to search for specific streamers and/or events.

Complete VOD playlists, recaps, and additional resources are also included in the document for people who might be feeling overwhelmed by the amount of QSMP content out there. It's never too late to get into the series!

If you have a streamer you watch consistently, consider writing down important timestamps to help fellow fans! You don’t have to take detailed notes like mine – even one or two timestamps can be a real lifesaver. If you have any helpful timestamps you want added to the list (or even a 1 sentence summary of a particular stream), send it to me via DM so I can add it to the archive.

I am just one person, so unfortunately this archive is by no means comprehensive, but I'm constantly updating things and adding more streams and timestamps to the document. I've been working on this project for a while now, so even though it's not complete, I hope people find it useful!

[ VOD Timestamp Archive ]

#QSMP #Quackity #QSMP Resource #QSMP Masterpost #QSMP VOD Timestamp Archive #Also I saw the comments and tags y'all left on yesterday's post... thank you.... #That made me smile a lot :') #It's nice getting feedback and it's nice knowing my stuff is helping people #I know most of the people featured here are the same 5-6 people I'm trying to diversify but good god there's so many frickin streamers on th #I wanna watch Maxo more but his streaming schedule doesn't match up with mine very often #also. My Spanish needs work. #But I'm giving it my best shot! #Also if you have any feedback or suggestions on the organizations please let me know #I'm going to try and start linking to the official QSMP stream summaries they post each day #and then I'll retroactively add those to past streams #because god fobid you try and find anything on Twitter #after 24 hours its wiped off the face of the earth practically

[palskippah]

Hi!

Mario’s distaste for mushrooms is so funny and it gives material to draw stuff like this hehe

(Based over a fic I read years ago where the guy craved a fruit that literally every single person in that world hated and so he ate it shamefully ajksdjsad here Mario just eats angrily bc he hates it)

Also I say that at any inconvenience regarding the pregnancy Mario goes >:c to his belly, like he’s mad at the babies asdlaskd and Peach plays along.

(Also- sorry to people that actually speak italian, I did translate what Mario’s saying in google akjdjksdak he’s saying btw “how dare you two? To betray your own mother...”)

#super mario bros #mario mario #princess peach #mareach #mpreg #my art #also it's been years and yet I can't understand how to make basic lighting work but it was needed sorryyyy #thinking of that concept art where he is suffering trying to eat a cooked mushroom #also I love dad mario but also i love mama mario so im conflicted #it could be mommy peach and mama mario IDKKK #I actually don't like 'mommy' but I was thinking of Mami Peach in spanish and that's the translation alskdskad #t4t mareach for the win #also i'm not sure if poke is the correct word for when you touch something repeatedly with a finger #but I think it is #i'm cringe and yet not free #I still get kinda nervous about posting mpreg akjsdj #mareach preggy stuff

[ikram1909]

Question: Gavi is one of the players you talk to the most during games. I was sitting close to the field here and I realised that you talk to him a lot and that he even comes looking for you at times (Xavi chuckles here 😭)... how much time do you have to talk in these mini conversations?

Xavi: well, I talk to the majority of them no? It depends on what the match requires but I talk to Gavi a lot because I have a lot of confidence in him, a lot of faith. I believe he's the soul of the team and he demonstrated it again in another match. I think he's one of the best players we have.

#I have tears in my eyes #I'm in love with the way Xavi verbalises things #I'd also like to point out how BOTH Gavi and Xavi smiled so wide when the reporter brought up how much they talk to each other during games #love them so much 😭 #sorry for the so so translation my Spanish still needs some work #but thats the gist of what he said #pablo gavi #baby waby #xavi hernandez #fc barcelona

