#I’ve got insurance I’ve got insurance I’ve got insurance

[trans-gothic]

Hey everyone, I’m so sorry to be asking for money again, but things are very tight right now. I quit my abusive retail job (no more constant casual sexual harassment, yay) but it’s hard getting on my feet with my delivery job when so much of the money just has to go immediately back into gas and maintenance on my car. I’ve got a doctor’s appointment next week to continue my HRT, and then the cost of those prescriptions to deal with as well. Haven’t been driving long enough to get that health insurance stipend yet. It’d be great to be able to afford those and not be living quite so day-to-day, yknow?

I’m looking to raise about $400, but literally anything at all helps.

C*shapp: $FJstardust

V*nmo: @Fiona-Stardust

Z*lle: [email protected]

P*ypal: same as above

#donations #please help #please consider donating #help request

[kaiba-cave]

Hello I am once again asking for money if anyone can spare like $10 or $15 bucks so I can get my cat a bag of food and make sure I also don’t starve til my next pay. 😂 You know the gist, if you’d like some fan fiction written in return (or a gif set made, I haven’t done that in a while but I still know how!), let me know.

I am just a o tired of living pay cheque to pay cheque and being poor. :) Like don’t get me wrong I make decent money, but the cost of everything in life makes that “decent” amount feel like nothing. Maybe if I lived somewhere else it would feel decent.

ONE single bag of groceries with a case of pop and an already 50% off bag of toilet paper? $75. Gas is up at 1.72 a litre which is ridiculous. $20 in gas gets me a quarter tank and lasts for a few days, and I hardly ever even go anywhere. Can’t imagine if I lived further from my job and had to drive to work and back every day. Thankfully I work from home and even if I didn’t, the office is a block away.

Like I just got paid LAST NIGHT and do you know how much money I have left after paying SOME bills and taking out what I need for rent? $204, and my car insurance is $193, so. I haven’t even paid the pet insurance or school loan yet but the car insurance is the most important one so I have to make sure I have money for that and the other two will just bounce for now I guess. 🤷‍♀️ I’ll see how long my cat’s food lasts, hopefully she can make it til my next pay.

I’m hoping I’ll still be able to get my tattoo with just money from my next pay but we’ll have to see. I don’t want to cancel because I’ll lose a $100 deposit but if I don’t have the money I don’t have the money.

Gonna try to sell some manga (like anyone wants those), a GameCube I’ve literally never played since I bought it years ago, and some other games I don’t play. But that just depends on if anyone actually buys them. 😒

#text #sigh

[valoale]

Wish me luck today I’ve got a photography gig for the longest time and of course it’s an outdoor location and of course it’s -15 degrees Celsius outside and on top of that I need to drive over 100km and the roads are icy as fuck and I still have the shitty winter tyres I’ve been bitching about for weeks lmao

Let’s see how I’ll survive, running on faith at this point

#it’s not even six am and I’m staring outside like why #and I charged both of my batteries but I’m pretty sure they’ll die in the cold so fast #I really need to buy a battery grip #also I hate hate hate the idea of bringing my gear into those temperatures especially bringing them back in #I’ve got my mini grips for all my lenses and the body I know how to prevent the condensation but it still stresses me out #because that shit is coincidentally the most expensive shit I own #I’ve got insurance I’ve got insurance I’ve got insurance #also I’m manifesting not too horrible traffic this morning (I can always wish) #super great to be overly anxious about everything hours prior #also my pos car better start ffs #German cars aren’t built for this weather #but yeah I’ll give y’all an update if I survive #vee talks #photography

[adashofniallandasprinkleoflunacy]

kid hit my car this morning while I was parking for work and he looked fucking terrified coming up to me despite the fact that he was like 6’3 💀 he kept apologizing and it genuinely seemed like this was the first time something like this had ever happened to him cause he looked 2 seconds away from bursting into tears 😭

luckily it was just some scratches so I told him not to stress about it cause I’m not abt to give him a mental breakdown over something that I could literally paint over and he was like “are you sure?? are you positive??” and I was like “yeah dude it’s not like my rear bumper’s falling off, no worries!!” and he looked like he was abt to drop to his knees from relief he really said “god bless you” 😭😭😭

