#aaaah the angst

[kamomie]

Listen.... I genuinely think Forever is trying to do good, and I think today was a major goof. Not only was it kinda confusing, like, is it just memes? Was the law actually implemented? Why let Roier vote thrice? But it was also hurtful to Bad.

But I also got reminded of one of my former theories that if we assume q!elquackity was the decoy, and the federation actually wanted someone else as president, then it might've been Forever. And again, I genuinely think Forever is trying his best to do good and I don't think he would deliberately work with the federation to hurt his friends and family, but Cellbit also wasn't aware he was working for the federation for weeks, soooo.... It's also clearly something Bad is worried about, but we shall see.

Edit: I realize this is a bit incoherent but it's 5:50am and I need sleep, imagine I explained why these thoughts correlate lmao

#this is all character discussion #qsmp #qsmp liveblogging #q!badboyhalo #q!forever #anyway this is just sad for both of them #like forever not feeling like he can do anything to make people and bad happy #and bad feeling hurt because of the law targeting him and feeling so unappreciated #and both feeling misunderstood #aaaah the angst #i hate it lol #but it's interesting #also it was really cute how Forever put bad's picture up to show appreciation it was just hilariously terrible timing

[starfoam]

Despite everything - all that she has, the people she’s met, who she’s become - there’s still some part of her that aches for somebody who’s like her, somebody who understands what she’s going through.

Some part of her thinks that selfish. Most of the time she tries not to think of it at all.

#aaaah the ANGST

[sloppy-syrup]

“Your stripes are coming loose..”

A drawing about losing yourself.

(Please click for better quality!!!!)

#AAAAH SO PROUD OF THIS ONE #please dont flop #pls dont flop #IM SO HAPPY WITH HOW IT CAME OUT #AND THE HAND POPPING OUT?? #IDK ABT YOU BUT IT LOOKS COOL ON MY END #EHEHEHE #LOVE #save rottmnt #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #artists on tumblr #tmnt #unpause rise of the tmnt #rise leo #leonardo #tmnt leonardo #leo angst #save rise of the turtles #save rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise leonardo #tmnt 2018 #save rise of the tmnt #rise of the tmnt #unpause rottmnt #unpause rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #Sloppy’s arts

[phantomram-b00]

To Hell with you

So, I was listening to songs. And then an epiphany hit me hit me harder than this fixation of the show; what if…the roles were reversed? Like what if Azirapahle first said no to the promotion yet Crowley said yes instead? I think I saw a fanfic that did this (I don’t remember) but I wanted to take a crack at this, and I feel like I want to cry myself so imma do a fanfic of it, hope you enjoy. And if you still haven’t seen good omens season too, this will contain that so uh spoiler warning ahead. Have fun!

Aziraphale was just done talking with Nina and Maggie just a while ago whilst Crowley walk away; while profusely apologizing for the whole ordeal both for last night and overall, they did give him advice on his love life. Something he never thought he could describe it given their status from their opposing side, but he’ve been in love with Crowley since 1941, so the label wasn’t exactly far off. But nothing official, and thanks to their advice, he though maybe they can? Why not? To hell with both parties that been trying to separate them for millennia now they’re on their own side.

“Right! Let me at least tidy this up before he comes” he spoke to himself while he put some books in their respective spots as well covered the symbol on the floor and make sure nothing was out of the ordinary. Oh ironic given their day to day life on earth. As he does so, he start preparing for the talk as he turn the sign on the front to “very closed”

“Okay, so Crowley!” He chuckled as he talks to himself yet again. “There something I must tell you about, I think it been long overdue for the past 6000 years at this point. And I know I’ve told you you go to fast but-“

He shook his head throwing away that thought like a piece of crumbled paper. That won’t do at all.