[sugarsnappeases]

thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

#i'm like 5'7 i think. fun fact i used to wear glasses when i was like 11 bc all my friends were getting glasses and i wanted some too so i #lied to my optician. lol good times. don't actually need glasses tho soooo. #this is me coming out as a natural blonde guys….. like my hair hasn’t been blonde in a good year or so and it hasn’t been my natural blonde #in like three/four years but still in my heart of hearts i identify as a blonde. like i get confused when people don't count me as one #i have my ears and nose pierced and i would love a tattoo but unfortunately i have both a fear of needles and commitment issues so. #not sure if that’ll ever happen… would be very hot and sexy tho. also i'm one of those freaks with green eyes lol it's appaza quite rare #my hair is currently like dark dark brown… have been getting the itch to dye it again tho like a kinda reddish colour idk yet we’ll see #i had braces for AAGES. i have freckles in the summer and i paint my nails whenever i remember to. rn they’re a very chipped lilac colour #i think i have a resting bitch face but i can never tell tbf like it might be more of a resting 'dead to the world' face lmao #okay technically i don’t play an instrument anymore! but in the past i’ve dabbled with the cello the oboe and the xylophone. singing too #spanish and italian baybee although ig if this means like fluently then that’s not me but this is literally my degree it’s my whole brand #yes i like to read but also the only things ive read in like the last few months have been either books in spanish/italian for my degree #literary criticism for said span/ital books and… fanfic. so. also i like writing but it's my worst enemy rn the thoughts aren't working :( #i have many best friends that i’ve known for years!!!! in fact i've known some of my friends for like my entire life it's very cute #okay sorry for rambling i can never help myself and i also literally could go on icl like there was Some restraint applied here #kara lore #bc there's quite a lot of it in this one lol #tag games

[qsmpbutwithsignlanguage]

How do accents work in SMPs? Because I'll read fanfictions where it's like, "He spoke with a distinctly British accent," or "Her words sounded vaguely German," or even fanfics where another character starts speaking in a different language and they're saying things like 'Chiquito' or 'Me como caca', that kind of stuff, but it's like. This is Last Life. Or Quesadilla Island. Or L'Manberg. Britain and Germany and Spain don't exist in these worlds?? Your cubito busts out Dutch pleasantries which implies the existence of the Netherlands and it's like. Is L'Manberg just some random island in the middle of the Pacific that nobody is touching with a ten foot pole or...?

Don't think about it too hard, though it's kind of funny to imagine these people are fighting for their lives and the lives of the people they love and somewhere out there there's just. Spain. Having elections or promoting tourism or trying to keep people from peeing in its oceans or something. I just find it kind of fun to think about.

#mcyt #dsmp #life series #qsmp #honestly I just suspend disbelief. It's block game fanfiction #it doesn't need to explain to me how accents work. #Hell I use other languages in my mcyt writing from time to time. It doesn't make *sense* but then again does it really need to? #you can thank youtube shorts for my knowledge of spanish consisting solely of terms of endearment and 'I eat poop' #This is my life #ftr I don't think it's a bad thing to mention accents/use other languages #It's just something to think about #(also the examples were referencing specific people those being Wilbur Niki Quackity/Pepito and Fundy in that order) #(but that's not really important)

[sexynetra]

WIP WEDNESDAY

The people have been reacting well to cunty dame so have some more :)

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All this to say – Nicky leaving was putting a major crimp in Dame’s lifestyle. She plucked a glass of champagne off a tray, taking a long sip and surveying the room from her perch near the window. Tia and Kam were deep in conversation next to the food table, while Nicky — as the guest of honor — was in the middle of the room, surrounded by a gaggle of their coworkers.

Kam walked over a moment later, a small plate of hors d’œuvres in hand. “So, are you planning to go talk to your girlfriend?” She asked conversationally.

Dame rolled her eyes, plucking a canapé off of her best friend’s plate and popping it into her mouth. “Nicky’s not my girlfriend.”

“Try telling her that,” Kam retorted, giving Nicky a polite wave and a smile. Nicky smiled back at her before turning her gaze to Dame, smile softening.

“She knows,” Dame said. “I’ve told her. I’m not the girlfriend type. It’s just a bit of fun, nothing more.”

“Yeah well, the trail of brokenhearted girls you leave behind shows that well enough,” Kam shoved her playfully.

Dame pursed her lips to hide her smile. “You’re just jealous,” she teased, finishing off her champagne flute and stepping forward to greet Nicky who had made her way over.

Dame leaned over, placing a ghost of a kiss on each of her cheeks. “Nicky,” she murmured. “Lovely party. Shame it's goodbye.”