#he didn’t look more than 18 #when he hit me I looked back and saw him literally gripping the wheel losing his mind #and by that I mean he was literally recreating the jack Chambers car scene IM NOT KIDDING #if I hadn’t been terrified (it was before I got out to Assess The Damage) I would’ve laughed DJFNWJDJJE #I was really like ughhh I don’t wanna have to deal with insurance rn cause I’ve never been in an accident either #and I was already running behind so I’m glad the universe took pity

[61below]

Self employment tip: you HAVE to have solid boundaries. If you don’t, people will walk over you. Money won’t mean much if you’re completely burnt out by never saying no.

#self employment #work tips #labor rights #unfortunately employees do have quite a few protections it is the one perk #me? I’ve got enough pto to take half the year off (and disability insurance if that ever ran out) #but mr.61below? he RARELY takes lunch bc people stop by all the time. but it is also HIS problem for not saying ‘I’ll be back in 20 minutes’ #I literally cannot remember the last time he… no. the last time he took an actual vacation was a long weekend in 2018 😑 #fuck the grind

[tomatoluvr69]

Sitting down to floss and brush my teeth has been lifechanging. On a completely unrelated note how the fuck am I supposed to have this skeleton for several more decades. It’s all over for me lads 😔

#knees hurt. hips hurt. back hurts. wrists hurt. swag #it’s not this bad most of the time but by the end of the day it’s like auuuugh #it really is too bad that I’ve got extreme doctor fears because of the IssuesTM! #and oh yeah I don’t have health insurance LOL… #which I am using as a convenient excuse to avoid going to the doctors LOL #i have some doctor ~traumas~ I think LOL! #im working up to it. it’s glacial. sometime this year maybe? #I went twice as an adult and both times were for health forms for college enrollment #I’ve been to the ER and an urgent care once or twice though so clearly I’m FINE… #this is BAD do not be like me #but it’s only become clear to me in the past year or two that the incidents in my childhood reeeeally affected me #and to have US healthcare be such a profoundly difficult and punitive process basically means I am just never going to like jump through #those hoops only to be confronted with a severe phobia lol #im not saying that’s a reasonable train of thought but it’s more that that’s my subconscious reasoning #but it is a 2024 goal to get seen by a doctor #but the other thing is that it’s so fucking clear to me that they will do NOTHING for either PMDD or my joint pain which are my chief #complaints at the moment #but like i should probably be like getting routine panels and Pap smears :-( #everything’s SO EXPENSIVE… #They’ll be like give me your blood. ok all normal everything is healthy. ok that’ll be literally $200 #:-( #ugh I’m upsetting myself just thinking about doctors. ok Goodnight #(with full intention to keep scrolling)

[mimbotomy]

I'm sorry to hear that planning has been stressful, but best wishes this Saturday!!! I'm so excited for you and your wedding and your marriage and wish you every happiness 💕.

Thank you! I am very excited too! Mostly because I get to marry the love of my life 🩷🩷🩷 but also because there are only four days left and judging from my track record this last month that means I will probably have to deal with🤞🏼only🤞🏼four more things going wrong! 🎉 And then I’ll be married to my favorite person and the stress will probably be gone! ✨

(Please send good vibes my way it’s been a very weird hectic month 😂)

#if anyone’s interested in all the stuff that’s gone wrong #I’ve had to deal with my venue #my caterer #and my photographer all cancelling last minute #I still might not have a photographer bc I need the venue to sign off on his insurance and he still hasn’t sent it #my fiance asked me to wear a Pakistani dress and the one I ordered came late and was terrible #like who uses BLUE MARKER to mark out where the embroidery is going on PAPER THIN WHITE SILK???? #I got a new dress tho and the tailor should be done by Friday morning #our guest list just keeps growing bc his family doesn’t seem to understand the idea of an RSVP #my fiancé’s family also doesn’t seem to like the idea of specifics 😬 #or understand that we are trying to keep things small #aka his mom invited five more people last week and told me about them today after I already submitted a final guest count #communication has just kinda been terrible all around tbh #my phone keeps trying to commit suicide #we were informed of a serious allergy like two days ago #so now the menu has to change and our caterer is super unhappy about that #my fiance asked me yesterday if I was wearing a veil and then asked me to wear one so now I have to find a veil #I realized on Sunday that I never actually asked my cousins to be my bridesmaids #which isn’t so bad since no bridesmaid dresses but it was embarrassing #and my anxiety caught up with me yesterday and I spent the night stress puking! #it’s been great 👍🏼 #but I’m going to marry the love of my life on Saturday and that’s what matters #even tho it kinda feels like the universe is trying to tell me otherwise

