#also tyvm :') I'm happy you like my stuff!!

[wonderfulxhappiness]

we're doing really well now once we got over the learning curve of. Yeah you're not going insane there is just some guy living in your head. yeah they're pretty chill. yeah they ultimately want what's best for you they're just not great at expressing it sometimes. if nothing else this gets me to look at my feelings more seriously....

i've known of mika for the longest so he gets special guy privileges but i love everyone here :) they're all nicies to me. sun goddess lives in my head ?? wild. we've had. spats back and forth but nothing devestating. and it's made existing easier for us (me at the very least... i'm not losing memories now. i just go. Hey bud was that you. what happened. Thanks)

but really we're doing well :))) ummm we love u vani mwwwwah -🪴

nodnod i'm glad !!! it definitely took me. A Long Time so i'm glad you're adapting pretty fast <3 and i'm glad your headmates are nice!!!!!!! that is always a plus <3

it is good to not lose memories... we have a bit of amnesia but not much. mostly bc im always here but if one of the others kinda "takes control" for lack of a better term (like when sonana or mugi end up talking to my brother a lot) i tend to forget what was said even if i remember the actual event taking place, if that makes sense at all???? so. its nice to not have the amnesia skdghsd

i love u sys anon <3

#yeah system stuff is. wild #don't feel bad if you ever get the System Doubt. it happens. sometimes u just think 'this cannot be real' and that is not a bad thing #it happens ! you just gotta get used to it <3 its okay if you backslide a lil on progress :3 #altho idk if you'll have the Doubt like i do skdghsd figured i would offer the reassurance anyway ! <3 #also isn't it so fun how ur alters can vary. like. i have a wholeass angel in my head (mugi) but most of the time he just smacks me with #newspapers when im being bad like i'm a dog. i'm /not/ a dog. i'm a /cat/ tyvm. #(its not painful dw its just a gentle little swat to make me stop thinking bad sdkghsgd) #anywya !!!!!!!!!!!! i am happy for u dear sys anon :3 #if u ever need/want my help/take on smth/to hear abt my experiences just ask !!!! #i am always open to just hearing you talk and share silly antics too !!!!! <3 #system anon 🪴

[hyperfixation-fix]

Alright guys I really need your help figuring out my godly parent. I get different answers every time I do a quiz 🥲 here's some deets about me:

I work in health promotion - basically it's early intervention stuff, including health education, raising awareness, advocacy/political activism, and working with affected communities. It's also a lot of mediation between different professions and groups - helping doctors understand why patients can't "just lose weight", helping patients understand why they do need to make healthier choices, and helping politicians... actually there usually isn't any helping politicians, but we try. Currently, I'm in youth mental health

In my free time, I do a lot of arts & crafts. But like - I never stick to one. I've done knitting, sewing, embroidery, metal stamping, jewellery making, digital art, woodwork, music, paper making, book binding, and on and on and on

Honestly that generally goes for all my skills. I've done a lot of things and I *can* do a lot of things, but I don't really do any of them super well

I'm an out-of-the-box thinker, creative and yes, chaotic, and there are lots of pros and cons to that

My happy place is by the beach, but I cannot remember the last time I actually went for a swim. Fuck that, the ocean is scary. I'll stay up here on the grass reading my book under a tree tyvm

I describe myself as a happy person with depression. I'm very sunny and optimistic, but I find life and living and liking myself rough at the best of times. I spend half my life picking myself up, dusting myself off, wiping away my tears and trying again - but I do it, over and over, bc I genuinely do believe it's worth it in the long run. I'm also just ✨emotional✨

I love children, they make me so happy, but I'm not sure if I'll ever be stable enough to have my own

I love animals. Except fish. Fuck fish.

I'm a hugger, but I feel weird asking for hugs

I've been told, even at 23, that I seem older than I am, that I'm "mature for my age" (fuckin hate that saying)

I love being around people, and finding and creating community is super important to me, but being social drains me and I struggle to find a good balance

I put 110% into everything I do. It's a truly awful habit 🙃

I love maths and logic puzzles. I love the structure of it, the planning and strategy, the satisfaction of a black-and-white answer. And yet, I dropped out of my maths degree because I couldn't see myself working in anything but pure maths, which is not really a career. My current job is kind of the exact opposite - yes, it's very research-oriented, but you deal with nuance and unknowns and humans every day, and the reality is that there is never a clear answer. And I love it. No idea what that says about me 😅

Ok now that I've written that out, I'm actually leaning towards Apollo. What do you guys think?