“It doesn’t have to be. You could come back to Paris with me.” Nicky looked up at her hopefully.

Dame plucked another flute of champagne off the tray of a passing server, letting out a noncommittal hum as she looked away, meeting eyes with the Spanish woman who worked in reception, flashing her a wink and a smile. “Better not, I’m quite enjoying London,” she said flippantly.

#can you tell I’m having fun :) #also I wrote this on my phone in the parking lot between choir and work so if there’s typos shut up #obviously unedited #but I’m enjoying it #also I really need to come up with a name for this story #like I can’t just keep calling it cunty dame au #cunty dame au #lol #my writing #wip Wednesday #work in progress Wednesday #kam Hugh #Nicky doll #La grande dame #I’m not gonna tag her but the unnamed Spanish woman is arantxa #for visualization purposes #anyways enjoy :) #pls lmk your thoughts I live and die by peoples reactions to my writing #also I need to figure out what everyone is wearing hm I should do that soon #also I’m trying so hard to show more stuff for people who can visualize stuff in their heads #pls tell me if it’s working #am I on the right track #I can’t picture stuff so I always forget to explain things in a way that helps people who can bc it feels so irrelevant to me lmao

[oreegaanoo]

Once again I am fueled by comments from my thesis supervisor and feel like I can actually do this thing hell YEAAAAHHHH

I CAN WRITE THIS THING!!! I CAN DO IT!!!!! AAAAAAAHHHH

#imagine a drawing of me going all feral that's me rn #I get so hyped every time I meet him even though all his comments are like “this is okay” and “what did you mean by this”-- #then followed up by discussions and improvement suggestions and I get so excited about writing it all suddenly #like!!! what is this!!!! #it's probably because I get to actually talk about my thesis and in detail with someone who understands it? probably? #most likely now that I think about it. I don't have a lot of friends who study the same thing so I can't talk about these things in depth #(but I'm also very happy to have those friends who don't understand but listen to my ramblings about it <3 ) #p #and also also like. I am about 45 pages into this thing. I am so far. I have wanted to just drop it for the past month or so but!! I'm so-- #--far!!! holy shit!!! that's amazing my guy!!! you're doing well!! just need the clean up and some clearer explanations and that's it #it's not going to be two more years of this it's going te 6 months MAX #most likely 4 months of work with 1-2 months after for the grading and checking process when i don't have to do shit #I only have this thesis; one essay that is 75% done; and one spanish course I'm taking end I'm done!!!! I will cry when that happens!!

[toytulini]

terfs go climb into a hole and start rotting. animals cannot inherently tell your "biological sex" you are all so fucking stupid. All this post is saying is that animals are not infallible judges of character and some of them make really stupid vibe checks and that people should try not to take it personally. Unless youre a terf in which case they know and they hate you and you should take it personally

re that one post tbh i do want to stress i dont think animals are like magically psychic at knowing your True Gender tbh i think ppl definitely get way too weird about Animal's judgement of ppl.

Sometimes a dog will vibe check a man and the dog will be right and you should listen. but sometimes the dog will vibe check someone for no good reason. sometimes dogs have wack judgement. sometimes dogs have biases influenced by their owners or previous owners. like. there are Racist Dogs. its not the dogs fault, but that doesnt make the bias theyve developed less real, or less potentially hurtful. i dont think we need to like, Cancel Dogs Bc Sometimes Ppl Can Train Them To Be Racist, but we do need to stop perpetuating the idea that a dog's judgement of someone is infallible. theyre not responsible for it and its not their fault its developed, theyre just dogs, they didnt choose it, but that doesnt mean theyre RIGHT lmao. i think its important to stress this for many reasons but in regard to that last post specifically, if youve ever been vibe checked as a gender you arent by a judgy dog its literally not your fault. might not even be the owners fault. not the dogs fault cos like. its a fucking dog. you do kinda have to be the bigger person in that scenario cos the other person is. A Dog.

