#after a bad day in lab.

[dreadfutures]

The Devil.

The vallaslin were chains, once, after all.

Halevune Mahariel | Hero of Ferelden

Details and process gif (x). Full version (x). Symbolism below.

The Devil. (x)

When the Devil card appears in a reading it usually shows that you are not in control of your life, sometimes as a result of your own actions, but more often as a byproduct of inaction. This loss of control often leads to loss of hope, and a lack of faith in your own abilities.

Your own mindset is a critical factor when the Devil card appears. If you think darkness has won, it has. If you are willing to let others exploit and restrain you, then they can and they will. But no one has power over you unless you give it away. If you are willing to release yourself from the chains of ignorance, you can do so, and you can step into the light. See how much you can accomplish when you believe you can.

UPRIGHT: shadow self, attachment, addiction, restriction, sexuality

REVERSED: releasing limiting beliefs, exploring dark thoughts, detachmen

Halevune Mahariel is not dead, but sometimes he thinks the world wants him to be.

From granting self-governance to the Denerim alienage to giving the Dalish their own land in Fereldan to becoming Teyrn of Gwaren himself, you'd think Halevune Mahariel's legacy would be unforgettable--the changes he's made, irrevocable.

And yet they are being forgotten, and undone, even a mere year after the Blight. His friend, now-King Alistair, made promises about protecting the fledgling alienage, about making reparations for Loghain selling them into slavery...and yet they seem to be empty promises.

As the world grinds its heel into elves across Ferelden, and then mages everywhere, Despair eats at Halevune just as the Taint in his blood eats at him. All Hal can see are his failures, the evils of the world. All he can feel is the weight of his losses: his clan, his youth, his legacy...and soon, his family. He can hear the Calling coming for him in his dreams, and all he wants to do is spend time with his young son and his bond mate, Morrigan.

Halevune can no longer see the light. He is being held back by the chains of his past, by the fear of death, and by a Despair of his own making.

For Hal must remember... The world will never change if he stops trying.

The Vallaslin - Falon'Din is the God of Death in Hal's culture, and Hal is now keenly aware of his mortality as a Warden who underwent the Joining after already being infected for a while. His time is limited on this plane, and he is haunted by the marks that he wears on his face for that reason. But one day he will also learn the truth of Falon'Din and the Evanuris, and Despair for another reason.

The Raven Feather - Represents Morrigan and Kieran, the only lights in his life. They are the torch, temptation, for him to abandon his duties and responsibilities. All he wants is to go to them, and spend his limited time with them.

But...

The Cobwebs - Hal is already dead, dying, decaying, forgotten. Ferelden would relegate him to a historical figure if they could. The common folk are tired of his empty promises and his failures to secure change for them or protect them, now that the Blight is over. And the nobles are tired of him trying.

The Hands - Hal's clan is dead, and many others are dead, since he became a Warden. He has no one to rely on, no one to go back to. Only ghosts. Hal feels like he is alone in the world besides Morrigan and Kieran, though he does have friends. He just can't see them through his anger and despair.

#dragon age tarot #oc tarot #mahariel #warden #dao #dragon age origins #halevune mahariel #my art #holy fuck i did this in like. 10 hours. #after a bad day in lab. #the hyperfixation was real #the LEVEL UP was real #fuck it's 2am #fuckkkk #but i'm so proud of this one sec let me set up the detail post lol #i'll upload the full size to deviantart #after sleeping

[thespineoftherighteous]

Neil just reeks of the same energy as those fanfiction authors who casually leave the most batshit insane personal updates in the writer's notes

#Neil bursting into the lounge ten minutes late for a team meeting: sorry im late #everyone: all good? #Neil: yeah yeah my science lab blew up and they kept us to do all these emergency tests in case anyone was affected..whatve i missed coach? #or #Neil: *gets back to the dorm hella late* #the others: ??? #Neil: oh i had to go to court. it took forever but they finally dropped the manslaughter charges #or like #after psu‚ one of the foxes texts him just to check in and he responds three days later like my bad i got a nasty hit last game and needed #to go to the hospital. i just got out tho what's up #aftg #neil josten #mine aftg #bangers

[cloudcountry]

me thinking i've caught the flu or a cold or something:

google: you could be feeling this way because you're stressed

me: a.