“Crowley! Wily serpent! I believe there are thing to be discussed about if that all the same to you…” he said as he put the Jane Austen book in order since Gabriel- err Jim decided to put them away separate by the first sentence they start it. Oh how problematic that organization was it nearly discorperated him the second time. “So we’ve known each other for quite a long time, at this point in time we can even guess each other sentences or predict other moves like Agnes Nutter.” He laughs. “W-well, what I’ve been meaning to say is, w-well, remember when I told you you go to fast? Well, I think I want to retract that statement since I think we can go fast, faster than a rollercoaster as Buddy Holly said-“

He again shook his head, and threw that idea away. But he blushes just thinking about Crowley, how he does want them to make it happen finally, been waiting since 1941 or maybe even longer; his mind begin to wonder around, become a habit for him at this point. He began to think about their life, all the time they’ve been together. Always a risk to be together but deep down, Aziraphale would take that risk all day to see Crowley, the one person that didn’t treat him like an annoyance or dare judge him but instead treated him like an equal, the one person that he would rather dine at the ritz and go on many restaurants with, the one person that he would maybe one day want to live with for all eternity. That feel more like heaven in his eyes than the actual place. In retrospect, he wished if it wasn’t for their side that maybe they could been more braver. Or at least he could’ve been. But he had a smile, maybe they can be now? And they can make up for lost time? And maybe one day, they can move into a cottage? Oh he can never be bored of living with him for all eternity. It make him more giddy just thinking about that possibility.

“Crowley!” He started again. “We need to talk, but I think maybe, this would be best suited if we go to St. James park? You’ve always love that place with the ducks. We can get frozen peas. And we can talk as we sit? Or if you prefer, we can dine at the ritz? I can feel an reservation was just open for two” he giggles while hugging the first edition Jane Erye by Charlotte Brontë. “Or maybe, we can talk here, and have drinks? I’ve got an expensive—“

Ding

Aziraphale look at the door and see Crowley back, couldn’t content his smile even if he tries.

“Crowley!” He said putting the book down and walking over to him.

“Angel” said giving him a smile back in return. He take off his glasses to reveal his Sunny eyes. “Listen angel, there something I need to talk to you about.”

“So do I!” He chuckled lovingly whilst look at his sun. “funny how two minds think alike, but I think first I would like to ask you if-“

“Hold that thought for just a moment angel,” Crowley said as aziraphale stopped his laughter. “Listen, Shax and I talked.”

“I’m quite aware, seen you guys had much to talk about despite what the stunt she pulled.” Aziraphale spoke. “Nearly started a war.”

“Right yeah, uh, so, during the talk, she granted me something. And, well, okay cutting to the chase here angel, she want me to be Duke of hell.”

“Oh.” He said taken aback. “Surely you said no didn’t you? I mean you always complained about how they’re the worst and not to mention that they even have a sign on not licking walls? Frankly you saying…”

He stop to look at Crowley face, reading it carefully like it was one of his books. Only this time he does not appreciate this sudden twist.

“Crowley please tell me…” he choked out. “Please..”

“Angel, maybe I can make this right. If I’m Duke of hell-“

“Oh Crowley” he look away running his finger through his white hair. He then lightly laugh. “Please tell me this is one of your devilish jokes you wily serpent!”

“Shax said…she said I can even bring you down to hell with me. We can make hell nicer, no, we can make hell a better. We can even maybe prevent whatever is happening—“

“Ohhhhhh! Crowley I thought you were better than this.” Aziraphale said choking back the tears. “You should be better than that Crowley!”

“Angel—“

“If I didn’t need heaven then it fairly certain that I don’t need hell neither!” He paced around trying to calm himself but avoiding his eyes. “You know Heaven told me to come back to them with a promotion to be supreme angel before this whole Gabriel and I said “no I will certainly not go back to you” and you shouldn’t neither.”

“Well of course you said no angel, heaven are a bunch of self-righteous arseholes and certainly no better than hell I’ll tell you that much.” Aziraphale face continues to be horrified. “But hell, I know hell isn’t the best neither but angel, if you’re by my side, we can make it better.”

“Crowley are you realizing that if hell ends life here on earth it be just as dead as if heaven ended it.” Azirapahle said this time he open the flood gates and tears are streaming down with his voice cracking. “Crowley… tell me you said no.”