#toy txt post #this was meant to be a quick post it got a bit longer and more in depth than i planned oops #i just hate when ppl act like All Dogs have Inherently Correct Judgement Of People #like from every angle. its funny to joke about but i know theres ppl out there who might be feeling like #very fragile in their gender or smth and seeing a post like that if they meet a dog that normally hates men but not women but it doesnt #recognize your inherent true gender im sure seeing shit like that post can be a horr #got interrupted by a phone call while typing it and the post is glitching so i cant see where that tag is cut off so uh #dogs are like ppl in that they can develop biases and have bad judgement and they dont always get it right #they are not like ppl in that it is not possible to ask a dog to examine its biases. you cannot make a dog take a class on #critical race theory. you have to work to socialize and desensitize them against those biases or at least make sure those biases theyve #developed dont negatively impact ppl. in this sense i guess im morally obligated to try to learn more spanish to see if it helps my dog #chill. shes nervous around all new ppl but parents have anecdotally noted she extra dislikes men speaking in spanish. she was a stray so we #dont really know her history. she also does Not like fire pokers outside. weirdly even tho its basically the same tool she is unfazed by #the indoor poker for the woodstove? but ig she wouldve had less exposure to indoor woodstoves as a stray in Louisiana? #but i can see like ppl having a little backyard barbecue and threatening the big mastiff looking stray dog with a fire poker and i think #that region of the country prolly has a higher number of spanish speaking ppl than our current residence so the odds of her running into a #spanish speaking guy who isnt very nice are prolly higher just due to a denser population as a whole. and we think shes part mastiff which #i think is a breed already prone to disliking strangers that probably cooked up into a little cocktail in her brain #luckily shes bad enough with All Strangers that i think honestly it would be hard to even notice her bias? but. ig i need to see if i can #desensitize her? idk. sighs but im scared to open duolingo now 😭. but i could maybe do it. when other ppl wear hats she fucking hates it #i wear a fucking face covering mask that looks like a giant eyeball she looks at me a little quizzically but is fine. jester hat? fine #i am like that video of the person desensitizing that horse except thats just like. living w me. minus the cat thing. id never do that to #the cats or dog. everyone would hate that. squirrel already cant tolerate being held while a dog is out cos he THINKS im going to do that. #it would traumatize the dog cos he'd injure me escaping and then prolly her trying to scare her off to get past her and shes just minding #her business. solo i cant hold that long but is less likely to injure anyone. shadow. first of all all 3 are way too heavy to be holding #like that #im getting lost in the tags again sorry im chewing caffeinated gum. i should go try to buy some catnip #ive made my Phone Calls. im gonna try to go get dressed and buy various catnip products. maybe lure him with a toy this time. need my #parents to help me but not be so visibly Ready to help me next time cos i do not want to chase his ass again...

[acidbathcat]

i’m glad i chose to start with norwegian i feel like that’s probably the easiest language an english speaker could learn. it’s basically english. there’s like zero conjugation. it’s definitely hard to pronounce some words though

#i also would like to improve my spanish but language apps don’t work for that because i already know all the basics #i just need to get a better vocabulary through actual interactions in spanish #anyway if i actually learn a language through apps then i’m going to try something harder next. maybe french or latin. or arabic. #i want to learn one major language from each part of the world

[boxwinebaddie]

Does parental trauma run in the CD family

hoooooooooooooooooooo you know it baby! ;)

ok before i begin the cd boys are just #traumabonded from being in CD together...its not as fun or cool as it looks i swear...ill just say that. those four boys...my sons...everything and more for them...angels <3

but in the Parental Traumalypics

ravenstan wins for...Obvious Reasons.

somebody call 9-1-1 shawty fire burnin on the dancefloor ooOhwoOahooh

like when i tell you that man endured Horrors and he is my baby my baby my BABY!!! i would fight dirty 4 all the ncu styles and their loved ones...but ravenstan...i would to jail for life its what he DESERVES!!! when we finally get a raven pov flashback???? HAPPY MENTAL ILLNESS DAY EVERYONE! not a dry eye in this house! WHEW!

