#a big mood for many people

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

MDZS Height Poll: Who is (technically) the tallest character. Please remember that these polls are for fun!

#mdzs #poll #Please remember that I WILL see notes and comments and reblogs. Let's have fun with this clearly very silly poll! #I am begging everyone to be nice. We can get icecream afterwards if we all behave. #Propaganda is welcome if you dare take up the bat to swing at the hornet's nest. #As always - I will have a little comic at the end of this poll based on the results!!! #I'm so tempted to sway votes but the beauty is in the community response. You guys always surprise me! #Will the winner be based on technicality? WHO'S technicality? So many choices! #NHS and JGY are a big mood for being 'tall' but labeled short due to being surrounded by 'very tall' people. #Shout out to my little cousin who's a natural 6'1"and STILL wears the 6 inch heels. That's feminism. #I wanted to have the next poll be 'who's in the middle of the bed in the 3zun relationship' but I need to draw for that one. #it's been a rough week for me. Comic resumes tomorrow though - I just have not been home to upload anything via scanner. #I'm alright I promise B'*) Just a chaotic lifestyle. Hope you have all been well <3

[napping-sapphic]

I talk so much about how i want to fall in love for all the things i could do for someone and all the things someone could do for me but deep down, if i’m being honest, i want to fall in love because i just so desperately need to know that love is actually real and that there are people out there capable of truly loving me

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #just like growing up and losing so many relationships #friendship and family relationships all of it #it’s hard to remember that there are people out there who can love you and that that love will stay #regardless of whether or not you can give them something #idk all the love in my life just feels gone and i don’t really think there’s anything i love anymore sometimes #but then i remember the world is big and i should stop worrying so much for now #i dont know my life is a mess lately #and it’s 5 am and i haven’t slept #and im still grieving things #and hope and patience are so hard sometimes #and there’s something about the ugly side of the whole idea of ‘yearning’ that i think about a lot #because so much of my yearning ISN’T pretty or wistful #it’s achingly desperate and lonely and uncertain #i dont know #i dont know if any of this is worded right #or if it’s all nonsense and i should just be quiet and go to sleep #idk

[sweetshire]

So, @silv-paru sent Sherlock Holmes for the character opinion bingo. thanks a bunch for this (and for your patience. my god, i’m answering this a week late. typical me behaviour). you’re a darling :D

Did you know, i used to tell these stories to my friends? they delighted in them AND i got a chance to sort of ramble on and on abt him and watson. it was a win-win, really. ah, those were the days! now i haven’t reblogged much of him this month at all. i miss him. I MISS HIM.

Onto the bingo: well. he’s The quintessence of gender™ to me. and i relate to him so so much. fav character of all time fr. i want to carry him in my pocket at all times & study him. like. do i want to BE him OR am i IN LOVE with him, ykwim? pssh who knows? certainly not me. uh-huh ‘a beast unleashed’ -does this refer to me or him? you choose. oh re: canon, i’m ignoring the part where holmes dies (or y’know, is dead for 3 years). that’s too angsty.

#sherlock holmes #my dearest blorbo #he’s my belovedest chewtoy basically #if i think abt how modern adaptations *looking at you bbc sherlock* have ruined his character i get so angry i have to take deep breaths #*mutters darkly* he is NOT an arrogant cold-hearted bitch like he’s portrayed; well he IS a bitch but not a cold-hearted one!! #see. the thing abt holmes is that he’s SUCH a sweet boy okay. and he’s compassionate #he cares sooo much. that’s the reason people come to him when they’re distressed. they trust him #he hates the police. he is a jester at heart. loves his watson #he’s here to help the truly desparate helpless people even if they have no money to pay him for the case. no questions asked. But- #he fucking despises obnoxious rich men. the first time he meets watson a total stranger he *very excitedly* tells him abt his experiment #it’s very adorable. he never stops trying to impress ever. infact blushes furiously when complimented by him #my guy has 0 knowledge of our solar system but he’s written several monographs abt different types of ASHES. go figure! #OH i almost forgot the most important fact he’s special to me bc holmes is an audhd gay disaster bastard. sometimes he’s even bisexual #but mostly he’s acespec and in a qpr w watson. he’s VERY adhd. behaves like an excited cat and oh so cute when he stims. everytime he does #i go SQUEEE. when he’s depressed it’s a goddamn hashtag big mood. as in many other ways he is me i am him #he’s PASSIONATE and KIND that’s all you need to know #acd stories are about just some guy who loves his job (which he invented himself btw after quitting college) that’s it #i am overcome with an almighty need to squeeze his cheeks #he’s everything to me <3 #alright if i don’t stop now i doubt i ever will LMAO bye #acd holmes #if u read till the end u get a cookie and a kiss on the nose i love u