Crowley tries his best to choke back his tears too. Seeing his angel distraught was the last thing to see. The last thing he ever wanted to do. He look away from aziraphale feeling his heart growing heavier the more this conversation prolongs.

“Crowley…?” Aziraphale said not even trying to wipe his golden tears away.

“Angel. Maybe I can make an actual difference. I can try to stop it.”

Aziraphale shook his head, he was too shocked yet to upset to form any form of a sentence. His glossy eyes was enough for Crowley to start his water works, he look away once more. Aziraphale turn around and let out a sigh.

“Right guess you got everything out then, it my turn to say my piece—“ despite this, Crowley waited patiently. “We’ve known one another for quite a long time. We’ve been on this planet more than the human that roam on earth. We can always rely on one another and we can or at least I had hoped we trusted each other. We’re on our own side as you said even four years ago at the ritz. To hear those words was more heavenly than what heaven could’ve ever offered to me.” He feel his heart growing heavier. “And I would love it if we—“ he stop again as he feel his tear roll down his cheeks once more. “Crowley, how is it that Beelzebub and Gabriel can go off to Alpha Centauri, the place you yourself have been dying to run off, then we could too right? Just the two of us.” Crowley wanted to smile, but he was too distraught himself to bring himself to do so. “You’ve always said, that we don’t need heaven or hell, they’re toxic Crowley! We can still run like you always said, we can even go to Alpha Centauri with them” Crowley shook his head repeatedly. “We can— what why are you saying what is it?” He said showing curiosity and concern.

“Angel then come with me. I can run it and you can be right by my side. We can make a different please.” Crowley said pleading now. He want to cup his hand on his face wiping away those golden tears, but even when he toke a step, aziraphale toke a step back shaking his head.

“You can’t leave—“ me. “You can’t leave this bookshop.”

Crowley would never want to leave him alone. He would do anything to stop time just to stay in this bookshop for all eternity with him, basking in their love they been so desperately trying to achieve. To listen to angel’s ramble of a book he know he read for the millionth time. To have quality time with him whether it just them drinking wine or even just them holding each other in their embrace while they listen to classical music to bebop as azirapahle would call his taste. But that not what he said did he?

“Oh Aziraphale..” Crowley said giving a sadden smile. “Nothing last forever.” He wanted to kick himself just for saying those fatal words. The words that finally push azirapahle over the edge as now he can’t hold back. He hold his hand in his face as he let it out, just for a moment. Even in that moment, Crowley want to hug him. But he stopped after a moment, as to try to revert back to his calm demeanor.

“No.” He said grabbing his glasses and giving it back to Crowley. “I suppose you’re right about that one.” Crowley look as he see the glasses. Trying to process what he was even doing. “I wish you the best of luck in your endeavors.”

He proceed to walk out of his own bookshop.

“Best of luck..” then it hits him. “Angel!” He doesn’t stop walking away. “Aziraphale come back!” Aziraphale turn around, he was completely drained. His angelic happiness is no where to be found in his hazel blue eyes. “Work with me.” He still pleads, even aziraphale let out a sigh as he continues. “To hell..we can be on our side even down there. Doing our own things down there.” Aziraphale wince from that sentence as he look away to avoid his eyes. “I-I need you aziraphale!” He finally said which prompted him to finally look at him. Both their watery eyes met. It felt like time stopped again. Maybe Crowley finally convinced him. Maybe they can be in their side even in hell. Maybe they could make things better. Him and Aziraphale against them—“you have to understand what I’m trying to offer here Angel..”

“Oh I think I know quiet well. Maybe even more than you can Crowley.” He said. But he realize it wasn’t his usual tone. He sounded apathetic. Is this really it? This shouldn’t be. Why does it feel…

“Well. If that the case, is there really anything else to say at this point?” Crowley said as he put on his glasses as his tears starts to appear yet again.

“Listen.” Aziraphale said pointing up. “Can you hear anything?”

