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#It's the skills for *more* than just drugs and sex! Its also the one that goes 'YIPEE! I love solving cases! ^_^ I love a good sandwich!'
poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months
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Gearing up for the stat boosts
MDZS Disco Elysium AU Part 3 (Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 4)
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doumadono · 2 months
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MY HERO ACADEMIA MASTERLIST
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Officer!Bakugo is a seriously scary motherfucker - he's really tall and big, and he gives off an intimidating vibe. I mean, he gets annoyed over the tiniest stuff
Officer!Bakugo is a stereotypical “bad cop” type - tough, no-nonsense, and not afraid to bend the rules
If Bakugo slams his fist on the table during an interrogation, you can bet you'll spill all your secrets, whether you like it or not, thanks to those intense crimson eyes boring into your soul
Officer!Bakugo owns a big K9 dog named Blast. The massive belgian malinois is super intimidating - nobody dares to move when the dog is around, showing off its long fangs. The dog pays close attention to whatever Katsuki commands
Bakugo often goes undercover to bust drug rings. His intense look, paired with his scarred face and that maniac grin, makes him appear like someone who tasted cocaine or any other heavy drug for breakfast
When Bakugo raises his voice, it makes both kids and adults cry
Officer!Bakugo harbors a cache of dark secrets, ranging from covering up crimes to manipulating evidence. He becomes adept at concealing his corrupt actions behind a facade of a dedicated officer
Bakugo really likes wearing the uniform because it makes his ass, chest, and shoulders look awesome
Officer!Bakugo drives his cop car like crazy, but he's super skilled at it - when he's chasing someone, he always catches them
Can and will swiftly pin anyone down in just 1 second flat (he's used this move on his one-night stands numerous times)
One of the corrupt things officer!Bakugo does is take it easy on the cute girls (basically all the girls he finds attractive) when they come to his office to report a crime or seek help
He's definitely used handcuffs on a few girls in his career
Sex in his office is a must, but his police car is also on the list
Bakugo's preferred position is doggy style - he just loves the feeling of being in total control and able to thrust as hard and fast as he pleases while spanking the ass of his lover, like when he apprehended you for exceeding the speed limit, and due to your earnest pleas and appeals, he opted to fuck your little, sweet-scented cunt rather than revoke your driving license. You found yourself pinned down to the backseat of his car, your ass raised up as Bakugo fucked your cunt mercilessly from behind, spanking your ass every now and then. The vehicle was swaying with each forceful thrust as he assaulted your drenched pussy, growling like an animal. "Just like that, you little whore. Look at you, taking my cock so well. Dripping wet just f'me like a good slut you are."
Officer!Bakugo has a kink for public sex. There is something thrilling about the danger of being caught, the thought of someone stumbling upon you in the act only added to the excitement, especially when you're bent over, sucking his dick while he's smoking a blunt in his police car, guiding your head more towards his pelvis, and the only thing you can do is to choke on his fat cock as its tip hits the back of your throat repeatedly
Officer!Bakugo has a particular fondness for dominating his girls, both physically and mentally. He enjoys the thrill of manipulating them into submission, leaving them begging for more and being on his mercy
Officer!Bakugo quickly gets turned on when a girl pleads for mercy with doe eyes; also, he really likes skimpy skirts that hardly cover her ass
Officer!Bakugo enjoys night patrols the most because there's a better chance of catching criminals and tormenting them. Plus, Katsuki can smoothly hand out fines to loud tipsy ladies leaving the clubs, and he even doesn't hide that he's checking them out
Officer!Bakugo who has a preference for younger girls (Katsuki is in his mid-30s, but he won't hesitate to flirt with someone barely over twenty-year-old)
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cevheris · 5 days
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Ellie Williams, ྀི♡
Yandere Alphabet Headcanons
Along with your blood, sweat and fresh wounds.
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Warnings Yandere, Smut, Angst, Blood and Gore, Violence, Possessive Behavior, Jealousy, Vaginal Fingering, Fingerfucking, Cunnilingus, Oral Sex, Rough Sex, Lesbian Sex, ww, Sapphic, Drugged Sex, Dubious Consent, Kidnapping, Verbal Humiliation, Abuse, Toxic relationship
Also, hey. Dark content. Clearly. Kidnapping and yandere business is never consensual so keep that in mind.
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Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?
Before Ellie started showing her lovesick tendencies, you'd thought that she was just the type of girl to be possessive over her loved ones, like a protective dog. But the more into the relationship you got the more intense her obsession became.
Insufferably jealous and easily irritable.
During sex she started getting rougher with you, leaving more visible marks across your body with her skilled mouth. Mumbling curses under her breath about how she couldn't bare to lose you, how you were meant to be. How much you meant to her.
"Tell me you'll never leave me angel, say it." she'd urge while two fingers knuckle deep into your sweet pussy, the pussy that belongs to her and her only. Curling them to your G-spot with ease, getting you to the edge with only simple movements.
With the way she blurs your thoughts, head in the stars with the satisfaction of each stroke, you can't get yourself to respond. All that leaves your lips are moans and the occasional call for her name.
Now that just won't do.
She'd grab your chin with her free hand, fingers squeezing your cheeks with a little more force than necessary, "I said tell me, tell me how much you need me." her fingers stop their movement so you can focus on her words better. "Say you'll never leave. Promise."
That night was the first time you saw such a dangerous spark in her pupils, one that spoke volumes about what was about to come.
"I promise, Ellie."
Not like you had a choice in her eyes.
Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?
Real messy.
We all know she gets the job done, she is no rookie in the killing game. This is not something new for her, the killing atleast.
But now she has you, she swore to be more careful to not get any unwanted attention from people but it's not her fault that a pretty little thing like you attract the worst kind of pesticides. She won't even dare call them human, just filth. Filth that wants to take you away. Unacceptable. Unforgivable.
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Ellie violently stabs the now completely unrecognizable corpse. Been going at it even after it died. This little piece of shit had its eyes on you. Undeserving little whore that was, thinking it had a chance.
Her angry screams fill the night along with the wet splash of blood everywhere leaving god knows how many stab wounds behind.
Ellie pulls back away, but not without spitting at it for one last time.
Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?
Never. You are her sweetheart, her lifeline. The blood that pumps in her veins, it's all for you. The breath in her lungs rushes in for you and her heart beats with the contagious love she carries for you.
But the catch is, she expects the same from you. It's only fair, no? If Ellie is to dedicate her all for you, she thinks you should be doing just the same.
She worships you, quite literally.
Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?
Anything thats for your own good, for your own safety. She knows what's best for you, always. The more you deny, the more pervasive and stubborn she'll get, leaving you no freedom left whatsoever.
But in her eyes your freedom belongs to her. Just like how you do too. Her precious baby, all for her to love on, all for her to adore.
She doesn't acknowledge or recognize your autonomy & consent in times like this, yet ask her, she'll deny rape. Afterall, aren't you her sweet girlfriend, soon to be wife, darling, angel? ,,All her's so she doesn't really need to ask.’’
Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?
Ellie is absolutely infatuated with you. We know that, whats new?
She is truly her genuine self with you, shows you all her colors, which also -unfortunately- includes the ugly aspects. Since she loves you this much, why can't you excuse her imperfections? Love her as she is. as the monster she has become
Disinterested and rude as she may be to others, to her angel she is a saint.
Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?
Betrayed, confused and scared..? You were supposed to be by her side no matter what. No matter. You promised. Come back. Don't go. Please don't leave.
Was she too overwhelming for you? Was her love too much?
That night she makes her plans for the abduction.
Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?
She isn't playing when it comes to you, she can't have you abandon her. Ellie genuinely believes she's better off dead without you.
Foreshadowing
Oh and don't even try your luck running away, your first few attempts were futile and she had gotten more paranoid and violent after each try, leaving you no choice but hope for someone else to come get you. But Ellie would make sure nobody even knew of you.
Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?
Probably first week of the kidnapping, just freshly captured and kept in Ellies basement for the time being, until you accept the shackles your new life, she'd be keeping you safe and sound.. or with no sound with the gags she used on you.
In her defense, you were screaming too much, tch her poor baby. You might just damage your throat and that just won't do. It's for your own well being baby, she swears.
"It hurts me more than it hurts you puppy, you know that."
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The night that she drugged you, once too many times, she'd swore upon her love for you that this would be the last time. Since.. you won't be needing that no more, Ellie had planned this long before but now that it was finally happening, it felt surreal.
But hell, she couldn't keep her promise.
Why'd you have to misbehave so much? Just sit tight and enjoy your new life with her; getting used to it would take time, sure, but she had that in mind when she captured you, giving you some alone time in the basement to.. ehm, cope for a lack of a better word, cope with the loss of your old life, your freedom, your ways of living.
And soon yourself.
Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?
After the difficult first two weeks in the basement with a fit thrown every other day, it was inevitable for your resolve to slowly crumble, shattering into in salvageable pieces like the shards of a broken wine glass; knocked, devastated, broken.
And that's exactly what she wanted, what she needed. She had too many things in mind for you: wife you up, keep you safe in her grasp. Her little doll to do whatever she desired. But planning too far ahead was never Ellies forte, you knew that. Her kidnapping you was impulsive and selfish, and she doesn't regret it one bit.
But for now, she'll just have you all by herself. Keep you naked for her viewing pleasure, her sweet insatiable eye candy you were.
Just sit pretty, thats all you had to do.
Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?
Once she feels like you finally accept her and your new life she would start taking you out occasionally, not too much though, and you can't leave her side not even for a second. Ground rules are to be followed, and thats one absolute.
And at days when she felt jealous or envious, sometimes for absolutely no reason, she'd take it out on a complete stranger she claims looked your way weird or stared at you for too long. When she doesn't have anybody else to blame she takes it out on you.
"Baby how could you do something like this to me? Betraying me and my trust like that..?" she'd spit on your face while fingers digging through the sensitive skin of your cheeks, "Is that what you are, bitch? A whore?"
"Ellie please-"
"A fucking whore that tries to seduce anyone she possibly can, and for what huh? All you need is me, don't you get it-!"
With that Ellie has her way with you for the rest of the night. Nose buried deep into your cunt, sniffing in your scent while she sobs as you are too tired to shed more tears. She'd apologize a mantra, yet your body would be too boneless tired and overstimulated to even respond. You'd only be hearing her pleading in tidbits in your state.
sorrybaby sosorrybaby imsosorry iloveyou please pleasedontleave dontleave me please dont leave
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Before the usurp, before she opened your eyes as to what kind of person she truly was, before all the trauma and abuse, when you two were just an unconventionally overloving couple, she'd be constantly on your neck about how other people had their eyes on you and how she wasn't having it. You'd shrug it off with 'they don't matter to me', 'you're the only one for me Ellie.' or 'why does it matter, just ignore them'
At first she'd listen to you, but time pass, and her impulses get heavier to control leading her to murder them, or worse, torture them behind your back. And things would only escalate from there.
Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?
Like a primal fucking animal.
Groping your ass every chance she got, one hand one your waist constantly as if something or someone was going to take you away from her.
Hands exploring your inner thighs when sitting together, occasionally going in too deep and settle on top of your crouch, just lets it linger there. Arousal hits your core in times like this, guilt getting harder to swallow with how enticing her touch is, yet her hand doesn't move. Just holds it still as to tell 'this pussy belongs to me' her eyes recite the same story, 'she's mine right? my cunt.'
When she has you naked, fingers in your mound just fingerwarming your wet pussy barely moving and avoiding your clit and leaking hole, only maybe caressing your puffy wet lips if she's feeling generous. Afterall, you were but trouble at times, and she was just giving you a lesson. Patience.
She was doing much more than you deserved, with how ungrateful you were, she was convinced.
But with the way your nails would imprint on her forearms and wrists, her name falling with heavy moans as you whine for your sweet most anticipated release, she'd give in and slide two fingers in, just easily with the way you were creaming all over her palm.
