#I'm hurting enough as is

[klirk-hammurton]

God Dammit, Kirk.....

#You're making me cry Kirk #this is not okay #sir.....please #I'm hurting enough as is #i need a hug #metallica #metallica family #met family #tallica #acillatem #5th member #instagram #kirk hammett #clifford lee burton #cliff burton #cliffy bby #clb #happy birthday cliff

[roboticchibitan]

Once again thinking about the ATLA post series (not in continuity with the comics) fanfic I'll never write that follows Azula going to work in Iroh's tea shop in Ba Sing Se and her ensuing struggle with psychosis and realizing she was in the wrong and is just as much the victim of an abusive parent as Zuko was.

In this story Iroh tries to help her and at first she HATES it. She hates his kindness, she hates the sadness on his face when he sees her struggling, she hates all of it. At one point she snaps at Iroh to stop pitying her and he says, "Don't you know the difference between compassion and pity?" And she snaps back that they're the same thing and he replies, "You're wrong, Azula. Pity is simply feeling sad for someone's circumstances. Compassion is the desire for their circumstances to get better." And it hits her like a ton of bricks that this man, unlike her father, wants what's best for her. He's only ever treated her with kindness and she's disrespected him and called him weak for it and it's the most actual love she's ever received from a father figure in her fifteen years of life. And she wants nothing more than to cry in his arms but she can't yet because she doesn't know how to show weakness in front of anyone because of what her father did to her.

I see a post floating around sometimes where someone said that as a child, Azula is the scariest character, but as an adult, she's the saddest and I agree. She was 15. She deserves a redemption arc.

#maybe someday I'll write it #I know the struggle of having a cruel parent teach you to be cruel #and having to realize that your own cruelty is hurting you and you need to learn to be better #and struggling with psychosis while this realization is happening #I think I'm uniquely suited to tell this story but I don't have enough to start writing yet #atla #avatar the last airbender #azula

[luna-lovegreat]

So... Warriors

It is obvious by now he's not ok. He's irritable and tense.

I've had thoughts and ideas on this for awhile, so I think now's a good time to speak them. Very important detail at the end.

There are some really big and some small things adding to his stress

The drama with the sword. Wild went against the agreed plan, and lashed out in anger fear for twilights injury. From things Jojo said, Wars is mad about it for a while.

I have said this in other posts, but based on things Jojo has said and some details, I do not think Wild likes wars. He has not really gotten close to him, which adds on to the negativity between them

But Wars... is a captain. This journey is different, and he's doing amazing at setting aside expectations of how to work with rank. But that is still a clear stressor- to him that was unacceptable in battle

^this is one big thing we watched go wrong and has clearly been upsetting since

Another thing is

Wars has been taking on too much. We've seen him break up a fight at the inn, comfort Time (time!), and tell him he'd take care of the others.

Twice he said "let them", and "let him be"-making others have space they needed. He asked Four what was wrong and followed up with helping with smithing.

^^These are all small things. None of these are huge- practically tiny tasks. But they add up- all the attention to others feeling but not his own

... and

Wars has not smiled. Yes, he smiled, but it was not his smile. Since Twilight went injured to the inn, there has only been smiles in a way expected, but not much beyond when he found out his friend wasn't dead. (And when he helped Four at the blacksmiths)

In the updates, I have seen others saying how cool/pretty he looked. Which he did! But emotion wise, I only thought he looked angry. Even when teasing Twilight...

^Not his smile

But here's the biggest thing that I believe is bothering him...

I've wanted to point this out for awhile. The thing is, Wars was really hurt when he found out Twilight didn't tell him about Wolfie

It's small details. A few sentences and facial expressions. But they add up over the chapter, and I don't think he felt trusted or trusting when he found out

He tried to find out who else knew

And why he was one who didn't

*read the blurred words:

"No one said anything to me, I'm just left out of the loop. Who else knows? Just us?"

Wolfie being secret wasn't necessarily about trust, but wars took it personally. He really didn't understand or want to accept that Twilight would have told some of the others but not him...

Wars is distinctly closer to the ones his age, who the younger ones often turn to. And as someone who's been through war, who bonds closest with those he feels he works with best?

Twilight having a major secret he didn't share with Wars, but did with others,

Felt like a knife to the (back?) chest.

