#Neither are working right now.

[torchickentacos]

anxiety 🤝 the mosquito in my room: won't go away and let me live my life in peace

#i've been trying to get rid of this mosquito since last night #and i've been trying to get rid of the anxiety since i was eight KGSDSJKFHGDKJ #Neither are working right now. #ok to rb #like i cannot socialize right now. i hate when my anxiety does this #the rsd is on such a hairpin trigger that i just. can't do the whole talking to people thing right now. #so we're just gonna have me time (cough. isolating) tonight!!! is that fun? not really but it's better than the alternatives #like i KNOW i am loved and appreciated #but some days my brain is insistent on convincing me otherwise which isn't fair to ANYONE #got stressed bc my mom was too quiet around me. like i KNOW she's just tired so we're just gonna not be around people #until my brain can stop deciding poeple hate me because they like. looked at me weird or passed the food too aggressively to my brain #so we're on break until i sleep this off #posting doesn't count though. i can still yell into the void

[covertblizzard]

jaykyle au where they're theatre kids in the same school but they're not the actors jason's the scriptwriter/director and kyle is the prop manager (i don't know the official terms sorry) and they'd probably do an amazing job on the backstage setting if they could stop arguing for 5 whole seconds about their artistic visions and ideas and how "this would obviously work better this way"

#jason todd #kyle rayner #jaykyle #mypost #dc thoughts #vp of the club: maybe we should find some other people to do the job if they can't get along? #pres of the club: no they're both talented af and i want this to be raving success just knock their heads tgt and tell them to play nice or #i'll make them wear the get along shirt again #WAIT ONE SEC DONNA'S THE PRES and overseer she's pissed bcos kyle played the same role last year and he was chill then #wally's vp no 1 and backstage manager and he's thinking of kicking kyle out #dick's vp no 2 and main lead and he's thinking of kicking jason out bcos it's embarrassing and annoying to work with your younger siblings #kon helps kyle with props and bart is one of the actors and kon is jealous af about it he grumbles a little #roy is the fight scene choreographer #i'm trying to think of something for garth but the only thing that comes to mind i'm not sure are fitting enough #actor manager? weapon manager? oooh maybe pet manager if they have animals... human and pet manager???? hr department but including animals #ooooh maybe pet manager if they have animals #raven can play bart's love interest (in play) maybe (wally doesn't like it and neither does gar for very different reasons) #eddie deals with the contraptions they build for this bubble machines smoke machines lowering and raising anything mechanical #rose and cass helps with the weapons stuff they keep fighting too and roy is TIRED #connor plays the villain he didn't mean to or want to but he got dragged into it and he's really hot and gunned in for next years main lead #he doesnt want this #steph and mia are hair makeup costume department but bart and kon love to hangout and help too #jennie-lynn and bart are in-charge of socials #tim pops up a lot because so many of his friends (and brothers) are here and when he does he helps steph and mia #damian too pops up to help with pet management and sometimes prop art #this is much to dicks annoyance jason is already here can his little brothers LEAVE HIM ALONE SOMETIMES UGH #damian (taking cues from talia and bruce loverenemies dynamic and wanting an artist in-law): we should set jason and kyle up #dick: no / tim: hmm / dick: NO #i want to add the yj girls (cassie cissie greta anita) but i know too little about them right now but imagine they're there and the roles #are to be determined

[sillypiratelife]

Nami being the only person on board competent in the pirate business makes you sympathize a bit with the antagonists. It must be extra humiliating to be defeated by those idiots.

#the sharpshooter doesn't know how to load a canon and neither does the caption #the first mate can barely tell right from left #I understand Nami now more than ever #she deserves compensation for her work #all the treasures to that woman #she has one of the hardest jobs ever #shan blogs about one piece! #one piece live action #one piece nami #cat burglar nami

[blaiddraws]

What if because of Zekeingo (or however you spell his combo name, idk XD) getting Eeby deebyed to Hisui, it unlocks a special power for Reshiremmet & him to turn into their hybrid forms at will and without space time shenanigans being done

actually, the thoughts i had was something more along the lines of.

after ingo (and akari) gets back to unova, reunions, etc everyone is settling in things are going back to normal. maybe a few months later, emmet and ingo wake up one day to find themselves returned to that impossible half-dragon form, and they don't know Why

(ft. classtime doodles in my notes)

#of course. I MYSELF know why they've suddenly turned back. but They Don't. and neither do you guys. lol #anyway this is only tenuously canon right now since I'm still working out all the major details fodhkdhdkshskshdj #answered #fulcrum au #submas au #ALSO i spell it zekingo

[doubledyke]

are there any clues about how long bro was gone before the show takes place? im sure there's no definite answer but i could also be wrong about that. just curious if anyone has any ideas.

