there is something sooo fucking good about early seasons ian and mickey, about watching this summer fling turn into something more, the fear that elicited from mickey but him being unable to stop, finding those little moments hidden away and taking all this meaning from small gestures and persevering in dugouts and under bleachers and barely pressed confessions in the back of a church that is soo good for my brain
like i am very glad mickey gets to shout his love for ian from the mountain tops and also beat his love for ian into his dad's face but when he was clenching his teeth shut and his love for ian was coming out regardless ohhhhh baby i was eating
I called my dad tonight to ask his opinion on changing my vehicle insurance to something with less coverage and thus lower payments, and got advice. And I know it comes from a place of love, but I don't like how my dad makes me feel an inch tall for my choices around having Beau. I know he's a bit of a "money sink" and that I had to put his vet bills on my credit card that I am trying not to use. But it is good for my mental and physical health to have him.
My finances are always a bit tight and I am trying to cut spending where I can, work extra hours, but things are still not great. It makes me want to cry, but I also chose to prioritize things with Beau - supplements, better fitting tack, driving out to the barn more (more gas money). So I have no one to blame but myself.
He also continues to refer to where I live as "the big bad city", which is annoying.
Basically, it always feels like he wants me to move back towards home. But, while my finances are shit, my mental health is finally actually doing well, which in someways feels better.
Yeah, I have some credit card debt, but I no longer wonder how fast I have to drive off the road into a tree to make everything end right away.
me: wow I’m being so productive today I’ve gotten so much done I wish everyday was like this I wonder what happened to me it must be an exuberant fluke
I just saw your art about Fuyuhiko, Izuru and Peko all living together (amazing art btw! Big fan!!!) and I absolutely adore the idea! Can you imagine the chaos, the crazy things they would probably get into? The thought made my day, so thank you for blessing my page with your art!!! :)
^me writing a ml/dc fic during 2020’s lockdown while watching the George Floyd race riots in Portland through my friend’s camera lense as she gets bruised ribs from cops illegally aiming rubber bullets at journalists and also experiencing a very low depression episode due to The Everything so using writing to force the emotions out of me in a non-physically-violent manner by brutally murdering Marinette’s whole family and half her friends in front of her during an outdoor fashion show mass shooting so that Bruce Wayne could save her life and trauma bond adopt this new orphan.