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shadow0-1 · 3 months

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First meet

#call of duty #modern warfare #call of duty modern warfare #MWII #CoD MWII #CoD MWIII #MWIII #blender renders #Simon Riley #Simon Ghost Riley #Johnny Mactavish #GhostSoap #SoapGhost #Ghoap #that's otter next to soap #I think it would be really funny if he knows about ghost being intense and autistic #and just doesn't tell soap the first time they're actually on base together #just to see what happens #Ghost just got back from a mission

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halfusek · 1 month

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meet weles! he's my sniffer oc :] he is perun's boyfriend <3

he's this kind of lizard except his leggies are like petrified wood. oh also there's plants and stuff growing on him. normal lizard things

#after perun i also gave him a name of a slavic god adnfkjdfd #i was considering leszy but too many characters called leshy these days #which is nice! i just wanted to go for something different #i love being autistic about designing creatures actually #minecraft #minecraft sniffer #sniffer #minecraft oc #original character #weles #perun #warui smp #halfart #ohhhhhh to be a fire and plant based minecraft mobs but both our limbs got turned to stone from our respectful elements #oh well we can hold hamds now :)

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yardsards · 11 months

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i'm not gonna tell people to ignore their intuition cuz 1: that's hella unsafe cuz intuition can be useful 2: it doesn't really help either party if you try to force yourself to befriend someone you Just Don't Like. but like.

i think a lot of times when neurotypicals mention like "i don't know what it is about that person, they just weird me out" the thing that they're subconsciously picking up on is just... autism.

like, just existing with autism feels like i am constantly exuding the social equivalent of the uncanny valley effect. growing up autistic felt like i was walking around with a face that looked like a haunted doll. and i learned all the tricks to make my face less scary to others, to cover it up, to over-compensate and make myself seem friendly and inviting in spite of the face. and it helped and people don't quite mock or revile me like they used to. but i still worry that there's still something about me that makes people seem to avoid me, often without them even consciously noticing they're doing it. and it's no one's fault but it just kinda sucks.

at least there are my fellow haunted dolls out there who understand. who don't see my porcelain face as something vaguely Wrong, who just see a face like theirs.

#eliot posts #autism #actually autistic #this isn't the perfect metaphor but close enough #i don't get straightup called creepy #i think that's a privelage to being white and thin. and overall small and babyfaced and read as female #but i've definitely seen it happen to other autistics #but i've gotten kinda ignored or shunned/mocked growing up #and people are a lot nicer and more open minded as an adult #but it still feels like there's something Off about me i think #conpound that with my insecurity and never having the chance to practice socializing as a kid plus the FEAR of making ppl uncomfy #i just don't reach out to new people very much and i don't know how to

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mooncalf87 · 2 months

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When the pookie sent you a tiktok proposal video and said "us" and she had you saved in her phone as

And here discord bio keeps going on about how she has a crush

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engagemythrusters · 10 months

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“Neurospicy” lends itself to those who are able to be viewed as “quirky” by society. By using it as a replacement for “neurodivergent,” you are alienating a large population of the people who fall under that category.

#we have a HUGE problem currently by making ‘neurodivergent’ synonymous with just ADHD or possibly sometimes also a low-supportive needs—#—autistic person #we LARGELY IGNORE those who cannot speak up for themselves—or even those who do.#how many people will have no recognition of this new movement because their problems don’t look like ours?#how many people will have to remind you all that dyslexia and dyspraxia are neurodivergencies?#‘neurospicy’ does NOT help those with higher support needs #and what about children? as in young kids? what of them being called ‘neurospicy?’#they are already not taken seriously and belittled by adults who seemingly ‘know better’#and we want to trade off a helpful label for something tiktok has us say to get around censors?#sorry but you cannot call my little brother ‘neurospicy’#and you cannot call ME ‘neurospicy’#I do not struggle every day for my issues to be cutesyfied #this is incredibly belittling. use it for yourself. do not use it for anyone else. do not call us a ‘neurospicy community’.#unless you intent to only include people with ADHD.#or low support needs.#like you usually do.#actually autistic #actually audhd