[moeblob]

do you draw other fire emblem characters besides three houses and hopes?

I do indeed, as shown 3 days ago when I doodled Sharena. And on Aug 18 when I draw Sharena wearing other outfits (Felix and FRobin's day if devotion dress). And on Aug 13 when I drew Ephraim and FRobin. I spent years drawing for Fates and enjoyed my time drawing Xander/Gaius after the support system in FEH came out.

I like to draw Camilla/Balthus for FEH content as well (though half is 3H).

I have only played 13/14/16/16.5/17 for FE though so it really limits who I draw. And as a Camilla and Saizo enjoyer it's upsetting to see tags sometimes by people who aren't fans of them. But most of my followers showed up after I drew 3H stuff and I know many times people told me to draw what I want... but it's easier to default to 3H on very low energy days cause I'm still used to it.

Also did stuff for Engage though not as much as I wanted.

#moe talks a lot #not art #i draw daily and low energy days normally mean 3H because im used to them #i wouldnt mind going back to fates and awakening art but im rusty #so i default to what im more used to #and when everyone seems to send asks about the 3H cast its hard to draw say #an awakening character to reply to the 3H ask #so yeah its not really something i dabble in these days even if i miss em #and when i draw my home boy Kellam and get so many tags about a blank canvas #it further ruins my mood bc tgats who i relate to most #and ive been overlooked so much and people forget im around irl #im like a walking jumpscare bc people are able to tune me out #so..... that puts a big wet blanket on me wanting to draw for someone i relate to

[puzzlekinq]

cant sleep because im seething with anger

#been laying here for like 40 minutes fantasizing about finally snapping and telling my mom everything i really think and feel #if i ever came out to her she would end up cutting me off like she did to my aunts and uncles and cousins #basically im alone and my parents and siblings are the only family i can be in contact with right now and its isolating #off topic but yeah #i miss having a big family and people besides my parents that i could rely on. people i felt like i could actually breathe around #idk. whatever #why do i feel responsible for her actions all the time. its been my job to keep her stable and listen to her vent for years #but i never say anything about my own feelings. because she would make me feel stupid and ridicule me. lol #all she does is make me feel like shit most of the time. shes always in a bad mood and shes always whining and always pessimistic #and yeah i get along with her for the most part but lately her attitude has been weighing on me a lot. i cant criticize or disagree with her #because she'll just get mad. shes always been an angry person. thats why i hardly spoke to her from ages 10-15 #maybe i jsut wanted to give her another chance. maybe i felt sympathy for her. shes had it rough her whole life #but when shes still bitter no matter how many times i comfort her and let her vent and cry to me and when she chooses her husband over me #every single time he fucks up (which is like. constantly) and always takes his side when they inevitably make up after a huge fight #it feels like i'll never be able to make her happy. it feels like i should stop trying. if she wants to be full of hatred #and have a shitty husband then fine. i cant fix her like and i cant hold the weight of her mistakes #*life

[jinglejanglemornings]

i know i am an extremely willful person at the best of times (which this is not) but i also feel like treatment centers are all this is the rule because it’s the rule and if you say like. what if it wasn’t and what if xyz was actually more helpful in this moment/to my recovery overall it’s like. no 💜 practice flexibility 💜

#this is because i’m annoyed they won’t give me apples instead of bananas for breakfast. to be clear #well it’s also because i’m in a mood and it’s about a lot of different things #small things and big things #and like i said. i am an extremely willful person. at the best of times. it’s so much worse in treatment #per many people in my life including myself #my strong will is both my best trait and my worst trait #definitely is often to my detriment