#pjo #riordanverse #percy jackson #rick riordan #my posts #adhd #fandom #neurodivergent #personal #myposts

[tiredgoodomensfan]

Ive decided after a year on tumblr that nows the time to make friends bcs i made 1 (one) and it was the best feeling ever so WOO heres some stuff abt me

Im grace! I'm 15 and im English. I identify as bi-gender (both enby and female at the same time (is that smth you can do? bcs I feel equal parts both and I feel like that's what best describes my identity IDK AA)) and I'm a big fat lesbian WOO love women, (well one woman, my gf, love my gf, she's the best) and I'm asexual (no I won't change my mind, no I'm not "just waiting on the right person) and NO IT ISNT WEIRD ELIZABETH FFS) Im chill with you using any pronouns with me, as long as it's not he/him go for it! be as funky as possible! why tf not! I'm also autistic and get really passionate about my interests so lmk if I'm waffling too much I just get V V excited

Interests: Britcom, James Acaster, Good Omens, David Tennant, Man Down, Taskmaster, Fleabag, and the Marauders

(also the hetty feather books, do you lot remember them? fucking wild, I ate that shit up as a 7-year-old they're my roman empire)

Bands/Artists i like: Bowie, queen, mitski, cavetown (yes i still like them i am still in my 2020 "phase" tyvm and im HAPPY HERE), Car seat headrest, the cranewives and alot more but i could go on for ages so ill shush (also if you have any album recommendations from literally any genre PLS give them to me. even if yiu read this whole thing and have decided you hate my GIMME im branching out for the funsies)

My pronouns page! (i love these things theyre so useful): https://en.pronouns.page/@GRACEWAHOO

thats it! if you dont liek this stuff then wompwomp ur on tumblr literally why do you care! im having fun and not hurting anyone!! :3

#good omens #james acaster #taskmaster #doctor who #marauders #should prolly put more tags but its 2 am im tired

[masterkeynobi]

sinking my TEETH into the idea of wizardry itself being an act of hubris and the political-mechanical-magical differences between that and witchcraft. making demands rather than connections / relying on the sharpness of language & ritual vs the natural flow of magic through the spirit world / a blindingly magnificent imperial institution vs a cottage at the edge of the forest... i'm eating well tyvm

[ID: four screenshots from transcripts of episodes 2, 3, 7, and 8 of the children's adventure, respectively.

1.

Brennan Lee Mulligan: And I think Ame in that moment, you also do see that. Because all you've known of Suvi thus far is that Suvi is another little girl. But you see Suvi has a hunger for magic in that moment. And that's news to you as well. So whatever bonding you guys share over the fact that you know magic stuff is going on. Erika Ishii: We know that they're hiding something. Aabria Iyengar: Why are they hiding, is the thing. Magic just happens, you don't have to be weird about it. Not that she's weird. Grandmother Wren is so nice and can see through my eyes probably. Erika Ishii: I think it's because we're not ready for it. It's that magic is like, yeah, it just happens, but it's also a big responsibility, you know? It's not something you can always really control. And so the- Aabria Iyengar: That's not true. Erika Ishii: What? Aabria Iyengar: No, magic is super controllable. That's the whole thing about it. Erika Ishii: Oh.

2.

Lou Wilson: Yeah, I did magic. Aabria Iyengar: You talked to the bees but you didn't use words to do the magic, and then earlier you … I smelled it. Lou Wilson: Hmm? Erika Ishii: Yeah. It's the kind of thing that him and his family can do, right? Aabria Iyengar: Yeah, but Erika Ishii: Just like talk to bees and Aabria Iyengar: No, but magic takes … you have to learn it and you have to do spells and you have to write it down, and it takes so much to learn. How do you just do it? You can't just do it. Lou Wilson: They are friends. Friends of the forest and of the Great Bear. Erika Ishii: Magic is just there. It's not like you make it happen, it just is there. No? No. Well, we'll revisit this later maybe.

3.

Brennan Lee Mulligan: "No. No, he's not like Eursulon, Eursulon is one of our honored friends and there is magic everywhere, all throughout the world. But there are many trees in the forest that have nuts. But you still must find a way to crack them open. And many different people find different ways of availing themselves to and from and of magic. Myself and young Ame are of a similar tradition. We are witches and we attempt as best we can to help the magic of the world of spirits find its home here in the mortal world in that the bridges between the two might be kept healthy and safe and whole. That a balance between this world and the world beyond might be maintained that all things might exist in harmony with each other." Aabria Iyengar: Will I be a witch too since I've been here? Brennan Lee Mulligan: Well, if you wanted to be a witch, I would certainly be happy to teach you. Your mother and father are wizards, and they crack the nut a little differently. Long ago, but not so long I suppose in terms of the ages of the world, the very first, very clever wizards found a way to speak and write, but more importantly think in a language of magic itself. And it marked the first time that the powers of the unseen world could be wielded through cleverness itself as opposed to broaching some kind of relationship, I suppose you could say, with the world of spirits. Eursulon can disappear and put on other forms in the same way that he can breathe and run. It is a part of him. And Ame and I, we can sometimes speak on or act on behalf of the unseen world. Your mother and father speak and think in a language that means they don't have to ask for help.

4.

