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[floralmemorials]

Vietnam Veterans Recognition Day

March 29 is Vietnam Veterans Recognition Day. It was on Mach 29 , 1973 that the last of the American troops were pulled out of Vietnam thus ending our involvement in the war between North and South Vietnam. These very young men were drafted or voluntarily enlisted in the service and fought for what our country ask of them. It is fitting that they be recognized for their service. If you know a…

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#American holidays #Floralmemorials blog #generations #grief #history #loss #memorial #patriotic #Peace #Thoughts & More #veterans #Vietnam #Vietnam veterans

[anewp0tat0]

I've been thinking recently, so here's a headcanon:

when Ciel is in a moment of distress, near panic attack perhaps, if someone were to reach out and touch him so that Ciel could feel their skin, his distress would be amplified. however, he does not react that way in response to a gloved hand reaching out for him. in fact, it is almost soothing. afterall, the hand that has comforted him for the past almost 4 years has been gloved. so if he was ever conditioned to fear all touch, that behavior eventually went extinct.

#discounting the which arc cause that was trauma amped up to 100 and it was more the size of the hand that mattered to ciel. he thought he #was 10 years old again so he basically forgot about how he had somewhat matured in the time since that month #man that was awful... #but anyway yea this isn't very happy either. and probably not true. but will that stop me from making a Dadbastian based headcanon? #what do you think #kuroshitsuji #black butler #headcanons #dadbastian #sebastian michaelis #ciel phantomhive #o!ciel #if I ever see anyone take this post in the wrong way istg have a bad night #ptsd cw

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

sometimes

I still think about TWST!Iago being teased but never revealed OTL

#remember when everyone thought Kalim was Iago #Jamil Viper #Najma Viper #twst en #twisted wonderland en #twst #twisted wonderland #spoilers #disney twisted wonderland #notes from the writing raven #or is that middle school friend supposed yo be that one other Jafar minion #the little human thief dude?? that released genie!Jafar from the amp #Iago is way more iconic imo

[steelblue8]

Local girlthing covers her floor in audio equipment trying to improve sound quality to limited success, more at 7

#The phono stage was making this horridly annoying buzzing noise so records sucked to listen to #You go “oh grounding issue?” NOPE the audio-technica turntable doesn't have any grounding plug #And unplugging the turntable didn't fix the buzzing at all #But that was unplugging at the turntable end. Eventually worked out that the noise was worst with just the cable plugged into the amp #And not the turntable itself #So contact cleaner on the amps rca jacks (80s tech. It is Needed) and just... Using a different less cheap cable from the amp to turntable #It's just fine now #Like I can't really hear the interference but it is still there. I thought the amp has more parts that need contact cleaner #Esp the volume dial. But I don't wanna disassemble it atm

[z0mbiefrank]

do you ever wanna listen to a song "organically" so you play the entire album to build up to it, then when it finally hits it feels even better??

#i get progressively more amped up knowing its getting closer and closer #z0mbie thoughts

[becca4leafclover]

What if Pix the Copper King and Pix the Archaeoloist are the same person?

The Copper King disappeared before even hints of the Rapture started to emerge in ancient times. He was a figure of great knowledge, wealth, and mystery, and one of the most respected, if distant Emperors of the time.

His Empire, known at the time (but likely not before or after it) as Pixandria, worshipped death. The center of their civilization stood a monument known as the Vigil: a remembrance of all those that died in all the Empires, at the time of everyone else's memory. Only some drawings and paintings depict the Vigil now, for most of Pixandria at some point was buried by its sea of sand.

But it is said that despite being the one to tend to the Vigil the most, and hold some of the most sacred duties of it, the Copper King did the unthinkable, and denied death to his fellow Emperors. He uncovered a magic forgotten for a reason, and traded it with those rich enough to afford it.

And for that, he was punished. So they say, at least.

Since he denied kings and queens death, death shall deny him his eternal rest, until all those that paid him repay their debt to the afterlife.

The Copper King then fled into the desert, and was never heard from again. Not even as the Rapture claimed the mainland Empires, as his city was swallowed into the sand. It's possible that he died along with the rest of the great powers at the time, and "equally as possible that he still wanders the world in a self-imposed exile..."

Pix set down his pen and leaned back in his chair with a sigh. He gets tired of writing out this same story every once in a while, honestly. It's the accepted history yeah, but sometimes it's a little frustrating to make out the Copper King as some shadowy, potential evil figure who abandoned everyone just before their moment of need.

He looked out the window flap of his tent at the rising sun. Oh, it was morning already? He slid his chair out from his desk and stretched his back from writing for probably too long for what's considered healthy.

