#THIS WAS SO DISORGANIZED

[burn-with-the-house]

hi i saw the words reaver!mahanon and blacked out, i would love to hear you talk about that if you want to

😈 hi.

So Reaver!Mahanon is an intentional choice by me to help tie into his themes of blood and the ritual consumption thereof. There’s these themes where Mahanon is concerned where, it’s like… “oh I’ve consumed this cup at the joining and now my blood is tainted? It always was” in regards to a lot of misogyny regarding menstrual blood and how it’s considered taboo just as the Joining is and there’s this gendering that he does to the darkspawn and—

Anyways 😌 so when he’s given the offer to drink dragon blood and defile the urn to give himself another edge against the Archdemon, he does it. (This is another point of Mahanon’s death to himself; the loss of faith. He doesn’t necessarily consider him a true Andrastian past this point). It’s also important to note that he also drinks the blood potion from the Warden’s Keep… which unlocks another layer to his talents with tainted blood.

It’s ironic because he’s so wary of blood mages, where he’s kind of doing something similar in using the taint of his blood to ward against his foes. He’s not bloodthirsty but he’s letting his own blood to give himself an edge in battle and causing significantly more harm to others. He’s so insane for it TBH.

There’s this whole question in origins where someone asks your warden what it feels like to come into contact with darkspawn blood and Mahanon describes it like a burning. So in my canon and in my fic, Mahanon’s blood is always this burning in his veins. It ties into the idea of the dragon cult later on—he’s drank dragon blood, of course it’s going to burn. It’s tainted it’s going to burn. It’s holy (subvert the condemnation of femininity) it’s going to burn.

He’s willing to coat his own weapons in it, he’s willing to let his own blood to burn others, he’s willing to spill it and go into a crazed battle-rage while greatly subtracting from his own health—

He gets to this point when he goes to battle the Archdemon, with all of these decisions weighing on him and his burning blood singing in his veins, and he looks at Urthemiel and it’s this moment of… “you and I are made of the same filth”.

#THIS WAS SO DISORGANIZED #I hope this made sense lmao #I was all over the place with it #I really was just rambling #but yeah that’s the reaver!Mahanon lore #text post #dragon age #dragon age origins #mahanon tabris

[theofficialmitmcconnell]

it would’ve been kinda nice to have gotten some heads-up from the universe before i was born.

like damn? the universe could’ve been like “just so you know, you’ll be living in this world as a mentally ill, disabled, broke, queer, woman of color. you sure you wanna do this?”

for legal reasons, the answer is yes. side note: how the fuck are young autistic people supposed to live and function on their own? like i can barely drink anything, but i’m supposed to be supporting a whole human being??

#this was so disorganized #rant post #autism #actually mentally ill #capitalism sux

[inkskinned]

there's a video on instagram of a man kicking his partner's door in. the top comment is (with over 4 thousand likes): "how about you tell us what you did to make him that angry?"

barring emergency, nobody should be kicking anybody's door in. many of us lived in houses where it was always, somehow, an emergency. there is a strange, almost hysterical calm that comes over you in that moment - everything feels muted, and you almost feel, however incongruently, like you should be laughing. you are living inside of "the emergency." oh my god, you think. i am now a fucking statistic.

there is another comment with 2.8 thousand likes: "if this was a woman doing it to a man, nobody would give a shit."

do people give a shit now, though?

barring emergency, the door should remain standing. the emergency should be panicked, desperate - "i'm coming in there to protect you." many of us know what it feels like when the emergency is instead "i'm coming in there to get you."

1.5k likes: "and yet you post this for notes. glad to see being the victim has become your whole personality."

hysteria is a word connected to womb, from greek. what you're experiencing is so senseless and inhumane that you (a rational creature) try to find any ground within what is irrational and cannot be explained. one of the most frustrating things about staying in bad situations is that we also lie to ourselves. we also ask ourselves - wow. what did i do?

women can be, and often are, also abusers. abuse is not gendered. abuse is not just a "straight person" problem. abuse does not have a face or figure or sexuality. you cannot pick an abuser out of a crowd. an abuser could be actually anybody.

and then so many people rally behind the man kicking the door in. here is something nobody should be doing, right? you want to ask every person that liked that first comment: do you ask this because you side with him? do you ask this because it helps you feel safe from this ever happening?

in some ways, you're weirdly sympathetic to the top comment, because it is the same logic you see frequently. the idea is that the average, normal, sane person doesn't just break down a door. doesn't just shoot up a school. doesn't stalk and kill women. doesn't threaten sexual assault. doesn't run over protesters. doesn't shoot an unarmed black person. doesn't scream at underpaid walmart employees. doesn't just "lose it". something had to have happened, right? because the default (white. straight. cis.) - that is someone who is always, you know. "sane."

