#also why is my tumblr so deep

[dawnbreakersgaze]

Literally never recovering from that one scene where Zayne rolls his eyes at MC teasing him. Like just look at him

The little millisecond smirk when he does it

The way he rolls his entire head with his eyes

The sass is so strong with him I can't

#love and deepspace #love & deepspace #lads #l&ds #zayne love and deepspace #zayne #li shen #love and deep space #lads edits #lads gif #hes such a brat deep down and I have the urge to find and tame it #also why tumblr why did you obliterate the quality of this gif??? it was so pretty how dare you 😭 #this is also my proof that Zayne is ND bc he rolls his eyes with his whole body like the rest of us lol

[melit0n]

I made a little comic based on a convo a few friends and I had.

Time taken: 6 hours and 5 minutes.

What took the longest? Slide 7. Those book designs brought me to the brink of insanity (1 hour and 44 mins).

(Notes under the cut)

Before anyone asks, yes, I know Canus Major typically appears behind Orion, however, I was running out of space, so please forgive the inaccuracy.

For anybody wondering what on Earth the third drawing is, it's a interpretation of NASA's Voyager 1 spacecraft's Pale Blue Dot, which was taken on February 14th, 1990.

Slide 8 represents the red string theory. In most literature, the red string is attached to two people, typically romantic lovers, who are intertwined by fate to meet. However, it can also just be a string that connects a person and all the people they'll connect with in life. It's an embodiment of fate; everybody is interlinked.

Slide 10 is one of my own photos taken from my bedroom window. I originally planned on drawing it out, however, after two hours of fiddling about and trying to make it look right, I gave up and just put the photo there; I hope it fits in fine.

@moonchild-in-blue @tonguetyd @hookedhobbies @branches-in-a-flood thought you four might like this!

#my digital art makes a temporary come back! #definitely not as fond of it as painting but I'm quite proud of it #still gotta work on shading and making things look less flat but that wasn't the main focus of this one #not happy that Tumblr is butchering the quality but we'll ball with it #this also took way longer than expected #sat down and said 'oh this'll only take me a day or two' #oh how wrong I was #everytime I close my eyes all I see are book designs and stars #anyways #I really do hope I go up to the stars when I'm gone #I'm pretty sure I was some typa' whale in my last life so why not try the sky after the deep blue? #mel's doodles #mel's thoughts #mel's photos #digital art #art #mini comic

[kissatoru]

unfriendly reminder that my blog is 18+ ONLY so put your damn AGE or an INDICATOR of it somewhere on your blog, otherwise i will just assume you’re a MINOR/don’t care about my boundaries and i WILL BLOCK YOU !!!!

#i'm sure the people who this doesn't apply to are sick of me saying/posting about this #but it's just so annoying how i'll be happy about a milestone #until i realise i probably have to block a quarter of you😐 #just cause you don't even bother reading my pinned post or byf/rules #i know it's 'not that deep' for some of you and that's probably why you don't listen/care #but i'd rather not risk the consequences of someone 17- interacting with me/my smut #also to clarify #i use tumblr mobile almost exclusively and i can't block from sideblogs on here #so i'm only able to do so when i have access to desktop #and when i do have access i'm usually doing college work #so i've only just now gotten round to actually blocking people #still not done tho #cause there's genuinely a ridiculous number of you /pos /lh #and it's taking a while since i'm checking every single person #( ★ ) psa.