But when he went outside, the golden sun beams creeping over the mountains illuminating the highlights of the leftovers of Gilded Helanthia were a nice wake up call. He had a lot of work to do today- excavate more of the farming district, feed the dodos, oh yeah and Lizzie stopped by the other day wanting to trade slime for froglights again, right?

And of course, Pix had his other type of work to do today. A favor, for some old friends.

He knew the truth, written in between the lines of his ink. Maybe it wasn't quite a curse placed on him. Maybe Pixandria wasn't as buried as they thought. Maybe he didn't want to leave his friends. Maybe not all his friends ever died, same as him. Maybe his friends never left, and needed someone to guide them.

Oh, goodness me- Is that a FACE on Hermitopia?!

#empires amp #pixlriffs #empires season two #empiressmp #empires season one #empires pixl #becca writes #Hey it's actually coherent this time! #honestly im not sure if this is a fic or a headcanon or an analysis #<- I'm using this tag for this weird one shot series I'm apparently doing #I thought about making pix be reincarnated like most the other emperors and have joel that lived both lives tell him about it #and THEN pix remembers the truth of the copper kings fate #But him being the same guy that death asked a favor of and is chilling is more fun LOL

[bikelaned]

GUYS YOU-

I-

I WAS THINKING ABOUT A ROTTMNT AU AND MY BRAIN CALLED IT A "VANILLA+ AU"

THEN I THOUGHT ABOUT SWANNATELLO AND LITTLE PRINCE AND WHAT NOT AND MY BRAIN SAID 'MODDED AU'

LIKE FUCKING MINECRAFT MODS- SOBBING

BRAIN ROT

#it was hard to turn the thoughts into words because they were IMAGES but y'know whatever #hi #:3 #vanilla+ mod? more like uhhh ninja turtles #modded more like when you go crazy wild #radical even #im losing my mind #bikelaned's rambles &amp; friends

[amplified-pain-culture-is]

my rheumatologist told me that her treatment plan will "cure" my AMPS, do you think that's true or BS lmfao (i definitely think the treatment could HELP but cure is a strong word,,?)

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#sorry i havent been active on this blog! college and health has been rough #thought id at least pass this along to someone more knowledgeable #i personally think the idea that AMPS can be cured is BS #you can definitely get better and/or find ways to cope with it that improve your quality of life #things get better #but theres no for sure cure #amps #amplified musculoskeletal pain syndrome #amplified pain culture is #amps culture is #crps #rsd #crps/rsd

[seithr]

Another day i shall be spending the whole day Out and am thus unable to draw anything. if only you guys knew. I have so many thoughts. I can imagine anything 👉😎

#i thought of shepard masseffect in a mech labelled spectre and got dizzy. sorry good morning. afternoon. wherever. robot.. #every day i forget what i was imagining the day before though. and i am also not good at finishing my work. burdened by lack of skill #yes i know theres the atlas mech in me3. i never shot the pilots out in time and it is not a sexy robot either. unfortunate! oh well. #imagine if you will. krogan crawler mechs built like tanks. or a sniper mech named archan- (i am pulled off stage.) #please dont show up in tags. i will now blab more before i put it in my own sorting tags. #thane's with a sort of camoflaughing cloak with heavy life support built in. biotic amps and massive energy fields. #salarian stgs/mordin with supporting group of smaller field recon suits for covert ops. covert as you can get with mechs LMAO #ok thats eight tags or so. thats enoufg right. ok. sorting time #mass effect #armour clanking

[floralmemorials]

A Quiet Hillside in Kansas

I went to Coronado’s Castle just outside Greensburg Kansas recently and this quiet beautiful cemetery was next to the castle entrance. First I should explain that the castle was built during the 1930s as part of a WPA project and Coronado had nothing to do with it other than to use his name. The cemetery is along a rolling hillside and even had a few cattle grazing at a distance.

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#cemeteries #cemetery #cemeteryroadside #Find A Grave #Floralmemorials blog #generations #grave #grave markers #gravesite #graveyard #history #Interesting photos #Kansas #Kansas cemeteries #Kansas sky #roadside memorial #Thoughts &amp; More

[bmpmp3]

I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away

#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd #ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding. #i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way #when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee #but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo #and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards #not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony #my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like #marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there #i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my #parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL) #but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school #nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is #same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL #i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not. #i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds #but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice #i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring #that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases #and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason #you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident #im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like #i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS #i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3 #i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔

[roxyandelsewhere]