And when your orgasm finally hits, you cry out with so much pent up satisfaction that it would make Ellie hurl. Music to her fucking ears.
Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?
Ellie is hardly around people, and if she is, she's stoic and serious. Really not much of a people person, not anymore atleast. The only person she needs is you, anyway. Why would she bother with incompetent fools.
The only time she's around people is when she's out on a deputy, and it doesn't take her long to come back considering she skillfully handles the missions with ease, swift and faithful with the thoughts of you at home. Home. What a foreign concept made possible by you.
But what could be said is, Ellie has an impossible to read Poker-Face. Try as they might, no use. She's a mystery to everyone but you. She shows the real Ellie to you and you only.
Naughty: How would they punish their darling?
Sex. Ellie uses sex both as a gratification and as a punishment. It might sound dubious but really, is the least painful thing she does. Atleast on your end, it makes you feel good even for the shortest of time. Goddamn her and her masterfully talented hands and tongue.
Everytime you cum for her you feel guilty, guilty for feeling good in your situation. Guilty for liking the rape.
Guilty for starting to crave your kidnapper.
Patience: How patient are they with their darling?
She's certainly patient with you, as long as you don't make a fuss, she'll tolerate you quite fine.
Just.. don't try to leave her, that won't end well.
Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?
You're not going anywhere, she's convinced herself that. Atleast not physically. You're binded to her as long as you live. But what if you die. Then what?
Then she dies too, that simple. If you were killed, she'll seek revenge and pull another Abby hunt before she commits. But more violent this time around, the second time losing someone so close, this close, and now she truly has nothing else to lose.
Her death would be quick and smooth with a revolver to her head. Not wasting any time, she wants to see you again. Maybe in an afterlife. Ellie's never been a believer, she never believed in that kind of stuff, but for you she wants to. She hopes to.
With the pull of her trigger she'd go out effortlessly. Her body going limp with a subtle smile on her lips, ready to see you once again.
Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?
Regretting kidnapping you? No way in heaven or hell, that was the best thing she'd ever done, the only right thing -she's pretty convinced - she's ever done.
But after every punishment you receive, the smallest resemblance of humanity left in her twinges. Not enough for her to stop or change her ways though. Just an uncomfortable little shiver up her spine.
She's not ever letting you go.
Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?
All her life, Ellie's been abandoned wether they intended to leave her or not. She'd been left alone for too long, nothing was ever permanent in her life. Every thing and everyone she'd loved and cared for had turned into nothing but a figment of her memories.
... Joel was her breaking point.
Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?
She's conflicted when it comes to this, at one hand it turns her on. She can't really explain why. ever heard of a fetish Ellie? But it also hurts her soul to see you suffer like that. And for what?
For you to get used to her that is. If then, she finds no mean in interfering with that. When it comes to that point of denying her so much that you isolate yourself for days, she knows your resolve is about to break soon.
It's just a matter of time before you fully give in.
Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?
Definitely the love and admiration she has towards you. She cherishes you so much to the point that, she would not only kill but die for you.
Do what you will with that information.
But she will certainly be hesitant with the self sacrifice route, since she doesn't want to leave you alone. What would you possibly do if she died?
Especially since she made sure to mindbrand you shamelessly.
Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?
This goes without saying but she truly believes there is nothing more serene than having you under her touch, besides wasn't all the hussle she went through just to have you enough to prove it?
And the worship doesn't stop there, not with the murders or the sex. With her devoting everything she is to you, it's only a matter of time for you to get lost and be over consumed by her lust love.
Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?
You're not aware but she'd been watching you left and right for years. Not making a single mistake in her ways or getting caught.
Never thought she would even end up with you at first, but when a night in the bar had you two all over eachother - definitely not because she spiked your drink, it was all for you she says - and fucking like animals all night she asked you on a date and things progressed.
You were completely oblivious to the fact that this was her plan all along. You only thought of her as a faithful encounter, a one night stand turned into your new girlfriend. But Ellie had something completely different in mind.
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You have no idea how painful it is for her to be away from you, like ever. After Ellie kidnapped you, she still had to work to keep things moving. Which meant being away from home, from you.
Her being away so often left you all alone in the house, resolve broken from the emotional manipulation she'd been doing to you for so long.
In the earlier days of the abduct you had tried to escape, multiple times. But after some time -and a lot of abuse- you'd became completely dependent on her. The plan she had worked wonders, breaking your resolve and keeping you all to herself till the end of days.
Now you just wait for her arrival like a loyal little puppy. Stockholm syndrome so strong that you feel stressed and anxious when she's not around.
Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?
Her poor little innocent angel, you don't know any better now, do you? It breaks Ellie's heart to see you hurt, see you so out of it and shattered, but it had to be done.
When she first took you in and you rejected to eat or drink anything, let alone spare her a glance, it became the only option. Had to have you one way or another. Either you'd eventually submit to your new life or she'd have to get you get used to it.
Has to have you to the point of no return in which you feel the constance of time breathing down your neck everytime you're not with Ellie, not under her touch, not near her warmth. Craving her like some drug. Completely dependent on her to feel something, anything.
Then again, she'd much rather not have you go through a single bad experience with her, -that's what she promised, yet..- unless you really push it she'd be as gentle as the night sky.
Just be her sweet escape, the darling she can come back home to, her beloved. It's about time you get used to it by now.
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thepepsislvt · 3 months
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I’m finally home from a trip.. what if hear me out.. nsfw alphabet for my favorite bgs either Kid, Killer, or of course Barto
-Tulipp 🌷🌷🌷
(acc still doesn’t work)
I DID IT AND I STARTED IT BEFORE U EVEN ASKED BECAUSE YOU MADE ME THINK ABOUT KID AND KILLER RELIGIOUSLY
also evryone istg im alive ive just been violently sick WAAAAHHH
anw here you go braincell sharer Kid and Killer nsfw alphabet
@tulipp-again
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A: Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)
Kid tries his damn hardest to at least clean you up but usually hes conked out within 3 minutes
Killer on the other hand is a trooper. He will run you a bath, get you water, a snack, anything you could ever think of he does. Hes so sweet about everything
B: Body Part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
I think we all agree that Kid is an ass man. he loves to grope it, bite it and smack it
Kid likes his arms and hands with how strong they arms. He loves how he can easily bend you over anything and fuck you from behind
Killer likes your collar bones with how easy he can bite them and leave a mark
On him Killer also likes his arms with how easy he can carry you around if needed
C: Cum (Anything to do with cum)
Kid cums A LOT okay? its thick and fills you up so much. He loves to cum on your face the most
Killer’s is also thick but he doesnt shoot as much as Kid. He especially loves to cum all over your stomach
D: Dirty Secret
Kid really doesnt have any secrets, if he wants something hes going to announce it
Killer really wants you to top him. He sees how snappy and mean you get with Kid when you are bickering and he wants you to do that to him. he just doesnt know how to ask
E: Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)
Kid slept around a lot when he was younger while trying to deny he was gay for Killer but he eventually got over his ego and just went for it. When you joined the relationship you often called Kid a slut for being so skilled
Killer didn’t have any experience outside of you and Kid but he sure knows how to make you feel good
F: Favorite Position
ANYTHING WITH YOUR ASS POINTED TOWARDS KID! Kid really likes your ass and never hesitates to let you know how much he loves it
Killer loves to hold you close so he usually has you in his lap with your back against his chest
G: Goofy (Are they more serious at the moment, or are they humorous, etc.)
They both agree that Sex is serious and shouldn’t be taken as a joke
H: Hair (How well-groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)
Kid either doesnt know what grooming is or he really doesnt care. hes untrimmed and yes the carpet does indeed match the drapes
Killer really doesnt care either but he does trim a little bit. he will do more if you really want him to
I: Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)
Kid tries but just know degrading is his love language. He does kiss you a lot but its usually rough and sloppy
Killer is way more romantic than Kid in everyway. He constantly tells you how good youre doing and checking up on you. he whispers a lot of praise and ‘i love you’s at least 90% of the time
J: Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)
Kid is a big man with a big sex drive. so much so he has to rub one out a lot if youre “to busy” or “not feeling it” (even though he has literally drug you away from your work several times before
Killer isnt much into having to Jack off unless hes really desperate but most of the time he just holds out
K: Kinks (One or more of their kinks)
Kid loves spanking you. hes an ass man, you got a nice ass its just common sense according to him.
Killer loves hair pulling. Theres just something about the extra pain that is slowly soothed when you rub his scalp that just adds the cherry on top for him.
L: Location (Favorite places to do the do)
Kid will do it anywhere he doesnt care he doesnt have any shame but you do so you convince him to do it in at least a semi public location which isnt much better but youll take it.
Killer likes it anywhere in private since he is more of a private person himself
M: Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)
Kid is turned on by literally anything you do. all that anger quickly gets turned to horny when you or Killer walk into the picture
Killer gets turned on most when you kiss his neck it ear
N: No (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
they both wouldnt do anything that would seriously hurt you other than that theyre pretty open to trying whatever
O: Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
Kid Prefers to receive hes a little whore who only thinks abt himself
Killer doesnt mind giving or receiving as long as youre happy
P: Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual?)
Kid is Fast and ROUGH and its not hard to believe at all
Killer also likes to be fast and rough but still takes it easy on you
Q: Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)
Kid will take it if thats all he can get but prefers to take his time fucking you brain dead
Killer isnt fond of them but if you need it then he’ll do it for you
R: Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)
Kid is all about risks because he runs on that type of adrenaline
Killer also isnt too opposed but likes to play it safer
S: Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)
Kid can last up to 5 maximum before telling you to fuck off and then falling asleep
Killer can go as many as you want, he’ll stir up as much energy as needed to make you happy
T: Toys (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)
i wouldnt think so but if yall do have any toys its made from Kid himself
U: Unfair (How much they like to tease)
Kid is a GOD at teasing, he loves to be in control and to tease you until are crying for him
Killer also loves to tease even more so than Kid, you would never expect
V: Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)
Kid is loud, he doesnt shut up, he groans and growls, mf laughs when he degrades you shut shut up man
Killer not loud he just lets out a few grunts and small moans
W: Wild Card (Random headcanon)
Killer is the only one who has ever topped Kid
X: X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants)
Kid is rlly thick and girthy. like oh my god you gonna need a few minutes to stretch out around him
Killer isnt as thick but he is long omg
Y: Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)
Kid is up ready to go at any given moment all that pent up anger gotta go somewhere
Killer isnt as hyper sexual as Kid but he still enjoys it at least 3-4 times a week
Z: ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
Immediately after for Kid, like bro will nut and then you hear his loud ass snoring
Killer doesnt fall asleep as fast as Kid mainly cause he needs to calm down first and catch his breath. he also loves to clean everyone up so yall not sleeping all dirty
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cryptotheism · 1 year
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(politely) the kneejerk reaction to dismiss anything as a 'conspiracy' is just as bad as believing something without thinking about it critically. yes, csa is something that is oversensationalised, but understand that elite crime (specifically sex crime) is of a very different character than sex crime commited by the man on the street. high-end fashion is an especially dirty scene. i dont know how you can read about something like pizzagate and think 'yep. nothing fishy going on there. steven colbert told me so' yes, there is always a lot of ill-informed 'noise' around such topics, and god knows we need more rational voices in the discussion, but too many are too eager to debunk stuff regardless of evidence; and it only strengthens the conviction of the people of people who believe there is a coverup. same reason no one takes snopes seriously anymore. criminals do love hiding in plain sight, they do communicate with eachother by means of secret symbols, and many of them are in high positions in entertainment, fashion, government, police, etc. this is fact. its a recipe for paranoia to start seeing it everywhere, but its just ignorant to deny it happens. also, such abuse often involves drugs and psychological torture, and sadly victims often do sound like crazy people when they try to tell their stories; especially if they are children. the mcmartin preschool, for example. although the whole trial was a mess, they did actually find suspicious tunnels under the ground (though not where the children claimed) filled in with concrete, there are a number of other strange things about the case. but no one will ever know the truth now, because the absurd publicity around the trial guaranteed that no truth or justice could come about from it. sortof a fitting metaphor about how even if any given 'conspiracy theory' were to be true, no one would ever be able to know anyway.