[tender-hearteddd]

when aot was just abt to end, there were leaks ofc as there always are lol abt eren not really achieving any of his plans. and so much of the aot fandom, who have never lived through war, were genuinely upset over this. eren literally commits global genocide, he and his plan doesn’t deserve to achieve anything. especially not anything that would benefit him.

eren wasn’t one of my favorites until season 4 because of how utterly fucked up he is. he was a tragic MC who started off as a hero and as the story progressed, became a monster. even though we know what leads to his corruption, genocide is still wrong actually and having a characters worst fear come to life due to their own actions is the sort of tragic irony isayama loves. we’ve already seen isayama do this with reiner, zeke and grisha. it’s satisfying yet devastating at the same time how harsh the story is on them.

and the story should’ve been a lot more harsher to eren instead of the positive reaffirmation he got in 139 and from most of the fandom. eren claims the rumbling was for paradis, like thst shit didn’t kill off most of paradis’ population, and than he claims that it was for his friends (like pieck, who he has never even had a conversation with) but than he admits it was for himself - and it wasn’t satisfying at all because isayama wanted us to feel bad for eren and it worked. never mind the fact that eren killed his own mom, that he manipulated his own father for taking the FT for his own gain, that he annihilated 80% of the world - he did it for his friends 😊 so it’s okay! friendship >>>> genocide 😝

aot taking a very strong stance against eren’s actions and plan, denouncing them as wrong (bc they are) and showing them that nothing good comes out of them is wayyyyyy better the woobification and the mini redemption arc we got from him in the last chapter.

this is why i hate it when aot fans talk abt aot like it’s the greatest anti-war anime ever made. i think majority of aot fans are westerners or come from developed countries. it’s easier to understand war when ur watching cartoons of it instead of actually living through it. a huge part of the fandom justifies eren’s genocide, even with characters explicitly condemning him. do you really think it’s clear with its anti-war message when all we got was a few sad faces and a huge thank you from the main cast? one of the main themes in aot is the moral grayness of the world. the warriors did what they did because they were child soldiers trying to protect their families, EMA would’ve done the same. the scouts raided liberio (and were heavily against it). and masses of innocent people died in the name of other groups interests. there were literally no winners in this at all.

but why have characters that should’ve narratively and thematically been against eren suddenly forgive and praise him?

why break all the characterization, break all those different point of views, for the warriors specifically, if not for the final woobification of eren?

eren could’ve had one of the most extraordinary corruption arcs in all of anime just for that to be ruined and i will forever be mad abt it

#ending defenders dni #we are not gonna argue abt this if you see this just look away 😭 #if you haven’t actually lived through war #if you haven’t actually had to see people dying due to war #if you haven’t had to go through the humiliation of being a refugee #than you have no reason to defend this atrocious piece of anti war media #anti-war media made by those from countries of imperial power are always really bad #idk i just hate when westerners talk abt war #over the past few weeks #my homeland has been routinely bombed and attacked #and while i try to ignore this deep seated feeling of anguish inside of me #i go onto tumblr #and i see bitches woobifying a fictional white man for the genocide he commits #and seeing pple praise aot as an anti-war piece of media is what prompted this post #being a refugee in this country is so funny lol #also my homeland is one of the countries that has the most child soldiers in the world #which is why i think i relate more to the warriors than anything #aot could’ve been so great if it was written by me #attack on titan critical #attack on titan meta #eren jaeger critical #eren critical #eren jeager meta #eren x reader #eren jeager x reader #aot spoilers #aot isn’t a good anti-war analysis because isayama isn’t a devoted anti imperialist #if ur naming characters after nazis and imperial japanese war ships #i don’t expect u to even be anti-war i expect u to be a bigot #i can’t believe people just swept isayama’s worrying obsession with ww2 under the ruh

[musical-chick-13]

"This show is SO good, you should watch it!!"

I gotta be honest. If I look at a character list on Wikipedia and get five characters down without seeing a single woman, it's probably not for me.