#its clear that most of the kids know enough about him to be scared of him or think he's cool #but jimmy and sarah dont seem to have met him #and neither has edd from what i can tell #if i thought about it really hard im sure i could form a theory but im at work right now so my brain capacity is extremely limited #text

[trashpandacraft]

a bobbin's a bobbin, right? i mean, it works...

flicking it to make it spin on the lazy kate is much faster than any of my other options.

obligatory progress photo, which looks just like the last photo i posted but is different, i swear.

#weaving #fiber craft #i keep saying i'm going to rig up a better way to fill bobbins #but i've been in this country for like eighteen months #i don't even have any power tools #which is a sad state of things! #but means that i can't even make a wire thing to use with an electric screwdriver or a drill #like i'll end up with some eventually #because i'm a walking stereotype #but right now: no #anyhow this works fine and honestly doesn't even take that long #it doesn't fill super evenly but neither does winding them by hand #so whatever

[aeide-thea]

i know i don't have to convince any of you guys that ~cats are capable of love~ or whatever, like obviously What Love Means to an Animal is a little different than What It Means to a Person (Whatever That Is) but also they for sure want to be buddies, but like

if you were on the fence about that, i'd offer you the image of nefret cat following me very pointedly around the house after i got back from the grocery store, very clearly impatient for it to be Poäng Time

#in case you were wondering it IS now Poäng Time and all's right with the world #(also sorry i'm doing SO much inane catblogging lately— #i'm working thru the frustrating phenomenon known as 'socializing so intensely was Not Great but neither is having stopped!') #(like i'm grateful not to be a performing bear anymore but. now i'm lonely. lol.) #(anyway we will hopefully resume an evener keel shortly but. 4 the nonce i am leaning on yr virtual company & grateful for its support <3) #journaling #catblogging #mundanities #domesticities

[unexpectedbrickattack]

👀🍕..

#chattin #i am AWAKE from my nap. and i have thoughts #thinking of that damn 🍕head bc i keep seeing him in my dash…and people draw him w others so well…. #i want him to be like just a silly guy #but a silly guy thats got something a little fucked up wrong w him #mentions of stalking and obsessive behavior -> #like i think i am going to settle w 🍕head being a bit (ALOT…AWFULLY ALOT) obsessed w peppino #like summing it up wo writing an essay; #he wanted peppinos shop and got rejected TWICE. he tried hiring peppino and got chased out of the shop #and it went from ‘i want the shop’ to ‘i want peppino’ to ‘if i cant have the shop neither can he’ #to ‘if i cant have him…well actually thats not an issue at all’ #imitation is the sincerest form of flattery yknow #the peppibots came first bc its like ‘okay i cant have the damn shop but i can just Make a shop w bots that work like him. that cant be too- #-hard RIGHT??’ but the bots are so volatile and unresponsive and they explode everything they touch #and pizzahead is like ‘no… :(‘ peppino looks so angry but makes his food w LOVE…he does NOT explode his food!!! #he doesnt want to scrap the idea but it Is a bit disheartening #and hes like OKAY. WHATEVER! WE ALWAYS HAVE OTHER PLANS….! #theres gotta be cloning labs right? no i dont care about the morality of that shit u sillywilly. FIND ME A LAB. #so now theres little peppino clones everywhere. and they look SO close to the real thing #and pizzahead is like. hol up. i think something is happening that i dont want to happen right now. but im going to put that away for now :) #by this point peppino has already relocated to his Current Spot bc theres literally NOTHING available 😭 #‘enough. to the Woods with you’ #and pizzahead is like there is no fucking way that chump that IDIOT that extremely handsome IDIOT took the damn plot next to the tower #and immediately is like ‘well if im already making the bots AND the clones then i really REALLY dont need u! at all! not even a little!- #-I dont care! i really dont! who needs a strong and smart and handsome man like u around???!!!!!!’ #and pizzahead is like that fucking dumbass😏 watch that shit explode in 6 hours. only um. peppino is storming the tower #and hes like WAIT OH SHIT. KEYS. KEYS WHERW ARE THEY??? THE CLONES! WE AINT GOT NO TIME THE FAT MAN IS COMIN #YOU. ECCENTRIC ARTIST. FIGHT THAT MAN. ‘okay’ YOU WEIRD CHEESE MAN. SHOOT. ‘mkay’ #like hes panicking and throwing shit in the air and running in circles in his little camera room #NOOO im at tag limit…pizzahead hates this man he loves this man he is obsessed and maybe wants him a little carnally. its all good okay bye