Angels’ trueforms in their most memorable moments [24/?] - Zachariah in 4x22 Lucifer rising

inprnt | society6 | redbubble | ko-fi

#trying out something new with this one hiii #spn #spnart #spn art #trueforms #spn fanart #mine.caro #sooo. zachariah. ive wanted to do this one for so long. i was thinking specifically of him in that mirrors shot. bc of course #bc that shot is so good precisely because That's zachariah! that's him!! he did that on purpose #he's powerful but he likes amping himself up too. looking down on all the ants. holding a magnifying glass #the trueform itself is very geometric but not angel factory settings. bc of all the pride and narcissism and arrogance etc #the core of it is that circle at the center with all the eyes turned inward. my initial thought was self-centeredness (literal) #but can be self-surveilling too. and it works. and the eye at the top is looking down and has crows feet and all. he's fun! #there's always that sense of fun to him. he's a cool pal about being a demented powerful foot who's on his way to squash you! #the puppeteer hands are more literal than these usually get but the thing about zachariah is he comes down here. he stoops down #he Wants to be seen by humans. and here we get to the crucial aspect of this trueform. remember when he said he had lion heads? #in his trueform. he said that. i didn't go that way. he doesn't. to me. but he Wants you to know he's powerful and Big #so hence the editing here. my idea was to go for a house of mirrors thing. he IS big and mighty but a big part of it is artificial #it's set up by him. he sat down between those mirrors. so he doesn't have actual lion heads #the reflections and expansions here are him Saying he has the lion heads #and there's a halo at the center (remember in other angels like uriel/s4 cas/etc i did halos? that) and no crosses #bc zachariah follows god's plan very laboriously but not out of worship. it's more like a dutiful high-ranking-employee-but-not-the-CEO #at a company. and to me the crosses didn't fit that. didn't feel right #and i think that's it for explanations. as for how i did it #i made a fool of myself at first doing experiments with mirrors inside my scanner and then decided i ws gonna edit it digitally #so i scanned the full thing and then each side with the sheet raised a bit and then i fought for my life against photoshop #it seems to have crashed permanently (????) so i finished this in photopea and this was the closest i could get #to the image of it i had in my head. so here u go #i'm gonna try to upload this now to the stores but idk if the files i have are right for it. if not i'll try again tomorrow

[vampireonastick]

#using this as an excuse to use polls for the first time #I’d love to hear all your thoughts on this #both the airport plot and Meursault plot seem to be amping up towards a climax here- and I’m guessing the end of the DoA arc will follow #shortly after #so I figured now would be a good time for this- before we get too many hints from the upcoming chapters #I’ll share my own thoughts on this topic at some point during this poll #though generally- every character I listed here is one I believe to be a likely option- but I’m leaning more towards some than others #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bsd manga spoilers

[flash-from-the-past]

Cake Mania

#cake mania #flash #my first time management AND restaurant game #back then i didn't like it much. it was annoying how slow the oven was and i thought the cakes besides the brown round one looked dumb #the frosting machine was cool though #replaying it now i think there's also the issue that it's just boring #most restaurant games that actually feature the meal prep part will do something to keep you on your toes and amp up the difficulty #new snacks. new flavors. new meals that need several steps to cook. things that need restocking every now and then. #cake mania has nothing. it's just cakes and more cakes. if you don't buy any bonus machines you're stuck with the same four flavors. #there are bonus toppings but you gotta buy these on your own too #also it doesn't have a clock to show you how much time is left #the sequel fixed that but not the boredom #the art is very nice though i'll give it that

[unproduciblesmackdown]

also given that the logic of said superiority authoriority is an entitlement to deny someone's personhood & use them as an object for your purposes, from obviously getting to direct what they must do & can't do, to enjoying whatever gratification from lashing out / demeaning which is also going to serve as an affirming exercise in authority when one can do that from an insulated elevated place....a crucial part of whatever form of this violence, from the most nanoscopic triangle in the sierpiński triangle pyramid scheme hierarchy, to the hypothetical largest (zoom in or out to whatever degree: the same shit also), being that indeed the superior parties need the deserved insulation from any Consequence to exerting their superior status, including indeed from having to witness the consequences For the "inferior" parties, such as whatever externalizations of suffering they recognize as such, which either (a) need to be put away (b) are manipulative performances or otherwise exaggerated (e.g. being a pussy / not even having the sense to realize how little suffering they're Really experiencing) or (c) can be fun to witness if you decide you enjoy that as an affirmation of power as per your ability to completely detach from any avoidance of causing pain, harming for its own sake, b/c you Can