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bpdohwhatajoy · 6 months

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I’m so fucking tired of allistic people treating us like we’re weird and crazy and creepy and delusional or whatever other substitute for too much they mean simply because we like something a lot. Grow the fuck up and stop being mean. Just because you’re a boring nonchalant fuck who couldn’t imagine having this much passion towards anything doesn’t mean we’re weird for it. I’m so sick of allistic judgement. I’ve internalized so much of it that I can’t exist without constantly evaluating if I’m being too much and weird and cringe over my special interests and I’m fucking tired of it. Let autistic people be. Let us have fun. Let us love things deeply and intensely without scrutiny.

#ryan.txt #autism #actually autistic #autism rant #I’m fucking pissed dude #I got called delusional tonight for liking a celebrity a lot……when he’s literally part of my special interest #I hate people #I wish people would never even look in my direction fuck sake why is it always something with someone #can I just exist without being judged #for like 5 minutes even #can I just do that #no clearly not

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dirtytransmasc · 7 months

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the autistic rage that is living with other people, actively waiting to go into a room till everyone's out of the room and doing their own things so you can use the room undisturbed, and the second you walk in there you have seemingly reminded people the room exists as they all need to be in there that very second, literally. everyone could be in there rooms, my grandma could be half asleep watching her soaps, but the second I put my headphones all the way on and start going about washing dishes (I find it relaxing) or fixing a snack, they're all in here

#especially the kitchen #if im in the kitchen I want to be left alone #y'all were just fucking in her go away #and (this is a call out. sorry grandma) its even more frustrating when they go in there. knowing you don't love sharing spaces sometimes-#to offer to make you food or to give you a rundown of whats where despite you doing a majority of the shopping #like yes. I know. i know there's ice pops and chicken and hamburgers but no buns cause I forgot to grab them...#I just want to enjoy being in the kitchen by my lonesome for 5 minutes without one of you people ruining it for me #I can't afford to live alone in this economy but I need to. I need to now.#I have too many issues to keep sharing a space #autism #sensory issues #actually autistic #put me out of my misery

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slugass · 12 days

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how to call out anti-autistic ableism:

USE A FUCKING BRAINLET, THE VISUAL VERSION OF CALLING SOMEONE THE FUCKING R-SLUR, SPECIFICALLY DESIGNED TO MOCK DISABILITY, BOTH PHYSICAL AND MENTAL, TO REPRESENT THE BIGOT, BECAUSE IT COULD NEVER BE NON-(MENTALLY) DISABLED PEOPLE DOING THE BIGOTRY MOST OF THE TIME, RIGHT???

I’M SURE THAT WON’T MAKE YOU LOOK HYPOCRITICAL AND ABLEIST AT ALL.

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frobby · 26 days

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I hate that disabled people need to be diagnosed to ask for accomodation. Accomodation should be available to everyone not just groups that *Need* it because if something makes someones life easier it should be available to them whether or not some doctor says its okay.

#Thinking about this cuz i asked my college professor if she knew a screen reader that worked with pdfs she was assigning #And she told me to call the disability office #But to get help from the disability office i need to be actually diagnosed and i dont want to/cant #So i just gotta struggle #Any autistics know of a free pdf reader that actually works let me know #This isnt even talking about people who are disabled and dont know about it #Idk if this a hot take or not #Happy autism acceptance month #Autism acceptance makes me think someone is giving me an award for autism #Which i accept graciously #I like being autisic but its so hard cuz my support needs arent very high so it feels like im gaslighting myself #I need to stop doing that #actually autistic #autism #disability #Just to add im not against getting diagnosed at all #Its just the theres some very simple accomodations that are unavaliable to people when not diagnosed and i think thats stupid

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punkeropercyjackson · 2 months

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And are the atrocities Hunter needed to redeem herself from doing while working for Belos in the room with us right?