(right?)

on a podcast, you hear a sane, normal, rational person. "if you piss me off, i'm going to need to hit something. sorry but i'm not apologizing. that's just who i am that's how it is." his voice almost sounds like he's laughing.

you think of the door, and how you were almost laughing behind it, too. ironically, every real emergency in your life has almost felt peaceful in comparison. fire, car accident, flash flooding - these felt quiet, covenant to you. you'd stood in all of them, feeling them pass over and up to your chin, never actually overwhelming.

but when the door was coming down, you had felt - is there a word for that? there has to be, a word, right.

surely one of us has figured out the word for that, i mean. it's such a large fucking statistic.

#spilled ink #writeblr #warm up #this is so disorganized #i just saw that video and the comments made me want to vomit #it's actually like. in the way it's funny that you got into a car crash and got the flu within the same 24 hours #it's like. #it's funny #because certain people will blame everything on mental illness #even being transgender. #they will not #however #at any point - even vaguely suggest that a man should maybe get therapy. #like. a guy busting down a door isn't a danger-to-himself-and-others #(you just pushed him too far). #but a young adult looking for top surgery should be institutionalized for even wanting to change their body.

[almondpiglet]

wip of a request im trying to finish i’m gonna die painting this!!

#why did i decide to do a background… #i love pain and suffering #i have a big pile of stuff i started recently… i’m bad at planning what to finish first :( #so stuff just comes out done whenever… #this is the reason why i’ve never taken comms yet… i’m too disorganized sadly #my art #wip #mp100 #serirei

[deoidesign]

Sorry I havent stopped thinking about them since I saw this post

#AUAUUGSAJGLSDJGLSKJGDALKGDSALGKGDSAMLVADLJSLKGSM #I so funnay aha #uh. not much to say I'm so tired rn AHHAHA #enjoy my shitpost about my own ocs #time and time again #webtoon #webtoon originals #ttawebcomic #adam and steve #my art #comic art #comics #webcomics #meme #shitpost #not sure what I tag jokes as??? #joke #I am so disorganized...

[loboazul16]

This is how these two went right?

#dungeon meshi #laios #kabru #I need to ramble excuse me #this is just disorganized thoughts dont look too much into it #RRRHRRHRHRGHRGHRGHRAAAAAAAAA #laios likes monsters more than he likes people #people bore him #so he just loves knowing about mosnters and ignores people #kabru has a fascinating interest in people #going beyond the normal limit of getting to know a person #and he cant understand why anyone would like monsters #none of them are normal about this #literal opposites of each other i am exploding

[diana-thyme]

SUPER Low Energy Witchcraft

I’ve been seeing a lot of low energy witchcraft posts, but every one I read isn’t really low energy. When I think ‘low energy,’ I think something I can do on my lowest of low days. Days I can’t get out of bed or even think sometimes. So here it is. The SUPER Low Energy Witchcraft Guide.

Sigils sites. I have found this one to be very good. They’ll make a sigil for you so you don’t have to.

Pinterest boards. Making spells or manifesting using Pinterest boards is one of my favorite things to do.

Spotify playlists. Similar to the Pinterest board idea, use songs to create spells or manifest certain things.

Emoji spells. Use emojis to make spells, making sure they’re packed with intent.

Hang out with your tarot deck. Or any divination tool, for that matter. Just having it near you counts.

Talking to spirits and deities. Tell them about something you plan to do for them, a ritual you’d like help with, ask for help getting through the lows, etc. Or just talk to them. It doesn’t matter about what, talking improves relationships.