kyle is probably second but he is not cd but thats okay because KENNY????? IN RM?????? WHOOOOOO!!! ALSO HELL!!!!!!! THEY HAVE ALSO LIVED THRU SOME SHIT!!! AND NEVER DIE!!! SO THEY JUST KEEP LIVING THROUGH IT!!!! but no kennys relationship with their parents and like specifically darling karen is dramatic and traumatic there is a lot going on there but we gotta get to it

so i will be honest i did not flesh out the other cd boys...home lives as much as i wanted to because i was so focused on stan and kyle and getting those right...so coming soon! xx

jimmy from what i am meagerly piecing together had an OK upbringing and parents that "looked after him" but i think found his disability shameful and secretly kind of felt burdened by having a child who needed so much medical care? like emotionally and financially?

i think they probably saw him more as a way to get sympathy, sort of treated him like an object/joke sometimes...and the saddest people are often the funniest so i think he sort of ran with "well if everyones laughing with you, theyre not laughing at you" :( jimmy my beloved im so...but i would say there's trauma there. FS!!!!

can't say too much abt the cd guitarist ( i also am still working on him shhhh ) but he had at least one positive guardian/parental figure. also felt like he had a lot to prove, so a lot of...pressure. but i love him sm

as for the blondies gayng....KYLE???? JERSEY KYLE???????? for the fucking gaslighting that was done to him THE LITERAL LIGHTING UP OF HIS BEST FRIEND SUPPOSEDLY??? KYLE NEEDS FINANCIAL COMPENSATION UPWARDS ONE MILLION DOLLARS FOR THE PSYCHOLOGICAL TORTURE HE ENDURED JFC!!!!

also like sheila i love you sheils but she is so crazy like she is neurotic she loves kyle and kyle loves her but she definitely made kyle anxious about everything like even before stan died sheila set him up to fail...and UH GERALD ACTUALLY SET KYLE UP TO FAIL BECAUSE HE GAVE HIM UNREASONABLE STANDARDS AND NEGLECTED AND LOOKED DOWN ON HIM FOR NOT MEETING THEM AAAA gerald was openly cruel to kyle....gerald please FUCKING die! thx!

randy x gerald x burning in hell forever <3

uhhhh bebe...bebes parents love her and think shes perfect but they....do not know shes camming or that she likes women...so thats gonna be...very interesting for her...she is also still in the works 4 me

as we know stephen and linda stotch DIE FOREVER marj literally does not have parents right now because they actually disowned her like now shes rich bc of cd ( they saved her life ) but before that all of the blondies house was working 74937493 as many shifts to cover marjs rent because they love her and her parents cut her off ily marj

dont...ask me abt creek....im sorry...u know im still gathering data

but? uh clearly tweeks home life was BAD clearly he is recovering from being secretly fed METH??????? HELLO BITCH????

and i actually think that growing up craig was on serious outs with his parents ( was it the autism?? ) but now hes actually very close with them. also, awawawww, they basically adopted tweek and call him son and everything <333 im crying tricia also loves tweek...so actually craigs trauma is mild i think...wow...amazing...nature is healing

....but he is on Stripe number....709327493274 tho...like he just replaces them and theyre always stripe...im crying...are u okay baby

but to answer your question...yes...yes it does.

ITS ALWAYS DARKEST BEFORE CRIMSON DAWN, LITERALLY BECAUSE THEIR EXISTENCES WERE BLEAK! <3 SLAY OLAY

-uncle nina, ceo of traumatizing sp characters

#sorry if this is unreadable i did my best #i am still working on a lot of the backstories #BUT ITS BC RM HAS SO MANY SIDE CHARACTERS #AND ITS HARD TO FOCUS ON THEM BC RAVENSTAN AND JERSEY KYLE NEED MY FULL ATTENTION #but dawg...raven...every part of his life...he can joke abt kwording himself all he wants he fucking earned it he did his dues #like he deserves peace and if he wants to have a raeger bomb wear his silly outfits and call kyle spanish pet names to relax he can do that #he has my permission for the horrors hes seen #kyle also can do whatever he wants bc he is in a prison of the mind and thinks hes clinically insane when hes actually the sanest person #like he is SOOOO CASSANDRA CODED like no one will listen to him everyone thinks hes a basketcase but hes RIGHt #ok kennys backstory is really interesting i cant really talk abt it but i can say its fucking sad and i cry buckets of blood for them #ok jimmys also made me sad i luv him i never thought abt it wow #NOT THOMAS AND LAURA ADOPTING TWEEK NOT CRAIG ADOPTING A NEW STRIPE EVERYTIME ONE DIES #THAT MADE ME LAUGH IM SORRY HE WONT TELL U ONE DIED EITHER U JUST SEE ONE LOOK SLIGHTLY DIFFERENT KSHLSD

[todayisafridaynight]

and maybe i really like Pure (1996) because toru makes me think of a timeline where sawashiro didnt go into the yakuza ok . then what.