Brennan Lee Mulligan Describe to me what this fumbling attempt at magic looks like. Erika Ishii Okay. I would know things for healing, I've studied a lot, and for all of the things that the villagers come in, none of them have this kind of malignant, bad, powerful magic in them for curing. But I know about curing, and a lot of it is about understanding the body and the intuitiveness of knowing what bleeding to stop or what words to say to the spirits. So I think that all of my healing abilities for it have to do with the breathing and the coaxing of the poison out of her. Aabria Iyengar I think Suvi's is very, very much the opposite of that. She has so few points of data and the only spell she's ever cast, she didn't know she was casting protection from good and evil. But from the few conversations she's had, and the way she sees witches interact with magic, it's a conversation and balance. So she knows that the magic that her parents do that she's going to inherit does not ask permission. It is willful. So every intention that she's putting out, every bit of energy she's putting forth, is to wall it off and make it do what she wants, which is leave her alone.

/end ID]

#sree.txt #the wizard the witch and the wild one #the children's adventure #wwwo spoilers #suvirin kedberiket #eursulon toma #ame #need a tshirt that says I ❤️ WIZARD HUBRIS expeditiously it's just so fun #mentioned this to air in passing but the thing this most reminds me of #tho it's not quite the same #is the concept of academic vs ambient magic in tamora pierce's emelan #i'm having such a good time i love fantasy so much

[theflyingfeeling]

when I felt happy and carefree again for a while

(= a concert report of a kind from BC @ Särkänniemi 11.8.2023 🖤)

- First things first, the weather report: partly cloudy most of the time, not too warm but not too cold either (until maybe after the gig; I knew I didn't pack my super sexy gloves in vain 😌)

- The atmosphere was rather chill at the amusent park where the concert was held, so we had a chance to hang about and even go to exactly one ride lol (which was quite enough for us and we actually had a fun time and really put the amusement in amusement park tyvm, unlike the other (10-ish) people in the ride who looked like they'd rather be literally anywhere else)

- Also @wearenosaints and I were asked to give our extremely coherent and otherwise correct opinions about the Back To School event to the press like the very important people we are so yeah if you see our faces on the paper tomorrow that's us hiiiii 👋

- I was pleasantly surprised to get MUCH better spots than what I had last time BC played at Särkänniemi (=couldn't see shit from the stage being so low and all the phones and fucking CARDBOARD SIGNS blocking our view), our spots were rather excellent tbh, at least in comparison to what I was expecting

- ...aaaaaaand then the cardboard signs appeared 🙂

- So yeah if anyone was filming a video at that time (just before BC came on stage), the collective voi vittu! that can probably be heard in the background when the signs first appeared that was definitely us hiiiii 👋

- I know the five months between my previous BC show and this one is a short time in the grand scheme of things I guess but I assure you it's felt like half a lifetime at least, so it was an exciting moment to see all the guys run on stage one by one, I was so thrilled about seeing them with my bare eyeballs again that I was surprised everytime any of them showed up lol, for example I think Joonas was the last one I saw and it took a while for him to come to our side of the stage too, so I was like "oh yay Porko's here too!" as if I had forgotten he's in the band as well 😂

- We saw a LOT of Olli and 😩😩😩😩 he's such a sexy motherfucker that I'm actually mad about it. I love how he really puts his whole goddamn pussy into the show, and the way he's so flirty sjfjfjkfkfkffk for a while I thought he had, you know, someone special watching him from the side of the stage because he kept flirting and making faces towards someone on his left side the whole fucking time, but then I figured Santeri was filming there so I guess he was just flirting with the camera like the common slut he is <3

- (and this totally did not give me any fic ideas about flirty!Olli and jealous!Allu 👀)

- Speaking of Aleksi: 😩😩😩😩😩

- He's nice-looking alright although I've never really been that attracted to him, but literally the first time I saw him tonight I was like 'well damn, Aleksi looks fine as hell?' 😩😩😩😩 the hair he has now looks sooooooo good on him, the shirt he was wearing really brought out his tits made him look rather desirable in my eyes, I may have an itsy-bitsy crush on him now byeeeee 💀

- idk man being there just felt a bit like coming home? 😭 there weren't any surprises in the setlist but honestly I didn't expect there to be, it was sort of comforting actually to know exactly how it was going to go and the guys seemed happy about playing in Finland again as well (Niko: "Everyone here knows our songs!!" 😂🥰)

- They also teased us about the Nokia Arena show that's apparently happening at some point in (near?) future 👀 I mean, don’t quote me on this lol they didn't spill any actual deets but it's gotta be Nokia Arena right? I mean, what else could it be lol

- But yeah. Lately there's been so much stuff in my life that's been stressing me out and making me feel uneasy and worried and some of it even a little sad (just earlier today I had to fight back tears in the bus because I was upset about something that had happened I know I shouldn't be upset about and yet...), but during the show? None of that shit mattered. For those 60 minutes, I was so completely happy and carefree again 🖤

- Many thanks to the peeps who tolerated my bad jokes today and only made little fun of my cool and sexy gloves, you know who you are and I love you <3

- See you next week 🤝

#blind channel #i wrote this in the bus back but i'm now back at home safe and sound #no one had stolen my bicycle nor my helmet 🙏 #wear your helmets kids even after BC shows when you may feel like nothing can ever hurt you again <3 #also i tried posting another stupid video drom the stupid show but stupid tumblr won't let me 😭 #okay to reblog <3 (if you for some reason want to reblog my ramglings 😂) #gig reports by theflyingfeeling #my concert

[titconao3]

how are you getting the best snape art posts??? honestly your tumblr + curation is so good <3

Oh hello!

and thank you <3 unexpected, but welcome!

