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Since I went my whole life with my parents denying anything about me was anything but ‘normal', I'm trying to figure it out myself cause I can't get properley diagnosed until I move out in a year. So my counselor has already confirmed with me that I very possibly have ADHD and anxiety but I don't really wanna talk about this with them so I'm asking you guys. Is it normal to read everything out loud in your head and have to mouth the words while reading? I also have to read things multiple times sometimes before they make sense. I also kinda struggle to understand math... Like I can do it but I don't understand it, does that make sense? I don't really think I'm autistic but I just wanna check wether or not this is normal 🙃

#help lol #autism #diagnostic #idk man #i dont really know what to hashtag this lol #eeby deeby #glup shitto #nonbinary #plinko #lgbt #scrunglo #trans #queer #you are beautiful #agender #i just tapped all the hashtags that came up automatically lol

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I noticed something new about myself today...

I have stretch marks on my thighs...

They're beautiful.

#body postivity #you are beautiful #you are perfect #stretch marks #love your body #love your self #beautiful

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Tw: eating diorder

Like societies standards for bodies are fucking unfair cause when I was overweight that wasn't good enough and when I was chubby that wasn't good enough and when I got a fucking eating disorder and became skinny that wasn't good enough and then when I got over that eating disorder and became thin that wasn't fucking good enough. Society will literally always find something wrong with you, no matter what. You'll always be: Too fat, too skinny, too perfect, too fake, too ugly, too this, too that. Like I'm just done.

#mental abuse #societies standards #beauty standards #you are beautiful #you don't need to change #eeby deeby #glup shitto #plinko #scrunglo #i just need to scream into the void

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Skinny shaming and fat shaming aren't the same thing, but they do happen for the same reason: Society's fucking impossible beauty standards

#bodypositivity #bodyshamers #skinnnny #body postivity #plus size #you are beautiful #beauty standards #fuck the world

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I'm asking tumbler for help again

This is the conversation I had with my friends today

Friend one: Literally all my friends (except for the two of us with her) are in relationships

Friend two: I never want to date anyone (she may have said marry not date I don't remember tbh)

Me: *thinking she might be Aromantic

Friend one: never?

Friend two: yeah I think

Me: I don't really care if I ever marry/date someone or not

Friend two: like if someone asked me-

Me: If someone asked me and I liked them and thought they were a good person and stuff maybe

Friend two: Yeah same, if you asked me out (points to me) I'd say yes cause your nice, smart and funny (she might have also called me pretty I can't remember completely)

Me: Thanks

Then we went on to talk Abt platonic relationships cause I think that's what friend one thought friend two meant but then friend two said they didn't think they would date thier friend. . .

So really what I'm asking is does she like me? Both me and her haven't dated anyone in the 17/18 years we've been alive. But for me it's just bc I think I'm demi-romantic and also bc I'm an awkward nugget. She's really confusing me cause shes kinda indicated she might like people who aren't men before but that could also have been her indicating she doesn't like anyone.

HELP ME

#pls help #this is a cry for help #help lol #lgbtq #lgbt #lgbtqia #agender #nonbinary #lesbian #sapphism #bisexual #bi #im confused #clueless

[gayplantmother0]

My everyday thoughts:

I don't always feel like a girl, sometimes I feel like a boy and sometimes I feel like both and sometimes I feel like a mix of girl or boy and both? I know gender fluidity exists but my family wouldn't understand that. So maybe I'm just nonbinary? I feel like a them most of the times anyway. Or maybe I'm trans? I like the idea of being a boy... Kinda of... I feel like a masculine person. But that doesn't really have anything to do with being a boy so maybe I'm not. I feel gender fluid but I don't want to put the burden onto others with my gender always changing. Being nonbinary could work... Idk though. And I don't completely think I fit the term lesbian. I only like sapphics in a romantic way but other people like boys are cute. I don't want to like date a dude or anything or kiss them or touch them in anyway but still. When did I even start liking girls anyways? I've had a crush on a boy before.. kind of... Not really? I just thought I did... Or maybe I really did? I could just be straight and cis and lying to myself this whole time... No that's just my internalized homophobia and trans phobia speaking? Maybe I am just transphobic and homophobic and I just don't know it? I feel like a girl completely like 1% of the time so I'm definitely cis, I just want attention. But why would I want attention for being gay or trans or something? It would probably be bad attention. This just proves I'm full of myself.

Help me.

The only thing that In certain about us my confusion. I'M 17. I should have this all figured out by now right? Sorry for rambling on. I'm so sorry if you read all that. I just kinda needed to vent. Ok I'm gonna try and stop myself from a having a panic attack ✌️

#i'm conflicted #lgbt #I need to see a therapist abt this #eeby deeby #glup shitto #plinko #scrunglo #nonbinary #queer #trans

[gayplantmother0]

Okay but you guys need to read this book called "All American boys". It's about racism and police brutality in everyday life. I haven't completely finished it, but so far it's so good! It gives you realistic survivor and witness points of views and sheds light on internalized racism. Even if you don't want to read the book I recommend the author Jason Reynolds.

#BLM #black literature #book recommendations #books #blacklivesmatter #moving #author

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Okay, but I have this tattoo Idea. In the bible it says that Eve was made from Adams ribs therefore meaning she needed Adam, she needed a man. So I want to get "I am not Eve" on my ribs.

#tattoos #tattoo ideas #The bible #just an idea

[gayplantmother0]

Guess I need to learn gibberish 

#eeby deeby #glup shitto #blorbo from my shows #scrunglo #plinko

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Y e s

#trans #queer #you are beautiful #nonbinary

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Homophobes/transphobes don’t make sense

Me and my sister were arguing today because she was making fun of neo pronouns and somewhere in the conversation she said “being trans and gay are a choice.” And I was like “So you could have liked women or men, but you just chose men? You’re attracted to women? So you could have been a boy or a girl you just chose girl? You know there's a word for that.” AND THE LOOK OF UTTER OFFENSE ON HER FACE. The double standards are real people. 

#lgbtqia+ #Bisexual #lgbt #queer #gay #lesbian #pansexual #ominsexual #asexual #aromantic #trans #nonbinary #agender #homphobic #double standards #this makes me angry #homosexuality is not a sin #trans rights #lgbt rights #homobhobes and transphobes stop