[softshuji]

eldest daughter syndrome really do be kicking my ass tbh

#i just find it like so unfair yknow #im the only one who works in myhouse and full time #but i come home and the house isnt clean and i tidy up and sort everything out and tidy the kitchen anf living room after dinner and put #my sister to bed and yk if there was no one else to do these things id understand but #i have 5 brothers all of whom are adults and they dont lift a finger #its not as if any of them work bec they dont and neither does my dad #and im so so so exhausted yk? bec not everything is my job or responsibility #and i keep blaming other things for me getting sick but yknow what maybe i just dont rest enough #and the other day i was upset bec i'd had a tough day at work and i felt unwell and i cleaned up everything after dinner and my brother #said i didnt have a right to be upset bec i “chose” this. like as if i chose to work full time nd do all the chores for a family of 9 #and it just really upsets me bec no one sees an issue with it and im so mad at my mom at rhe same time #constant therapy sessions w her bec shes mad at my dad and wants someone to vent at and then he does the same abt her and my brothers #and im so tired yknow just sososos tired bec she'll complain abt how they dont do anything but then she wont ensure they do either #its just empty complaints whereas she thrust responsibility on me when i was 9 and yet my brothers are 18+ - all but one that is and they #cant even do their own laundry bec she just..... did everything for them all the time but now is mad that they cant do anything. #like yes i know my dad is a failure of a husband and a father i expected that i'll never be a good enough daughter for him and that the onl #thing he has to say about me is that im bringing shame on our family despite everything ive done but come on #im just tired and upset #its hard not to see yourself as a robot or machine when theres little room to be anything else. #and even on a day like today when i dont feel well it never stops and i just keep doing #im sad i want a hug from my gangster bf #oh god i am sorry pls do not perceive me for this #and yk what #thats why i cant stand when people are nice to me bec all i can think of is #i havent done anything to deserve this? i should have to give something in return #or if not #theres something this person must want because why else would they be nice to me when i havent done anything for them #i cannot fathom the concept that someone just wants me because its me #its literally just not possible why would anyone fo that for me

[thesunsethour]

wish i could be the bigger person but no. i am constantly jealous of every city bitch around me who has opportunities from birth that i will never have. i can work as hard as humanly possible but i’ll still never have a father in the publishing industry or an uncle in the government

#i work two jobs one is unpaid one is paid badly and neither is full time and it’s all that is available to me right now URGHHHHHHH

[gascreates]

So, in your AtLA Dino AU, do they switch back and forth or what?

that's the idea, yep! everyone can swap back and forth between their human form and dino form at will. the few worldbuilding rules i have in my head are that transforming takes energy and practice, dino forms can't talk, dino forms can still bend, and dinos are only known in the world as humans. there aren't raw dinos running around, unfortunately. that said, im very lenient on world building details here, it's not really a cohesive narrative at the moment. im literally just making art and jokes ahdjhsjf

alsoooo im fully on board with other interpretations or people using my dino designs for their own aus!!! i'd love to see other people's takes

