#also i had too much fun with this moodboard lmao

[hier--soir]

🕯️ hier--soir's 4k gothic 🕯️

hey folks, somehow we've reached a point where there are over 4000 of you hanging out here and indulging my tomfoolery. so i thought i'd take a moment to say hi, say i love you, say i am endlessly grateful for this weird little corner of the internet, and i'd love to make some fun stuff to celebrate all that love + it’s a good excuse to write some little bits n bobs.

anyone who wants to play can send me something listed below, and i'll post it between mon 29th and sun 4th.

send as many asks as you like, just send them in separately please. if you request a fic, feel free to mention anything you don't want included in it [e.g. smut, gore]

PROMPTS- ╰┈➤ 🫀send me this with one of these prompts about "devotion" + a character [or two if you like] from the list below and i'll turn it into a ficlet [200-1000 words] that is bizarre or dark or gross or scary [or perhaps a mix of all the above] ╰┈➤ 🧛🏼send me this with a trope you love, and i'll recommend a film or a novel i think you might like. ╰┈➤ 🥀send me this with a prompt for a moodboard. it can be for a fic you love, a novel, a character, a film, an idea, anything. ╰┈➤ 🕯️mutuals send me this and i'll make a gothic moodboard based on your vibe.

CHARACTERS FOR FICLETS-

╰┈➤ joel miller

╰┈➤ ellie williams

╰┈➤ simon "ghost" riley

╰┈➤ johnny "soap" mactavish

╰┈➤ john price

tagging some moots that i think might want to play in the mud with me...

@joelscruff @agentmarcuspike @swiftispunk @5oh5 @sweetercalypso @softlyspector @bageldaddy @netherfeildren @atinylittlepain @atticrissfinch @macfrog @undercoverpena @fish-fearme @daydreamingmiller @mrsmando @saradika @thetriumphantpanda @ohcaptains @frannyzooey

🦷🫀🦇🏰

#YAHTZEE #4k gothic #my work is closed next week so let's have some fun #also i had too much fun with this moodboard lmao

[21st-century-ninja]

Fic rec week: AU/Jay

let's hear it for day two! Today's moodboard is for With Friends Like This by @starlightaxolotl!

What if Lloyd had never gotten kicked out of Darkley's because Brad and Gene were helping him stay in the school?

Why you should read: a really fun fic exploring the dynamics of the darkley trio!! i'm a sucker for stories where characters get attached to each other almost despite themselves and this one certainly fits that niche (note: this guy's archive-locked so you'll need an account to read it)

Once Bitten, New Life by NorthAmericanJaguar

Jay unlocks his True Potential, but it fails to reverse the effects of the Fangpyre venom. Now, the Ninja of Lightning is stuck as a half-human, half-Serpentine! AU of the episode "Once Bitten, Twice Shy," continuing throughout the Ninjago series.

Why you should read: A literal time capsule of a fic, this fic is chock full of fascinating concepts and ideas in the way that only something written in the early days of the show can really be. Rereading it again for this rec list still had me gasping and smiling and cursing internally just like it did the first time around :D

I'll chase you to the moon and back by @rosiehunterwolf

When you’re in a secret ninja force and are your city’s primary protectors, pulling your weight is important. Jay tries to be an asset to his team, but it’s difficult when he’s viewed as the scaredy-cat who cracks lame jokes. He loves his friends with all his heart, but sometimes it’s hard to know if they return those feelings. Jay wouldn’t blame them if they didn’t.

Why you should read: A rare movie!verse fic that isn't Lloyd-centric! (no shade lmao speaking as a person who also writes so much movie lloyd!centric fic) I love the characterization here and the tone of the fic feels natural to the film!

As Easy as Falling off a Bike by @scrambledfluffmuffins

When Jay is forced to bring Lloyd on an errand at his parents' junkyard, he expects the afternoon to be a mix of boring and annoying. For the most part, it is, until Lloyd discovers a childhood treasure of Jay's hidden in the back of a shed.

Why you should read: A really cute fic that combines fun and emotions super well as Jay breaks through kid Lloyd's too-cool-for-this front as he teaches him how to ride a bike!

#ninjago fic rec week #fic recs

[jwcnsz]

it's okay

pairing; little!jake x cg!reader

summary; enhypen goes camping with the reader but jake feels himself slipping into littlespace... and so the reader (nd enha) is there to take care of him.

warnings; none

genre; fluff

word count; 1.2k

requested; yes!

a/n; MY FIRST REQS RHKEEUIOJCK i love little jake sm yall dont get it :( i tried my best to write this, enjoy! <3 (creds to pixeljinki for part of the moodboard i used lmao) also the end was kinda shit sorry

"sunoo, you don't need to pack so much. it's like two days." jay told the boy who was currently stuffing a whole weeks worth of clothes into his suitcase. "but hyung... what if i get the clothes wet? what if i fall in mud? what if riki spills something on it?" sunoo questioned.

"what did i do?!" riki yelled from the other side of the dorm. "nobody was talking to you!" jay and sunoo yelled back in unison. you giggled at their antics.

you and the boys had been planning this trip for a while and you all had to wait until after their latest album promo. they all seemed so relieved when they were told they had a week off. so here you were now, helping them pack and you packing your own things.

you walk to jay and jake's shared room to help jake finish packing up. when you were about to walk in you noticed him staring at something on his bed. you walk inside and see that he was actually staring at his pacifier.

"should i take it? what if they make fun of me?" he asked himself. "i'm sure they won't, baby." you answered his question getting a scream in return.

jake's eyes were saucepans, his chest going up and down. you laugh at his reaction. "did i scare you? sorry, darling." you laughed out. jake lets out a deep breath before going on a rant about how you should always knock before entering a room and how you scared the literal crap out of him.

"anyways... i don't think i'm taking the paci. i think i can last two days without being a big baby. i'm already done packing so i'm gonna go to the car already." he said carrying his backpack on his shoulder. "alright, i'm almost done. you go ahead." you told him as he nodded and left the room.

remember how jake said he could last two days without being a baby? yeah, you knew he wouldn't last 12 hours. you took all of his toys, his pacifiers, his bottle, and his favorite blankie. and thank goodness you did.

you all were done packing and were downstairs waiting for the manager to bring the van to the front door. "so how long is it gonna be until we get to the place?" jake asked heeseung who was on his phone.

"umm... around an hour and a half?" he answered jake who nodded and thanked him. he looked kinda stressed over something but you decided to not question him.

the van finally arrived and you all got on. you and jake were in the very back with everyone else just scattered around the van. the whole ride jake was jittery and moody too. you were trying to think of what was wrong.

he was fine just now... you tap his knee and make him look at you. "you okay?" you whispered. he nodded before looking away again. you decided to not pry further but to keep a close eye on him.

when you guys arrived at the camping site you noticed how he was in an even worse mood than before. hopefully he doesn't act up or anything...

"jake, can you help us with the bags?" jungwon asked for his help. "no!" jake yelled stomping away into the small cabin that was provided by the camping site. everyone turned to look at each other confused, why did he do that? usually jake is the very first one to help.

"i'll check on him." you let the boys know as you walked to where jake was. you entered the cabin to find jake on the floor crying. he was sitting with his legs crossed and his hands on his face. "jake? is everything okay?" you crouched to his level.

he couldn't do much more than whine. that's when you realized what was happening. he's slipping into littlespace. "jakey, what happened?" you asked in a much softer tone. you took his hands away from his face and wiped his tears.

jake whimpered and opened his mouth to speak. "don wanna feel little... gonna ruin the trip." he whispered out. "but there's nothing wrong with feeling little and you're not ruining anything for anyone. you know they love little jakey just as much as they love big jakey." you comforted him while gesturing to the members who were finishing unpacking.

"luv jakey?" he questioned. "mhm. absolutely love jakey!" you answered picking him up. "now just because you're feeling little doesn't mean you can be rude to the members, right?" you asked jake who nodded slowly. "be a good boy and apologize." you told him as you walked outside with him.

"guys! jakey has something he wants to say!" you called the rest of the guys over. jake looked over at you for support, your smile giving him the courage he needed to speak up. "jakey sorry... didn mean to be rude. sorry for making yungies mad..." jake apologized with a sad tone.

the members cooed at his words before they all surrounded him with a huge group hug. "we were never mad, baby. we already know you'd never be like that with us ever. it's okay." sunghoon said to jake who felt so nice being hugged by everyone like that. they all basked in the moment for a bit longer until the silence was cut with a "riki, get your hand off my ass." from jay.

everyone pulled away in giggles with riki mumbling a small sorry. "would jakey be happy if we all played tag with him?" jungwon asked jake who was smiling like a puppy. "yes!" he jumped around. you smiled at how your baby was acting.

the members played with him while you set the rest of the things you brought in their place and preparing some quick dinner, sandwiches and chips. of course, you cut the crust from jake's sandwich and used a dino mold that you brought with you to cut his sandwich. you knew how he loved dinosaurs and sandwiches so why not combine both?

the boys came back to eat and jake literally screamed in joy when he saw his sandwich. "dino!!!" he yelled while sitting down. "that's right, baby! enjoy all of you." you said before sitting down yourself to eat.

everyone was having so much fun while camping, especially jake. he was absolutely thriving and you loved it. he was running, giggling, even pranking his hyungs.

soon enough it was time for bed and jake wanted to do anything but sleep.

"wana stay up!!" jake whined at the members who were already in their pajamas. "jakey, we all need to sleep... tomorrow we can play some more!" riki said going to his makeshift bed which was just a blanket on the floor.

jake just pouts but finally puts his pajamas on and heads to bed. "wan a bed time story!" jake pouted again. so of course, you and the members read him a story to make him get sleepy until finally, he falls asleep.

everyone gave him a forehead kiss before heading to their respective beds. you were so happy about everything that happened today, from little jake to all the fun you guys had.

you have a day left of your vacation. you fall asleep with a smile knowing that jakey is gonna have so much fun.

taglist <3; @iluvnishi (if u wanna be tagged send a message/ask!)

reqs are OPEN!

#enhypen scenarios #enhypen fluff #enhypen imagines #enhypen x reader #little!enhypen #little!jake #little!jaeyun #this was kinda cute smshdhdhfh

[virahaus]

Fic tag game!

Thank you for the tag @to-proudly-go!!

How many works do you have on ao3?

I currently have 15 works in my account! But some of them are moodboards and edits mixed with a side of my writing.

What's your ao3 word count?

I'm currently at 36,153 wc! I'm actually surprised, I didn't think I had posted so much lol On my pc I probably have that wordcount and more of wips XD

What fandoms do you write for?

Well, currently I'm in the Star Wars fandom, but I have fics for Haikyuu, Harry Potter, Maze Runner, DC universe and Naruto in my account. In my pc I have some works also for Merlin.

What are your top five fics by kudos?

y'all will excuse me if i copy past it here lol

Family dinner (Justice League (2017), Batman - All Media Types) (2,866 words) with Kudos: 1,536

2. Never let me go (Haikyuu!!) (6,719 words) with Kudos: 1,391

3. What happens at a Batman party... (Justice League - All Media Types, Batman - All Media Types, Superman - All Media Types, Superman/Batman (Comics), DCU (Comics)) (3,527 words) with  Kudos: 1,355

4. Obi-Two (Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types, Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars: Obi-Wan Kenobi (TV)) (3,900 words) with Kudos: 973

5. Re-Life (Naruto) (7,472 words) with Kudos: 821

Do you respond to comments?