#ACCIDENTALLY TYPED HERSELF INSTEAD OF HIMSELF BUT I VERY MUCH VIBE WITH TRANSFEM HUNTER SO IT STAYS DJSJDJFHF #but yeah point is guys WHAT 'evil deeds'????hunter was 16 not an actual field agent all they got to do was get trained for the future #same with 'idolizing willow' willow never put up a facade in s2/s3 she's ACTUALLY a super cool strong/tough softgirl none of that's pretend #can y'all please be serious you sound like pick mes💀women like that actually exist it's called being autistic woc it's literally our norm #how do u guys treat your younger siblings btw just as a follow up question #hunter noceda-deamonne #hunter defense squad #huntlow #t4t huntlow #pro huntlow #trans hunter #autistic hunter #hunter is disabled #adhd hunter #hunter has anxiety #grimwalker dad and plant mom #pro noceda siblings #pro noceda-deamonnes #< qpp darimila #pro dadrius #pro hexside squad #toh #toh spoilers #💌#summerposting

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beetrootsoupdragon · 6 months

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hmmm.

#vent in tags #turns out my only friend is actually really ableist and queerphobic #like i guess i should have realised that when she called me a slur #but i just excused it #like i excused her being really mean to me #like theres a line between playful joking and trying to insult the other person #and she made a joke abt me being autistic (bad joke to make) so i told her i actually was autistic and she was weird around me the rest of #the day but then near the end she started beingreally rude to me #including saying something like “i have too small of a mental capasity to be a good friend” or something #and like #shes never said anything like this until i told her i was autistic #plus she has always been weird abt me not using excact labels and just referring to my gender and sexuality in general terms #and she was really really weird abt me being trans #and she was so weird when she found out abt my sh #and i actually hate being around her #she makes me feel so bad abt myself wtff #i put up with it bcs i have no other friends #we're not a good friendship bcs she wants so much more from me than i can give and she refuses to give anything back #idk what to do abt it bcs there is. no way ill be able to just stop talking to her #shes really good at forcing me to spend time with her #idk shes actually really manipulative

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waywardsalt · 1 year

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i have planned to write a pseudo-essay or some kind of detailed look at linebeck in phantom hourglass and how he can be interpreted as autistic but thats not going very well right now so here are some autistic linebeck headcanons

He has low empathy and as such has a hard time responding very well to emotional situations, but he can take advantage of his lower empathy in situations where empathy could make things harder, like tending to wounds or rationally handling emotionally-charged situations

His coat is a comfort object and he made it specifically to act as a very slight accommodation; it’s heavy and barely lets any light through it, and he can keep all kinds of little things in pockets sewn into the inner lining, but larger objects do make it more uncomfortable to wear at times. It’s mostly good to carry around things to fidget or stim with and can be helpful in trying to recover from overwhelming sensory experiences

He doesn’t usually stim in public, but taps his fingers on tables quickly and tends to rhythmically snap his fingers when excited, and on his ship is more vocal and more willing to stim, even if around others. One of his main stims that he’ll do for no particular reason is that he’ll hold his arm or back of his wrist/hand up to his nose and mouth for the smell.

He masks frequently to please people. His default mask is that arrogant and brave front he puts up for islanders and other he may come across. Usually, if that mask doesn’t work, he tends to double-down because it usually works and, in his experience, dropping the mask has usually gone badly (non masking he’s rude and blunt but more outwardly excited about adventure and his ship and all of that, i consider it where overseas in the game is when he usually isn’t masking. this shifts his arc to be about him learning to stop masking and feel comfortable being himself)

His special interests could include stuff related to treasure hunting but it could really range from stuff about adventuring or the ocean or engineering (relating to his ship) to stuff not at all touched in the game like music. He really enjoys music, listening to it, playing it, and writing it. He also enjoys and is fascinated by shellfish.

