I point you all to my ko-fi page once more -> link
my parents, enraged that I didn’t sort a massive mound of clothes yesterday (after doing the other chores they asked), essentially decided they are going to start charging me rent.
So this is just in preparation for that moment when they do start asking. I’m still trying to save up to move out. It’s not a huge deal yet (idk how much they’re going to charge) so there’s no pressure to donate.
I work a full time job so I can’t really give much in return. But I can take doodle requests upon proof of donation! I’ll doodle any DCA you want.
Thanks.
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some new tags ?? some new tags !! + affiliate tags :]
. 🕸️ HOW OUT OF HAND IT’S GOTTEN ╱ ooc.
. 🕸️ MY FLESH IS LACED WITH SUGAR AND MAGGOTS ╱ asks.
. 🕸️ YOU SAY YOU MISS ME ( I’M RIGHT HERE ) ╱ starters.
. 🕸️ WITH PINK EYESHADOW AND A SOBBING PRAYER ╱ isms.
. 🕸️ ANYTHING COULD BE HOLY UNDER NEON LIGHTS ╱ visage.
. 🕸️ DO YOU FEEL THE EYES OVER YOUR BODY STILL? ╱ promo.
. 🕸️ TO SWEETLY MELT IN SIN ╱ rp memes.
. 🕸️ I DRINK ; I BURN ; I SHATTER MY OWN DREAMS ╱ open starter.
. 🕸️ YOUR FISH HOOK IN MY MOUTH ╱ crack.
. 🕸️ EATEN IN PIECES ; NOT MEANT TO BE KNOWN WHOLE ╱ ic.
. 🕸️ I BELIEVE YOU LIKE A BEATEN DOG ╱ dash games.
. 🕸️ I WILL NEVER BE FORGIVEN FOR WANTING ╱ affiliates.
. 🕸️ KISS ME WITH MY BLOOD BETWEEN YOUR TEETH ╱ ships.
. 🕸️ TO BE LOOKED AT &. NEVER SEEN ╱ art.
. 🕸️ TOUCHED DOWN TO THE DELICATE BONES ╱ poetry.
. 🕷 | IN NEON LIGHTS ╱ canon &. main verse.
. 🕷 | THE CALL OF THE ANGELS ╱ overlord verse.
. 🕷 | FEATHER BOAS AND GLITTER ╱ 70’s verse. (ft. sirserpentine)
. 🕷 | OVERSEER OF HELL ╱ zestial’s employee verse (ft. zestials)
. 🕷 | GOOD OLD FASHIONED LOVER BOY ╱ human verse.
. 🕷 | LACED WITH BELLADONNA ╱ lost twins verse (ft. spyderdust)
. ♡ DO YOU LIKE THE SHOW ? ARE YOU TIRED OF IT ? ╱ videoaux.
. ♡ THE LAST SHRED OF TRUTH IN THE LOST MYTH OF TRUE LOVE ╱ hellsbroadcaster.
. ♡ I COULD NEVER DEFINE ALL THAT YOU ARE TO ME ╱ r-adio.
. ♡ BUT I’D NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY IT BACK ╱ sirserpentine.
. ♡ I’M PUT TO AWE SOMETHING SO FLAWED AND FREE ╱ dark-ambition.
. ♡ YOUR BEAUTY NEVER EVER SCARED ME ╱ gamblins.
. ♡ THE FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN / THE FACE IN MONOCHROME ╱ zestials.
. ♡ YOU HATE THE APPLAUSE / YOU CRAVE THE ATTENTION ╱ xluciifer.
. ♡ BUT YOU’RE HOLDING ME LIKE WATER IN YOUR HANDS ╱ oriiginis.
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Hazbin Fuck My Life
i adore hazbin hotel, i think it’s amazing, but i can’t help but wonder if i just have low standards or am an absolute dumbass because clearly it has issues that i never spotted until someone brought it up, and even then i thought it was fine(like the pacing for the eps. in general i’m cool with it but i will admit - five months passing in five eps? like are you fucking serious??? that’s insane, what the hell)
and then when i feel smart about deciding that gee, alastor was uncharacteristically crude in ep 5, suddenly i feel like the idiot again because all the comments on videos of him cursing lucifer out are saying how it’s such a good way to show how much lucifer pisses him off. i mean, i saw that too, but it still felt incredibly jarring at the time. and now i’ve conformed to public opinion and i genuinely think it’s fine too. go me. (that or it’s that the shock has worn off and i just think alastor saying “fuck you” is funny)
i fucking hate everything here. i don’t want to be one of viv’s blind stans but i don’t want to be one of her blind haters either, nor do i want to go down the rabbit hole of “what fucked up shit has she done in the past decade” or whatever the hell it is that makes people despise her so much. am i lazy? am i willfully ignorant? or am i making the wise choice to avoid potentially meaningless and petty discourse?