Read. Read books you were planning on reading. Definitely do not ever go on Z-Library for free books. Never. /s You do have limits on downloading and it’s relatively hard to figure out on mobile, but if you can get your tablet or computer up and running, it’ll work perfectly.

Scroll through Tumblr. Or Reddit. Or Pinterest. Or even Tik Tok. Scroll through the witch tags, scroll through the tags of and deities you might worship/work with. Or just look at pretty plants. Think about what they can help you with.

Make a shopping list. If you need to restock any herbs or candles, note it down.

Just light a candle or two. Simple as that.

Make a pouch or enchant a piece of jewelry or whatever you want to do to help you recover from your lows before they happen. Touch them or hold them or even just think of them when you want.

Similar to above, enchant any aids (mobility aids, medication, pain relievers, heating pads and ice packs, etc.) to help you recover faster.

If you can, think about your practice, what you want to change, what you 100% wouldn’t change, how it relates to others’ crafts, etc.

Meditate. I’m not talking about some 30 minute guided meditation sitting upright, because I have trouble with them on my lows. I’m talking about staring blankly into space or practicing mindfulness or something like that. You don’t have to do it for long, either. Take a few minutes to chill.

If you can, open your windows. Or curtains. Or blinds. Let it clear out your space.

Enchant your water or foods to help with your symptoms. Draw a sigil with anything (oil, sharpie, air, etc.) on your bottles and above your food to aid in your recovery.

Wash your face and/or hands to cleanse yourself for the day.

Have a ‘worry stone.’ Take a crystal or rock or other stone and rub it when you’re anxious. Or, enchant it to remove negative energies and rub it when your pain is at the worst. The very least it will do is distract you.

Simply rest. Resting and taking some time to recover is the best practice.

Obviously this isn’t a large list, but I cannot emphasize the ‘simply rest’ part enough. As practitioners, we tend to want to do more when we’re sitting bored in bed. But remember, safety first. The quicker you recover, the quicker you can get back to your craft.

#if you have smth to add please add it #i want to see more people with small crafts #i want to see more disabled witches like me fr #and also tell me if this is hard to read or there’s anything i need to correct #my thinking is extra disorganized today so #witch #witchblr #witchy #witchcraft #baby witch #beginner witch #deity work #green witch #kitchen witch #moon witch #witchery #witches #spirit work #spirits #deities

[mikichko]

it’s gaz who gives you the nickname wisp. and it sticks. you’re not exactly sure where it came from or what it means but it could’ve been much worse.

but the 141 know exactly why.

gaz notices first, of course. how different versions of you rotate throughout the day depending on who you're talking to. there are moments where he notices pieces of the real you coming out. telltale sign is your shoulders dropping back, not in the rigid stance usually saved for attention but in relief. like someone's snapped the string that was holding you up. those moments don't last and it's not long before your shoulder's are rigid and pinched the way someone on high alert keeps them.

in his head ghost calls you cam. short for chameleon. just like gaz he notices how you shape and mold yourself to appeal to others. you're not blending in, he realizes, you're mirroring them. reading them and reacting just how they'd like. a quip here, a smile there, a joke about some one-off thing that you'd noticed made their eyes light up. he wonders what it's like to see the real you, what you'd be like if you were in front of your own mirror. he doesn't get to ponder too long, he can see you fading as you morph

you escape out of soap's grasp so many times he thinks his nickname should be yours instead. he thinks to himself one day that it must be natural for the two of you to miss each other. to be lucky enough some days to occupy some square footage of space before you disappear through a doorway, leaving him wanting. even when you're on the same base, hell same missions sometimes, you're never close enough to him. just out of his reach.

price happens to find you when you think you're alone. just like gaz he's privy to the relaxed state of your body, rigid lines becoming softer against the worn material of the couch. he watches the way your hand strokes the skin along your clavicle, thumb pressing down into the dip of your jugular notch. there's a cloudy look to your eyes as you continue to absentmindedly soothe yourself from whatever you're dissecting in your head. he watches for a while, trying to piece together what it is you're reliving. he knows it's time for him to take his leave when your shoulders straighten, even before your eyes blink away the clouds.

you're there for a moment, before you disappear, evading their grasp.

a/n: i got crazy writers block and was trying to force myself to write my wips but instead my brain cooked this up. everyone say thank you to @buttdumplin for making me brave enough to post <3