“No. Angel what are you trying to…”

“That’s exactly my point. No nightingale.” He said, that was it for him. He feel he can’t hold it back any longer. “You stupid snake. We could have been us.” Aziraphale said emphasizing on the term us. Crowley looked away to let tears run, even closing his eyes to hope it be all over. But then he felt his lapel of his blazer being pull and the feeling of soft lips pressed again his own. His eyes shock open as he see aziraphale. Principality. Angel of the eastern gate. Kiss him. This wasn’t what he expected their first to be, not one where tears are mixing with each others. He wanted it to be more romantic, more on a happier note. One that both can enjoy. Not this. Not when his angel is obviously hurt. Oh Satan, what have he done. He lift his hands couple times but he was able to place his hand behind Aziraphale’s back and kiss back. He felt his head spin around like all the planets he created, can feel like he seeing stars he help create. And here he is, kissing the biggest star he’ve every laid his eyes on.

Soon they pull away from each other, Crowley having to catch his breath, not hiding his cries anymore. Aziraphale just stand there in hope, can this finally convince him? Crowley look at Azirapahle, many emotion can be battling each other, anger, lament, happiness, shocked? Maybe all above.

“I…I…” love you. Do it again. “TO HELL WITH YOU” he wanted to cover his mouth. Why did he let them escape. Where the soap when you need it. Aziraphale let out a silent gasp as golden tears escape him once more.

“I forgive you.” Aziraphale said walking out of the bookshop.

“Wait angel!”

He walks out of the bookshop, he almost push people down, forget for a moment that London can get busy. He look around to try to find him. “Aziraphale! Please, come back!”

No avail. He can’t find him anywhere, no white haired tartan wearing angel. He feel down to his knees.

“What have I done?” He said to himself. His scales emerged feeling intense emotions, he wanted to scream as he feel smoke coming out of him.

“Crowley?” He look up and see Shax. “Right, I take it he didn’t take it well.”

“What do you think?” Shax was gonna talk again before he stop her. He stands up “Right don’t answer that. Let just go.” He said drained. Feeling empty. Betrayed.

“Jolly good. Now I will say, I’ve heard word from upstairs.” Shax said as they walk, Crowley look at her but not in interest but he had to know.

“And what do the holier than thou angel say?”

“Well. Something about ahhh. The second coming as they like to call it. We got a role in this too, so best get a move on” Shax chuckled as she walked as she talked more about this role. Crowley stopped. He turn around just for a moment and see Aziraphale, he was far away about to turn the corner. But he can easily see that he left enough room for him to come with him to walk, the finale plead. He can’t make out what his expression was but it didn’t matter, he look at him one last time. Before he start walking backward and turning back to Shax. Completely disappearing from the crowd. “You know. Pity your boyfriend didn’t come. Me and Furfur were betting on it, guess no matter. We got work to do.” He stopped listen as she went on. He wanted more than anything to just run back to him. He wished he didn’t take this. But part of him felt that maybe he can still try. If not fro earth, for aziraphale. To keep him safe as he try to stop this plan. To stop armageddon from happening once more. Even if that meant he can’t see Aziraphale ever again.

Meanwhile Aziraphale just nodded. Understand this was it. It truly was over. He saw Maggie and Nina walk away holding hands as if God was rubbing salt in his wound. He then see Muriel waving at him in glee. He would’ve wave back in mutual respect but not now. Not today. He just walked away leaving them feeling concern. Aziraphale walked, unsure where exactly he walking to but his feet keep moving so he might as well walk wherever his shattered heart take him. He then heard a radio from one of the stores singing the song. That song meant for them.

Snap

Just like that the song stopped. He continues to walk. Walk as far as he can. As golden tears fall once more.