And it hurt him

Look at his face when saying "we couldn't do a thing for him". He's looking away, directly after asking four and wild if they knew. I don't think he felt trusted. Or trusting. From thinking someone wasn't who he thought he was, and maybe was closer to others...

^^this is what I think is perhaps the biggest stressor- yet most unnoticeable

Wars never spoke to anyone about his feelings. He pushed it aside and went and helped.

This is ok. Between people so close, anything can be worked out. This is very revealing of how much Wars cares about twilight and the others

As far as Warriors pushing aside his needs and focusing on others... it's hard.

But I can confidently say this: Warriors would never want to not help all he could, when the others needed him

Here's this screenshot that makes me laugh (and somehow sky is just chill with this?)

Wars: oh my god my friend just came back from a wolf what the Hylia who can I even trust I'm having an invisible crisis

Sky: oh yay the sword helped he's back :)

Twilight: I'm fine *currently dying*

Wars is stressed right now. He's taken on too much, he's probably still mad at Champion, and... he feels betrayed (god wars should never have to feel betrayed) and untrusted

Like literally everyone ever others, wars deals with his hurt. Sometimes he can't deal with it alone, and sometimes he can. It will all work out, and I love how much he loves his brothers.

But nothing, I repeat nothing

Will be ok

IF HE DOESNT START WEARING THE DAMN SCARF SOON CMON WE HAVENT SEEN IT IN LIKE TEN UPDATES

PUT ON YOUR EMOTIONAL SUPPORT SCARF CMON MAN

Ok I'm calm <3

.

Art and comic by Jojo @linkeduniverse :D

#petition to bring the scarf back 2024 #linked universe #linkeduniverse #no hate towards any for accepting Wars help #they were all overextended. now for recovery #my fanfic authors know what I'm talking about with trust and betrayal #he's not ok #I cannot make a post only exploring the dark sides of relationships #with love strong enough to hurt- how is there not beauty to be found there? #I only like the scarf to want it back. but. I have given up. have at it wars simps #Lu wars #I feel like some of my wording was too harsh- perhaps from just discussing an uncomfortable topic #but if I have said anything offensive let me know I want to learn :D

[rolanpilled]

Rolan's VA cameo, asking him to read Rolan's journal entries, found in his room in Act 3/Sorcerous Sundries...

I'm so emotional right now, I requested Mr. Taylor to read some of Rolan's Journal entries, specifically the one where Cal and Lia survive, and then the ones where they die.. I can't see from behind my tears... Thank you so much again to Mr. George Taylor for 1. being kind enough to respond to my email/open up a cameo for fans of his character and 2. for always being open to such requests and imagines!! You are truly the best!

But without further ado, here is the video and its transcript! This took me out, he recited the lines with so much emotion that I felt as if I could really hear Rolan coming to life, thank you again💖💖💖💖

“All has happened according to my plan. The way was rough - too rough - but we’ve arrived exactly where we’re meant to be - where I am meant to be. Master Lorroakan is a braggart and a hypocrite, but he has what I need: resources. Knowledge. The ability to become who I truly am. Cal and Lia roll their eyes, but they, least of anyone, can deny my potential. They know what I could become - if only I endure a little longer."

"…I can endure it. I don’t care. Let Lorroakan bluster and boast. Even a braggart has his uses. If I were to leave, it will have been for nothing - the loss, the death. The grief. Impossible. That sort of loss doesn’t happen without some purpose. I am that purpose. Is that hubris? Of course. But I’ve nothing left if not my belief in myself - in what I can learn, what I can do. Some day. Soon."

#rolan #rolan bg3 #bg3 rolan #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #wehh..... wuuououuo..... sniffle #he's very good at putting just enough emotion into his voice to hit where it hurts tbh #extremely talented #i'm not well #roro!!!!!

[siren-of-agony]

Answers to "please stop"

No.

I can't.

I won't.

I don't want to.

I don't know how.

I will soon.

But then how will you learn?

We're almost done.

It's almost over.

Ask me again!

Oh well, if you're asking that politely…

Fine. For now.

Only once I've come up with something more fun.

Only once you've come up with something more fun.

Or what?

I know you can go a little bit longer.

You know I won't.

I love it when you beg.

I hate it when you beg.

I'm so bored by your begging.

Not until you're too weak to ask me to.

But I don't have anything better to do.

I wish I could.

Alright! See? All you had to do was ask nicely.

