i need to be chained down
i need to struggle against my bonds, need to cry need to scream, need to feel so utterly helpless and vulnerable
i need it to hurt. I need my ass to be smacked so red that it it brings real tears to my eyes before we're even halfway through. i need the wood of the paddle to SNAP and splinter as it breaks against my body.
i need to be told the most disgusting, cruel, awful things about myself; i need to be degraded and made to feel so small and pathetic and worthless and stupid and i need to be crying on the floor, utterly limp in my bonds from it.
i want to be marked. i want to feel teeth, i want to feel claws, i want my skin to break from the force of them i want to feel the blade against me i want to feel the fear in my whole being as it goes further and further and further
i need to be owned, to be claimed, to be branded with a hot iron, to be caged up and collared. need that collar to shock me, need someone to own me, need someone to hold my remote and press the button until i can't breathe until im choking with sobs and crying on the floor for a second time
when i say i need to be broken
i need to be broken.
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note to self… never look at tumblr when at work unless you want to be frustrated and wet
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apparently if I don't play Minecraft for a week my brain tries to make up for it by uh. dreaming about being my minecraft sona in a scenario so cozy I'm still thinking about it two hours after waking up?
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Brb going insane over the implications of Harry putting the ones he cares about on such a high pedestal that he basically deifies them in his head. From comparing his ex to Dolores Dei (who has literal churches dedicated to her and is basically this world's version of Jesus) to Kim having a halo behind his head from Harry's POV...
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okay i'm about to ramble about the song Right Where It Belongs. the beginning of the song feels so,,,, empty. like you're definitely missing something that you think would make everything better. the music just feels so lacking something. but towards the end of the song it starts to feel so full and YET it still feels like something's missing. it's that emotion of what you thought would help you not doing that at all.
the lyrics kind of reflect this as well (or at least, i interpret it to). the idea of having this idea in your head that you have this thing, you need this thing, to kinda fill your life and give you this kind of fulfilment maybe. the idea of making a choice between staying in this deluded idea that yes, your beliefs are real. you DO need all this to fill yourself up you just need to find it. or realising that this isn't what you need and that this isn't going to help you at all. you're still empty. you're still missing something. you're not really happy and this isn't really what you want.
the music helps the vibe and emotions SO well too. it starts out soft, softer than the other songs so far. there's that effect on trent's voice that makes him feel so far away. so quiet and small and hopeless. there's also that significant lack of a bass in the back, lack of percussion too which is rare to be missing from an nin song. all you have is this high pitched, hollow sounding piano with the synths to accompany it (but even the synths feel bare). there's something missing from the music. it's emptier than usual. it feels almost incomplete. and then the instrumentals slowly and gradually get slightly louder. trying to fill in that space missing from the lack bass and drums but it doesn't work. and THEN the bass is added. a simple plucking of notes. it's not soft either, it's definitely there. but the music still feels bare.
then the effect on trent's voice is turned off. everything is louder. the addition of cheering in the back too. but it STILL feels so empty. it's just gradually attempting to fill that silence and emptiness with more noise but it doesn't do that. it doesn't work. it's still empty. it's still missing something.
the music sets up the emotion so well and it blends so well with the lyrics that it's just so. wow. you're left feeling that exact same way as you listen to the song.
tl;dr i love this song so much and the lyrics and music work so well together please give it a listen!!
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i applied to a bunch of jobs in toronto and i have a call in an hour with one and like . it's unlikely it'll go past this phone call for a lot of reasons but i'm like... i dont wanna move to toronto now is the thing...............
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my job makes me so evil i probably won’t be writing tn sorry yall 😔 will try to whip something out in the morning
also if u guys want to see any other spiderverse content i’m thinking about starting something else and alternating between the two. if you’ve got ideas or requests let me know 😌
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