#auburn's rambles <3 #jihyun and zero are quickly becoming the fictional men i think about every day to help me get through this #i thought about jihyun TWICE in lab and it wasnt even that bad #after my bio exam is over it should get better ^^ #DROPPING THE SYMPTOMS LIST LETS GO (starts beatboxing) #we're got the body chills!!!! we've got the muscle aches!!! we've got the headache!!!! we've got the fatigue!!!! we've got the mmuscle #weakness!!! tumblr you BITCH let me complain in ONE TAG #anyways i hope you guys have had a better day friendly reminder that i love you all even if i'll be dead these next few days

[transmechanicus]

“I’ll be fine i just need to uhhhhhhh idk kill” but like…what if i did haha

#my stuff #dear diary and the several thousand mfs who can see it. Despite arguably good academic performance today feels like a bad day #bc i skipped lab to take a nap #and i feel lonely and incapable of connecting more than superficially with my classmates #like i can talk to them and i do and we get along well but i never…hang out w em #or at least not as much as they seem to without me #it’s not a malicious thing i think a huge part of it is groups of ppl living or working in the same space #and i’m in a different lab building than a lot of ppl #idk…struggling to find anything that sparks joy. unable to see the future with optimism #it’s just day after day of Job where i’ll beat myself up on weekends if i don’t do Even More Work #bc that’s the nature of grad school. always homework or literature review to do like i give a shit abt the latter #i don’t care what other people are doing i don’t wanna obsessively comb through journals to make sure i’m doing Brand New Shit #i want it to stop #i don’t want to read anymore. i don’t wanna have to worry about my job outside of work. #i want to cry and scream and #like i don’t wanna quit after i worked so hard to get here #i don’t wanna wuss out #but i’m always tired. i’m never rested or relaxed or truly enjoying myself #why is this only hard for me…how tf is everyone else able to read and remember and understand this much?? #like yeah maybe i should be on adhd meds but those are fuckin spensive and a pain in the ass to get #i’m tired of being tough #i want to curl into a ball and be told it’s going to be okay and that i can rest and have it not be a lie or a half measure

[amiharana]

It’s been a year daddy

guess who's home from getting the milk 💪🍼💥

#ask #noraiir-arts #daddy's back to feed their children #this is not entirely true i'm on the verge of collapse #however today was my last day of finals everybody cheer!!! #my laptop is being a bitch and won't let me type emojis #thank you to everyone was kind and supportive of my inactivity you are seen and heard and appreciated #i am still burned the fuck out so bad after this terrible semester #but hopefully i can write a cute little revalink thang again soon :> #stay tuned amihan nation i shall rise again i love you all dearly #ok gn i only got 1 hour of sleep last night studying for my ochem and bio lab finals LMAOOOOOO

[svtskneecaps]

the only thing stopping me from writing a fucking charlie slimecicle + elmariana + juanaflippa family centric time loop fic is the fact that i missed every single flippa stream live (finally plunged into qsmp a few days after tallulah appeared) and i don't have the time to watch back through the vods because HOLY SHIT CAN WE GET 30 FUCKING SECONDS WITHOUT SOMETHING HAPPENING ON THIS SERVER WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