When busy or otherwise occupied, he doesn't usually notice when he's hungry. He doesn't have as much of a problem noticing thirst or exhaustion, but feeling hunger is a problem for him, and often leads to him going a long time without eating. On the other hand, he doesn't mind eating the same thing repeatedly and is perfectly fine with blander foods, so handling food supplies for when he'll be overseas for a long time is easy for him.

He knows he's autistic, he's known for a pretty long time, and he has books on it; he also knows that Link is autistic, but doesn't say anything about it and instead waits until someone else tells him. Until (and after, I suppose) Link actually learns that he's autistic Linebeck just makes sure to keep note of what accommodations he might need and if there are any textures or tastes or smells he can't stand. He doesn't have much of a problem helping out during sensory overloads, even soon after meeting him. It's more out of understanding how it feels to not have your needs met and a sort of solidarity rather than actual friendship.

#loz #legend of zelda #phantom hourglass #linebeck #OBVIOUSLY he experiences some nasty rsd and he's a bitch about it that's like. basically canon so i didnt mention it #a lot of linebeck’s autism is based and referenced off of my own with some extra additions #which is why i have an easier time writing him as autistic than link #kindness is a choice and having low or no empathy does not in any way make someone heartless but linebeck does abuse his own low empathy #to be a mean bitch with minimal emotional consequences #i think linebeck would call link a dipshit to his face and then not feel bad about it for like a few weeks until he starts caring abt him #linebeck stimming by smelling his arm is actually my main stim. its probably why i sit all fucked up bc i sometimes do it w/ my legs lol #the masking bit does kinda fuck some stuff up but i personally enjoy that take on him #one of his comfort objects is an old orange cat plushie named copernicus and if you know what that is specifically from thank you im sorry #linebeck being way into music has no canon backup i just like the idea of him playing piano and composing some form of his own theme #piano is a mad sensory experience btw i dont yet know how to really play it but when i did keyboard in pit it was a fantastic feeling #bangin' out the tunes. it was a really good sort of stim if i was feeling a bit overwhelmed by all of the new tech and music too #salty talks #not entirely an autism headcanon but he thinks gender is a sham and less identifies as a man and more specifically considers #his gender identity to be 'real man of the sea' which is initially kinda silly but kind of a fucking gender move tbh #i dont think he's explicitly trans or nb he's just having fun fucking with his own gender and doing whatever he feels like doing #he isnt a man but he is a man. kind of like how im a dude but also not. yeah.#these were initally going to be call 'quick' headcanons but you can see why i uh. didn't end up going with that

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lolly-dolli · 7 months

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On the one hand I genuinely wish more ND representation were human and think the conversation about how a majority of neurodivergent-coded characters are non-human is one worth having... on the other no fictional character will ever be more Autism Creature than this motherfucker

#i love you ax thank you for making my weird ass feel cool and seen as a kid #animorphs #animorphs memes #actually autistic #YOU FUCKING LOOK THIS BOY IN THE EYES (4) AND THEN IN MINE (2) AND TELL ME HE WOULDN'T FUCKING LOVE CHEWY STIMS #stay tuned for my mid-2000s fanfic called “The Diagnosis” in which Marco shows Ax a youtube poop #it's okay. now if anyone stares Rachel will yell “HE'S STIMMING ASSHOLE” and they'll apologize #Ax is probably fascinated that he's being assessed for a rare human developmental condition #his brother would be so proud...not just a war hero but the first Andalite ever to be diagnosed with autism as well #no but in all seriousness you can pry this one from my cold dead hands

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brittlebutch · 9 months

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truly i’m so beyond insane about the Bill and Ted Musical song “Don't Surrender” that Bill sings when he thinks Ted got killed by the castle guard. i'm being so normal and okay about it tho i promise