As much as I can! But usually if it's a multichaptered fic I'll leave them unresponded until i'm close to post an update lol

What's the fic you write with the happiest ending?

Probably Never let me go, a fluffy tsukkiyama fic all around i'd say, with maybe just a sprinkle of angst in the middle

Do you get hate on fics?

In some of my oldest fics, yeah but it was just an anon looking for trouble so i just deleted the comment and moved on XD

Do you write smut? What kind?

I'm just starting to and still haven't published anything more explicit so far. But it will come!

Do you write cross-overs?

Nope. I like to write AUs, but full on cross-overs are not really my jam.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Thankfully no.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! Re-Life has a russian translation liked in the fic, by the lovely moonlight_bae

Some of the older fics on my ao3 are also translations, but mine from the original italian fic, with some changes.

Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

I tried but unfortunately the project fell through.

What's your all time favourite ship?

I change my mind constantly, but for now my ride and die is Obikin for about two years so. I'd say that

What's your WIP you like to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Probably one I have in my pc, a Naruto fic I started in high school and will never get back to it lol

What are your writing strengths?

I'm not sure, but usually I get compliments over my descriptions and my emotional scenes, so i'd say those. Also got many posivite comments in my ability of writing tension filled scenes.

What are your writing weaknesses?

Writing long fics for sure! I'm very, very hard on my writing so longer projects take me much time because I want everything to be as perfect as possible (even if i do know that this will never be possibile, I stride to be as satisfied as I can with it.)

I'm a sucker for good plotted fics so I always have to make plans beforehead and sometimes i modify them as i go, prolonging thus the speed with which I write.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

English is not my first language, and before i got to ao3 I actually wrote and posted multiple fics in my navite language. But it's also fun to put in tibits of my language in my english fics too, which I did... and are still in my pc LMAO

First fandom you wrote for?

Naruto for sure!

Favourite fic you've ever written?

Currently writing it,,, and it's my beloved Obi-Two, I had so much fun writing the first chapter that the second is coming along slowly because I have so much I want to write about so it's a bit of a mess. Working on it guys, I promise. Another thing of mine is that I always finish a project I post, no matter how long it takes. It's the ones unposted in my pc y'all should fear them to see the light of the internet lmao.

Thank you again for the tag, it was really fun!!

Not sure who to tag, but anyway don't feel obligated to do it if you'd rather not!

@jiminthestreets-bonesinthesheets @kenobisanakin @magnusbae @kingdomvel

#obikin #my post #viraha's writing #sasuhina #superbat #tsukkiyama

[supermightyglue]

do your jackass/cky/dickhouse girls coexist? and if they do, what's the dynamics between them?

HI sorry this is so late im bad at maintaining shit + life is rough lol

but yeah they do! not all of them tho—dickhouse girl nd main cast member are independent in their own lil universes (as of rn .. i have a few more ocs i havent posted ab that might chill w/ them) but dunn’s sister + cky girl coexist!!

their relationship is very much golden retriever x strange untrained mutt

dunn’s sister knew all the guys + cky gal growing up ofc but during those teen years she wasnt as present with them as she is in adulthood

she just had her own friends outside of them. she only decided she liked hanging w/ them AFTER high school, espec cuz she was a lil younger than bam & co

she always saw them tho & picked up lil things from ryan cuz she adores him so certain mannerisms we’re just collateral

then she kinda (easily) assimilated into the actual group nd instantly knew cky girl was meant to be her best friend

now our cky girl lowkey had a crush on her LMAO

even tho theyre VERY different nd lady dunn was oblivious af. it lasted for a good year or two nd ended some months after she got closer with their group

but circa jackass eras, theyre finally besties

we got cky gal wearing lady dunn’s lil bracelets nd always having an extra hair tie for her

meanwhile dunn always makes sure she has food for her & leaves notes/reminders for her all the time

and tbh theyre useless but cky girlie saves every single one nd reads them when shes down

they share clothes too! like usually its just stuff like i said that she’ll be wearing dunns bracelets but at sleepovers she’ll take her clothes too or accidentally swap something and then forget it wasnt theirs to begin with

speaking of, lots of sleepovers! theyre always at dunns apartment because tbh we dont know if cky girl even has a permanent residence

so dunn used to always try nd convince her to move in her spare room. she gave up when she realized 1.) no use cuz she wont and 2.) if she did, shed probably let bam and them in when she wasnt home soooo yeah no

they have so much fun getting high together. its either super chill nd cky gal is jamming on her bass while dunn just vibes or theyre silly af

dunn is the best wingwoman ever but also ppl confuse the two of them as a couple a LOT

cuz theyre too close nd dunn is a touchy clingy person and even tho cky girl isnt, she is completely desensitized to dunn hanging on her arm or being up in her face because thats just how she is

but they dont gaf nd roll with it when someone thinks that. usually they laugh so much that ppl realize their mistake

and whenever she remembers dunn simps over knoxville she wants to gag

but finding out dunn used to have a thing for bam? oh she LAUGHEDDDD and didnt stop .. ever tbh

theyre just the cutest gfs besties ever nd i’ll probably post more about them in the future mayb even a moodboard

#this is rushed nd not that coherent sorry #shit i write #my ocs #jackass girl #jackass #jackass fics #jackass fic #jackass x reader #bam margera #ryan dunn #chris pontius #johnny knoxville #dave england #jackass headcanons #cky #cky headcanons #viva la bam #anon #answered

[diovstheworld]

La Squadra and Fashion Aesthetics

i originally wanted to do eras of fashion but i think a post like this works a bit better. i know so little about fashion but it was fun thinking about this lmao (also i’ve made little mood boards of what i think but some of the outfits may be on the more feminine side bc it’s hard to find more masculine things on pinterest sometimes </3 but it’s more for just the whole general idea of what i mean). i might regret making this post and it’s a little chaotic but anyway ✨ (edit: i regret it but i put too much effort into it oops) edit again: here’s the link to some more characters!

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Risotto:

he’s probably one of the easier ones to think of so i’ll start with him

goth/emo vibes for sure. it’s so obvious but i had to say it

lots of chains and harnesses

lots of necklaces and random accessories too

high platform shoes and boots

layers, layers, layers

and maybe a little bit of punk but definitely more leaning on the goth side than anything

i was going to say e-girl but maybe more for the accessories than clothes lmao (i can totally imagine him feeling embarrassed googling ‘e-girl accessories’ just so he can find a nice choker or chain or something)

here’s a little moodboard! it’s not exactly what i was thinking but i’ll roll with it

Formaggio:

i wanted to say more streetwear kind of clothes for him at first but i get a bit of a punk vibe from him

spikes and chains

heavily patterned trousers

the little thing under his shirt in his design already gave me fishnet vibes so a lot of fishnet

maybe chokers too? he’d look cute in one of those

or maybe like old school avril lavigne kind of fashion

skater punk kind of fashion? i think he could skateboard lmao

another moodboard! i’ll do his moodboard kind of half and half for both kinds of fashion because i can’t decide

Ghiaccio:

like cybercore/futuristic y2k fashion?

lots of silver, white, and blue colours

also lots of iridescent clothes and clear clothes

platform shoes? (i think he’d look good with some platform trainers or something)

i think the colour palette of this aesthetic was what reminded me of him more than anything else lmao

sporty vibes which i think works for him

also a bit of a space vibe but let’s not talk about that lmao

again here’s a little moodboard. i tried to find some that actually reminded me of what he already wears

Melone:

i don’t know what to call this but i’m gonna say colourful y2k

lots of that colourful, plastic jewellery (like those resin rings and stuff)

bright colours and bold patterns!

like, way too much colour

way too many accessories too

lots of hair accessories like colourful butterflies clips and hairbands etc!

i could also totally see him wearing like a bright pink juicy couture track suit omg

i’m not entirely sure this moodboard captures what i mean but i tried </3

Prosciutto:

this man was so difficult omg anyway i think he would wear like dark academia style fashion

loose fitting shirts and sweater vests (i can’t 100% see him wearing sweater vests i’m not gonna lie)

blazers and suit jackets all the way

not necessarily a whole coordinated suit thing all the time i don’t think. as long as the clothes go in some sort of way i don’t think he would mind

also wears stuff like this to ANY occasion no matter how casual or fancy the situation is lmao

moodboard time! honestly this is probably the most accurate one in my opinion lmao

Pesci:

maybe like a 90s grunge fashion sort of thing

plaid shirts and baggy t-shirts

ripped jeans and clothes that look like they’re past the point of being wearable tbh

converse and vans? but they also look past the point of being wearable

i don’t have much else to say so moodboard time again (yeah most of these pictures are of nirvana i’m so sorry but it’s the only way to get across what i mean lmao)

Illuso:

i was so stuck for this guy and i wanted to say 90s grunge kind of fashion for him instead (i still think he’d look good in that but this isn’t about my illuso fantasies rn lmao) but his ugly ass duvet looking shirt reminded me of a puffer jacket so i’m going with more streetwear fashion for him

generally just loose fitting, baggy clothes

kind of looks like he didn’t make an effort even though he definitely did

comfort is the key! very comfy clothes

here’s the moodboard! i don’t even know what i’m doing at this point

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i ended up hating this post after i finished it but i spent way too much time on it not to post omg at least i tried lmao. also i know i didn’t include sorbet and gelato in this post but their clothes reminded me of cargo pants and stuff so i think they’d probably wear streetwear kind of fashion too! i realised when i made this post that i literally dress like all of these 😭

#formaggio #ghiaccio #illuso #jjba formaggio #jjba ghiaccio #jjba headcanons #jjba illuso #jjba la squadra #jjba melone #jjba pesci #prosciutto #pesci #risotto #melone #risotto nero #risotto headcanons #jjba risotto #jjba prosciutto #prosciutto headcanons #jojo headcanons #jojo hcs #jjba hcs #la squadra hc #jojo la squadra #la squadra headcanons #sorbet #gelato #sorbet and gelato #jjba sorbet

[nateriverswife]

for the fic writers asks: 8, 18, 24!!

8. What project(s) are you currently working on?

I have some original stories and other fandoms I intend to write for, but I’ll stick to death note (other than Mazzaroth) lol

Mello, if you love me, don't get on that fucking plane (temporary title) – a mellodramattic college AU. Summary: “In the last month of university, Mihael Keehl has only one goal in mind: to leave the country as soon as he graduates. He wants to know nothing more about anything or anyone; neither about England, nor about Near, nor about those three years, which were completely different from his expectations. He wants to start afresh in a new place. That is the only thing he is sure of, until a red-haired boy, whom he knows quite well, decides to show up in front of his room door and return a can of soda.”

Justice Never Dies – the title is supposed to be in italian because it’s strictly an Italian fic, since it’s set in Italy (I chose it because it is said L is ¼ Italian/French and I know Italy better) and people talk in Italian and English and it’s hard to recreate the contrast I want to do.