[selkiefinalist]

biggest shout to @workingforitallthetime who many years ago gave me a bunch of songs to add to a playlist and today, a day in which i have been (truly madly) deeply experiencing the horrors*, one of those songs came up and made me so happy

#over the years I’ve added so many songs from mutuals/internet friends #and they are like big bright spots on sometimes bad days #so anyway here’s my periodic callout #send me songs so i can fondly think of you while running or thinking or working and/or experiencing the horrors #mutual or not #and also periodic reminder that if we’re not mutuals and you think we should be #just like drop me a message with a random emoji or whatever #there are so many sideblogs in hockeyblr and i simply do not know who people are! #*just garden variety horrors honestly I’m just in a mood to be dramatic about it

[the-trans-dragon]

Hehehe >:3 got a kissie and some headpats from a pretty girl >:3 muahahahahahaha >:3

#sorenhoots #sometimes i remember that i am living the life that i ached for during lonely years #like i just get to wake up and live my gay little life??? kinda fucking awesome even if many other parts of life are very stressful #im so glad i met my wife who loves me for who i am 🥰🥰🥰🥰 and 😈😈😈 heheh then i met my other partner???? like. i thought my wife made me #the happiest i would ever be and then WOOSH i met ANOTHER person who makes me incredibly happy? i did not know the happiness could DOUBLE. #i figured it was like 0%-100% and my wife made me like 100% of my capacity for happiness and then its like 200% now and im realizing that my #capacity to experience joy and peace isnt static and frankly probably increases steadily over a lifetime as i grow and change and learn to #appreciate things more. anyways im in a content happy lil gay mood this morning :3 #my partner got to visit us recently to help us get emotionally ready for some stressful stuff but now the most stressful parts are done and #now that the stress is fading i am finding so much happiness has been in my chest waiting to burst! it was sooo good to see my partner hehe #and the situation is even cuter because my wifes partner also came to visit and my wifes partner is my partners wife also so like. adorable #symmetry. my partner and my wifes partner have another partner and if you draw out a little diagram of us you will see it is shaped like a #house :3 a square with a triangle on top :3 hehe metamours everywhere :3 super super super wonderful metamours. its literally almost like a #fairy tale to have a polycule??? like?? im so excited to live somewhere that isnt like 9 hours from them. oh my god they also have a cat and #shes the cutest. me and my wife have a cute cat also and we are like 👀👀👀 tenatively anticipating that they will get along 👀👀👀 ive #specifically worked with my cat to help her know how to behave around other cats. my neighbor is retired and does TNR on the local strays #and they get attached to her and hang out in her backyard or her house lol like one snuck in and this was before they had any cats and they #didnt know he snuck in until he hopped onto her bf's chest at night to snuggle up. and hes a big cat and if you felt him drop onto your #chest in the pitch black of night you might absolutely mistake him for a racooon or possom or some other beast. anyways he sneaks into all #the houses down the street apparently and is just kinda like “the retired people down the street”'s cat lol. and daisy would hiss and yowl #out the window at him but i always tried to show her that he is friendly (and give her treats to attempt to tell her 'he isnt a threat. have #a snack. see? if he was a threat then we would not be having snacks.' and eventually he ran into us while i was letting her outside on her #harness and!!! i was absolutely ready to defend either of them from the t #other but they just cautiously sniffed each other and then laid down. it was fascinating to observe. daisy also responds really well yo #to meeting new people :3 though she proved me wrong by hiding from some maitenence ppl recently. but then she met my metamour and was pretty #much instantly like 'oh ok ur family? sounds gok #sounds good.' so thats cute and i hope if we end up in the same house with the other cat in the polci #polycule. well i hope they get along!!! #idk what we would do if they didnt. there are lots of other housing arrangements (like renting a duplex or next-door apartments or #something) but i want them to get along anyways :3 no matter what sort of living arragement works out best. i think theyd be good for each

[cpunkhobie]