#N posts stuff #look! i'm kind of insane about the whole album. Soldier's Heart and Future Dudes! especially also #but you have to know about me that i'm Eternally Haunted by that old version of the movie script where Bill -#before he realizes Ted isn't actually dead - calls HIMSELF a fag for mourning so hard #and so like. in the copies of the musical script we have the 'don't surrender' scene seems to have been omitted for whatever reason #but we know what scene it's for bc Linda Kay did an interview with the guy who wrote the thing and he told her it was that scene #so in my head like. not only is the song Alone enough to drive one to autistic shrimp emotions Beyond comprehension #but my brain superimposes that old movie script onto this song bc we Have no written scene for what it would look like musically #so in my head bill finishes That Song and then looks down at ted and calls himself a faggot for having sung it and i'm ...... just #it’s like. oughhhhhhhhhhhhhh dude i am LOOKINg at you i’m being so normal fuck #(<- he is not being even a LITTLE bit normal about it)#bnt

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neonvqmpire · 2 years

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i think we as autistic/neurodivergent people should stop blaming ourselves for not knowing how to order at a restaurant, getting overwhelmed in shopping centres and making a gp appointment and instead get angry at these institutions for not being accessible enough.

#i went to subways today and the text on the panel with the menu on was sooo fucking tiny and you have no clue what to say to order #it's ridiculous #plus it's loud and bright too in there #and then dont get me started on not being able to make online/email gp appointments #i think phone calls shouldn't be the only way to contact your gp??#also in clothes shops when it's loud and bright and everything is out of order and they play stupid music and it smells weird <<<<<#like WHO LIKES THIS #honestly i hate going out to buy clothes because i dont like them most of the time and it's just so overwhelming too #but then i order online and nothing fits me so i have to send it back 😐#actually autistic #actually neurodivergent

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apple-os · 26 days

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ppl who like making friends solely with one-note cardboard boxes who will hang out with them when it's convenient and never open up about who they are as people and what their lives are like dni

#the salt just caught up with me and now im pissed #hi welcome to what i like to call a friendly reminder that hanging out with someone just because its convenient is kind of shitty #and a less friendly reminder that talking about yourself to connect with people is an autistic trait #and an even less friendly reminder that not telling someone if theyve done you wrong and then proceeding to blow up on them is ALSO SHITTY #ESPECIALLY. WHEN. THEY THINK. YOU'RE ON GOOD TERMS. BECAUSE YOU ACTED LIKE IT AND THEY CAN'T READ YOU.#IM REALLY FUCKING MAD #I THINK I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE.#the people who actually somewhat knew me and hung out with me and were on good terms with me think the same #so like BLEH MYEH :PPPPPPPPP #like okay youre entitled to your opinions but sometimes you need to keep those to yourself #did u see me insulting u to ur face #nope i have not done even once #and thats on getting better communication skills instead of lashing out at someone for trying to fit in with your own vibes #like yeah oversharing is my deal. anybody who sees me here knows that #i bond by being open with people about who i am and what i like in the hopes that theyll do the same #if u think im just around for gaming and making silly jokes u would be wrong.#but of course nobody told me people weren't there to bond like that which in my opinion shouldnt be on me #and once again i am outcasted over something honestly kind of fucking stupid #some of the jokes i made were stupid yes but thats solely because i severely misjudged the vibes #and checks notes oh yeah nobody pulled me up for it even once.#okay so let me get this straight you barely know me and have been making assumptions about me since day one #pretty much let me believe you liked me for two whole weeks instead of asking me about things or cutting me off #and im the one who gets treated like im in the wrong? okay #this miscommunication was not my fault in the slightest and i KNOW that #if you hadve just talked to me things would be fine but theyre NOT.#if you hadve just looked at my gosh darn profile and seen im the queerest fucker around making gay and homophobic type jokes maybe you woul #have had half the mind to ask me if i could stop making those jokes!!!!!!!!!#i am not transphobic!!!!!!! I AM TRANS!! I WAS MAKING A MOCKERY OF SOME TRANSPHOBIC CULTURE I HATE!!!!#i mightve vented on main ONE TIME under the guise of a silly joke but oh my god guess what?? that was an attempt to see if anybody related.#you never liked me in the first place dont lie to yourself

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