So, er, methodology, eh? The short version: er, i see some art, i look at OP's tags, find a promising one such as "my art" or "(fandom) art" or "(character) art" and... go through it.

More under the cut, it got long. (Method in the madness or Madness in the method, i'll let you decide!)

Bear in mind that i Tumblr on a computer, using a browser, while using XKit (these days, it's XKit Rewritten): for most of my fandoms i have a pre-made tag bundle, so that's just a quick hover, scroll, and click each time. Well, click-click, one for [fandom] and one for 'fanart.' i draft all the posts then queue them alternating fandoms. All are tagged so that if anyone follows me (not that many people) they can easily filter out stuff they're not into. Once things are queued, they're also liked, so that whenever i see that art (or not art) post again, i know not to reblog it again. i have More Than Enough to queue already ^_^;; (so much more omg)

Most of the time i will reblog OP's own art and not reposts or posts from another website (sometimes it's the own artist's IG art, so that's alright, sometimes it's also from a deleted account.)

If the artist posts little, or lots but i like their posts, or most of what i'm not into i can easily filter out (i only filter tags, at least for now), then i may follow. i keep my dash manageable enough that i don't miss posts.

There are happy surprises because people aren't always systematic with tagging, so along the way i'll find other artists, draft the piece i noticed, and later when i have time i'll do the "go through OP's art stuff" thing. It can get a bit overwhelming when i get back in the drafts folder, if i've been away from home for a while and spent little time on a proper computer or laptop for days.

i also follow a couple of fandomedit tags (not fandom or character tags; that way lies madness and way too much discourse for me, tyvm), but only a small number and in fandoms where there is not a tsunami of new stuff every day.

Basically the clue is that i'm being a little Extra about things ;-) i do try to curb that down, because i've ended many times drafting then queuing all the art from every artist i found in a specific fandom, even when i wasn't in love with all the works, because i felt bad not reblogging them all (no, i'm not neurotic about stuff, why do you ask?). It's even sillier given that my drafts folder is so bloated that of course i haven't reblogged all the art stored there. In some fandoms i try to simply reblog the art i see from folks i follow and otherwise sit on my hands so i don't go down the rabbit hole of 'must check every work from every artist i see in every fandom i'm in.' That way lies madness; my drafts folder is already too unmanageable as it is.

i also am only on Tumblr, not twitgram, instatok, snapbook, or wherever fandom is happening these days. Well, i have a DW, for example, but i don't really go there often beyond posting my fic (sometimes weeks after i posted it on AO3) and managing event accounts (sibling blogs to those on Tumblr). i do use Discord but i vastly prefer one-on-one chats to group chats so i rarely wander into servers. i have to when i'm promoting an event i'm organising so i can do it when the stakes are high ;-) but it does mean that while Tumblr takes a lot of my online life, it's the only social media i spend any time on.

My use of tumblr is very much read/reblog: i don't post personal stuff here either, about myself, my woes, or my writing beyond the occasional 'i wrote this' post, and even that is not systematic. To me, it looks like it's either 1/ people See you and you become a potential target (or at best it becomes a job because if you do become popular, there will be more demands on your time and energy: can you reblog this? what's your opinion on that? etc), or 2/ people ignore you while you're writing stuff on a public platform because you don't want to be ignored, so you'd probably feel bad about it. However, reblogging art/gifsets etc makes the creator happy (well, i hope), so that's good. Although sometimes i see posts on how creators would like to see enthusiastic tags about why rebloggers like their work, but that would be extra work and pressure to say the right thing, so i don't. i still worry about it of course. #lifestyle ;-)

So i don't know if that's what you wanted to hear, but kudos if you got here, because that's quite a chunk of overly-tweaked text for what was probably just a throwaway note... oops?

