Today -
It took me five full minutes to get dressed because of physical pain.
I forgot my meds bc I’m a dumbass.
I canvassed my faggy lil heart out with no success.
I got mildly sexually harassed.
I played pretend with a 6 year old while my coworker talked with his mom. (First I was Spiderman, then I was the Hulk.)
I got a lesbian cougar’s number. She’s DTF.
I cried on the phone with my boss. Again.
I told my other coworker how it’s likely that I’ll die in the next few years.
I almost got a migraine from flashing ambulance lights after my coworker had to call 911 for someone.
Someone, anyone, please tell me,
When will it be a normal day?
I’m begging you
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okay not enough people are talking about this. To everyone that has survived this long, either taking pills, fully healed from, or currently suffering through hyperthyroidism undiagnosed is a fucking hero.
Hyperthyroidism (and it's sister hypothyroidism, which I know less about) is fucking awful.
Your metabolism is completely thrown off. Your heart constantly races. For me, it was at a resting rate of 160 BPM at one point. When running, it was 220. That's enough to give you a heart attack.
Your balance is constantly off, you fall over and wobble nonstop. You physically cannot walk a straight line. In extreme cases, looking up can make you fall over. Yes, looking up could knock you over.
Your eyes stick out of your head uncomfortably so. The muscle behind them swells up, making them stick out. In extreme cases, people have needed to get eye patches, or, for those unlucky, the eyes do come out completely.
Your own fucking throat is attacking you. Like I said, I know less about hypothyroidism, but hyperthyroidism is what happens when your thyroid, located in the front of your neck, goes ballistic. It's incurable naturally and can only be treated with pills.
It's not "clumsiness." It's not being "sensitive." It's a fucking disease that goes after 40% of AFAB people. THAT'S A HUGE CHUNK OF PEOPLE.
My dad got it, too, so it's not just them, either.
Some people have to take pills forever. The lucky ones heal. For some, only radiation can finally kill it before it kills them.
If you're suffering from hyperthyroidism (or it's sister), I am so fucking sorry. My heart goes out to you.
Reblog to let hyperthyroid victims know you see them. You care. You want them to get better. I love each and every one of you.
I hope we will one day heal, in one way or another.
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i’ve been on t for the past 2 weeks and my dudes. my libido is crushing my soul. i would wish for my eyes to be eaten off by crows but my thoughts know no barrier. i see a man and i become a dog. WOOFWOOFWOOFBARKBARKBA
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I haven't stopped thinking about Danny since he posted that BeReal.
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Do you ever feel somebody thinking of you?
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my left shoulder and neck have been in pain for the last three days and idk why!
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i wna put the razor blade to use again. and i want to have painkillers so i feel less like absolute wet garbage. im so tired. its all too much. i just. want. to feel good. and not think about anything at all really. but isnt that what brought me here in the first place. but its because i failed. i didnt even have the means to be properly braindead happy. what i wouldnt do for a hundred thousand doses of my happiest substance and a very long, dreamless sleep. im so tired. everything hurts. i know i need to snap out of it and keep on keeping on. but how. why even.
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ok I am actually going insane with this accidentally clicking on ads on the tumblr mobile app
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How should I live life like this??
Exist for one more day, day after day after day????
How am I suppossed to do that?
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