#qsmp #the venn diagram of ​my awake time and bad's livestream time is a fucking circle #and i also WORK. I HAVE WORK. i can't watch vods for hours!!! #like i worked this afternoon. i got back home right as bobby's fate was sealed for the livestream. i had to watch an hour of vod to catch up #and WHILE I DID THAT #MORE LORE HAPPENED #LIKE THINGS HAPPENED WITH QUACKITY. TAZERCRAFT SCOOBY DOO'D ONTO A DRAGON SKELETON. #PEOPLE GRIEVED. JAIDEN ENDED STREAM ABRUPTLY. APPARENTLY SOMETHING HAPPENED WITH SOFIA. #I STILL HAVEN'T CAUGHT MAX'S POV FROM TUESDAY BC I WORKED THEN TOO GODDAMNIT #LIKE. APPARENTLY BAD KNOWS ABOUT SOFIA? DUNNO WHEN OR HOW. I MISSED THAT ONE. I WAS EITHER AT WORK OR CATCHING UP ON VODS #i. am. screaming. #like i understand why people watch live #it was soooo much easier to keep up when i just kept three distinct povs open and could hop between them like tv channels #oh forever just went down and richas is with him? no worries i have his stream open rn lemme just unmute #hmm cellbit is getting pretty animated let's see what he discovered i'll just unmute rl quick #quackity's saying some sus shit in chat lemme pop his stream open #instead of 'ok i want to see what foolish was doing at chume labs after bad stole his banana so lemme find the time stamp in foolish's- #HUGE FUCKING GIANT LONG VOD and watch thru that but oh. perhaps i want to see what mike was saying after foolish yeeted him.' actually uh #i don't think mike's pov was up that day (unless it was just on yt idk i'm not familiar w how tazercraft's stuff works yet) #BUT YKNOW. I'D HAVE TO VOD SCAN. ITS ANNOYING. so yea its way easier to follow #long tags #block game brainrot #shut up vic

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

I think I should get medicated for my adhd/depression not cause it’s like detrimental to my mental health or anything. I just wanna be able to model all of Luna Nova into Minecraft

#I can do it #if I can focus #and if I don’t rot my days away in bed #i am currently avoiding homework to write this post #soup talks #also yall look at project Luna nova recently???? it looks so good!!! #they are my goal #my proudest achievement is not my cit pack. it’s sending them so many screenshots #it’s not up for download yet. but you best believe no one will hear from me for Days after it release #I wonder if I could beta test for them. I have a headset. I’m in their discord as some sort of helper role #ooh I’m a collaborator!! #yeah. I should see one day when I’m not going thru it #omg. yall. i was in the er yesterday (totally fine now) #I’m 99% sure my appendix was trying to explode #but I had to go in to make sure it wasn’t. cause that’s really bad and all. they gave me pain meds ran some tests #I’m not anemic found out. all my labs came back normal #I’m genuinely convinced it’s from stress. I think my appendix tried to abandon ship due to stress #they sent me home. said I was fine. come back if the pain came back. it hasn’t. I guess I’m fine! #hell of a day tho #anyways. I guess I should go focus

[pallases]

ourgejjg

#i am feeling so ill rn for no reason and i need to shower and wash my hair so bad but i can tell if i do it rn it’ll make the #lightheadedness ten times worse and there is a nonzero chance i will just pass out in there 😭 #best guess is bc my period started today and yeah the first two days suck but they’re not usually This bad #personal #also this is the last thing i need rn it’s tech week and all rehearsals lately have been going/are going to go till 10 pm and i have no tim #to do all my assignments and my probability prof assigned a lab today that’s due TMRW AT MIDNIGHT? <- we usually get a class period btwn #it being assigned and the deadline and he’s not even giving us until the next class period to do it now like why is it due at midnight #instead of noon the next day… also i have not one but two exams immediately following this weekend and i really want to see my family for #easter but that sounds like such a bad idea im so unproductive at home and i’ll be busier than usual when i go home on top of that bc easte #and one of the exams is circuits for which exams are worth 90% of our grade and im averaging a 74% at the moment which is NOT #promising and. AAAAA #also have an exam this thursday which imnot nearly as worried abt but still. and i have to meet w someone abt a scholarship tmrw during my #free period so i Still can’t work on that stupid lab due tmrw night like. this sucks okay ‼️ #the engineering chronicles #the music chronicles #i know it was only a matter of time before musical started stressing me out but 😭 please give me back the joys of saturday’s rehearsal… #oh also there’s ANOTHER probability lab due day after easter and same day as circuits exam and the prof is the same so he knows full well #what he’s doing like. why are you not giving us the usual period in btwn for these anymore fuck you <3 #OH ALSO soldering qualification i need to do for like 3 hours wednesday the night before my thursday exam. nearly forgot abt that one i hat #it hereeee #soldering i could reschedule tho which i might do. but ive already pushed it back once so im like :/ do i really wanna do that #idk. still feel sick as fuck and still need to do physics prelab tonight 😭 it shouldn’t take long but i really don’t want to get up and #stare at my computer even more ifeel so awful rn #ANYWAY. sorry that was oversharing even for me i am just 😐 you know.