#ask

[thueenz]

Have you "come out" with your identity to your parents/friends? How did you do it? Completely ok if you don't wanna answer or give too many details. Hope ur safe and happy

hi! i don't mind answering at all ! ! im gonna put this under read more for the sake of not throwing a wall of text on peoples dashes

i have come out to my parents, and as for friends, ive only ever had to come out to one because the rest are lgbt in some way LMAO 😭 i dont know anyone close to where i live so thats a bit of a cheatcode. in an evil way because the con is i dont know anyone near me wouldnt recommend to be fair BUT !

it was like, years ago now, so the details are a bit foggy, but i literally just sat them down while shaking in my boots and told them , said i had something i wanted to tell them all and came out, it wasnt too complicated for me since my family is like...well, theyre not hateful, i'm not going to call them allies considering the first thing they told me was that they found my identity too hard to grasp 💀

i eventually confronted them on that and it didnt do much either, they use the proper pronoun more often in front of my friends but never really when im alone and they have a bunch of other issues with that stuff, theyre like, the type that think theyre progressive but arent lol. I.e i used he/him for a friend for months and they did too but they heard the friend is trans and immediately stumbled using she/her constantly and were like oh well im not used to it 🥺🥺 girl wtf youve been using he/him for months!! so stuff like that yk?

as for the One Cishet Friend I Met On A Game, i also just sort of did the same thing? he was a lot more accepting though, very sweet, he was googling what pronoun to use in his native language for me so that was a lot more touching after my last experience 😭

it's a bit annoying but i dont really put much mind to it! i dont really care what my family thinks anymore on that even if its bothersome, ive got a lot bigger fish to fry with my family LMAO and boy are they frying... theyre positively cooking

i hope that answers sorry i don't have many details i have poor memory also it just wasn't very eventful aside from me being very anxious each time

HOWEVER this gives me the chance to share my favourite story to share with people because its so stupid. OK SO! about a year before i came out? idk, my mom literally asked if i was gay 😭😭 and i was closeted so i was like shaking in my boots and i was like no why.. and she said because i never had a crush on a fictional male character, like my sister liked shrek as a kid so she "knew.." she was straight it LINGERS IN MY MIND ITS SO FUNNY LMAO like please diagnosed as gay by your mother because you didnt get a crush on shrek. DIAGNOSED AS STRAIGHT BECAUSE YOU DID GET A CRUSH ON SHREK ?? I literally like men too though so she was right but also not but also what the hell LMAO

i hope youre safe and happy too! ♥️♥️tyvm for being sweet feel free to send any more asks if i didnt cover something! i havent eaten breakfast yet so im a bit scattered im gonna do that 🫡

anyone whos read this far gets a gold star 🌟

#oatmeal timeeeeeeee #hopefully idk ill find something else if that doesnt work out but i want my oat meal </3 #ask #pers

[kissagii]

You reached 500 followers!!! I'm so happy for you, you're doing great💖

For the 500 followers event:

Fandom: blue lock

Gender: male

Name: foxy (I prefer using this), pronouns: she/her, age: under 18

Interests and stuff: I like craft involved embroidery and stitching, paper craft is fun, I enjoy baking and reading, i love reptiles and insects, my mbti is ISTJ, I also really like Violet Evergarden

tyvm!! hope you're having a great day <3

i match you with...

chigiri hyoma

his favorite date: arts & crafts

#peachy!! ⋆｡°✩ #blue lock matchups #blue lock matchup

[corvidcrybaby]

Hi hi! For the fic ask game: 😈, 💖, and 💌!

- @the-frankenman-writes

eeeeeeeeeeeeee thank you so much for the ask!!!!

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

That's a good question! I've definitely had certain pieces of feedback in mind while working on new chapters and such, but I don't know that I've ever done it directly ahahaha. I did have a comment directly calling me mean once which I took as a compliment, however. Beyond that, boy does a bitch love giving her chapters cliffhanger endings ahahahaha.

💖 What made you start writing?

Besides coming from a long academic career which hinged entirely on my ability to write good papers (which I can, tyvm, lol), writing for me started back as a teen! I used to mess around with writing Pokemon fanfic/let's play hybrid stuff during my fan forum days, but in terms of actually engaging seriously with it as a creative endeavor I started because I partially wanted to redevelop my love for the written word (something I lost after long years of battles with my mental health as well as the grindset that was college and grad school) and partially because I wanted to give my ideas a place to live. I have way too many of them and know that it's better for me as a person to let them out and sharpen my own creative abilities (also important for my career). I guess the answer is "i write because it makes me feel better" hahahaha.

💌 How do you feel about comments and feedback?

Awhahahahaha maaaaaan dude, comments and feedback are what I live for. I know it's considered poor form to have this be a priority but I can't help it dude. The knowledge that a piece of art I made just for fun connected with another human being enough for them to go out of their way to make sure I know it did just that makes me so damned happy. I'm not the most social of people IRL so it always brings a huge smile to my face when I receive those reminders that my personal voice matters and can still reach people even when it feels like it doesn't or can't. I love my commenters to bits.

#fanfic writing #writing quibbles #ask box

[jettiebettie]

confession: i think i have read that one erasermic fic you made like 3 years ago about 50 times and i’m 90% sure i could recite at least three scenes from memory alone. you just write them so Good and i am so tempted to get into the fandom you currently are in purely to enjoy more of your writing bc it is so. just. Nice. the dialogue is so fun and the characters feel so Genuine idk how else to explain it but i have been obsessed with it ever since. no other fic will live up to it, from plot to premise, its my favorite thing ever. tyvm for writing it. also this is a tumblr ask so i think i ought to? actually ask a question? ive never used tumblr before haha Okay question: are you still keeping up with mha? thoughts? if not uhhh whaatts your wriiitting process?