I'm not doing anything.

What, exactly?

Just once more, I promise!

Just once more, I promise! (🤞)

You're doing this to yourself.

You wanted this.

You want this.

You know you made me do this.

Are you ready to give me what I want, then?

I will once you give in.

What will you give me in return?

Why should I?

You know there is only one way to end this.

You know there is only one way this will end.

(Answers to "it hurts")

#whump #whump dialogue prompt #whump dialogue #whump prompt #whumblr #i had 2 ppl request a part two to the it hurts one #and i couldnt come up w enough stuff i liked #so here #have this instead #I wrote this all down yesterday when i was trying to fall asleep and i kept coming up w new things so i just kept unlocking my phone and #writing stuff down #i thought i had way less than last time but it's actually much more #granted i rly leaned into the differences just slight wording changes make #also i feel like half of these would do so much better with some sort of term of endearment stapled onto theme #them #so when reading them just imagine some of them with a darling or a sweetheart or a honey tacked onto them bc that's how i imgined them #also if these writing prompts end up on kinblr again and someone accuses me of forgetting safe words just know i'm gonna break into your #house and put mustard in your shoes

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

All of this feels so pointless...

I feel like I'm wasting my time here.

There's no point in me being here if all I ever do is suffer...

#dear diary #tw #i'm very tired... #worthless #empty #tired #useless #i want to die #i hate myself #i'm sorry #pain #alone #anxiety #self harm #suicidal #sad #depression #heartbreak #hurt #hopeless #kill me #lost #lonely #broken #numb #not good enough #personal

[mcdannowave]

Always and forever.

#h50 10x21 #mcdanno #love #hawaii five 0 #steve mcgarrett #danny williams #alex o'loughlin #scott caan #forever in love #dork husbands #that precious golden cupcake is his Danno forever #Steve will fight anyone who dares to say otherwise #(found this one on my 'ready gifs' folder. i'm sure there's plenty of this moment here.but w/ those 2?is never enough) #boy...this is still lovely #but still...it /hurts/ so so f- much #I honestly don't know if i could gif this scene again nowadays(and last yrs) even if i wanted too #mine #Esses dois me deram tanta felicidade.que depois de tudo. meu coraçao so doi ao pensar neles. mesmo apos o show #ou mesmo ve-los seguindo em frente em cada pequeno detalhe ou foto que pula na internet #Alert MPU being renewed isn't helping it either. and far from being soothing #when I saw the news. had to take a long breathing. to avoid another anxiety attack #pra sempre uma ferida aberta

[antiterf]

Cops only exist to enforce laws that, if broken, would be a blue-collar crime. They exist for shoplifting, murder, illegal drug use, protests, an in-progress robbery, and more extreme cases of domestic violence, you get the picture. This service is paid for by taxes, and it's supposedly free to all citizens, but we all know that POC and other minorities fear calling the police.

Police exist to enforce crime associated with the working class. White-collar crime doesn't involve the police. You have to enforce that yourself and pay hundreds to thousands of dollars for a lawyer. You can be put in physical danger at your job, but the police do not handle that. They handle when you are put in physical danger at home, and that's even if the police always gave a shit and did their jobs correctly.

The police are not there to enforce all law equally, they are there to enforce laws that are broken by the marginalized. They are not there for you being denied housing, fired from work, hurt on the job, assaulted by your employer, going unpaid for your work, etc. They do not target the upper classes, that is not in their job description.

Cops exist and have always existed to maintain the current power structure. This is one of the reasons why the system needs to be removed entirely.

#I'm putting this on antiterf because I know a lot of my followers are White leftists #and us White people usually don't care nearly enough about police violence brutality and how they exist to oppress #and I've been thinking about this a lot #how I can name so many instances of laws being broken that hurt me and others but couldn't do anything #because that's a lawyers job and lawyers cost more than I can afford #and the instances I see are usually going to be too minor for them like being fired from a few dollars above min wage job #notaterftip #not sarcasm

[flare-dragon]

Question for those who wanna response: When's the last time you saw any media where any of the characters (major, minor, or extra) were known to be deaf?

(Bonus question: Who was the character and from what media did they originate from?)