(politely) Conspiracy research skills are not a kneejerk reaction. Sex trafficking at the highest echelons of power is a problem, but you are deeply and conspiratorially misrepresenting it. It's not this crazy James bond fantasy of drugs and torture prisons and secret codes, it's just rich assholes breaking the law.
There was nothing suspicious about Comet Pizza. That whole crock of horseshit came from a single white supremacist on twitter. He lied and it went viral.
Also there were no tunnels under the McMartin preschool, that's been repeatedly disproven.
You want know what really helps my research skills? Comparing theoretical conspiracy theories to actual, proven conspiracy theories like MK-Ultra and Iran-Contra, both very real things that happened.
Here's the thing; sober, critical, research into a conspiracy theory involves wading through a river of sensationalist bullshit, and it's no wonder that people get lost. If you want an example of conspiracy research done right, I HIGHLY reccomend Gerald Posner's Case Closed, it's a veritable master class on how to research weird conspiratorial bullshit like as a journalist while keeping your head on straight.
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missn00tson · 6 months
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Yoo Wooin headcanons
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Hi, the Wooin landscape is barren af, so Im here to offer my headcanons abt him.
Hope you enjoy!
Nb!Reader
Sfw:
He's Bi, or def fruity in some shape or form.
I once read abt him being in a poly relationship and it has been ingraved in my mind ever since.
Def the type of guy to do a lot of pda. He likes to slap your ass in public, a lot. He's not the type of guy to be gentlemanly and open the door for you, but when he does he will slap your ass as he enters after you.
How comfortable he is with you changes a lot about how he acts with you. When you've been a thing or sortof thing for a long time he will get less... annoying? Dont get me wrong, he's still a litle shit but shows more of a caring side of his. It also ups his aftercare, like, he doesn't leave u or kick u out right after sex.
True to the story he's a little shit always up to somthing, and up for anything. He'd prolly not think twice if you suggest to do smth strange or dangerous.
Would spoil u excessively w gifts. I cant promise u theyre pretty (you have seen his fashion style, its not for everyone) but they will be expensive for sure.
Buys you matching clothes and expects you to wear them so he can show you off.
Will ask you to draw anything and get it tattooed. No mater how good your drawing skills r, if u can hold a pen you're good.
He's pretty good at drawing himself, but just like the rest of him his drawing style is rather... unique. He had been interested in becoming a tattoo artist for a while, and would become one if he didnt get as much money from illegal activities as he does.
Would do drugs and other types of substances with you for fun. He especially loves doing it before and after you've fucked.
He has the most obnoxious alarm ever (if he even feels like getting anywhere on time) and takes too damn long to turn it off.
Types with the most incoherent text messages ever. His texts r abbreviations from hell and as short as they can be. The only emojys he uses r 😎 and 🖕🏻
If you use the middle finger emoji tho he'll tell u it means u have a small dick just to annoy you.
Leaves you on read when you dont ask for a specific answer. He wont answer with an "okay" or anything either.
Would randomly call u at 3am and ask u if he was with u last night when the cops ask him for an alibi. It doesnt matter if he did it or not, he'd lie.
Dont expect him to cook. If you're eating at home it's just simple cupnoodles, otherwise he goes to eat out for every meal.
The guy walks so. Tremendously. slow. Like, showing off walking all badassly but walking slow like a SNAIL
Has the most annoying morning alarm ever (if he even feels like getting somewhere on time) and takes an eternity to turn it off.
Doesn't include you in his job, but isnt super secretive or apologetic abt it at all either.
He's total shit at talking about his feeling other than "annoyed" and "horny", same goes for consoling you about yours.
When you're not close yet he will most likely leave you to yourself as he has no clue how to deal with it other than letting it pass. He might offer you to do something you like to put your mind off it.
If you're more of a serious (for how serious it can be) thing he will try to console u in his own way. He will stay by your side, most likely uncomfortably staring in the distance until u tell him what you want him to do.
Strangely so, these are the moments where he's uncharcyeristicallt distant. Usually he's a guy with 0 personal space but then he just lets you be until he gets told otherwise (sounds submissive to me ahEm-)
If your just a bit down (and he has outruled the possibility that you're mad at him, so you wont atack him outta nowhere) he will try to cheer u up with stupid dirty jokes.
Nsfw:
Would be into crossdressing. More so himself than his partner, but I can see him wearing a short skirt for shits nd giggles once and realizing things abt himself.
Looooves doggy style. Esp when he tops. He loves watching himself sliding in and out of you while you fuck, it just awakens something inside of him.
Would be the type to push u deeper while youre giving him head.
As an adrenaline junky he loves the idea of fucking and teasing in public. Even better if someone else watches.
Def some sort of sadist. He esp loves hour long edging followed by overstimulation. (I dont make the rules. I do but I dont :)
Loves the idea of phone sex, until he gets too horny and wants to do it himself.
But moments like those r the easiest moments to dom him. Yes, he's a switch, a brat for sure.
Even if he doesnt like to admit it, during spicy time is the only moment ur allowed to order him around and having a chance of him listening.
Dont overdo it tho, if he doesnt feel completely at ease w u yet he'll snap right out of it again (esp when he was planning on domming) and rail u even harder.
His rythm is slow and teasing at first, trying to tick you off, but as his own high nears he rams into you with short but quick thrusts.
Continues to fuck you even after you both came, enjoying the pain it gives him and the strangled moans and grunts tou let out.
Loves it when you beg. He loves feeling superior and being worshipped.
Though when hes subbing. Degradation kink. Im telling you. D e g r a d a t i o n
Hes not a gentle guy, he get turned on by seeing your tear stained face. He'd lick off the drops while he's pounding inside of you, wishing you'd cry more.
When he praises you he'll always degrade you at the same time, often using degrading nicknames. "Such a pretty slut for me" "This pathetic doll is taking me so well, aren't they?"
Loves when you bite and scratch him. It sends him straight over the edge when you scratch his back while he's fucking you.
Especially when he's bottoming he loves it when you leave bite marks allover him. On his neck, hut also his inner tighs make him weak in the knees.
You can bite down pretty deeply. If it draws blood, he'll slightly spread his legs further for you to lick it off.
Loves it when you moan around his cock.
Def a hair puller while recieving head, bobbing your head forcefully up and down making you gag.
He asks you to show your tongue after you've swallowed.
Loves calling you "my good slut"
Enjoys having his hands tied back while you ride him. He loves the way you body bounces while you move atop of him while he strains his hands in his cuffs.
He loves when you use him, ignoring his needs and pleasuring yourself.
The idea of his partners useing him while he's tied up and gagged, unable to stop them from edging and overstimulating him. One on top of him and the other eyeing them like a predator. Man that's maybe even better then drugs for him.
He loves hunting. Whether it's chasing you in a haunted house before taking you against the wall or you chasing him before making him crumble under your fingers.
Even though he's a shit, he knows the importance of knowing what your partner wants, and he'd make sure to get to know your prefrences beforehand. After all, what fun would it be if you're not up to do what he wants?
Aftercare after quickies is rare but when you have played a scene with him he will help you clean up and ask you about your opinion of the scene.
He knows no personal space. He cuddles with you until you both fall asleep, but leaves in the morning after showering and eating. (ofc depending on how close u are. If it's just a one night stand he leaves for sure, unless u put some magic on him. If youre more of a regular thing he'd make himself comfortable until u wake up and leave afterwards)
I have no clue how many words this is, but thank you for reading! :)
IHis lips also look so pink and juicy in the newest chapters, did he buy him some lipgloss or smthh?? I love itttt
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lulu2992 · 6 months
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My (spoiler-free) opinion on Captain Laserhawk: A Blood Dragon Remix
It was very good.
Seriously, I enjoyed it a lot! This “remix”, as the name suggests, is basically a big mashup of Ubisoft franchises, in a style that resembles Japanese animation (but by a French studio), and with a hint of arcade games. Some names, faces, or events may be familiar, but the story is set in 1992 in its own world with its own rules and people, so don’t expect anything or anyone to be exactly the same as what you’re used to.
For example, among the existing characters featured in Captain Laserhawk, we have Pagan Min, who still wears pink, has bleached hair and eyebrows, and is a villain, but isn’t a dictator, doesn’t seem to have the same backstory, and is more exuberant and carefree than he is in Far Cry 4 (he reminds me more of the young version of him we see in the Control DLC). Marcus Holloway, on the contrary, is older and more serious than his canonical Watch Dogs 2 self, but he’s still part of the series’ version of DedSec.
Visually speaking, it’s very rich, and the animation manages to be simultaneously “simple” (because of the low frame rate) and impressive. Sometimes, the show temporarily becomes a retro game, which I thought was really cool, not to mention a clever way to move the story forward. Not only are those “gameplay sequences” very well done and look like actual games, but various styles are also represented (platformers, shooters, even a dating simulator), so they really are a nice, original touch.
The soundtrack is reminiscent of the music we could hear in Far Cry 3: Blood Dragon, and I don’t have much to say about it except that it was good and worked well!
As for the story, it was well-written and engaging; I watched the show in one sitting and never got bored. There’s at least one plot twist in each of the six episodes, and while the series is inspired by and references a lot of existing pieces of media, it still feels unique and manages not to fall into easy tropes and clichés. It’s funny, but it knows how to be sad. It’s colorful, but it can get really dark. It’s animated fiction, but it also tackles very real issues. Captain Laserhawk does it all, at it does it well. It’s made for an adult audience, so it contains violence, blood, drugs, vulgar language, nudity, and (implied) sex. That said, those mature elements, much like everything in the series, are well-dosed and don’t feel gratuitous, in my opinion. It’s appropriately inappropriate, I would say.
In general, I thought the actors were good and that the characters were compelling. My favorite is probably Bullfrog because he has some great scenes and I think he encompasses all aspects of the show: he’s here for comic relief but has solemn moments, he’s a cute cartoonish frog but also a skilled Assassin, etc. On a side note, as a French person, I really appreciate that his accent, although very strong, is real and not a caricatural imitation. Even when he lets out things like “ok, d’accord”, “et merde”, or even just “oui”, it sounds spontaneous and natural.
In conclusion, Captain Laserhawk: A Blood Dragon Remix is great. Both esthetically and narratively, it’s super creative, there’s always something happening, and you’re constantly surprised. This show is a lot but, strangely, it’s never too much. I think it’s obvious by now, but I recommend watching it (if you’re over 18... or just 16 in my country for some reason), even if you’ve never played a single Ubisoft game in your life and just want to see a good animated series. In the end, the thing I dislike most about it is that... there aren’t more episodes!
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aelinschild · 8 months
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FOUR
Holding Me Like Water In Your Hands
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SYNOPSIS:A cross continental move forces Aelin Galathynius to open her eyes wider than before, and at the doors of Terrasen's most exclusive and expensive private high school, she realizes her life is flowing through her. And if she wants to make the most of her life, she needs to grab onto something. Or maybe someone. WORDCOUNT: 2k GENERAL WARNINGS: Language, Drug use, Alcohol, Allusion to sex/intimacy, Brief descriptions of sexual assault, Domestic violence, Very severe angst, Messy Divorces (More to be added)
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The rest of the weekend had come and gone. Mostly filled with Mom and I smoothing over the cracks in our new lifestyle. Additional furniture and appliances were acquired. A brilliant, albeit expensive, coffee machine was the best feature of our home now. It made incredible espresso, which had been fueling my moping. 
Tonight, Evalin decided we would come together and cook a meal. We decided on grilled salmon with patotoes and asparagus. Simple enough, while also fitting whatever diet my mother had recently taken up. 