Basically, it’s set in 2020s (now I don’t know for sure), it has two povs (first time I do this) and one is Near and the other is Veronica, which is also the head of a grassroots organisation born to assist L. This organisation is widespread and, besides all the common activities you would expect, they also manage all the information regarding L, especially theories about his replacement (because there are). Near didn’t ask them to do that and doesn’t even care that much, until Roger makes him meet them. Then, another Kira appears and so they need to work together to catch them. There’s a lot of conflict of interest though, because Veronica has actually met the first L and has a hard time trusting this new bitch.

L the Terrible and The Agent Náli on 13 December 2003 – a short fic about a former FBI agent, who was called by L to come to Tokyo during the Kira case. Not to participate though, but because she was involved in a pretty big scandal that could make her a target of this serial killer. They had a short lived past together and things ended up pretty badly, so there’s a lot of tension between them. And the whole fic (4/5 chapters) centres around this tension, which is also slightly sexual. I don’t know honestly. It all started because I want L to suffer.

Don’t have the title, but an AU in which Misora is as double as cautious as she was in the manga and gives another fake ID to Light.

24 Hours – basically, there’s this person that in 2000 decides to challenge L and gives him 24 hours to find them. Each hour they broadcast a new crime. Funny thing, which is immediately known so it’s not a spoiler, is that they are in the same building as L, pretending to be a plumber and they plan to blow up the building with both of them inside. They are so unhinged, and I love them so much. They literally plant a bomb under the kitchen sink in L’s apt, when he’s present, cuz they have a plan B: shoot him right there. Straight to the point. They don't care about the challenge itself, but to ruin L the detective and him not doing anything gives him a bad rep.

18. What’s one of your favorite lines you’ve written in a fic?

This is hardd and in Mazzaroth, there are a few one-liners that I really like, but you need the whole context to get them, so not ideal.

I have this one from Justice Never Dies tho, that makes me laugh every time:

“A real Take Me Out.”

Because the date of Veronica’s roommate died of a heart attack after the show, called Take Me Out, and Alitash said this to Near, when he pointed it out to them. Nobody laughed.

24. Share a moodboard for (one of) your current WIP(s).

This was so hard too, i am not good at it lmao but I am doing Justice Never Dies lol.

the four main characters + near + kira

This was so fun! Thankss bestie

#dn.inbox

[yearningandpatheticaboutit]

SPEAK FOR YOURSELF

CHAPTER 9: LOOK AT THIS PHOTOGRAPH

A/N: i made a moodboard for yaera and im really proud of it lmao

warnings: blood mention, drugs mention, suicide/self harm mention, gambling

wordcount: 8000 and some change

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i remember climbing out my window that night. the moon was full, my stomach giddy thinking of seeing his pretty eyes. he said he wanted to meet me, i couldnt believe that what people said was true.

guys really were MEAN to the girls they liked.

being made fun of constantly? not my love language. never was. it reminded me too much of how my parents treated me, and i never found comfort in that at all.

my insecurities getting pointed out, getting mocked for the enjoyment of others. how could you like someone who did all those things to you?

i wondered that for a while. i was too hopeful, i guess.

that didnt stop me from doing my hair and finally making use of all the designer my mother brought home. i curled my fringe and the ends of my black hair, giving myself the look only a stupidly happy person could muster and snuck out of my house.

i didnt expect to see my twin sister doing the exact same thing.

our mouths collectively dropped open when we saw one another, completely baffled that neither of us had said anything. i wouldve told her where i was going, but she hadnt given me the time of day.

"i can explain," she nervously said, laughing. "okay nevermind, you first."

"no way!" i said, shaking my head. "you? sneaking out? fess up!"

yasmine was like the model twin to everyone. of course she wasnt perfect, she had flaws just like everyone else. she was a massive people pleaser, so i wondered just exactly who she was trying to impress with her new sneaky habits.

anyone that had my goodie two-shoes sister sneaking out of the house couldnt be good news, i thought. i was also impressed by how they managed to actually get her to go through with it.

"im just meeting...someone," she giggled dumbly. it was almost pitch black in our yard and yet i knew her cheeks were stained red.

"and you didnt tell me about him? who is it? someone from a rival school?"

my sister was dramatic enough to hide something like that. she had just broken up with her asshole boyfriend, collin, who no one liked, so i would have gladly encouraged this phase.

"its just someone. you dont know him."

i raised an eyebrow. "so when will i get to? whats his name?"

"im not saying anything, yae." she deadpanned.

"what?" i couldnt hide the disappointment from my voice. "but we tell each other everything."

she sighed. "relax, i will tell you just not right now. gosh quit being so codependent."

i frowned. "im not codependent i just care about your life. but whatever since you wanna be a massive bitch about it."

silence filled after a familiar insecurity rose to surface level. my sister knew how much i loved and needed her. she was my sister. some siblings were close, some werent. but my sister was my only friend. and all i really had. she knew that.

and sometimes she reminded me of how much i held her back.

she would sit with her massive friend group with attractive, sociable and fun people. she would always try to push me to talk to them or even make my own friends. i tried, i swear i did. it usually didnt go well. i never understood why.

maybe i was the problem. i could only really care about one person at a time. i didnt know what that was called. it took time for me to get close with people, the fear of being judged and abandoned an imminent one.

my brain always told me, my own sister would never abandon or judge me. we were blood. we were in this shit forever.

apparently i was the only one passionate about it.

"yae, cmon dont be like that," yasmine sighed. "i didnt mean that. i will tell you i promise."

i didnt answer her, only wiped the tears that gathered in my eyes for that moment. i crumbled up the letter he gave me as i rolled it into a fist in my pocket.

"its whatever, i guess ill see you in the morning," i muttered and started walking to the gate.

"wait!" she whisper-yelled. "where are you going?"

"ill tell you later. good luck with whoever youre meeting."

i called an uber to the address, trying to lighten up my mood on the way there. i put lipgloss on, trying to smile in my compact mirror. i wasnt really good with make up, but since i had a good feeling about this boy, i would need to start getting good.

this was the first time he'd invited me to his house. usually when yasmine went it wasnt a mutual invite. now i was going solo. he really changed his mind about me.

i kept impulsively eating mints, practicing my facial expressions and the uber driver probably thought i was crazy. when i got dropped infront of the wrought iron gates, he was standing there waiting for me.

in a white tshirt and grey sweatpants. he was so beautiful. he pulled his lips into that sly smirk i knew, as if he got everything he wanted. and being who he was, he did.

i mean, thats how i was here even though he bullied the fuck out of me whenever he could.

"hi," i said, giving a small wave. the wind blew my skirt a little, making me hold it down embarrassingly.

jongho continued giving me that satisfied smirk as he eyed me up and down. "you know its two am. i really didnt expect you to actually come."

i mean you asked me to. of course i would. im almost in love with you.

i shrugged like it was nothing. "you told me to come when i was comfortable. i thought this was appropriate."

"i see you dressed appropriately too. nice legs," he said, making my face heat up. "goddamn, model genes really runs in your family. well i dont wanna keep you in the cold. lets go inside."

he guided me into his home, his hand on my lower back. i swear i couldnt breathe. he never touched me like this infront of the others. infront of her.

his house was dark except for the light in the living room and up the staircase. the sound of my miu miu boots on the marble made me realize how empty everything sounded.

"are you alone at home?" i asked, kind of excited for the answer.

"yeah, my folks left for something in singapore. you know how it is," he casually said, showing me into a room. "make yourself comfy."

it was his room. i dont know what i imagined, but seeing it, it was so jongho.

trophies for singing competitions, soccer, and some even for academics lined the walls around his massive bed. he had a large mirror directly opposite his bed and a balcony that overlooked the infinity pool in his backyard. i strolled around in admiration, turning around when i heard two loud pats.

jongho sat on his bed and was gesturing for me to do the same. the led lights in his room were red and so dim, making him look far more hot than he already was.

i reluctantly planted myself next to him, my heart rate going higher than a kite. jongho licked his lips and took a heavy breath as he prepared to speak. god he was so attractive, i hated how much i liked him. i left my home at two am just because he asked. fuck.

"thanks for coming to talk," he muttered, his voice deeper and hitting the perfect spot in my ear drums. "i know it was kinda a lot to ask."

i rolled my hair behind my ear and shrugged. "its no big deal. what did you wanna talk about?"

jongho moved closer, now he was so close i could feel the radiation of his body heat. oh god.

"i know ive been hard on you for coming into our friend group and everything. im really sorry for all the mean things i said."

the apology struck me, hitting the thoughts from my brain. that wasnt what i expected.

"i called you clingy and made yasmine think you were a loser," jongho sighed, shaking his head. "she doesnt believe that of course, but im really sorry. i know i can be mean sometimes but its just how i give affection. youre cool with that, right?"

i nodded thoughtlessly. i was just happy to have him talk to me.

"yea, thats fine. i get it. im not that sensitive dont worry," i forced a smile, knowing his insults hurt more than anything. but at least he was sorry. right?

"cool, cool." he smiled down at me. "i hope we can be good friends then, yae. can you do me a favour then?"

"what kind of favour?"

my mind was running wild right then. all the insane teenage hormones were overflowing. the close proximity and how handsome he was, the fact that my short skirt had such easy access. choi jongho was a hard guy to resist. and i was failing.

i didnt hear his words, i was so focused on his lips and the cute mole in his neck, i acted without thinking.

i leaned forward and pressed my lips to his, softly grabbing the side of his face. i couldnt believe what i was doing. for a second his warm mouth welcomed mine, taking it in fully. then, i felt coldness on my lips as he pulled away.

"what are you doing?" he scoffed, his eyes narrowed spitefully. my stomach shrunk.

"uh–i–" i stammered, only to be cut off.

"are you fucking kidding me right now? are you deaf?" he raised his voice. "did you not just hear me ask is yasmine if interested in anyone? why the fuck would you kiss me."

"im sorry–i–" i couldnt believe what i just did. what was wrong with me. he wanted to know about yasmine. not me. what the fuck. this was so awkward.

wait. so i read everything...wrong?

"shit," he cursed under his breath. "this is bad."

"is that why you called me here?" i asked, fearing the answer. "to find out if yasmine is interested in anyone?"

"obviously. why else are you useful?" he meanly answered. i felt an embarrassed pang in my chest. "did you think i liked you?"

the mocking laugh that fell from his lips after made me flinch. because how stupid was i to think he actually saw me differently now.

to think that someone like him could actually like someone like me.

"youre so fucking naive, yaera," he kept driving the knife in, shaking his head with that taunting smile. "just cause you look like your sister doesnt mean you should have the same confidence. youre setting yourself up."

i remembered the first day i sat with yasmine's friend group, jongho pointed out that even though we were twins, i wasnt nearly as attractive as yasmine. i laughed it off awkwardly because i thought he was joking.

"you know desperation is unattractive as fuck, right? i cant believe you drove here at two in the morning because you thought i liked you."

i was shivering in my skin, trying not to completely burst into tears. my entire body was flushing hot with anger and spite, and the most embarrassing of all–heartbreak. because deep down i knew he would never get over my sister. it made me insane.

why did everyone fucking act like i wasnt worthy of being liked just like everyone else? but as soon as they saw the scars on my arms they wanted to tell me the same bullshit.

youre loved, yaera.

stop hurting yourself, yaera.

stop using this for attention, yaera.

i couldnt bear to stay a second longer. i wiped the wetness of my cheeks and got up from the bed, immediately going to leave. jongho got up and tugged at my wrist, pulling me back to him.