#if it's funny it's canon #that's my world building philosophy here #with the secondary rule of if it has good whump potential it's canon #i have no idea if i intend to present a cohesive narrative #i might but right now im mostly just doing snapshots and jokes #neither of which really need consistent world building to work #but technically it's there #technically i have some proper 50k fanfic ideas for this #and also technically this dino au is labeled the dino transformation au in my head #cuz there's another i haven't posted anything about where everyone just gets pet dinos #that's the dino companion au #BUY ANYWAY. #yeah they switch back and forth here ahdkbsngk #atla dino au #asks

[mouseratz]

yes there is privilege in being able to choose whether I go to college or not. but it's kind of like. even if I did, the job market is so bad, most degrees are rendered next to useless anyway.....all of this work, and for what? you're not getting paid much better anymore, and you'll still be working likely on top of your schooling, and you'll have lifelong debt. unless I can prove it would bring me personal fulfillment, the point has started to seem a lot less clear than it did before. is it not going to just give me stress & debt atp?

the sad part is I actually like academics, more or less. I don't like homework because my brain is bad, or the way teachers often abuse their power over their students, but I like to read and write, I like to talk to people about these things, I like consistent routines and schedules. I could hate being a student more than I do.

but college just so genuinely feels pointless, at least in the way America has it set up, unless you have an incredibly specific career you want and know you need an incredibly specific degree for. unless the field is in dire need of workers, you're just going to get done with shovelling yourself in debt to not get a goddamn job in the field you wanted anyway, which I thought was kind of The Point! more and more is expected to get hired for anything, much less a job you think you wouldn't hate,

and do you know what kind of money they want from you? you'll probably be paying college debt off your actual entire life. my dad got the job he wanted, and we are doing pretty well, all things considered (hence why I have not been forced to do any of this), but it's nothing crazy. we still have to worry about unexpected bills, like hospital visits or fixing the car. and he'll be paying his debt off literally until he dies. it will never go away, only get incrementally smaller. he didn't go to the most expensive schools. he had good grades. he worked while he was in school. he got financial aid. and this is still the way it is. if they want people like me to go to school, I need to believe it's not going to fuck me over for my entire life, which is not the future I see.

#i guess the longer everything goes on. #i want structure and people in my life. but i dont really know that i want a job unless i desperately need one. #and i know that privileged to be able to stay with a parent without limits at all. but that doesnt mean its a bad thing. #idk....it just seems like work doesnt make anybody happier. why would it make me? #if we arent in desperate need of money to survive why would i make it harder for me to mentally & emotionally survive? #because i need to 'earn' my spot in life with labor? Thats just capitalism. #id do what either i wanted to do or needed to do. and i think it's neither right now.

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

u know it’s bad when ur doctor literally goes “hey you need to take a break from Lent/going to Mass this year until we work through some stuff”.

#blue chatter #this is because I am at the point where I cannot walk into a church without shaking #I had two really bad experiences at Mass in a row and it was. honestly rly damaging. #neither of the churches in my area are really viable places for me to go right now #so either I try and find an Orthodox Church or smth #or I go to online mass #but yeah my therapist is specifically known for helping ppl work thru religious trauma n scrupulosity n such #and she was like ‘hey. building up your relationship with God is really important. if you go to those churches again it is going to be bad’ #the goal is getting to a point where I can live my faith and be close to God in a safe and healthy environment #bc the panic and guilt spirals and anger is not it girliepop #point being. I will be observing Ash Wednesday at home this year. #and be talking with my therapist about a good Lenten devotion that won’t cause more harm than it helps

[disasterinbound]

(remembers seeing the yosuke au blog's post about merfolk yosuke) Oh No

Like honestly when he moves out to inaba he's like "hey at least i wont be invited out to the pool or to the beach or something" (not that he doesn't reject those invites)

probably during the camping spiel he doesnt bring any swimming costumes cuz ya know. Gotta stay dry and theyre saved from morooka's puke! Hooray!!

Maybe he used to sing a lil bit back when he was more relaxed about it, and he might've accidentally nearly lured a small child into the deeper parts of the ocean, so now he's more strict on himself. He does miss singing, but it's better to blend in. Safer to (pretend to) be normal. For everyone. No more songs, no matter how much it hurts him because he'd rather hurt himself than to hurt someone else.