I was currently plating our meal as she grabbed the salmon off the pan. 
Soft footsteps made their way into the dining room, and my mother followed, setting the plate in the centre of the table. 
We both pulled out chairs out and sat. Her posture was straight and rigid. Always the perfectionist. 
I sat with one leg dangling, the other curled up into me. A posture my father absolutely loathed. 
"Well, I'd say we are quite the chefs." My mother remarked, piling delicate amounts of food onto her plate. 
"Not bad," I laugh. "For us. Better than yesterday for sure," I say, following her and scooping a helping of each into my own plate. 
Yesterday we had burnt the chicken thighs we had bought, then promptly ordered a gluten free, veggie filled pizza. 
"I'm not used to a gas stovetop. But, that simply means a new skill, hm?" She says, between bites of food. Never speaking with her mouth open. 
"Sure, Mom." 
She regards me, and then her gaze flits back to her plate. I continue eating. The only noise in the room is that of our breathing and the scrapes of our cutlery on the new plates. 
Dinners together in my family were rare. With Mom and Dad both spending evenings working overtime, I ate alone almost every night. It made me into quite the skilled chef, but left me feeling empty. Dinners alone, in our big kitchen, only accompanied by the noises of the outside world. I would often sit at the island in our luxurious marble kitchen, perched as I am now, and pretend my parents were there, engaging with me. 
Some evenings Phillipa was there, and would keep me company, but as the sole gaurdians to Dorian, and his younger brother Hollin, those evenings were few and far between. She worked as an in house maid, and mostly cleaned during the day when the boys would be at school. Sometimes cooking and leaving me meals with cute sticky notes attached. 
Those days were far behind. 
My mother's fork scraped her plate. "So," she started. "You start highschool tomorrow, how do you feel?" 
Awful. I have no friends. "Fine" I say. 
"You have a cousin here," and her face is a little pale as she says it. Her eyes scan my own. Searching for whatever feeling she assumes will follow. 
I just scoff. 
The nonchalant way she tosses that out chafes against me. My image of my family has always been just my parents and I. The idea of a cousin on top of the move, on top of Mom and Dad’s issues. Its as if the tide is rising, and I have no sense of direction, no way to swim up because I no longer know where that is. 
Tossing down my cutlery, I shift to move my other knee up so I can wrap my arms around my body, creating a safe little shell.
"And how old is this cousin?" My eyes stare directly into her, not backing down. 
"Your age. Maybe a few months older."
"Why am I just now learning about their existence?" 
She looks pained. I feel like that's an expression I've seen so often on her face recently. So different from the Evalin Galathynius that imposed through the courts of Rifthold. 
She moves closer to the table so she can drop her head into her hands. She just shakes her head, and I sit across from her wondering how the fuck we ended up in this situation. 
As an only child, I've never wished for any other siblings. Seeing how Hollin and Dorian interacted made me glad of that. But a cousin? A possibility of an aunt or uncle? There being more to my family than just Rhoe, Evalin and Aelin? That's what seems nonsensical. 
"Your father and I left Orynth not long after your birth for our own reasons, and yes, that separated you and Aedion," she takes a deep breath. "But it was not without extreme thought, and we realized it would be better… this way." 
"Better for me? Or better for Dads job?" I bite out. 
"For everyone Aelin," 
"Mmkay " 
"What do you think about this? About Aedion?" She probes. 
"Never met him. How would I know."
"He's attending Orynth Rise. You'll probably see him there." 
"And what do I do? Walk up to some mysterious stranger and say, "Oh hi there! I'm your cousin you've probably never heard of or even know!"" 
"He knows about you." She smiles sheepily. 
I just stare at her. 
A cousin. That apparently knows about meet, whom I've never met, or heard about. 
"Is this why we moved to Orynth?" I ask quietly. 
"A part of it," she nods then continues to eat. 
I want to pull my hair out. 
"For fucks sake mom! Give me a straight answer!" I bark out, no longer composed. 
Her face snaps up, and her mouth is open in a shocked expression. "Aelin Galathynius! Do not curse at me! Good Gods!" 
I roll my eyes, and drop my legs back down to the floor. Pushing out of my chair, my meal only halfway eaten, I grab my plate and storm off to the kitchen. 
Maybe I'm overreacting, but after moving across the continent, and not really adjusting to the fact that my entire life is now somehow different, plus the fact I have extended family, is really overdoing it for me currently. 
I scrape the food left on my plate into the little compost bin, and move to put my plate in the sink. I can hear my mother stomping over to the kitchen. 
"Aelin!" She yells. 
I ignore her. 
She moves towards me and grabs the plate from my hands. And I stare up at her, forcing calm. 
"Why are you acting this way!" She yells, looking far angrier than she was moments ago. "Look, love, I understand this is a big change, but you've been moping and overreacting to everything!" She's put the plate down and her arms come to rest on my shoulders, I shake her off. 
Her face falls. 
"Aelin," her voice is soft, like trying to tame a wild animal. And I guess I'm the wild animal right now, dramatically scurrying away from anything that scares me. 
I'm trapped here, between Mom and the door from the kitchen, and paralyzed by the change in my life, far too swift for anyone to keep afloat in. 
I clench my jaw and shove my fear and anger and confusion down, down as far as it can go. 
Through clenched teeth, I bite out, "I don't know how you want me to react." Surprising myself with how calmly in responding, I continue. "I don't understand why we're in Orynth. I don't understand why we had to leave Rifthold. I don't understand why Dad's not here with us. I don't understand this place. And I don't understand why you think I'm okay with all of this." I finish. Taking a deep breath, I school the emotion off my face. 
Mom blinks. 
I stand still, breathing slightly uneven. 
"Aelin…" she trails off, eyes moving to the ceiling. 
"We're going in circles Mom, around and around over the same thing." I clench my fists at my side and take a deep breath. "Just be fucking honest for once." 
Her eyes snap right back to me the moment I say 'fucking' and I can see her about to snap at me again, but stops when she sees the expression on my face. 
"Your Dad and I have been having issues. I felt as thought it was not fair for you to be in a house where your parents were always fighting." She responds. Her eyes move quickly over my face, and she stands straighter. 
I suppose I should take this as some sort of win. Getting Evalin to admit to any of her faults, especially in the realm of her shitty husband, is a hard won feat. But the admittance is something hard to swallow as well. 
Having loving parents is nothing I grew up around, and the only friend I truly grew close to in my childhood was Dorian, and his parents both died early in his life, not long after his brother was born. But Phillipa was the most adoring parent one could truly ask for. Though she was never around long enough to be a mother figure. 
But to actually hear your parent admit a struggle - that makes me feel a way I can't describe. 
"Okay." I say. 
Evalin just nods. Her arms come up around herself, and her eyes get misty. 
"Aelin, I want the best for you. And being in that house wasn't the best for any of us," She whispers. 
"Okay " I say again, processing. 
"Can… can I hug you?"
I feel funny, and I don't really want to hug Mom right now, but she looks seconds away from crumbling into jagged pieces that will never fit back together. So I nod and pull her into a light hug. 
She holds onto me for dear life, and I hear a sniffle, before she's pulling away and wiping her eyes. 
"I'm sorry," 
"It's okay," I repeat, like a broken record. 
"I'm gonna clear up dinner, and you can, uh, go get r-ready for school tomorrow." She squeezes her eyes shut as a few more tears fall. 
And I don't know how to handle this situation, so I just walk away. 
-
In my room later that night, I'm sitting at the bay window going over the catastrophe that was dinner this evening. I've washed my face, and I'm in a silk nightgown. My fingers skim the hemline, and my thoughts race. 
Mom admitted she and Dad were having problems, so the lipstick on Dad's collar probably wasn't hers. Still unconfirmed, but I'm certainly closer to that truth. 
But a move across the continent because they were having issues? Completely uprooting me and my future education, in favour of Orynths shiny promises? 
They must have really been fighting this time. 
I've recieved no messages from my Dad in the few days we've been here, and I wonder if he's forgotten his wife and offspring. 
The street outside my window is quiet. The boys down the street aren't out. And the wind flows gently, winding through avenues, luring the inhabitants to sleep. 
Tomorrow marks my first day in highschool. Freshman year. In a completely different country. Oh, and with a cousin! I can't help but smile a little at that. How shocking that Rhoe and Evalin keep my cousin from me. 
I can't help but wonder what he's like. I never knew that my parents had siblings, so what he might look like is a mystery. My fathers light complexion and dark hair, or my mothers darker complexion and gold-spun hair. I imagine a boy similar to me. It seems more reasonable that Evalin would have siblings rather than Rhoe. He was never much of the family type. 
I wonder what he’s interested in. I wonder about his life here. I wonder about this new extension of my family and what I've missed not knowing they existed. I wonder about my aunt and uncle. Maybe theres more? 
I guess Ill find out tomorrow. 
My backpack is packed, filled with a few notebooks and journals. Pencils and pens. My laptop and other school necessities. 
I'm not overly excited to start school again, nonetheless in Orynth, where most of these kids probably have known each other since early childhood. 
A light rain starts, it's soothing noise lulls me to sleep at the window. And I dream of unconditional love.
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leelei1980 · 1 year
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Part 33 - Beauty and the Freak
Our last trip🌶️ Part 3 Buddies
Mature 18+ minors DNI, Drug Use
Eddie
I woke up the next morning to the sunlight shining in through the window, my head was slightly pounding from the alcohol I had consumed the night before. Ronnie's head was on my bare chest, her body practically laying on top of me and her leg was hooked around me.. It was absolutely glorious. I slowly tilted my head down to look at her sleep. Her long lashed lids still closed, her full lips parted as she breathed slow and even breaths, her hair trailing over my chest and her naked body pressed against mine. I couldn't believe that in a few months this was going to be my reality. I wanted this to be my forever. Last night after swimming we came back and made love and then fell asleep in each other's arms. I can't imagine my life without her, without this. I picked up the guitar pick that she wore on a dainty chain around her neck and hadn't taken off since the day that I gave it to her. She deserved more than just this. I was going to get her a ring before she left for college. Not an engagement ring, I didn't have enough money now to get her what I really wanted to get her, but a promise ring. Maybe I would have Robin and Nancy come with me to pick it out, give me a girls perspective. I knew she liked colorful stones, but I also knew that she liked small dainty jewelry.
She started to stir, her beautiful eyes slowly fluttering open. I ran my hand through her long wavy hair and she looked up at me and smiled." Good morning baby."
" Good morning my love." I leaned down and kissed her forehead." How did you sleep?"
" Amazing." She stretched and propped herself up so that her head was cuddled into my neck. I put my arm around her and she brought her hand up and put it on my chest. She traced out initial tattoo with her finger."How are you feeling this morning?"
" A bit hungover but otherwise wonderful"
She smiled up at me." You were feeling pretty good last night, do you remember truth or dare?"
" Most of it I think.it got a little crazy last night huh?"
" Steve kissed you, well actually he kissed everyone."
"I remember that, longest 10 seconds ever when he kissed you ."
"Do you remember telling Steve that you fucked me up against his wall and that I gave you a BJ for your birthday?"
I cringed. " No I fucking didn't." I covered my face with my hands.
" Yes you fucking did. You also talked about how you like getting your hair pulled during sex."
" Jesus Christ baby, I am so sorry."
" Its fine Eddie, but I am pretty sure they are jealous of our, in the words of Steve Harrington,' wild sex life' now. "
" I wouldn't say it is wild. I would say it was adventurous."
" I would say it was amazing and I am not ashamed that I can't get enough of you. But I was a little self conscious when you had just talked about me giving you a blowy and then I had to actually perform one on the banana. "
I laughed. " You shouldn't be self conscious but proud because you have exceptional skill."
" But now our friends know my technique.Isn't it kind of weird?"