#huge shout out to nena for being my cheerleader #inspired by my true nickname >:) #in spanish my family called me ‘mechas’ which translate to wisps afaik #wisps for candles specifically #and it was because when i was little nobody really knew how to handle my curly hair so i had a lot of disorganized pieces #endings not my fave but whatevers #.cod #.mine #.tf141 #.price #.ghost #.gaz #.soap #kyle 'gaz' garrick #kyle garrick x reader #john price x reader #john price #john soap mctavish x reader #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley x reader #simon ghost riley

[lovely-abeille]

HELLO i was wondering if you could help me with a webweave about home, and how it is safety, loneliness, hostility and alien all at the same time?

bonedog, eva h.d. // persepolis: the story of a childhood, marjane satrapi // changing, liv ullman // the stream of life, clarice lispector // body, adonis; tr. khaled mattawa

#if you've requested a web weave i'm sorry it's taking forever i'm super busy and i'm very disorganized so pls bear with me #web weave #web weaving #literature #lit #on childhood #on family #on growing up #poetry fragments #fragments #words #poetry #quotes #poetry compilation

[akechi-stole-my-heart]

i've seen takes that are like "goro doesn't actually like philosophy it's just part of the detective prince mask and he stops being interested in it after third sem" which i think they get from him misquoting hegel (which imo was probably just a mistake on atlus' part? but if not then goro was definitely doing it on purpose as a test.) but it's like. you literally understand nothing about my boi if you think that. goro loves thinking. he loves solving puzzles. he thinks most of philosophy is pretentious bullshit but that's only after reading every major philosopher and developing a hot take on all of them. all he does whenever you invite him to the jazz club in third sem is talk philosophy. every conversation he's saying bullshit like "what if the happiness of one individual relies on the unhappiness of another?" he's a stupid fucking NERD ok like come on

#goro akechi #sera posts #i wrote this in a discord dm and decided to copy paste it here so sorry if its more disorganized than my usual posts #sera talks goro

[carpetbug]

more Duvet brain rot! Gotta have a lie at the ready when you time travel to take care of your literal inner child 🐇

and a bonus

#carpetbug art #miraculous #miraculous ladybug #ml #miraculous fanart #bunny!chloe #chloe bourgeois #chloe #duvet #duvet: what I do in my burrow is my business and no one elses #ladybug: ITS A LITERAL FUCKING TIME MACHINE WHY WOULD THAT NOT BE OUR BUSINESS #you can really see i gave up on the last two panels <3 i love and hate drawing this shit is both awesome and so dumb at the same time #anyways baby chloe is hard to draw and so is crying WHEN ITS ALL SIMPLE AND TINY #ignore me i just make myself do things the hardest possible way every time #i know the burrow is the same for all rabbit holders but idk. Duvets burrow is all disorganized and chaotic to me

[lilislegacy]

an analysis: piper calling percy unimpressive

(warning: i wrote this at 1 am)

so basically

remember how we all despised piper mclean when she had the audacity to call our beloved percy “unimpressive” and we all lost our shit on the inside a little bit?

i truly don’t think she meant it in the way we think she did. i think we’re all just defensive of our boy.

piper clearly states that she is comparing percy to jason. first of all, jason is her boyfriend, so of course she’s biased. second of all, hera was manipulating piper to be obsessed with jason. so other guys and girls are automatically unimpressive to her.

and here’s the big thing: piper does not call him unattractive. she does not call him ugly. she simply says he’s not her type. piper is clearly attracted to the “good boy” look. jason is literally your all-american boy. he’s tall with light skin, a sturdy build, neat blonde hair, and blue eyes. part of why annabeth doesn’t trust him is because she is unsettled by his “perfect” appearance. jason is also obedient and well-mannered. he’s your standard good boy.