"you havent told me about your sister yet," jongho said, making my rage spike. because who the fuck did he think he was. "cmon, dont cry because of silly shit like that. its water under the bridge."

"i hate you," i seethed through my tears. "i dont know why yasmine is friends with someone like you in the first place."

"because shes like me," jongho taunted. "and thats what you refuse to see. you dont realize how much of a burden you are to her. you dont realize the only reason she hasnt ditched you yet is because youre related to her."

okay, so he was continuing then?

"you always act like youre so perfect," i spat. "you talk about how much of a burden i am? imagine how much of a burden you are to yasmine because you keep trying to date her. shes never gonna like you. you're just another guy friend in her collection, cunt."

i ripped my arm from his grip and stormed out of his room. he followed me till i reached the bottom of the staircase, where he just watched me spitefully from the railing. now he was angry? of course. pieces of shit like jongho were great at dishing it out and not taking it back.

i felt so petty. he could have rejected me normally but he thought he could say whatever he wanted to me. tearing the little self esteem i had down was fun for him.

i turned around and smiled. "you really wanna know what yasmine thinks of you? she doesnt. in fact, she snuck out of the house to meet someone. shes probably getting fucked as we speak. enjoy that mental image, fucker."

"get the fuck out of my house!"

***

YAERA

an hour has passed since san left me in his apartment. im worried and have a weird feeling in my stomach just imagining what he's doing right now.

despite the anger i feel toward him, i hope he's safe. that's all I hope for. he's hurt badly, looking more damaged than when he fought the last time. he definetely has open wounds. so i look around for any first aid. he's gonna need it for when he comes back.

i rummage through his cabinets. there's so much empty spaces but its filled with random stuff. this guy needs to go shopping. he has so much expired medicine. i find a thin roll of bandages and plasters in the very back of a cupboard but when i take them out, something falls on the ground.

its a folded up piece of paper. when i pick it up, i realize its actually a crumbled up picture. a picture of a family.

my stomach immediately sinks.

a young asian lady and her husband are holding their toddler son. it looks like theyre at a carnival. everyone is smiling, except for the kid. hes pouting.

he was so cute as a baby.

a weird feeling of melancholy hits me hard realizing the people in this picture are no longer around.

san lives alone. apparently hes been alone for a long time. i can tell by the way he operates. hes selfish, not even in a bad way. i get why he caters for himself and tries to keep away from others.

im not even angry anymore. it just makes me sad.

i put the picture back where i found it and go sit by the bed. san doesnt have any alcohol in his house, so i end up having to look up the nearest pharmacy.

i make a quick run for it, deciding to buy him some more medicine and fill up my asthma pump while im at it. i dont know why im doing this when he probably hates me. i guess im always gonna be a sucker for the men i like.

when i get back, his door is unlocked. i panic, but then i find him and his friend eyeing me like they want to kill me.

"where were you?!" san asks me, raising his voice. "dont walk around here. you know this isnt the suburbs."

i lift the pharmacy bag. "i was just getting you medicine. i threw out your expired packs. which were all of them, by the way."

he has a lost look on his face. i turn to his "cousin" and hold my hand out. "the name's yaera marino, san's fake girlfriend. good to officially meet you."

"im wooyoung. san's fake cousin," he says, taking my hand with reluctance.

"are you sleeping here tonight?" i ask him.

"yes he is," san answers. "we're sharing a mattress. you can still sleep on my bed."

i feel a pang of jealously. goddamn it that should be me.

i nod to san. "go take a shower. im gonna give you first aid."

san is confused, looking at me like he doesnt understand english. "you know how to do first aid?"

"i learned it when i was still doing karate. go shower." i chase him away with my hand.

san awkwardly goes off, leaving me alone with wooyoung. i quietly take in the boy, who now that i can see clearly, is obviously younger than san. i cant believe hes in the gang too.

"what took you so long?" i ask him, frowning. "i was worried."

"we had to get rid of the license plate," wooyoung answers, his tone curt and cold. "and you were worried? dont make me laugh."

his words are sharp and sound spiteful. im guessing he knows how san and i began this partnership. i hold my tongue and let him snap.

"you dont care about san. youre using him," he says, but still quiet enough so that san doesnt overhear. "i just want you to know, i can make you disappear at any time i want. all i need is the greenlight from san and you'll be scattered across a lake."

"you think that will protect him?" i ask with a wry smile. wooyoung's fist clenches on the side of him, his knuckles bloody and bruised.

"what makes you think i dont have a million copies of that video? that i dont have a plan in case one of you hurt me? im not some dumb bitch."

wooyoung shakes his head and laughs scornfully. what did he expect me to say? shiver me timbers? i literally know he shot someone tonight.

"and here san thinks you wouldnt hurt him. i dont care what kind of plan you have. if you hurt san, i'll fucking kill you myself," he threatens.

i wouldnt ever hurt him. not even in my dreams. unless he hurts me first, then fuck him.

"trust me, i wont be an issue," i say nonchalantly, sitting on the bed. i lean back and feel a pain in the spot where san kicked me. right above my boobs.

"i just need enough money by the end of the school year. then i'll go back to my country and disappear from your lives forever."

"do you know how much of a risk this is? what san is letting you do?" wooyoung scoffs. "thats if you even make it to the end of the year. if anyone finds out about this, youre both fucked."

"no ones gonna find out unless you tell them," i eye him sharply. i dont trust this guy but apparently san does, enough to tell him about our parternship.

"san has a hard life already. you should just get out of his life," wooyoung snaps. "if you knew why he was in the gang, you'd never ask him to do what youre doing now."

his words somehow make me feel guilty. but why? why should i feel guilty when san doesnt even tell me whats going on.

"woo."

wooyoung's demeanor changes when he hears san's voice. he immediately stiffens and acts completely clueless.

my breath gets stuck in my throat. san is standing there in nothing but a white tank top and a striped red pyjamma pants. his muscles and skinny waist are on perfect display. my mouth suddenly goes dry.

no. fuck. yaera, focus.

"what are you doing?" san asks like hes talking to a kid. i find it highly amusing but keep my face blank.

"i was just defending you," wooyoung says with a scowl.

"im not in any danger. like i told you."

"yeah but–"

"jung wooyoung."

wooyoung groans at san's warning and shoots me a hard glare telling me this conversation isnt close to over. he storms into san's extra room and shuts the door, probably thinking the worst of the situation.

i cant lie, despite his intimidating and handsome appearance, i cant take him seriously at all. i find it endearing that he cares so much about san that he even threatened me. so san isnt alone after all.

he looks at me and sighs, his face adorably awkward. the black strands of his hair are wavy against his forehead, making him look so soft despite the bruises and cuts on his face.

its embarrassing how quickly i forgot how badly i wanted to hurt him today.

"sorry about wooyoung," he says and comes to sits down on the bed. "hes just...possessive."

"you mean protective," i correct him and smile. "its good that you have someone looking out for you. you need it."

san goes quiet but is looking at me like he has a lot on his mind. right, he had to get someone killed tonight. how could i forget.

i take out the first aid materials and scoot closer to him. the warmth of his body is already wafting towards me, the scent of the soap so potent on his skin. its an intoxicating smell.

"can i see where you got hurt?" my voice is so hesitant it doesnt even sound like me.

san is slow with lifting his top. i refrain from visibly gulping at the sight of his beautiful lower body, my mouth going dry when i notice the large gashes against his ribs. they cut him with a knife.

"why would you put on a white shirt to bed?" i ask him with a scowl.

"the bleeding stopped in the shower," san shrugs embarrassedly. "plus this was all i could find."

i inspect the wound and it looks like he cleaned a whole lot of it in the shower. "it looks like i just have to put ointment on and wrap you. you need to go to the doctor if it gets infected, you know that right?"

"i dont think that will be necessary. ive never needed to before," san says coolly.

i cant believe hes just brushing this off. "how often do you get injured like this?" i ask him as i dip a finger into the antibiotic cream. i gently run it over his gashes and he winces. .

"now and then," he forces out, as if trying to hide that it hurts. "it wouldnt really matter the extent. i'd still have to go to school."

i roll my eyes. of course. the perfect student.

i rub in the ointment and it feels like my cheeks are on fire. ive never been this close to anyone. ive never done this for anyone. my hands are shaking as i reach for the sterile bandage.

"are we ever going to talk about what happened tonight?" i ask quietly. "because i dont want us to forget."

san is staring through my soul with his intimidating, and pretty brown eyes. i can see him withdrawing. hes already far away.

"i know i was reckless and im sorry. but please dont lie to me, san. i really fucking hate not knowing whats going on. i know you were probably trying to protect me, but you could have been honest."

i expect him to say sorry too. but only silence is returned.

"i wont lie to you again. ive seen the effects it has," he mutters.

"i dont want our partnership to be us just lying to and antagonizing each other. i know you dont trust me. but we're gonna have to trust each other for this shit to work."

"i do trust you," san says after a few moments pass. he tightens as i roll the bandage around his torso. "i just dont trust myself. and everyone else."

i stay quiet hoping for him to elaborate. i feel it coming. the hope is bubbling in my chest.

"i watched yunho die," his voice is flat, as if drained from emotion. "he got stabbed right infront of wooyoung and i. we should be used to it, we've seen tons of people come and go in the last four years."

i finish bandaging him and lower his shirt reluctantly. san watches my every move, and im surprised he lets me.

"im sorry you had to go through that so young," i tell him, genuinely. the look on his face is so distant that it feels like hes given up a long time ago.

"is this is how its gonna be? forever?" i ask. "is there any way out of this for you?"

i remember san implying that he wasnt doing this out of his freewill. which means his boss must have a lot of leverage over him.

"i dont know. im still trying to figure that out."

"what do they have on you?"

san chuckles darkly, his soft laugh full of scorn and hopelessness. "well, they know where i live, for starters. they know where i go to school. they know everything about me."

and his parents? where the fuck are your parents san?

he can see the question in my eyes. his smile is filled with gloom. "you can thank my dad for that. hes the reason all of this started. the reason ive been in this servitude for most of my childhood."

i frown. "servitude?"

"my dad...he was a shit guy," san sighs. "he was an alcoholic gangster with gambling tendencies. he made a bet with the 105ths he couldnt repay. so he took off. and when they couldnt make him pay it off, they took me instead."

"im paying off hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt, thanks to my shit father. and i dont have any money so i had to give all i could so they dont kill me. myself."

i cant believe it. san is basically in a slave contract. and theres nothing he can do about it. my chest feels tight.

"what about your mom?" i ask softly. 

san shrugs and lays down on the bed, looking straight at the ceiling as he crosses his arms behind his head.

"shes gone. she left when the gang stuff got too complicated. they sent a warning to our apartment telling my dad to pay his debt, in the form of a petrol bomb. it scared the shit out of her, so she took off."

"without you!?" i ask incredulously.

"while i was at school. i just got used to it. coming home to nothing."

what kind of parents...fuck. i cant even say anything. im just fucking sad. i feel a hundred times worse about blackmailing him now.