This is so incredibly sweet! I'm thrilled that something I've written is something you enjoy and remember fondly. This really made my day to hear, thank you so much!

I have not been keeping up with MHA, but not for any reason against it. I simply had a shift in hyperfixation and haven't rounded back just yet. I do intend to continue it at some point, maybe after the manga has finished. I have heard some interesting, nail-biting things about Aizawa, my beloved, that went down and I am Deeply Intrigued. I'll hop back in one day!

My writing process for the past few years has been something like this: I have one or more scenes in particular that I really want to write about. Unfortunately, it's difficult for me to write only those scenes on their own and present them as is, so I build a narrative around them in order to bridge the gap and form a full story. I call this the "connective tissue," it's all the stuff between the bits I really want to write.

Now, sometimes this works really well; Heroism and Other Infectious Diseases is actually mostly comprised of this connective tissue, but it still ended up being a pretty coherent and cohesive piece that I'm really proud of. Sometimes this doesn't work very well at all and the story can feel like it's a bit disjointed or leave some scenes feeling out of place or unnatural.

I'm a very hit or miss writer, I'm afraid! And the truth is, sometimes I just get so sick of looking at a piece that I tend to force a stopping point if I get tired of a project. And since I don't like leaving something in a wip folder for too long (since I'm worried it will be doomed to die there and all the work I put into it will go to waste), I'll post it even if I'm not very happy with it or confident in its current state. This has become a terrible habit that I need to stop doing lol!

But I hope that answered your questions! And thank you again for reaching out! <3 It was a wonderful birthday present~

#I hope something wonderful happens for you today anon bless you #answers

[astrxealis]

hi apollo!!!! how are you doing today? once you're done with your response (which i hope is positive! <3) i would request you to open this & open the box slowly and slowly.

hope you enjoy! mwah <3

HI HI HELLO!! i am doing AMAZING HEHE EIWHIDJSOSJSO I AM REALLY HAPPY RN >_< i'm also really excited to play even more ffxiv, write, and be productive with hw and other stuff <333 i hope you're doing well too HEHE <33 okay and :OO HMM ... okay under the cut bcs y not KFHEKD !! ^^

ahehrheihwdok thank you so much anon, i honestly was not expecting this as all today (esp to be greeted with g'raha too KDHSKDJ) T___T <3 ilyt /p !! i'll try my best to do so ... i've realized it's a bit hard for me to do so but aaa <33 :"((

i don't think i'll still be a fully ffxiv blog bcs there's a lot of other stuff i like too, but since i def do want to be more obvious abt it ... !! yes yes ^^ djshdihs it's hard for me to comprehend that al but tyvm fr :"D <3

wishing you all the best too !! have a great day and night too okay >_< <333

i wrote this all a bit ago but now since . smth happened and jm really happy and proud and rather emotional IDHSKDJSKB here is another paragraph!!! SRSLY this day has made me very happy even though it's not necessarily perfect ?? i don't want to. say too much but seriosily my heart is so :")) <33333

#wiehsihds i tried my best to really read and absorb it in bcs i do have trouble w that but i do want to yes!!! #this was such a nice little surprise sosbbsvdjsbfj tysm again AAAA I DID ENJOY!! mwah <3 #ngl this made me tear up a bit /pos LDJAKDNKS i don't want to be too open w my feelings rn but yeah i do have trouble w soaking nice words #from others to my head so >_< ^^ \o/ <3 #⋯ ꒰ა letters of stardust ໒꒱ *·˚ #— anon! ♡ #i am ... around 75% sure i know who you are but regardless of if i'm right or wrong. MWAH MWAH #wah ... now that ive made another big accomplishment in ffxiv i think ill really follow my heart more and more #even if w things that matter a lot to me like ffxiv are usually uhhh not really yeah w those around me T___T #it still makes me feel really down but i do have hope ?? it'll all go well in time >_< #wah okay. now i stop being all >_< KFBSKDNKA ^^ but once again tysm :((

[telemi]

kyo, you're like a skrunkly puppy to me that i want to hug and cherish !! vv comforting and supportive energy <3 i like seeing you lose your mind over stuff because insanity is a good look on you fskekkwkf (/pos) and your works are chef's kiss, marvelous, magnificent and lovely! i still feel super honored to be one of your moots because as a tumblr post once said, you're like beyonce who saw me at a market and now, we're friends. (and i'm happy about it, hehe <3)

ALSO I SAID THIS BEFORE WHEN I REBLOGGED A POST FROM YOU, BUT YOUR NEW THEME !! SO PRETTY <3

so true i tend to go crazy sometimes and my friends love that for some reason HELP BUT TYVM !!! NAWWW 😭😭 I DONT THINK IM ALL THAT AND I HONESTLY JUST FOLLOW PPL WHO ARE VV AMAZING++ COOL. AIAKAMAANEJ *scrolls thru my page to see who reblogged a post from me* PLS I CANT REMEMBER I FEEL BAD I FEEL LIKE AN OLD LADY BUT THANK YOUUU <333

#⋆｡🪞˚ (nonie)ㅤ!! ? #it's weird when ppl say theyre lucky to b my moot when i in comparison.. am the one whos lucky to have YOU #WEIRD GOOD #WEIRD IN A GOOD WAY

[timelesslords]

Hieee could you maybe write a fic where Annabeth changes her hair and Percy is like “omg who r u??”

