#I’m sorry I just love this man so much

[pachimation]

this man is just doing his best to keep it together rn

#genshin impact #my art #kaveh #i Want to grind and gnahs kaveh between my teeth i love him so much #congrats to kaveh for being the most beautiful man in teyvat actually #(i swear if i get baizhu before him i will sob and cry and curl up into a little ball. that is a Threat) #also so sorry for disappearing for like a month *jazz hands* finals #i love my major i just hate how fucked the group project system we have goin on is #i’m gonna be buried in that fucking studio at this rate

[miss-allsundays]

the thing is, blitzø isn’t in denial about his own feelings; he is in denial about stolas’.

blitzø knows he cares about the prince, he knows that it isn’t just about the grimoire for him anymore, but he’s convinced that his love is completely unrequited, because who in their right mind would like a bastard like him?

not only is stolas leagues above him in terms of social status, but in blitzø’s eyes, he also has nothing of value to add to the table as a person. he’s nothing but an asshole who has ruined lives, who doesn’t know how to build functioning relationships without fucking everything up one way or another. the only meaningful connection he has is with his daughter, and even then she had no other option, he adopted her.

whenever he sees a real, romantic bond, he instantly jumps to the sexual aspect of it- he’s seemingly weirdly interested in moxxie and millie’s relationship, especially when it comes to their bedroom life, and when he finds out that what fizz and ozzie have is genuine, he starts cracking vulgar jokes right away.

this is probably because sex is the most familiar aspect of it all for him, something even himself can obtain; which is why he sticks to that when it comes to stolas. he wants to keep their deal strictly sexual, because that makes it easy to manage. no strings attached means he won’t get hurt, and even worse, he won’t hurt the other person.

so when their dynamic starts to shift, even if to a minuscule amount, he panics and tries to forcefully stop that from happening.

we see it happening firstly during the harvest moon festival, when he stumbles through his own words in an attempt to correct striker, and then during ozzie’s, when he berates stolas at the end of the night, and then finally during OOPS, as he rants to fizz about how the owl doesn’t like him at all. nuh uh. no way in hell.

(you tell yourself that blitzø, we all think.)

#helluva boss #blitzø #sorry i’m writing a blitz-centric stolitz oneshot #so he’s been occupying my mind a little too much #i love him so much man this fucking guy means so much to me #bringing the term apologist back just for him #stolitz

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: death mention / family death mention / ]

Mhmm I sure love thinking of the reality where we did get more time to really know Karai and her dynamics with the bros. Losing her hit hard in the finale, but it would’ve hit much, much harder had we known Karai longer and really saw her relationships develop with everyone.

I especially would have been interested in her dynamic with Leo, as past iterations often have the two of them clash in ideals and the like while still sharing many characteristics. Two sides of the same coin, and all that. Her specifically being the bros’ Gram-Gram also adds a whole new dynamic as well.

Imagine how interesting it would be, to have Karai start off on Leo’s side for once, showing wholly just how alike the two are at their cores and bonding as family without the worry of betrayal or animosity that other iterations suffer through, only to have Karai die anyway. Their parting hug and the desperate look of horror Leo wears later on would have hit that much harder, I feel.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rise karai #rise leo #rottmnt karai #rottmnt leo #I think a lot about these two in particular #and how that dynamic could have flourished #the way it was depicted in the finale is so purposefully unique and painful like #that hug man #can you imagine how much more heartbreaking that would have been if we knew her longer #not that it wasn’t already sad but we just simply didn’t know her long enough to be completely attached #also imo having more episodes with her and in general would have presented something I’ve been thinking about since the finale #so like - I like to think each bro kinda immediately leans more toward certain family members #Mikey has Draxum #Donnie has April #Raph has Splinter because this is another one that would be SO GOOD and make the finale moment where Raph sees his memories hit harder #if they had an ep or two more of Splinter and Raph together bc I really do feel like Raph respects Splinter most of the four #and finally- Leo has Karai #and then he loses her #imo? this would align with the movie even more #because it was the act of heroism that kinda killed her in a way - makes sense that Leo would initially be leaning away from that #and yet he ends up exactly like her anyway #haha sorry for rambling I just really love the interesting dynamic these two tend to have #and it’s a shame we didn’t get to see it really explored in rise #but yeah make no mistake while I’m focusing on Leo here I wanted more for all the boys and karai #Mikey’s little moments with her were so sweet and we already know how much he yearns for more family #Karai being from an age long gone would mean she’d be super impressed by literally any invention Donnie has (adult validation!!) #and could you imagine her training with Raph - with this training being referenced in the finale?