"the 105ths said they would let me go if i paid off everything. theyre still letting me go to school as long as i dont neglect the gang."

"what if you ran away?" i ask curiously. san stares at me blankly.

"they would find me and do to me what they did to yunho. or even worse. its not worth it really. im just hoping it ends soon. then ill disappear. for good."

and now im dampening his plans by making him share his money with me. god i hate myself.

"how much do you owe?"

"i dont know. i just know the deal ends when miss A calls it off. she deems how much is enough."

i scowl. "what? and what if it never gets called off? what if they trap you here?"

"im hoping it wont come to that. ive been loyal for a long time."

that doesnt mean shit when people only love using you. but i dont say that. it already means so much that san decided to say something. to be honest. i cant lie and act like im okay after hearing the truth. but i wont pity him. san deserves better than that.

"ill help you," i look down at him fiercely. "ill help you cancel out your dads debt."

san looks at me deeply. "thats not necessary."

i hold out a hand. "dont even say it. get a fixed amount from your boss and ill help you get it."

"why would you do that?"

my stomach turns at the question. i dont even know. i cant say its because of the mild lady boner i have for him. its more than that. choi san deserves more than what happened to him.

"its only fair, isnt it?" i say with a small smile. "i get to go back home and you get to go to...where was it? nottingham?"

he wants to study pharmacy. i wonder if he meant that.

sans cheeks are red. is he...blushing?

"why do you remember that?" he asks with a soft groan.

i chuckle to myself. "cause its weird as fuck. england? what the hell do you wanna do in england? seriously if you want to go to europe there are so many better places. why nottingham?"

san shrugs embarrassedly. "i like football."

"you? like football?" i scoff. "that's the reason you wanna live in england?"

"why do you sound so shocked? can't i like football?" he asks defensively.

"you don't even look like you've watched soccer a day in your life. i'd never guess that you'd like an english team."

san snorts and laughs to himself a little. my legs go jelly a little. i keep underestimating how adorable he can be.

"my mother is a huge soccer fan," he admits fondly. my smile is quick to fall away. "once we went to watch her favourite team play in nottingham. she was so excited about it, she got me interested in it."

i feel myself soften. "so you want to go for your mother? is she going to move with you?"

"no," he sighs. i must be shit at connecting the dots because i still dont get it.

"she's in Korea. i can't go back there. i had to give up my Korean citizenship this year because I'm not enlisting."

"so you'll never see her again?"

my question hangs in the air. san doesnt answer it, because even he doesnt know. he still has hope. i can tell. he just doesnt know if its still worth holding onto.

everything has gotten deep so fast.

"maybe we should go to bed. we still have school tomorrow," i say and lie down next to him. theres a small gap between us that i know neither of us will close. but it feels good to hope.

san tries to get up but groans as he holds his injured side. i push him down gently by the shoulder, his eyes slightly widening.

"youre too tired to get up anyway," i say softly. "just stay here. i promise i wont bite."

unless you want me to.

san looks at me awkwardly and nods, lying back down on his back. his eyes are aimed at the ceiling and i pull my knees inward as i lay on my side looking at him.

everything about him is so...i dont even have the words to explain it. i just have a feeling that everything will work out for us exactly the way we want it to.

"thank you," i say. san slowly turns his head and raises his eyebrows at me in confusion.

"for being honest. i know you didnt wanna mention all that. but thanks."

san doesnt say anything more. theres a  ghost of a smile on his face, but its enough for me to hold onto. choi san, maybe youre not actually that much of an asshole.

"goodnight, yaera."

***

san

i thought i imagined it. having her curled up in my arms. i felt it that night, her warm skin against mine and her soft breaths and hair on my chest. i told myself i was imagining it. because the morning after, she was gone.

yaera vanished like thin air. i feel embarrassed for everything that came out of my mouth last night. i cant believe i actually told her what happened to my family.

are you that desperate for friends? i ask the loser in the mirror as i get ready for school. the bruises in my face are so bad it looks like im going to have to wear a mask all day.

wooyoung comes out of the spare room as im almost finished with breakfast. he doesnt greet me with a good morning, instead he looks around expectantly.

"wheres the blackmailer?" he asks sarcastically. "is she also a magician?"

"her parents drop her at school so she left," i answer dryly. "morning to you too, asshole."

wooyoung gives me a bland stare. "you didnt come to bed last night."

"sorry? are we married?"

"what the fuck are you doing san?" wooyoung shouts at me. oh god are we really doing this at six in the morning.  "do you actually like this chick or what?"

"where did you get that idea?" i ask him calmly, knowing it will rile him up even more.

"maybe the fact that you slept in the same bed. youre letting her blackmail you for fucks sake–"

"wooyoung, we both passed out. with clothes on. and didnt i ask you to fucking trust me?" i glare at him. because why is he acting like my wife.

"i dont like this one bit." he shakes his head like a disapproving parent.

"you dont have to like it. all you have to do is let me do the work."

i feel my phone buzz in my pockets. i open it and see a missed call from yeosang. ugh this loser.

i open a message from him and its a birthday invitation. oh shit i almost forgot.

"woo, wanna come with me to a party?" i ask him. maybe he'll be less annoying if he can get the attention of some private school girl too.

"is it gonna be one of those fancy private school prick parties?" woo scowls, then smiles. "free food. im in."

"not to mention you could probably sell some stuff from there."

woo suddenly gets a burst if excitement. "that reminds me, i stole from that black dragon dickhead. we still have to split up the cash."

now that hes reminded me, i move to punch woo in the arm. "owwww!" he yells and shoves me. "what the fuck!"

"youre worried about me getting blackmailed when you possibly started a gang war," i snap at him. "when are you gonna tell miss A?"

"i dont plan to," woo says confidently. my face pales. no way.

"are you serious?" i ask worriedly. woo nods confidently. too confident who saw one of our own get mutilated last night.

"since im keeping your secret, you better keep mine."

thats entirely different, i want to say. i wanna argue with woo but the annoyingly playful nature on his face tells me hes not going to take me seriously at all.

"you know what they say," woo says with a grin. "out of sight, out of mind."

***

yaera

"youre in a good mood," my father notes as we get in the car that morning. and hes right. i cant take the smile off my face because i woke up on choi san's chest.

"i have a good feeling about this week," i say. my mom snorts, her eyes glued to her phone.

"and what brought on this feeling?"

its weird that my father is asking, because he genuinely never seems interested in anything i do. but since we're on the topic...

"miss evans got me a tutor. i invited him to come over after school today, is that okay?" i ask them. my mother immediately turns around with the signature sneer on her face.

"and who is miss evans to assign you a tutor? does she plan to pay for this?" she asks.

"uh? my AP bio teacher? you met her the beginning of the year?" i remind her. "and no, im paying out of my own pocket."

"good," she dryly says. "in that case its fine. the maids will all be home. as long as hes gone by dinner."

i quietly fistbump myself in the backseat, my stomach filled with butterflies. san, in my room, teaching me stuff i dont care about at all. what a dream come true.

best part is? he wont have to meet this family at all.

im skipping out of the car by the time they drop me off at school. i light up a cigarette as i stroll through the parking lot, feeling like a girl from some book who just landed a date with her crush. maybe life is worth living.

"marino!" a voice calls me. i pause in my tracks as i blow out my steam, turning around slowly to see...

...ah fuck.

"hey marino!" kang yeosang calls me with his signature douchebag smirk as he walks up to me. "long time no see."

i take an extra long drag from my cig because god it is needed for any conversation with yeosang.

"what do you want?" i ask him. he acts surprised and offended.

"wow, is that how you greet an old friend?" he shakes his head with a sigh. "kinda mean you know?"

i roll my eyes. "get to what it is you want, you know you and i have never been friends."

yeonsang clicks his tongue, his half smile not even shrunken by an inch. "always the pleasantries with you, marino. i just wanted to know if youve seen lazarus. since i hear you two come as a package nowadays. congrats by the way. you two totally look good together."

"lazarus?" i repeat dumbly. "who the fuck is that?"

"choi san," yeosang giggles like its the funniest thing ever.

"why do you call him lazarus?"

yeosang tilts his head at me like its obvious. "cause hes a scholarship student? hello?"

this fucking asshole. i toss my cigarette at him and he dodges fast enough to my dismay.

"dont call him that," i hiss. "plus why do you want to see him?"

"thats between us men, sweetheart," he says as a matter of fact. "just let him know when you see him, to give me a call. he doesnt answer my messages."

"maybe you should take the hint then."

yeosang looks at me with strange fascination, as if hes high in this very moment. its like he finds me amusing, hes just always giving me that stupid lopsided smile.

"i wonder how it happened, the two of you," he says with a glint of mischief. as if he cant wait to say something offensive. "its just funny how your type went from jongho...to him."

heat hits my face in embarassment. "jongho isnt the only guy ive had a crush on you know, you can stop bringing him up for every fucking thing. we never even dated," i say defensively.

this is why i hate talking to anyone my sister was friends with. all they could talk about was the past. not to mention most of the people she liked were fucking horrible.

"you never dated, but you were in love with him," yeosang childishly points out. "and even if he wont admit it, he probably felt something for you too."

i scoff. no he didnt. choi jongho doesnt love anyone but himself. id learnt that too late.

"i dont care," i grit out. "why are you even bringing this up?"

"yas would have wanted you to be with jongho. especially because he couldnt have her," yeosang just keeps boiling my blood. i cant believe this. i cant believe he just said that.

"i dunno how she would feel seeing you with...lazarus."

"shut the fuck up," i snap.

yeosang lifts his hands in defense. "im just saying because i care, yae. you cant just date someone you dont know. choi san might not be the sweet guy you think he is."

what is he even playing at? does he think san will sell him drugs if he goes around badmouthing him?

"and youre sweet?" i scoff. "you and jongho and whoever else was in that fucked up group? you think you can talk because you knew my sister? dont act like you ever cared about me."

"god youre so sensitive," yeosang laughs meanly. "i was just playing with you. and you wonder why you never got invited to our parties. youre just the strawman of fun arent you?"

"that doesnt make any fucking sense," i snap at him. "i can never get back the time i wasted having this conversation. mind your business and leave me alone, yeah, stronzo? and dont mention san to me ever again."

"dont forget to let him know i was looking for him!" yeosang calls after me as i storm off. i dont even need to turn around to know hes smiling, completely full of himself.

***

i only see san when lunch rolls around. all our common classes are later in the day and ive been obsessively waiting to see him all day. ive got a busy day ahead, my mind set on a very specific target.

i find him by the abandoned stairwell, and its like hes been waiting for me.

he shakes his head at me as i come, i narrow my eyes in confusion.

"am i missing something?" i ask him. "whats with the face?"

"why dont you check your phone?" san grumbles at me. his eyes trail behind me, where i turn to see jongho descending the stairs.

hes smiling like a prick. oh god. two assholes in one day.

"i guess the two of you dont learn," he says tauntingly. "this isnt a place for your dates."

"we havent done anything wrong," san says annoyedly. im glad he finds jongho as annoying as i do.