all which is to frame how Interesting it is that after all those moments of going "well, they keep bothering with reaction shots of winston noticeably feeling hurt & expressing it, sometimes also verbally. it's like it could be setting up something" it set up Nothing; while once again just like has been done dozens of times a scene just Ends on winston being rejected &/or hurt, no resolution then, no resolution ever, and in the case of 7x03 was so significant an attack that just like in 4x11 when mafee gets to take out his own Loyalty Insecurity on winston while everyone else hangs around in tacit to overt approval, everyone just leaves the room & we get winston staying behind in the Most distant position aaand scene's over! thread's over! david levien get back here after you Liked that 4x12 livetweet of mine pointing out "so see & winston was right anyways??" like....that is: we are given the Perspective of someone who is also now Leaving winston behind, thus immune to the consequences of however that treatment could actually affect him or how he might struggle to deal with that now (who cares! the answer is: Alone) like Whatever, next time we see him he's completely fine now. and i'm just so happening to think that all the little moments of getting to see winston wither & withdraw & etc in reaction to being shitted on was also us being granted the perspective of Gratification that he's punished for speaking or existing or whatever, without it ever going anywhere or mattering beyond that instant. we too are the ones who surely get to relentlessly bully the autistic person & damn if we don't at least enjoy someone getting to go off the rails restoring their ego by doing absolutely whatever they want to him, which just so happens to be perfectly aligned with getting him Back In Line. pull yourself together winston! the only consequences you're experiencing we wanna deal with are the ones where you give us the algorithm we decided we want, actually. and now let's look across the rest of the season where the consequences for wags for being this way (or anyone else for standing by, ready to benefit, with philip bafflingly declaring as well how actually it was brutal in a good way) is approximately fuckall even as of course nobody's pretending he's one of the personal growth guys out here: rian is though, and didn't have to "grow" out of abusing winston or thinking that was fine & good or that of course she's inherently superior! and in the end we have more affection and interest for the Epic Asshole than their Cringe Targets

#yeah once again really appreciate being given the Rewards of that Fantasy of pwning these losers #we get to Glimpse winston going :/ :( b/c that's how we know he was aptly punished for trying to act like he's a fellow person #when we're grabbing his head forcing him back into place in a bigger way it's more important we then dust our hands off & Leave #winston leaving May be that eventual acknowledgment of consequence for w/e scraps of sympathy (pity) billions has for him #but it's made into an episode abt wags w/marked Little care for winston's role & once again Just A Fun Power Trip! for us viewers too! #thoughts amped up from the harmonic resonance of a more zoomed out triangle in the self similar fractal of pyramid scheme hierarchy.... #the inferior may be beset w/mass death & violence but um my nice dinner out please?? same No Consequences For The Superior logics #prince shits on winston ep 1? cool! we're giving him a chance. shits on rian ep 12? whoa! whadda hell blunosaur....hang on a minute.... #winston billions #how gracious to align us as viewers with the people comfortably shitting on those Beneath Them for kicks & status #and ''pitying'' the Inferior parties doesn't disrupt your superiority so don't worry about that #rian talking to winston like a dog & pitching right in for hurting him via ''he wasn't ever worth listening to But here ya go'' as Pity.... #taylor moved away from their being willing to hire him; listen to him; even At All step in even a Tiny bit to insulate him.... #towards wanting to forever ignore him & express contempt & tell rian the pitying is Too Much & be right there w/wags in 7x03...? #guess that was just like ''well they can't possibly have an arc of keeping up Any supportiveness / basic recognition of this loser'' #but they also don't have to interact w/their own willingness to Insistence on being awful to him either #wasn't even the consequence of [once again we need his epic output...but have treated him like shit?] nah just took it from him :) #anyways; riled. riling times #sure having plenty of firsthand experience with a Refusal to accept like responsibility of produced suffering #there's plenty of room for distress; particularly if translated into irritation/anger; as dismissable to ''haha funny. now anyways'' #then there's the option of Resenting whatever evident pain. you can't Tyrannically impose that consequence on Me!!! why i oughta #see also the tyranny of winston Speaking (demanding listening) Being Present (demanding navigation of that) having wants; feelings (NO).... #or you're at more of a loss? you ofc simply get to literally/figuratively walk away :) turning away from winston. ending the scene. shrug #anyways winston is inherently an Other who just so happens to deserve to be Our punching bag & inferior in life yippee wahoo #and by ''just so happens'' we mean clearly Deserves it based on nothing abt what Consequences his actions do or don't have lol lmao #his deserving this inferiority is something more Inherent about him okay lol lmao XD a sentiment unchallenged all 5 seasons he's here #how fun every time rian starts talking to winston with insults & punishment Prompted by his audacity in existing loserishly #what a rollicking episode as wags decides he'll prove his superiority over someone today & everyone claps as he assaults winston. nice! #it was so essential b/c now we can Take his coding w/o having to interact w/him (save 1 meeting just w/sacker!) cool!!! good!!! #lord even knows Where Do I Start Where Do I End It well anywhere & nowhere always & never. the lil topic of ableism & abuse

[sleeby-anon]

Anon who’s looking for subbur-anon I found them on ao3?

Huh—I’m happy that you found them

#im not really gonna put much more thought into it tbh #my schoolwork is amping up #and that comes before online things #wishing you well anon #sleeby mumblings #sleeby anon