[boyloser6526384]

just seen brandon duhaime’s reaction to his tribute video that mw did for him, and i think whats making me the most sad about the trading thing is that brandon and connor dewar are best friends, they loved playing together and they made each other better and then they both get traded to two different teams

and brandon very obviously is Not happy with his new team and he’s not connecting with them and he misses minnasota and hes fucking sad and then connor Is happy with his new team and he’s connected with them and he loves toronto and he loves the leafs and he’s doing so good and it’s just so sad

because brandon and connor were once So close, their souls weaved together and their lives intertwined for so long and they were on this level with each other where they didn’t even need to verbally communicate and now they are so far apart from each other.

one is in colorado and the other is in toronto and they no longer are on the same wave length because they Can’t be and brandon just seems so lost while connor is doing so well and it’s just so upsetting to see two people, friends, who worked so good together and leaned on each other to be better just be so far apart now, in two different places, where one doesn’t need to lean on the other anymore while the other is still struggling

#idk it just makes me so sad man #doomed by the narrative if you will #this sounds so stupid and corny i’m sorry that video just made me rly upset #the nhl is evil #brandon duhaime i love you so much you’re doing your best #minnesota wild #brandon duhaime #colorado avalanche #dewey 1 #connor dewar #toronto maple leafs #dewey 2 #bd x cd #hockeyposting #nhl #hockey #wild lb #avs lb #leafs lb #leafsblr #wildblr

[whereismyhat5678]

I haven’t drawn Fake Peppino in AGES

For any Fake Peppino lovers out there that I’ve disappointed I’m so sorry- 💀🙇‍♀️

And for anyone WHO HASN’T EVER SEEN me actually draw him I’M EVEN MORE SORRY 🙏🙇‍♀️🙏🙇‍♀️🙏🙇‍♀️

Now I personally don’t want newer viewers seeing my cringe ass Fake pep art but if anyone who does wanna see it- (HEADS UP FOR INTENSE BODY HORROR-) take these few links (I’m sorry I can’t scroll through my entire blog again just take some examples- 🥲):

Here, here, here, here and here.

The first one is my first ever drawing of him, I did not draw him normal- 💀

Anyways….this means have I changed how I draw him? Yes!

Look at the silly goober!! I may draw him just like this for now however…It was fun drawing him like the slimy disaster he was but it’s fine-…It always took a bit of time to draw those 🤷‍♀️

But just for the fun of it, and for old times sake, take a body horror Fake Peppino: (Warning, it looks kinda bad- 💀)

#Pizza Tower #I need to draw more Fake Peppino now. No excuses #Although I will admit I like drawing him more of a menace to society more than a fluffy soft glob of kindness- I’m sorry 🙏 #I just really like seeing the limits I could do with this guy #He’s so SPOOKY there’s like so much potential you can do with him!!! #It’s also why I love when I see people make him genuinely fucking terrifying- Don’t get me wrong I LOVE sweet Fakey but MAN….I love him as #being horrific….It’s just SO GOOD 😫😫💥💥 #The only thing is I want to draw him but at the same time don’t got any ideas 😅 Might have to dig something up- #I had a blast drawing him I remember that- Like legit I thought I made him so cool- #Fake Peppino #Art #Body Horror

[threeawfulfruits]

My brain, stirring all my interests around like peeps in a chili pot:

#sorry I just thought about wan shi tong and his extendable neck and my brain went HOOTY! #also I’m dying bc I still have not emotionally recovered from King’s Tide holy FUCK #and I know that since Thanks to Them is going to be so much WORSE I’m not ANYWHERE near ready for that shit #so my brain is rotating around in hyperfixation hell like a rotisserie pig currently #can’t engage with fandom bc I want to avoid any MORE spoilers #but I know I also have to watch it before the next ep drops so I can actually be caught up for a few days hueeeghhh #and briefly engage with fandom and fics and shit bc OHH MAN DO I WANT TO #also I unabashedly LOVE Hooty y’all #maybe it’s just bc Lilith and I are so similar but #he’s the funniest character in the show and so so sweet and loveable - theyre so mean to him and for what? #it’s hooty appreciation hours #atla #toh #peeps in the chili pot #hooty the owl #wan shi tong #avatar the last airbender #the library #the owl house #edits by me

[aboutmercy]

thinking about how dongsik and joowon are the inverse of each other. thinking about joowon's journey realizing that blood is not thicker than water, ties can be severed from abusive family members (no matter how painful that is) and that among many things, his father's cruelty is what took away and destroyed dongsik's family who actually were a positive force in his life. many things about beyond evil appeal to me, but i mainly want to put a pin on the central themes of the show, particularly the failures of adults and parental figures, how that ripples through the lives of their successors in an especially vicious and self-destructive manner. this is a commonality found between multiple characters in the show (minjeong, joowon and jeongje) - but i want to put emphasis on joowon's struggle with this because his path to freedom was walked to completion, in comparison to minjeong whose life was cut short and jeongje who we part with carrying the painful knowledge that he may never achieve absolution, as his journey has only begun.

the show, technically starts at the beginning of joowon's journey/arc. unfamiliarity and discomfort force him to adapt and self-reflect, because the only way joowon was able to free himself was by breaking every rule his father set for him, going beyond his selfish confines and breaking down the walls he built. joowon is unable to get his physical body dirty, he is emotionally closed-off and is incapable of understanding why the people in manyang, particularly dongsik, would look out for anyone other than themselves. he is selfish, rigid, guilt-ridden and bashful; but it is exposure to dongsik's unwavering faith in and patience for others (for jeongje, for sangbae, for the people of manyang that have wronged him for years) that erode his harsh edges. dongsik, although not without flaws and contrary to what his outer appearance and manner of speech radiate, is kind and forgiving. that kindess, that forgiveness, as well as joowon's own guilt and shame is essential to getting him to a point where he is comfortable bloodying his hands, his clothes, and his face to protect dongsik (+ jihwa and her partner. to protect his friends).

dongsik recognizes joowon's pain too ("i know what it's like to be blamed for something you didn't do"). he sees his guilt, it's not inordinate to what joowon's done per se but a large portion of it brings so much shame to joowon ("please, stop doing unnecessary things out of guilt.") how could i have been so self-righteous when the man who bore me is responsible for so much misery? how do i rectify this, how do i absolve myself from the guilt? all dilemmas joowon grapples with, and dongsik, knowing pain and shame all too well does not grant joowon mercy when he is bowed down, forehead to cuffed hands while joowon's own are also cupping dongsik's, begging for it. mercy is letting joowon go, it's lifting the burden of responsibility off his shoulders - but instead, dongsik’s final request ensures that joowon truly atones ("i ask you to arrest me" - "no, how could i do that? i have no right") by informing him that the only way to live with guilt is to try and do right by the people who expect something from him. "joowon-ah", dongsik says as he softly picks up joowon's clenched fist, the look they share informs joowon that going through with the arrest is how he'll do dongsik right. it's what dongsik, his now friend, expects from him. that's what their final scene as partners is all about, in my opinion.

and something good does come out of dongsik's firm but tender confrontation. joowon gradually becomes a better person who seeks community and whose life, in return, is enriched by the friends that forming community gave him. dongsik and joowon's parting is bittersweet, but in letting joowon know that his actions matter to others and that he is wanted and expected by others - (jihwa, as part of the larger collective whose feelings towards joowon are influenced by dongsik's, texts him and checks in - that expectation to show up and empathy for when he does not respond is an invitation letting him know that there is a place for him if he chooses to occupy any) - dongsik sets him free.