But perhaps he misses it too much, and it's like a part of himself that's locked away and the last connection to the sea that he so desperately wants, so he buys himself a pair of headphones. To at least be able to hear someone do what he cannot.

(And even in Inaba, it still is in use. Just for more reasons than for what it was bought for.)

And honestly yeah he REALLY would not be happy to go to the beach. Maybe he's excited to see Yu Rise in a swimsuit or something, but beyond that he's kind of terrified. Maybe because he doesn't know if he has enough willpower to prevent himself from jumping into the waves and swimming far away to another place where he isn't the plague of Inaba's shopping districts, where he's more than JUNES and people sweep past him cuz he's only a face in the crowd.

And also because. Yknow. If ya go to the beach he's expected to hop inside the water, and he absolutely can't do that.

Either ways, when they get to the beach, he's staying firmly on the sand. No water for this (mer)guy!

#persona 4 #yosuke hanamura #IM SO UNWIRED RN #do NOT let me cook i turned this around in my head for 5 days before i finally worked up the courage to post this #actually 7 days fml #maybe ill do something more souyoish with this but yosuke on brain rn #i NEED to remember about the kobayashi dragon maid au. its so fucking cool #ok wait moving a lil bit back he does actually kind of have a lower self esteem than usual because of this #like. god he nearly killed someone. worst of the worst etc etc #my logic is not proper right now and neither is my english

[madhushala]

she's talking on a call with her parents about how it was her luck and gods will what got her into this college who's gonna tell her of course no one because you know 🤡🤡

#i can't believe things can get so unfair even in the education system when its literally about someone's career #roommate takes everything so casually she's just the worst person academically i encountered #and i don't have the authority to say who belongs to which place but it really hurt doesn't it #there are kids giving their everything working hard and all praying screaming to get climbed upon my someone #who spent their first year crying about missing home and not studying not even a minute under the name of not being able to adjust #then how did she suddenly adjust now how is she going on group studies now its all a joke to her #and thats why she failed this year yeah it was predictable #there were friends' friends i know who were put out and had to ask how much did she score #well ill tell you A FUCKING 347 in neet #CAN YOU BELIEVE IT #do you think she deserves to come in a medical stream? #and no she's not economically unwell for most i can say she's everything better than me #and god forbid i speak #im not against whatever thenpolitics run around i don't have enough knowledge i don't hate anyone #and im not taking anyone's right out of their platter as if i even have the right #but sometimes i see people like her and it makes me wanna cry #if they aren't at fault neither ae we.right? #but i hope she becomes someone better #does something i hope she turns out a good doctor or whatever she wants #please don't waste this seat

[saphira-approves]

SOOOOO HAPPY but also so so sad because nasuada is mortal 😭😭😭

Listen. LISTEN. IT’S OKAY. IT DOESN’T MATTER. WHAT MATTERS IS THAT THE LOVE IS THERE OKAY. LIFE MAY BE FLEETING BUT LOVE IS ETERNAL AND MURTAGH IS LOVED BY SO MANY OF THE DEAD ALREADY WHAT’S ONE MORE.

#murtagh spoilers #this has been the one thing that made me hesitant about them as a pairing but like #it’s the same tragedy we’re going to see play out with roran and katrina and eragon. eragon’s going to outlive them #just as murtagh is going to outlive nasuada #the difference is that (arguments about how much of love is choice aside) if murtagh cared about how much that could hurt him he could #break it off. the only reason he’s really made any steps toward that have been to protect nasuada’s position. if they can make it work #i think he will throw himself into it 100%. eragon doesn’t have that flexibility with the stronghammers. he GREW UP with roran #and now he’s going to outlive him! #the inheritance cycle right now is an epic tale of romance and victory but soon it’s going to turn into tragedy and THAT IS OKAY #WE’RE GOING TO BE OKAY. THEY’RE GOING TO BE OKAY. because what matters is that THE LOVE IS THERE #BECAUSE IF THE LOVE WASN’T THERE NEITHER WOULD THE TRAGEDY #BUT IF YOU TAKE AWAY THE TRAGEDY ALL YOU HAVE IS FARCE #galbatorix tried to take away the tragedy by *not caring* and that! was! his! downfall!