Btw LOOOOVEEE all your stories, you’re one of my fave percabeth writers

I know this probably wasn't exactly what you were asking for, but it kind of got away from me haha 😅 I hope you like it anyway!

read on AO3

Annabeth had been expecting a reaction when the door to the Poseidon cabin opened, but she hadn’t expected complete and utter silence. Then again, Percy’s face pretty much said it all— his jaw had practically dropped when he caught sight of her.

“It’s awful,” Annabeth sighed, “Just go ahead and say it.”

“No,” Percy said, hurriedly, finally finding the sense to close his mouth, which had been gaping open like a fish, “No it’s not, it’s just— wow.”

“You don’t have to lie, I know how it looks,” Annabeth said. Her arms had already been folded over her chest, but she found them tightening, slightly. She’d been dreading this moment more than the actual haircut.

Which was saying something, because she’d been putting off the actual haircut for a while.

The Giant War had ended nearly two weeks ago, and her hair had been damaged beyond belief for longer. She hadn’t taken very good care of it while Percy was missing— she’d been in survival mode the entire time, and her hair was the last thing she was worried about. Then, of course, there was the quest and… well.

Trekking through the deepest pits of the underworld was really bad for your split ends, apparently.

Beyond the fire river and the poison air, something about being down there had just sucked the life out of her curls. The ends were damaged beyond repair. Some of them were even a little singed, and she couldn’t even remember how that had happened but she also wasn’t trying very hard to.

Annabeth had just been tying it back everyday, putting it in a bun or a scraggly ponytail and hoping nobody would notice. Unfortunately for her, her best friend was a daughter of Aphrodite. And while Piper wasn’t normally very into that type of thing, something about the absolutely atrocious state of Annabeth’s hair had triggered something baked deep into her DNA that required her to fix it.

It had taken a lot of convincing for Annabeth to agree to a haircut, but Piper had insisted it needed to be done. The fact that Piper used to cut her own hair did kind of help— choppy as it was, the unkempt look actually required more skill than one would expect. So that was how Annabeth had found herself in the Aphrodite cabin an hour previously, watching inch after inch of damaged hair fall away in a gaudy supermodel mirror as she tried her best not to cry.

Piper had done a good job, all things considered. She didn’t have a lot to work with, and Annabeth had told her to just do whatever she needed to. Still, it was short— shorter than Annabeth could ever remember having it, falling just below her chin.

Even Piper had only had a grim look of satisfaction when it was finished. It was functional— and not damaged, for the most part— and that would have to do.

But breaking the news to Percy was somehow the worst part of it all for Annabeth. She knew he liked her hair, like running his fingers through it and pushing it behind her ear and brushing it out of her eyes. Cutting it off felt like a betrayal somehow, like she was giving up, accepting defeat, like she’d let Tartarus ruin this one simple thing they’d had together after it had already taken so much else.

But the way Percy was looking at her now was… unexpected. She’d anticipated the surprise, but now that that had faded away, she wasn’t sure exactly what he was thinking. She’d thought he would do a bad job of pretending to like it— acting his heart out, of course, swearing he’d always liked it this way just to try and make her feel better— but instead he was just… looking.

She couldn’t quite read his expression, and something about it made her nervous. But she couldn’t find it in herself to speak, even if she desperately wanted him to.

“It looks really really good,” Percy said finally, reaching out and running his fingers through the short ends. He had a look of careful consideration on his face, like he was examining her curls the same way he would a complicated math problem, or a puzzle. “It’s different, but it's not bad.”

“Are you just saying that because you’re my boyfriend and you have to?” Annabeth asked. He smiled, twirling his finger around a lock of hair. He could actually do that again, because the one thing the lack of length had given her in return was a slight return of her natural texture. Piper had promised it would come back stronger with time, but Annabeth wasn’t holding her breath.

“No, I’m not,” he said, and it sounded sincere, at least, “I mean don’t get me wrong, I love your hair long, but it was a little… you know.”

“Burnt?” Annabeth supplied. Percy blushed a little, but he didn’t look away.

“Yeah,” he said, sheepish now, even as he forged on, “It looks a lot healthier like this. It makes you look healthier.”

“Are you saying I looked sickly?” Annabeth teased, though there wasn’t much bite behind it. She knew she looked sickly. Percy still looked a little sickly, and he’d bounced back physically much more quickly than she had.