[notjanine]

i put in my notice at my one job i don’t like, i big chopped my hair, i put in for two weekdays off at the beginning of april, and my schedule is predictable and consistent enough for me to start having a regular sleep schedule for the first time in *checks watch* almost three years. i’m gonna be okay.

#AND the one hospital i’m gonna keep working at JUST got their computer systems back up after being completely offline for almost two months #so i can finally enjoy that one again! #but anyway i’m soooo glad i finally cut my hair again #bc we saw love lies bleeding last weekend (‘i should cut my hair and start working out again’) #and then watched game night a couple days later (‘yeah short hair would be cute with my leather jacket’) #anyway v excited to finally start taking care of myself lollllll #oh also benefits are on track to kick in at my main job so countdown to health insurance babey!!!!! #i’ve needed to up the dosage on my meds for three years!

[yellobb]

American “healthcare” can go fuck itself please and thank you

#m rambles #politics #I went to an urgent care because my cough had lasted over three weeks #I was there for less than an hour #I have good fucking health insurance #I left with a paper that said my bill was $0 #which I guess was just what I owed that day #because I just got notified that I owe over $200 #called them to make sure my insurance was applied and it was #the original visit cost was almost A THOUSAND #fuck this dude #I’ve learned not to go back to urgent care unless I’m literally dying because Christ that’s ridiculous #and I know it’s common knowledge that American healthcare sucks ass #but I was still really taken aback by this #like????? #what the hell are people supposed to do if they DONT have insurance? #if even me with my nice $65/mo healthcare plan has to think twice about going to the doctor #universal healthcare is a human right and fuck anyone who thinks otherwise

[polyamoryprincess]

fuck it’s 3am and I can’t get my wheezing under control and I’m tempted to use my nebulizer but it’s loud af 🙃 I’m tempted to wait until my mom leaves for work but that’s in like 3 and a half hours

#We’ve also got so many dishes and I gotta do at least some of it 😭 #I’ve literally been wearing a mask to sleep hoping to reduce how much dust and hair I’m breathing in #But I didn’t hydrate well enough today and my nebulizer session today felt like it was wearing off quicker than usual #I really need to see someone… #We’re working on getting me disability so I can be on my mom’s insurance #Covid has genuinely ruined my life even before I caught it earlier this year #And now it’s seemingly destroyed my lungs #I had agoraphobia like 2 years before Covid and I started getting it under control in early 2020 #Now I have agoraphobia because im terrified of unnecessarily risking illness #That was before my lungs got so fucked up now I’m scared a second infection will actually kill me #I keep thinking of how much I let my guard down at that small NYE party/wedding party at my cousin’s house why did I not keep my mask on? #The pressure of social a situation that I felt wrong footed in might literally kill me great 🙃 #What’s so fucked up is the fiancée literally was going to have heart surgery soon and I have no clue if he got Covid #I’m convinced I got it from the bride’s relative who I literally had never met before #But who I felt socially pressured to hug for NY I just hate it I feel so stupid

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early. #and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed. #went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done. #I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding) #actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so… #I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired. #I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die. #is this relatable? #just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda. #gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

[hagravenholm]

Lmao beautiful

#now I’m sick. after that last week of hell. and today . totally brutal oh my god #my tonsils are swollen my head is fucking killing me and I either have a fever or I’ve just been working out in the rain and 45 degree #weather all day today and tomorrow too #I hate not having health insurance. I wish I could afford to call out tomorrow I feel so bad. #I’m already beyond broke I got like 6$ to last me a week #I just hate my life so much it’s crazy. like legit #how many times did I almost burst out in tears today too many to count and the worst part is that I can’t go to the bathroom and just take #5 or 10 mins god forbid #oh well maybe this is it

[sodacowboy]

I have a very busy week ahead of me. Pray for me.