#god im sorry i dont meta on here often but i physically needed to let all of this out. #user aboutmercy is obsessed with the thematic idea of granting and denying mercy? oh im SURE #also. joowon was such an ass in the beginning lmao i love him so much...... #if dongsik was any less crazy and any less generally patient and kind as a character trait then it would've been so over for joowon #the contrasts i've noted between jwds are abusive home/loving family - kind/really mean - confident/insecure.. #i'll perhaps find more on a rewatch. but it's so interesting how different they are yet so fundamentally broken #that they couldnt have resisted being drawn to each other. #ds to jw: 'the depressed and obsessive man in me sees the depressed and obsessive man in you' #beyond evil #lee dongsik #han joowon #jwds #also. sorry if this is bullshit i’m just……. filled with agonies. bc i love han joowon #jtbc beyond evil

[zeb-z]

missa, after his self resentment and lamenting about how he doesn’t feel worthy or like he should be accepted, after telling himself and the capybaras that he doesn’t have a home, not really - after all is said and done, he returns to phil & missa, leaving his mini mi in the house on the wall. as if he’d consider anywhere other than the house he shared with phil safe enough. seeking out safety and home brought him right back where he started.

something about how despite his internal conflicts and issues about what he thinks he deserves, he’ll still come back. and for all he worries that he is not enough to be loved in return, his name is still on the warp stone.

#he’s got issues out the ass of his self worth and it’s like. yeah shit man you haven’t been reliable but you’re not unloveable #he wants to be better and he tries and he cares the issue is he holds the rest of his family on such a pedestal #this shame and guilt bubbles up and is only made worse when he isn’t rejected or hated like he’s expecting. he’s taken back with open arms #so he follows phil for guidance as to what’s acceptable. without phil there how can he know if it’s ok for him to stay in their home? #as if he didn’t also build their home yknow #but even when all is said and done he returns. even if it makes him feel guilty even if he thinks he doesn’t deserve it #because as much as he doesn’t want to be a bother he wants to be better most of all. wants to be present #I just don’t think he ever expects to be wanted to keep around. like he wants to prove himself and he’s expecting his loved ones to reject #any sort of redemption. meanwhile they don’t see the need for a redemption in the first place #shaking missa you wet cat of a man you dense self sabatoging silly silly man #stop your hero worship. own up and show up. and let your family love you because my god you are so loved #sorry tags got away from me it’s like 5 am and I’m like ahfhhrhfhshfhhs #mcyt #qsmp #q!missa #missasinfonia #z speaks

[theresistanceneverquits]

Me talking to a classmate I discovered loves Final Fantasy: I’m really disappointed Cloud didn’t beat the crap out of Aerith

Classmate: …Do you not like Aerith?

Me: I do! I just wanted them to keep the integrity of the original game

#final fantasy vii #ffvii rebirth #final fantasy vii rebirth #ffvii #cloud strife #aerith gainsborough #I know they took this issue and applied it to Tifa #and I LOVED that scene #but idk #it hit way different to realize Cloud was pummeling Aerith with his bare hands #THATS how we knew how much of a control on Cloud Sephiroth had #also they sorta had the whispers wanting Cloud to attempt to stab Aerith #but man #I really love the dynamic in the og of Cloud going to stab her and then pulling himself out of it #before Sephiroth rains down #but the remake is playing with things so well that in the end I’m cool with the changes #if anything I’m just sorry for the new people who won’t get that original version #to see the drama of what exactly has been changed