"maybe not you. but her," jongho turns to me with a smile. "i see your hair still isnt dyed back. you were given two warnings. one more and its suspension. i dont think your failing grades can afford two weeks out."

looking at him now, i dont know what i ever saw in him. im so embarrassed to say ive been rejected by this asshole like a hundred times.

i cant risk detention today. it would spoil mine and san's plans and would just be boring as hell. i guess im going to have to cave.

jongho smirks dreadfully. "why you so quiet, yae? didnt i tell you'd get you back?"

"look, im sorry okay," i say against my will. "i didnt mean to punch you. and ill have my hair dyed by tomorrow. good enough for you?"

san looks between us in confusion. i hope he doesnt ask any questions. if he thinks im crazy now he shouldnt ever hear of jongho-obsessed yaera.

"not good enough, sorry," jongho starts writing on that stupid peach notepad and i sigh. this time he only writes my name. meaning ill have detention without san. miss morri will love this.

"maybe next time you'll watch your mouth," jongho smiles at us before strollling away like the arrogant pig he is. i sigh heavily as san turns to me with narrowed eyes.

"why does he hate you so much?" san asks me annoyedly. "he just came here asking specifically. what did you do?"

"why are you assuming i did something?" i scowl. san gives me an obvious look.

"why else would he hate you that much?"

"because hes an asshole," i scoff. "i might be one too, but im nothing like him. my sister never reciprocated his love and he made it everyone elses problem. he also told me i should have died instead of her."

"what the fuck. he needs help."

"most people at this school do," i sigh. "speaking of help, i need yours."

san gives me his suspicious, pretty eyes. i smile excitedly. "im letting you into my side hustle. you remember how i told you i got my savings?"

"you said you stole most of it..."

"bingo."

san groans. "i hope you dont expect me to help you steal a car or something."

i roll my eyes. he must think im an adrenaline junkie or something. "dont be ridiculous. all i need is a look out before school ends. you think you can do that?"

san sighs hopelessly, surrendering. "what do you need?"

"get me into the boys lockeroom."

"...what are you doing there?"

"if i tell you it wont be special, would it?" i say and he scowls.

"dont do anything stupid. what about detention? are you going?"

i smirk. "obviously not. you still owe me a tutoring session."

san nods in a way that tells me he definetely forgot. how shameless.

"luckily for you, my parents allowed you to come over. and they wont be home till night and i'll make sure youre out of sight before then."

san nods. "just tell me what to bring."

the day goes by quickly until the last period finally rolls around. its geography, and as much as i love this subject, i end up skipping. san is having english and i couldnt convince him to skip, so i wait for him after school near the sportsfield.

the school soccer team are practicing, meaning all the lockerooms are unoccupied. its perfect.

i didnt usually target them, but the plan felt brilliant when i thought of it. usually i went for the girls, they were easy. expensive phone cases, airpods, clothes, and luxury perfume. all things that sold so easily online. people would do anything for a bargain.

can you imagine how much soccer gear would sell? i know damn well not every one of those players were using ALL of their gear.

plus, i need to get back at that asshole jongho. i didnt know his number so i'd just have to look around and guess whose locker smells the most potent and obnoxious.

san comes jogging around the bend, looking so prim and proper in his school blazer. i smirk in greeting. "you ready for some fun?" i ask him.

"i hope this doesnt take long, you know we have to catch the bus if we're going to your house," he reminds me.

i managed to convince my parents i was taking the bus with him home so they didnt have to pick us up. they called the school and made sure san wasnt a trouble maker and questioned his records. you know, a completely normal response.

"dont worry. i'll be in and out, lets go."

i take san's arm and we sneak into the separate building reserved for the boys lockerrooms. of course it smells like stale air, cologne and dampness.

i walk past the lockers and gaze at the numbers and locks. i check my watch. practice ends at 4:30 pm. its currently 4:00.

i nod to san and gesture with my eyes to the door. "guard while i get busy." i take various pins out of my pocket, having brought them specifically for this purpose.

"how are you gonna get those lockers open?" san asks me. i bend down infront of the first locker and start fiddling with my pins.

"lock-picking," i answer distractedly.

"you know how to pick locks?" san says in disbelief.

"you dont?"

"no. im not a weirdo."

"youre such a lousy gangster. arent you supposed to be street smart?"

"im not a gangster," san corrects me with an eye roll. hes feeling sassy today. "im a part time employee."

i cant take him seriously and end up chuckling. the locker clicks open and i find only a folded uniform on the inside. i rummage through the pockets and find a wallet. i open it and theres no cash, only cards. useless because as soon as its found to be missing they'll all be blocked.

i sigh and check deeper. i find a silver watch. its an omega brand. jackpot.

i slip it into my pocket and fold the uniform back. they should really secure these lockers better.

"are you getting somewhere?" san asks as he nervously looks out the door.

"of course," i say with ease and move onto the next locker. its slightly harder to open. i remember a specific scenario like this coming up in the youtube tutorial i watched. all i have to do is whatever that guy did.

it takes longer than i thought. when it pops open i can see san's distressed eyes glaring at me to hurry up.

and thats when i see it. the treasure guaranteed to win us a mini lottery.

"holy shit, look at this baby," i gasp and take out the camera, showing it to san.

"who leaves a camera in their gym locker?" san scowls. "that person deserves to get robbed."

"its expensive too!" i giggle in excitement. "its a Lumix GH5! you know the price of this? we're gonna be fucking rich!"

"who does it belong to?"

i shrug and look back inside the locker. there isnt much except the camera and a few pairs of gym socks and knee pads. "i guess we'll figure it out when we look at it."

i slam the locker shut and we're about to leave when san suddenly shoves me back. i stare at him in confusion as he runs out and i hear voices on the outside.

"what are you doing here?" someone asks him suspiciously. oh god. i recognize that voice. jongho.

"i...was looking for you," san says, and i can tell hes fighting for his life thinking of a good lie. "are there still spots left on the team?"

jongho scoffs. "youre kidding, right?"

theres an awkward silence. oh fuck i need to save him from himself.

"stick to the books, choi san. at least you dont embarrass yourself there."

"no im serious...i wanna join your team. is there anywhere to sign up?"

jongho groans. "im team captain, you have to go with me to the coach for this."

"lets go now then."

"i need to get something from my locker."

"uh...im in a hurry. can we just go now? i cant miss my bus home."

hes trying to get jongho away so i can sneak out. theyre right at the door. ive never held my breath so long.

"ugh! fine! couldnt you have asked earlier?" jongho snaps. "im guessing you need soccer for a sports scholarship too, huh? you wont get into any schools if you suck ass by the way."

i can just picture san's clenched jaw as he holds himself together around jongho. i hear their voices fade and steps grow further away. i stuff the camera and watch into my bag and sprint out and make my way around the school buildings. now i can jump the fence on the other side of the field.

i call san instantly when im alone, looking around for any security. he picks up on the first ring. "hey, im at the fence we jumped after detention. the bus stop is somewhere nearby here."

"okay okay mom, I'll be home right now," san says into the phone and im guessing hes making an excuse to get away from jongho now.

its funny how everything plays out. san gets to me within a few minutes and his face is red with stress. i hold my laugh in.

"next time YOU be the lookout," he says with a scowl and it makes me burst out into laughter.

"i thought you could lie better than that!" i nearly double over from chuckles. "you shouldve heard yourself. seriously youre a criminal and thats how you lie?"

"oh shut it. he wouldve seen you!"

san's angry face is really so adorable. he expects me to take him seriously like this?

"you should have hit him over the head instead," i sigh. "we couldve made him believe everything was a dream."

we jump the fence and end up catching the bus somewhere near my neighbourhood. the entire bus is empty, and san is on the verge of falling asleep, leaning his head against the window. im severely bored and decide to take the camera out to inspect the specs.

its such a good camera. i dont know a lot about cameras but i know by the brand its quality. i wonder which soccer guy has this hobby. maybe he wants to be a professional photographer.

i open the existing pictures and find random pictures of cars, birds, sunsets, and aesthetic places around the school. theres a folder named "her", so i click on it hoping to see something different.

...pictures of me.

thousands of them.

i feel my face pale, which is wrong on so many levels because im brown as fuck. the first few pictures are of me with a cigarette, smoking on and off campus. theyre from a year ago based on my hair colour. the other pictures are dated from two years ago and theyre filled with me in my school uniform.

the point of view is the part that leaves me cold in my bones. from above, places that cant easily be spotted. random corners capturing me sitting on my phone, bending over...looking around...

thats until i realize the lavender scrunchie in my hair. and the lack of bangs.

these arent just pictures of me. in fact, most of them are my sister.

next chapter

#ateez angst #ateez imagines #choi san angst #ateez fanfic #ateez fic #ateez scenarios #choi san #choi san fluff #san angst #gang au #ateez gang au #ateez mystery

[phantaloon]

@thisisthewaytomando

MERRY CHRISTMAS BESTIE ❤️🎄

ohhhh i can't believe christmas day is already here, you have no clue how much i enjoyed talking with you during this time, I'd really love for us to keep talking even if there are only a few common interests, two's enough right? :)

but ohh i wish you a very merry christmas, in my country (or maybe just my family lol) we see christmas as a time for blessings and happiness and gratefulness, so I wish you the absolute best, i hope you're showered in blessings and i hope you get to enjoy with your loved ones these happy holidays <3

look lmao about your gift, i totally forgot how much i suck at drawing and painting. i really said oh yeah i got this it's gonna be amazing, and yk the concept sketch was actually kinda cool and it was all going fine right until the moment i started painting it ahdjdkf either way I'll leave it here to you, it's not a great painting (it's not good at all tbh) but it is from the heart <3

so obviously i meant to crossover csty with your doggie in a christmas sweater but it turns out i suck at painting, feel free to laugh at it lmao so did i (it's still from the heart tho ajdjfkf)

buuut i hated it so damn much that i said yk what i can't just leave this as my christmas gift for my secret santa sooooo i also made you a moodboard :) ngl I'd never done one before, and ik there are some things you like that are not in it but here it is too <3

so yeah! i really hope you had as much fun as i did, really i wish you the best and i hope we can stay as semi interacting mutuals (bc i suck at keeping in contact for long periods of time)

I'm sending you a big hug and all the love to you and your loved ones

merry christmas!

- phantaloon

#clique secret santa <3 #clique secret santa 2022

[mbtiblogfun]

Meet the Admin!!

A bit late but I'm going to pin this post for future viewers!

🌸 The Basics 🌺

Name: Kat

Age: 17

Pronouns: she/they

Country: USA

Typology: INFP 6w5 694 sp/so EII FEVL Phlegmatic [Dominant]

🌟 About the Blog 💫

What's the main purpose of this blog?

This blog mostly focuses on INFP related content. I'm not super knowledgeable when it comes to typology, so I mainly just focus on INFPs in my posts. It made the most sense to me because it's my own type, so obviously I have the most knowledge on it lol. Of course, anyone can enjoy this blog if they want! Not just INFPs!

Stuff I've done:

INFPs irl and in fiction

INFP moodboards (based on the enneagrams that fit w the type)

INFP playlist

Examples of romantic relationships between INFPs and other types in fiction

And more!

Why did I create this blog?