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#ugh putting this in the tags cause it not rlly a big deal but uuuugh. #I don't wanna shit talk anyone's writing but the fic 'times five' makes me soooo fucking uncomfortable as a system #I'm already strongly averse to personality split stuff cause it's just like. awlways so tropey and awkward ans stereotypical and ugh. #I haven't read it but the premise and the tags and the summary just sets off so many alarm bells in my head #and its worse because its so big so like. idk I can always block the tag but it the type of thing where it just shows up sometimes? like #completely sours my mood #I've noticed this community in particular is weirdly into personality split stuff which is FINE. as long as people put in the effort to #portray it in a way that's accurate or at least like. has any care into how it might reflect or look to systems but a lot of ppl just don't #eugh. yeah just a vent #vent #rise tag

[louderfade]

this is wild. they put topiramate in the phentermine and now they've approved its sale to kids. unnecessary express. and all the relevant studies are paywalled naturally. i swear all this street fentanyl was their plan to monopolize the market. they could turn off the fent factories tomorrow i bet, the way they did with quaaludes which don't exist today bc the labs don't make them. but they want fent out there. they want more ill, desperate people who are afraid to take any drugs but theirs. the goal is to get everyone hooked on pharmaceutical garbage that makes us halfsick and compliant. don't forget to take your daily brainfog & binge eat tablet to treat the depression you feel from being deeply unhealthy on every level. still not feeling unwell? don't worry we'll find a pill for you. everybody gets a pill. it's medicine! for your health! ask your doctor if workmoronal is right for you.

#i took psychiatric topiramate for many years #and we used to shoot phentermine recreationally #now they've combined them to create yet another abomination drug that shouldn't exist #just let people take drugs that work #and stop with this garbage about how THOSE drugs are bad and dangerous but THESE drugs are good and safe #like drugs are always a risk y'all's shit included but highways are a risk too and i know you're in league with the addiction recovery #and psych industries too you're all such lying liars stop lying before we put you in jail #topamax is a voltage dependent calcium channel blocker and affects all the neurons in your brain and can do some really weird stuff #and phentermine is just their way of making speed less fun bc they very much hate the idea of anyone altering their own moods #this combo is not a drug we need in the world just take amphetamines jfc end rant #big pharma

[abyssalpriest]

can i be borderline controversial and say that i do think there's a correlation between the love and adoration for the other kings, Leviathan's brutal honesty about grey-morality and involvement in war when you know him as Leviathan, and his lack of worshipers here under that name. the controversial part being that the other kings seem way more into propaganda flourishing and part of why i say that is because ive known both of them and they fucking do that oops hashtag UPG (PVG) spilled outta my pockets there

ie its always people who work for the other kings i see so caught up in how loving and pure the kings and ''demons'' are, and you COULD say that's just because Lev doesn't have many worshipers under that name but I think its more so because when you know "Leviathan" uhhhhh. like you could say lack of lev worshipers = lack of lev propaganda but i think its more so lev isnt going to pretend to be a beautiful siren man in a suit who tells you he loves you so so much even tho he just met you two seconds ago

#there's many factors IMO why we dont see many Leviathan worshipers so much as Shaivites and (insert other names here) #one of which is this but another big factor is. he. doesnt like Chrxstianity in the way that his brothers do lmfao he has other #ways of worshiping him and other labels that arent ''demon'' or occult and reverse-cxtholic aesthetics including latin and #priesthood and whatnot. i love that shit bc travelling to another country to grow up from age 10 and being exposed to the beauty #of cxtholic architecture and worship and aesthetics was cool af it was really like. i love this expression of devotion i love all human #devotion and i love gold and i love SUFFERING lmfao so. im always like oooo aesthetics and hes like. ah. hmm. no thanks #which is NOT to say thats all demonolatry is and IS to say he much prefers in my experience other ways of worshiping him #milk honey and ghee for one fucking example lmfao. flowers thrown into the ocean. blessing horses. traversing the wilderness. storm #chasing. I GUESS THERES A REASON HIS BIG NAMES are Shiva(/Rudra)/Poseidon/Tengri/etc and not Leviathan #as he was saying to me he's... he's not a god found in churches hes overhead at all times at least partially. hes in our dna. hes in the #trees surrounding our towns hes the deer and the wolves and the wild playfulness vs efficient machinery of horses. the rivers and the ocean #the clouds. mathematics. actual machines. i think trying to tie him into like... latin and chrxstian inspired rites and the word ''demon''. #ive said it before. If you catch him in a certain mood he does actually enjoy roleplaying the ''demon'' persona and the antithesis and #undoing of chrxstianity but. hes. not what he is not. listen he LOVES spooking people and if youre spooked by demons... he loves being #intimidating if you want a big tough king that also understands your deep and dark sides and who is intelligent and gentle but Dark #yeah im sure he'll be Leviathan for you but its like. idk. OH THIS IS. THIS IS THE SECOND REASON. THE POST IS ABOUT THE FIRST #THAT I LISTED LMFAOOOOOO #sorry im so in love w him atm let me talk about him please #ramblings //