and the fact of the matter is: percy looks like a “bad boy”. and often, he acts like one too. him and jason are contrasts of each other. a symbolic representation of this: their features. percy has a darker complexion, messy black hair, unique green eyes, and a “sarcastic troublemaker smile.” he’s muscular, but in a leaner and more trim way. he’s tall, but he’s not a towering muscleman by any means. not that jason is either, but don’t forget, percy is a whole one. inch. (GASP) shorter than jason (which to me isn’t even noticeable, so her pointing it out as a flaw just proves that she’s so incredibly biased towards jason.) their other big contrasting feature: their personalities. jason is respectful and well-mannered. very obedient and under control. percy, however, makes jokes during inappropriate moments, talks back to people of power and authority, gets angry quickly, and loses control easily. i mean, literally right after she says this, percy starts insulting the roman god Bacchus and rapidly escalates a situation because of his natural instinct to be disobedient. piper is horrified by him doing this, especially because jason would never. does it make US all love percy very much? yes. but piper isn’t us.

THAT SAID, even she can’t actually call him unattractive. she even went as far to state that she can see why annabeth likes him, which means even her magically-obsessed-with-jason brain can still recognize his attractiveness and see why girls find him appealing. she calls him “cute in a scruffy way,” meaning she thinks that he’s got a disheveled attractiveness to him. she also once said that his pleading eyes are like a cute baby seal’s - even she can’t deny that his eyes are wonderful. so even though piper calls him unimpressive, i think rick put in a lot of clues here showing us that she acknowledges him as a conventionally attractive person, even if she’s not personally attracted to him.

let’s sum it up, shall we?

what does it say about percy? absolutely nothing. piper calling percy unimpressive is an inaccurate and unreliable source when it comes to analyzing percy’s physical appearance, especially if you don’t consider the context. this was rick’s way of showing piper’s clear preference towards jason, just like annabeth has a clear preference towards percy. and even though she said this, rick also made her give us several hints that percy is handsome, just not in a way she’s inclined towards. rick wanted love triangles to be completely out of the question with these 4. he wanted to make it very clear that annabeth had no interest in jason, and that piper had no interest in percy. so since piper is so drawn towards jason, percy had to be very different from him in her eyes.

jason is your a superman, percy is your batman

jason is your captain america, percy is your iron man. some even say spider man.

so put yourself in piper’s shoes: after hearing percy jackson’s name non-stop for 6 months, hearing him compared to jason, hearing of all his accomplishments and how heroic he is - i mean, the guy was literally honored on olympus and offered godhood - she was expecting a stereotypical good-boy hero. a hercules. a superman. your standard muscular blinding-white-teeth-smile hunk. the conventional, well-mannered good boy. and instead she got a wild and untamed, trouble-making bad boy. percy has an edge to him. he’s intimidating and unpredictable. he’s sarcastic and witty. he just looks like he’s up to no good. she wasn’t expecting any of that. that’s not what we’re taught a hero is supposed to be like or look like.

jason is appealing in a “he’d be a respectable and sturdy husband” way.

percy is appealing in a “he’s gonna fuck up my life but i so badly want him to” kind of way. (even though once you get to know him, you see he’s literally the world’s best boyfriend. piper even gets jealous of how loving he is towards annabeth.)

she had this exact idea of what he would be, and he wasn’t that. hence her calling him “unimpressive.” but it says nothing about his attractiveness.

i rest my case, your honor.

thank you for coming to my ted talk

disclaimer: i am not saying percy is actually a bad boy or a bad guy. he is a sweetheart. he has the biggest heart ever. he’s a cute little cinnamon roll. i am simply talking of first impressions from outsiders, and how he appears if you don’t know him.

#don’t worry #percy is hot #analysis #this is so disorganized lol #late night thoughts #you guys asked for it #percy jackson #jason grace #mark of athena #heroes of olympus #percabeth #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo #annabeth chase

[doobledabbadoo]

got around making some more htf ocs!! i honestly cant stop theyre too fun to make actually

#dooble moment #my art #cw happy tree friends #cw htf #happy tree friends #htf #htf oc #htf ocs #GOD i love making ocs for this show so much #like. theres so many fun character ideas you can incorporate into the show #dont question the ethics of cerise’s attire. shes far from the most moral character #ive wanted to develop scurry a bit more to not make him just an orange generic tree friend #but i think just giving him a lot of things to do shows that hes a lil disorganized & yk what? #we love a disorganized king #also love the idea that scoffy & scoldy are like. HUGE rivals when it comes to their jobs #but theyre good friends outside of work #maybe even lovers? who knows!