I’ve had an interest in typology for a while. I think my main goal was just to create fun content for myself and others to enjoy. I've always wanted see more of this kind of content when it comes to mbti, because a lot of people take it too seriously imo. I see a lot of people using typology to dictate their entire views on themselves and other people, and while I have a huge interest in psychology, using mbti to form your opinions on other is no better than using astrology to do so. Mbti is a pseudoscience anyway, so this blog is really just meant to be fun!

🍰 More About Me 🧁

Astrology: Aquarius sun, Leo moon

Fav color: pink

Fav food: Domino's Pizza or Shake Shack

Top 3 Movies: Fantastic Mr. Fox, Before Sunrise, and But I'm a Cheerleader

Top 3 Shows: Stranger Things, Narcos, and Hannibal

Top 3 Anime: Attack on Titan, Yuri on Ice, and Sailor Moon

Top 3 Video Games: Minecraft, Animal Crossing, and Mario Kart

Top 3 Artists: Lana Del Rey, Arctic Monkeys, and Cigarettes After Sex

Top 3 Books: The Book Thief, Song of Achilles, and Rebecca

Other Hobbies: writing and drawing

🌙 Typology Journey ☁️

How'd I get into mbti? Well basically it all started one day in 5th grade. I was bored and procrastinating classwork lol. I've always enjoyed taking tests that analyze your personality (like the uquiz ones), and so I googled "personality tests." Then sure enough I came across 16p, and my obsession with typology began. I got INFP-A the first time, and I've gotten INFP-T ever since. I sent the test to like everyone I knew cus I wanted to compare results w them, and I got really into mbti skits and youtubers (basically Frank James lmao).

Then a couple years later I discovered PDB (Personality Database) after looking up "infp fictional characters" or something like that. I then found out that 16p wasn't super accurate or something, because they typed people by letters and not the cognitive functions. I actually had no idea what they were and why they were important, or why letter typing was "less accurate." It turns out letter-typing is frowned upon and seen as less accurate by like half the community because the cognitive functions were actually part of the original theory. I learned that the letters are basically just an oversimplified version of the actual functions in order to help beginners understand better, but when you type someone you don’t actually ask if they're more introverted or extroverted and what not.

Anyway now back to the important stuff lol.

I was one of the lucky people who was actually typed correctly by PDB. I took more "accurate" tests like Sakinorva and Keys2Cog, but I still got INFP even then. I even read more about the functions and my type online through my own research, after I found out that even the more "accurate" tests weren't always reliable. I also asked a few of my friends I met through PDB, who understood mbti better than I did, and asked them. Pretty much everyone said I was an INFP, so there was that.

As for enneagram, I just took a test and got 2w1. I didn't have as much knowledge on enneagram, so I went with that. Then when I asked people what they thought for my enneagram, a few people said 4w5, and once again I didn't question it. As for my tritype and ivs those were pretty easy to figure out with some explanation, and I went with 496.

But for a while I always found myself relating to the 9 traits more than 4 traits, especially sx 9. And a lot of people actually agreed with me, some said my 9 traits were too strong to only be one of my fixes, so then I typed as INFP 9w1 for a while.

And then, pretty recently I found out that was actually impossible. As you may know, not all type combinations are possible—and that includes INFPs and 9s. At first I thought people were being stupid and over-exaggerating, how would their traits contradict? But then I eventually found out that most "INFP 9s" are actually 6s, because 6s and 9s look very similar— especially sp 6s. So yea now I'm officially INFP 6w5! I basically ended up switching around my tritype order a bunch of times lol

As for the other parts of my typology, like socionics. I didn't really put much effort into that lol. I can somewhat understand mbti and enneagram, but I barely understand anything else. So once again I asked other people what they thought and pretty much everyone agreed on EII, and that was it!

So yea, sorry that was so long lmao. Thanks for reading! :)

#meet the admin #admin's thoughts #get to know me #hi guys #about me #mbti #mbti blog #mbti types #mbti personalities #myers briggs #infp personality #infp #16 personality types #infp mbti

[theteasetwrites]

couple more things since you responded to those two things I had talked about.

I COMPLETELY agree about daryl not wanting to go to France or even wanting to bring along his kids and wife. I mean, like you said, he has a young daughter and with dixon baby #2 on the way, it's already a tough world out there. him wanting to go all the way out to place like France is, in my opinion, a bit out of character and he would DEFINITELY rather stay in a place where he can be by his wife and two kids and be a bit safer.

two, I'm SO glad you said you'd definitely be giving us grown up Robin and her brother in the futur. like...as soon as we get there, emotions will be all over the place for me because they'd just be following in their parents footsteps in learning to survive while also having each other backs. :')

and finally, when you said that you would MAYBE incorporate some scenes with reader and glenn in future oneshots for the series, I got me thinking that maybe in one of the earlier seasons, you could have a scene where him and reader bond over the love they have for their partners. I mean, like I said, there's for sure parallels between the two ESPECIALLY when it comes to the relationships with maggie and Daryl.

anyways, this is long lol so yea.

Yeah it would be very irresponsible of him to leave them, so either I'm going to have Daryl take Y/N and the kids (which would also be stupid lmao the baby would be crying the whole time and Robin is far too young to go on a mission like that), or I am just not going to follow the canon. We shall see.

Yes, I already have like moodboards for grown up Robin and Daryl Jr. planned out lmao their lives are going to be so much fun. I can't wait to have reader and Daryl grow old together too UGH they're so cute. I mean one could argue that Daryl is already old but I don't think so I think he's just middle-aged lol.

Aww that's such a cute idea! I will definitely do something like that. I feel like season 2/3/4 would be a great time for that. Probably in between season 3 and 4 during that peaceful time at the prison. I feel like there's definitely potential there for Glenn and reader to gush over their partners with each other haha. And probably Glenn asking her for advice for dealing with women because I imagine Glenn isn't very experienced with dating and stuff lol. Plus I think of Glenn as reader's little brother kinda.

#abbi speaks #the beginning #the beginning series

[imkittyjustkitty]

Hello! I was wondering if I could get a Harry Potter and Little Women ship?

My pronouns are she/her and im bisexual.

𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗬: I have massive introverted tendencies and am awkward in nature with new people. As a result I can come across as aloof and indifferent at first. I absolutely despise small talk. However with my friends I’m quite friendly and outgoing. Whenever I’m with my friends I can get really giggly and dorky when talking abt my recent hyperfixations. I open up to people very easily if we have similar interests. That’s when the chaotic theories and wacky ideas spout out. I tend to either overthink everything or not think at all. I’m a bit of a control freak and want to do the things the way I do them but I won’t enforce this on anyone else unless the result directly affects me. Just let me do things the way I do them. I'm also quite dedicated and ambitious on what I want in my life and will stand by those decisions.

𝗜𝗡𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗘𝗦𝗧𝗦: New media art. I love to creative code. I love working with interaction design, web design, user experience and user interfaces. I also love special effects, and 3D/2d modeling. I’m currently trying to build my own mini video game. Apart from this, I love other mediums of art too especially drawing, digital illustrating, and printmaking.

𝗛𝗢𝗕𝗕𝗜𝗘𝗦: let’s just say I spend way too much time daydreaming. Fan fiction, video games, movies, books, tv shows. Anything that lets me daydream and disappear from reality for a while is a hobby of mine. I also love working out and weight lifting.

LIKES: I love lazy weekends at home, classic arcades, vanilla lattes, learning random new facts, spending time alone, intelligence, creativity, a good sense of witty humor, conversations where you can just be yourself and skip all the awkward small talk, the look on people’s faces when they ramble abt the stuff they’re into, wearing way too much jewelry, a good home cooked meal, summer and warm weather, a good giggling session with friends esp abt fictional crushes ahahha.

DISLIKES: hugging and physical touch (my love language is acts of service), large crowds, cold weather, admitting my anxieties, talking on the phone, going to the doctor/dentist, people who are “courageous” but are really idiots jumping into things without thinking, small talk, backstabbing people, when people have no ambition/purpose in life

Thank you! ❤️

ok so to explain what's happening here lmao, when i started this i had writer's block so i made some moodboards for what i imagine whichever ship being like, and a couple songs for each ship (most are vibes so dont worry too much about the lyrics) but as of the time the i'm posting this, i had a sudden burst of inspiration, so you get the writing aNd the moodboards & songs lmao !!

hope you love it , it took me a hot minute , but here it is !! so happy i got it done for you , it was so fun to do !!!

Golden Trio Era ;

i ship you with... Hermione Granger !

i can honestly see you and Hermione being the couple that everyone thinks are just really close best friends. like whether you're studying together, laughing about something, or just relaxing together, people look at you two and go 'woah theyre like really close, i think they like eachother' and then someone has to tell them that 'yeah, theyre dating'. you and Hermione wouldn't act like different or anything after you got together because i think that you guys would 100% be super close friends before you got together, so i also think that after you got together your guys' friends wouldnt see a difference in the way you act. you guys would be one of those couples that everyone can tell are best friends and it's so lovely, you'd probably also be one of those couples that your ' friends 'saw coming' , because you guys were just so close. 100% there's nights where you and Hermione have sleepovers and just talk for hours and just giggle and laugh, and enjoy yourselves and eachother <3

songs ;

Someone New — Hozier

By Your Hand — Los Campesinos!

Die Anywhere Else — Alec Holowka

my second choices for your Golden Trio Era ship would be Luna Lovegood or Harry Potter

Marauders Era ;

i ship you with... Remus Lupin !

ok so i imagine remus just not being able to draw for the life of him for the most part of his time at hogwarts. bUT i do believe he'd be able to draw like ,, really funky looking animals. like this :

like look at those funky little fucks , he will draw them all over whatever youre doing when he's bored.

( theres not much here bc my brain went blank

song ;

Drinking Song For The Socially Anxious — The Amazing Devil

my second choice for your Marauders Era ship would be Dorcas Meadowes

Little Women ;

i ship you with... Jo March !

a creative and ambitious couple for sure. you guys would definitely have days where you can just sit in the grass together doing whatever. you two could be deep in conversation about your favourite books, or a weird dream you had, or whatever else youre both inspired by at the time.

if participating in her plays is something youre into, she'd be so excited, don't think just bc you're together means she'll give you a hero's role though. like yes she loves you (another thing, i do think she'd be worried about saying she loves you*) and you being one of the heroes is fun, but also she is 100% ready to straight up make you the most vile villain ever <3 also a plot twist villain , someone who appears fun happy and whatnot, and then turns out to be the most eviL person ever ? yeah she'd give you that too, in her defence that'd be a funky character. i can totally seeing her getting you to play her favourite characters because yes it's a fun little play for kids but she will want her characters to be done right

*more on the whole thing about how she's scared to say she loves you, i think it'd be an insecurity of hers and she would be so worried about saying it , especially for the first time. she's worried that she's too all over the place for you or something, or that you just don't love her like she loves you :(( <3

songs ;

Peace Sign — The Front Bottoms

Soldier, Poet, Kin — Cullen Vance

my second choice for your Little Women ship would be Meg March

#ship request #ship requests #harry potter ship #marauders ship #little women ship #marauders x reader #harry potter x reader #little women x reader #remus lupin x reader #hermione granger x reader #jo march x reader #danzalladaggers #love is always lovely in the end — ships

[ironicscavenger]

A few life/blog updates

I’ve been in a sort of mini vacation the last three weeks. Went to my hometown to be with my family and go to my cousin’s wedding, which was a blast. I don’t recall having that much fun in a while, and after the couple years I had, it was just what I needed. Also, I continued working on my thesis and it’s going really well.