" Nope. They also know I am a lucky man." I tilted her chin up and kissed her lips." What would you say if I asked you to partake in a little morning wake and bake?"
" Smoking pot?"
" Yes Princess. As I mentioned earlier I have a bit of a hangover and a little smoke typically helps. If you are uncomfortable I can either Not do it or go outside."
" If it will help you baby go ahead."
" You know that I don't drink or smoke that often, I am trying to be a respectable suitor for my lady."
" Your perfect."
I Squeezed her tight then slid out of bed. She wrapped herself up in the blanket as she smiled and watched me streak across the room. I pulled out a baggie and a lighter then went over and cranked open the window. I stood in front of the window and lit up, slowly taking in a drag, inhaling and holding it in then blowing the smoke out the window. I watched Veronica watching me intrigued. I held it out to her." Do you want to try it Sweetheart?"
" I don't know what I am doing." She wrapped herself up like a mummy in a blanket and waddled over to the window.
" So it can burn your lungs a little the first time, and you might cough, but that's normal. Then you might feel a little fuzzy, a little silly or a little chill. I am usually pretty chill. But I am right here, ok baby?"
I watched her put the joint up to her lips and take a rip, she inhaled blew it out the window and coughed."Holy shit."
I laughed." You're a natural. Now this time I am going to take a hit, and blow it in your mouth. Ok baby?"
I watched her nod, I took a hit, held it in then locked our lips together and exhaled, she inhaled and we pulled apart, she blew the smoke out the window. "That was so sexy."
" That was shotgunning,"
" I prefer it that way, as opposed to smoking it directly."
I dropped the small remainder of the joint into a can of soda then she unwrapped herself and we crawled back into bed and cuddled together. We sat quietly for a couple minutes,I could feel myself getting a little heavy, my body relaxing. I looked at my Princess and she had a goofy smile on her face." You ok?"
She looked at me and giggled." I don't even know what the fuck I'm laughing at."
I laughed at her and pulled her head to my chest." It doesn't matter baby, it's fine."
" Are you speaking in slow motion?"
I threw my head back and laughed. " No sweetheart."
There was a knock on our door and we looked at each other with wide eyes." We're fuckin busted baby." I pulled the blankets up and tucked them under our arms." Uh yes?"
" Eddie Munson are you in there getting fucking high?" Steve opened the door and walked in wearing nothing but a pair of basketball shorts. He looked at us sitting in bed and shook his head." You are, your fucking high and you didn't even offer to share."
Veronica looked from Steve to me." Do you think he knows we are naked under here?" She giggled and I lost my shit.
Steve shook his head ." Oh my god you guys! " he stared at us then laughed. " Your ridiculous. Do you have any more?"
I pointed over to the dresser and he didn't waste any time. Before I knew he had it lit and he was taking a hit. He smoked the joint handed it to me and I took one more hit. Steve finished then sat back on the bed with us , covering up with the blanket at the foot of the bed. There we were , the three of us sitting in bed high as a kite.
Steve looked at us, smiling. " My first threesome." He laughed, and that set us off as well. The door opened and Nancy and Robin came marching in. We looked at each other then gave them our most innocent smiles.
" Aren't you all cozy in here?" Robin smiled.
Nancy crossed her arms in front of her chest. " Did you seriously think that we wouldn't smell it? Your blowing it out your window and it is drifting right into ours."
" Oh shit!" Steve laughed.
I bit my lip to keep from laughing, Ronnie hid her head behind Steve's shoulder and giggled, that made Steve laugh even harder.
" You guys are are losing it."
Steve tried to pull himself together." Wasn't this getaway meant to spend quality time with our friends? That's what I'm doing Nance, just hanging out with my buddies."
" Awww, we're your buddies." Ronnie smiled.
I smiled over at him." Hey buddy."
"Are we just supposed to ignore the fact that they are naked under those blankets?" Robin pointed at Veronica and I.
" You guys came in here, into our room. We are allowed to be naked in our own room." I said matter of factly.
" Wait a minute you guys are naked for real under there?" Steve asked shocked." I thought you were joking!"
" Yeah. We probably would be fucking if we didn't have a room full people."
" So I think that's our cue-" Nancy grabbed Steve's arm and pulled him up.," Come on Steven."
" Oh Shit she called me Steven." He gave Nancy a charming smile." Hey baby why don't we go into our room and fuck?"
" I don't think so."
" Aww but baby." He put his arms around her waist and kissed her neck. " Please?"
" How about I make you breakfast?"
" Pancakes?"
" Pancakes."
" Aww thanks Nance." Steve turned and waved " Bye buddies."
" Bye!" We both waved.
" Well this was fun." Robin smirked." See you soon." She walked out and closed the door,
Veronica snuggled up to my side." How's your head feeling now baby?"
" Much better." I kissed the top of her head.
" That was wild." She laughed
" It sure was sweetheart, it was fun."
" I Know something else that can be fun." She smiled at me then climbed onto my lap ,straddling me. She leaned forward and kissed me, lightly nipping at my bottom lip. Her breasts pressed against me.
" Fuck baby, you definitely know how to have fun. And just so you know I would never pick pancakes over you."
She laughed, " I wouldn't pick pancakes over your dick either. " she kissed the tip of my nose."We just have to be super quiet baby ok?." She whispered.
" Ok Princess." I captured her lips with mine
Veronica
" You are fucking ruthless Steve Harrington. I thought we were friends." I stared at him across the table.
" I am not ruthless, I am a good businessman."He sat back in his chair and smirked." I get that from my father. The only good thing I got from my father."
" I can't even afford to round that corner . I am terrified that I am going to to land on boardwalk with a hotel on it! I have nothing."
" I don't play Monopoly for fun, I play to win." He dramatically popped a pretzel in his mouth.
" You play like an Asshole." Robin threw her money down." I say we just call it. Good for you Steve you won!"
" Your giving up?"
" We don't have a choice, there is literally nothing we can do. I am never playing Monopoly with you ever again." I shook my head.
"Aww don't be like that!! We are buddies remember?"
" Not in Monopoly."
" What do you guys want to play then? Uno?"
" Are you going to play like a dick?"Robin asked.
" I can't help that I am super competitive. I promise I won't be a dick."
" He wouldn't be like this if you had just had sex with him this morning Nancy."
" Yeah Nancy." Steve threw a pretzel at her.
" I made you your pancakes!"
" I can't believe I settled for pancakes! It's because I was high. In normal life I would never pick pancakes over sex."
" What would you pick Princess?" Eddie looked at me, sly smile on his face, he was so goddamn cute .
I winked and smiled back.
" You had sex when I left, didn't you? You guys are nymphos." Steve shook his head.
" No, we just enjoy each other's company."
" You guys have 'enjoyed each other's company 'what, 3 times since you have been here?"
" How would you even know?" I stared at him, cheeks getting hot.
"Because you told us about two of the times and I heard you last night!"
" No way!"
" The walls are thin. "
I looked at Robin and she looked at the floor." You heard us too?" I am completely mortified. " I thought you guys were all asleep."
I looked at Eddie, he looked unphased ." Don't worry about it princess , I am certainly not going to apologize. I love you, so much, I want to be close to you, to touch you. I am lucky that you feel the same way."
" Yeah, you're his, what was it? ,Sweet Angel? I think that is what I heard.."Steve raised an eyebrow.
I looked at Steve with wide eyes, I felt so embarrassed. It was one thing for your friends to know that you have sex, it is another for them to hear it, especially the intimate details. And it was worse that it was Steve .
" Steve, your being a dick." Nancy looked up at him from her book.
" What? " he asked innocently. " It wasn't me saying, 'Cum for me my sweet angel."
" Your such an asshole." I ran from the cabin, on my way out I heard Eddie ask him what his problem was. I just knew I needed to be out of there. I went down and sat on the dock, hot tears rolling down my cheeks. It wasn't even that I was ashamed, it wasn't that at all, it was that a beautiful intimate moment that I thought was just between Eddie and I wasn't as intimate at all. It's not l like we we were screaming and moaning at the top of our lungs, in fact we thought we were very quiet, and thought everyone was asleep. The worst part was that Steve clearly knew I was embarrassed and wouldn't let it go. I sat there a few minutes in silence before I heard footsteps walking towards me.
" Hey can I sit?" It was Harrington.
I wiped my eyes." That depends, if your going to be a Dickhead you can continue walking right off the end of this dock."
" Ouch!"
"Really? "
Steve sat down next to me Indian style." I came out to apologize. I was 100% a dickhead in there and I am sorry. I am sorry I embarrassed you."
" It wasn't that you embarrassed me, it was that you continued even though you knew I was embarrassed."
" I know. " he ran his fingers through his hair. " I am so sorry Veronica, I feel horrible. I didn't mean to make you cry. "
" One minute we were laughing then the next-"
" I know!" He looked over at me," Can I be totally honest with you?"
" I would hope you would always be honest with me."
" Ok then here it goes, I am jealous. I jealous of Eddie, I am jealous of your relationship. You guys are the couple I want Nancy and I to be and we are the opposite. You guys genuinely love each other, you can't get enough of each other. It's amazing. Nancy and I used to be like that, now she barely looks at me. She seems so cold."
" She does seem distant."
" I was hoping that this weekend would be good for us, some quality time before she leaves. Do you know how long it has been since we have had sex? A week and a fucking half. We are teenagers, we should be fucking like bunnies but no."
I raised my eyebrows"Really?"
" Yeah. I don't get it Ronnie. Has she ever said anything to you?"
" No. She has been different, I just chalked it up to her being nervous about starting college."
" Veronica, it is killing me. She is my world and she acts like she could care less about me. I had dreams of us getting married and having a house full of little nuggets, now it is slipping away."
" I'm sorry Steve. "
" I thought that when she broke up with Jonathan we could pick up where we left off, we have history. At first it was great, but now, well you see!"
" She liked your lap dance, i for sure thought you would get a piece of ass for that."
" I got, I have been drinking all day. I am not feeling up to it. So I jacked off when I heard you guys."
"No you didn't!!!"
He laughed.
"I hope that you know that we seriously thought everyone was asleep."
" I really just heard Munsons sexy deep voice. God I remember when I used to be the Stud of the group, now it's Eddie. My ego has taken a hit."
" But he can't dance like you do."
Steve looked over at me." Do you still hate me? I can't take it if you hate me."
" I don't. I wish you would have come to me sooner to vent about what is going on with Nance. I'm your friend Steve, that is what friends do."
" But you are Nancy's friend too."
" But we we're friends first, I feel like you and I are closer than Nance and I. I think it is easier to be friends with dudes, well with the exception or Robin."
" Robin is the best."
" Yeah she is. And Steve, you're a good boyfriend. Your supportive, and caring and fun, and it's obvious that you love her.I don't know what is going on with Nance but your not doing anything wrong."
Steve smiled sadly." Thanks. I just kind of feel like this is the beginning of the end for us, it hurts."
" I bet it does." I gave him a side hug." I'm sorry Steve. Whatever happens, if you need to talk I'm here, ok? Always."
He hugged me back. " Same ok? Always."
" Ok. So now that your not being a penis face, why don't we go back in and play some Uno."
Steve laughed and popped up then helped me to my feet. He gave me another hug." Thank you for letting me vent. "
" That's what friends are for." I squeezed him tight then let go.
" Eddie told me I couldn't come back in the cabin until I apologized and made things right. I thought he was going to fucking deck me for a minute."
I laughed." He's a little overprotective."
" He's supposed to be, he loves you." He motioned for me to walk ahead of him. " If only I had met you before Munson did."
" You think you could have won me over with your charm?" I smirked.
" Of course I would have." He smiled." No doubt about it. I should have just Made a bigger move on you when I had the chance, kissed you more like I kissed you Last night. It was nice right? Robin said it was but you didn't say anything."
I smirked," Yes Steven it was nice."