[titsthedamnseason]

okay my darlings, you know what time it is…..SURPRISE SONG GAME TIME!!! except this time it’s extra super duper special because this post is actually queued because today is MY SHOW 🤭🫶 aka it’s atlanta n3 therefore i am BEGGING you to manifest the absolute best of your best picks and leave them in the tags or replies for me to see later and then give you an internet smooch if you win 💗 HAPPY GUESSING

i’m going to guess my absolute dream combo of hey stephen and dorothea

#ps i would love if a lot of people played tongiht 🥺 so since i cant be obnoxious about reblogs if anyone wants to give it an extra rb or two #i will love you FOREVER #just so people don’t forget about it and keep playing through the night #THANK YOU LOVES ❤️ #seriously i’ll be happy no matter what but send me good vibes please and thank you #but it’s okay if you don’t because i too am i bitter wench that wishes terrible songs upon everyone else so taylor saves the best for me. #so i’ll forgive bad guesses. BUT NOT CHANGE. PLEASE JUST DONT MANIFEST CHANGE OR IFTYE #honorable mentions for hits different rwylm yoyok hoax happiness evermore hygtg ikp iwyw cornelia street #better man too #renegade in my biggest moments of clownery #THE STORY OF US #IDK I LOVE EVERYTHING #i’ll probably be posting my list of top picks before this posts anyway #okay i’ve talked too much sorry i’m going crazy rn because it’s so soon #mine #surprise song game #taylor swift #it’s a good thing i don’t believe in self sabotage or jinxing or anything like that bc historically i am a TERRIBLE guesser lmao #my eras show

[rustyreveries]

today was the last day to be able to turn in a bunch of my work & i just paced around my room while listening to really loud music and daydreamed about salad fingers all day instead. it’s so over

#i miss my husband (he doesn’t exist) #i wanna draw him so bad but i have so much work to do.... aghh #so just. take this stupid ass thing i made in 2 minutes #salad fingers #godddd i love sal. none of you understand. idgaf what you say no one knows him like i do Sorry . #our souls are like.... intertwined.... (i sound so delusional right now) #what i’m trying to say is he’s been my man for several years now and he drives me crazy /pos #anyway fuck maladaptive daydreaming!!!! i hate it. kill it with hammers #i'm so eepy 😔😔 goodnight #i'm going to be super embarrassed abt what i said here in the tags when i wake up so be niceys to me

[watmalik]

I dreamt about a nursing student/nurse Wilson x Dr House AU, so I needed for it to become real (in a way) 😭

#I need a life I know #nurse Wilson x doctor house anyone? #Hilson #House Md #I officially started s4 and I’m dying bc of all the subtext #I came in shipping cuddy and house but oooooh boy how the turntables #anyways #Gregory House #James Evan Wilson I love you #you adorable diabolical man #greg house #you sir #are my spirit animal #myart #fanart friday #I’m sorry for the so much of a height diff but I just see Wilson as this adorable little shit #whilst house is big bad wolf your mum warns u about #I have a headcanon for this somewhere #old men yaoi we love them #if someone write this I will die happy #hate crimes md #house x Wilson

[mirandimoo]

once again thinking about how aki’s character is one of, if not the most tragic character i have come across in any media i have ever consumed in my life.

like guys you don’t understand, i’m not saying this from a ‘csm stan’ pov or anything i’m saying it from a literary standpoint AND as a media production major like yes objectively speaking he is the most tragic of tragic characters i have ever come across in any story. like from his childhood to his adult life it was all hell and trauma and after spending his whole life with nothing to dedicate himself to other than revenge, he finally found something worth protecting in denji and power so much so that the thing he spent his whole life chasing after suddenly didn’t matter because he had a little family now and that was enough for him. going through all of this only to then become the very thing you feared the worst and to be taken out by the hands of the person you cared for the most in the world. afterwards there’s no one to properly mourn you, aside from the one who took your life. everyone else is gone and the guy you cared so deeply for that you were willing to give up your life’s mission to protect has to now navigate the world with your blood on his hands, forever stained by the regret of not only killing you, but never even getting to say a proper goodbye. he’s had so much thrown onto him now that he doesn’t have time to properly grieve you and power. but no, for him your death is even worse than hers in retrospect. because there’s still a small glimmer of hope, no matter how faint, that some day she’ll come back. and that hope is so important to hold on tightly to, it’s enough of a reason to keep moving forward, to keep living. but you… oh you. for you there is no coming back. no second chances, no glimmer of hope for a happy ending. just pain. just death, anger, and so much pain. so instead of grieving properly and moving on, he’ll forever be stuck in this limbo of self hate, grief, and guilt that’ll end up with him just hurting himself physically and mentally over and over and over again. sort of how you acted in your own life... it’s kind of ironic is it not? that even in death all you do is hurt those you love, and not only fail to protect them, but deal them a fate even worse by actively being the reason they hurt. a fate worse than death it seems. and although when told it, you didn’t want to believe it, you honestly did die in the worst possible way imaginable.