[ssaalexblake]

I feel like culturally the 13 gives yaz a gun is playing different among demos on both sides of the pond. 

#dw shit #for the record #if 13 had handed yaz a knife #That's the equivalent of how that scene plays over the atlantic #i have Still not forgotten the blanket statement in her first episode that only losers carry knives #a Very off tone comment for the who mood of the era #but very obvious in why its there #the obvious being how terrible the situation here is around knife crime the past few years #they would. Never. have the doctor with a knife. But sometimes they do with guns. #bc that just doesn't carry the same Thing here as it does elsewhere #it's not visceral. #most ppl here probably haven't seen a functional hand gun in person #like shotguns sure. i've seen afucktonne but i live right by a shooting range #and it was Weird during lockdown when the gunfire stopped #and people who live near military bases or have seen armed police have probably seen big automatic ones #but you really don't see many guns like what yaz had here #Or the one ten had either. #which is of course probably exactly why they got to have them in the first place #sorry... weird tangent but i've seen vastly differing reactions to this out in the wild

[the-mushroom-faerie]

person : why are you smiling at your phone? is there a cute guy you're looking at?

me, not sure if I want to tell them I broke my face smiling at the sweetest tiger I have ever seen : uhhhhhhhhhhhh

#tigers are PRECIOUS and i LOVE THEM OK #any big cats #little cats too #but like i follow so many big cat sanctuaries #panthers jaguars lions tigers leopards #SNOW LEOPARDS PEOPLE FLOOFY LIL SNOW LEOPARDS #have you SEEN a clouded leopard they look like they dont take criticism without crying and baby cat that is a whole mood

[stinkrascal]

redditors will read a post where someone does something vaguely mean and immediately the comments are filled with armchair psychiatrists diagnosing everyone with borderline personality disorder because apparently the only symptom of bpd is when you’re mean to others

#i hate reddit so much sometimes #i honestly didnt even realize people had this many negative connotations surrounding people with bpd until i joined reddit #now i hate admitting i have bpd bc everyone immediately assumes im evil and i simply want to hurt everyone around me like thanks guys :) #mental health awareness rocks :) #if u think bpd = Mean Disease you are wholly unaware of what it means to have bpd #and then these people get so defensive whenever i try to say that actually sometimes my bpd can be a good thing #because yes my emotions are REALLY intense but it works both ways you know. i feel love and happiness and joy so intensely #when im in a good mood im the most supportive person u will ever meet #and these decrepit self-hating crones come at me like NOOOOOO YOU'RE ACTUALLY INCAPABLE OF BEING KIND AND CONSIDERATE TOWARDS OTHERS #YOUR BPD PREVENTS YOU FROM BEING A KIND PERSON! YOU'RE ALWAYS ON THE VERGE OF HURTING PEOPLE! #full offense but choke <3 #also they act like ppl with bpd are incapable of learning coping mechanisms too lmfao #like yes when im in a bad mood its VERY bad but im also grown enough to keep myself away from people when i get to that point #i know how to pull myself away from situations where i feel like i'll split? a LOT of people with bpd know how to do this??? like what #why do they have to assume that literally every person with bpd is unstable and constantly lashing out at others when that just isn't true #if i could i would fight every redditor with my big fucking fists

[soryualeksi]

Time to inflict my headcanons on everyone again, so.

I just had this lovely conversation in my own head where I was trying to articulate how I’m lying. (Without outing myself as autistic because it’s none of anyone’s business. But basically, I give people disclaimers if something comes up how I’m likely going to go about dealing with it so they won’t be too surpised.)