#snap chats #its also funny that his last name's sawatari and uses the same kanji </3 of course </3 #anyway hi <3 rewatched my fave episode <3 why is ttm so pretty thats all i was thinking while watching hes SOOO pretty... #emi wakui is also so adorable i cant like. like im insufferable when watching this LMAO THEYRE JUST TOO CUTE #did i make this post just to talk about pure. And If I Did. #im not sorry i love this drama too much... its just too cute... weirdly enough... #ok to ATTEMPT to make this post viable right. its the way that toru also typically wears a turtle neck with a jacket #it makes me think of teenager sawashiro and that coupled with his hair being pretty similar to Grown Sawashiro #it gets my brain going. also he's kind of a bitch but like a bitch within reason. unlike sawashiro he's just a bitch OOP #close enough tho it works... it works to make my brain explode.. also this bitch's breakfast being cigs and beer tracks #i wasnt going to put caps but i need a new pic of ttm to look at all day. sorry <- isnt sorry #anyway every time he smiles in this show i gain twenty years cause he never does it and it's always those cute small shy smiles i love #ok lemme finish this comm. i have a spanish exam later EW bye

[imflyingfish]

Aggh feeling super proud of myself like im getting on so well atm im learning to drive and im learching french and my art is going really well and ive been enjoying spending time with myself and ive been organising more things for my future and now it feels possible and i hit that deadline and ive been more equiped to deal with things that definetly would have given me a breakdown in march and like. This year is going to suck and im not getting everything i want done but its not going terribly either

#ive had a lot of anxiety issues this last week #i dont have anxiety but i do get anxious most days but im able to get past it #but idk i had a session today and it was positive and it was good to catch up after last weeks was cancelled #theres some things i want to do more of like i want to learn more guitar and i need to do more revision but im also. im improving myself a #lot more #like after learning blender (althpugh ive forgotten now lol) anytime im like man i wish i could learn ____ im like... well i learned blende #its cheesy but its given me a LOT more self confidence in my skills both academic and creative #i sometimes feel that im fucking stupid but like. im also not #idk i just dont think im as far off as i thought #and im SUPER syced to be learning french and spanish #its a LOT more work than it was like last week but honestly i think im going to settle back into it #and im like. okay if i spend 4 years learning french/spanish. i may not be fluent #but i sure as hell wont be any worse #also i know like LOADS more spanish than i thought #anyway im super proud of myself for kicking myself into this #I watched a youtube intro in french and UNDERSTOOD IT IMMEDIETLY TODAY #well it took a bit of concentration but u know #and im watching and listenimg to french/spanish media and its really interesting and fun #my endurance in spanish is not as gpod as in french #and usually id type this out in either blog but my energy is just out for today #but i'll be listening to music and just hear words and its insane how much i can pick up while doing coursework or whatever its amazing #i feel annoying when i talk to other people about it but. oh well i sometimes just get so excited about it #im NOT good. but hey its been 4 months learning french and. about 3 days learning spanish lol

[touch-starved-lurker]

i have homework to do but i also have horrors to succumb to, now what

#shitpost #kind of #homework #the horrors #there is an awful weight pressing against my productivity and i want to cry about it #but also i need to read the textbook and work on the spanish reading/questions and do the biology reading/questions #can’t a guy just succumb to the horrors in peace #sigh

[carouselcometh]

I love my friends, I love wandering around with them, and I love the new used bookstore inside of the library where I was able to buy The 120 Days of Sodom in Spanish for twenty five cents

#I went doing that searching thing again with them today and it was great we may go again this weekend #Also I need to work on my Spanish anyways