#psych thing on the 30th #echocardiogram on the 1st #eye exam on the 3rd #🫠 #they’re all necessary and important #but jfc #better to get it over and done with #at least I’ve had eye exams before lmao I know what happens during those #they’re gonna do all their little tests and tell me my eyesight got worse #and they’re not gonna have any glasses that I like that are covered by my insurance!! #you deserve to have disability aids that you like and want to use #(yes shit eyesight is a disability and yes glasses are disability aids) #I absolutely do Not have the money or the constitution to go through with it #but I’m gonna ask them if eye surgery would even be an option for me #like idk if I could ever go through with it bc I’m terrified of things getting too close to my eye #but it’d be nice to know that it /could/ be a possibility #(personally I don’t think eye surgery could be an option for me bc idk I feel like my eyes are too bad??) #(but I also don’t know enough about eye surgery to say)

[danothan]

i keep wondering why my schedule has been so wonky lately as if i didn’t quite literally get into a car crash less than a week ago

#danbles #car accident mention #hello from 5 in the morning #we’re fine everyone’s fine the other person’s insurance is allegedly going to pay for it #but i think it was my first real look at death so i’m still trying to process it #weird guilt feelings for smth that wasn’t even my fault #grief is a weird thing to process i’ve found out! #i’m not used to being angry yet it keeps coming back #it’s very hard for me to care abt things rn #but ik it’s just one of those things i have to ride out. i’ve certainly been thru worse #and the fact that i can confide in my interests is a good sign that i still care at all. and i will care again #i’m rly lucky that i’ve had my sibling to talk to abt this but that’s also bc they were there #and got it worse than me! nothing hospitalizing thank god but we’re still healing #anyway i don’t need sympathy. talking abt this with anyone other than my sib has been rly irritating (is currently in an irritable state) #but i think i just wanted to let ppl know that i’m going thru smth. idk how that helps but it does #i think i just cant reconcile with the idea that i couldve lost someone i care deeply abt and everyone else is just moving on #ah fuck that’s what it is. im angry abt how insignificant a lifechanging event actually is #i don’t want anyone to care but i do think i need someone to know that it’s not normal rn #like i just need to throw it out there into the void that smth Has happened #and then i can go back to a new normal #alright it’s 5:30am now i think i should go to bed fr #also this got rly heavy but i dont wanna freak my friends out. like i’m okay and i’ll be okay #each day has gotten easier so far #and it doesn’t mean i’ve been pretending to be happy #it’s a rly weird duality idk how to explain #like apprently i was laughing a lot during the actual crash! emotions are weird man idk! #christ it’s almost 6 now OKAY GN FR peace and love everyone #normal is right around the corner 👍

[lexalovesbooks]

Wait something weird appears to be happening in tags hang on. Testing.

#i’ve grown the world’s heaviest cucumber – it weighs 30lbs and is so big because of my secret formula #i bought a car on facebook marketplace but now i’ve been left £4 #i scooped $30million lotto jackpot but won’t stop playing – i’ve got long list of purchases i’m going to blow cash on #i’ve been kicked out of my home despite being promised it would be mine – now i’m facing massive bill after court battle #i shot to fame on my big fat gypsy wedding & made £10k a time as page 3 girl – but i’ve quit it for a very normal job #apollonia llewellyn risks instagram ban flashing bum on bed as fans say ‘you’re the most beautiful woman i’ve ever seen’ #i bought an ev and regret it – i’ve lost so much money… the price of my motor is falling and no one wants to insure it #okay. test over. where the fuck are these tags coming from??? #i typed in ‘i’ve’ and all of these just. came up #it doesn’t appear to be happening with any other words that i’m testing. wtf #they look like they’re weird clickbaity article titles????

[mossflower]

oooh you wanna give me uni offers so bad

#@ edinburgh and durham. they’re taking so long and i’m very impatient #they’re also my two top choices so it’s doubly annoying #i’ve got an offer from hull which i think i’m going to put as my insurance? i really liked the uni and the grades i’d need are way lower #sorry. i’m stressing for no reason it’s just that kinda day #morganposting