He smiled." I tried . I guess it didn't matter who met who first because eventually you would have Munson, and you would be bewitched by his sweet eyes, his flowing locks and the fact that he is a musician. You guys really do belong together."
" We were made for each other. Now when we get in there use that Harrington charm on Nancy. "
" I think she has built up immunity to it."
" Maybe not, maybe she just wants you to romance her a little. Take her for a moonlit walk tonight, hold her hand, whisper sweet nothings, bring a blanket out and sit on the dock under the stars, pull out all the stops. My only other word of advice, if you decide to have sex , do it outside because chances are not everyone will be sleeping, and we wouldn't want to hear you, that would be gross." I smirked
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C H A R O N
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"All souls that die, from every nation, collect here, as one. Pray that you were buried with obolus, so that you may be piloted by the ferryman known as C H A R O N." - Centurion
C H A R O N.
A rap supergroup that took the country of Japan by storm. Second in power only to the famed rap supergroup, TDD. During their six-year reign, there was no one alive who hadn't heard of them. Skill, charisma, talent: this group had it all. And what one member lacked, another more than made up for. Despite how dramatic many thought the name was, none could deny that it fit the power of this group.
"Maggots drink the blood of me, insects lick tears I weep. The hornets pierce me, and the wasps are breaking every single fuckin' inch of skin on me!" - ATLAS
...So the question on everyone's mind is, where did it all go wrong?
Such questions are better suited to be answered by the creators themselves.
Meet the people behind the band. Meet the members themselves.
Meet...
C H A R O N
1. Oracle
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Full Name: Chinen Chinami
Age: 29
Position: Main Lyricist/Singer
Bio: The main lyricist of the band, this blind woman, despite having no eyes, was able to write beautiful lyrics due to her natural gift for poetry. Though joining a rap group wasn't what she saw herself doing, after being persuaded by Haru, she decided to join up. She admitted that being part of C H A R O N was one of the happiest moments in her life. Not only did it allow her to make full use of her writing talents, but it also allowed her to meet the man she would eventually marry. His death broke her, and caused her to leave the group, which signified the end of C H A R O N.
2. Centurion
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Full Name: Tanabe Haru
Age: 27 (At the time of his death)
Position: Lyricist/Rapper
Bio: An aspiring writer, this nerdy, young lad loved writing almost as much as he loved history. One of the frontmen for the group, he was the one responsible for finding and recruiting people to join. As he and the other lyricist of the group, Chinami, got better acquainted and friendly with each other, their friendship soon transformed into something greater. After a year or so of dating, he finally proposed to her, and the two became husband and wife, bearing one child. Sadly, a year into the marriage, he was shot and killed by a drug addict while the two were walking home from the studio one night. His death is what effectively broke the group and eventually caused it to dissolve. Rumors circulate whether his death was really just a drug-related incident, and not a planned hit. Kira, Chinami's younger sister, who is still looking into the incident, has her doubts...
3. Helen
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Full Name: Funai Reiko
Age: 28
Position: Singer/Spokesperson
Bio: To this day, it's still questioned exactly what a famous actress had to gain from joining a rap group. It couldn't be about money, and she already had thousands of fans. Rumors circulate, but the most likely explanation is that she needed some time away from the big screen after a scandal erupted involving a director and a sex tape that somehow made its way online. Whatever the reason, there's no denying that this famous celebrity helped to push C H A R O N into the limelight. With her connections and gift for gab, she was able to quickly get the group noticed.
While she was undoubtedly the face of the group, she was also dubbed 'The Weakest Link' due to having no skill with rapping or singing. After C H A R O N disbanded, she went back to acting. It's unknown if she keeps in contact with her former partners.
4. Rose
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Full Name: Hayakawa Aimi
Age: 24
Position: Musician/Singer
Bio: Born an albino, this half-British/half-Japanese person faced a lot of scrutiny because of their appearance. The fact that they were transgendered only made it worse. A lover of music in all its forms, they consider it to be their heart and soul. Thus, it's no surprise that they were the group's main songwriter, composing beats and notes with little to no problem. A neighbor of Haru's, they accepted his offer to join the group, because it got them away from home, far from their scrutinizing and abusive mother, who tried to force them to accept their gender. They idolized Chinami for her inner strength, and Reiko, for her beauty.
After the group dissolved, they struggled to figure out what to do, refusing to return back to their home. With Reiko's help, they were introduced to a music agency, where they are now working hard to produce their first album. They still keep in touch with their former bandmates, and they always find time to visit Haru's grave with Chinami.
5. ATLAS
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Full Name: Teagan Oki
Age: 31
Position: Frontman/Rapper
Bio: It's still a wonder how Oki and Haru were able to become good friends despite their personalities being completely different from each other's. Some attribute it to the fact that they were childhood friends, and others believe it's just a concept of how opposites are attracted to each other. In any case, it was his idea to form a rap group in the first place and Haru went along with him. A rapper with an impressive rhyme scheme, he was believed to be the powerhouse behind C H A R O N.
Despite his impressive skills, he had a very poor disposition and was known for his numerous fights and brawls, most of which were his own fault. Besides that, he reveled in the envy that C H A R O N received from reporters or smaller rap teams. Also, save for Haru, he didn't get on well with some of the other members of the group, including Chinami. In fact, after Haru died, he blamed her for his friend's death and for breaking the group up. It's unknown what happened to him after the group broke up.
6. Neleus
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Full Name: Sawada Nori
Age: 22
Position: Rapper
Bio: He was the lively youngest member of C H A R O N, generally speaking. Formerly from a rich family, he ran away from home with only a few thousand dollars to his name after an incident occurred that caused him to leave. He was often noted as being someone who didn't take things seriously until the situation called for it. He also had a bad habit (he'd call it a skill) to push work off onto other people, and he was very, very sleek about it. Besides that, he was a very easygoing guy who loved to party, play video games, and flirt with people. Despite that, he was known to be a peacekeeper among the group. Even Oki found it hard to be angry in his presence. Attracted to Rose, he allowed them to stay in his flat in Tokyo while they work on their album.
Trivia
Haru was the one who came up with the name for the group. He once stated in an interview, "I chose it simply because I like Greek mythology, and I admired Charon's role in the stories. The fact that the first letter of our names and MC names make up the word was completely coincidental. Honest!"
The group often made a habit of dressing up as Greek characters during live shows.
Despite the group's dissolution, they still remain popular with the people of Japan.
It's only hearsay, but there are rumors that after Haru had married Chinami, he was going to leave C H A R O N so he could focus more on his writing career and so he could be a devoted husband and father to his family. When Oki found out, he wasn't happy and the two reportedly fought over this.
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diary130
1/22-23/2024
monday - tuesday
waiting on an ableton export right now.
super annoying how long this specific song takes, it's like 43 seconds but it's like 8x that length to export. anyway, the drug test went well, i had to salivated on a foreign object in my mouth for 3 minutes. it was like, cotton, and i could feel it swelling in my mouth, i produced a lot i think cuz in the little plastic vial the woman put the thing in, she had to squish it down a bunch of times and it made rather loud squelching noises. this is how the cybernetic apparatus has made sex a constantly utilized part of our biology to continue to extract information. #lol. i was reading that book while waiting today, there were some interesting parts, maybe the most interesting one i can no longer find, it had to do with the idea that the human/humanity remains necessary as an organic component carrying out the ideas of cybernetics, essentially proving it as true/its methods of information collecting and probabilities being reigned in via information collected, as useful, but also to collect information from so as to continue the process, this is basically a tautology but it feels true, it isn't just accrual but it's proof, or it is just accrual, but the accrual of ever more accurate measurements of a box we are inside of, measurements that make it smaller with each breath.
here is a quote somewhere around that, but not the exact one:
"The cyberneticization process thus completes the “process of civilization,” to where bodies and their emotions are abstracted within the system of symbols. “In this sense,” writes Lyotard, “the system presents itself as an avant-garde machine that drags humanity along after it, by dehumanizing it so as to rehumanize it at another level of normative capacities. Such is the great pride of the deciders, such is their blindness... Even any permissiveness relative to the various games is only granted on the condition that greater performance levels will be produced. The redefinition of the norms of life consists in an amelioration of the skills of the system in matters of power.”
tiqqun - the cybernetic hypothesis
another interesting part was on terror/ the threat of terror, the threat of anything really, so as to justify the creation of information, and the creation of tools for measurement.
"Nothing expresses the contemporary victory of cybernetics better than the fact that value can now be extracted as information about information. The commodity-cybernetician, or “neo-liberal” logic, extends over all activity, including that which is still not commodified, with an unflagging support of modern States. More generally, the corollary to the precarization of capitalism’s objects and subjects is a growth of circulation in information on their subject: this is as true for unemployed workers as it is for cops. Cybernetics consequently aims to disturb and control people in one and the same movement. It is founded on terror, which is a factor in its evolution — the evolution of economic growth, moral progress — because it supplies an occasion for the production of information. The state of emergency, which is proper to all crises, is what allows self-regulation to be relaunched, and to maintain itself as a perpetual movement. Whereas the scheme of classical economy where a balance of supply and demand was to permit “growth” and thusly to permit collective well-being, it is now “growth” which is considered an endless road towards balance. It is thus just to critique western modernity as a “infinite mobilization” the destination of which is “movement towards more movement.” But from a cybernetic point of view, the self-production that equally characterizes the State, the Market, robots, wage workers, or the jobless, is indiscernible from the self-control that moderates and slows it down."
tiqqun
this feels like it speaks for itself but there was something very insane about reading it while sitting inside pseudo chuck-e-cheese, with mickey mouse clubhouse playing on giant tvs, the idea of precarity is lodged in that place, a daycare + entertainment complex + place you eat, located beside a dying mall, the constant agitation for workers of being around like, loud children's media, the sense of escape always, that there's something people are escaping from by being in here, and the prison-esque way they gain access, through locked gates and their time is kept precisely by computers, likely the same system that measures hours worked, it just feels accurate. it's also not like, blowing my mind, i don't know why but i always have the need to state that, maybe because online people are eager to assume this is all new information to someone, any information really, and not just a path you can walk down many times, return to old thoughts, thoughts revived by new perspectives/methodologies. but i shouldn't think about that.
anyways look at this professional looking ass bitch:
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all my poses are awkward, i've just come to accept it. i should probably see if i look better in my other selfies, hold on. i hate how messy my bangs look in that pic, i want them to be like, way flat, way sharp, too, but my hair is too wavy i think.
at the place, they called me she and stuff, and i guess when that happens i just wonder if it's politeness or if i actually pass, i'll never get over that i think, because even to myself i am just 'both' and it's not tragic but i am i guess confused to the point of being kind of sick. it's okay though because i like being both, that's all i want i think. i'm stuck in between, so i'll be stuck and fucked up and whatever. i guess i appreciate the kindness but i also just hope they see me and think that, cuz i am that, or like, xx% that, or something. or whatever. it feels like spiders on my brain thinking about it too long. or idk. i think about it a lot. it didn't make me feel bad when it happened, i don't even feel bad now, i just wish i understood what other people see, and i don't even know if i'd adjust based on that ever. but i probably would by tiny amounts. who knows what i'd end up as if i did that. it's for the best i guess that i have to proceed from in here. this also makes me think of the cybernetic hypothesis, the need to gather information turned inwards, we are all our own informants, to improve performance, and the idea that interiority is washed away and instead replaced with diagnostic processes, or a series of thermometers that basically work like a series of mood rings that tell someone when whatever pulsion will take over. there is likely something to be said about these ways of interacting with ourselves and how that interfaces with gender. i guess i'm saying them, just in a not especially put together way. it is gestating. i should remember this though. this, even, is not new to me, but it's important and i come back to it a lot. it's an ongoing crisis from when i was a kid up until now, other's eyes and myself, and it's probably very common.
there's a level of wanting the self to be totally obliterated, in this, but it's not for liberation, except maybe the liberation (false liberation) of being perfectly servile. there's then the desire for self obliteration so i can be inchoate, to be scattered and multiform, a need for hiding and secrecy in that.
tomorrow i have to do a virtual meeting with the guy who i am making music for, for his short film. i still need to do the trailer music, it's so hard, honestly, to do this project right. he wants like synthwave and i just sort of hate the fantasy sound of the 80s. so i'm trying to make it weird, but it got too weird last time basically. i also want to walk a line where something is almost like, not just trailer music but a song, not even a film-y sounding composition that's good, but like, a trashy song. a trashy song that hits the beats of this trailer he already put together, which is so frustrating, for me. the other day i started something, there's some ideas there, i like a pad i made and its melody a lot.
re: music, though, i did 2 songs today, one was an older problem song, and i think it's pretty close to not being a problem anymore, biggest thing to do for it is re-record some vox. really exciting to be there. the other one was pretty simple, i think, just had to de-muffle the vocals on it.
so there's 6 more tracks to run through, and that should be good for this first (billionth-ish) pass. and then, maybe, it's time for a break on that whole side of things, and i'll get to doing vocals for the songs that need it, and getting the new tiny ones done. that will be fun, i think. i really want a tiny song that's just kind of dance-y w/ bass and synths. imagine, 10 seconds of dance punk. hilarious.