[justinefrischmanngf]

i need to get over myself and learn the languages i want to learn if i want to learn them like i just need to do it if i want to learn them then i should go out and learn them and like . fuck whatever else any of it means . yes it IS embarrassing to learn a language like the ones i want to learn as an adult but who CARES and yes i KNOW my grandparents will never want to speak to me in those languages but who CARES if it's important to me it can be important to me anyway

#had a moment last night bc i was apparently having an identity crisis which was random #but i had a moment where i was like well even if i learn all these languages no one in my family is going to want to speak to me #in those languages because of [insert reasons i don't need to go into here] and so ultimately none of this is like . cultural Really #it's just me wanting to feel as though i am connected to something when i will never be #and maybe that's true or maybe it isn't but if i want to learn them i should learn them anyway like . at the end of the day #i DO want to learn those languages and i think it would be interesting and i would love to be able to speak to people #in those languages even if the people i speak to aren't related to me and i would love to be able to speak languages that aren't english #and that all stays true even if i am not able to have the cultural connection through language with my own family #like i can go on and on about how disconnected i feel from my culture bc of everything that has ever happened in my life #but how i still feel alienated bc i'm Not White to white people and all of that is true but not learning a language doesn't make it #any better and maybe learning a language won't make it better either but i think it's a better use of my time #ALSO !!!!! NO ONE EVER GOES OH WHY WLD U LEARN FRENCH OR SPANISH [OR INSERT EUROPEAN LANG HERE] u have no real cultural connection to it!!! #so like why is it different bc i want to learn asian languages??? it's not! except in my head! or maybe irl too but i'm just saying #that i think i make all of this a much bigger deal than it has to be #that being said i did just try to look up classes and they r all for children and about keeping children culturally connected 2 their famil #l m f a o but that can't be ALL the classes ............. i'll work it out is what i'm saying and i need 2 get OVER myself #bc none of it is that deep and i can feel conflicted all i like but i should fucking DO smth about it at least #anyway i am posting this in the hopes that i can beat it into my own head bc i am sick and tired of being weird about learning #languages and i need 2 get over my weird cultural identity issues if i want to like . live a life where i don't want to explode and die

[steampunkedparm]

bluh 7.30 rn and i need to go to bed but how can i go to sleep when i just had that experience at the bus stop fhfjfh

#you think people are weird only at night? #WRONG #6am dude was being a fucken weirdo and. larping??? as someoen of indigenous american descendant??? #like he was veing a fucken racist charicature and claiming the he was the creator and some cheif and speaking in what sounded like a very?? #butchered?? spanish??? #i could be wrong yk like my knowledge of languages isnt as expansive as i maybe want to be #he was also rmabling about the bible too?? #and something about how we tell our true ages is wrong??? #indont remember what he fully said this was over and hour ago now but like??? #also rambled about how his true eye colour is on a different spectrum??? #and then when i got on the bus he apparently was getting on the same one as me #and usually yk i look up briefly if someoen walks past me just as a general see if their approaching me specifically #bc it happens sometimes someone needs help #motherfucker looked at me and said something in what was probably actually a vastly incorrect indigenous american language #no idea what he said but he was definitely trying to get my attention like he was at the bust stop when he very loudly said good morning to #me (i just nodded at him lol. i just got off of work im not in the mood to interact unless someone needs directions) #(i ignored him when he spoke to me on the bus lol dont worry) #BUT THEN THIS FUCKER SITS IN THE BACK AND STARTS. LIKE STOMPING AND CHANTING AND JUST. BEING A STUPID FUCKING RACIST CHARICYATURE AGAIN #AND THEN #AND FUCKEN THEN DEAR GODS THIS DUDE #has the gall to start pestering some poor sap who happened to sit too close to him about jow the cdc is bullshit and how he himself is the #cheif of medicine or what have you of the state i live in #i just?? #gods i need a drink after this morning dude #i dont normally mind if someone is being loud and disruptive #i tune it out and its bound to happen takin public transportation. its kinda whatever. thats their business #but this shit took the fucken cake dude what the fuck #anywyas good morning lol i guess #tldr i had the displeasure of dealing with a freakazoid racist at the bus stop this morning after work