#he talks #they talk #deaf #actually deaf #hoh #actually hoh #I've seen a various amount of random extras who would classify as deaf (3 from Pixar.. and a number of elderly characters from dramas #as well as two characters from Helluva Boss (yes.. this show) #As well as...2 characters? who would classify as major characters (one from The Dragon Prince and another from a book whose name escapes me #But I'll be honest.. I've not seen a single major character who speaks and is also deaf which bothers me immensely #(Honestly there's not enough deaf rep as it is.. but being someone who speaks and is deaf (and doesn't know sign) it hurts in that way too) #So honestly I'm curious if I've just not watched/read enough stuff and.. whether so or not.. what things I should look out for~

[kittydoremi]

So I made another Sonic au...

Not sure what to call this one yet, So I'll call it Cursed Sonic for now.

So pretty much in this, Sonic is cursed to transform into a giant hedgehog at night. Kinda like the werehog, but instead of a werehog, he's a giant.

At night his quills turn slightly darker with a slighty purple hue, he gets light purple highlights, and his eyes glow purple sometimes.

Sonic tries to hide his curse from everyone else, not wanting them to know. He's self cautious and he doesn't want to risk hurting them. He thinks he'll able to solve this problem on his own.

The only other person that knows (at least at first) is Shadow, and that's only because he found out on accident.

#that makes... two aus now where Sonic is cursed and risks hurting his friends #Snow Sonic and Cursed Sonic #I'm sorry I like angst in my fanfics 😭 #I feel Unleashed didn't go into Sonic's insecurities with his werehog form enough #I hope to go a bit more into that in this au since Sonic is in a bit of a similar situation #Cursed Sonic au #sonic the hedgehog #sonadow #sonic fanfic #sth #sonic fanart #sonic art #random stuff

[blakbonnet]

If you see Ed and his journey, and you immediately don't feel an overwhelming hard to contain amount of love and affection for him, and fucking protectiveness over him like you want to just keep him safe from everything, and you don't imagine a soft and loved future for him, I honestly don't know what to tell you

#I'm looking at this man and I want to save him from every hurt like how are you watching this show #and looking at him #and seeing his story #and not feeling all these things I'm feeling #I can't even comprehend it #my brain isn't big enough for it #meow speaks #ofmd #our flag means death

[sysig]

Off to make mischief and terrible decisions for everyone (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Gaster #Papyrus #Sans #Help they keep appearing #Where have I heard that one before lol #Genuinely! I wasn't expecting to keep drawing them but my pencil kept moving and they kept showing up on my paper! #Especially Gaster but the other two plenty as well #Got to employ a bit of my favourite coloured pencil ♪ I Will find a way to use my blue on nearly anything #Luckily for me they come prepackaged with blue magic so that was easy enough #Wiggly baby Papyrus does Not want to go >:( At least he's not being hurt :( #Some smoking Gaster ♪ I still quite enjoy drawing smoke honestly - fun to get to do so with a character who actually smokes haha #You can see I also added swoopy-swoops to his Lost Soul head - I like it much better for being such a small detail #I think it looks weird in black rather than white but against a white background- #Without them he feels....hmm something. Something old that I don't want #Not like the Classic Lost Soul head tho haha - similar but not quite the same! #I love his design ahh ♪ He's really so pretty but so much of that is in his details! Like the way he wears his clothes or holds his body #I'm always a sucker for that style of turtleneck as well haha ♫ #Perhaps his turtleneck keeps the smoke in chest from escaping longer :0 Yet another reason to wear them! #Shot of the little family before things went Completely terrible - before the plates and all that #I'm rather pleased with his hand pose there actually :) Keep an eye on your kids Gaster you've only got the one eye to do so! #And then some silly ones lol - I am desperately curious if animated skeletons would have a hyoid bone #It's not as though hyoid bones are specific to humans! They're just A Type Of Bone! Surely skeletons would have All their bones right? #But in the human skeleton it's not resting against another bone it's just floating there tethered by muscle and sinew #Would it float? Would it rest inside the lower jaw? Would it attach to the neck vertebrae?? #It'd probably get caught on his turtleneck a lot easier than like - getting it caught on his neck bones for example #They have a kind of fused canine-teeth-like structure as well they're like a weird set of tongue-teeth lol #It's just fun to imagine ♪ Similar to how the rest of the skeletal body like - magnetizes? to itself :)