i don’t know why this is so stressful. i don’t know what’s wrong with me
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I’m so sad I won’t be able to watch the Oscars until I’m home from my trip in the third week of March ☠️ the whole world would have seen I’m Just Ken by then and I’ll be left behind 😭😭
And it’s not just “wah im gonna miss a show” bc I don’t rly care about the show itself necessarily. This is my main F/O and I won’t be able to see him but other ppl will. I have felt so disconnected from Ken. I’ve gotten a handful of inbox messages where ppl say “oh i have him call ME his sweet girl now because of your comic” or ppl will tag my ship art with Ken as “oh that’s ME and Ken” and it hurts. I’ve said multiple times I’m not comfortable sharing F/Os but ppl just? Don’t care?? My self insert isn’t somebody for you to project onto, holy shit why is that so hard for some ppl to comprehend
Now when he calls me sweet girl in my fics/drawings I don’t feel anything anymore, I’ve tried making comics and I feel absolutely nothing from him, it doesn’t feel special anymore bc so many people keep self projecting onto my self insert as if she were an “x reader” experience. I’ve felt disconnected from Ken for a couple of weeks now and I’ve been trying so hard to feel good with him again but I can’t. I’m so numb. I don’t want to lose him and the fact that the self shippers who openly project onto my stuff will see him singing live, but I won’t, feels like another major step backwards away from him, if that makes sense. My ship with him doesn’t feel special anymore. I need these characters so badly, I don’t have anybody else if I don’t have my Ryan F/Os and I don’t want to go back to months ago when I had absolutely nothing to hold onto and I was fighting every day just to stay alive. I’ve had special interests completely ripped from me due to abuse and I can’t go back to feeling as bad as I did last year, I had never felt worse and I’m so scared of feeling that way again. I need my F/Os I need Ken and I’m so far away from him now I don’t feel his love for me anymore and it’s terrifying bc last year was the worst year of my entire life and I don’t want to go through my flashbacks and nightmares all by myself, I don’t want to go back to constantly planning my own demise when my trauma was so fresh and I had nothing to comfort me. I jolted awake from more ptsd nightmares today, which has been nearly an everyday ordeal for a year, and I wanted to think of Ken comforting me like I usually do but I didn’t have the heart to do so. I feel so unloved and replaceable the way ppl easily replace my S/I in all of my posts, I don’t believe he’d care for me anymore.
I keep having meltdowns bc the thought of losing F/Os all over again during a time when I’m STILL in such an unsafe situation shakes me up so bad and I don’t know how to solve this problem. I need him with me I need comfort from these characters but I don’t feel connected with them anymore bc I’ve associated them with a dozen other people. At this point I’m not really upset about missing Im Just Ken, im upset about the fact i just feel nothing whatsoever and watching that live could have helped a little but I won’t be able to access it until other people have already seen it, and it won’t feel special anymore. And my ship with him just in general doesn’t feel special anymore, none of them do, and I’m scared and devastated and I don’t know how to fix it
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why do some fevers feel so much worse than others oh my god i am wearing a crewneck sweatshirt (with a shirt underneath) under a hoodie sweatshirt with my winter jacket zipped on top of it and i’m still so cold. having a temperature just makes everything that’s already painful a million times harder while forcing you to shiver violently through the aches
i wish someone would just help me pack (or maybe just pack for me while i lay there and thank you while also apologizing for not helping) and then play with my hair and gently soothe me to sleep…i have those silly ghost chills that you only really get with fevers (the ones that kind of just dance right on top of your skin) or right before you start to run one but at the same time i feel so deeply cold.
i know my face is burning and it feels uncomfortable, but at the same time the chills run all the way up to my cheekbones, and the thought of a cool compress sounds soothing while also sending subconscious full-body shivers through me to match the ones sent by the fever
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