“You know what I mean,” Percy said, unwilling to fall into her trap. Annabeth sighed, knowing he was right.

“Yeah, I do.”

“Hey,” he said, tilting her chin up just slightly, so she was looking him in the eye, “I’m proud of you. I know that wasn’t easy.”

“You’re proud of me for getting a haircut?” Annabeth asked, looking up at him reluctantly. He was smiling, because of course he was.

“Yes. Yes I am,” he said, pressing a kiss to her forehead, “And hey, it’s just hair, right? It’ll grow back eventually.”

“I guess,” Annabeth sighed, leaning into his touch, “But I have to look like this in the meantime.”

“You mean you have to look absolutely adorable in the meantime?” Percy said, grinning again.

Now this was what she’d been initially expecting, the unwillingness to admit that it was anything other than cute and perfect, but somehow it felt alright coming after the sincerity. He was right. It was going to grow back. And it wasn’t really so bad right now. She believed that he actually liked it, at least, and that made her feel a little better. A lot better, actually.

“Yeah,” Annabeth said, letting herself smile a little as she looked up at him, “I guess so.”

#percabeth #percabeth fic #annabeth chase #pjo fic #percy and annabeth #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #percabeth fanfic #percabeth fluff #percabeth angst #don't mind me just filling these prompts like 2 weeks late lmao #if you sent me one I am trying to finish as many as possible!!! #also tyvm :') I'm happy you like my stuff!! #asks #anon

[hoodiehan]

Hello, it's the Anon who asked you about careers and I'd like to thank you for responding. Despite the show only having some similarities to the actual career, I found the career itself interesting too. But I did more research and decided, hey, I would like that job, but if I'm worried about it letting me down or ruining something, I shouldn't do it. I found another job that I am interested in and think I'll go with that and study the other stuff in my spare time. Tyvm for helping and listening!

Ah no problem ! Tbh there’s always pros and cons to things but ultimately I always believe that if the route/career you want to go down makes you happy, then maybe it’s worth the risk too 

But I’m also glad that you found something else that you’re interested in! Lemme know how it goes and/or if you find anything else that you’ve taken a liking to! 

#asks #anon

[actuallyschizoid]

Is it a schizoid thing that when you see happy couples on the internet you envy them? Since it'll never be you. In theory dating someone should be fun but I don't want to spend my time with them nor do I actually like people. I have this with other things as well, I envy people that can enjoy things like sex/can be genuinely happy. I've been searching for something that makes me happy but the more I try the more suicidal I feel. I'm diagnosed with szpd, is this what schizoid hunger is like?

Honestly, I don’t think it has anything to do with schizoid personality. It’s more of a general human thing that works for some people who envy other people who has something they want but can’t get. I haven’t heard of schizoids being all that envious people though, as it depends on a well-developed emotional state and requires one to actually have a capacity of actively desiring things while realizing they’re out of your reach.

For plenty of schizoids out there it’s not the case, as the lack of desire is the definitive characteristic, as well as lack of motivation to pursure any kind of dreams, ambitions, normal stuff people chase for like a good job, family, kids, etc.

But on the other hand, there’s nothing that’d require every schizoid to never envy anyone and never be sad about their limitations, etc. So that might be a sing for some people, but still unlikely a schizoid trait. More like one of many other human things that some schizoids might have as well.

That kind of stuff can also be part of depression (which can generally be fixed, schizoid or not) or other issues, traumas, etc, etc. So perhaps it’s worth to consider looking for a consultation with someone who knows about psychology and/or you more than random anons on the internet do, if that bothers you.

I personally not really sure I even know how envy feels like. I’m absolutely positive with anyone who manages to get into relationships they enjoy. And tbh I don’t have many reasons to believe it’s something I can’t achieve because of being unable to - it’s more of a thing I honestly don’t care about and am rather negative towards the perspective of having a repationship, being attached to people emotionally. I’ve spend most of my live consciously avoiding it, intentionally denying any vague possibility in that regard and have no regrets about having zero experience with them. And I still intend to keep on going with same mindset, looking forwards. So why would I be envy about other people being happy with each other? I’m quite happy by myself, tyvm :D

If I somehow still have followers here despite not logging into tumblr for months, I’ll reblog whatever you have to say on this matter, as always. Will also post it on discord:

[schizoid discord]

#actuallyschizoid #schizoid #szpd #envy #emotions #relationships

[porrinate]

hey! your blog is awesome, I'm happy to have found it a while back :) how do you keep your love for skam alive? Any suggestions?

tyvm!!! I like to keep my blog a lil mix of humor and skam :)also uhhh idk? I just really love all the characters and im in denial that it even ended so....... i also really enjoy taking part in keeping the fandom alive tbh (: im not sure for suggestions to keep an interest in it, everyone loses interest for stuff eventually. for now, just watch scenes over and over again, draw the characters, rewatch to find things you never noticed before. rewatch your favorite season without subtitles! you do you