[bakudekublogblog]

god thinking about katsuki murmuring "gotta win... right izuku?" right before charging right into his death is so so so fucking batshit insane of a thing to include. like he's yearning for him. like not only is he speaking as if izuku is still at his side, but he still remembers what izuku said to him all those months ago and is fighting to live up to the version of himself izuku admired. and then he goes "tell me.... izuku.... can i still reach you" CAN I STILL REACH YOU LITERALLY LONGING FOR HIM, TELL ME, ONE LAST THING BEFORE I GO, JUST TELL ME IF I CAN REACH YOU FUCKING I'M LOSING MY MIND OVER HERE IT'S PEAK PINING TRAGIC ROMANCE

#bkdk #bakudeku #i'm literally going insane thinking about just how hard katsuki was yearning for him #all of this happening knowing he's probably going to die specifically to hurt izuku #the word choice the TELL ME #IZUKU ONE THING SPEAK TO ME ONCE MORE JUST TELL ME #CAN I REACH YOU #RRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAA #CAN I STAND BY YOU CAN I BE BY YOURSIDE AM I WORTHY AM I STRONG ENOUGH #the fucking YEARNING IS GOING CRAZY AND THIS IS WHAT HE THINKS ABOUT WHEN HE DIES #when izuku thinks he's gonna die to muscle man in s3 he's like “sorry mom” #katsuki is just full god i wish i could be at your side izuku i want to speak to you one last time i want the silly trading card we got #signed #hori i swear to god if you dont let these boys hug each other after all this tragic gay pining i'm gonna scream

[cupophrogs]

1. Dog day…why did you say when you saw your husbands picture “ he’s alive????” Did you think he was dead.

"The passage of time is worthless when you there's nothing you can count on, except pain. So I always assumed my past life, and everything in it, was already gone. Hope is a very fickle thing, down here."

(Based on this song)

#my neck hurts #I was originally going to turn this into a full animation - buut halfway through I'm like “fuck that actually” #relining the double frames was time consuming enough LMAO #I'm still pretty happy with how it turned out though! #Also if you're not really a fan of choral music I BEG of you to chekc out these composers: #Daniel Elder #Jake Runestad #randal stroope #and Moses Hogan #Some of my favorite composers of all fucking time #like holy shit #im such a choral nerd lmao #ask the three d's #the three d's #dogday #dogday poppy playtime #featured: kissy missy #featured: poppy #Charles poppy playtime #Drew drives a station wagon #he got his friend to paint little designs on it #phrart #art #also yes that IS a Rich puppet in Charles' lap #bro misses his hubby okay he needs to cope somehow #he's not delusional tho dw #it's just his way of keeping the memory alive since his memory is ass (me too Charles me too)

[uncanny-tranny]

When you're given the needles for injection HRT, you might be given two sizes for needles, or two sets.

A draw-up needle is what you will use to draw up the medicine into your syringe, and often you will use the larger of the needles in order to draw up the medicine if you're given two differently-sized gauged needles. When I first started testosterone, I was given a set of 18G needles and 20G needles, so I would use the 18G to draw up and the 20G to administer the medicine.

Remember that a SMALLER number is a LARGER needle, and a LARGER number is a SMALLER needle. An 18G needle is LARGER than a 20G needle, and so on. If you need clarification about injection, ask whomever is prescribing your medication to clarify which needles are intended for draw-ups and which will be administered into the body.

This might seem pretty arbitrary, but a smaller-gauged needle will feel differently than a larger needle. Now, I inject with a 23G needle, and I barely feel it compared to a 20G, and that can make it so much easier to take your medicine.

I wanted to make this post because I have seen many people have misconceptions about how an injection is supposed to hurt, and part of what can make an injection painful is the needle you are using.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #trans advice #needle tw #needle mention tw #saw somebody say they injected with 18G and it hurts them and i felt sick to my stomach reading that #i used to use 18G to draw up and it looked HUGE to me please 🤢 #and hell i'm the one who LIKES needles well enough. but not when it's like that #hell a 20G needle looks big to me now that i use 23G to administer my T #needles tw #needles mention tw

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I wish I could feel okay with my body. Even just a little bit.

It really feels like a prison...

#dear diary #tw #personal #dysphoria #body dysmorphia #worthless #empty #tired #useless #i want to die #i hate myself #i hate my body #i hate my face #i'm sorry #pain #alone #anxiety #self harm #suicidal #sad #depression #heartbreak #hurt #hopeless #kill me #lost #lonely #broken #numb #not good enough