[lifemod17]

It was so nice knowing you guys, unfortunately this ended me

I'm so dead I'm actually posting this from the great beyond. Don't forget me guys. Be sure to leave pretty flowers on my grave tyvm.

Source: @ theskimm on TikTok

#BRO IS SO BEAUTIFUL WHAT THE FUCK ANDREW #if i was that interviewer i would have died on the spot #honestly cannot wait for the full interview to drop cuz the snippets are so good #like homie is out here straight up saying he's the problem and you know what i respect that #i can fix him (I'm just as bad) #(our disorganized attachment goes INSANE) #like “if you think im a green flag that's on you” #<- AND IF THAT AIN'T THE STORY OF MY LIFE #hozier #the man that you are #andrew hozier byrne

[gael-garcia]

Fallen Leaves (2023, Aki Kaurismäki)

#fallen leaves #aki kaurismaki #aki kaurismäki #Kuolleet lehdet #world cinema #finnish cinema #dailyworldcinema #screencaps #filmedit #im just gonna use filmedit for every film post now askdh aa so disorganized #cinema! #jussi vatanen #alma pöysti

[starryjkoo]

I was rewatching the last Suchwita episode Jungkook was on and it was just so endearing how he couldn’t help but talk about the Jikook NY trip even though it was something that would have to be edited out. It was funny because later in the episode he started talking about SNTY and stopped himself because he said he probably shouldn’t talk about it. Taehyung said to go ahead because they could just edit it out and JK said this 😭

And he was so serious about it! Like it was such a blunt refusal that Yoongi even told them (jokingly) to take it outside if they were going to argue.

And yet, when Yoongi asked JK about the travel show he couldn’t help but go into so much detail about it with such an adorably big grin on his face despite it absolutely being something that would have to be edited out (Jikook were taking spoilers about their show extremely seriously too lol!).

It was just sooooo cute 😭 Jungkook could have stopped at any point too but he even goes right into a second story after the “heartstrings” comment.

It’s just really sweet because that whole conversation with Yoongi was so genuine, like it was a conversation between the two of them that wasn’t part of the show because it was obviously full of spoilers that couldn't be aired. Either JK momentarily forgot because he was just so into sharing the story or he just didn’t care because he really wanted to tell Yoongi about it anyways.

And the way that both of them looked so amused and endeared the entire time from the first second that Jimin was brought up is just so… idk, I need better vocabulary, but it was just so damn adorable lol. Jimin really does have that effect on people because literally the first mention of him and it’s all laughter and smiles and you have JK forgetting his “why would I talk about something they have to edit out” mindset.

Also Jikook in general just seem so excited about their show and it’s really sweet. They've only really mentioned it I think in this clip and the last live where they jumped on Namjoon for spoiling something lmao, but it’s like the way they talk about it and how obviously excited they are to share it with us and how JK was so amused by whatever funny chaotic things happened when Jimin arrived... it's really heartwarming. And it’s just sweet that no matter what they always seem to have so much fun together.

Anyways, it’s just really funny that in the SAME episode JK asks why would he talk about something that’s going to be edited out he talked about something that had to be edited out because it involved Jimin lmao. The fact that Jimin is always some sort of exception to Jungkook too is seriously something. Like speaking of Suchwita, it reminds me of when JK basically implied that the Jimin episode was the only full episode he had watched (that whole JM live was just crazy tbh).

I really can’t wait to find out what happened that was so chaotic and funny that had JK smiling like that and what had Jimin “tugging on heartstrings”. Like, is there going to be a scene of pitiful, pouty Jimin? Or is he just super endearing at one point? I'm so curious to see what all went down. And the Japan trip just seems like a fever dream, but that's just a whole other can of worms. But I really hope they release the full Suchwita convo sometime because the way JK talked about it was seriously adorable.

#jikook #i know people have probably already talked about this #but i was rewatching and it was so cute i needed to say something 😭 #this drought is killing me 🫠 #i have so many thoughts about the tokyo trip tho #my mind is just too disorganized #silly that people try to devalue it by calling it company content #when jikook talk about it with such big smiles #whether you ship them or not they're just adorable #and their bond deserves to be hyped and appreciated