#sorry this analysis is great or too in depth #i’m just tired and thinking about aki again #like i love csm with a passion #but this isn’t me blindly hyping it up cause i’m a stan or something #i’m not even sure if i AM a stan #regardless i just have so many thought about aki #not to mention too that it’s implied that he cared for them #and loved them much more deeply than either of them did for him #but i won’t get into that cause i know loads of people have STRONG opinions on that #but evidence wise it adds up but alas #we’ll save that for another day wheb i’m less tired #and more capable of articulation #chainsaw man #denji #power #aki hayakawa #hayakawa family #csm #power csm #denjichainsawman #if you guys want a more in depth analysis #cause that’s what i do best #let me know and i’ll deffo make one #i just love aki so much

[sempersirens]

ok but what if the outbreak hadn’t happened. sarah gets to grow up and start a family of her own. joel doesn’t resent his aging body every waking moment, but sarah and her kids giggle each time he groans while sinking into his favourite armchair. his grandchildren affectionally call him grumpy or grumps instead of grandpa. the only blood on his hands comes from grazed knees. he doesn’t resist the greying of his hair or the aching of his muscles, and the creases that decorate his face are proof of having loved and being loved. he ages gratuitously, and when his time comes, he is surrounded by the people who loved him so ferociously that his memory lives on not just in their words but the lines his love carved into the corners of their eyes.

#dee laments #joel tlou #i’m sorry #i just love this man so much

[mysteriosuke]

if you told a few hours ago me that sephiroth ffvii was going to leave me a sobbing, broken mess for an hour, honestly more—something a game let alone a game character has not done to me in over 5 years, i would not fucking believe you.

and yet here we are. i didn’t think it was going to hit that fucking close to home. oh my god. im so glad i found this out through willing spoilers instead of playing it myself. it would have destroyed me.

#i fucking miss my mom man #i miss her a lot #i wish i knew her as my mom not as my friend #i loved her so much and she’ll never get to know that and it’s all my adoptive parents’ fault #renegade vents #ever crisis spoilers #ffvii #final fantasy 7 #sephiroth #i cannot comprehend completely the emotions i am experiencing right now #i love this game holy fuck. but oh my god #i never thought media would hit me this hard again #fuck. fuck. #sorry for the tags i’m just thinking out loud again #vent

[itspileofgoodthings]

one of my fave things about teaching is that I’m NOT a counselor and I don’t have to get into the weeds with a student but also I’m part of their life every day and i see when they’re struggling and I can ask how them how they’re doing and make sure that they know I see them on a steady, daily basis and it will be healing for both of us

#I teach a student who hit a wall a few weeks ago and just refused to go to school and was just all around struggling with his mental health #and this is not a kid who wants to talk to me about it or would even know how and I also know he has people where he can #But I’ve just tried to make sure that There’s a little extra contact and a few more questions and just a little bit more #and obviously I am not the cause of his doing better but overall I know that it helps #while still being such a subtle and ordinary human exchange that doesn’t force either of us to go to extreme lengths #like man I really LOVE that space and living in it #and just being a (hopefully) stable place for the kids to be seen in a small but consistent way #teaching tag #something about holding them in the safety of manners while also modeling what that looks like for them #it’s so gratifying to me and it helps me too! #like yes we should greet each other! We should ask how we’re doing! we should exchange pleasantries #and it’s important to me that that happens without getting personal sometimes or overly involved #pleasantries don’t have to be cold things and you can be seen and validated by a momentary kind glance as much as by someone digging #into your soul #it can be light and life-giving at the same time #it can be fun! #I’m sorry I’m rambling and over-saying this but it’s Saturday #!!!!!!