#I have no patience for 'there is exactly one woman in the main/supporting cast' anymore #unless the writing is INCREDIBLE and the themes are explored with a type of depth and nuance I can't get anywhere else (like shiki) #(daily media plug for shiki) #then I just. probably will not vibe with it. if there are no women. (also shiki DOES have interesting female characters in it) #and this isn't to say that like. things involving men or talking about men or that have a male protagonist are Not Worth #My Time that is NOT what I'm saying at all. I just want like. several women. who show up and affect the story. like LITERALLY that is all I #am asking for. I feel like that's just. the bare minimum. but alas. #mel screams about fictional ladies again #there are plenty of things that are male-character-focused that I enjoy and even genuinely think are good! but I do want people to #ask themselves why they aren't willing to go to bat for media that DOES have more women in the cast than men. #(I mean. the answer is misogyny. but I want people to be. aware of that. and evaluate accordingly) #(evaluate meaning 'acknowledge I have some biases I need to continue deconstructing' not 'drop interest in everything tumblr #user musical-chick-13 personally doesn't like') #I feel like so many times we get trapped in this space between overcorrection via 'don't like ANYTHING that's pRoBLeMaTiC in ANY way' #and people taking the 'it's fiction it's not that deep' to the conclusion of 'because I cannot actually hurt fictional characters because #they're not real that means I am incapable of hurting irl people when they talk about those characters' #like there is. nuance here. there is a middle ground. and most people have NO interest in finding it lmao #and like...if you carry your biases from irl (which EVERYONE HAS. INCLUDING ME. COURTESY OF LIVING IN A PREJUDICED SOCIETY.) into a #direct and one-to-one evaluation of stories or characters that allow you to exercise those biased ideas. then that reinforces those biases #like. no hating...for example every anime lady isn't the same as structural misogyny like the pay gap or anti-women violence #but if you automatically associate the idea of 'female character' with 'lesser-than' it strengthens the already-present societal idea that #women are not as important or dynamic or worthy of support and attention as their male peers. if you are willing to see every (white) #fictional man as having interiority and depth but struggle to see that in any fictional woman then it adds to the things society is already #telling us about women. it creates an association of 'women' with 'inferiority' and uh. that's what misogyny is. #it is not the same as misogynistic crimes against irl women but it IS a reflection of the rhetoric and societal impulses that lead to them #and even if it's a reflection and not the actual thing. it's still important to break down and examine and reevaluate because #if we don't examine our OWN biases. then even if we tear down the greater oppressive structure we'll just end up building it back up again #no your thousands of words of m/m fanfiction or liking late 2000s shonen anime isn't responsible for misogyny nor are these things #inherently misogynistic. I just want like. some acknowledgement that something being 'for fun' doesn't automatically mean that bias/ #prejudice is nowhere to be found

[mossflower]

loki season two has me screaming crying throwing up trying not to get dragged back into the mcu trenches

#i am stronger than this. i am better than this!! #by the trenches i mean consuming fanfiction at an unhealthy rate. fourteen year old me was insane i think i was on ao3 more than i slept #that’s not exaggeration. i was getting four hours of sleep on school nights and frequently went to bed at 5am on weekends #it is ONE good story. one. literally not worth it. i don’t even care about ninety percent of the mcu characters #i will ignore the little voice in my head reminding of the sheer amount of fanfiction. this was my pre-tumblr days #so my fandom interaction was like. youtube and ao3. maybe instagram posts sometimes. it was so much fun like. zero drama zero discourse #i was honestly living my best life. got less interested when i joined tumblr and went full doctor who mode #and after endgame i watched i think wandavision and loki and that was it. just didnt care anymore lol #i know exactly why this is happening tho. currently the thing i am insane about is my own damn project. which i am in the process of writin #for obvious reasons no fandom there. bc it lives in my mind twenty four fucking seven #i do wonder if i’m kind of growing away from fandom anyway? the closest i’ve got since toh ended was homestuck tbh #i want to feel obsessed with something again!! everything i’m into now - tma tlt and the like - i love them #but it doesnt hit like it used to. i don’t know it’s hard to explain #like video essays that i would have loved a few years ago!! the hour long ones about representation and queer media #they just irritate me now! i got halfway through one last week and had to bail i just could not care less #how did 2020 social media have me convinced that x character being gay was super important politically economically socially etc #ofc the answer is that i was a baby lesbian getting even less social interaction than normal #like representation is important obviously but also. sometimes it was not that deep #i don’t know if i’m making sense tbh but you get my drift #morganposting