(Reference for the golden tears and Sunny eyes)

#good omens #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #aziraphale #crowley #hope you like angst #I felt like crying today #stop because I had to watch that scene for reference again and I almost cried all over again aaaah #good omens fandom #good omens 2 #good omens fanfiction #fanfic #fan fiction #good omens season 2 #anthony j crowley #aziraphale good omens #good omens aziraphale #good omens aziracrow #good omens ineffable husbands #ineffable fandom #ineffable spouses #ineffable soulmates #they ineffable your honor #to hell with you

[this-is-krikkit]

me before ep 6: ugh another queerbait season for good omens i presume? it's okay, i'll just read fanfic that highlights the homoerotic subtext later, i'll be fine

good omens s2 finale:

#SHUT ME RIGHT THE F UP IG #HOLY WHAT #IMMMMMM #SPEECHLESS #aziraphale x crowley #aziraphale #crowley #good omens #good omens s2 #GAY OMENS #FOR REAL THIS TIME??? #good omens spoilers #😦🥹😭 #I LOVE THEM #THE ANGST #AAAAH #THEY WENT THEEEEERE #I'M 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌

[alien-ally]

Things about unknown: they are going on full on with the sibling/family moments. Qian hasn't budged from the elder brother role and won't anytime soon. for now, i think he's only sensing stuff from Yuan's end. so it's largely unreciprocated(<word doesn't exist) affection (of the romantic kind). Hence when the angst hits, it's going to HIT HARD. still their dynamic will have to go a long way i.e after Yuan returns (from the trailer) and i think it's going to be all the more satisfying after all the hurt. also the acting is topnotch, which really ties in everything together.

#how long has it been since some real weighty burning angst aaa #i see fantastic potential but i cant even rec to anyone cause of the essential brothers trope😣 #read chris chiu's post about wei qian and aaaah it went to the right person #no wonder the role hits in all the right spots #unknown the series #unknown #chris chiu #kurt huang #thingamabob #aa mine

[hopepetal]

Re: emergency broadcast

Yeah, I think it's like 2 emergency alarms and unfortunately it cannot be manually turned off, so you're going to have to physically turn the phone off (though I'm not sure if it will still ring even after turning ig back on) it sucks because I have severe anxiety over that sound trigger too

AHHHHHH OH MAN OKAY OH that's going to be so awful oh gosh

#answered ask #knights of the angst table #AAAAH

[irondad-defensesquad]

i think the mcu should've explored more the "died but came back" thing with peter parker...

#i could be wrong since i haven't seen nwh as you all know #but judging from what i saw out there... #yeah #anyway this is why we have fanfiction. #lotus speaks #i'm sorry i'm just a sucker for the died but came back trope #all the angst possibilities.... #aaaah

[owl-with-a-pen]

so I was thinking about Supergirl season 5 again and I remembered that some people were upset with Brainy in the second half of season 5 because they didn't think he was as smart as he's supposed to be, and should have been ahead of Lex mentally/had a plan to defeat him. But maybe him being a step behind Lex would have been more understandable/more angsty if Lex was literally mind-controlling him? Like maybe he borrowed Lena's technology to keep him in line, inhibiting him again by cruel irony.

CONT: and meanwhile either Brainy is completely aware of what's going on with him, and it's terrible, or it's a more subtle control by Lex and he makes excuses for something feeling wrong with him. So either way, at the end of the season in this scenario I would still have Brainy do the thing with the bottle, but have it be more an act of defiance/rebellion against Lex, probably with Brainy laughing in his face as Lex is gloating in that scene and taking the pin that kept Lex safe from the radiation.

See this is super interesting, because I've always thought that Brainy struggling to keep up with Lex/outright failing to felt very in character for him as of where he was at that point in the show. I feel like we seem to forget that although Brainy was uninhibited while working for Lex and, therefore, theoretically mentally superior to him, Brainy was also in no sound mind to actually be able to embrace the full extent of his intellect.

While working for Lex, Brainy had to spend all of his time pretending to be someone else. He had to hold up a very stiff and unemotional front to try and convince everyone around him that this was what removing his inhibitors had made him, otherwise his whole plan would fall apart. We know from season 6 that Brainy was absolutely not okay when it came to dealing with his emotions, especially his rage against Lex, and this was becoming very clear through all the interactions we saw between Brainy and Lex in the second half of season 5. Brainy was barely holding it together, and Lex knew that, which was why he knew he had the room to play with his food for a bit and make Brainy think he'd actually achieved the upper hand.