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here's these flowers i saw today, and took pix of w/ flash on cuz they look better that way. i might do some stuff with these, or may not, it's just good for me to have an archive of interesting flowers, i think. maybe i'll trace as pixel art or something. that could be good. the first one here especially.
last thing of the night:
youtube
just a really inspiring vid tbh. love this band, there's this part here where the video gets way fucked, and like, there's these spurts of total glitched noise, thinking i should sample that or something, could be really cool. also love the part where the singer tells everyone they're beautiful, amazing, special, pretty, talented, and awesome, one by one, randomly. and then the guitarist goes out and gives high fives. really sweet people.
anyway, enough about stuff that is good and makes me happy, it's time to sleeeeep, so:
byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!
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RAYE FT. 070 SHAKE, "ESCAPISM"
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What better time to celebrate skill and talent than during Amnesty here at The Singles Jukebox!
[8.29]
Matias Taylor: The year's grandest hit single is a tour-de-force not only for Raye as a songwriter and vocalist, dissecting grief and heartbreak into the year's most devastating hook ("I don't want to feel like I did last night"), but also for producer Mike Sabath, whose claustrophobic soundscape of piercing riffs and frantic percussion coils itself around her, matching and suffocating the song as it grows in intensity and sex-and-drugs desperation to escape having to feel in the moment. Then enters 070 Shake, ghost-like offering grim wisdom that provides little relief ("I'll be naked when I leave and I was naked when I came"), before the song turns inside out and exhausts itself right on cue. They don't make 'em like this every day. [10]
Rose Stuart: I first heard this in December 2022, when I was feeling quite down on the current state of music. It had been one too many years of perfectly pleasant-sounding songs that were more white noise than music; songs that you could vaguely remember but made you feel nothing. And then along came "Escapism." with it's wailing synth that sounds like ambulance sirens and a drum beat that makes the blood pound in your ears. It's a song that from the very first note forces a visceral reaction out of you, and only grows more dizzying as it speeds up, slows down, splits, and comes back together. More than anything, in a time when songwriters are taking 'leave them wanting more' a bit too much to heart, "Escapism." has honest to god parts: intros, outros, choruses and post choruses, even musical intervals that make every second of its 4:33 minute run time feel earned. Still, not once does it lose you, because each part no matter how seemingly disconnected is a variance on the same musical theme. An increasing number of songs are slapping together whatever ideas they have and calling it a day, but "Escapism." is deftly composed, growing into a symphony of drunken depression. Even a couple of lyrical missteps can't keep it down. This is why, even though music has been picking up in recent months, "Escapism." is the song I keep coming back to. It's the anthem of bad times, and more than any other encapsulates 2023. [10]
Leah Isobel: As a longtime Raye booster and impassioned advocate for the destruction of major labels, "Escapism." offers a narrative consummation that is practically irresistible: prodigy-level pop talent publicly breaks free of restrictive label contract after years of limbo, then scores the biggest hit of her career with a baroque banger that feels diametrically opposed to radio trends. (Never mind the TikToks.) More to the point, the song feels engineered to show off the skills that Raye honed during her time with Polydor -- the dynamic vocal performance careening from conversational Cockney back phrases to delicate, precise vibrato; the songwriting that stacks tiny Instagrammable hooks in every corner. It's a bravura performance and an incredibly gutsy and vulnerable bit of Grand Guignol pop. But its splattery undertones don't quite sit right; it doesn't escape me that the Raye single that crossed over wasn't the vengeful rage-banger but the one that lets us witness her implosion without needing to think about why it's happening. Still, after years and years of denial, I can't fault Raye for excess. [7]
Nortey Dowuona: You need somebody to push the bounds. Raye is that someone. It's become pretty clear every other artist doing pop is just doing the bare minimum from songwriting to composition to vocals -- just enough to count as one song. But Raye has compressed 6 years of hooky, accessible pop tunes into one jagged, wizzing pop, that wiggles out from her fists as a sneering whine, which morphs into a desperate prayer, that waits behind the off-key synth line which melts over the soft breakbeat drums, then IN COMES THE BASS. And I'm already acting like a dick, so you might as well stick it in. It's been 50 years since rap cohesion began and if Raye is one of the first to shatter it beyond repair by attaching a fantastic performance from 070 "DON'T CALL ON SOCIAL MEDIA" Shake, who traps the ennui in her amber voice, then cracks as Raye feels the 4/4 pound in her head, a last desperate cry to cling to life, then so be it. Raye has been forced (ACTUALLY forced) into adherence to every rule and boundary we demand of pop music, popular musicians and of the industry and for one shining moment, she has taken the sharp edges of those boundaries and cut them out of her head -- and ours. The bounds have now been pushed -- off a cliff. It's time to feel out a new way. [10]
Katherine St Asaph: There's "Novacane" in here, obviously, and Amy Winehouse and Rated R. And there are actually multiple layers of escapism here. The B-section doesn't cut to the feeling so much as deflect it with vocal prowess; those "doctor, doctor" lines in that voice deflect it further with cliche. Every time that B-section rolls around, you just want the hedonism back, the Beyoncéan swag, the lyrics that fall out brash and shard-sharp and faster than the pain does, the siren synths and night-luxe chords, the bad behavior recounted with immediacy and allure. Which is just it, isn't it? Check the YouTube graph: everyone else replays the first section too. Isn't it convenient how "2019" rhymes with so many preceding years? [9]
Taylor Alatorre: Much of My 21st Century Blues, from the title on down, feels like a lost album from 2014 that was shelved for accounting reasons, and "Escapism." is no exception. With its mix of soulful piano chords and mellow hip hop sass, its tales of regretful hedonism, its "ironic" luxury name-drops, and its "not like the other girls" energy, it would fit comfortably on a radio playlist between Tove Lo and John Newman. But unlike the sad party songs of that era, which in part were a reaction to the excesses of peak EDM, "Escapism." seems to exist in a universe of its own, unconcerned with trends, though laced with enough relatable truths to become trendy in spite of itself. The retro-contemporary stylings don't grate as much as they otherwise would because they never threaten to upstage Raye herself, whose single overriding concern is to tell a story of disenchanted young adulthood -- something that will never go out of style. [6]
John S. Quinn-Puerta: A Jason Bourne credits nothing of a song that thinks pitch shifting is creativity. Done before, done better, done to death. [3]
Jacob Sujin Kuppermann: Not quite as thrilling of a B-movie as it wants to be -- I keep expecting Raye to hit another gear but instead there's just 070 Shake doing her haunted cyborg shtick. [6]
Brad Shoup: There's a very conscious sweep here -- lyrical motifs and beat switchups and the earth-swallowing pitched-down mumble that indicates Decision Paralysis -- so it's fascinating that Raye spends the first half in Golden Age storyteller mode. "A little context if you care to listen/I find myself in a shit position" -- that's basically a Slick Rick opener (Tons of bars here, almost none by Shake.) Raye ends on a line about dancefloor drums but it's the classic hip-hop kick (and a siren-like synth figure that could have been crafted by the RZA) that nudges this from the depths everyone here is bent on plumbing. [7]
Harlan Talib Ockey: It's really funny seeing Genius trying to force this into a standard pop song structure when it is very much not. I instinctively want to compare this to an operatic aria or a story song, but what makes "Escapism." special isn't just its narrative, it's the way it careens between sections in a drunken haze. Raye's narrator is even self-aware, starting in medias res, telling us she's backing up with "a little context", and then carrying on. In fact, she heads "back to the intro, back to the bar" a lot. Raye's voice reels through several different reference points and accents, acing both numb debauchery and haunting desperation. (And a genuinely mystifying pronunciation of "doctor, doctor".) The twisting screech in the production never fully feels in sync with anything else, a powerfully unsettling choice. Once we'd reached the runtime of a typical 2023 pop single, I was wondering how we could possibly fit a whole 070 Shake feature in here. She ends up as the voice of oblivion, darkness at the core of stupor that shows what looks like escapism is a sprint towards self-destruction. [10]
Jackie Powell: When I heard "Escapism" for the first time on the radio over six months ago, I was drawn to the way Raye sang the word "doctor." She introduces the listener to her mixed head voice on that word and manages to allow her South London accent to trickle in. Her diction on that one word drew me in. I hadn't really heard someone sing that way before. It was memorable. Sure, the way Raye sang that word was my personal hook into the song, but that's not the central nervous system of "Escapism." The beat is infectious, indicating the moments in the track when Raye is at her most confident and fervent. When the Mike Sabath beat halts, Raye and 070 Shake are forced to reflect upon what they actually are feeling. They can't hide behind how infectious and how great the beat feels in the current moment. When the beat is stripped away, the reflection occurs. The alcohol has worn off. The beat takes the pain away just like how Raye wants it to be. But she knows better, that escape from pain is only temporary. [9]
Wayne Weizhen Zhang: Escape from what and how, exactly? On its surface, "Escapism." is just another song about masking the pain of a break-up using drugs and alcohol--but it also finds itself at the center of all of the narratives around power, abuse, and addiction that have dominated Raye's career. Two years ago when we last covered her, she had just cried out to her fans, "I have come an expert at hiding my tears and my pain and I wanted to talk about it today." Her label Polydor Records had been gaslighting her about releasing an album for seven years, threatening her, and forcing her to change her sound. (Now that "Escapism." has gone #1 in the UK with Raye as an independent artist, I hope they feel foolish.) Years before, when she was 7, 21, 17, and 11, she had been sexually assaulted by record producer. Still determined to pursue her musical career, but unsure how to manage this all, along with growing body dysmorphia, she turned to alcohol and opiates. All of these perspectives inform "Escapism.," which Raye has said is about "Chasing a maze of smoke and mirrors because clarity is bitterly intimidating." The breathlessly-paced verses are about the recklessly going clubbing alone; the chorus is an aching plea for mercy and permanent dissociation. Raye performance is straight-up theater-girl, dark, gripped by last-minute key changes, soaring highs, and devastating lows. This was the first 2023 track I sang in the shower, holding my phone reading the lyrics, determined to emulate her delivery: making sure to draw out the syllables in "all of my diamonds are dripping on him," and "I left everyone I love on read." "Escapism." works as at least a quadruple entendre, but it's musical meaning, perhaps the cheesiest and least literal, is the most important for me. But Raye couldn't have summed it up better herself: "I think music, on the whole, is escapism for us. I listen to music to escape or elevate out of anything. That's one of the most important purposes of music -- to feel good, sad or aided in processing any necessary emotion." [10]
Kayla Beardslee: I saw Raye live in October, and when she closed with this song, I kept thinking about what an unlikely hit "Escapism" is. It's four-and-a-half minutes long, the title isn't said once, and the lyrics are extremely dense, so fast and wordy they're almost overwhelming. It's a grim, gritty song where Raye deliberately shows her audience the worst sides of her; it's also a song for the songwriting nerds, swells and ebbs in the arrangement mirroring the emotional turmoil of the lyrics, that has no intention of watering itself down to be more accessible. Yet it became her breakout smash anyway. Why? Because Raye is a goddamn star, that's why, and the rest of the world is at fault for taking so long to catch up. Of course her biggest hit to date is one of the most idiosyncratic songs in her discography: no one else could have pulled off "Escapism" quite like Raye does, either as writer or performer, and that's why it resonates despite all the complexities that on paper would seem to drag it down. Occasionally, talented people do get the recognition they deserve, and occasionally, the best songs do become hits. It doesn't happen as often as it should, so when the moment comes along, you've got to make sure to celebrate it. [9]
Ian Mathers: No comment. [10]
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Aurogra 100: The Cost-Effective Approach To Overcoming ED
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Peer Group Pressure And The Level Of Truancy Among College Students
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Education is the primary agent of transformation towards sustainable development as it increases people’s capacities to transform their visions for society into reality. Education plays a vital role in the development of human capital and is linked with an individual’s well-being and opportunities for better living. It ensures the acquisition of knowledge and skills that enable individuals to increase their productivity and improve their quality of life. This increase in productivity also leads towards new sources of earning which enhances the economic and technological growth of a country.