[starlightkun]

the fact that they changed sungtaro's government assigned emojis when they re-debuted..........they rlly just gave these men completely new identities like the past 3 yrs of 🦦 and 🦌 just never happened

#i mean i think 🧋 obvs fits taro better but thats not the point here #guess those emojis werent so representative huh 🤔 if they can just get completely new ones depending on what group theyre in 🤔🤔🤔 #and its not like they got ones that other nct members had either (nor does nct care abt members sharing emojis) #also these riize emojis are wack why is eunseok is just a rock are they ok #actually i take it back like four neos are dogs someone shouldve taken one for the team and been like a fork or a pair of socks #these riize boys r onto smth here #when tumblr user duovxq makes all the idols who share emojis fight to the death or wtv eunseok will be safe #talk #text #mine #riize #oh shotaro is 🧋 and sungchan is 🐸 now in case yall were wondering #apparently #and eunseok is 🪨. my boy is just a rock. #and i cannot remember the other riizzlers emojis for the life of me i just fucking levitated when i saw eunseoks #and had to check to see if i was hallucinating that sungtaro just.....got new emojis????? in a new group?????????? #like theyre brand new people or smth and not the same otter and bambi we've known for 3 years?????? #I KNOW ITS NOT THAT DEEP THEYRE EMOJIS BUT THE LEAP FROM BAMBI TO FROG IS SO WEIRD TO ME

[thekingk0ng]

wow my blog is 12 years old today. my baby has entered middle school :)

#text #personal #and that’s why you see insane shit when you go deep into my archives because this isn’t an aesthetic blog it’s a personal blog #when I started on tumblr I posted marvel and dexbonus content lol also regular show and dmmd #it’s so funny to see my eras #cal u know

[countess-of-edessa]

i don’t need a boyfriend and my life is full and fulfilling without any romance! as long as there is a cute boy texting me constantly, going to all social events with me and hanging out with me there the whole time, driving me everywhere, hanging out with me during all our formal events, spending at least three or four hours a week just talking with me in his car, sending me pictures of sunsets he sees, complimenting all my outfits, and going with me to get ice cream and look at the moon together, and he only does all of these things with me and nobody else, i do not need a boyfriend to feel fulfilled.

#what an annoying way to learn i am a Normal Girl kind of!!! #i didn’t think i was but i don’t have a good frame of reference because like. high school. did not want a boyfriend was just chilling #and very busy. college. was so deep in a depressive spiral i had pretty much accepted i would live and die completely alone and men didn’t #even figure into it and i just kind of assumed i would never attract that kind of attention in any way and was busy being miserable anyway. #so grad school was the first time i was like haha! this is how i can live my life happily as an adult! i have just a couple of close friend #and im so happy! i guess i really am one of those people who doesn’t really need romance in her life because im fine living without it if i #can keep my friendships the way they are. and now im like wait so why am i sad all the time now? #and upon further reflection i think everything might just be a mess now because i am stupid literally no matter what way you slice it #pray for me but also don’t take my posts too seriously i can’t talk to anyone about this in person so it’s over represented on my tumblr bl #i mean i do think about it every waking moment but like. im also doing other stuff and multi-tasking

[concerto-roblox]

i spend a bit of time on twitter for fandom stuff bc there are some really talented artists and writers but oh my god i have to limit my time on that app so much compared to tumblr bc one tiny thing will happen and suddenly there'll be the most despair-inducing discourse ever and i genuinely want to die