And after a long long fictional conversation to try and find the right words, my brain kindly spat out the line, “If I’m making a story up whole-cloth there’s just too many details I need to keep track of. It’s far easier and more efficient to tell a PART of the truth and then keep in mind WHICH part of the truth I’m telling.”

Aaand in the next moment my brain added the very helpful “lmao yuan”.

!!!

THINK ABOUT IT

Is he ever telling outright FALSEHOOD to the party? (As starkly opposed to SO MANY OTHER CHARACTERS WHO GET A PASS!!!) The things he IS telling are correct and honest. You get like 90% of your exposition from him, he just DUMPS it all on you like “okay look I made a handy flowchart here’s how Yggdrasill runs the world and here’s the underlying mechanics and here’s how we’re in the grand scheme and by the way I’m a double agent for Cruxis while I’m actually running the resistance no harm from telling that to just any rando btw what you need is that sword at the Tower of Salvation but only half-elves can wield it so that’s a problem bye”.

Yuan is being hmmm not-entirely-truthful (lmao) by not telling PART of the whole truth and frankly? The parts he DOESN’T tell? Are actually mostly personal business. “I’m taking you hostage, Lloyd, to further my goals. WHY is none of your business. I’m trying to get Martel off the machines that keep her body alive. WHY is none of your business. Lloyd, you look JUST like someone I know. WHO is none of your --- for fuck’s sake, Kratos, you WILL tell your own damn kid that you’re his damn bio dad OR I WILL and also, Kratos, I’m 100% planning to kill you for Origin’s Seal and I told you so 2 billion times already AND I’M GOING THROUGH WITH IT ANY MINUTE NOW KRATOS!!!!!”

YUAN isn’t the one who boldly LIES into the party’s face, he doesn’t even really stretch the truth, he just WITHHOLDS parts that uhmmmmm couuuld maybe be worth knowing but ehhh (unbiased lmao).

Anyway, enough rambling. Neurodivergent!Yuan. The character that gets the reputation of being “shifty”, “weird”, “a liar”, “untrustworthy” and whose social mannerisms everyone keeps making fun of (me included tbh because he’s my nerrrd) despite lying FAR LESS than like every other character in the damn game. ;___;

#see me constantly justifying every shitty thing my blorbo ever does #but no honestly i keep thinking and thinking how he is depicted with weird social mannerisms and avoiding eye contact #BUT VERY TRUTHFUL in what he actually SAYS #and somehow a big part of fandom took it as 'look at this shifty shady liar who lies' #and i'm just sad at the discussions i have to have defending him as MANY bad things but NOT a liar #and yes it's my personal thing to fixate on because of people thinking i'm lying to them bc i'm not constantly STARING into their damn eyes #lol #but what is a blorbo but a canvas to project our issues onto hm #anyway #neurodivergent yuan my love #doesn't like eye contact has a large personal space collects weird shit is VERY truthful actually and blows up when pushed too hard #and is surrounded by people who think it's HILARIOUS when he blows up too #if that isn't the ultimate nd mood then what is #and martel actually knew how to deal with his issues in a way that's comfortable to him too #unlike mithos and kratos who tried to 'tough love' him out of his more uncommon behaviours and it didn't work AT ALL #tales of symphonia #yuan ka fai #inflicting my headcanons and projections on all of you #yuan ka fai defense squad #lmao

[wren-kitchens]

I realise this is definitely the wrong site to ask but whatever

anyway does anyone here know how neurotypical speech works because I cannot write speech entirely well because I end up writing it how I would say it, which is needlessly elaborate and switching from too formal to casual in the middle of a sentence

#that’s just how I speak and I have no idea how else to write lmfao #like logically I know from shows and books and stuff that people don’t normally use ‘the vast majority of’ instead of ‘most’ #but sometimes I just can’t think of a synonym #I talk in big words because I can’t think of little word synonyms lmfao #one time me and my friend spent 5 minutes trying to remember the word ‘most’ because we couldn’t think of a small version of ‘vast majority #which is something that I haven’t noticed other ppl talking about so maybe that’s just an us thing lmao #I read too many books as a kid and now I can’t remember normal words #that’s a very specific mood i’ll be honest #autistic #actually autsitic #writing #hoax rambles