Brainy spent so much of his time with Lex questioning his own actions, feeling guilty every step of the way, hating himself for crawling closer to the evil alignment the rest of his family had wanted for him and (I'm gonna assume here) not sleeping very much, if at all. So, failing to see Lex's whole plan always made sense to me. Brainy was not in a fit mental state to do any better than he did and, to be honest, with all said and done his plan actually was still very ingenious. Incorporating an aspect of the Brainiac line he hated so much by bottling Leviathan was also extremely satisfying, especially considering he went into it knowing he was likely going to die and so reclaiming that ability for good was one hell of a way to go out.

This being said, I do love the ideas you've brought to the table, especially with regards to giving Brainy a proper moment to rebel against Lex. Lex using some form of mind control on Brainy would have definitely upped the angst to insanely delicious proportions. Maybe not from the very start of their partnership, but the more Brainy resisted Lex's plans, or the more obvious it became that he was clearly interfering with them where he could, maybe Lex starts to set something in motion then. Maybe Brainy notices because of how freshly released from being inhibited he is, or, maybe worse, he doesn't realise for those exact same reasons. Either way, it would give Brainy even more fuel to the fire when it came to his final face off with Lex.

Brainy never really gets the closure he sorely needs for everything Lex put him through, and I really do love imagining an alternate version to the scene where Brainy does have the upper hand in that Leviathan ship, maybe he rips Lex's pin from his lapel when Lex underestimates how much energy Brainy has left when he tries to take the bottle from him. Just something that gives Brainy a bit more power over the situation. It'd also make Lex realise that pushing the emotionally unstable Coluan to the limit maybe wasn't the genius plan he thought it was, especially when all of Brainy's anger surges out with Lex as his sole target.

I am overall glad that the end of season 5 left Brainy in a position where his anger towards Lex was unresolved, because that gave us some excellent scenes in season 6. It's no secret that I love Brainy and Lena's dynamic and the scene where Brainy starts detailing exactly how he's planned to kill Lex in the most horrific way possible is up there on my list of favourite scenes ever. So, I suppose, yes it would have been satisfying to see Brainy defy Lex, but also what we got from Brainy failing gave us so much more angst where his unresolved anger was left to stagnate.

#supergirl #brainiac 5 #lex luthor #cyclone-rachel #my asks #not writing #it's such a split situation in my mind because yes I wanted to Brainy to go full feral on Lex in that scene #but also from a narrative perspective i actually really am happy with the direction that scene took #aaaah the confliction. but those ideas were super good! #i also just got a darker thought of... what if brainy inhibited himself again when he couldn't bare the toll it was taking #maybe the radiation interferes with the inhibitors and that brings all the rage back and then he snaps back at lex from there #so many possibilities. all with so much ANGST. i love it.

[forthedancingandthethriving]

How mean would it be if I had Lily's parents come get her after she had some bonding time with Bob? He's helping her stay calm while the whole search is going on for her and is helping her stay hidden in public. And Lily thinks that soon, this will blow over, and she won't have to deal with the fear of her parents finding her.

But after another bonding time, there's a series of knocks on the castle doors.. and there's Lily's parents, here to collect her. All while mentioning that they found out from a business associate.

Bob and Lily are the first ones to realize what they mean and horror dawns on them, because how could they forget Don Pianta knew Lily's parents?

#!posts! #bob bobowski #oc: lily #breaking the cage arc #hehahahahah #aaaah angst my old friend

[olliebox]

does anybody else listen to music when driving and pretend they are a main character in a TV show? because me too,

#and its currently the owl house #also its angst #yay #daydreaming #music #depression #is this a cry for help? #who needs reality #aaaah

[crazydoughnutlady]

I am here to admit that I was wrong about fable… he is a good person and a loving dad.