#honestly twitter definitely wants people to get angry bc angry people tweet more #this is mostly abt sttwt but ig it applies to other fandoms too #like one person will say one thing and suddenly everyone sees it on their timeline and everyone and their mother is talking about it #when it really isn't that deep #and also some people are just so rude?? like the ship wars are awful and people just make stuff up and say the most horrible shit #and it's so easy to find hate accounts like i'm not opposed to being a hater of things occasionally #but today i found an account called smth like 'why people hate st*ddies' (not censored) #and it was literally just someone screenshotting all the petty drama from one niche subset of the fandom #like i just don't understand how people can have fun on twitter if they use it like intended?? #i have to turn on notifs for people i like and use the notifs as a dashboard bc the timeline will randomly show you the most rancid shit #plus i feel like twitter is actively trying to make it hard to see anything older than a day #i hate the way it's all about new new new and content content content oh my god shut up shut up shut up- #obv tumblr can have awful people too but i feel like it's so much easier to avoid stuff like that if you curate ur own experience #like on tumblr i can just block someone bc i don't wanna see their posts but on twitter blocking someone is a personal attack #and someone will write a thread about how you're a toxic bitch making the fandom worse and you hated them bc they drew b*lly h*rgrove once #and that means you're against discussing harmful topics in media and are pro censorship or smth idk #girl maybe i just don't like him and don't wanna see fanart of him ugh #i feel like maybe i'm really sensitive bc seeing people argue abt things really upsets me?? but idk i thought that was universal #but apparently people love being mad?? #anyways uh. steve/eddie nation 4 eva yass #how to be cringe 101 #i feel like i need a tag for my beef with twitter uuh #twitter hate #there

[moophinz]

you'd be better off forming your own opinions about the things you enjoy rather than relying so heavily on wikis compiled by fans or random strangers on the internet telling you what to think, especially in the case of yakuza games where such people aren't even fluent in the language of the source material and don't know the culture firsthand.

I made a reply to someone on that post basically saying that I’m aware none of that is reliable material in the slightest and was more so me venting and ranting about how it’s a reflection of what certain portions of the fandom believe. So, yeah, trust me I have my own opinions and know full well TV Tropes and badly formed wikis are about as trustworthy as gas station food.

I’ve luckily come across people and groups who share more reliable information straight from the horse’s mouth with translations instead of really biased or blatantly bigoted filtered ideas of what they think is going on. Pretty thankful for all that. Just wish other people wouldn’t spout a lot of lies that spread like wildfire and are so easily believed by a lot of people. There’s a reason I tend to keep my distance from fandoms as I get older. In any regard, I know as much as I can know thanks to the right people.

I’ve had more than my fair share of similar issues in the YGO and even Hetalia (ah many many moons ago in junior high) fandoms 💀

#yeah trust me I’m aware of what’s bs #like I said it just becomes aggravating at points when people say things with so much certainty despite not having the slightest clue #definitely not the end of the world or something I’m fuming over at all #I also take up a certain interest in how fandoms operate and share ideas and readings even though it’s more often than not totally negative #so it’s something that simultaneously gets me thinking like a YouTuber doing a deep dive but also makes me roll my eyes #if that makes any sense either #anon #is it annoying? yes #is it the most horrible thing in the world? not by a #tumblr why do you close off a tag when I reopen the app

[leibi97]

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#I still hope I get my enjoyment for Doof back #it probably won't be as big as it used to be #but deep down I still like him a lot #I wished a stupid tumblr thread about peeps talking about how they hate fans who sexualize him wouldn't affect me so much #but sadly it did even if it wasn't about me at all #but in the end the thread was also some sort of final straw since I was having enormous probs with all the Doof in MML hate as well #and other fandom stuff... #That's why I am holding back from everything and don't feel like drawing Doof that often anymore #but I talked about this on other platforms already heh #I should go to bed... 😅