PEER GROUP
A group of people of approximately the same age who have similar interests, background, or social status. The members of this group are likely to influence an individual’s beliefs and behaviors. In childhood, peer groups consist of individuals who spend time and interact with each other. In adolescence, peer groups are based increasingly around the reputation of its members. Therefore, peer groups play a particularly important role in socialization.
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Further, peer groups may not only provide a positive context for children and youth to be a part of beneficial relationships but can also have a large influence on the behaviors, beliefs, and attitudes of the individual members of the group. It is therefore important to consider that while there are often many benefits to being a part of such groups, it is also possible that aspects of these groups present certain risks to children and youth. The rest of this chapter will examine peer groups across the lifespan through an evolutionary lens by considering gender differences and potential costs and benefits of memberships in such groups.
PEER GROUP PRESSURE
Peers influence everyone’s life, even if someone doesn’t realize it, just by spending time with anybody. People learn from them, and they learn from their peers. It's only human nature to listen to and learn from other people in one’s age group. Due to peer pressure one must do the same things as other people of one's age and social group in order to be liked or respected by them. e.g. – a child may start drinking in high school because of peer pressure. Sometimes, though, the stresses in our life can actually come from our peers. They may pressure us into doing something we are uncomfortable with, such as shoplifting, consume drugs or drinking alcohol, doing risky task while driving, or having sex before you feel ready. Peer pressure refers to the influence exerted by a peer-group in encouraging a person to change his or her attitudes, values or behaviours in order to conform to group norms. In young people, students peer pressure is considered as one of the most frequently referred to under forms of peer pressure. It is particularly common because most youth spend a lot of time in fixed groups (schools and subgroups within them) regardless of their opinion of those groups. In addition to this, they may lack the maturity to handle pressure from ‘friends. Also, young people are more willing to behave negatively towards those who are not members of their own peer groups. However, youth peer pressure can also have positive effects. For example, if one is involved with a group of people that are ambitious and working to succeed, one might feel pressured to follow suit to avoid feeling excluded from the group.
TRUANCY
When young people start skipping school, they create major concern for college educators as well as for the community at large. There is no single specific known cause for truancy and the difference between cases is usually greater than the similarities, however, there are general observations that can be fairly stated about truancy and there are a number of causes why learners absent themselves from school and the following are some them.
PEER GROUP PRESSURE AND THE LEVEL OF TRUANCY AMONG COLLEGE STUDENTS
It is easier to have blamed the child for truancy behaviour, the peer influence had been identified as a major factor influencing a child’s truancy behaviour. A child would rather prefer to spend most of his days in the midst of his peers where he would be happier and more relaxed. And this gives room for undue peer influence particularly in antisocial behaviours like truancy. It is easier for student to yield to the pressure from their colleagues than to obey the teacher and the school authority. Peers have an invaluable and influential role to play in providing both the support and context necessary for the learning of new skills and that they act as reinforcing agents of socialization. Regardless of whether children’s attitudes and conducts were approved by parents or other adults, adolescents attempt to model his behaviour according to what represents the standard of his peer group. The type of friends a student keeps plays an important role. For example student from well behave homes may become truant or absence from school as a result of mixing with bad students who are not discipline at home
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Pancreatic Cancer: Staff Science Propels New Concepts < Yale Faculty Of Medicine
In a Whipple procedure, a surgeon removes the pancreas head and typically the entire pancreas, along with a portion of the stomach, duodenum, lymph nodes, and other tissue. In the U.S., Black Americans usually tend to develop pancreatic cancer than some other group, statistics show. Although pancreatic cancer can happen at any age, including throughout childhood, it's more prone to seem after the age of 55 years. Learn more about ways to forestall cancer and about household history and genetic counseling. The goal is to design a DNA test that detect a cancer recurrence or unfold at its earliest phases. City of Hope is working on an improved supportive care program geared toward improving high quality of life and the general care expertise. A new study from Washington University School of Medicine in St. Louis has revealed the details of two key transition factors within the growth of pancreatic cancer. The study supplies insights into treatment resistance and the way immunotherapy might be harnessed to deal with this aggressive tumor type. Cell nuclei are in blue; cell membranes are in red; proliferating cell nuclei are in cyan. Other colours highlight different sorts of immune cells and cells of connective tissue. pancreatic cancer grants For pancreatic cancer that can't be eliminated completely with surgical procedure or cancer that has unfold beyond the pancreas, a treatment just isn't possible. In this case, chemotherapy is given to enhance and lengthen the particular person's life. Some folks with pancreatic cancer that can be surgically eliminated are cured. Our pancreatic cancer specialists provide professional steering so you can make informed decisions about your care and what is best for you and your loved ones. This distinction, together with proven excellence in pancreatic cancer prevention, training, care, and outcomes, result in the CU Cancer Center being named a National Pancreas Foundation Academic Center of Excellence for pancreatic cancer. But our group is working to search out new methods to detect pancreatic cancer. Our researchers are developing new therapies and launching medical trials to check them. Our researchers are also finding out how pancreatic cancer grows and resists drugs. Possible danger components embody heavy alcohol consumption, espresso consumption, bodily inactivity, high red meat consumption, and two or more gentle drinks per day. Pancreatic cancer cells (blue) growing as a sphere encased in membranes (red). Lustgarten Foundation CEO Linda Tantawi shared with CBS New York how money raised on Sunday will help in the larger fight in opposition to pancreatic cancer. A prodrug is a pharmacologically inactive compound that the body metabolizes into an active drug. Pancreatic cancer accounts for less than 2% of cancers identified in the US annually; the lifetime threat of developing pancreatic cancer is about 1 in 72. All forms of pancreatic tumors require diagnosis and treatment by skilled specialists. Clinical trials provide access to the very newest treatment choices, oftentimes years earlier than they turn into out there to different suppliers. If you've pancreatic cancer, you want the easiest treatment for you today, not years from now. Pancreatic cancer begins within the oblong-shaped organ behind the abdomen that is formed considerably like a fish. The median age at diagnosis is 69 years in Whites and 65 years in Blacks; some single-institution knowledge reported from massive cancer facilities recommend that the median age at diagnosis in both sexes has fallen to 63 years of age. The preliminary alterations seem like associated to KRAS2 gene mutations and telomere shortening. These mutations have been correlated with increasing development of dysplasia and thus with the event of ductal carcinoma of the exocrine pancreas. Pancreatic cancer accounts for roughly 5% of all cancer-related deaths (or about 27,000 deaths per year in the United States).
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Statistics that I found when conducting preliminary research show that 47% of Americans admit they’re addicted to their phones, the average American checks their smartphone 352 times per day, 71% of people spend more time on their phone than with their romantic partner, almost two-thirds of children spend 4+ hours per day on their smartphones, 44% of American adults admit that not having their phones gives them anxiety, and cell phones cause over 20% of car accidents (Howarth).
According to an article from Verizon, “every cell phone user is at risk of developing an addiction to their device, [but] teens are more likely to become addicted to cell phones than any other age group. According to a study published in Frontiers in Psychiatry, adolescents under 20 years old are the most at-risk for cell phone addiction because this age group is more likely to experience behavioral problems” (Cell Phone Addiction). 
Teens are the most at-risk group “because they haven’t developed self-control skills yet. Media management for teens may be nonexistent and the same study found that about 27% of smartphone owners between 11 and 14 years old never turn their cell phones off, even to sleep” (Cell Phone Addiction). Verizon notes a few risk factors for cell phone addiction that include anxiety, depression, low-self esteem, introversion, a lack of self-control and the inability to control one’s impulses (Cell Phone Addiction).
Technology addiction can be considered a behavioral addiction due to the “neurological changes that take place in the brain while being online” (Mally, 2023). A behavioral addiction can be defined as a progressive inability to control, regulate, or limit the behavior, meaning technology addiction also shares similarities with obsessive-compulsive disorders, gambling, and sex addictions. Technology addiction includes more than just doom scrolling on social media though, with an increase in access to video games, social networking, and surfing the internet” (Mally, 2023). Before getting into the negative effects technology has on young adults, it’s important to note how much easier, more efficient, safer, and advanced we as a species have become due to technology, but it also has its cons. According to Sandstone Care, technology addiction can “negatively affect our sleeping habits, communication and relationships, mental health, and physical health… [and] often distracts us from important things and tasks and decreases the time we spend with face-to-face interaction” (Mally, 2023). Physical and mental defects to technology addiction include “headaches, neck pain, poor hygiene, sleep problems, weight gain, eye problems… processing information, social skills, and problems at work, school, or in relationships” (Mally, 2023). Some of the most damaging effects of being addicted to screens are the effects they can have on brain development. According to the National Institute on Drug Abuse, “the ABCD study revealed that kids who used screens for more than 7 hours a day had a thinner cortex, [which is the area of the brain that processes information] than those who used screens less. Too much screen time has also been associated with a higher risk of developing mental health disorders, such as depression or anxiety” (Mally, 2023). Tactics to help people struggling with technology addiction before seeking treatment can be to avoid screen-time at night, turn off your phone during meals, turning off notifications*, and setting time limits for apps, or devices in general. 
*It’s important to turn off notifications, or turn your sound on, not just muting them, because when your phone is muted you’re more likely to obsessively check your phone for updates instead of just leaving your phone in your pocket until your sound haptics go off.
References
Cell Phone Addiction: What You Need to Know. (n.d.). Verizon.com. Retrieved September 10, 2023, from https://www.verizon.com/articles/cell-phone-addiction/#:~:text=To%20prevent%20cell%20phone%20addiction
De Guzman, C. (2023, August 3). China Wants to Limit Children’s Smartphone Use to Combat Addiction. Here’s What to Know. Time. https://time.com/6301185/china-smartphone-addiction-children-limit/
Howarth, J. (2022, July 26). 57+ Incredible Smartphone Addiction Statistics for 2023. Exploding Topics. https://explodingtopics.com/blog/smartphone-addiction-stats#
Mally, C. (2023, February 12). Technology Addiction - Teen & Young Adult. Sandstone Care. https://www.sandstonecare.com/blog/technology-addiction/#:~:text=Technology%20can%20negatively%20affect%20our
Sneed, A. (2022, February 8). I’m Addicted to My Phone. How Can I Cut Back? The New York Times. https://www.nytimes.com/2022/02/08/well/live/smartphone-addiction-tips.html
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