[cybergoth-damsel]

Spent all of last night near-suffocating in what may have been the worst sleep apnea event of my life and so I am out for blood.

#lab grown media #It can get so bad where I just literally FEEL the lack of oxygen in my brain #My head hurts so bad the entire day after #Misery

[doyeons]

midterm in 20 min. i’ve been here on campus since 7:30am. insert all my usual complaints abt thursday etc.

#bella.txt #well it’s ok it’s fine bc there’s only 2 more days like this in the term 🫶 #also this time wasn’t nearly as bad as last time i had a midterm after my thursday schedule #like chem lab didn’t suck today so tht’s a plus

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#truly i have too modes. so fucking busy i cant breathe. cant think without a muddled lag. feeling motion sick as i walk #a path ive walked a thousand times over. or not busy enough. without thr pressure i revert to a liquid state and spill across the floor #i cant seem to do anything. at least when im busy i cant feel how miserable i am. at least for a little while bc i have to focus #idk how to find a balance. it always seems to be all or nothing. outside my control but directed by my control #ugh. after the month ive had the misery's caught up with me. also i havent been sleeping enough #i felt horrible all day in the lab ans i was like. i mean maybe its low bloodsugar? but then when i went home i felt 1000 times better #which is. ya kno understandable but not great #idk i can just feel the anger leaking out from under my skin. ive made the system unlivable. now im suffocating on the echo of pain #and i feel bad bc it must b all over my face. bitterness simmering in my words #i met with my boss today for a delayed meeting of a delayed meeting and showed her some preliminary data. she was excited and asked what i #felt abt it. and i dont feel anything abt it. nothing. i dont care i dont care i dont care i dont fucking care #set my datasheets on fire. burn them to ash. i wouldnt feel anything #and im sure some of that sentiment came thru bc she later texted me to reiterate how cool the data is bc no ones done a study this #extensive ans i dont kno how to reply bc again i dont care. theres no breathing enthusiasm back. that dim light has been extinguished. i #look forward to never having to think abt it again. #whatever the more pressing issue is that i cant get my brain to function enough to save me from the other problems i have boiling over #just me sabotaging potential future happiness from where i sit unhappily in the present #annoying. ugh i need to sleep. #unrelated

[burquillos]

I just think you'd be a fun person to draw with. Like your art is so fluffy. It makes me wanna invite you to one of those online canvasses and draw with you

Oh boy I'd love to do that if I had the time! Drawing w other people seems like a lot of fun and reminds me of when I invited classmates to draw stuff together on my sketchbooks

Hopefully I'd actually get some time one day because as of now I am swamped w thesis work🥲🥲🥲

#asks #.txt #i just finshed some lab work #after doing lab work the whole day #i will do more lab work and thesis writing tom #i want to lay down so bad

[maddy-ferguson]

some of the posts about the duffers being bad writers are starting to sound like people just...not vibing with the plot and not about criticizing the writing😭 like just because something fucked up is happening doesn't mean it's fucked up that they wrote it

#i don't like it👎 ≠ it's bad❌ #like obviously personal taste would inform what you think of as good writing but you can't say people are lying about this being good #writing because i think it's bad #the something fucked up is about el dating mike after 12 years of lab and 1 year of hopper like believe me i don't like that for her but... #and it's not even like it's portrayed as her fairytale ending either if they were to end up together then i'd be like wow fucked up that #they thought this was...a good thing to have happen to her #even though it's not like you have to think something's good to have it happen to a character (that's like essentially what horror is) #but i do think the ending isn't supposed to be like sad and fucked up in this particular show so #it's like when people say they're racist for having billy be racist i can totally understand that it'd be hard to watch and that some of #the scenes in the show can be triggering (the piggyback) but it's not portraying racism that makes the writing racist it's like. what they #do with it or what they DON'T do with it. bc they don't do anything with it #idk. maybe i'm being a hypocrite because i've probably said that sidelining will in s3 is a strange strange writing choice and that's #personal taste technically but. #i've actually said that i hate it but that you can probably find great meta reasons for it which will sound like me worshiping them to some #but like. you can. even though i don't love the end result #and as i was saying the other day: #and i'm not someone who isn't aware of how good and not good stranger things is at all #like i really know i promise #and like i say: brf slt