[evansbby]

i’m gonna be sooo honest here rn…

#sometimes I come on here and I think everyone hates me #like I’m so paranoid about it dksjsjsjjs #and yes I know… what a self absorbed thing to say bc why would people care enough to hate me right #but idk why that’s my default!!! #it’s always in ghe back of my mind like ‘oh I bet they find me annoying gotta tone myself down’ #AJDNSJSJAJ IDEK #I’m so deeply insecure when it comes to fandom #that’s why I keep mostly to myself #like I’ll talk nonstop on my blog don’t get me wrong #and I’ll answer asks and all that but #idk!!!! i feel like I bother people a lot hahaha #it’s just a weird paranoia I have #I’m sure I’m not the only one #idk why I said all this I guess sometimes I gotta vent in the tags you know #i also feel… #and this isn’t directed at ANYONE at all in particular so pls #it’s just smth I’ve noticed #things are very clicque-y on tumblr and I just feel like an outsider #which is no big deal lmao like it’s not deep at all this is just an app #but yeah #OH MY GOD I JUST READ OVER THESE TAGS AND IT IS LITERALT WORD VOMIT JONE OF IT MAKES SENSE SISJXJSISJ #gonna delete this probably soon jeidjeiskaks

[bookwyrminspiration]

changed my ao3 username shaking and crying and weak in the knees

#shitpost #i've been thinking about it for literally over a year #and I legit just changed it to match my tumblr url #because that's my brand and I like it #i've been bookwyrminspiration for 5 years now here #and I've never changed it here #and I never plan to #so I wanted it to match #but also oh my GOD it's so stressful #ao3 warning like 'hey...if u change ur username...read this list of things that can happen...' #girl WHY. shaking and crying #anyway if any links stop working lmk and I'll fix it :) #updated my masterpost to match #but also I need to take several deep breaths that was a lot #also updated the wings au tags #to better reflect the story overall #i probably still missed something #but. i got the big things #they're in there now #upfront #only reason they weren't tagged is because when I wrote those tags the story didn't contain that yet. it wasn't planned #hard to believe maybe because they became so important to the story... #but true

[vyrion]

i think its a little bit funny how different my views on a lot of menial topics are compared to my friends

#from the deep dark #and it's mostly because i spend a lot of time on tumblr as my primary . social media #like. i dont care too much about getting older. i also dont really care about age gaps in terms of friendship. #im very chill about labels and use them very loosely . like yeah im a touch gay but in a very aro way #im fine with slurs and would probably identify with a few if i didn't have an unrelated issue #yeah. idk. sometimes it's like You live like this? Why do you care so much?

[thebirdandhersong]

Just started TLJ for fun because it was a Long Day and I wanted some form of distraction that didn't involve the current Ghost Crew kinda high stakes episode I was halfway through and I must say..... this is so strange to me

#the brief scenes with paige just gutted me #you know that post about the unnamed servant in king lear (i THINK it's king lear at least) that has that cs lewis quote #that's paige. like. that's literally her that's her role in the story that's what she chooses to do and that's why #poe's Personally Sanctioned mission to destroy the dreadnought or whatever it's called succeeds. it's because of her #not gonna lie i wish we saw more of her!!!!! #anyhow there are a lot of things that were little gems. like our intro to rose is her sitting alone in an empty space sobbing #because she lost her sister as she's clutching the matching necklace. that was a really good bit #and finn being like. WHERE'S REY. HOW CAN SHE GET TO US IN THIS CHAOS. #and the sheer intensity of rage from kylo ren #unlike many of my fellow tumblr girlies (please don't burn me at the stake for this) i don't find adam driver very attractive and am a bit #puzzled as to what makes people like him So Much (mentally i'm like ???? which is my reaction to timothee chalamet enthusiasm too) #but i can give him one thing. he's absolutely terrifying. the intensity and sheer out of control FORCE of his anger terrifies ME #probably on the same level as hayden's anakin does tbh #i jumped a little when he punched the elevator wall. that man has got Deep Seated Issues that he REALLY needs to work out at this point #there are also bits of this movie that REALLY confuzzle me #like leia's force hovering through space (????) and poe's anger/control/defiance (??????????) #and also LUKE GIVING UP????? i was like. well the video essay peeps on youtube were right about THIS bit being #the Worst Part Thus Far. a luke skywalker abandoning hope is a luke skywalker i'm struggling to recognize #anyhow more thoughts incoming...... class has started and media analysis brain is on #is it EVER OFF THOUGH LOL #tlj liveblog