Emotionally, I am doing better. But it can still be rough sometimes. Now that I’m back to ‘normal’, I have no idea how that will go. So, expect the inconsistency to continue.

On the blog front, I have been struggling to find a specific type of build I need to progress the Emersons. I have concluded I will have to make it myself (even though I suck) because I’m not satisfied. So it might take a little longer. But it’s all written and the poses have been selected, so possibly soon. UPDATE: Ended up finding something that will work with a few tweaks. Yay!

I might start with SNTM again soon too. Possibly these next few weeks. But I’m also contemplating cancelling it. The truth is that it’s a lot of work for something that it’s so hard to keep up with. By that I mean there’s a lot of time between videos and there’s very little indication that you guys are liking it or finding it confusing. Perhaps I should do a poll. Anyway, I continue working on it slowly, but I don’t know about its future. It’s holding on just because I love the project, but at what cost.

Lastly, I have to do a bit of CC cleaning. That includes stuff that hasn’t been updated in a while, so my sims might look a bit different. I’ve also been working on some moodboards/other edits so that this blog looks alive (lmao).

I feel like a broken record, but thanks for sticking around even when I’m a mess. I know a lot of us feel this way. So it’s okay, we are allowed to do whatever we want with our blogs. I love you all!

#non sims #about me #about my blog #i'm at my limit tbh #life can do whatever. i decided not to care #i just wanna work on my little story and my little edits #just please no more tragedies. i can't take it

[baekhvuns]

Ikr 😭 but the social presence thing is so right, i remember I got swayed by my frnds around 8th and 9th grade to install these apps and i did but then corona happened and I got enlightened!

Yes, the moodboard did and honestly i had never read a good fic before, well technically I had never read even simple fic bfr so when I saw tht divorce mention...i was like sign me up for the trauma! No imagine my first fic was lnfila...i was already prepared for so much. Actually I'm glad tht was my first fic.

Omg yes, well as far as ik, YK how people take out a divine and perfect time to tie the rakhi right? So this year there was a lot of confusion bcz it was informed tht the auspicious time was from 9:30PM of 30 aug to 9:30AM 31 Aug. So typically the much religious people followed this schedule but the other ones just celebrated the festival normally. Even today many people celebrated it so yeah it was fun honestly! I mean I'm all for the food and money sooo-

Man imagining his reactions PLSS ✋😭 he would be so creeped out first of all!!

OMAHGAH NO U DIDN'T JUST PUT JANAM JANAM IN D&TG BESTIEEE

Idk if its just my obsession with the song but mai agr kahun from om Shanti Om 😩 liek the violins and all. Ofc!!! Just frnds would be incomplete if we didn't put fashion movie songs in it bcz i can imagine all the runway scenes and 'jalwa' playing as a backtrack 🤌🤌omg i had almost forgotten abt tht song WOOAHOOOOHHOHHHH man kk rlly gv the bollywood industry some amazing songs.

LMAO DIVORCE?!?! 😭 Yeah ok i side with rabta, i cn totally hear it at the start when hwa declares the divorce. ....khronus and veer Zara....they fit together 🤧🤧 (my tears play a big role in it) YESS BG AND TERI MERI THE SEPERATION PART 😭😭BRO U JUST READ MY MIND BCZ IK DAMN WELL TUM SE HI WOULD GO SOO WELL WITH BG LIKE THT RAIN SCENE ✨

Hawayein and rewrite the stars, how come i didn't think of that? Bcz come on the lyrics THEY LYRICS!! Ofc i remember patiala house how cn i forget it just like tht, 😭 it was my childhood!! And the way I fell for Akshay in tht idkw but I did, bcz he always plays tht macho role, so when he did tht soft boy role i just melted.

Now tht i think abt it apart frm the mainstream actors in Bollywood there are so many underrated visuals, and i personally stand with reitesh deshmukh!! Like he's just so ....idk but he just is!

I was re reading the trouble with hating you AND WHY IS THIS SO FUNNY TO ME RN?? 😭 like idk it just got funnier! And hwa is so random here Literally! Bcz who the fuck brings their ENTIRE dinner set for he library 😭😭 i laughed at this for straight 1 minute LIEK THE VISUAL!! I JST CAN'T- or when he said "so dolphins are like the dogs of the ocean??" WHAT DOES THT EVEN MEAN??? 😭😭😭 MY MAN HERE IS THINKING WAY TOO DEEP ABT THE OCEAN WHEN HE HAS AN EXAM TO STUDY FOR if I was there i would've died laughing!

im glad that u liked the fic and that being ur first fic fbsnbdkw 😭😭😭 my inbox was bursting the day of that release fbanjfksjckc

YEAAAAAH that time of hour like my mom was all panicky trying to tell everyone not to tie them in the morning 😭😭 some kali thing was happening fbwkfjsk UR RIGHT THE MONEY AND THE FOOD IS ALL THAT MATTERED every brown man on that day was my brother 🤚🏻

LMFAOOOO JANAM JANAM BEING ALL THE LIFES THEY GET REINCARNATED AS HEHE PLS NOT THE ATZ SLANDER WNBDMS

no ur right i was gonna put dastaan as the khronus one bc it’s slightly haunting!! RIGHT I COULD NOT NOT PUT JALWA IN THEIR SCREAMING THATS THE BEST ONE kk’s oooohoOoOoO >>>>>> what a voice honestly

NO HEAR ME OUT IN RAABTA WHEN THEY SAY “it’s said that god has made someone for someone” THAT WAS MY INTENTION W IT BEING IN DIVORCE THKWHDKW

khronus and veer zaara r cousins ackshully TUM SE HI SUPREMACY >>>>> !!!! HONESTLY IT FITS THAT FIC LIKE A GLOVE AND THE VOICE 😭😭😭

no omf bc that movie’s beginning made me cry a lil fhwmdbsn I ALSO RLY LIKED THAT ONE he’s always played some comedian or macho guy but this one i was pitying his character the entire time 😭😭 O GET IT I GET IT W RITESH but his wife???

LMFAOOOO TROUBLE W HATING U HAD THE BEST DIALOGUE IN MY OPINON??? like that one part “u don’t talk much,” “do u want me to moan?” that fic is so funny to me gbmebdkd THE ENTIRE DINNER SET LMFAOOOO THIS IS BASED ON SOMETHING VERY IRL FHWJDHKS HE’S STUDYING FOR THE WRONG EXAM 😭😭😭

NO SRS VISUALIZE IT,, A WHOLE DINNER SET, IN A LIBRARY, ALL THE PLATES SET AND ALL AND HE HAS A CLOTH ON HIS COLLAR FOOD IS STEAMING HOT AND HES TALKING ABT DOLPHINS 😭😭

#✉️ : ask #[ rosesapphiremysticalrose ]

[1tarot1with1k1o]

kLOOOOO OMGGGG THE EXCHANGE>>>> YOU DID SO WELL??? I feel like what you received is far worse than what you deservee. forgive me if some part of the reading didn't resonate 💔 however STILL YOU GUYS ARE SO CUTE!!!! GOALSS INDEED!!!

I may or may not have a wedding Pinterest board and one of the picture that I pinned was in the moodboard ahh (the far right on the second row!) I LOVEEEE THE CEREMONY PICTURES!! so classy, timeless like I always wanted. also I noticed that all the brides have are updo hairstyles! and all white flower bouquet (I love color coordinated things, you just gave me ideas 👀) I could feel the joy through the pictures omggg. LOVE LOVE ITTT

"soulmates and ever lasting lasting love" "your love is healing" BYE THIS IS IT!! 💳💥💳💥💳💥 where are you?? like time is ticking⏱️☝🏻🤨 jk jk i'll be patiently waiting 😌 but like THE MOODBOARDS AHHHH. OBSESSED!! no but I am obsessed with the on the very left third row. miss gurl is representing me when I read the exhange, i was like 😍😍😍 the reading had me kicking my feet in the air.

oh and fr the future children??? SO CUTEE AHHHHHHH. I love how despite their different personality but they still have unbreakable bond ♡♡ not me feeling all the emotions now for my FUTURE children 🤨 no but like, one of my hobby is overthinking about something too far ahead for the future. and one of my concerned for my future kids is that one of them would feel left out😭 i have seen so many families unintentionally do so. PROUD OF MY FUTURE SELF AND FUTURE HUSBAND MAKING SURE THAT DOESNT HAPPEND IN OUR FAMILY!! speaking of which my friends joke how I act as if I'm their mother. good thing to know all the trial and training do pay off!! i have my friend to thank for for my great future parenting skills 😎

klo you are the best TRULY!! what an honour to do an exchange with you. I had SO MUCH FUN. you truly deserve all the love. please do give us update when you meet your future partner!! have a fantastic day/night and may you be blessed with all good things in life♡♡♡

Thank you so much omg 😭😭😭. Noo you did a lot for me too!! Don’t worry at all about that <333. Thank you very much haha I’m sure my fs would also be very pleased to hear that hahah.

I also have a wedding Pinterest board 🤝. It’s really nice that I managed to add one of the pics you had saved in your board! And I didn’t even notice those details until you pointed it out actually haha. I’m very happy to know that you dig the vibe of the wedding I envisioned for you <333. Also glad you got some ideas from the moodboards lol. Exactly! You could just feel the love coming from those pics ㅠㅅㅠ

Right? Same girl 😭 whenever I get fs readings I’m like you hahah so I totally get it. Lmao I love us melting over each other’s readings 🤝

You’re so real. Same here, so I understand why you might have been wondering about that. But yes you can totally relax, you’ll be doing an AMAZING job at raising them, and I love that so much for you two 🫶. You should be proud!! And shoutout to your friends for being your experimental family hahaha.

Thank you so much sweetheart. I had lots of fun doing the exchange with you as well <333. You’re too sweet omg 🥺. And I’ll definitely let you know 😂 same for you! Please update us on your husband and family 🤣🤣🤣. Right back at you love 🫶 I wish you to get many blessings 🥰

#klo #eileenblog #tarot community #free readings #spirituality #intuitive game #closed game #feedback #readings feedback

[kagejima]

Rae all your self ship reblogs are making me wanna rewatch new girl lmao 💀 (/pos). speaking of, your ships are so cute !! like whenever i see you talking about them it always puts a smile on my face :)

omg also i just realized i don’t talk to you all that much T_T i hope you’ve been well <33 !!

Ohmygod I was thinking literally the same exact thing like an hour ago 😭😭 I started watching it when it first came out for Jess bc I related to the character so much and then as it went on, Winston became my favorite 😂

And thank you!! I really had a lot of fun making the moodboards yesterday and I still gotta make Ushijima and Meian and mine heheh. I feel like the stuff that Nick and Jess say a lot of the times too is very ToshiRae and SukuRae 🤣

also i knowww 😭 im trying to reach out to moots more but im very forgetful, so if you ever want to come talk to me, even just to say hi, you are very welcome to! I will try to reach out more as well! 🥰

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