[deus-ex-mona]

tmw you give someone concise instructions but they ✨just do not get it✨

#incoherent rambling in the tags ahoy!!!!! idek where i was going with any of this so… yeah. #so anyways! a bunch of interns will be joining the lab life as of tomorrow and i already do not have high hopes for them #the reason? the school they’re from is kinda infamous in the science industry for churning out incompetent interns. #i know this to be true bc i was one of them many moons ago lmaooooo. that school was kinda… y e a h. y’know? #man… i was a truly horrible intern. i just slept at my desk all day… aside from going to the warehouse to collect chemicals and stuff #though that reminds me of that one kinda incompetent staff member who got me in trouble with one of the managers… freakin’ marvin!!!!!!!!!!! #i’ll never forget how he put the delivery order for some chemicals into the fridge with them for some reason after i left for the day?????? #like dude whyyyy i put the things on the proper collection tray!!!!!!! whyyyyy did he have to put ‘em in the fridge??????????? #and the manager lady called me out in the middle of the next day’s morning meeting for my apparent incompetence in losing the d. o.????? #i was so confused and 100000% not awake enough for it bc i *knew* i put the things in the correct spot >:((((( #another staff member kinda defended me but the damage was done… screw you marvin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! never forgive #and man. *all* the interns were banned from recording the reception of the chemicals and stuff after that. so gj marvin. #i wonder what that dude’s doing with his life now though… despite all that he was still trusted enough to be a backup shift lead so i????? #but at least he kinda gives me an ego boost. whenever i feel down i remember that a guy like him was put in charge sometimes. #freakin’ marvin… i think he was also the dude who occasionally misplaced labsheets and stuff that local intern me had to hunt down… not fun. #i don’t really remember people and names that easily unless they’re of people i hate so… hm. idk what that says about my opinion of marvin— #i just hope the new interns at my workplace won’t be as bad as the recent incompetent intern… or freakin’ marvin. #that guy will probs be the only one i’ll name and shame bc i last saw him over 3 years ago so the statute of limitations is def over right— #though ​come to think of it… my intern experience was pretty dumb and pointless. i did make an enemy out of the local microbiologist though— #but ig i’ll try my best to not be too mean to the new interns… i hope they don’t approach me thoughhh. negative social skills ahoy!!!! #i don’t wanna teach them anything either (finally returning to the subject of the post). i still have flashbacks to the incompetent intern— #and i know for sure that they won’t come pre-loaded with any knowledge of the tests here bc i was from their school… #but c’mon new interns!!!!! pls prove me wrong!!!! pls be better interns than i was in the past!!!! pleaseeeeeeee!!!!!!!! #i’m so done with the week already. pls let it end. #sunday’s 🧂saltfest🧂

[bionicbore]

Adam already ordered the mugs so

#Lab Rats #Douglas Davenport #Donald Davenport #Listen this doodle is absolutely terrible quality but you're getting it anyway 'cause it's still Father's Day over here #Or it WAS. It switched as I wrote these tags lmao #But I'm still gonna put it in the tag. Consider it a test after my last 2 tag blunders #Legit it's so bad. I had to completely redraw Donald 'cause the first attempt was terrible #He's not even the same size on paper. I had to scale him up to match #That's why he's blurry #I also now realize I didn't give Douglas his bracelets. Whoops #Maybe I'll clean it up some day. But not today #They have identical mugs the colors are just inverted

[starsbits]

why is it so fucking hard to make friends in college guys

#all my relationships on campus r like. aquaintanceships #i know its the autism i know it is but i just want a friend on campus so badly #maybe i just need to join a different club because i didnt really fw that one anyways #i got the instagram of the guy i want to be friends with from my lab today after he drove me home (we r both commuters) but idk if i will- #actually be able to talk to him augh. im so bad at starting convos with allistic people #idk im just rambling at this point. talking abt my day if u read this far n u wanna tell me abt ur day feel free to :] #also any mutuals who dont have my discord if u want it just lmk! i love chatting!! #idk if i should tag this as negative im just like legitimately why is it so fucking hard #lichenisms