Enderian really was the bad guy all along…

Now if you’ll excuse me, I must go fix my superhero AU.

#fable smp #enderian fable smp #he was just so sus! #aaaah #the lore was so good to day #so naturally #the next time is going to be angst

[rainiiisspamming]

Oh god I just remembered the ADA member -> PM arrangement I'm gonna fucking cry

#raine talks #bsd #bungou stray dogs #i hope is dazai for the angst #realistically they'll ask for kuni atsu or junichiro #but #“i'm sorry i failed you odasaku” #just imagine #the ada has never seen pm dazai #like for them it's just a concept #imagine atsushi who trusts that dazai is a good person #having to see him kill someone #imagine dazai coming back to oda's grave in a black suit #and just sitting there #he might not even come back because he's failed him #AAAAH BUT SO MUCH SKK CONTENT #hirotsu just sitting in the meeting room like #sigh #here we go again #bsd dazai #bsd skk #dazai #skk #i do love dazai i swear #i just love the angst #did you know Angst means fear in German #fuck

[rifleonthewall]

god. read through and kinda spoilered myself on some of the games and just. angst angst angst

#sey speaks #aaaah nico majima angst. oof ouchie hehe

[survivoirs]

@wrathiincarnate “you really don’t have to do that, not for me.” FOR STACI

"Yes I do," Staci urged, boot toeing at the wrapped up cloth on the ground to push it closer to Emmet between the bars of his cage. Pratt glanced around nervously. The next patrol would be passing through in the next three minutes if he had his timing down right. Even under the thumb of Jacob, Staci couldn't help but see so much around the Veteran's center. He paid attention. Vigilance becoming a state he was unable to turn off as a form of survival. As exhausting as that was. Inside the cloth was a small piece of bread and a chunk of rabbit thigh, still slightly warmed from when it was cooked. Emmet's concern was warranted, of course. If Staci were caught stealing food and helping the Rookie Deputy like this, he would be punished severely, if not worse. Various bruises of varying stages of healing on his face and arms in the form of defensive wounds painted a picture of some of the ways the cultist made lessons stick.

"You - You gotta eat, Rook," Staci, whispered, pleading but unable to look Emmet in the eyes as he curled his fingers around the bars of the cage. A small sound off in the distance made Staci jump, panic in his eyes as he looked around. He appeared much like what the rabbit must have looked like as it was being hunted. On edge. Feeling the approach of death. Of course, realistically the project's hunters had been swift and the creature had never seen it coming. Not like Staci, he could vividly picture everything that could be done to him because he'd seen it done to so many people already. Finally, Pratt looked Emmet in the eyes. The young deputy's brown eyes looked traumatized. That was the only way to describe the look. "You gotta keep your strength up, Rook," he urged. Tongue felt heavy, getting stuck in his throat to the point he couldn't get his words out for a moment. They need you strong. Jacob needs you strong. Jacob has plans for you. He couldn't warn him. No matter how much he tried. He just hoped the Jr Dep would understand. Surely, right? Unlikely with how cryptic and frantic he seemed. Oh how Jacob had dug so deep into his brain.

"You must be strong. The weak -- the weak must be culled," he whispered still but his tone grew gravelly and he sounded like he had a growl stuck deep in his throat. "Do you -- You you understand, right, Rook?" He smiled nervously, nodding quickly. He looked unwell. Unstable. Like he might fully lose it or even burst into tears if Emmet didn't right now reach down and scarf down the food Pratt had smuggled him.

#THREADS. [ And the weak must be culled! - Staci ] #rp #aaaah #hi #been a bit #have some angst

[queensconquest]

im  back  now  ,  i  went  out  for  lunch  and  helped  my  friend  pack  some  before  she  leaves  tomorrow.  got  soaked  in  the  rain  lmao  but  we’re  good.  so  here  to  do  things

#〉the angst empress〈 — ✭ ⌜ooc⌟ #its so weird tbh #all my life it's always been me moving away #even in college #this time its not me #aaaah it was fun though and she'll still visit near holidays so